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The Hello! Project Fanfics => H!P Fanfics => Library => Topic started by: CrypticShadow8 on April 27, 2008, 11:50:26 PM
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Hi guys! :) This is my first story and I'm really nervous about posting it. I've read a lot of great story's lately though so I decided to try and write one of my own. This story is very angst filled, almost unnecessarily so. What can I say, I like angst. Please try to bear with me and I hope you enjoy the story.
Koi
Chapter One
Miki walked down the mostly deserted street with a smile on her face. She almost felt like skipping she was so happy but that was way too out of character for her. Miki had just picked up a new DVD and was on her way to see Aya, hence the reason for her happiness. Miki loved spending time with her best friend. Aya was the only person who Miki could act like herself around. Around everyone else Miki had to keep up her act of being the badass that didn’t get affected by anything. But not with Aya. Only Aya know how she really was, that things people did and said really did get to her. Only Aya knew that Miki wasn't nearly as strong as the facade she put on for everyone to see.
I can’t wait to see Aya. Miki thought as she made her way to the bus stop. Lately both Aya and Miki’s schedules had been busy and they hadn’t been able to see each other very much. Aya had called her a couple of days ago and suggested they get together to watch movies and have a sleepover like old times. Miki was more than happy to accept the invitation.
The truth was Miki loved Aya, as in was IN love with her. She knew she didn’t stand a chance though. She had even told Aya how she felt before but Aya had gently informed her that both of them were too busy to try to have relationships. It hurt. Miki had to admit that but she was just glad that it hadn’t affected their friendship. Miki was willing to just be friends with Aya, she was just happy to be around her.
Miki checked her watch and saw that there was still another five minutes until her bus was scheduled to show. Feeling bored and seeing a magazine stand nearby Miki decided to buy one so she could read it to waste the time. She went to the stand and bought the first magazine she saw before going back to sit on the bus stop bench. Flipping the magazine over and staring at the cover Miki could feel her heart break.
Sorry this chapter is so short the next was is longer and hopefully they will continue to get longer.
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oooh nice first chapter :hiakhiakhiak:
is aya in the cover?? :scared: if she is... poor miki
keep writing please ^^
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:w00t: ahhh you have to keep writing!!! we need to know what happen next! :yep:
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I bet...I bet...I bet....
It's Aya and Keita!!
The whole toilet paper shopping thing! :lol:
Can't wait for Ch.2!
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Ok I decided to go ahead and post chapter two so here it is!
Chapter Two
Aya sat on her couch anxiously awaiting Miki’s arrival. Aya was really excited to finally be spending time with Miki again. Miki was really busy lately ever since she had become sub leader of Morning Musume. Aya had been busy also, partially with work but also partially with her boyfriend.
It’s really wrong for you not to tell Miki about Keita. Miki is your best friend. There are no secrets between the two of you. Despite how she felt though Aya couldn’t get the courage to tell Miki about Keita. She knew it would break Miki’s heart because Miki was in love with Aya. Aya already felt bad enough about turning Miki’s love down, she didn’t want to throw Keita in Miki’s face.
Aya heard a key turn in the lock on her door and looked up to see Miki opening the door.
“Hey Miki! Did you get the DVD? I made us some food so we wouldn’t be hu… Miki are you ok? What’s wrong?”
Aya could tell just by looking at Miki that something was the matter with her. Her posture was all wrong and she had her head down. Aya walked over to Miki and put her arm around Miki’s shoulders before leading her to sit beside her on the couch.
“What is it Miki?” Aya questioned softly while pushing Miki’s bangs behind her ears and out of her face.
Miki looked at Aya for a long time and Aya could see the hurt radiating in her eyes. Just when Aya was going to ask Miki again what the problem was Miki slowly raised her arm and showed Aya a magazine that she hadn’t noticed Miki had before. Aya slowly took the FRIDAY magazine out of Miki’s hand and immediately knew what was wrong. Guess I don’t have to tell Miki about Keita after all.
“Tan…”
“Nee, Aya-chan were you even going to tell me?” Miki looked up at Aya with big sad eyes and Aya could feel her heart breaking knowing that she was the one that caused Miki so much pain.
“I was going to Miki I just had to think of the right time. And we haven’t been able to see each other lately cause we’ve both been so busy…”
“I can see how busy you’ve been Ayaya it’s all in the magazine.” Ok I guess I deserved that. Aya thought to herself as she saw the beginnings of sparks flying in Miki’s eyes.
“I’m sorry Miki, it’s just, I like Keita and I knew it was something I had to tell you but I just didn’t know how cause I didn’t want to hurt you.”
“And this didn’t hurt Aya? Me finding out from a freaking gossip magazine article!” Miki stood up and glared down at Aya no longer able to control her anger. She couldn’t believe Aya hadn’t told her. She couldn’t believe Aya had gone out and gotten a boyfriend. Especially after Aya had told her they were too busy to have relationships.
“Mikitan I know I was wrong and I’m sorry.” Aya got up and put her hand on Miki’s shoulder trying to calm her down. “I didn’t mean to hurt you. That was the last thing I would ever want to do. You’re my best friend Miki, there’s no one in my life more important than you. I was wrong Miki, so wrong. I can’t tell you enough how sorry I am. Please forgive me Miki.”
Aya stroked Miki’s cheek and slowly saw the anger begin to leave Miki’s eyes.
“I’m still upset that you didn’t tell me Aya but I forgive you.” Miki knew she could forgive Aya of anything. She could never stay mad at her. Aya just had that sort of power over her.
“Thank you Tan. Come on, why don’t you put the DVD in and I’ll go get the food. There’s no point arguing when we could be having fun instead.”
Aya and Miki went through the night as planned, pretending everything was okay. Both could tell that the atmosphere was a little tense though. They knew everything wasn’t fine. Miki was heartbroken but trying her best not to show it. She guessed Aya had just made up that thing about them being too busy in their careers to let Miki down gently. She just hoped that they could get over the whole Keita problem and that their friendship wouldn’t suffer too much.
Ok so this story isn't going to be very long at all. If my outline is correct there should only be about seven chapters. Hopefully I will be able to finish this story up quickly.
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nice work!!! its like the switcher with this one. having Aya in the Friday magazine instead. looks liek a lot of writers are in the GAM mood lol.
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Here is chapter three of Koi
Chapter Three
“Hey Miki-chan, Aya-chan”
Miki and Aya both turned around to see Rika and Yossie waving at them from across the room. They were in the H!P lobby after work where most the members were hanging around talking.
“Hey Rika!” Aya answered enthusiastically to their friend who had just called them. Miki nodded her greetings, rolling her eyes slightly at all the energy.
“Nee, me and Yocchan were about to go out to dinner and I was wondering if the two of you would like to join us.” Rika seemed genuinely hopeful while Yossie seemed to look on with nonchalance.
“Sorry Rika-chan but Tan and I already have plans for dinner tonight maybe some other time.”
“Oh that’s too bad, yeah maybe another time” Rika then turned and motioned Yossie to follow her out of the building. Yossie gave Miki a quick look over and then followed Rika out the door.
Miki was really glad that her and Aya had plans already and didn’t have to go eat with Rika and Yossie. Lately she had been feeling really uncomfortable being around Yossie. It was of course hard not to be around her with them both being in Morning Musume and Gatas. It just seemed that Yossie always stared at her with a look of hatred mixed with… desire.
Suddenly Miki felt a tug on her hand cutting off her thoughts.
“Come on Tan I’m hungry lets go.” Aya was whining a little and acting childish but Miki thought it was cute. She thought everything Aya did was cute.
“Hai Aya, let’s go.” Just as they made it out the door Aya’s phone began to ring. Miki almost growled; she knew that ringtone. It was the ringtone Aya had for her precious boyfriend Keita.
“Hold on a moment Miki, let me take this.” Aya let go of Miki’s hand and walked a few steps away but Miki could still hear the conversation.
“Hi Keita how are you” I hope he’s doing horrible. Miki was upset that once again Keita had managed to take up the time she was supposed to be spending with Aya.
“What am I doing right now?” Miki’s heart almost stopped. Is Aya about to change our plans?
“Actually I’m about to go to dinner with Miki so I can’t.” Ha ha. Take that Keita she wants to be with me not you.
“I have a great idea why don’t the three of us go to dinner together” No Aya that’s a dumb idea. A really really dumb idea. Even dumber than when Tsunku decided to put me in Morning Musume.
“Ok we’ll meet you there.” Aya turned around and saw Miki staring at her with a blank expression.
“Gomen Miki but Keita really wanted to see me and I thought now would be a good time for the two of you to get to know each other better.” Miki knew she was lost when Aya looked up at her with her cute little puppy dog face asking to be forgiven.
“It’s fine Aya” Miki sighed steeling herself for a night full of Keita. Well at least she didn’t just dump me for him.
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When Miki and Aya arrived at the restaurant Keita was already there to greet them. Miki watched in disgust as Keita went over to Aya and gave her a hug and a kiss on the cheek.
“Nice to see you again Miki how are you doing.” Keita walked over to Miki and held out his hand for her to shake.
“Yeah I’m fine let’s eat.” Miki pushed pass Keita and entered the restaurant leaving a stunned Keita behind. She could faintly hear Aya apologizing and making up some excuse for her behavior. Miki didn’t care though, inside she was dying. Keita had interfered with her Aya time. It wasn’t fair. Keita was allowed to love Aya but Miki couldn’t have one night out with Aya? That didn’t seem right.
The hostess came and sat the three at a private booth in a back room. They ordered and got their drinks but the atmosphere was tense and awkward. Nobody knew what to say first. Finally Keita began talking to Aya about work and the two of them began a conversation as if Miki wasn’t there.
This isn’t right! It should be me and Aya talking and Keita being the third wheel. I don’t like being left out. Ayaya’s mine NOT Keita’s. Miki decided that if no one would invite her into the conversation she would just invite herself.
“So Keita,” Miki started. Both Aya and Keita turned to Miki to see what she had to say. Keita with curiosity and Aya with trepidation, it was no secret to Aya how Miki felt about Keita so she was worried about what she had to say. “I saw your picture in a magazine the other day and I was wondering, do you try to make yourself look like a girl or does that just happen?”
“Miki.” Aya warned Miki with a cold tone of voice.
“Don’t get me wrong you don’t look like a girl all the time but sometimes I wonder exactly what you were thinking when you go to take pictures. Do you think it’s cute? Cause let me tell you right now, it’s not.”
“Miki that’s enough.” This time Aya glared at Miki before turning and once again conversing with Keita. Keita sent Miki a look of loathing before turning to respond to Aya. By now their food had arrived but Miki was feeling all the more miserable.
So they think they can ignore me huh? It is not that easy to stop Fujimoto Miki.
“Anyway Keita” Miki started once again. She could see Aya glaring at her out of the corner of her eye but she ignored her in favor of smirking at the pretty boy across the table. “I was watching a video of your latest concert and did you have a cold or something cause you sounded terrible. I mean man, they should have just let you lip sing cause you gave me a headache with all that screeching.”
“Now listen here…” Keita began to confront Miki but was cut off by Aya.
“Miki come with me now.” With that Aya got up and walked towards the bathroom leaving Miki no choice but to follow her. She knew she was in trouble now because Aya sounded pissed. Apparently Keita knew it too by the way he was smirking at Miki. Miki growled at him before getting up and following Aya into the bathroom.
Thankfully the bathroom was empty. It would have been bad if someone saw Miki being scolded by Aya. Miki looked at Aya and saw that she was furious. Miki tried to put on her best innocent look but by the look on Aya’s face it wasn’t working.
“Fujimoto Miki you have some nerve. Keita has been nothing but nice to you but you are being so childish.” Aya had turned her back to Miki to try to calm herself but she was still fuming. Miki could tell she was in real trouble.
“But Ayaya…” Miki tried but Aya turned around swiftly and got right up to Miki’s face.
“Don’t you Ayaya me. I know you don’t like Keita but he’s my boyfriend. I thought that tonight we could all have a good time but you’re so stupid you can’t do that can you? This is why people don’t like you now Miki because you can’t keep your mouth shut. I’m going out there to enjoy the rest of the night with my boyfriend and either you can join us and not say anything else to him or you can go home, you got me?”
By now Miki was crying but trying not to. She hated it when Aya scolded her. Aya was the only person that could actually make her feel bad. Aya’s rant just then had really hurt Miki’s feelings. She was right though. People didn’t like her and the only person who could tolerate her was mad at her now. She realized she had been really childish teasing Keita like that. Miki looked up at Aya and realized she was still waiting for a response. Sniffling she nodded her head yes to Aya’s question.
“Good. Now wash your face and then come join us when you’ve calmed down.” With that Aya gave Miki a disappointed look that made Miki cry harder and left the bathroom.
You’re such an idiot Fujimoto to think that Aya cares more about you than she does Keita. Miki stared at her reflection in the mirror, seeing the tears flowing down her cheeks she was filled with self-loathing. It’s no wonder she doesn’t want you you’re so weak. You couldn’t even handle her scolding you just then. You’re pathetic. Eventually Miki stopped crying, washed her face, and reapplied her make-up. After looking in the mirror and taking some deep breaths to calm herself, she finally went to rejoin Aya and Keita.
As she walked up to the table she saw that Aya and Keita were obviously enjoying themselves as they were laughing and didn’t acknowledge her when she sat down. Not wanting to get herself in more trouble with Aya, Miki quietly began eating.
“So Miki,” Miki was surprised to hear Keita calling her. She nervously looked up and saw that he was giving her a smirk very similar to the one she gave him earlier. “You used to be a soloist like Aya a couple of years ago right? It’s too bad you weren’t very talented or maybe you would still be a soloist like my Aya-chan nee?”
Miki stole a glance at Aya to see if she was going to say anything but Aya just stared intensely at her food. Saddened Miki lowered her head and tried to ignore Keita’s taunting, but he wasn’t done yet.
“Wait a minute. Didn’t you lose the Morning Musume auditions in the first place? So what, you lose, they feel sorry for you so they let you go solo, then they realize how much you suck and try to hide you in the group when they had so many members you couldn’t tell one from another? That’s really pathetic. You must feel so ashamed. I mean on your debut song they let the new thirteen year old have to lead while you barely had any lines.” Keita laughed then went back to talking to Aya.
Miki stared at her food and tried not to cry. Not that she cared what Keita had to say, he was an idiot. She was upset because while she had got her butt chewed out by Aya about being mean to Keita, Aya didn’t seem to care that Keita was taunting Miki. And Aya knew how sensitive Miki was about losing her solo career. That had been a big blow to her self-confidence and Aya had been the one Miki came crying to. Aya had been the one to tell Miki that everything would be all right.
For the rest of the meal Aya and Keita talked while Miki picked at her food with her head down. She wanted to just leave but she wouldn’t give Keita that satisfaction. Finally it was time to go and the three headed outside.
“Tonight was really fun Keita let’s do it again soon.” Miki watched as Aya stood on her tip-toes and kissed Keita then gave him a hug before he walked away. Aya glanced over and saw that Miki was still standing there. “I’ll see you tomorrow Miki.” Aya then turned around and walked away.
Miki was in shock. She didn’t even give me a hug goodbye. That never happens. No matter how upset we get at each other we never walk away angry. And she was supposed to come over to my house after dinner. I can see Keita is already ruining our friendship.
Numb, Miki got in a taxi and made her way to her apartment. When she got there she collapsed into bed fully clothed and cried herself to sleep.
I would like to thank everyone who is taking the time to read this story. Yall are great :D See you next chapter!
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Ugh. Keita. That was so mean. So so mean. :angry: and Aya didn't say anything about it.. :cry:
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:angry: i hate him.... stupid Keita! poor miki :( it will get better!!
love the work!! keep it up!!!
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MIKI!!! :fainted:
aya was a bad friend :scolding:
y i died when miki says that yossy look her with desire XDD :rofl:
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Brilliant chapter, it was soooo sad...poor Miki
How I hate Keita, and Aya was really mean as well here!
Next chapter plz!!!
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Damn Keita's an ass :thumbdown:
I feel really bad for Miki. I mean, her best friend is basically choosing her boyfriend over her! That's just all kinds of wrong....what happened to Chicks before Dicks or Hoes over Bros!? :lol:
Miki's self-esteem is in the frikin toilet right now. :(
Oh, and patiently waiting for update!
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Sorry guys for the long wait since the last chapter. I've been doing my IB testing at school which is nothing but writing so I kind of haven't been in the mood.
However last night at like 2 am I was hit with inspiration and managed to write chapter four-seven. I'm going to post all of them now I hope nobody minds.
There are only two chapters left (more like one and an epilogue) and I will hopefully be through with those soon so that I can have completed my first story.
Warning There are some serious situations that occur in these chapters
Chapter Four
Once again Miki was at Aya’s apartment watching a movie. It had been a few weeks since the incident with Keita in the restaurant. The day after Aya had come up to Miki and started talking to her like nothing had happened. Miki didn’t really understand but she was willing to take Aya’s forgiveness anyway she could get it.
“Don’t go in there! Don’t go in there! Noooo! Why did you go in there?!” Miki chuckled slightly while looking down at Aya who was clinging tightly to her arm, sitting so close to Miki she was practically sitting in her lap. Miki didn’t know why Aya had wanted to watch a horror movie when she knew she always got really scared.
“Aya if the people in the movies didn’t go into the scary rooms nothing would happen and the movie would be really boring.” Aya looked up at Miki with her big scared eyes and Miki felt her heart melt. “It’s ok Ayaya I won’t let any of the monsters get you.” Miki put her arm around Aya and pulled her even closer so that she was actually on her lap. Aya shot Miki at grateful look and a smile and returned to watching the movie, hiding her face in Miki’s shoulder every now and then.
I wonder if Keita would be this nice to Aya if she were scared. Miki wished that Aya was clinging to her out of love but she would take whatever she could get. I bet Keita doesn’t know a thing about taking care of Aya.
Just then there was a knock on the door that made Aya jump and cling to Miki even harder.
“It’s just the door Aya. I’ll go get it.” Miki gave Aya a kiss on the forehead and placed her on the coach while laughing to herself about how jumpy Aya was. Miki soon lost her smile though when she opened the door and saw who was there.
“Hello Fujimoto, been a while.” Keita walked pass Miki, pushing her a little and walked over to the couch where Aya was sitting. “Hey Aya. Why are you shaking? Has Fujimoto been upsetting you?”
“Of course not we were just watching a scary movie, come watch with me.” Aya pulled Keita down in the spot where Miki had just been sitting and started to tell him about the movie.
Miki was furious. What the hell was Keita doing there when she was supposed to be spending time ALONE with Aya. And at Aya’s apartment too? Their apartments were her and Aya’s special places, that’s why they both had keys to the other’s place. Miki swore that guy followed her around just so that he could break up anytime she had with Aya. She hadn’t seen him for about two weeks, since the time they decided to try once again for the three of them to have dinner together. After another night of Keita badmouthing her and Aya not stopping him Miki realized she couldn’t hang around the two of them anymore. It had been working fine too, until tonight.
Miki glanced at the couch and noticed that Aya was once again watching the movie. Aya was clinging to his arm but not as tightly as she had with Miki. Keita’s arm wasn’t around Aya either. Miki felt a little better knowing that some things were still sacred with her and Aya. Miki walked back over to the couch and sat on the other side of Aya determined to ignore Keita. This of course was easier said than done since Keita decided he couldn’t go without teasing Miki.
“So Miki you sure have a lot of time to hang around Aya. Your life must be like your career, nonexistent.” Keita laughed at his joke and Aya looked up at him for a moment like she was going to say something then looked back at the T.V. Miki sighed and sunk deeper into the couch. It’s going to be a long night.
By the time the movie ended Miki didn’t think she could take it anymore. Throughout the movie Keita kept making offhanded comments about Miki and the whole time Aya just sat there.
“Hey Miki, as sub leader do you have to lick Yoshizawa’s boots and kiss her ass?”
Suddenly Miki saw red, she couldn’t take it anymore. Miki stood up off the couch so fast Aya jumped harder than she had throughout the whole movie. Keita figuring a confrontation was about to happen stood up also. Miki walked over to Keita and stood up in his face… well as close to his face as she could get with their height difference.
“Shut your fucking mouth asshole! I’m tired of all this crap you’ve been saying about me. Do you think talking bad about me makes you look good or something? Or are you just jealous of my relationship with Aya? Well I don’t care what it is but I’m not about to listen to your shit anymore.” Without thinking Miki pulled her arm back and then brought it forward punching Keita hard in the face.
“Miki!” Aya screamed leaping up off the couch also. “I can’t believe you, what is your problem? You can’t just go around punching people.”
Miki was confused. She was sure Aya would side with her on this one. Keita had deserved what he got. Was Aya really so in love with Keita that she with that blind to his faults? Miki could feel her heart sink as she began to realize that Keita was much more important to Aya than she was. I guess love tops best-friends huh?
“I… I can’t talk to you anymore Miki. I don’t like you like this. Lately I don’t know what’s wrong with you. I’m sorry Miki but, get out of my house. And don’t talk to me anymore.” Aya was backing away from Miki as if she were afraid of her. Maybe she is. I’m nothing but a monster. An unlovable monster. No wonder she didn’t stop Keita from saying all those things about me. They were all true.
“I’m sorry Aya. I’m so sorry Aya.” Miki slowly backed away. She couldn’t stand Aya looking at her like how she had looked at the movie not too long ago, terrified. She reached the door and opened it, tears streaming down her face. She turned back to look at Aya one more time. “I’m sorry Aya” Miki whispered before walking out the apartment and shutting the door firmly behind her.
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Chapter Five
The days following Aya kicking Miki out of her apartment Miki felt like she were in a blur. She went to work, she went home, and she slept. That was pretty much it. At work she tried to act as normal as possible, still insulting the members and acting like the badass she was, but everyone could tell that something was wrong with her. Her insults just didn’t seem as heartfelt as usual. Everyone could tell it had something to do with Aya. Usually whenever there were break times you could always find Miki and Aya together. But for the past week Aya had been avoiding Miki like the plague and Miki just stared after her wistfully.
Miki didn’t know what to do. She had tried to apologize to Aya numerous times but every time she got close to Aya, Aya would find something that had to be done right then and run off. Miki couldn’t believe that some guy that had come out of nowhere had actually been able to ruin their friendship that had been so strong.
Deep inside Miki wasn’t very surprised at all. She had always been a negative person and was and expected the worse of every situation. Miki knew she didn’t have very good relationships with people, which was why she was always surprised that someone as sweet and wonderful as Aya would want to be best-friends with someone like her. In the back of her mind she always wondered when Aya would realize her mistake and leave Miki behind. Still it hurt that it had actually happened.
“Miki I don’t know what’s wrong with you lately but you better get your head straight for today’s game.” Miki turned and saw Yossie standing behind her with her arms crossed and a scowl on her face. Miki didn’t know what she had done to her but Yossie made it clear she didn’t like Miki.
“Don’t worry Yossie I’m ready for the game.” Miki knew this wasn’t exactly true since she really wasn’t in the mood for playing but she wasn’t about to tell Yossie that.
Yossie gave Miki a dark glare. “You better be.” Miki watched in relief as Yossie walked away; glad the girl had left her alone for the moment. With a sigh Miki decided to head back to her apartment to get ready for the Gatas match that afternoon.
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Miki sat alone in the Gatas locker room staring at the wall in disbelief. They had just lost their match. Because of her. Miki had been so distracted thinking about Aya she had lost the ball to the other team many times during the match. After the game the other girls were so upset that no one spoke to each other. They didn’t even bother to shower and change in the locker room, instead they all just decided to go straight home.
“Fujimoto what the hell was that!” Ok so I thought everybody went home. Guess I was wrong. Miki looked up into Yossie’s enraged face and suddenly felt fear. She didn’t like the fact that she was the only one left in the building with her. Miki put her signature look on her face though, determined not to let Yossie get the best of her.
“You got a problem Yoshizawa?” Miki stood up to look at Yossie, she didn’t like the way she had been hovering over her.
“Yeah I got a problem. We’ve been practicing for this game forever! It was our biggest game of the freakin season and you just blew it!” By now Yossie was very close to Miki’s face and Miki didn’t like the way the conversation was going. I wonder if she came in with plans to beat me up.
“Look I was just having a bad day it happens to everyone. I’m sorry we lost the game all right.” Miki hoped that Yossie would back off and let her go but she had a feeling that wasn’t going to happen.
“It’s not just been today Fujimoto you’ve been moping around all week. I didn’t say anything you about how you’ve been slowing down the group in the dance practices but you making us lose this game is the last straw. What’s going on with you anyway?”
Miki sighed as she thought back to the reason for her distraction all week. “It’s nothing for you to worry about Yoshizawa. Aya and I are just…” Yossie cut Miki off before Miki could finish her statement.
“Oh so that’s it. It’s a relationship problem.” Miki suddenly backed away from Yossie. Yossie seemed really upset about the answer Miki had just given her and looked about ready to murder Miki. “We lost our important game all because your mistress didn’t want to play with her whore!”
Miki realized that now would be a really good time to get out of the locker room because Yossie seemed like she was crazy. As soon as she turned to leave though, Yossie grabbed her arm to keep her in place.
“You know Fujimoto I really used to like and respect you but now you make me sick.” Yossie’s grip was so tight on Miki’s arm that it was cutting off her circulation. Miki hardly noticed though. She was too terrified to think of anything but the fact that Yossie was going to kill her. It seemed like a screw had come loose in Yossie’s head or something, she looked and sounded demented.
Yossie’s voice turned wistful and she seemed to go into a daze. “You were so strong. You just had an aura around you that told people you weren’t someone to be messed with. That you would always get your way. When you failed the Morning Musume auditions you didn’t give up. You kept trying and eventually you became a soloist and I admired your determination. When I heard you were joining Morning Musume I was so excited. Here was my chance to really get to know you. We could be friends… and maybe more.” Suddenly Yossie’s face grew hard again and she grabbed Miki’s other arm and slammed her had against the lockers high up so that Miki’s feet didn’t touch the ground. Miki moaned slightly in pain.
“Then imagine my surprise when after awhile I realized you’re all head over heels for that brat Matsuura. You were so sick, following her around like a puppy. Doing her every bidding. You always came running when she called. I couldn’t believe that someone I thought was so strong was actually so weak. Yeah I realize how weak you really are Fujimoto. You try to hide it from everyone but I’m not dumb. This past week you’ve been mopping around like your life is ending. Actually for the past month, ever since Matsuura got her little boyfriend.” Yossie smiled grimly in Miki’s face before picking her up off the lockers only to slam her back into them. “How did it feel to realize the person you like so much didn’t want you? How did it feel when you realized they loved someone else? Now you know how I felt.”
When Yossie finished talking she let go of Miki and Miki fell hard onto the floor, banging her head into the lockers on her way down. Miki tried to move but she was in too much pain. Yossie looked down on her in disgust before her face suddenly turned soft.
“Nee, Miki-chan, I can make it better.” Yossie kneeled down by where Miki was half sprawled across the floor and half sprawled against the lockers and begin stroking her hair. “You don’t really need Aya Miki. I’m here; I can be there for you.” Oh my gosh I think Yoshizawa really is crazy. Miki was afraid of Yossie’s frequent sudden mood changes but this one scared her the most. She didn’t like the way Yossie was looking at her and touching her. It was making her much more uncomfortable than the pain she was in.
When Miki was thinking she didn’t realize Yossie had leaned down until she felt Yossie’s lips on hers. Miki pulled away so fast she banged her head on the locker behind her. Yossie glared at Miki and started to growl a little. “So what I’m not good enough for you or something? I’m not your precious Ayaya?” Yossie abruptly stood up then grabbed one of Miki’s arms and jerked her up from the ground. “I could have made it good for you you know? You could have been so happy. WE could have been so happy. But you always gotta make things difficult don’t you? Now we have to do things my way.”
Miki realized Yossie had started dragging her towards the entrance and terror coursed through her. Miki started to fight with whatever remaining strength she had but it was soon made obvious that she was no match for Yossie. With a malicious chuckle Yossie easily just picked Miki up and carried her out of the Gatas locker room, and out of safety.
DUN DUN DUN!!!! Oh no Miki!!!! Sorry guys.
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Chapter Six
Miki woke up and for a moment she was confused about where she was and why she was in pain. Only for a moment though. The memories from the day before quickly came rushing back to her and tears filled her eyes. Miki sat up as far as she could, since there was a strong arm firmly securing her to the bed around her waist. Looking down at her naked body Miki could see that she was completely covered in bruises and hickey marks. Unable to hold back her tears anymore Miki lay back down and began to cry quietly, so as not to wake up the monster beside her.
I can’t believe it. I’ve been raped. Miki was still in shock. Rape was one of those things you heard about but didn’t actually happen to you. And by one of my band mates too. Not even, my freaking leader. At this thought Miki only began to cry harder. Miki didn’t even know why she was thinking like this, she was just so terrified and horrified that her mind was running wild. When she thought back on some of the things Yossie did to her... Or the things she made me do to her. Miki shuttered. She felt dirty. Despite her reputation Miki had been a virgin. She had been saving herself for someone special Aya but Yossie had taken that from her. When Yossie had realized she was a virgin all she did was laugh in her face.
“Shut the heck up with all that crying Fujimoto I’m trying to sleep over here.” Miki immediately tried to stop crying when she heard Yossie wake up. She was afraid of what would happen to her if she disobeyed. Yossie sat up and yawned before looking down at Miki and smiling. “Last night was fun nee Miki-chan.” Yossie smiled while running her hand down Miki’s body. Before Miki could respond she felt herself being literary kicked out of the bed and onto the floor. “Get up, get dressed, get out.”
Miki did not stop to ask questions she just quickly followed instructions glad to get away from Yossie. “And don’t forget Fujimoto we have dance practice at 12 so don’t be late.” Miki quickly threw on her clothes and ran out of the dreaded apartment.
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Miki looked around the dance studio to see the exhaustion on the member’s faces. Their dance practice was supposed to be a small one with only the members, no instructor or anything. It was only scheduled to be two hours but they had already been there for five because Yossie was unsatisfied with their performance. Miki didn’t think she could last much longer. It had been hard for her just to move that morning because of all of her bruises and now she had been dancing for five hours and she felt like she was dying. She could tell the other members weren’t doing much better. They all seemed to realize that their leader was in a bad mood so no one was brave enough to voice a complaint, even Reina who usually didn’t hold her tongue.
“What is wrong with all of you today?! Why can’t you get the freaking dance right? Again from the top.” Miki saw the saddened and resolved faces of the members and was suddenly angry. She knew that they were performing the dance perfectly. They had had it perfect already and this rehearsal had only been a review. Sayumi was bent over and holding her side in pain and Ai was sweating so hard it looked like she had ran in the rain. What really got Miki though was Koharu. Koharu was so determined to prove herself that she was trying so hard not let her discomfort be known. But Miki could clearly see the tears in the little girl’s eyes and could hear her ragged breathing as she tried to pretend nothing was bothering her. Miki knew that Koharu looked up to her and she couldn’t stand to let her suffer when as sub leader Miki should have stopped Yossie a long time ago. And that’s exactly what she decided to do. I’m probably going to die from this.
“No Yoshizawa I think we’ve practiced enough for the day.” Miki noticed all members look at her in gratitude except for Yossie who was glaring at her with loathing. The other members noticed the obvious tension between their leader and sub leader and wondered what was going on. “It is very obvious that we know this dance perfectly and could probably perform it in our sleep. You have already extended rehearsal for three hours and the girls are exhausted.” Turning away from Yossie, Miki turned and addressed the girls. “That’s all for today girls. Go home and get some rest, I’ll see you tomorrow.”
The members quickly gathered their belonging and hurried out the room giving Miki a smile of thanks on their way out. Koharu stopped and gave her a hug before hurrying off after Sayumi. Miki smiled after them glad that she had been able to help the members out. Miki’s smile quickly faded when she felt a hand on her shoulder as Yossie quickly turned her around to face her. Before Miki had time to think Yossie slapped her hard across the face. Miki saw stars and stumbled a bit from the force of the hit. Before she could recover Yossie picked her up and slammed her into a wall.
“What the hell was that Fujimoto?! Just who the fuck do you think you are?” Yossie put Miki back on the ground and towered over Miki making her shiver wondering what Yossie would do. “You do NOT undermine my authority you got that. I am the freaking leader of this group and you are nothing. You think your title as sub leader means anything to me? Well let me tell you it doesn’t.”
Miki was hoping she could get away soon because she noticed that Yossie was starting to get a certain glint in her eye. Before she knew what was going on Yossie’s hand was up under her shirt and fondling her breasts. “You belong to me Miki so you do what I say when I say it. You don’t go around giving me orders.” Yossie began kissing down Miki’s neck before kissing her passionately on the lips. When she finished she bit Miki’s lip so hard she tasted blood. “You’re nothing but a whore Fujimoto. All you’re good for is to be used and thrown away.”
With that Yossie turned around and walked out the door leaving Miki behind. Miki slowly slid down the wall and sat on the floor with her knees pulled up protectively against her. Miki wanted so badly to cry but she couldn’t cry anymore. It was like all her tears had dried up. She felt so dirty. She thought she would drown in her own filth. I have to get clean. Miki pushed her self off the wall and stood up. Determined to go home and wash the filth off of herself.
I'm really sorry guess. This was that angst I was talking about at the beginning of the first chapter. Don't worry though things will get better for Miki. She just had to hit the bottom before she could make her way to the top.
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This chapter is written from Aya's POV. Yay! We can finally see what that girls has been thinking!
Chapter Seven
Aya sat on her couch staring into space. The TV was on and playing something but she wasn’t paying any attention to it. Instead she was lost in her thoughts.
I really miss Miki. I know I can’t even complain about anything because all of this is my fault. I can’t believe I was so stupid. Aya sighed and began to look increasingly depressed.
This all started back when Miki told me she was in love with me. I don’t know why but that scared the crap out of me. I think it was because I realized I kinda felt the same about her. I couldn’t tell her that though cause I was still trying to sort out my own feelings and also because I was in denial. What I felt for Miki was stronger than anything I’d ever felt before and that scared me. That’s when Keita came into the picture.
I figured that maybe I was just feeling this way because it had been a long time since I’d dated anyone. I figured Keita would be the easy choice since he seemed pretty nice and I already knew from previous conversations that he liked me. After the whole FRIDAY incident I was sure that I would be in trouble with my agency since they really didn’t like us girls dating. Surprisingly though, they didn’t really mind. Supposedly both Keita and I had a sweet and innocent image and us dating looked good. The truth is though, I don’t love Keita. Hell I don’t even like him. He was really boring; all he ever wanted to do was talk about work. I think he was trying to compare the success of our careers or something. Also he didn’t like Miki, which he never failed to remind me.
When I think back to how I treated Miki and how I allowed her to be treated I hate myself. I know that despite the tough persona she projects to the general public she is actually very sensitive, especially when it comes to me. That’s how I know I’ve hurt her really bad. Before, I was always the one that Miki came running to when she was crying, but in the past month it seems I’ve been the source of all of her tears. I don’t know what I was thinking when I invited Keita to have dinner with me and Miki. I just really wanted to spend time with Miki but I was still trying to keep up the image that everything was perfect and loving between Keita and me.
I was really angry when I blew up at Miki in the bathroom, but not at Miki but myself. When Miki was badmouthing Keita I wanted to laugh so badly. She was being typical Miki, speaking her mind and not caring who she hurt in the process. Heck, I even agreed with the things she was saying and I loved her all the more for saying them. That’s when I got mad. I was mad that I was so scared about my feelings that I was dating some guy I didn’t even like. I was mad that Miki was still being so nice to me after I’d stomped all over her heart. I was mad that Keita was beside me, touching me, because I was allowing him to. I was just mad. So I took it out on Miki. I will never forget the look on her face as she was trying her hardest to hold in her sobs but failing miserably. I never hated myself more than at that moment. And the things I said to her. I called her stupid, something I would normally never say to her seriously cause I know she takes things I say to heart. I told her that no one liked her. That was terrible because it’s not true but I know, because she’s told me more than once, that that’s what she believes. Me saying it to her was like a confirmation of her fears.
When she came back to the table she looked so sad and broken. I realized then just how stupid I had been and how I had probably just killed our friendship. And Miki, my poor poor Miki, was trying her hardest to please me. She sat and was so quiet as Keita and I ignored her. And then Keita began to talk about her. Somehow Keita knew all the right buttons to push on Miki. The things that she really was self-conscious about. I saw Miki’s heart break when she looked at me, begging me with her eyes to stop Keita, and I just ignored her and continued eating.
The next day I realized I realized what a mistake I made but also realized that I could not apologize to Miki. I knew if I did I’d tell her everything and I just wasn’t ready for that. Instead I just began talking to Miki as if nothing had happened. Miki, sadly to starved for my attention, gladly began talking to me. A few days latter Miki, Keita, and I once again went out to eat. This time Miki didn’t speak one word the whole meal. Keita on the other hand talked about Miki the whole time. I once again sat in silence. After that Miki refused any further invitations to dinner, and Keita gloated that he had ran off “the pest.”
For a while things seemed to be going better. I mean besides the “dates” that I still went on with Keita. Miki and I were able to spend a lot of time together and I could feel our friendship mending from the hurts I caused her. That was at least until last week when I screwed up again, and big time.
I don’t know why I had chosen to watch a scary movie cause I always get so terrified. Miki was being supportive as always though and let me cling to her and be all over her. I could tell she was amused by me and I could practically feel the love radiating off of her as she watched me. When she placed on her lap and held me tight I almost melted. For a second I forgot about the movie and could only think about how great it felt to be in Miki’s arms. Then I remembered that Miki wasn’t mine and I belonged to Keita. I sighed and returned to watching the movie.
When Keita showed up I was pissed and I could tell Miki was too. I had told Keita that I could not hang out with him that day because I was hanging with Miki. I guess the temptation was just too great for him. When he began taunting Miki that time I almost let him have it. I began to tell him off but for some reason I stopped myself. I think I knew if I started telling him off I wouldn’t stop. I didn’t blame Miki when she finally snapped. Keita’s insults were getting more and more evil as time went by. I never felt so proud of Miki in my life as when she punched him. I wanted to stand up, hug Miki, and then punch Keita myself, but instead I took the coward approach.
When I kicked Miki out I could see the shock and horror etched in her face. I could tell she couldn’t understand why I was still taking Keita’s side and I couldn’t either. I think I knew that Keita had gone too far. That if I didn’t do something drastic I would have killed Keita and told him to stop hurting my Mikitan. I was so pissed off at Keita at that moment that I had to turn my anger and disgust on someone. Sadly it once again had to be Miki. I realized when Miki walked out the door that I could not live without her and that despite my fear of how strongly I loved her, I had to be with her. With that in mind I turned around to face Keita.
I broke up with him. One look at the smug expression on his face and I just let him have it. I told him exactly how I felt about him and kicked him out of my apartment. Then I sat on the couch and cried. I realized just how much I’d hurt Miki in the past month. She was so honest with me about how much she loved me and instead of being honest back I was scared and hid behind Keita. I knew that are relationship may never be fixed and it was nobody’s fault but my own.
For the past week I’ve been avoiding her because I’m still scared. I don’t want to mess up this second chance with Miki. I have to prepare myself fully and know what I’m trying to say when I go to talk to her. But I have to talk to her. I have to tell her how much I love her and explain to her how all of this was a mistake. I’m afraid she’ll reject me though. After how much I’ve hurt her I don’t deserve her at all. But I can’t help but be selfish because I can’t live without Miki.
I’ve procrastinated too long already. Miki’s been hurt enough already by my indecisiveness. I can’t hold back any longer. Aya took a deep sigh and stood up off the couch. It’s time to tell Miki how I feel. With that Aya left her apartment and made her way to Miki.
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:scared: YOSSIE RAPED MIKI!!! WTF YOSSIE FREAKIN RAPED MIKI
:scolding: why would you doing something like that to Mikkity :mon runcry:
OMG dude I can't even think right now I mean at first because of the whole aya being a jerk with keita we would have a little yomiki but NOO Yossie has to get all :mon evil: and poor Miki was already :mon waterworks: then yossie attacks her and now shes :mon cry: and then Ayaya all she was mean and hurtful just because she was scared of her feelings... :mon annoy:
normally I would be like aww she gonna confess but NO! she has to rectify this! Miki was raped by Yossie YOSSIE :stoned: ...
Damn angst :temper: :imdead:
.... *clears throat* all that aside :glasses: please write new chapters can't wait for the updates :kneelbow:
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Aya's gonna FLIP when she finds out what happened to Miki. :scared:
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Then she's probably going to start blaming herself, thinking that if she had been able to stand up to her fears sooner, that she wouldn't have driven Miki away like that, and therefore none of "that" would have happened. :cry:
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My heart friggin stopped when I read what Yossy did! :cry: I've never even thought of Yossy as so aggressive (in such a bad way). Poor Miki. Her life is pretty ruined. And Aya.....well, I'm kinda pissed at her. I mean, she's being a total idiot just b/c she's doesn't know if she really likes Miki or not. She treated her like crap and let her ass of a boyfriend walk all over her. That's unacceptable. I'll forgive her when she makes Miki all better.
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:OMG:!!!
poor miki!!! :pleeease:
please stop hurting her!!!! its bad enough what happen with her and aya but what yossi did was EXTREME!!! :scared:
i need to know what happen next!!!! :shock:
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Woah Yossie did the unthinkable! OMG Miki! :cry:
Grr.. Aya. now she realises.. omg.. :angry:and when she finds out what happened to Miki.. :banghead:
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Why? WHy would you do that to poor Miki? She has been through so much already! And why couldn't Yoshi be soft with her? Bully! Thinking of Yoshi, I kept listening to I hate everything about you and it totally went with the story.
Boy I actually cried for poor Miki :cry: And Aya FINALLY deciding to be with her and put behind her selfish stubborn fears does not make up for any of it! She was supposed to be her friend! She was suppposed to be by her side, help her, protect her, cry with her and such but she left her there to die! All alone! And she knew! She knew that there was no one else there for her! She knew she had no other friends or anyone to lean on! She must've caught a glimpse of how Yoshi was looking at her! She must've known... How could she not? She has to! She is Aya!
She should know all there is to know about Miki.. In fact I think she does. So knowing all she did, how could she stand by and just watch these things happen? Not only that, but she was the catalyst as well as the producer of the problem.
Not only did she stand by and watch her get lower and lower, but she stepped in and instead of picking her up, she broke her. She threw her away after using her for her own selfish ideas and wants but she gave nothing in return. Out of a whim she stole her and broke her and you just let it happen! :cry:
And Miki! Poor poor Miki... She was soo resigned! She was so totally in love and deeply troubled by her afflictions that she did not notice someone who was so close to her was trying to get her attention. She couldn't decode the meaning of those glances towards her and she didn't pay attention to the world around her. She was so unfortunate to have her everything taken away from her and then just like that, the thing she had been saving for Aya was taken away from her too.
She must feel just so alone, small, lonely, afraid, dirty, ashamed, bertrayed and god knows what else. She is going through so much pain right now. It is one hit after the other after the other.
And what will be achieved when Aya apologises? Will they be a normal happy couple? Will Miki even get over this? All of it? Will she even be alive to hear to make amends. I think she is about to kill herself. She seems like she is going to sink just a little lower before Aya gets to her.... and by then it will be too late. I fear.... some kind of horrible thing will happen soon. I don't know what..... But something inside tells me that something big is coming.. Something big and bad.
And what the hell is she gonna say? "Hi, sorry I've been a total bitch lately and I haven't been by your side when you needed me the most, but guess what! I love you too! And I was a bit scared of change so I procrastinated and fucked up your life for about a month only to realise what a huge idiot I was and I am sorry....... for everything. But now I am ready! Lets be together! In a lesbian way!" If I was Miki I would slap her soo hard she'd be seeing stars for a year..
But Miki.... Miki.. she is too kind. I know she will eventually forgive Aya. Not Yoshi, but definately Aya. She will say sorry she will accept her apologies and la dee dah, they are together....
But aren't we forgetting something? That's right, she was raped...... And some huge speech where tells her that and she probably apologises or something. Unless she finds her in the shower going over her mantra of "Dirty....... dirty.......... so dirty" and there is a crying bit and then she's like "Yoshizawa....... she........ she........... she raped me" in a tiny whisper.....
I can see it now....... Or if thats not the case she catches her getting molested by Yoshi again and she either grows a pair and helps her or she stands by and watch then realise what is happening or she watches gets the wrong idea and goes away thinking they are together. Either way this'll either have a tragic ending where at least one of the main characters dies or it will have a sweet sappy ending like we all want to be yet is soo unreachable.
I hope for the latter of course but am not very optimistic at this very moment. I mean let's face it, it's not like Miki has had any luck at all lately and I don't think anyone is gonna drop a tonne weighing anvil on Yoshi so there is that problem, there is also the fact that it is not certain she will even make it alive and right now it seems like she wont and of course who says she will forgive Aya?
Sure in the start she claims she would always forgive her for anything but times and people change and she has been through soo much already that a normal person would have been in their bed, in the fetal position crying right now if they were her. And quite frankly, it is what I am about to go do so I really wont blame her if she dumps Aya.
I mean, the one porrible characteur that she could've been with is such an asshole and the other one that she really loves has done all this to her, I wont blame her if she doesn't ever want to see anyone again... I'm sorry Mikitty, they broke you... Well, I loved the story and am dying to read more because I have to know what happens in the end so I hope you continue this fic, and I hope even though I doubt it that the end will be good to my broken angel.
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^damn that was a looooonnnnngggg comment
"Hi, sorry I've been a total bitch lately and I haven't been by your side when you needed me the most, but guess what! I love you too! And I was a bit scared of change so I procrastinated and fucked up your life for about a month only to realise what a huge idiot I was and I am sorry....... for everything. But now I am ready! Lets be together! In a lesbian way!" If I was Miki I would slap her soo hard she'd be seeing stars for a year..
Scene:
Miki opens door :mon POd: to find a extra cutsey and perky ayaya :gmon twirl: saying "HI Tan :gmon bye: i love u :gmon love: and was scared so i dissed you repeatedly :gmon tears: because i couldn't handle liking a girl :gmon shy: ... teehee :gmon hot:"
Miki: :mon mad: :mon evil: :knee: :kickass: "get *bleep* outta here"
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fixed it. Only just saw my post came as a biiiig slab of words, sorry, please don't kill me.
Yeah, I don't ssee them getting togetther that easilly....
Hmm, just had a funny thought...
Aya walks into Miki's apartment, sees her crying on her bed, goes over to her...... and rapes her too!! XD Poor Miki, getting raped left right and centre... XD
I don't see Yoshi letting go of her that easilly though. Even IF (and that is a big IF) she forgives Aya and wants to be with her there is still the psycho Yoshi she has to get over. But then again maybe she is over her and just wont care anymore. Hmm then the whole Friday thing can be said to have been to get away from Yoshi...
GJ, I am dying to know what happens next.
Oh, and those monkeys are sooo cute!!! Are you sure monkey Miki would kill her? lol
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hell yeah monkey miki would kill monkey aya because real miki is too nice and is probably going to get hurt and hurt again and again because of it.... im thinking this is going to have a tragic ending with miki committing suicide i mean shes already broken i doubt aya can fix this because right now i have no faith in her character and yossie... well yossie is scary as hell :mon headbang: and probably not going to give her up without a fight... unless you know she done with her now that she got what she wanted and is just going to continue being an asshole... though i have a question as to where the heck is rika :? i mean i just reread this and she was mentioned earlier but since she with yossie that means...
a) shes her sex slave :mon hanky: b) shes worse!! :gmon pissed:
....back to miki i hope she gets her happily ever after but im a tad pessimistic on it
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same.
about Rika though, I think she was just Yoshi's friend, and didn't know anything about anything.
Sure they were hanging out and she invited Miki adn Aya out but I think maybe she just thought Yoshi liked her and wanted to hook them up, I don't think she knew what happened or anything.
Why did Miki pull back though? It's not like she could have been with Aya at the moment. I think it would have been better if she had kissed Yoshi back initialy, then she wouldn't be in this mess... Poor Mikitan :'(
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Okay it's been a while but it's finally finished. I've had massive writers block that I really never got over but in the end I just forced myself to write whether I wanted to or not cause I figured it was time for this story to end. So here it is past 3:30 in the morning but Koi has finally come to an end. Not quite how I planned it, but it's an end none the less. So onto the story!
Chapter Eight
Aya stood in front of Miki’s apartment and contemplated whether she should knock or just open the door herself with her key. It would be more polite to knock since technically we’re not speaking right now but if I knock she may not open the door. Coming to her decision Aya unlocked the door and entered Miki’s apartment.
Looking around Aya could not spot Miki. She began searching the apartment afraid that all her psyching herself had gone to waste and Miki wasn’t even home. Just as she was about to leave Aya realized that she could hear the shower running. Realizing that Miki was taking a shower Aya decided to wait until she finished and then tell her how she felt. Aya sat on the couch and waited going over in her mind what she was going to say. After about fifteen minutes Aya drifted off to sleep.
Aya woke up confused and then cursed herself. Aya you idiot now is not the time to be sleeping! Miki probably came out of the shower saw you and left. Now you’ve ruined your opportunity. Aya was about ready to bang her head against the back of the sofa when she realized she could still hear the shower running.
Wait a minute how long have I been asleep. She checked her phone and saw that she had been sleeping for just over an hour. Wait there’s no way Miki is still in the shower. She was already in there when I came and I sat there for at least ten, fifteen minutes before I fell asleep. Miki doesn’t take showers that long! What’s going on?
Worried Aya got up and slowly made her way to the bathroom. Placing her ear against the door she verified that it really was the sound of the shower she was hearing. Now, confused and worried she carefully opened the door to see what was going on.
“Miki! Miki are you in here? You’ve been showering for a long time.” Aya looked around the bathroom and into the shower perplexed at the sight which greeted her. She saw the shower, she saw the shower running, but she didn’t see Miki in the shower. Wondering if Miki had just accidently left the shower on and left the house Aya went closer to the shower to turn it off. When Aya reached over to turn the shower off she saw a sight that both shocked and scared her.
There in the corner of the shower was Miki, sitting on the floor with her knees pulled up to her chest and her arms wrapped around them, slightly rocking back and forth as if to comfort herself. She was sitting directly in the stream of the water which, as Aya could feel, had long turned cold.
“Miki!” Aya quickly turned off the cold water and knelt down beside Miki. She noticed that when the water stopped Miki seemed to begin to mumble to herself she bent down until her ear was by Miki’s mouth so she could hear what she was saying.
“No, so dirty. Gotta get clean. Can never get clean. Gotta get clean. So so dirty.”
Aya looked at Miki in confusion trying to figure out what she was talking about but noticed that Miki seemed to be in a kind of trance.
“Miki! Miki! Snap out of it! You’re not dirty. You’re very clean and you need to get out of the shower before you get sick.” Aya pulled a large fluffy towel off the towel rack and placed it around Miki in an attempt to dry her off and keep her warm. When Miki felt the towel touch her skin she seemed to snap out of her trance and looked around the bathroom as if seeing it for the first time. Her eyes roamed the room before they landed on Aya which made her flinch and shrink a little into herself.
“Why are you here Aya? You hate me remember? And I’m dirty. You don’t want to get dirty, you’re so clean. You shouldn’t be here. I’m not good enough for you.” Miki looked down at her hands refusing to meet Aya’s gaze.
Aya reached out and grasped Miki’s chin, raising it and forcing Miki to look into Aya’s eyes. “I don’t hate you Miki. And you’re not dirty. Come on Miki let’s get you out of this shower and dry so that we can talk.”
With that Aya was able to maneuver Miki out of the shower and into her bedroom where she managed to get her dressed in a warm pair of fluffy pajamas since Aya noticed her shivering. Aya grabbed a blanket off of Miki’s bed and then led Miki into the living room to sit on the couch. When Miki was seated Aya wrapped the blanket around her and then sat on the couch beside Miki. Miki once again pulled her knees up to her chest and wrapped her arms around them. She looked at Aya before quickly lowering her gaze and burying her face in her arms.
Aya looked at Miki in confusion and worry. She knew that something else must have happened to Miki because she was sure Miki wouldn’t just be acting like this because of their fight. She was determined to get to the bottom of it and fix whatever was wrong with Miki.
“Miki what’s wrong?” Aya placed her arm on Miki’s shoulder but Miki flinched away from her touch. “Come on Miki you have to tell me what the problem is. You know you can tell me anything.”
Miki slowly looked up and looked at Aya. The pain that Aya saw in Miki’s eyes astonished her greatly. I’ve never seen Miki so… so… broken before. I can see so many emotions in her eyes right now. What could have possibly happened to Miki during this week that has hurt her so deeply? Why was I so stupid to stop talking to her or I could have been there for her. I could have helped her through… through… maybe I should find out what happened first.
“Miki what happened?” Aya used the kindest, softest, most caring voice she could muster, trying to coax Miki into opening up.
Miki stared hard into Aya’s big expressive eyes and found her own eyes tearing up. Suddenly Miki grabbed on to Aya’s arm in desperation. “I didn’t want to do it Aya! I promise I didn’t! She… she did things, she made me do things, but… but I didn’t want it.” Miki’s eyes pleaded with Aya to believe her but Aya was confused as to what Miki was talking about.
“Miki you didn’t want to do what? Who made you do things Miki?” Aya grabbed Miki’s shoulders and turned her so that she was facing Aya straight on. “Miki what happened?” Aya stared at Miki trying to will her to tell her the whole story. She noticed a single tear fall down Miki’s cheek as Miki lowered her gaze to the floor. “What happened Miki!?” Aya yelled at Miki and shook her now really afraid of what Miki had to say.
“She raped me ok!” Miki yelled back at Aya once again lifting her head to look at Aya. “Yossie raped me.” This time when Miki spoke her voice was soft and broke halfway through. Miki fell against the back of the couch and broke out in sobs. Admitting what had happened to Aya made the situation seem so much more real to her.
Aya sat motionless on the couch trying to process what Miki had just told her. After a few seconds the words finally sunk in and Aya couldn’t believe it. What the hell! Yoshizawa raped, RAPED Miki. My Miki. NO one touches MY Miki. She will pay! I can’t even believe that Yoshizawa would do something like that. And to Miki! Poor Miki. How she must be feeling right now. What a second… Miki!
Aya snapped out of her daze remembering that Miki was sitting with her on the couch. Aya looked over and saw that Miki was slumped against the back of the couch sobbing so hard that she was hyperventilating a little and kept coughing. Aya realized that Miki would soon make herself sick like that and gathered Miki in her arms.
“Shh Miki. I’m here now. I will never ever let ANYBODY hurt you ever again.” Aya lifted Miki up onto her lap and gently rocked her. The two sat like that for an hour. Miki had stopped crying at some point but Aya continued to rock and comfort her.
After an hour Miki suddenly thought about the situation and pulled away from Aya as far as she could, which was hardly anywhere with the tight hold Aya had on her. Aya noticed the change and looked at Miki, confused. “What’s the matter Miki?”
“Aren’t you mad at me Aya?” Miki stared at Aya with question in her eyes. “Why are you here?”
Aya sighed. It was time to tell Miki the things she had been practicing to say. Wait a second I didn’t practice anything to say. Why didn’t I practice anything to say? I have to get this perfect. I don’t have another chance. Really I don’t deserve this chance after all the things I’ve put Miki through. Of well I guess I’ll just have to say the first things I think of.
Aya gently placed Miki back on the couch then took Miki’s hand. “Miki, there’s something I have to confess to you.” Aya paused, took a deep breath, then gazed directly into Miki’s eyes trying to convey all of her emotions. “First off you should know that Keita and I have broken up. I dumped him right after I… well right after I kicked you out of my apartment. If you wondering why I broke up with him first of all it’s because he said all those mean things to you. You didn’t deserve that and none of the things he said were true. They were all stupid and childish and you never should have been subjected to his stupidity.”
Aya paused in her speech to see how Miki was reacting. Miki just stared at Aya in shock and wonder. She’s probably wondering where all of this is coming from since I did allow him to abuse her for a month. “The other reason why I broke up with him is because, truthfully, I never liked him in the first place.” Aya had a slight gasp from Miki but chose to ignore it in favor of continuing. “Me dating him was stupid and I see that now. I only dated him because I was confused and stupid and I thought it would solve all my problems but it didn’t it only made more and it made me feel worse and it hurt you so I was miserable and you were miserable and nothing was right and…” Aya realized she had started to rant so she took another deep breath and resumed her speech at a more normal pace.
“Miki when you told me you loved me I was scared. I knew that I felt something for you but I just brushed it off as a phase. But when you admitted your love for me I realized that that was exactly what I felt for you. Love. And I was so terrified cause it was so strong it felt like it would suffocate me. So I thought maybe I was just lonely. Maybe I was confusing love with the longing to be with someone. So I dated Keita. But Miki that was dumb because I realized that it wasn’t longing and it was love. A love stronger than I could ever imagine. And I know I don’t deserve you because I’ve hurt you so much but I just can’t keep this inside anymore.”
Aya stared at Miki and in return Miki stared back. Miki was still looking at Aya in wonder, afraid that she was imagining everything. Aya gently took Miki’s face in her hands. “Miki I love you.” Aya slowly brought Miki’s face towards her own and then gently kissed Miki on the lips. Aya made sure to make the kiss soft and brief so not to remind Miki of her recent experience. She wasn’t trying to force Miki into anything she just wanted to break Miki out of her daze and convey her love.
Miki blinked out of her daze as if just realizing what was going on. Her eyes widened when she realized what Aya had just done and she unconsciously brought her hand up to touch her lips.
“Aya are you serious?” Miki’s expression seemed to beg Aya to tell her it was the truth and that she was not dreaming.
Aya ran her hand through Miki’s hair and gazed at her with pure love. “Of course I’m serious Miki. I love you so much and I’m so sorry for hurting you.”
For the second time that night Miki began to cry but this time it was out of happiness that Aya actually loved her too. Aya once again gathered Miki into her arms and repeatedly reassured her of her love. And for the rest of the night the two stayed in that position talking and healing the scars left between them and moving on to their bright future together.
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Two days later Miki and Aya walked into Hello! Project’s main studio ready to begin their days at work. They had spent the previous two days (which they both surprisingly had off) talking about their new relationship and getting back on great terms with each other.
The two entered the lobby holding hands, smiling and laughing. Many of the Hello! Project members were hanging out in the lobby and were delighted to see the two happy and talking again after witnessing the depression from the week before.
Suddenly Aya noticed that Miki had stopped laughing. Aya turned to Miki and noticed that she had an expression of pure terror on her face. Concerned Aya followed Miki’s gaze to see what could have scared her so badly. And then she saw it. There she was across the room talking to Rika. Yoshizawa Hitomi. Before Aya realized what she was doing she dropped Miki’s hand and began to stalk across the lobby towards Yossie.
Miki grabbed at Aya’s hand trying to pull her back. “No Aya don’t go over there.” Miki pleaded but it was no use. Aya was determined. Miki followed quickly behind Aya pleading with her the whole way.
Around the lobby the h!p members were beginning to whisper to each other wondering why Aya looked so angry and Miki looked so scared. Being the nosy people they were they began to watch to see what was going on.
Aya reached Rika and Yossie and stopped walking. Miki pulled on her arm and pleaded with her some more but Aya continued to ignore her.
“Hey Miki hey Aya!” Rika cheerfully greeted the two completely oblivious to the tension in the air. Both Aya and Miki ignored her and stared at Yossie, Aya in hatred and Miki in fear. Yossie smirked at Miki and then greeted the two. “Yeah hi Matsuura, Fujimoto.”
Miki shivered and dropped her head when Yossie addressed her. Seeing Miki’s reaction only pissed Aya off even more. She walked even closer to Yossie till there was hardly any space between the two of them. By now the whole lobby was watching trying to figure out what was going on.
Yossie turned her smirk off of Miki and onto Aya instead. “Problem Matsuura?” Before anyone realized what was happening Aya brought her arm back and then slapped Yossie hard across the face. The whole room fell silent surprised that AYA of all people had just slapped YOSSIE.
Yossie looked down at the floor to try and control her anger then slowly raised her head again glaring at Aya. Yossie opened her mouth to say something but before she had the chance Aya slapped her again even harder than before, snapping Yossie’s head hard to the side.
Yossie slowly brought her head back around to face Aya and wiped the blood off of her lip. She glanced behind Aya and glared at Miki who was half-hiding behind her. Aya noticed Yossie’s gaze and narrowed her eyes and grabbed the front of Yossie’s shirt. “Don’t you ever EVER touch Miki again. Don’t even freaking look at her.”
Aya turned around and saw Miki shaking behind her, fear still clearly in her eyes. Seeing Miki’s fear pissed Aya off again so she turned back around to face Yossie once again. She gave Yossie a quick once over then spat on her face. She watched as Yossie wiped the spit off in disgust then she turned back to face Miki once more.
Aya took the trembling girls hand in her own and spoke softly to her. “Come on Miki, we’re skipping work today.” With that Aya gently pulled Miki out of the room leaving everyone behind to stare after them in awe.
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And here's the epilogue.
Epilogue
Months had passed and things were finally starting to become normal once again. Miki hadn’t wanted to tell anyone about the rape so Aya had reluctantly agreed to keep it a secret. Of course, this meant that everyone ended up knowing exactly what happened. In truth it was Yossie’s fault that the secret got out. Rika had asked her one day why Miki always seemed afraid around her and Yossie proudly bragged about how she had “put the bitch in her place.” Disgusted Rika quickly went to management and told them what Yossie had done. After that the story somehow leaked out even further till the whole project knew.
Yossie had obviously been kicked out of the project though the public was told that she left on her free will to further her studies. Instead of being sent directly to jail Yossie was sent to counseling to see if it could help her. Apparently being an idol helped her from immediately getting the punishment she deserved.
With Yossie’s leave Miki became the leader of Morning Musume with Ai as her sub leader. Being leader had greatly improved her self-esteem since the girls loved her as she was a much fairer leader than Yossie had been. The girls, knowing what Miki had been through tried not to give her a hard time and generally just went along with the things Miki told them to do. In return Miki lost some of her temper and gained patience for when the girls were having trouble learning things. Ai was also a big help, being a very mature sub leader and knowing when to take over. Miki’s smile quickly returned and Morning Musume was blossoming well under her care.
Between Miki and Aya things were wonderful. Miki had quickly forgiven Aya of the things that had happened when she was with Keita even though Aya still thought that she didn’t deserve Miki’s forgiveness. Miki loved being with Aya and Aya loved being with Miki. They took their relationship one day at a time and each day seemed to get even better.
Though things were going great between the two everything wasn’t perfect. Apparently the time when Aya was dating Keita affected Miki more than she cared to admit. Her self-esteem was still pretty low in regards to Aya so she often took things Aya said as jokes seriously. Aya learned to quickly tell Miki that things were jokes so that Miki wouldn’t listen to her seriously. Aya considered if she should stop joking on Miki but she didn’t want to placate Miki she wanted to help her heal and she realized she couldn’t do that if she babied her.
Intimacy was another problem. Miki was obviously deeply affected from what Yossie did to her and would meet Aya’s acts of intimacy with fear. The fear with vanish once Aya reassured her that she was not Yossie and that she would never hurt her but the initial fear would always come.
Despite all this though Miki and Aya were truly happy. Happier than they could ever remember being in their lives. Because despite everything they’d been through in the end they fought. And they survived. Together.
The end.
Thanks for reading everyone!
Oh and I just thought I should clarify that I absolutely love Yossie and I don't think she'd ever do anything like this but she seemed like the most realistic person to be able to control Miki like this.
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Just want to put this out there that I only just read everyone's comments now because I was too nervous to read them before but when I read:
But aren't we forgetting something? That's right, she was raped...... And some huge speech where tells her that and she probably apologises or something. Unless she finds her in the shower going over her mantra of "Dirty....... dirty.......... so dirty" and there is a crying bit and then she's like "Yoshizawa....... she........ she........... she raped me" in a tiny whisper.....
I was like sweeety read my mind. And I agree with everyone that I let Aya off too easy but like I said I couldn't think of what to write so end the end i just decided to end it.
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this fic is the second fic i've read with yossui raping someone... strange for me to say this but... EFFECTIVE!
... man... i read the whole thing just now... and i have to say... awesome... (that's my favorite word now)
... that was a good fic!
Thanks for sharing that with us and i hope you keep on writing!
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GAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!! SOOO HAPPY RIGHT NOW!!!!!!!!!!! AND WAIT TILL I ACTUALLY READ IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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I loved it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! And I think Yoshi should go to an insane asylum, not jail. But I like how they were happy together. I loved the ending and that you didn't forget that Miki was in fact raped and would need to get over that in the end and you added that, instead of just going with the rainbow and butterfly ending of "They all lived happilly ever after". And I also like that everyone got their just deserts in the end. And how Rika was more noble and gallant than she is in some other fics. I like this protector of the wronged Rika :) I loooooved it! It is actually one of my fave stories and I am so glad you finally finished it because I was actually dreaming about it the other night :) And I dreamt of a gazillion diferent ending but mine were wimpy and sappy and stuff you know? but I like yours better :) thank you for writing this:) Also I hope I didn't seem mean or insulting with my previews messages, I didn't mean to make fun I was just really emo and angry at Yoshi so I was taking it out on the messages.. sorry, hope you can forgive me :3
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GAH!!! I'm glad you finished it~ I really enjoyed reading this because it's a great fic and I love GAM to death. I agree with sweety how you made it realistic and didn't have the happily ever after. I should've replied faster ....... sweety practically said everything I wanted to~ :lol:
I loved how Aya went all Sukeban Deka on Yossie :mon mischief: and I can press "ctrl + D" now that it's finally finished~ :mon fyeah: :mon love:
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btw... I forgot what I was gunna say.... oh yeah...
Another persons brain read by yors truly! I'm on a roll! I like reading peoples' brains! It's fun! I enjoyed reading yours -*scrolls up and looks at writers name* - CrypticShadow8! It was fun!
Funny thing that happened. I was listening to "Defying Gravity cause I love that musical it's my fave and I'm crazy for this song rite now, and long story short, there was that bit in the story and it's the last line I think and it goes "They survived. TOGETHER!" and it just so happened that when I was reading that bit, Idina Menzel's "Together!" was uttered XD so yeah, fun moment there XD
I love this song!
I hope you're happy now~ :3
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Good for Rika for having the sense to go to management to inform them of what had happened. If she hadn't, who knows how many other girls this might have happened to.
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I was still kinda upset at Aya but she definitely redeemed her self when she got all gangsta on Yossi :mon evil: I was like HA! sucka! and props to Rika for informing management :otomerika: .... I haven't seen a caring and mature Rika before in these fanfics so that was a nice surprise... I definitely enjoy this I hope you continue to write more stories
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im actually kinda glad you let Aya off so easily cause Miki needed her there. If she was too proud to forgive her which she wouldn't have been as she was low and broken, but if she was and if she hadn't forgiven her I don't want to know what she would have done on her own..... I fear she would have died. :'(
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I was wondering what happened to this story, and now I'm wondering how I missed the update!
Whoa, scared Miki is something I find very difficult to picture. But I'm glad Aya got justice for her. And that little by little, she can help Miki get back to normal.
Great story! :heart: