How I Fell For My Idiot Roommate
My Roommate From Hell, Literally [Sequel]
#6 [Reasons Why I Fell In Love With Her]
I read it. Oshima Yuko notebook. Her personal thoughts that were also directed at me. Well, something that I shouldn’t have found or seen for all eternity since you know… it is the same like reading diary. But I didn’t see ‘DIARY’ written anywhere, nor I noticed any warnings that say ‘You should stop reading it at all costs if you found it’, so… considering all that… people write warnings when they hide something away, don’t they?
I know, I know… I’m aware of the fact that I’m only making excuses for my decision to read it. I don’t regret it though! (Well maybe a little bit… I think I regret the fact that I decided the write a message for Yuko. Foolish of me! I should just kept in shut and…) but despite all those horrible things she wrote… Yuko also mentioned that she… well… she likes me, doesn’t she? Isn’t that something that I actually want?
It is scary at the time, since I’m not sure 100% and you need to be sure about things 100%. Always 100%!!! But… my heart wouldn’t beat this fast if I weren’t there along with her… so I decided to make my own list… not so informative… (and not so angry! I don’t get it why Yuko has so many issues with liking me… is it that horrible to like me?)
Whatever. I will concentrate on my reasons instead.
#1 — Yuko takes care of me. Despite of being annoyed or angry, disappointed (any sort of that… especially since I know this now after reading her notebook), she still takes care of me, cooks for me, helps me whenever I ask something and never leaves me hanging.
#2 — Her dimple smile or should I call it squirrel smile(?) is my weakness. I can’t get angry if she shares that smile (especially if it is directed at me) even for a second. Yeah… I’m that pathetic… all it takes is just a second…
#3 — Skin ship. That is something that I have mentioned before… that is something that I keep on thinking about. But I can repeat it again… I never liked it much…or I didn’t care about it… also, it never had some sort of influence on me… but with Yuko… well I crave for it. For crying out loud, I even pretended to be drunker than I am for a couple of times… I know that it is ‘NOT THAT NORMAL’ coming from me.
#4 — She priorities her friends among other things which is something that I admire.
#5 — Her admiration. I know… it is weird to hear, considering that she complains about EVERYTHING most of the time… and even wrote how I’m some sort of roommate from hell… but I see the way she looks at me…and it is not the look of hate.
#6 — Her notebook. I never knew what she thinks before… most of those things probably should have made me mad…or at sad… for some reason… I get why she behaved like that some times… she was escaping her feelings… that’s what humans do. A LOT. We’re all foolish with it… especially when we fall in love. I can understand Yuko a lot better now.
#7 — The way she calls me ‘Nyan-Nyan’. Please. Never stop.
#8 — Her jealousy. That is something that I even provoked in the past… yes… I have noticed how she gets annoyed when I’m friendlier with our neighbor or even Mariko. She’s fuming with anger… her expression changes but she tries to hide it and pretend that she doesn’t give a crap. It is impossible to pretend ‘all the time’ so I still get a glance at least and it is more than enough for me.
#9 — Her dependence. I really don’t mind the fact how she gets annoyed when others interrupt our calm evening or how she tries to spend more time together… I really REALLY don’t mind it!
#10 — I don’t even know…why…when or how… I fell for her… all I know is that I’m helplessly in love with my idiot roommate. Does there really have to be reasons, though? Love is a mysterious thing, isn’t it?