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Re: [Atsuko_love's OS Compilation] New OS # 14 Home (Mayuki OS)
« Reply #100 on: January 05, 2014, 01:00:24 PM »
I really need to comment on this lol
it really worth reading this long OS for around 3 hours(?) ~  :twothumbs :twothumbs :twothumbs
Mayu, in such a young age, being homeless.. but still work hard to get on her own feet.. until she found Yuki~ ♥
and Wmatsui~ ♥
this story also gives a moral value that 'hard work will always be rewarded' ..never give up.. :)
I really loves how Mayu's character here like AnakPanti-san described.
and DRUNK MAYU'S POINT OF VIEW is ONE OF A KIND... for me.. :twothumbs LOL XD

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Re: [Atsuko_love's OS Compilation] New OS # 14 Home (Mayuki OS)
« Reply #101 on: January 05, 2014, 02:14:16 PM »
hoho~~ too bad it is only a one shot :( :cry: :( :cry:

pls. continue :bow: :bow:
mayuyu and rena is <3

mayuki and mayurena is my fav <3

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Re: [Atsuko_love's OS Compilation] New OS # 14 Home (Mayuki OS)
« Reply #102 on: February 09, 2014, 05:25:34 PM »
OS # 15 What dreams are made of (Mayuki OS)

Tokyo was amazing, made of dreams of a childhood spent wanting to be out of Nagoya, free to be who she was, who her mother would have encouraged her to become. Yuki loved it from day one, despite the noise, the constant flow of people and the fact that she was irremediably late for her first classes. It was as though she was bathing in magic, tendrils of it sliding over her skin and brushing through her hair. Just when she thought that Tokyo couldn’t get more perfect, she stumbled upon Mayu.

It was a rainy day, the humidity making her hair curl unpleasantly, and once out of classes Yuki immediately sought the refuge of the small café right outside campus. She was waiting in line when she spotted her, sitting in the furthest corner, a book opened in front of her and a pair of glasses perched precariously on the tip of her nose.

It had been a long time since Yuki had thought a girl was cute and definitely the girl immersed in her book was the cutest she had ever seen. Blinking her way back to reality, she ordered her non-fat mocha and spent the wait for her coffee stealing glances of the girl. Yuki noticed she bit her lower lip now and then, probably out of concentration; she couldn’t help thinking the stranger had beautiful lips, plush and surely soft. Clutching her cup a bit tighter, she made her way to her usual table near the window, right next to the reading beauty. As she sat down, the girl lifted her gaze and Yuki couldn’t help staring. Her eyes were big even behind the lenses, warm and the colour of caramel or milk chocolate. The girl smiled and Yuki’s heart fluttered like butterfly wings. She forced herself to smile back, knowing that her cheeks must be completely red.

“Hi.” The girl greeted.

Yuki blinked, the girl’s voice was warm like her eyes, soft and rich; Yuki thought she would be a perfect singer. “H-Hi.” And really she wished she hadn’t stammered, but these things didn’t happen to her; beautiful girl noticing her and talking to her like that.

“You’re a student at AKB, right?”

Yuki quirked an eyebrow. “Yes, costume design.”

The stranger’s smile grew bigger. “I knew it!”

“You mean you know me?”

“Well, I study musical theatre writing and I passed you a few times in the hallways since the beginning of the semester.”

The girl’s cheeks grew redder and her voice was barely a whisper when she spoke again. “You’re not easy to miss.”

Yuki’s fingers tightened around the cup; she didn’t know how to interpret the girl’s words. Back in Nagoya she had been all too used to disgusted stares following her as she walked along the hallways, always sticking out, always different.

The girl must have guessed what she was thinking because her eyes grew wide and she forcefully shook her head, curls bouncing slightly. “Oh no, I didn’t mean it in a bad way. It’s just that…well, you’re beautiful.”

Yuki’s mouth fell open and for an instant she was sure she had lost control of her whole body. The girl passed a hand through her hair and groaned softly.

“Oh God, now you’ll think I’m some kind of freak. I swear I’m not a stalker and I’m sorry, I tend to blurt out things without thinking and…” She was adorable, all flushed and rambling and Yuki couldn’t contain a chuckle.

“No, don’t worry, you just…took me by surprise, that’s all.”

The girl flashed her a relieved smile before lowering her gaze again. Yuki focused her attention on the bottom of her cup, willing her heartbeat to slow down. When she lifted her gaze again the girl was looking at her. “Do…do you mind if I sit with you?”

Yuki tried to answer but her tongue didn’t seem to cooperate so she simply nodded. The stranger collected her book and cup and stood up. Yuki took in the red cardigan she was wearing. Adorable and at the same time so gorgeous that Yuki almost couldn’t believe she was real.

“I’m Mayu, by the way.”

Yuki looked at the girl’s hand, long and broad. It was warm against her when she took it.

“I’m Yuki. Nice to meet you.”

It was easy to lose track of time talking with Mayu; she was funny and bright and smiled with the force of ten suns. Since she arrived in Tokyo and started attending AKB she had met people like her, with dreams too big to be contained, who had started reading Vogue as soon as they found out about its existence, who loved Broadway with passion. But Mayu was like no one she had ever met. She spoke about music with such a quiet passion, her eyes shining with the force of it. She spoke about it as though it was part of her and the more they talked, the more Yuki found that she wanted to know Mayu. To discover how she was like when she was growing up, what her true dreams were. It was scary somehow; having always been so guarded when it came to herself, to her past and to her deepest desires, almost afraid that the world could break them.

When Mayu told her she used to be in her school’s glee club and that once becoming a singer had been her biggest dream Yuki couldn’t prevent a small sad smile from quirking her lips.

“Did I say something wrong?”

Yuki shook her head. “Not at all. It’s just that singing used to be my dream too.”

Mayu nodded and smiled. “My grandmother used to say that the beautiful thing about dreams is that they may change but the remain made of magic.”

Yuki took a gulp of her now cold coffee, her heart weirdly lighter.

Making her way back to her apartment, Mayu’s number memorized in her mobile phone and the warmth of her hand still making her fingertips tingle, Yuki thought that Mayu was exactly the person she had been waiting for when she was still in Nagoya, a girl dreaming about a gentle and loving girlfriend.

Even though she knew it was unwise to fall for someone she had just met, that didn’t change the fact that she spent the whole ride on the underground smiling at the tunnels sliding by behind the windows, hoping to meet Mayu on campus the following day.


Mayu woke up as her alarm clock dismantled the dreams she had been having. For a while she remained there, staring at the ceiling, remembering the previous afternoon, the way the gray light had caressed Yuki’s beautiful face, the musicality of her voice, the uncertainty that had laced her words when they were talking about music and old dreams.

She had never been good when it came to romance if the failed attempt to serenade a GAP’s manager whom she had a crush for or her failed attempt to build a relationship with Annin, when she wanted nothing more than a toy to play with, were anything to go by. But when she looked at Yuki, beautiful and frail and so strong at the same time, something that had never completely gone off inside of her flicked back to life, the flame of romance that made her start fantasizing about sweet and lovely girlfriends when she was thirteen years old and figured out that she wanted a princess and not a prince.

It probably was stupid to feel this way and think such things, because life had proved to Mayu more than once that it worked differently from what they wrote in books and put into movies. Life was made by parents who didn’t know how to behave around their own daughter, by bullies that cracked your bones under their shoes simply because you were different. But then again life was also music, living in Tokyo and meeting Yuki.

Life could be built upon dreams that come true. Despite all she had already been through at the age of nineteen, Mayu had always believed in that and always would, because it was a precious thought to hold on to when the sea was too wild and the darkness too deep. She had noticed the way Yuki had reacted to the mention of childhood dreams and she wondered if maybe Yuki felt lost without a light to guide her. Mayu foolishly hoped that she could become that light one day.

If there was a new spring to her pace and everything seemed slightly brighter as she made her way towards campus, Mayu knew perfectly well the reason behind it.


Yuki was easy to spot, sitting on a bench in the cafeteria, a sketchbook perched on her knees. She was probably drawing something, her tongue poking out from between her teeth and a surge of heat sloshed around inside Mayu’s stomach at the sight. She was sure she had never met someone as naturally sexy as Yuki; everything from her milky wrists barely visible under the cuffs of her shirt to her perfectly styled hair screamed beauty and it was almost overwhelming.

Nervousness slowly crept over her, what if she had misjudged Yuki’s interest the previous day because she was too eager to get her attention, to get to be close to her? She might make a fool of herself walking over and simply sitting down as though she had some kind of right to do it. She was almost about to turn around and walk out of the room when she remembered the small shy smiles Yuki had directed at her, the brightness in her eyes when Mayu had asked her for her number. She took a deep breath, squared her shoulders despite the butterflies going crazy in her stomach and started walking.

Yuki lifted her gaze from her notebook when Mayu stopped in front of her; it felt as though someone had pinned her to the spot, the black orb of Yuki’s eyes almost mesmerizing.


Yuki’s voice was slightly breathless and to realize that maybe she was the reason for it sent Mayu’s heart stuttering helplessly against her ribcage.

“Hi. Busy creating?”

Yuki shrugged and closed her notebook, scooting backwards on the bench to leave her place to sit; Mayu felt insanely happy and grateful for it.

“Nothing much, just a couple of sketches.”

Mayu found herself hoping that one day Yuki would trust her enough to show her her work; maybe she would be lucky enough to be the one Yuki would come to for advices. She’d love to be that for Yuki, to be a constant in her life, to support her and kiss everything better when the world tipped around the wrong way.

Clearing her throat she took a seat on the bench and smiled nervously, mentally berating herself because she hadn’t given more thought about the way to proceed from there. “Nice shirt.”

Yuki’s smile was genuine and something relaxed inside of Mayu. “You like it? I guess I’ve been obsessed with clothing since I understood what they were.”

“Being obsessed with fashion is always good.”

“It is and I have always worn my clothes with pride even when they teased me mercilessly for that.”

Yuki’s smile was thin and Mayu wondered if once again she had hit the wrong key; she should have known better, leaving certain memories behind wasn’t always easy and the scars remained anyway. Her scars were there every morning, white and wide right under her ribs, but where were Yuki’s? How deep did they run? She really should have known better. For a while Yuki remained silent, the sounds of the cafeteria engulfing them, clinking of cups and voices talking and laughing. Mayu wanted to reach out, to take Yuki’s hand and brush her thumb over those pearly-white knuckles, but she couldn’t; she adjusted her glasses on her nose to give herself something to do before speaking again.

“I am sorry; it seems I always manage to say the wrong thing.”

Yuki shook her head, eyes wide and so clear that they seemed made of glass.

“No, it’s just…I thought I had put some things behind my back now that I’m here, but it seems I haven’t.”

Mayu took her in, her shoulders slightly hunched, her lips set in a thin line; she didn’t want to be the one responsible for that look on Yuki’s face. She knew they didn’t know each other, except for their names and for a couple of silly music-related anecdotes; they shouldn’t have been here, standing on tiptoes on the verge of a possible discussion about wounds and broken hearts, a discussion that Mayu had never had with anyone else before. And yet there they were and Mayu had to do something about it, had to find the courage because things like this didn’t happen every day, people like Yuki didn’t happen every day.

“D-do you want to go for a walk or something?”

She held her breath as Yuki worried her lower lip and let her gaze travel around the noisy space. When she finally nodded, Mayu’s heart thumped happily. Waiting for Yuki to collect her belonging she had to remind to herself that this was nothing much, just maybe the beginning of a friendship, and no matter how beautiful Yuki was, no matter how faster her blood rushed when she was close, that would have to be enough.

They walked in silence, shoulders brushing as they navigated through the busy streets. Words piled up high in Mayu’s throat, her fingertips tingling with the need to do something to fix whatever was preventing Yuki from being completely free to build something new for herself.

When they finally sat down on a bench in Akihabara Square, Yuki surprised her by being the first one to speak.

“I wasn’t expecting this.”

Mayu looked at Yuki who kept her eyes focused on the fountain in front of them.

“What part weren’t you expecting?”

“The part where I meet you, we don’t even know each other and yet you want to know about me.”

Guilt unfurls cold in Mayu’s stomach; she shouldn’t have pushed so much, she knows and yet there was no way she could help it.

“I am sorry.”

Yuki turned, then, a small smile on her lips. “You shouldn’t be sorry, Mayu. It’s just…I wasn’t expecting it, I…I have never had someone who asked me to talk, really talk.”

Mayu nodded, because she knew the feeling; back at her place, the Matsuis were her friends but there were certain things Mayu had never felt like sharing and no one asked for her to unlock the door she had closed and locked after that night at the prom. There were things that she felt they couldn’t understand, not because they didn’t care about her but because they hadn’t lived them.

“I know. It was the same for me, except maybe I was the one who didn’t want to talk about them.”

Yuki tilted her head to the side, her eyes attentive and glinting slightly in the afternoon light.

“You seem so at ease with your past, though.”

It had taken time and a lot of patience, to dig underneath the debris of disapproving glances and aching bones, but Mayu had always known she had to make it; she owed herself that, a second chance, not giving the possibility to those who had hurt her to keep doing it throughout her life. She wanted happiness, she wanted music and freedom to be herself so she had taken them. Her hands were still covered in the scars she had acquired trying but each of them was worth it.

“It isn’t that I am at ease with it; more like I decided it didn’t matter enough to prevent me from living all the rest, if that makes sense.”

She shook her head, wishing she was better with words.

“It does make sense.”

Mayu lowered her gaze on Yuki’s hand, resting on the bench between them, and allowed herself to cover it with her own. It was soft and warm, just like she had imagined it.

“Look, Yuki. You might not see it but you’re already there. You are in Tokyo, you’re studying something you love, you have the world in your hands, waiting for you to shape it.”

Yuki shifted on the bench but didn’t pull her hand away.

“It’s just that sometimes I think certain things will always remain inside me and…”

“Oh, they will, but you’ve got to use them to become better and stronger, not to let them drag you down when you’re supposed to soar.”

Yuki’s eyes were looking straight at her, serious and deep.

“Thank you, Mayu.”

Something lifted inside of her, floating light at the thought that maybe she had managed to do something for Yuki.

“No need to thank me, Yuki.”

They kept looking at each other until Yuki’s cheeks started to color and Mayu felt her own getting hotter. She quickly removed her hand and cleared her throat.


“Want to go for a coffee? Also you’ve to tell me how comes that you’re so good with words when you’re supposed to write music.”

Mayu chuckled.

“Sure! And, well, I’ve to admit I’ve always had a weak point for those small poems they print on chocolate’s wrappers!”

Yuki’s laugh rang perfect and clear and slipped easily in the small space under Mayu’s heart where she kept the biggest dreams, nestling as if it was there to stay.


Mayu's texts are written in bold and Yuki's in italics

I just wanted to thank you again for today; it meant a lot to me.

Again, you don’t need to thank me and I know we don’t really know each other yet, but I am always here, you know?

Mayu hid her face against the pillow, hoping that the fact that Yuki was taking time to reply didn’t mean she had embarrassed her.

Weird as it may sound I actually feel like I already know you.

Mayu grinned, her stomach assaulted by butterflies. She had never felt like this before, light and humming with warm energy; it was one of the best sensations ever.

Same for me. Maybe we’re both crazy or maybe we’ve already met in a parallel world or something.

Okay, you definitely are the crazy one here!

Just so you know I might get offended but I won’t; only because it’s you, though.

Oh, I feel honored!

Good, you should :P

Mayu stared at her phone’s screen; was Yuki flirting with her? It was almost surreal, to think that someone like Yuki, beautiful and talented and sweet, could be interested in her. She certainly couldn’t deny the sparks that every text ignited inside of her or the desire to spend more and more time with Yuki.

Also, tell me if I am too pushy, but would you like to have lunch together tomorrow?

She closed her eyes and forced herself to relax; it was just a small invite to lunch, right? She wished she was better at this, but all of it, from the trembling in her heart to the playful texts was unknown territory. With Annin there had been none of it and it made her angry because now she knew she shouldn’t have given up so much hoping to catch something more than lust in Annin’s eyes. She shook her head forcefully; it didn’t matter now, what mattered was the present and the fact that no one could rob her of the chance to be happy with Yuki.

I’d love to.

Great! I’ll see you tomorrow at the cafeteria, then.

See you tomorrow, Mayu. Good night x

Good night, Yuki x

She fell asleep with that small “x” shining against her closed eyelids.


Yuki slipped into this new life with Mayu in it easily; somehow it was like going back home, back to a place where she belonged. Without realizing it, since her arrival in Tokyo, she had shielded herself, maybe it was out of habit or maybe out of fear because she was too used to people not liking her, judging her. Sure, she would never change who she was, she had fought too hard to end up like that, but that didn’t mean judgment was easier to deal with. Doing so, though, she had held in part of the passion that had brought her in the city of her dreams; only a small rivulet of it had kept fueling her new-found dreams, and they needed more than that, she needed more than that.

Then Mayu had come, with her soft words of encouragement and those incredibly contagious smiles, with her habit to take her by the hand when the streets were too crowded or she was too excited and wanted show her something. All of it was new to Yuki, the happiness that filled her when she heard Mayu laughing, the warm tingling that made her tremble from head to toe every time that Mayu leant too close when they were watching some musical together or when they stood on a packed underground train. It was like a low hum, spreading through her body, igniting her nerves. It was like taking a step out of a garden and realize that the world was waiting for her.


She should have realized it since the beginning, since Mayu lifted her gaze from that book in the café and the mere sight of her eyes had sent her stomach fluttering, but she hadn’t. The moment Yuki realized fully that there was no way she could look at Mayu only as a friend was on a night in late November. They were sitting on the roof of Mayu’s building, huddled under woolen blankets and drinking hot spicy wine they had prepared.

Mayu was talking about a story she had dreamed of writing when she was still in high school. It was about a girl who lived on the edge of the unknown, all alone, with no one to answer her questions, to sing her to sleep or to kiss her. One day, tired of the loneliness, the girl took a step into the unknown and then another and another, until she felt someone take her hand. For the whole story she never saw who the person was, but she could hear a voice, singing softly to her and answering all the questions that before had been left unanswered.

“Did this person kiss the girl too?” Yuki looked at Mayu as she tipped her head backwards and stared at the sky stretching black above their heads.

“I like to think so.”

When Mayu turned towards her she was wearing the most tender, beautiful smile Yuki had ever seen. And in that moment, with the scent of cinnamon twirling around them, she understood that what she had begun to feel for Mayu simply couldn’t be confined in a box labeled “friendship”. She wanted to be the one to take Mayu’s hand, answer her questions and kiss her, until the end of time.


Mayu realized she had to something because otherwise her heart was going to crack at the seams for how big what she felt was on a Thursday morning in December, right before Christmas break. Yuki had been so stressed during the previous week because of exams and projects to hand in and Mayu had wished she knew what to do to cheer her up, to help her out. In the end she had simply opted for being around the more that she could, knocking on Yuki’s door almost every night, a movie in one hand and sometimes takeaway in the other.

The day of Yuki’s last exam, Mayu was standing on the pavement right outside AKB’s entrance, clutching a bouquet of yellow roses as though it was a lifeline. She had spent at least half an hour at the florist, looking at all those flowers and feeling so lost that the shop owner had taken pity of her and asked if she needed help. Blushing she had said that she needed something for someone special. The woman had looked at her with a raised brow. “I guess it’s for someone who’s more than a friend?”

Mayu had looked at her and a small smile had titled her lips, “Yes, definitely.”

When the doors opened and Yuki steeped out, Mayu’s heart went completely crazy and all the words got lost somewhere, swept away by the wave of anxiety and longing that sloshed through her.


She swallowed around the lump in her throat and held out the bouquet for Yuki to take it. “These are for you.”

Yuki blinked, cheeks red and eyes wide. “But…”

“Because you worked so hard and to remember that you’re amazing, Yuki.” Mayu desperately hoped that this was alright, that Yuki didn’t think it was too much. Then, Yuki’s arms were around her and she found herself pressed against her, the sweet scent of her perfume making her whole body thrum.

Yuki’s voice was trembling slightly when she spoke. “Thank you, Mayu. You were the amazing one, always being there for me. I…no one has ever done something like that for me.”

With trembling arms Mayu hugged her back, and all she could think was that she loved this girl, completely and without possibility to turn back.


Mayu spent the whole Sunday sitting cross-legged on the floor in her room, guitar in hand and crumpled music sheets blossoming like flowers around her.

She had been composing music, thinking about notes and songs, since she could remember; back when she had been a kid, trying to figure herself out not having anyone to talk to, that had been the easiest way. Pouring everything into small songs that she would sing to herself under the shower, before going to bed at night or as she dressed for school in the morning. Her grandmother used to tell her that music was a part of her, like it had been for her grandfather.

Closing her eyes she let her mind free to reach out for the small memories of Yuki she had made through the past months- Yuki looking in awe at a shop’s window, Yuki with her nose white because of cappuccino foam, Yuki laughing, Yuki twirling as snow fell over the park, Yuki sitting on her bed crying as they watched a sad movie, Yuki drawing at her desk, Yuki hugging her.

With every single image something inside of Mayu dilated, growing bigger and bigger, surging like a wave. Her fingers moved easily on the chords, her love for Yuki making every note clear and sharper. She played and played until the night fell outside and she was satisfied with what she had created. Now she had to be brave and sing it to Yuki, because there was no way she could express how she felt with words, she needed music to do it for her.

I know you are flying back home early on Tuesday, but do you we could meet tomorrow evening?

Of course! I wouldn’t want to leave without saying goodbye to you x

Mayu cradled her mobile closer to her chest- Please, never say goodbye to me.


Yuki went down the stairs taking two at a time; she hated being late, but to push all the clothes she needed inside her suitcase took more than expected. It was going to be her first New Year’s Eve as a ‘Tokyoer’, no longer tied down to Nagoya and she wanted to look fabulous. As she walked along the street towards the underground station, her thoughts obediently trotted back to Mayu, to the sweetness of her smiles, to the greatness of her passion for music, for life.

She had always spent a lot of her time dreaming, since she was a kid, playing in the back garden imagining to live in a castle with beautiful clothes and a princess by her side or, later on, dreaming that one day she would wake up and her mother would be there, beautiful and kind as she had used to be. She had kept on dreaming when she was in middle and high school, dreaming of bright lights and billboards, of fabulous clothes and of loves big enough to overturn the whole world.

Before meeting Mayu, she hadn’t realize how much having to let go of some of those dreams had scarred her, deep down, where she stuffed things which were too precious to see the light, right beside the faded memory of her mother’s smiles. Getting to know her had unveiled those scars and Yuki had been forced to look at them, and accept that they were there but simply couldn’t prevent her from dreaming more and bigger.

Thing was that now the majority, if not the totality, of her dreams seemed to revolve also around Mayu. There were both small things, like fantasizing about romantic walks in the park, and bigger ones, like daydreaming about a future together, waking up side by side in the morning and kissing over the kitchen table they would have bought together.

When Mayu had asked her to meet before her flight, Yuki couldn’t deny the way her heart had fluttered, like a small and excited bird. Standing on the underground train, she gripped the pole tighter, repeating to herself that she shouldn’t expect anything. She shouldn’t be waiting for something to happen, for their friendship to morph into something more, and yet something inside her kept growing with each morning they shared Mayu’s favorite biscotti, with each shy smile, with each dream of tanned skin and soft lips that left her aching.

Mayu had told her to meet at the obelisk and Yuki hurried along the path; the ground was still covered in snow here and there and it reflected the orange light of the lamp posts, making everything seem so much brighter. Yuki thought it looked like a dream, or like one of those fairytales her mother used to read her at night. It was still early and there weren’t too many people around, everything felt muted and softer. Yuki’s heart thumped against her ribcage, filled with the desire to see Mayu. She didn’t like the idea of not seeing for two weeks, as she didn’t like the idea of Mayu spending Christmas back at home without her brother, having to endure hours of her father parading her around, of course being careful not to mention the fact that his daughter was gay.

The first time Mayu told her about her coming-out about the way her father had treated her since then, Yuki was rinsing strawberries to make a dessert for the two of them and she had squeezed them so hard they had broken, spilling red pulp on her fingers. She had yelped and Mayu had walked over; she didn’t look at her but had helped her cleaning her hands. Yuki could still remember the feel of Mayu’s fingers firm around hers. That day Yuki had told her that there was nothing wrong in being upset or angry sometimes, that forcing herself to be always happy and optimistic would dry her up eventually. Mayu had scooted closer on the couch and had taken her hand. Yuki had squeezed it firmly. With me you’re free to be yourself, to let go when you don’t have the strength to hold on.

Yuki had never had a friendship like that, back then no one had trusted her with so much of herself that she felt truly free to lower barriers forged by years of loneliness. With a small smile on her lips, she reached the obelisk and stopped dead in her track. Sitting on the fence, guitar in hand, Mayu looked up at her and smiled. Then she started playing and the whole world seemed to fade away.

Mayu looked at Yuki, standing perfect in front of her, immersed in the whiteness of the park covered in snow. She looked like an illustration out of a book, she looked like a dream. And Mayu knew that she would regret it through all her life, if she didn’t get this chance and bare her heart completely for Yuki to take it or refuse it.

She had spent the whole day working on the song she had composed; it felt as though it was engraved in her bones, along with her love for the beautiful girl standing in front of her, lips slightly parted and cheeks red. The words stirred inside of her and easily and gracefully caressed her heart before slipping past her lips, for the world to hear, for Yuki to understand.

They told me dreams are made of hopes
I hoped and hoped and nothing came
They told me dreams are made of magic
But I soon learned I wasn’t a magician
So I waited and dreamed
Because they say that’s what human beings do better
I didn’t know what dreams were made of
And then I met you
And you were calmness among confusion
You were big and bright skies
And I thought you were it
And I thought you were it
what my dreams were made of
You are the flesh and bones of my hopes
The hidden rhythm of my heart
You are the magic
The magic my dreams are made of

The last note fell on the snow-covered ground and Mayu held her breath, her heart beating out of rhythm, like a broken piano. Yuki stood motionless, her eyes glinting in the morning light and Mayu wished she were closer to understand if she was crying. She was about to stand and apologize, her hear sinking and sinking, when Yuki took a step towards her and then another and another, small white clouds dancing in front of her lips as she breathed.

Mayu instinctively rose got up, setting the guitar aside. Yuki didn’t give her the time to say anything before she threw her arms around her neck pulling her close. Everything inside of Mayu shut down the moment Yuki’s lips met hers.

There were only warm clouds of breath and fingers sinking in her hair. There was only Yuki’s body pressed so impossibly close and yet not even remotely close enough. There was only her love overflowing, drowning all the rest. Her breath shook with the force of it, her skin thrummed.

Then, Yuki pulled back, gasping down air, the tips of their noses were brushing and all that Mayu could see were Yuki’s eyes, those beautiful eyes.

“Then this is what dreams taste of.”

Yuki’s laugh sounded like fireworks in the small space between their lips.

“You are incorrigible.”

Mayu knew it was no use to keep it inside, not when Yuki was there, so perfect and so important, like oxygen, like happiness itself. Yuki was the one, the one she dreamed of, the one she composed music for even before meeting her, the only one who came to know all of her and didn’t walk away. The one Mayu wanted to try to share her future with.

“I love you, Yuki.”

Yuki kissed her, long and deep, with the morning light sliding over the snow and with their hearts beating in sync.

“I love you too, Mayu.”


She walked Yuki back home, hands clasped and swinging slightly between their bodies. Yuki talked and smiled and shone like a star. And Mayu couldn’t believe all of it was true, that it wasn’t going to disappear in the morning like a simple dream. But no, Yuki was no ordinary dream, she was the dream Mayu had been having for so long that it became part of her. She was the only dream that mattered.

Yuki kissed her again and again in front of her door. She kissed like she smiled and like she felt, pure and strong and Mayu thought she could live on Yuki’s kisses. Time slipped past and they remained there, on the landing, holding each other. After months spent daydreaming about it, Mayu tried to memorize how Yuki felt in her arms, how her lips tasted. She knew she had to let go because Yuki’s flight was early in the morning the following day but she couldn’t bring herself to.

“You know I’m not going anywhere, right?”

Mayu lifted her head from Yuki’s shoulder and looked at her; she was smiling tender and gentle. “I know, it’s just…”

“Why don’t you come to visit me in Nagoya for a couple of days? I mean…of course if it is alright with you…”

“Yuki, I’d love to.”

Yuki’s arms were strong around her. It surprised Mayu to realize how much she needed their safety and their support when she usually was the one trying to support other people. She hid her face against Yuki’s chest, taking in her perfume and her warmth.

“You make me so happy. I feel like I’m dreaming.”

Yuki kissed her forehead gently. “Let’s never stop dreaming then.”

Goodnight, Yuki. I hope you’ll have wonderful dreams. x

Of course I will, after all you are what my dreams were made of.


Mayu doesn’t feel like waking up; she loves Sunday mornings, when Yuki doesn’t have to rush to work and has time to cook breakfast, when she usually doesn’t have rehearsals and can curl around Yuki, holding her under the blankets as long as she wants.

Right now Yuki is still asleep, hair tousled and a small smile on her lips. Mayu watches her and remembers the first morning they woke up together, legs tangled and arms entwined, in the small bed of her dorm room. That morning they had breakfast in a small café, in front of the huge windows, people passing by outside and pale winter sun shining, Yuki smiled the whole time, bright and beautiful over their cups of coffee, foot touching her under the table. In that moment Mayu thought she had finally learned what happiness meant.

Four years have passed from that January morning and Yuki still smiles at her that way when they sit at the small table in their kitchen, sleepy and full of love, and Mayu still feels the luckiest girl on Earth. She thinks she’ll never stop feeling like this with Yuki by her side, which means she’ll feel like this until the day she dies because when she pictures her future Yuki is always there, waking by her side in the morning, kissing her goodnight and bringing her flowers after every performance.

She asked Yuki to live together right after their graduation from AKB; she had practically been living at Yuki’s place, her clothes hang in the wardrobe beside Yuki’s and their toothbrushes side by side on the bathroom’s sink, but she wanted a place for them, a place where they could build a new life together.

When she gathered enough courage to ask they were sitting on a bench in the park, warm spring sun washing over them; Yuki had dropped the Styrofoam cup she was holding and hugged her tight, lips brushing against the shell of Mayu’s ear as she repeated “yes” over and over again. Mayu had held her tight, heart soaring.

They went house hunting together, hands swinging between them as they walked along the busy streets, hopes flying high above their heads, because the moment was come to move on from their university years, to take their dreams in their hands and morph them into something beautiful and they were doing it together.

The day they moved into their new apartment, small but cozy, Mayu made love to Yuki on the small air mattress they had brought with them. Yuki held onto her tight, their moans mixing and rolling over the wooden floor, echoing against white walls. As Mayu sank deeper and deeper, love burning along her veins and igniting her bones, she realized that Yuki was to her like a beautiful dream come true. A dream made of pale skin and soft lips, a dream who loved her and took her hand and didn’t let go.

At first they only bought the bed and a few pans and plates, waiting to save up more money to buy the rest. They ate sitting on cushions on the floor and cooked their meals on a small camp stove their neighbour gave them. It didn’t look like a normal house at all, but it was perfect nonetheless. They came back home to each other after long days spent doing internships and part time jobs- Yuki worked in a small café and Mayu in a little bookshop- and that was what mattered. Showering together, Yuki gently washing her hair, falling asleep together; it wasn’t new but it meant so much more now that they were in their new house. The place where they learned and loved, the place where Yuki drew and Mayu composed; the lyrics of the songs she wrote for Yuki scribbled on crumpled paper and pinned to the walls of their bedroom.

Slowly they raised up enough money to start buying new pieces of furniture, new sheets and curtains, they definitely needed those. Piece by piece they kept making it theirs, piece by piece they learned how to work around each other even better than before, small things like Mayu passing Yuki a spoon or a glass without the need for Yuki to ask, or Yuki making sure to cook Mayu’s favorites after a difficult rehearsal. Small things and so precious Mayu’s heart was always on the verge of cracking because of all the happiness and the gratitude piling up inside of it.

Of course there have also been fights, slammed doors and yells, nights Yuki slept on the couch and Mayu had the feeling of drowning in the vastness of their bed. Times when their love was too big and cumbersome to react properly, when words hurt too much and pride prevented their hands from reaching out. Afterwards came hours spent talking, hands holding tight mugs of tea or of coffee, apologizes and promises. They always went back to their feet, the thread linking their hearts together stronger. Mayu hated fighting with Yuki, but loved the fact that from every fight they emerged with a deeper knowledge of each other, steadier on their feet, her love for Yuki engraved a bit deeper in her bones.


Yuki starts to stir and Mayu allows herself to lean forward and press a kiss to her forehead. “Mmm good morning.”

Mayu smiles against Yuki’s warm skin. “Good morning, love.”

Yuki blinks her eyes open. Mayu presses closer, until every line and every curve of her fit against Yuki’s.

“You are so beautiful when you sleep, Yuki. Like something that isn’t supposed to be here on this planet.”

Yuki smiles, cheeks coloring and eyes glinting, her palm pressing gently against Mayu’s lower back to pull her even closer.

“Oh I think this is exactly where I’m meant to be.”

Mayu’s heart flatters like the wings of a small bird and she smiles before leaning forward and pressing a kiss to the corner of Yuki’s mouth.

Yuki makes love to her gently and slowly, because they have all the time in the world today, today the universe is contained in the small space between their arching bodies and the whiteness of the sheets. Mayu will never get tired of this, of the way their bodies keep calling each other, and becoming one over and over. She’ll never get tired of the way being held by Yuki makes her feel, safe and happy and walking and breathing through a constant dream. They spend the rest of the morning holding each other, caressing and kissing and whispering future plans and snippets of songs.

When her stomach starts to grumble, Mayu pushes herself out of bed and puts on a pair of sweatpants and a beany, ready to brave the winter afternoon to go and grab a couple of cappuccinos because they are out of coffee. Yuki accompanies her to the door and presses a small kiss to her lips.

Her heart seems to float inside her ribcage, fill with love and adoration and sheer joy, pure and untamed. As she is making her way to the nearest café, she fishes out her mobile phone and types.

(10: 00)
I love you so much words or notes are never going to be enough.

Good, because I don’t need words and notes. I simply need you (and that cappuccino, so come back soon!) <3

OS # 15 What dreams are made of (Mayuki OS)

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I like It  :inlove:

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Omg ur story is so beautiful and lovely as always  :love: XD

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OH KEVIN~  :gmon heartu:



NYAHAHAHA~ :gmon witch:

meh, actually I must say I am really impressed with your stories more and more, and you know what? :gmon bang:

me and niichan were recently talking about you and your writing :gmon hot:

we realized that you are one of those few people who are capable of grasping the personalities and quirks of the characters. Your writing style is also very nice and comprehensible and the flow of the story is always easy to follow~  :gmon flowers:

It's like, we give you any pairing and you write it. Not every person is capable of doing so, so feel blessed I guess  :gmon nya:

And back to the story, I think I mentioned it already, but it was a very nice read and deeply touched me in a nice way  :gmon shy:

Sankyuu~  :gmon sweet:

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OS # 16 Summer Love (YuiParu OS)

P.S : Fictional Birthdays in this fic~
P.S.S : This fic may cause diabetes

Paru set her school bag down, and collapsed onto the sofa. She was exhausted. Not just because it was Friday, June twenty seventh, but because it was the last day of school. Needless to say, the school year had really tired her out, and all she wanted to do was sleep all summer.

But, that wasn’t going to happen. Paru was going to a sleepaway camp for the whole two months of summer. It was a bit late for summer camp; at fifteen years old (sixteen in a few weeks), if she went back to the camp next year, she would need to be a counselor in training. But her mother had signed her up months ago, and well, it was official. Paru’s mom didn’t entirely make the decision for her. Part of Paru wanted to go. However, both Paru’s parents were working the entire summer, so she would be stuck at home entertaining herself anyhow. So, she figured she’d give camp a shot.

As for friends to entertain her...Paru didn’t exactly have any. she wasn’t bullied; it’s not like her entire school was against her. she just preferred to be a wallflower. She watched and observed people, but didn’t interact with them as much. And people at school had their own lives to tend to; no one had the time to come up to her and try to make a conversation. Paru didn’t go up to people, and people didn’t come up to her. This was mostly okay with Paru. she enjoyed solitude; probably as much as she would enjoy having the company of friends. But without company, everyone gets lonely sometimes. Including her.

Paru had moved to Tokyo when she was eleven. her father was from Tokyo who was in Kyoto for work temporarily, so when she married Paru’s mother, it was agreed that they would have to move back to Tokyo sometime. This may be part of the reason why Paru didn’t have many friends; she didn’t fit in quite as well with the Tokyo students as she had with the Kyoto. In all her years of living there, it just hadn’t been the same.

Paru needed to pack. she lifted herself off the sofa and dragged her feet as she slowly walked to her bedroom. she grabbed her packing list from one of her drawers, and eyed the first thing on the list. Once she had laid everything out on her bed (which wasn’t much, Paru was a light packer) she went over to her wardrobe, and took out two suitcases. she neatly folded and put everything into the bags.

Once packed, Paru headed downstairs, and turned on the television. Amidst her TV watching, she heard a key turn in the keyhole, and saw the door open as her mother came in from her second to last day of teaching math for the school year.

“Hi Paru,” she said with a smile.

“Hey mom,” Paru replied. Paru was pretty close with her mother. Her father as well, but she had a special relationship with her mother. They understood each other, and Paru was aware that she could come to her if she ever had a problem. Maybe it was because they were both from Kyoto. Did Paru just naturally connect better to other Kyoto people? Her mother headed up to her room, and Paru continued watching television before her mother sat down beside her.

“Are you excited for camp on Monday?” she asked.

“I don’t know,” Paru responded. “I’m a combination of nervous and excited. I have no idea what it will be like.”

“Don’t worry,” said her mother. “The people there are very nice. I’m sure you will befriend a few people. Have you eaten yet?”

“Not yet,” replied Paru.

“Alright then, I guess we’ll order mexican food,” said Paru’s mom as she got off the couch to order food.

Until dinner arrived, Paru continued watching television. Her father got home as well, and Paru sat down at the dinner table. She discussed the school year and camp with her parents before excusing herself from the dinner table, and heading up to her room.
In her room, Paru curled up with a good book. She was currently reading “Fahrenheit 451” by Ray Bradbury, for the second time. Paru, unlike others, quite enjoyed classic literature. she could learn quite a bit from it, and found it just as engaging as current novels.

After reading, Paru brushed her teeth, changed into her pajamas, and crawled into bed. The fatigue that had settled over her on the couch after school was no longer present. Instead, she buzzed with nerves and excitement. What would camp be like? Would she make friends? Were the counselors nice? What activities would she enjoy? These thoughts were buzzing through her head at high speeds until she finally dropped off to sleep after a half an hour of just thinking.

The first thought that came to Paru’s mind when she awoke on Monday morning was camp. she lifted herself out of bed, and headed to the bathroom to brush her teeth, before getting back to her room to get dressed. she had picked out an outfit the night before that she thought was suitable for the first day of camp. It was casual, yet attractive. she dragged her large bag downstairs.

She found her mom in the kitchen preparing breakfast. “Morning Paru,” she said. “I’m currently preparing breakfast. After we eat breakfast, we’ll head out.”

Paru ate her eggs and french toast in silence as her mother ate. her father came downstairs soon after, and ate her breakfast as well. Then it came time to say goodbye. Paru had always been very close to her parents, and this was her first time going to summer camp, so this wasn’t an easy thing to do. One of Paru’s biggest fears was that she would get homesick at summer camp, and make a complete and utter fool of herself. With pictures of her family in her suitcase and a goodbye kiss, she hoped this wouldn’t happen.

“I’m going to miss you dad,” Paru said and smiled sadly as her father pulled her in for a hug. She wouldn’t cry.

“I’ll miss you too Paru. But don’t worry, the summer will fly by before you know it.”

“Eh, I have mixed feelings about that. It’s good because I’ll get to see you again soon. Bad because I’ll have to go back to school,” Paru sighed, and frowned. “If camp is hell, I’ll surely be very glad it went by fast.”

“Don’t worry, it won’t be. It’s summer camp, it’s supposed to be fun!” her father reassured her. Paru gave her father one last goodbye hug and kiss before grabbing her two large suitcases and trudging out the door.

One thing Paru wished she had to say goodbye to was a dog. Paru had always loved dogs, and really wanted one. No one in her family was allergic, including her older brothers, who were off on summer internships, and whom she’d said goodbye to once they left. Her brothers biological father’s weren’t Paru’s current one; he was from Kyoto and Paru had never met him. They just didn’t want the responsibility. Paru always said she’d fully take care of the dog, but her family wasn’t buying it.

She stuffed her suitcase into the trunk, sat down in the passenger seat, and stuffed her ear buds into her ears. Her mom got into the car next to her, stuck the key into the ignition and started driving. The camp was a good three hours away, and Paru knew that the car ride would be boring. She couldn’t focus on reading or watching or playing a game on her phone due to nervousness, so she just sat there and rubbed her palms together; listening to music. But even that wasn’t much of a distraction.

As they got closer and closer to the camp, Paru got more and more nervous. She felt butterflies in her stomach, and her mouth was dry. She fiddled with the hem of her shirt and shook her leg as she sighed and stared at the window.

“Nervous?” her mother asked. Paru pulled one earbud out of her ear to hear her.

“Yeah,” Paru replied.

“Don’t be. As your father said, it’s summer camp, it’s supposed to be fun! I’m sure everyone there is very nice. We will exchange letters and gifts, and you’ll be fine. I went to summer camp when I was younger, and let me tell you, I had a blast.”

Honestly, her mother’s words didn’t reassure her much. she gnawed on her lower lip, and tried to let the music distract her and calm her nerves. she wanted to fall asleep in the hopes of escaping her excitement, but it just wouldn’t happen. They would get there eventually.

“Are we there yet?” Paru impatiently asked her mother.

“Almost, we still have about forty five minutes.” This calmed Paru down a bit, while making her more nervous. Was that even possible?

“We’re here,” her mother said, before as she pulled into the parking lot.

“Oh no,” Paru said with a nervous tone.

“Just relax,” Paru’s mother replied with a rather impatient tone.

Paru reluctantly unbuckled her seatbelt, and got out of the car before taking one of her  suitcases out of the trunk as her mother grabbed another. They walked along a grassy field until they saw a young woman with blonde hair, shorts, a camp T-shirt, and a whistle around her neck, alongside a man, sitting under a tent behind a table.

“Excuse me, where should we go?” asked Paru’s mother politely.

“The dining hall is right down there, and make a left,” she replied.

Paru and her mother walked down to the dining hall, and entered. Two men greeted them.

“What’s your last name?” asked one.

“Shimazaki,” replied Paru.

“Is it your first year here?” asked the other man. Paru nodded.

“You will be in cabin thirteen, in the oldest age group. There seem to be quite a few Kyoto campers this year, so we decided to put them all in a cabin together to make them feel more at home,” said the first man.

“Thank you,” responded Paru’s mom.

This cabin arrangement sounded nearly impossible to Paru. She hadn’t met someone from Kyoto in Tokyo. But she was comforted knowing that there would be people from her hometown in her cabin. And Kyoto counselors at Tokyo camps seemed to be quite a common thing.

They walked up a rocky path, through a grassy field, until they came to a group of cabins. Some of the doors were open, but Paru couldn’t really see inside.

“I think this is where the cabins of your age group are,” said Paru’s mother. her heart started beating rapidly, and her palms got clammy.

When Paru saw a cabin she thought said “thirteen” on a small sign by the door, she walked up the hill, her mother following closely behind. When she got to the porch, she peeked inside the cabin. her mother stepped ahead of her.

“Hi, is this cabin thirteen for the oldest age group?” she asked.

A young lady, who had previously been standing by a bunk bed inside the cabin, stepped forward and walked up to the door.

“You found us! I’m the counselor of this cabin. My name’s Yui. And you are?...”

Paru had been standing by the door, out of sight from the people in the cabin. She hadn’t even seen the source of the voice coming from inside the cabin, although she’d admit it was a nice one. It was high pitched, in an endearing way, and very, very Kyoto-ish. Even more than her was. She was right about the counselor being from Kyoto as well.

“I’m Paru’s mother. she will be staying in this cabin.” Paru slipped out from beside the door to beside her mother, and saw her new camp counselor.

She was, admittedly, very attractive. Paru knew Kyoto girls were pretty, but she hadn’t seen anything like this. she had fair, sun-kissed skin, smooth, streaked hair, bright black eyes, and deep dimples. She was wearing a tie-dye camp shirt, beige shorts, and a few bracelets.

Okay, she was strikingly beautiful. But, as much as Paru wanted to, she wasn’t going to stand there and stare at her forever.

“Paru! It’s nice to meet you. As I said to your mother, I’m Yui, your new counselor. Why don’t you come inside; unpack, make yourself at home?” Yui said with a radiant smile that Paru couldn’t help but return slightly.


Yui reached out a hand for her bag, grabbed it, and lifted it. Paru admired the way her tan biceps flexed as she took the bag from her hand.

“Well, this certainly is the Kyoto cabin. Although I’m not the only Kyoto counselor, I requested that if there were any campers from Kyoto, they’ll be put in my cabin, no matter how many there were. I just moved here at the beginning of June when my last year of high school ended, so I like to feel more at home. Is it your first year here?” asked Yui.

“Yes it is, and because of this, would you mind staying with her? I wouldn’t want her getting lost around the camp, it looks like quite a large one. Paru’s also pretty anxious about going here,” said Paru’s mother. Paru felt slightly embarrassed.

“I can assure you, your daughter is in good hands. But because you said that, how about you take the top bunk above my bed?” Yui asked as she slid Paru’s suitcase behind her bed, and her mother put the other one beside it.

“Alright,” Paru replied with a shrug.

“Well Paru, it seems like you’re in good hands. I should probably drive home now,” said Paru’s mother. Paru frowned, and sighed. She wouldn’t cry. She didn’t cry when she left home, so she wouldn’t cry now.

“Why the long face? Camp will be over before you know it, which, as you said, is both good and bad.” her mother smiled and pulled her in for a hug.

“I’m going to miss you so much,” said Paru, tightly hugging her mother.

“I’ll miss you too. We’ll write to each other, and I’ll send you gifts. Perhaps you’ll even get something from your brothers. And remember to put on sunscreen!”

“I’ll make sure she does,” Yui added. Paru blushed. Her mother was so overprotective sometimes.

Paru’s mother kissed Paru’s forehead, and exited the cabin.

“We should probably set up your bed,” said Yui. Paru pulled her bedsheets and pillow out of one of her suitcases. They took the mattress off the top bunk, and put the fitted sheet on, before putting it back up and putting the pillow and sheets on top.

Once they were done, two young girls entered the cabin. One had dirty hair and pale skin, the other looked more exotic and was holding a soccer ball.

“Hi Jurina, hi Mayu. This is Paru, she’s going to be the last member of our cabin. We have quite a small one; all the others are full, and the last one usually ends up having the least amount of people. So, it’s just going to be us. That’s also why I’m the only counselor for this cabin.,” said Yui with a smile. “We also only have a few people in our cabin because you’re the only Kyoto campers. This camp is quite a diverse one. People come from all over the world.”

“Not true, although I lived in Kyoto, I’m from Saitama,” corrected Mayu. “Hi.”

“Are we eating dinner soon?” asked Jurina.

“We’ll head over to the dining room in a few minutes.”

In the meantime, the girls in the cabin continued organizing their stuff and setting up their beds. Soon after, they headed over to the dining room. Paru sat down at a table in front of Yui, and beside Mayu who sat across Jurina. she got a plate and forks.

“So Paru, tell me about yourself,” said Yui, as she scooped some spaghetti onto her plate.

“Well, I’m fifteen going on sixteen, it’s my first year here, I’m going into eleventh grade, I have two older brothers...there’s not much to say to be honest. I’m not very interesting.”

Yui smiled. “I’m sure you are, you just don’t know it. What are your interests?”

“I play the guitar and sing a bit.”

“What’s your favorite animal?”

“I like penguins and dogs. Are we playing twenty questions or something?”

“Sure, if you want.”

Paru chuckled. “Okay then. What about you?”

“I am seventeen years old, almost eighteen, and it’s my first year being a counselor, and at this camp. I have a younger brother and sister. My parents are divorced; I’m no longer in touch with my father. I am going into college next year, and thought doing this would be a good way to get to know people here, and earn some money for college. But as I mentioned, I wanted Kyoto campers in my cabin to feel at home, so I’m glad you’re here. I like to sing as well, but I’m not very good at it. I play a variety of instruments, but the drums are my favorite.”

“What are you studying in college?”

“Music, literature, drama, and science. I’m quite interested in those four.”

Paru was genuinely intrigued, and wanted to know more. But the rest of dinner was rather quiet. The girls finished up their dinner before heading back to the cabin.

“There’s going to be a bonfire tonight. The camp director will make an introductory speech, and we will play some games. I will actually be singing a song we wrote about the camp. It’s a pretty silly song, but I think you’ll like it,” said Yui as the girls were walking over to the cabin. Once back in the cabin, the girls got their things together, and headed over to the bonfire.
The campers sat on logs around a fire. The camp director spoke about the camp’s history, what people did there, and how amazing it was. Yui, who was sitting beside Paru, then got up to sing the song. A few counselors sang as one of them played the ukulele. Yui had been right, it was a very silly song. It was a bit like a camp cheer; full of camp spirit.
A few people got up to tell stories. Some of them were legends about the camp, others were just plain silly. Other than that, the campers and counselors played games, sang songs, and did a few group building activities before heading back to the cabin.

“Did you enjoy that?” asked Yui excitedly.

“Yes, it was quite fun,” replied Paru. “Will there be anything else like it?”

“There will be a talent show and a closing campfire. You said you sing and play the guitar. You should perform. In fact, Jurina and Mayu sing and play the guitar as well. Maybe we could do a band performance; that would be cool.” Paru agreed.

When they got back to the cabin, the girls showered, changed into their pajamas, and got into bed. Yui sat in the middle of the rug on the cabin floor. She gave the girls a brief speech about cabin rules, and camp rules in general.

“If you girls need anything, you can come talk to me, alright? Sometimes, counselors go out at night to have meetings and talk. If I’m out and you need a counselor, there are people who walk around at night. You can go to one of them, ” Yui said, concluding the speech.

It being Paru’s first night of camp, and Yui being the one Paru was friendliest with in the cabin, she didn’t want Yui to leave. “Will you be going out tonight?”

“Nah, since it’s the first night of camp, I’m going to stay to make sure everything’s alright. Tomorrow though,” said Yui as she got up off the cabin floor. “Goodnight girls,”

“Goodnight,” they all replied in unison.

Yui went to the bathroom, and got ready for bed as the rest of the girls had done, before getting into her bed.

Paru couldn’t sleep. She didn’t think she’d be able to sleep at all tonight. Her nerves were getting the best of her, and she could not stop tossing and turning. As she rolled over to the right, she saw a face by her bed. She nearly screamed, before realizing it was just Yui, with her forearms resting on her bedpost and her head resting on in her hands.
Yui, seeing Paru’s alarm at her sudden appearance, giggled. Paru swooned. “It’s just me. I’m sorry I scared you. You were just making quite a bit of noise by tossing and turning,” she said.

Paru’s eyes widened. “Oh, I’m sorry. I’ll stop.”

“It’s alright,” replied Yui. “Are you nervous? Something keeping you awake?”

Paru sighed. “I’m just nervous, I guess. I mean, I’ve never been here before, so I guess it’s just keeping me awake.”

“If it makes you feel any better, as I previously mentioned, it’s my first year of counseling, so I’m quite nervous as well. Is there anything I can do to help you sleep?”

Paru didn’t know if Yui was really nervous, or if she was just saying that to make her feel better. “I don’t think so. But I promise I will stop tossing and turning. I’m sorry I’ve kept you awake.”

“You haven’t. And perhaps if you stayed still, you’d fall asleep easier. Goodnight Paru.”

“Good night Yui,” said Paru. Yui patted her head. Paru didn’t know what that’s all about.
Yui was right about staying still making it easier to sleep, because Paru stayed in her position, not wanting to keep Yui awake, and drifted off to sleep.

“Alright girls, time to get up!” was the first thing Paru heard the next morning. Honestly, Paru wouldn’t mind waking up to that voice everyday. Soon after, Paru also heard a few groans from around the cabin. she guessed the other girls weren’t very eager to get up.
Nevertheless, Paru got out of bed, and padded over to the bathroom. she brushed her teeth, got dressed, and put on sunscreen.

Jurina seemed to be the one to take the longest to get out of bed. Mayu and Yui had to wake her up a few times before she got up, and got dressed and ready. Once ready, the girls gathered on the cabin porch. “The first activity we will be doing today is ziplining,” said Yui with a smile. Paru wondered to herself how Yui was so cheerful this early in the morning. “But first, let’s go eat breakfast.”

They walked over to the dining hall, filled their plates with scrambled eggs and bacon, and consumed their breakfast. Paru, who sat across from Yui once again noticed that she had a cup of coffee. she’d always liked coffee, and admittedly relied on it some mornings. she wasn’t even in college yet.

“Am I allowed to get coffee?”

Yui smiled. “I’m afraid the coffee’s for counselors only.”

Paru frowned. “Then can I have a sip?”

Yui carefully handed her cup of coffee to Paru, and their hands touched when Paru put her on the cup. Paru tried to ignore the butterflies, and took a sip before handing it back to Yui.

“Don’t tell any of the other counselors I did that,” joked Yui.

Paru shrugged. “I don’t think you’d get in trouble, I’m not much younger than you.”

Once they finished their breakfast, they all walked over to the place where campers ziplined. Paru, who had never ziplined before, was nervous, and requested that she go last. As Mayu was going, Yui noticed Paru’s nervousness.

“Have you ever done this before?” she asked.

“No,” replied Paru. “I’m worried that the rope will break or something.”

“It’s not that scary once you’re on there, it’s actually quite thrilling.”

Paru pulled up her belt, and attempted to adjust it, but had some trouble.

"Here, I've got it," said Yui. The feeling of Yui's fingers brushing against Paru's waist as Yui's long fingers adjusted the was a nice one. So was the feeling of Yui clipping her onto the zip line. It gave her butterflies in her stomach...adding to the ones she already had in anticipation of going on the zip line.

After clipping her in, Yui put a comforting hand on Paru's shoulder. "Relax, just enjoy the ride, and it will be over before you know it," she said with a pat to Paru's shoulder.
Paru nodded, too nervous to speak.

"Want a head start?" Asked Yui with a grin. Paru nodded, although she didn't exactly know what she meant by that. Before she knew it, Yui was getting behind her, grabbing her by her hips, and pulling her back. Paru was on her way. Panic flooded through her momentarily, before Paru calmed down, did as Yui said, and enjoyed the ride. she found herself grinning widely, feeling the wind run through her hair, and throwing her head back.

But all good things come to an end, and soon, Paru was at a halt. Yui climbed up the ladder at the end, unbuckled Paru, and helped her down.

"I saw the look of panic before you started going, but the smile on your face was priceless. You're so cute, I can tell you really enjoyed it. I knew you would," said Yui as she ruffled Paru's hair. Paru smiled and looked down, hiding her obvious blush.

"Good job Paru," said Mayu, whilst giving Paru a high five.

The girls headed over to the dining hall for lunch, before heading back to the cabin.

"We are going to rest for an hour, before heading over to the lake to swim," said Yui as the girls headed back into the cabin.

Jurina and Mayu played a game of cards in Jurina's bed, as Yui lay in her bed. Paru decided to write a letter to her mother, assuring her that she was okay, and liked her camp. (she liked her counselor as well, but she wasn't going to tell her that.) Once she was done with her letter, she listened to some music off her iPod (campers were allowed to bring iPods at their own risk).

Just as she was dozing off, Yui's voice woke her up. "Alright girls, you should probably start changing into swimsuits." Paru climbed down her ladder, and grabbed her swimsuit before climbing under her blankets to change. The girls headed out of the cabin once changed, and over to the lake. The lake was large, and open. There were boundaries at the edges to make sure people didn't go too far, but there was a diving area pretty far out.

She averted her attention from the lake to see Yui pulling off her top, revealing her bare back. Paru felt dizzy just looking at it, and had the brief urge to touch it. She quickly looked away and blushed before it became blatantly obvious that she was staring.
Looking at Yui made her self conscious, and she decided against taking her own top off. She kicked off her shoes, but got worried realizing that there were no lifeguards present.

"Um, Yui? Who are the lifeguards?"

"The counselors are. We're decent swimmers, and CPR certified. The campers can't go any further than the diving dock over there, and counselors are there and spread throughout the water."

This relieved Paru. she walked into the water, and started wading around. she grabbed a large tube floating in the water beside her, before feeling something splash her, and hearing a familiar giggle.

"Can you swim?" asked Yui, the source of the giggle.

"Yes," replied Paru. "Not professionally, but a decent amount."

"Would you like to head to the diving area with me?"

Paru complied, and started walking over with her, swimming when it got too deep. she climbed up the ladder to the diving area. When she got to the edge, she got nervous, and reluctant to jump off.

"You alright?" Asked Yui, coming up behind her.

"Yeah, just a bit nervous."

"You get nervous quite a bit when it comes to trying new things, don't you?"Asked Yui. Paru didn't know how to reply to that.

"I can jump with you," suggested Yui, as she took Paru's hand. She didn't intertwine their fingers, but Paru's heartbeat still sped up, and she still very much enjoyed the feeling.

"Ready? One, two, three," counted Yui, before jumping into the water, and pulling Paru with her. Somewhere underwater, Paru lost Yui's hand, and floated back to the surface.
"Wasn't that bad, was it?" Asked Yui. Paru shook her head, and smiled. "Let's do it again!"

The next day as Paru's rope activity, she was rock climbing. she looked forward to this; it wasn't something she had done before. This time, she decided to go first.

"Being a dare devil today I see," said Yui with a smile when Paru volunteered to go first. "I've taught you well."

She put her belt on, and Yui hooked her to the rope. she grabbed the first rock, and started to climb, hoisting herself up, rock by rock. When she got to a point on the wall, she got stuck.

"Lift your right arm up, and grab that one," said Yui from down below. Paru reached for it.

Soon enough, with Yui's directions, she got to the top. she heard everyone cheering from below. It was a bit cheesy, but it gave her pride.

The rest of the day went as planned, and so did the rest of the week. she bungee jumped the next day, which was quite an adventure. Yui commented on how light Paru was, considering how high she was able to bounce.

Thursday was the fourth of July. The girls in Paru’s cabin were all Kyoto, but had been celebrating the fourth of July the years they lived in Tokyo, and were familiar with it. The campers gathered around the campfire area once again, and since they couldn’t see or set off fireworks, the campers were given sparklers to celebrate, and told to wear patriotic colors. Paru enjoyed it. Yui looked breathtaking under the light of the sparklers, and all the campers had a blast. The sparklers didn’t burn her hand like she thought they would.
But as the week went on, Paru's homesickness started to settle in, and by Saturday night before bedtime. She found herself holding the photo of her family she brought, and felt a single tear slip from her eye. she turned facing the wall, not wanting anyone to see her and think she was childish. Nevertheless, she felt a tap on her shoulder.

"You alright?" Asked Yui. Paru reluctantly, but slowly, turned toward Yui.

"Yeah," she sniffled, and wiped the back of her hand across her nose. "Just getting a little homesick is all."

"Awww," Yui cooed, wiping a tear from Paru's eye.

"Look at pictures of your family," suggested Jurina from her bed. "It helps me."

"That's what I'm doing, and I guess it sort of brought on the homesickness." Paru sighed.

"Mind if I come up?" Asked Yui. Paru shook her head.

Yui climbed up into Paru’s bed, lay beside her, and brought her into her arms. Paru cried softly into her chest. "I'm such an infant, I know," said Paru, and attempted to laugh but it came out as more of a sob.

"No, everyone gets homesick," responded Yui, rubbing Paru's back softly. she spotted the penguin stuffed toy behind Paru, and handed it to her. Paru cuddled it between her and Yui.

"Would you like me to stay?" Asked Yui.

Paru couldn't say no to that. she loved the feeling of Yui's strong arms around her. It was incredibly comforting and lovely. If Yui would do this every time Paru was homesick, she didn't think homesickness would be a problem.

Paru must have woken up before Yui the next morning, because she woke up with her head on her chest. She gently turned her head so that she could see Yui's face to figure out whether or not Yui was still asleep, and indeed, she was. Paru thought she looked adorable and youthful asleep; quite different than when she was awake. It was endearing. Paru continued to watch her sleep, until she felt her stir, and saw her eyes open. Yui smiled down at Paru, and started threading her fingers through Paru's hair. Paru smiled, and her pushed her head toward Yui's fingers. Yui giggled. "I should probably get up."

Paru found Yui's morning voice incredibly sexy, but moved aside so that Yui could get up.
Paru got slightly confused when she saw counselors and some campers wishing Yui a happy birthday, so that day, during breakfast she asked Yui whether or not it was her birthday.

“Yes it is,” replied Yui.

“How old do you turn?” asked Paru.

“Eighteen,” said Yui.

Paru smiled. “Oh, right. If you still lived in Kyoto, you’d be the legal drinking age. Wow.”

Most counselors would have called this inappropriate, but Yui simply laughed. “Unfortunately, you can’t drink here.”

“Well, you don’t know that. Perhaps I have a secret party with the counselors tonight. Shhh, don’t tell the other campers,” joked Yui.

“Invite me, I turn sixteen in a couple of weeks, on the sixteenth to be exact,” joked Paru in return.

“Alright, we’ll plan something,” replied Yui.

“If I’d have known it was your birthday, I’d have brought you a gift.”

Yui grinned. “You’re good enough.” Just a simple flirtation, but it drove Paru crazy inside.

“Sucks that my birthday’s not during camp. Well, it would be if I still lived in Kyoto,” said Mayu.

“Yeah, mine’s in March,” agreed Jurina.

Paru felt bad that she hadn’t given Yui anything, so she made her a card during resting hour. She wasn’t the best artist, but she decided the card would be dull if she didn’t add any art, so she drew a picture of the camp. she drew Yui sitting up in a tree beside the lake, and inside the card, she wrote about how although she had just met Yui, she really liked her as a counselor and was glad to her first counselor was her.

At dinner, a couple of chefs came over with cupcakes for Paru’s cabin. There were two candles in Yui’s cupcake; the numbers one and eight. They all sang happy birthday to Yui, and told Yui to make a wish before she blew out her candles.

“What did you wish for?” Paru asked Yui after she blew out her candles.

“A good summer at camp for everyone,” replied Yui.

The cupcakes turned out to be chocolate with buttercream frosting, which they all devoured.

“The cupcakes are only for the people in this cabin?” Paru asked Yui.

“Yep. That’s what happens if you’re a camper or counselor here and your birthday is over the summer. Hey, if I could request that all campers get a cupcake, I would. But it would take too long to make all those,” replied Yui, with a bit of frosting above her lip. Paru would usually find this disgusting, but on Yui, she found it adorable. She gave Yui the card before bedtime, and Yui looked at it and read it before pulling Paru in for a hug.

“Awwww, thank you Paru,” she said. “This was very thoughtful of you. I’ll be sure to do something extra special for your birthday. It’s on the sixteenth, right?” Paru pulled away from the hug, and nodded, before climbing into bed.

The next day, Paru got a package from her mother. It included some small gifts, and a card. she decided to send her mother the Kyoto flag from her cupcake from Yui’s celebration that she kept along with her next letter to her mother.

Two days later the campers choose their next activities. Paru chose gardening in the large garden at the back of the camp. The instructor wasn't Yui this time. It was Mariko, a kind lady. Paru enjoyed gardening. It was a good distraction, and she didn't mind the dirt.

It was Thursday, and Paru was gardening. It was nearing lunchtime, and Paru was watering her last group of flowers when she heard something buzz nearby her, and felt something on her arm. She put her hand there to see if a bug was on it. To her luck, there was, and after a few seconds, she felt a strong stinging sensation, and saw the bee fly away. It must have gotten scared when Paru trapped it, and as a response, stung her.
Tears flooded her eyes as Mariko told the campers to start heading to the dining hall. She gripped her arm. She wouldn't cry. When she got to the dining hall, she saw Yui waiting outside. she saw Paru's distress, and her hand on her arm.

"What happened?" she asked with concern.

Paru shut her eyes tight. "I think something stung me."

"Can I see?" Asked Yui. Paru slowly removed her hand from her arm.

"Oh yeah, looks like a bee stung you. I'm going to remove the stinger, okay? Just don't move." Paru nodded.

Having a stinger removed from her skin was painful, and she cried out as Yui removed it.
"It's okay," Yui told Paru, as she wrapped her arms around her in a hug, and rubbed her back. She bent down and kissed Paru's arm where the bee was stung. Paru was sure Yui’s kisses had healing powers. If only the bee had stung her on the lips.

"Guys, you can head into the dining room, I'm going to take Paru to the infirmary," Yui said to Mayu and Jurina.

"Why? What happened?" Asked Jurina.

"She got a bee sting." she turned Paru's shoulder toward them so the sting was visible.

"Ouch. Make sure it doesn't get too swollen. You could be allergic. Unfortunately, I speak from experience," said Mayu, before her and Jurina headed into the dining room. Yui and Paru headed over to the infirmary, and Yui told the nurse what had happened.
While she went to grab ointment for the sting, Paru apologized for acting babyish and crying.

"It's fine," replied Yui. "Getting stung by a bee hurts like hell. I got stung in the ass once while I was swimming. Unfortunately, no one was too eager to kiss it. A shame, really." Paru couldn't help but giggle at that statement.

The nurse told Paru that her sting would probably become less swollen and painful over time, and that she most likely wasn't allergic. Paru was relieved at this having never been stung before, so she hadn't been sure. For the next couple of days, Yui kept pestering Paru about the sting, but Paru insisted that it was fine. Within the next couple of days, it healed, and before Paru knew it, she had a quarter of camp behind her.

It was resting hour. Paru was writing a letter to her parents when Yui suddenly sat up in bed. "Oh, I just remembered! About a month from today, there is going to be a camp wide talent show. From what I've heard, everyone in this cabin plays an instrument. Perhaps we could perform as a band," said Yui.

"Oh yeah! We could even write our own song," replied Jurina.

"Wait, you guys play instruments? Which ones?" Asked Paru, who vaguely remembered hearing this before, but couldn’t exactly remember.

"Yeah, we both play the guitar and sing. I've played bass before," said Mayu.

"Alright, I'd do it." Said Paru. The rest of the cabin agreed as well.

That week, Paru chose arts and crafts with the younger campers as her activity. Paru was quite awkward with younger children, having little experience with them. But they were fun to be around, and Paru could really relate to them. Yui chose arts and crafts as her activity as well, since every two weeks, counselors were allowed to change the activity they helped direct. Paru enjoyed seeing Yui with the younger kids. They all loved her, and she was very good with them. They made her bracelets the day they made them in arts and crafts, all of which she wore, so by the end of that day, her wrists were filled with bracelets from top to bottom. Paru would have made one for Yui as well, but apparently, bracelet making wasn't her forte. She couldn’t even braid the string together. Yui, seeing that Paru was having trouble, made one for her instead before Paru gave up on making her own. Paru loved watching Yui's long, quick, nimble fingers work the threads into a beautiful pattern. Paru would be lying if she said her heart didn't swell when she saw that Yui had the same bracelet around her wrist as the one she made Paru. But it could have been made by one of the younger children; although Paru thought it was a bit better than the others on her wrist.

Another activity Paru did in arts and crafts was tie-dying shirts. This turned out to be pretty difficult; you had to tie the shirts in a very specific way in order for the shirt to turn out nice. Paru loved untying the shirt and watching the pattern unfold before her eyes. she thought her turned out alright. Yui's, however, was a work of art. Was there anything her counselor wasn't good at?

It wasn't exactly jealousy that Paru was feeling over Yui's overall perfection, although there was some self-consciousness involved. she was feeling more of an...extreme attraction? This was something Paru became more aware of as her third week of camp came and went, and by the end of the week, she had accepted it: she had a crush Yui.
Well, accepting it wasn't really something Paru could do. Yui was, after all, her counselor, although she was but a couple of years older than her. Was it even legal for a camper to have a relationship with their counselor?

Although a relationship with Yui was something Paru fantasized about quite often, she knew she was going to far with her thoughts. She didn't even know if Yui liked people of the same sex; let alone her. What would the other campers think? Will Yui and Paru even see each other again after camp?

So, in addition to her crush on Yui, Paru accepted that a relationship with her was nearly impossible. It was only something she could hope for. She still couldn't help but do things that could potentially increase Yui's interest in her, like making sure she looked okay, and go out of her way to avoid doing anything embarrassing in front of Yui (which also meant getting nervous whenever Yui would come near her). She also tried to analyze Yui's behavior toward her to see if there was any chance that Yui liked her too.
There would be times when Paru would catch Yui staring, and times when Yui would compliment Paru. There would also be times when Yui would show that she was concerned about Paru, for example, when Paru was stung. There were times when Yui would gently touch Paru; whether it be by resting her arm on her shoulder, or cuddling her in bed. When Mayu or Jurina touched or even spoke to Paru, sometimes, Paru swore she could see jealousy in Yui’s eyes. Most of these things didn’t necessarily mean that Yui was into Paru, but they were things that drove Paru crazy. Crazy with attraction.

But on Tuesday of that week, it was Paru’s birthday. Yui handed Paru a card with a picture painted on it (of a penguin on a zipline, wearing a large grin and a t-shirt that said “Paru”. It was tye-dyed the same pattern as Paru had tie dyed her that day), and a bracelet taped to it. It was the one second one she had made for Paru; the other one was different pattern, Yui had given it to her the day before, and she had a matching one. On the inside was a message about how she was proud of Paru for trying new things, and had really made her first experience as a camp counselor a good one.

“So that’s what you didn’t want me to see yesterday during arts and crafts,” said Paru as she looked at and read the card, before pulling Yui into a hug. “Thank you.”

“You’re welcome. I’m kind of a shit painter, worse than I am at making bracelets, but I figured it was worth a try.” Paru wasn’t buying it; the painting was adorable, and better than she could ever do.

“Happy birthday,” said Yui, before kissing Paru on the cheek. Paru blushed furiously, as Mayu and Jurina chimed in with a “happy birthday” as well. “By the way, do you prefer cupcakes, cakes, brownies, ice cream, cookies...which dessert do you like?”

“Um…I quite like cupcakes, I guess? With candy on top, those are quite good.” In all honesty, she had no idea why Yui was asking her this.

Which was why she was quite surprised when she saw chocolate cupcakes with strawberry frosting and smarties on top brought to her table after dinner, with smarties on top. Her table started singing happy birthday to her, and Paru made a wish and blew out her candle. She wished for a good semester at camp, a dog, world peace, and many other things, including a relationship with Yui, as far fetched to her as it was. What could she say? she had high hopes, and big wishes.

“Did you request for these to be made for us?” asked Paru, as she took a first bite of her cupcake.

“Of course, why else do you think I would ask what your favorite dessert was?”

Paru shrugged. “Well, thank you either way. For requesting this little celebration.”
Yui grinned. “No problem.”

She whispered happy birthday once again to Paru that night, as she sat on the foot of her bed.

“Are there any other birthday gifts I can give you?” asked Yui.

“A birthday cuddle?” Paru boldly requested, before Yui lay next to her and wrapped her strong arms around her for the second time that summer. Paru hoped it wasn’t the last. She was honestly quite surprised that although Paru and Yui had only known each other for three weeks, they were already so close to each other. Perhaps it was fate. Their relationship was definitely beyond professional; normal counselors didn’t swear in front of, cuddle with, or kiss their campers on the cheek. Maybe it’s because it was Yui’s first time as a counselor, but she didn’t treat Jurina, Mayu, or any other camper or counselor the way she treated Paru. She didn’t cuddle with them, look out for them (as much) or show the concern she did for Paru.

Paru’s next chosen activity the week after her birthday was archery, and the director was a counselor named Takamina. It took Paru quite some time to get the hang of archery (she completely missed the target every time for the first couple of days), but she improved with time.

It was a Wednesday night, and the girls were about to go to bed. Yui stood in the middle of the cabin, about to head outside.

“At the end of the first session, which is at the end of this week, the campers always take a trip to a campsite where we spend the night in sleeping bags. We will only be there from Saturday evening to Sunday morning, but I’m just letting you know now so that you’re not surprised when Saturday comes,” said Yui.

“What will we do there?” asked Paru.

“We will eat dinner and sleep there, then eat breakfast there the next morning. I’ll tell you the details when the time comes, but for now...goodnight girls.” With a wave and a smile, Yui was off to have a meeting with the counselors about the trip she had just told the girls about.

Fortunately, the weather that summer had been especially good, and so had Paru’s health. Unfortunately, all good things come to an end, and unfortunately for Paru, they came to an end simultaneously. Although it wasn’t that bad, since Paru had an excuse not to go outside and do things. All morning during archery, Paru had been feeling unwell. The day had been especially warm and humid, which may have contributed to the thunderstorm later that day, as well as Paru’s feverish feeling.

Takamina noticed Paru’s flushed cheeks and lack of ability to hit the target. “Are you alright? What ails you?” she asked Paru.

“Just feeling a bit warm and fatigued, is all.” replied Paru.

“Do you need to go to the infirmary?” asked Takamina.

“No, I think I’m good,” Paru responded.

But she had no appetite for lunch, and had to rest her head on the table at one point due to dizziness. Yui, who had been sitting across from Paru, moved to sit beside her. She rubbed her back slowly.

“Are you alright?” she asked with concern.

“I feel a bit ill,” replied Paru.

“Alright, I’ll take you to the infirmary.”

“No, it’s fine. This happens a lot over the summer. It will probably be all gone by tomorrow. I can just go back to the cabin, and rest,” replied Paru.

“Alright, if you say so.”

By the time they got out of the dining room, there was lightning, and it started to pour. The campers rushed to their cabins, and shut the door, in fear of getting hit by lightning and to avoid the rain as much as possible. Paru walked over to her bed, climbed up to her bunk, and lay down. Soon, she heard Yui climbing up her ladder and sitting at the foot of her bed.

“Well Paru, it looks like you’re in luck. There’s no swimming in this weather, so we will probably just stay here until dinner. Want me to lie down with you?”

“I don’t want you to get sick,” Paru insisted.

Yui shrugged. “I don’t mind. I’m your counselor, it’s my job. Just don’t spit on my hand, or anything,” joked Yui, before she lay behind Paru and spooned her.

Paru slipped in and out of consciousness as Jurina and Mayu played cards on Mayu’s bed and spoke quietly. Paru kept being woken up by loud claps of thunder, and bright flashes of lightning. One especially loud clap of thunder made Paru yelp, and Yui politely quieted her down and rubbed her back.

At one point, Paru woke up and felt as if the storm outside had moved into her digestive system, and the thunder and lightning was only making her more nervous, making her even more nauseous. She was quivering like a leaf. She really didn’t want to get sick. It was something she hated doing, and avoided to no avail. Her emetophobia had only recently gotten better, but she still hated vomiting. As she felt the bile rise in her throat she rushed to the bathroom, and sat down in front of the toilet before she could close the door. Yui followed her in, and closed the door behind her. She rubbed Paru’s back and combed her fingers through her hair as she whispered comforting words. Soon enough, Paru was retching, and everything she had eaten that day went out of her stomach, her digestive system going in reverse. Yui didn’t pull away in disgust or cringe; she simply continued comforting Paru.

Once Paru finished, she was out of breath, and wanted to cry. She rinsed out her mouth, and washed her hands, directing Yui to do the same, not wanting to spread her germs. She wanted to cry. She hated getting sick. She went back to bed, and Yui cuddled her once again.

“Are you alright?” asked Jurina from Mayu’s bed.

“Yeah, I just got sick. Sorry you all had to witness that, it was gross, I hate it.”

“Hey, it’s no fun. But it’s a good thing, it means you’re getting something bad out of your system. Do you think you have food poisoning, is there a reason why you’re ill?” asked Yui.

Paru shrugged. “As I’ve said, it happens. And it could be dehydration. I think that’s why I get sick. It is hot today, and I haven’t really drunk much water.”

“Well, dinnertime is soon. I think I’m going to bring you back something to see if you can eat it. You should eat something, especially after getting sick. And for goodness sake, drink some water! You’ll feel better. I’m really going to be on top of you about your water consumption for the rest of the summer,” said Yui, getting Paru’s water bottle and giving it to her.

After getting sick and sipping water, Paru started to feel slightly better. she ate the soup Yui brought back to her, and Yui stayed with her all night. So by the next morning, Paru felt almost one hundred percent better, and so was the weather.

All week, Paru had been looking forward to, and curious about Saturday. she wondered what this camping trip would be like. Would they really only sleep in sleeping bags? What if it rains again? Will the woods be their restroom? Nevertheless, Paru was also excited to sleep under the stars, as cheesy as it sounded.

Saturday afternoon finally came, and during their free hour, Yui had suggested that the girls start packing for the camping trip. Naturally, Paru went to Yui with her questions.

“So...we’re only sleeping in sleeping bags? What if it rains?” asked Paru.

Yui shrugged. “It’s happened once or twice, it’s just something we deal with. And yes, we won’t be bringing tents or anything.

“Will we have to ‘go’ in the woods?”

“Yes, but since you’re male, it shouldn’t be too much of a problem. Any more questions?”

“Will there be bears?”

Yui giggled. “That must be the millionth time I’ve heard that question. It’s possible that a bear will come out. They do roam around in the forest, but it’s highly unlikely. If a bear does happen to show up, we can scare it away. Well, you can. You’re quite intimidating, if you haven’t noticed.”

Paru giggled. “What’s for dinner?”

“Now that, my young, noble Paru, is a surprise. Now c’mon, get packing!” joked Yui, as she lightly slapped Paru’s butt. Paru wished she would do that again.

The campers packed, and hiked over to the area. The girls were to sleep in a different area than the girls. The area was about a half an hour hike through the woods to a large, grassy meadow. Paru silently wow’d to herself when she got there. There was a nice view of the sky from this meadow. They were lucky the weather was nice. Paru walked over to an area near where Jurina and Mayu set up their sleeping bags, and decided to set her up there. she noticed Yui setting up her sleeping bag, and decided to set her up right beside Yui’s, because it’s not like she wanted to sleep next to her or anything. She wanted to sleep with in, in the same sleeping bag.

As the campers spoke and set up their things, one of the girls decided to start having sleeping bag races. These were like potato sack races, just with sleeping bags. Seeing this, Yui climbed into her bag, and pulled it up to her shoulders before looking beside herself at Paru, and grinning. “Want to race to that tree?”

Paru got into her sleeping bag, and looked ahead toward the tree. “It’s on.”

The girls laughed loudly as they jumped up and down along the field toward the tree. At one point, Paru tripped in her sleeping bag and came tumbling down on top of Yui who was right in front of her. Both girls continued laughing, but stopped when Yui turned over and saw Paru’s eyes. Paru stopped laughing as well, and instead, looked back at Yui. Their mouths were inches apart, and their bodies were pressed up against each other. Paru had never experienced a better feeling, and was almost expecting one of them to lean in for a kiss when Yui cleared her throat and looked away.

“Can you get off? You’re kind of on top of me,” Yui said with a giggle.

“Oh. Yes. I mean, of course. Sorry,” replied Paru, and proceeded to climb off of Yui, who got out of her sleeping bag, and brushed herself off, before walking over and putting it back.

It turned out that there were hot dogs for dinner, which would be roasted in the campfire like marshmallows. There was also pizza for vegetarians, and both for those who wanted both. Paru went for a hot dog, and sat with her cabin mates to eat. After dinner, of course, came s’mores. Paru had to go out into the woods to find a stick, and her marshmallow caught on fire soon after soon after she started roasting it. Yui blew it out for her, before sandwiching Paru’s second marshmallow between some graham crackers and chocolate. It looked delicious, and Paru started eating it as soon as Yui handed it to her.

“You’ve got a little…” said Yui, pointing to Paru’s mouth.

Paru, knowing what she meant, started wiping the part of her mouth Yui had pointed to in an attempt to wipe off the melted marshmallow, but was interrupted by Yui.

“No it's—here, I’ve got it,” said Yui before leaning over and licking the marshmallow off the corner of Paru’s mouth.

“Gross!” exclaimed Paru, totally ignoring the fact that her biggest crush in the history of crushes just licked the corner of her mouth. Yui laughed.

After dinner and dessert, the campers started to settle down. They played some catch with a ball the counselors brought, and some of them gathered to play soccer. Paru had experience with soccer, so she wasn’t too bad. Mayu, however, was a very talented soccer player. She was looking to get a professional career in soccer.

After playing sports, at around ten o’clock, when the stars and the moon rose into the sky, the campers finally started to settle into their sleeping bags. Paru climbed into her and got comfortable, Yui following soon after. Mayu and Jurina fell asleep as soon as their heads hit their pillows; out like a light, whereas Paru lay there, gazing at the stars, mesmerized. Although she lived in the country, it wasn’t everyday that she got to sleep under the stars, and see them unfiltered like she was now.

She heard rustling beside her, and when she looked to the side, she saw Yui facing her. “What are you thinking about?”

Paru shrugged. “Isn’t it weird how, when you look up at the stars, moon, or sun, you’re seeing something outside of Earth, millions of miles away? And that’s just in this galaxy. Most of the things we see are on Earth, but when you look up, you’re seeing things from outside Earth, although they sort of look like they’re inside Earth, beneath the atmosphere? I don’t know, I probably sound crazy, but…” Paru shrugged again.

“No, I see what you’re saying,” replied Yui, as something flashed above them. “Oh look! A shooting star. Make a wish.”

“Nah, I don’t wish on those things,” Paru responded.

“Why not?”

“Why the hell would I wish upon a rock burning up in the atmosphere?”

Yui laughed, and shook her head. “So pessimistic.”

“I’m not pessimistic, I’m realistic.”

Paru turned back toward Yui, and looked into her eyes. Yui was looking right back at her. They stayed like that for a few minutes, until Yui said “You know what we should do?”

“What?” asked Paru.

“We should zip our sleeping bags together. I’ve done it with friends before. C’mon!” said Yui, unzipping her sleeping bag.

“And do what? Sleep in them?” asked Paru.

“No, leave them here and go sleep up in a tree,” Yui rolled her eyes. “Yes sleep in them!”

“Okay,” replied Paru, and started unzipping her sleeping bag. She didn’t exactly know why Yui wanted to do this. Perhaps it was to cuddle with, or be closer to Paru? Paru sure hoped so.

It took some time to figure out exactly where and how to zip their sleeping bags together, but after some time, they ended up doing it, and had one large sleeping bag. Yui crawled into it, and, seeing Paru hesitate, raised an eyebrow at her.

“Well, what are you waiting for? Come on in!” said Yui, holding one side of the sleeping bag open. Paru crawled in.

Once she crawled in, Yui pulled her in toward her chest, and Paru lay beside her. It was strange. Many times, Paru forgot that Yui was her counselor. Yui felt way more like a friend to Paru than a counselor. A friend Paru had strong romantic feelings for. Paru was pulled out of her thoughts by Yui’s voice.

“I really like you, you know.” Paru looked to the side to see Yui staring at her, once again.

“Yeah, I like you too,” replied Paru. “You feel more like a friend to me than a counselor. A friend that I have feelings for.” Paru didn’t realize she said the last part out loud until a few seconds after she said it, and her eyes widened as she looked at Yui to see her reaction.

Yui looked surprised at first, before breaking out into a wide grin. “What kind of feelings do you mean?”

Paru was a bit panicked. “I think you know what kind.”

Yui didn’t respond. Instead, she simply stared at Paru. Paru stared back, and the last thing she saw before feeling Yui’s lips on her was Yui leaning in towards her. Paru was surprised at first, but she soon closed her eyes and started kissing back. She had been waiting for this ever since she first saw Yui. Yui’s lips were soft, and she kissed like she meant it. The kiss was chaste yet passionate at the same time, and Paru didn’t want it to end.

Yui was the one to pull away, slightly out of breath, and smile at Paru. Paru smiled back.

“Have you been wanting to do that? Because I have,” said Yui.

“Yes. And I’d like to do it again,” Paru admitted, blushing slightly.

Yui turned over onto her back, and took Paru’s hand in her, before starting to gently play with her fingers. Paru started wondering about Yui, whether Paru was the only girl she liked, whether she was just an experiment. She decided to ask.

“Have you ever liked a girl? Does it phase you that you do?”

Yui shrugged. “I don’t really care who I like, honestly, as long as they’re human. When people like someone of the same sex, they’re so obsessed with the fact that it’s someone of the same sex, and not with the fact that they are human too, and have amazing qualities that the person fell in love with. Sexuality is fluid. Humans fall in love with other humans. Whether that human has the same sexual organs as them or not shouldn’t matter really. I’ve liked other people; girls and girls. I wasn’t too phased when I first had a crush on a girl.”

Paru smiled. “Wow,” was all she could say. Not only was Yui funny, respectful, and attractive, she was also incredibly intelligent and accepting of herself. Paru didn’t know why someone as amazing as Yui would want to be with someone like her.

“How about you, Paru? You’re pretty young, ever liked a girl?”

“I had one girlfriend last year who I broke up with. I liked her a decent amount. She wasn’t a real, serious girlfriend though. Other than that, you’re the first girl I’ve ever liked, and I like you more than I’ve liked anyone, really. But because of what you said, I’m not too phased by it, so thank you,” said Paru, smiling once again.

Yui and Paru both lay on their backs, staring at the stars, but thinking of each other. They fell asleep holding hands.

Paru woke up at twilight, with a strong urge to use the restroom. she didn’t want to wake Yui, but she remembered what the counselors had said about having to take someone into the woods, in case of anything happening to them. She noticed that her and Yui’s fingers were intertwined, and she smiled. She put her hand that wasn’t holding Yui’s on her shoulder, and gently shook it. Yui slowly opened her eyes.

“I have to pee. Would you mind coming with me? I’m really sorry for waking you,” said Paru.

“No, I don’t mind.” Paru and Yui got up, and Yui brought her into the forest. Once Paru finished, they headed back to the sleeping bag, and crawled in it.

For a summer morning, it was surprisingly chilly. Paru huddled close to Yui, and Yui put her arms around Paru. The memories from last night came crawling back into Paru’s mind. Yui had kissed her, and said some incredibly intelligent things. A feeling of sadness overcame Paru, however, when the thought came to her mind of Yui regretting the kiss. Looking up, and seeing that Yui was still awake, Paru decided to ask Yui.

“Hey Yui? Um...we sort of...kissed last night. Do you, by any chance, regret it?”

Yui responded, “Not at all. Why, do you?”

“No! No, not at all.” Paru didn’t want Yui thinking such false, vile things.

Yui smiled. “Want to do it again?”

Paru nodded, before moving her face in front of Yui’s, and brushing their lips together before pressing them together. Their lips moved in sync for a few moments before Paru felt something wet brush against her lower lip. she guessed this was Yui’s tongue. she opened her mouth wider, granting her entrance, before Yui’s tongue started exploring Paru’s mouth. This was the furthest Paru had gone with anyone. It suddenly hit her that she was full on making out with Yui, and that her tongue hadn’t moved yet. Even though they hadn’t brushed their teeth yet, Yui didn’t taste bad at all. Paru hoped she didn’t either. she slowly started repeating what Yui did with her tongue, and as a result, she heard Yui let out a quiet moan, which Paru couldn’t help but repeat. The two pulled away, out of breath and in need of oxygen. Paru sighed contently.

“Wow. That of the best things I’ve ever experienced,” said Paru.

“You mean you’ve never done that before?” Paru blushed, and shook her head. “Wow, I’m surprised. I liked it though, so don’t be ashamed.”

Paru put her head on Yui’s chest, and fell asleep. Yui woke her about an hour later, and the campers packed up and headed back to the cabins. After they dropped off their stuff, they headed back to the cabins for breakfast.

After breakfast, it came time to choose next week’s activities. Paru chose sports. she had enjoyed playing soccer on the camping trip, and wanted to do it again. For the sports activity, every day, the people in the group would do a different sport; basketball, soccer, volleyball, tennis, and mini golf. Mayu chose sports as well. It turns out she had chosen it for the second time.

Paru received a second package (from her brothers this time) after lunch. She had been exchanging letters with her family periodically as camp went on, but it was good to receive something from her brothers.

The next day, after playing basketball and having lunch, it was time for the camper’s free hour. Paru sat down on her bed, and decided to write a song, or at least start writing one. Her experiences with Yui and overall attraction to her definitely inspired songwriting. Paru had written songs before, and she was excited to start doing it again. To think up some lyrics, she started thinking about Yui. she thought about how Yui was smart, kind, funny, attractive...everything she wanted. This is what made her decide “Everything I Want” would be the title of the song, and she started writing it. She heard someone climbing up her ladder, and saw Yui sitting at the foot of her bed. “What are you writing?” asked Yui, laying beside Paru.

“A song,” replied Paru. she saw Yui looking over the lyrics.

“Wow, this is really good. Who’s it about?”

Paru smirked at her. “The person I kissed last night. Who do you think?”

Yui watched Paru write the song. “When you’re done, you can perform it for us. Perhaps we can sing it at the talent show.”

“Yeah, that’s what I was thinking,” agreed Paru. Paru closed her journal, and lay on her side, facing Yui.

“Hey Yui, I’m not really in the mood for going swimming today. I was thinking perhaps we could go canoeing together?” she asked Yui.

“Sure,” Yui replied. “I think I could get off lifeguard duty for a day. Perhaps the person who supervises boating wouldn’t mind being a lifeguard. We could go together.”

Mayu, overhearing their conversation said “Yeah, Jurina and I along with a few other friends went last week. It was fun. Wear your swimsuits though, you get a bit wet. And I don’t know about you, but Jurina ‘accidentally’ flipped the boat over. Maybe that will happen to you as well.” she added air quotes to “accidentally.”

“It was an accident!” replied Jurina.

“If you say so,” said Mayu sarcastically.

The girls changed into their swimsuits and left the cabin. When they got to the boating area, Yui asked the instructor if she could take over for the day. She agreed, and Yui handed Paru a life vest and put one on herself. Yui helped Paru into the boat, and smoothly pushed it off the shore and jumped off. she took the oars, and started rowing.
Paru watched the small muscles in her toned, biceps flex as she pushed the oars back and forth and rowed the boat at a leisurely speed.

“Whatcha starin’ at?” asked Yui smirking.

“Nothing. Nice arms,” replied Paru.

Yui giggled. “Thanks.”

When the girls were far enough out in the lake, Yui put down the oars and moved to sit beside Paru. she put her arm around her. “This is quite romantic isn’t it?” Paru nodded.
After staring at Paru for a while, Yui leaned in and kissed her. Paru immediately started kissing back, and put her hand on Paru’s cheek. They kissed like they had under the stars; passionately (and with tongue involved) before pulling away. Paru put her head on Yui’s shoulder.

“This is nice,” she said. “I should have done this before.”

“Well, you have the rest of the month to do it,” replied Yui.

And then it hit Paru. she only had a month of camp left, a month left to properly be with Yui. she tensed up.

“Yui,” she said. “Where do you live? You don’t live in Kyoto or anything, right?”

Yui chuckled. “No, I did, but I will be living in Saitama for college. Not too far from here.”

“Oh,” replied Paru. “Do you think we can see each other after camp?”

Yui sighed. “I’m going into college, so I will be quite busy. But on the weekends we can probably visit. Where do you live?”

“In Sano, about an hour’s drive from Saitama. Will you be moving back to Kyoto after college?”

“No, I think I’ll make a life for myself here in Tokyo.” Yui smiled at Paru. Paru laughed. They kissed and cuddled some more before rowing back to the shore.

The next resting hour, Paru finished and edited her song. She had to borrow a guitar from another counselor who had brought one to think up the melody. The next day she sang it to the girls. They all complimented her on it. Yui complimented her voice. Paru swooned.

The girls in the cabin continued practicing the song after that. Yui learned it on the drums, and they practiced. They also chose to cover a song in the talent show. They all liked the song very much, and knew it well. They thought that they sounded pretty good performing it. They assigned different parts of the song for Paru, and Mayu to sing.

Other than that, the rest of the week went by smoothly. Paru would play sports before lunch. She wasn’t good at all of them, and got hit in the eye with a tennis ball, but it healed relatively smoothly, and Yui was sure to give it a kiss. Yui and Paru would cuddle in bed at night, and kiss each other sneakily when they thought no one was looking. They kissed behind the cabin during resting hour, on canoe rides, and even underwater when swimming. At this point, Mayu and Jurina knew that Paru was more than just a camper to Yui, and Yui was more than just a counselor to Paru. They teased them about it occasionally, but didn’t have too much of a problem with it. They didn’t threaten to tell anyone about it. Paru and Yui knew that if the wrong camper or a counselor found out about their relationship, it could mean trouble. Yui could get fired, and Paru may not be able to go back to the camp, which neither Paru nor Yui wanted. So, they were extra careful that the relationship was kept within their cabin.

The next week, Paru chose fishing as her activity. she’d never fished before in her life, so she was excited to try, although she didn’t expect to catch anything. The fishing was off the shore; not off boats. Jurina happened to choose this activity as well. Paru ended up catching a small fish that Wednesday. At that point, she had gotten enough practice to know how it was done, and Jurina took a photo of her and the fish on the disposable camera Paru had brought. Paru also liked to pick up the little sea creatures, such as the frogs and other reptiles that roamed by the shore, put them into water buckets, and observe them with Jurina and the other campers as she fished.

Before Paru knew it, at the end of that week, it was the day of the talent show. The girls had spent plenty of time rehearsing the song during their free hours, so they knew it by heart. They had split the song pretty evenly; although Paru was disappointed that no part was given to Yui. Yui insisted that she wasn’t a good enough singer, although Paru had heard her sing at the camp’s introductory bonfire and in the shower. She thought Yui had a splendid voice, and told her this. Nevertheless, Yui still refused.

The performances (other than theirs) were pretty good. Some people sang, others danced, some told stories or jokes, others played games with the audience. When it came time for them to perform, they announced their song and performed it. Yui played the drums, Paru sang and played the guitar, Jurina played the guitar and sang, but Mayu only sang. Yui drummed on the cajon she brought to camp. Paru had seen it sitting around in the cabin, and had seen Yui using it. she loved the way Yui's drumming sounded, and loved the way she bobbed her head to the beat as she drummed.
The song went smoothly, and the audience seemed to agree. No one forgot the lyrics or messed up, although Mayu later said that she almost forgot them at one point, but it didn’t show.

“Alright, this next one’s an original. It’s called ‘Everything I want,’” announced Jurina before the song.

“Paru wrote it,” Yui felt the need to add.

The performance of “Everything I Want” was a hit. The audience enjoyed it. After the talent show, other campers and counselors complimented them on their singing and instrument playing. They asked them what their band name was, and when the girls said that they had none, they said they should form a band.

“Well, that went well,” said Paru, walking back to the cabin.

“Yeah,” agreed Jurina. “If only we went to the same school, we could actually form a band.”

“Well, we live on the Northern Japan. We could jam sometime. And perhaps we could visit our hometown together and jam there,” said Mayu.

“Count me in,” added Yui.

They all went back to the cabin, crawled into their beds, and started talking and laughing about nothing in particular. They were all pretty high energy from their performance.

“Paru, do you think you’ll keep writing songs?” asked Mayu. “You should. You’re quite good at it.”

“Thanks, and yes, most likely,” replied Paru. “I enjoy it, after all.”

“Was this your first song?” asked Yui.

“No,” answered Paru. “I’ve written a few others.”

“Same,” said Yui. “I’d love to hear them.”

“I think we’ve all written songs,” said Jurina. “Mine are crap, though.” They all kept talking until they fell asleep.

Paru woke up in the middle of the night. she felt lips on her neck. she looked down, and saw a topless Yui giving her neck butterfly kisses. she giggled.

“Yui,” she asked. “What are you doing?”

Yui started biting and sucking at areas of her neck, leaving small red marks. It wasn’t something Paru had felt before, and it wasn’t something she thought would feel good, but surprisingly, it did. So much that it made her moan. Yui ran her fingers down Paru’s stomach to her crotch, groping it lightly. She got on top of Paru, and started grinding their hips together. The two moaned, in fact, Paru moaned so loud that she woke herself up.

Paru woke up (for real this time) in a cold sweat, and achingly hard. This would be completely normal, except for the fact that Paru had never experienced this before.
It was, indeed, crazy. She had never really been sexually attracted to people. Sex, once she found out what it was, didn’t appeal to her. She never watched porn, and looked away whenever a raunchy scene came on during a movie. Perhaps she was asexual, and wasn’t sexually attracted to people. Or perhaps, she was demisexual and wasn’t sexually attracted to people she wasn’t romantically attracted to, although she didn’t think she was in love with Yui yet. Sexuality was fluid, as Yui said, and didn’t need to be labeled. For whatever reason, she didn’t feel comfortable.
With the next day came the seventh week of camp, and it hit Paru that she only had two weeks left of camp. she would certainly miss the people in her cabin, Yui especially, and even some of the other people she met, but it was good to know that they all lived in the same general area as her. She didn’t know if she and Yui had a proper relationship, or if they ever would, she just knew that she liked spending time with her. Paru’s next activity she chose was yoga by the lake. She had practiced yoga a few times in the past when she was younger with her mother. And yoga by the lake turned out to be very relaxing. The instructor put on some music while she told the campers what moves to do, and Paru enjoyed it very much.

Soon came the end of the second to last week of camp. Paru was excited to see her family, and anxious to see her mother. For the last week of camp, the only other activity left to choose was dance. Mayu and Jurina had saved this activity for last as well. They learned a variety of dances to various songs. Most of the songs were mainstream pop songs. Mayu turned out to be quite a good dancer. Paru had fun with it.

In this last week, Paru was sure to make every moment with Yui a good one. She kissed and held Yui every moment she got. During this week of camp, Paru’s sunscreen ran out, and after one day of camp, her skin was blood red. Paru had always been pale, so the sun didn’t do her the pleasure of tanning her; it burnt her to a crisp. Yui rubbed aloe vera into Paru’s back (which Paru enjoyed with a vengeance), told her to take a cold shower, and promised to lend Paru sunscreen every day from then on. That week, Paru realized she hadn't visited the camp store yet. She visited with the people in her cabin. she got a pair of pajama pants for winter, and a keychain for Yui. In return, Yui got Paru a flashlight, which Paru used at night when reading and songwriting.

Before Paru knew it, it was the second to last full day of camp. Paru and Yui were sitting on the porch alone once again. Paru was on Yui’s lap once again. she enjoyed this position. Yui was stroking her hair. Paru sighed and leaned into her touch contently before getting an idea.

“We should go skinny dipping,” she said, announcing her sudden idea.

Yui laughed. “What? I guess camp has really corrupted you, you wouldn’t have said that before! Man, you’re a real daredevil now.” Yui shook her head.

“What? It would be fun. We could head down to the lake now. It’s the second to last full day of camp. We have nothing to lose.”

Yui admitted that skinny dipping would be a fun activity. she also admitted that seeing Paru completely nude would be a fun activity, just not out loud.

“We can invite Mayu and Jurina. It could be a cabin wide skinny dip,” said Paru, getting off Yui’s lap. Yui secretly hoped they declined. Skinny dipping with Paru was something she wanted to be a private activity.

“Yui and I are going skinny dipping, wanna join?” asked Paru, in the doorway of the cabin.

“What? No!” replied Jurina.

“C’mon, it will be fun! An Kyoto cabin skinny dip.”

“I don’t think you really want Jurina and I to come,” said Mayu. “And I don’t think Jurina and I really want to see the result of this.”

Paru sighed. “Fine,” she said. “C’mon Yui, lets grab towels.”

“I’d say we should do this at night, when no one’s by the lake, and we can shower right after,” suggested Yui.

Paru shrugged. “Alright.”

That night, after dinner, after they got back to the cabin, Paru and Yui grabbed towels.

“Have fun,” teased Mayu.

“Yeah, come back by curfew. And when you get back, don’t make too much noise!” added Jurina. Yui and Paru blushed, before heading down to the lake, hand in hand.

It, being a summer night, was only sunset by the time they headed out and reached the lake.

“Are we really going to do this?” asked Yui when they got there. “What if someone sees us?”

Paru rolled her eyes. “No one’s here.”

Yui pulled off her shirt and her shorts, and looked to the side to see Paru standing there, watching her. “Well?”

Paru looked away and blushed, before doing the same. Yui quickly took off her panties, and turned around to see Paru, fully nude as well, watching her. Paru walked over to her, and intertwined her fingers with Yui’s, looking toward the lake. This was their first time seeing each other fully naked; unfiltered. They very much enjoyed the sight.

“Alright,” Paru said. “On the count of three, we jump. One...two…”

They walked toward the lake, and before Paru could say “three”, they jumped into the water. The water was warm at night, and Paru swam through it, loving the feeling. She slowly swam over to Yui, and put her arms around her. They rose up to the surface.

“Wow,” said Yui. “This was a good idea. The water’s so lovely in the evening.”

They swam toward the shallow end of the lake. “You look hot when you’re wet,” she told Yui, looking over at her.

Yui giggled. “So do you.” Paru took Yui’s hand, pulling her toward her, and started kissing her.

They made out passionately, hands combing through each other’s wet hair, and roaming around each other’s wet, nude bodies. Yui moved her hand toward Paru’s below, but Paru caught it, and held it. “Not here.”

The two kissed, and swam and laughed until the sun went down. Paru swam over to where they got in, and got out of the water, moving her hands to cover her bottom before putting the towel around her waist. The girls dried off, put their clothes back on, and went back to the cabin.

When they got to the cabin, Mayu and Jurina were asleep. They went into the bathroom, and stripped off their clothes once again to shower. They stepped into the shower, and Paru turned on the water.

“Cold,” Yui exclaimed when Paru turned on the freezing water, before adjusting it so that it was warmer.

Paru poured shampoo on her hands, and instead of washing her own hair, decided to watch Yui’s. she massaged the shampoo into her scalp as Yui sighed contently, and did the same for Paru.

Yui’s long fingers felt amazing massaging Paru’s scalp, and Paru purred and moved her head toward Yui’s hand. The two then put soap on their hands, and washed each other’s bodies in unison. Yui washed Paru’s entire body, before she rinsed off. The girls finished up in their shower before getting out, drying off, and getting into their pajamas. Paru crawled into Yui’s bed once again.
The next day was the day before the campers left, and the day of the closing campfire. Paru ate breakfast, went to her dance lesson, ate lunch, and swam for the last time that year at camp. she made sure to spend time with her cabinmates, and Yui especially.
The closing campfire was fun. More games were played, and songs were sang. They even showed a slideshow, and reflected upon, that year at camp. Paru was in a few of the pictures, some with Yui, and in all of them, she had a huge smile on in face. In conclusion, this year at camp was a good one. Paru couldn’t agree more.

Paru was surprised when Yui got up to sing a song with her guitar, which, of course, she could also play. “This one I wrote, it’s called ‘Long Way Home’.” she looked at Paru as she said this. she didn’t publicly dedicate the song to her, but Paru got the memo. Paru also loved the song. Everything about it was great. Yui’s voice, the lyrics...everything. The song described Paru and Yui’s relationship well; going places alone, kissing, and just being together. Paru had to hold herself back from tearing up.

Soon enough, the campfire was over, and the campers headed back to their cabins. Once they were back there, Paru got yet another idea.

“I have an idea,” Paru announced.

“Oh God, not another one!” exclaimed Mayu.

“If you’re asking us to skinny dip again, I politely decline. No actually, not politely. I emphatically refuse,” said Jurina. At this point, they were close enough to banter like this.

“It’s not that. I think we should put our mattresses on the floor, and sleep on them,” said Paru.

“And why do you think we should do this?” asked Yui.

“We would all be closer, it’s the last night of camp, and I want to be closer to you guys,” said Paru.

“Awwww, don’t get all sappy on us! Fine, I’m down,” said Mayu. The other two agreed.
They dragged their mattresses down onto the ground. The top bunk ones were a bit hard to get down, but with teamwork, it happened.

Once all the mattresses were on the ground and the girls were tucked in, they talked and laughed. They reflected upon the year’s happenings, like the the activities they did, as well as after camp plans. Soon, Jurina and Mayu had fallen asleep, leaving only Paru and Yui awake. They had stayed up on purpose, to talk alone.

“Well, we had a special relationship,” said Paru. “I really like you, more than I’ve liked anyone. What even are we?”

“Same,” replied Yui. “We are two people who like each other. Isn’t that enough? We’re happy campers.”

Paru giggled, “No, I’m a happy camper, you’re a counselor,” before getting more serious.

“I mean, are you going to find someone knew once camp’s over?” asked Paru. It was a serious question.

“Honestly? I don’t think I can,” replied Yui. “Cheesy as it sounds, I’ve only eyes for you.” she lightly tapped Paru's nose.

“I’m going to miss you,” said Paru, getting off of her mattress and onto Yui’s, cuddling close to her.

“Not as much as I’ll miss you,” replied Yui.

“Don’t even start,” said Paru. And the two fell asleep.

The next morning, after the girls awoke and got ready, they packed up their things as they exchanged contact information, and headed to the dining room for breakfast. Sooner than it should have been, it was time for Paru to say goodbye to her cabin mates and counselor. It was like the Wizard of Oz; Paru as Dorothy, crying and kissing each of her cabinmates on the cheek, before turning to one of them (Yui) and saying “I think I’ll miss you most of all.”

Except not exactly.

Mayu’s mom was the first one to show, along with Mayu’s sister Miyuki. Mayu introduced the two of them to her cabin mates and counselor, before hugging all of them goodbye. “We’ll have to jam sometime, guys,” said Mayu.

Paru winked. “You have our numbers.”

Jurina was the second to go, her mom showing up soon after Mayu’s. She introduced her cabin mates and counselor to her as Mayu had before hugging Paru and Yui goodbye. Paru’s mom was a bit late, but she didn’t mind. It meant more time with Yui. Paru looked for her mom at first in the parking lot, before spotting her in the driveway. She ran up to her, and wrapped her in a hug. Yui watched fondly.

“I missed you,” she said. her mother chuckled.

“I missed you too, and I brought someone.” Paru spotted her father sitting in the drivers seat.

“Hi dad,” she said, hugging her as well. “Missed you as well of course,”

“Well, yes, I brought her. But I also brought another guy, look.” She pointed to the passenger seat, and sitting there was an adorable beagle puppy.

Paru put her hands over her mouth. “Oh my God,” she exclaimed. “Is that...a puppy?”

“No, it’s just my coat,” her mother joked, before reaching over Paru’s dad, grabbing the puppy, and putting it into Paru’s arms.

Paru cooed as she held the puppy, and stroked her ears. “Is she for me?”

“All yours. she’s an after camp surprise,” said Paru’s father.

Paru’s mother smiled. “Enjoy your new puppy.”

Paru walked up to Yui, and showed her her puppy. Yui giggled, and started rubbing the puppy’s head fondly. It was endearing seeing Paru with a new puppy. It wasn’t something she thought she’d see. she remembered Paru saying her second favorite animal was dogs (after penguins) and that she’d always wanted one, so it was nice to see that Paru’s parents were thoughtful enough to give her something like this.

“What should I name her?” she asked Yui.

“Hmmmm...I’ve always thought beagle sounded a bit like bagel.”

“Bagel’s a good name! Bagel it is,” replied Paru.

“I was joking, but alright. It’s good to know I think of good names,” said Yui.

Paru walked back over to her parents. “Mom, can you hold Bagel? I think I left something in the cabin.”

“Bagel?” asked her mother.

“Yes, Yui thought of it.”

“Wow. I’m glad you had a good counselor,” replied Paru’s mom. She had no idea. "Sure, go grab what you need.”

Paru went back to the cabin, Yui following closely behind.

“I didn’t actually forget anything, I just wanted to say goodbye. My mom knows you’re my counselor, she’ll think it’s weird if we kiss,” said Paru, before leaning in, and giving Yui a passionate kiss, pulling away soon after she started.

“Now’s the time where I give you a cheesy goodbye speech,” said Paru.

“Oh God,” replied Yui.

“Now’s the time when I tell you how amazing you are, and how I liked you from the moment I saw you. How you’re not only talented, but kind, funny, smart, sugar, spice, and everything nice. I don’t think there’s anything you’re bad at, and I don’t think there’s a mean streak in you. As I said in my song, not to quote myself, you’re everything I want. I don’t love you, but I like you a whole lot, and if I spent more time with you, I think I’d definitely fall in love with you. I think we should spend time together after camp, because being around you is the best,” Paru rambled, as she started to cry. She wasn’t even ashamed this time.

“Well, a thank you isn’t enough, but it’s going to have to be. Just kidding. A ditto will work. Alright, I’ll get on with it,” joked Yui. “Paru, I too, liked you from the moment I met you. You’re adorable and sexy at the same time. You’re nice and funny and cute and smart and ridiculous and like-able. I like you as well, and...holy shit, we are so cheesy,” said Yui as the two broke into laughter.

“I don’t think words can sum up our summer together,” said Paru.

“Getting cheesier,” said Yui.

The two kissed one (maybe three) more times. Paru hugged Yui tight, and cried on her shoulder. Even Yui teared up as well. Paru dried her eyes as they exited the cabin, walking hand in hand until Paru’s parents could see them.

“Took you long enough,” said Paru’s mother when they got to her car, not noticing that Paru’s hands were empty; that she didn’t retrieve anything from her cabin. “Now c’mon, let’s get you home. I’ve missed you too much.”

Paru got into the backseat of her car, before turning around and facing Yui, waving as her father drove away before turning around, and cuddling Bagel, who was now in the backseat in her lap. As much as Paru missed her parents, she’ll miss Yui too, and more than anything, hopes to see her again. She hoped this potential love would last longer than the summer, and she hoped Yui would remember her, even if they never saw each other again. But of course, transportation never really was a problem in this era.

OS # 16 Summer Love (YuiParu OS)
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Re: [Atsuko_love's OS Compilation] New OS # 16 Summer Love (YuiParu OS)
« Reply #109 on: November 29, 2014, 04:49:06 AM »

TWO: HOLY SHIT, when you were giving me spoilers for this fic, I thought that it is the most perfect OS ever

And the camp thing was so goooooood. Like yaaaasssssssss. And oh my gosh, I cried with the songs the made for each other.

Also the skinny dipping part I was going like "horre shet, skinny dipping at night no one can see yaaassss" and then I rolled on my bed like the potato I am. *potato noises*



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« Reply #110 on: November 30, 2014, 04:11:14 AM »
hallo ... ds is ket

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« Reply #111 on: November 30, 2014, 09:16:57 AM »

totally agreed~!! :twothumbs :deco:

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Re: [Atsuko_love's OS Compilation] New OS # 16 Summer Love (YuiParu OS)
« Reply #112 on: December 03, 2014, 05:06:55 AM »
you just magnificently and beautifully made a YuiParu fic T^T this is definitely going to be one of my faves :D

keep up the good work and I'm definitely going to wait for your upcoming fics! You're so awesome <3

and more YuiParu please HAHAHAHAHA

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« Reply #114 on: December 18, 2014, 04:05:13 PM »
I'm not really experienced in writing Saeyaka.. Forgive me if the story doesn't fit..
Hope you will like it..
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OS # 17 Shine a Light (SaeYaka OS)

It was hot, loud, dark. The music in the club blasted from the speakers, the crowd was running wild as the band played one of their last songs. That's when she saw it, out of the corner of her eye.. A flash of something bright, reflecting the laser lights back at her. People around her kept jumping like before, perspiration flying through the air, but Sae had stopped, slowly coming to a halt as she turned her head in the direction of the flashing in the dark. As if in slow motion she blinked when she caught sight of a tall girl, jumping along with the crowd, and felt all her attention drawn to this one beautiful person. her bright fringe flapped against her forehead, her smile so infectious it took her breath away. She stared as if in trance when the girl's eyes flickered towards her spectator for only a split-second.

Sayaka looked again, positive now that she was being watched by this handsome dark haired girl one row up. The song changed to a less hectic one, allowing the tall girl to slow her movements. The other one was still looking at her, a flash of green crossing her face every now and then when the lasers rotated into their direction. She was.. gorgeous.

Sae smiled when she saw that the long haired beauty looked back at her. As everyone else was swaying to the music, they both stood still, just staring through the crowd and at each other. Sae made a step forward, extending her hand, offering it for a dance. Sayaka narrowed her eyes and bit her lower lip, leaving her place next to her sister at once, a curious look on her face as she passed a few people on her way to this mysterious girl. Without thinking, she took the offered hand and felt herself being drawn in for a spin.

Sae saw her laugh at her antics and it was basically the most beautiful thing ever. She spun her around a few more times as they danced along to the song before she pulled her in for something rather Waltz-like, since the music became more and more shallow. She was taller than Sae had expected, but she didn't care. It was actually the perfect height for her to rest her head onto her shoulder as they swayed away. Sayaka blushed when she felt the Sae leaning into her, overwhelmed by the sudden affection. No one had ever given her this much attention before; no one this handsome anyway. She felt super flattered and flustered, a grin playing along her lips as she pulled the other girl a little closer and, still dancing, shut her eyes.

As the song ended, Sayaka felt a tugging on the back of her shirt. Her sister had seen enough. She grabbed the tall girl's arm and, her makeup already getting kind of runny, signaled her that she wanted to go home. Sayaka shot her an annoyed look, sensing that at the jerky movements Sae had been detaching herself from her to look for the source of disruption.

Sae shared a questioning look with the girl that was pulling on the girl's arm and who looked suspiciously a lot like her.. She glanced up only to find the tall girl smiling at her apologetically, ensued by her letting go of her hand and starting to follow said girl. Sae pondered for a split-second before she quickly grabbed the tall girl's collar and pressed a short kiss to the corner of her mouth. Smiling at the baffled look she received, she waved once and turned to watch the band play their finale.

Sayaka gave her sister a pleading look. Rolling her eyes, she reached inside her purse and handed her a piece of paper and a pen. Thanks, she mouthed at her as she scribbled onto it before she went back to Sae. Sae felt a hand on her shoulder and turned, surprised to see the tall beauty behind her again. She smiled and waited, while the tall girl took her hand, placing a note inside and with a wink left the dance floor, now herself leaving a baffled girl behind.

Sae held the piece of paper into the red light that shone her way and narrowed her eyes, trying to read the words. she felt her face light up as she managed to identify numbers and...





Upon arriving at their house, Sayaka checked her phone for the what seemed to be the hundreds time. Still no message. "You really shouldn't do that," her sister interrupted the silence between them. "Check your phone while driving, I mean."

Sayaka glared at her as she pulled into their garage.

"Hey, I get it," she waved her hands defensively in the air, "She's cute and all. But honestly.. It makes you look desperate. Plus, I don't want to die in a car crash."

"Yeah, whatever. I'll turn it off then." They got out of the car and strolled across the front yard. The tall girl had to support her sister as she kept on sinking into the damp grass with her heels. Once inside the house, it felt strangely cold and quiet, enhancing the throbbing sound of rushing blood in their ears; not the only aftermath of their night out.. Sayaka's sister groaned as she removed her shoes and rubbed her hurting feet. Sayaka stretched leisurely, creaking a few joints in her back and positively making her sister jump at the sound.

"Ew, gross."

Sayaka shrugged and made her way upstairs, coming to a halt in the middle of the hallway. she turned when she heard her sister behind her. "She was cute, right?"

Sayaka's sister gave her a small smile. "Yes."

"And she kissed me.."

"I saw that." She pushed her forward; she was blocking the way to her room. "Move, little sis. And get your dreamy eyes somewhere else on, I'm tired."

It was early of next morning when Sayaka was awoken rather unpleasantly.. by their fluffy brown cat. she groaned as she rolled over in search for her phone, glancing at her bedside clock. 7 am waking up in the morning.. she groaned again, pushing herself up onto her elbows as Juju ran over her back and along her legs, urging her to prepare cat-breakfast. Sayaka looked for her phone again, knowing that she was way too eager for this time of the day.. When she found it lying on the floor, she quickly turned it back on only to see 3 new messages. Oh.. she didn't recognize the number, so, with Juju next to her face, she excitedly opened the first text.

Hey so-called Sayaka. Thanks for that dance..

Sayaka almost fell off her mattress. Oh my God, it's her! she looked at the time stamp. She had sent this about four hours ago. Sayaka smiled. And what sort of time do you call that? She opened the next message.

I'm Sae, by the way.. Sorry, I forgot to mention that

Sae.. what a beautiful name. Suits her.. Sayaka was trailing off as she rolled onto her back and stared at her phone. Juju meowed impatiently and began to rub her face against Sayaka’s shoulder before she finally gave up and snuggled into her side. Sayaka smiled and absentmindedly ran her fingers through her cat's smooth fur when she opened the last text message.

I can't sleep because I can't stop thinking about you.. Wanna meet me for breakfast? Or lunch? Or whatever you want, really..

What followed was not Sayaka's proudest moment, to be honest.. She squealed and kicked her feet in the air as she almost rolled over the sleepy cat next to her, receiving an annoyed meow as the fluffy animal jumped off the bed and fled to the door. Sayaka let her phone fall onto her chest and, while scrunching up her face in excitement, pressed her hands over it to muffle her happy little squeaks. Then, taking a look at the clock again and with her phone in hand, she bounced off her mattress and into her bathroom. She bit her lower lip as she saved Sae's number and finally typed her response.

Hey so-called Sae. Meet me at the AKB Cafe in 2 hours?

When Sayaka got out of the shower less than 10 minutes later, she had already received an answer. She swung a towel around her waist and paddled back into her room, a grin playing along her lips..

Brilliant! See you there





As Sae was on her way to the AKB Cafe that morning, she shivered over and over again.. Sadly, not exclusively from anticipation. An unseasonably cold wind was ruffling up her hair and clothes on the short distance between her car and the entrance, her legs still aching from her night out. she was about half an hour early, but that was just her being excited. And she was. Excited.

Once inside, the short haired girl ordered her first caffeine for the day and flopped down on one of the sofas, repeatedly running her hands over her arms to lose the cold feeling. Fast, she went through her drink, glad that it warmed her from the inside just as much as the thought of Sayaka beauty.. no, Sayaka... who would be entering the coffee shop pretty soon.

And when she did, it was like sun rise all over again.

Sayaka shook her hair after she stepped through the door, trying to smooth it down after that torture of a whiff that had hit her square in the face as soon as she got out of her car. Sae couldn't tear her eyes off of the mesmerizing sight in front of her. Wow, Sae.. what happened to you? One dance and you are all flustered? She tried to quiet her chatting mind as long as Sayaka hadn't seen her yet. There was a kiss too, you know. She caught Sayaka's gaze and smiled warmly. Yeah, half a kiss that you initiated.. Sae winced noticeably, but Sayaka was too busy focusing on not tripping as she walked over to the sofas. Damn you, brain, shut up already.. she's here, isn't she?


Wow.. Music to sore ears.

"Sayaka?" Sae smirked and, after getting up, went awkwardly around the chunky furniture to reach the tall girl.

Sae didn't even remember moving on her own account; her legs seemed to have a mind of their own since she found herself approaching the counter, Sayaka in tow. With her right hand, Sae motioned for Sayaka to pass by and get in line first, receiving a smile and a curtsey that only broadened her grin.

Standing behind the tall girl, Sae quickly let her eyes wander down her body. She was wearing a dark blue coat with what appeared to be a gray hoodie underneath. Also tight black pants that fit her long legs perfectly.. Unfortunately, the coat covered a whole lot of Sayaka's thighs, naturally including her.. Sae cleared her throat. Not that she wanted to check that out or anything.. she sighed and turned her attention back to Sayaka's head, seeing that, grinning widely, said Sayaka had been watching her over her shoulder.


Sae bit her lower lip, then shrugged. she found her hot, so what?

Sayaka ordered a huge blueberry muffin and a cinnamon latte when it was their turn, whereas Sae settled for another black coffee and doughnuts. "My dad's a cop, it runs in the family," she explained when Sayaka eyed her choice of breakfast. They stood close together while they were waiting, fingers lightly brushing against each other. Sayaka was about to take the Sae's hand when their order was up.

They took a seat at a table near the windows. Early sunlight was softly lighting the room around them.

"So Sayaka, tell me.." Sae sipped at her coffee and added more sugar. "How come you just go and have breakfast with a complete stranger?"

Sayaka stirred her latte, elbow propped on the table and head casually in one hand. "Counter question." she stirred a little more, her brown eyes never leaving Sae. "How come you just go around asking complete strangers to dance.. and then to have said breakfast?"

"I don't," Sae answered shortly, taking another bite from her pink frosted doughnut. "Only once."

"I'm flattered."

Sae leaned back in her chair, already finishing the first of her baked goods. "Can I ask you something?"

"I'm not sharing my muffin!" Sayaka stated quickly, holding it protectively to her chest; thereby almost shoving her coat off the back of her chair as she turned halfway from Sae. The look in her eyes was so sincere, Sae couldn't help but chuckle. It was adorable.

"Not that, silly." she waited shortly and when Sayaka continued to pluck at her muffin like before she continued. "Is that... your real hair?"

Sayaka eyed her suspiciously. What kind of question is that? "Something wrong with it?"

"No, I'm just curious."

"Well, Sherlock, you got me. I'm actually gray as a mouse." she smiled and took another bite.

"Really?" Sae looked at Sayaka in wonder and without thinking twice leaned forward, reaching out to touch a strain of hair that struck a little to the side. "How old are you again?"

Sayaka was glued to her chair and cleared her throat awkwardly as soon as the Sae came back to her senses and swiftly withdrew her hand. "About 35?"

Sae raised an eyebrow. "You don't look it."

"It's magic."

Did she just wink at me? "Oh, right," the Sae chuckled, crossing her legs beneath the small table. "I need to get me some of that.."

"Nah, you don't need it."

"Are you flirting with me? At your age?" This time it was Sae who winked. "Pedophile."

Sayaka drank some more of her coffee, very much enjoying the warmth that was filling her stomach and her heart. she looked up over the rim of her mug, straight into the Sae's hazel eyes, and smiled. "It's real," she clarified, tilting the mug for yet another sip.

Sae seemed to be a tad disappointed as she bit into her second doughnut, still the smile on her lips, though. And also frosting.. Sayaka felt hypnotized by that little pink fleck and, holding her breath, she pointed with her index finger to her own mouth. "You have..." she almost fell forward onto the table when Sae wiped her mouth with her thumb and licked it clean. The tall girl blushed and ducked her head quickly, hiding behind her coffee. With a chuckle and nothing but proud, Sae hemmed before she tried to change the subject to make Sayaka more comfortable.

"So, tell me something about yourself... Some basics, maybe."

"Akimoto Sayaka, Leo, if you're into signs and that kind of stuff.. Which is ironic because I'm actually a twin.."

"Really?" Sae interrupted her at once. She didn't know any twins at all.. How exciting!

"Yeah, She was with me last night.." They both blushed at the memory. Last night.. Singing, dancing, touching..

Sae coughed slightly. "She looked nice." Although she made you let go of me. she sipped on her coffee. Yuck.. Why is this so cold already? Suppressing the urge to grimace at the taste, "I don't have any," she said instead. "Siblings, I mean. It's just me and my dad."

"Oh." Sayaka didn't know what to say.. she felt like she was intruding or something.

"It's really not that bad." Sae tried to get back to the important part of their conversation: Sayaka. The Sae wanted to know everything. "So, who's older?"

"She is." Sayaka sighed and chugged down the last sip of her latte. "Only by 3 minutes though, but she still insists that I'm her little baby sister."

"That's cute.. And probably annoying." she motioned towards Sayaka's empty mug. "Care for another? I'm buying," she added with a wink.

"Sure." The thought alone made Sayaka's face light up, before she continued talking more to herself really. "Mmmhh.. more cinnamon." she was a little addicted, to be honest. It was just soo good..

Sae raised an eyebrow, a smirk on her lips. "You like that?"

Sayaka smirked back. "I like a lot of things."

By now, the Sae had gotten up to buy more coffee, planning on throwing the rest of her away. "For example?" she asked, halfway facing the line.

That gave Sayaka the opportunity to let her eyes wander along the Sae's body. Her jeans were dark and washed out, her long sleeve tight-fitting. Sayaka.. appreciated..the view. She grinned, being rewarded by Sae rolling her glittering eyes again before she spun around and got into line. Huh. Another really nice view.

Sayaka couldn't help her inner squeal as she hid her face behind her clenched hands as soon as Sae was out of sight. she's totally flirting, right? And I'M flirting! How did that happen? Gosh, she's gorgeous...

When Sae returned, she had two cups in hand and placed them both in front of herself. Sayaka reached out, but her hand was shooed away. "Patience, young one. You'll get yours as soon as I get a serious answer." her heart almost melted at the view of Sayaka's pout. Oh my...

"Fine." she immediately started counting on her fingers, "Music, anything caffeine, animals and Iron Man.. Now, gimme!" she whined, once more trying to catch at the cup like the impatient child she was. Attractive, Sayaka.. And she was, yet again, denied.

"Nah-ah-ah!" Sae lifted the latte slash blackmail material? and brought it out of Sayaka's reach. "Now tell me something no one else knows."

"But.. please? Sae? Ugh..So not fair." Failing at grabbing the cup, Sayaka leaned back in her chair and crossed her arms over her chest, with a huff blowing her bright bangs out of her eyes. Sae just waited and smiled to herself. This was fun.

"I think you're cute."

Sae chuckled. How daring.. "I already knew that."

"Okay, now you're just saying that to mess with me!" she groaned as Sae lifted her latte again. "Fine, Sae.." Sayaka thought for a while..Something no one knows.. Not even Sayaka's sister? "Okay, are you ready for this? This one time," at band camp, "I put my sister's makeup on to see how much we really look alike."

"Only once?" Sae asked as she handed the drink over, her expression blank.

Sayaka happily took a big gulp, sighing into the warm cinnamony taste. Hea-ven. she made a few satisfied sounds before she put the cup back down, eyeing Sae's side of the table curiously. I need to take the rest of her doughnut away, if I want to interrogate her as well.. "Yeah, a few years back," she answered finally. "She had this whole raccoon look going on, like, 24/7."

Sae's eyes seemed to drift away from the conversation, in and out of focus on Sayaka's eyes, then lips, then eyes again. "I bet you look great with dark eyeliner.." she blushed as soon as the words left her mouth, all of a sudden finding the cars parked outside extremely interesting.

"Huh?" Sayaka furrowed her brows slightly. What did she..? Ooh, I see.. she smirked knowingly. "Maybe."

She liked this game.




Sae and Sayaka had been talking for over two hours when in the middle of their discussion of Iron Man vs. Batman there was a buzzing sound coming from beneath their table. Sae stopped mid-sentence as Sayaka got her phone out of her pocket and gave her an apologetic look. "Sorry, that's my sister. I need to get this." she got up and, as she was walking to the exit, Sae could hear her answer the call.

Either this was a real call, she pondered, or it was Sayaka's nice way to end this date-thingy. Was this a date? She watched Sayaka through the front windows, pacing and arguing. She looks cute when she's angry. Whatever kind of call this was, she decided to join the tall girl outside anyway. Smiling to herself, she grabbed Sayaka's coat and her latest de-caff before she, once outside in the cold, waited by the door.

Sayaka couldn't believe her sister sometimes. Or her luck.. With a sigh, she put her phone back and slowly turned around, not sure how to break it to Sae that she had to leave. Surprised, she found the Sae already waiting for her not more than 10 feet away.

"So, who's in the hospital?" Sae winked at Sayaka as she stepped forward. Sayaka's coat felt nice and soft and it smelled really good as well, but it seemed awkward to hold on to for no apparent reason, so Sae quickly handed it over.

Sayaka flashed her a sad smile. "No one, it wasn't that kind... She needs the car." Sae looked puzzled.

"Isn't that your car?"

"We sort of share it, since she had that accident. She was okay, don't worry, but her car wasn't. Someone drove into the back and, well, it's wrecked. So yeah." Sayaka was shuffling on her feet, coat on, hands in her pockets, trying hard to explain to Sae why she had to leave. "She has to go to work or something. It's short notice. Sorry." When she looked up, she saw to her surprise that the Sae smiled. Why..?

"It's okay, I understand. But you don't want to leave, do you?"

"No, no, I don't," Sayaka clarified quickly.

"So.. you want to continue this?"

"Yes? I mean, I just told you.." Almost immediately, she got interrupted by Sae, waving her hand dismissively in her face.

"Lead the way, then! I'll follow you with my car," she said with a wink as she pointed to her blue Ford. "We can always decide what to do next once we're at your house." Sayaka didn't answer right away.. Or verbally, for that matter. Instead, she grabbed Sae's hands and basically started bouncing on the spot, flashing the Sae the most brilliant smile.

Sayaka's sister was already waiting outside their house, impatiently tapping her foot on the gravel. She mumbled an annoyed "freaking finally" when Sayaka tossed her the keys and led Sae inside. They had decided to stay for a while; there was really nothing to do anyway. Sae glanced around the house while they climbed the stairs to Sayaka's room, positively impressed by its tidiness. Most of the rooms seemed to be held in light cream colors, even Sayaka's. Although her was plastered with posters and blue furniture.

"It's really nice here," she commented after they sat down on the bed. "So different from mine.."

Sayaka looked a little shy. It did not happen that often that she had a guest. A female guest whom she found very attractive.. Or frankly put, hot. Sayaka blushed a deep crimson when she caught herself thinking that, and cleared her throat awkwardly. "What's it like?"

"I dunno, just different. Older looking, maybe? Everything is worn out. That's just our style, I guess."

"You and your dad's?"

The Sae nodded. She sat cross-legged in the middle of Sayaka's mattress, comfortably propped up onto her elbows. Sayaka didn't say anything for a while, so they just enjoyed each other's company in silence. This actually gave Sae the possibility to hear a faint sighing sound from underneath the bed. she looked over the edge and saw something fuzzy sticking out. "What's that?" she asked.


Sae shushed her with one finger over her own lips before she pointed downwards. Sayaka was now able to hear the purring and chuckled. "It's just Juju.. Our cat." she whistled shortly, called her name a few times and surely, a big fluffy ball of fur came crawling out from under the bed, stretched and then hopped onto the mattress. Suspiciously, she eyed the newbie before she walked over to Sayaka and curled up between the two of them. "She's sleepy," Sayaka explained. "Usually, she'd be outside or something."

Sae reached out and lightly petted the brown fur as Sayaka was doing the same thing. When their hands touched on top of the cat, she didn't hesitate to intertwine their fingers, although she couldn't fight the urge to look up and make sure that there was no form of discontent showing on Sayaka's face.

Fortunately, she found none. Just a shy smile; a happy smile, that made her feel happy in return.

Sometime that afternoon, the cat left them for cat-lunch. Sae and Sayaka stayed behind, hands still interlinked, lying next to each other across the bed. The Sae told her about her dad and Sayaka described her school until Sae's stomach started to rumble.

"Hungry?" Sayaka grinned as she looked over.

"I don't know what could have possibly given you that impression.." she sat up and soon found herself being dragged out of bed and downstairs by her hand. As they crossed the hall on ground-floor, she caught sight of the living room. It seemed big and friendly, but what really stood out was what she saw through the French door. The backyard looked beautiful. There was definitely a tree and a bench...

"That looks nice," she said as she stopped and, like a child, tugged on Sayaka's hand. "What else is out there?"

Sayaka smiled. "Let's have a look." she grabbed her coat hanging over the baluster on their way out. The sky is nice and clear, no clouds in sight, just the sun was shining pale against an even paler blue. she sighed, looking up. Quite lovely, if it wasn't for the cold wind.. Sae was walking through the garden, inspecting the bench and their old swing set. The wind was lifting her long sleeve and she wrapped her arms tighter around her body.

"You're shivering," Sayaka stated into the quiet. Thanks, Captain Obvious...

Sae turned towards Sayaka with a smile playing around her lips. "I don't care."

"Come here." Sayaka unbuttoned her coat and held it open, arms spread wide. Warily, Sae walked over and, with a sigh, hugged the tall Sayaka around the waist, embracing the warmth and feeling the soft fabric immediately surrounding her. She nestled her nose into Sayaka's neck and held on tightly, her fingers brushing against a strip of exposed skin between Sayaka's hoodie and waistband of her jeans. Her hunger long forgotten, she chuckled as she sensed Sayaka's reaction to that.

"Now, who's shivering?"

Sayaka's face turned a gorgeous shade of pink, her head leaned against Sae's as she nudged her lightly. "Oh, shut up," she murmured sheepishly.

"Your heart's also beating pretty fast." Sae bit her lower lip to suppress her grin. "Do I make you.. nervous?"

"N-no." Sayaka squinted her eyes shut. Dammit.

"Uh-huh.." The Sae let her hands wander beneath Sayaka's shirt and rested them flat against the hollow of her back, making her flinch in the process.

" hands are really cold, you must be freezing." Yay for that masterpiece of a semi-coherent sentence, Sayaka.. she took a deep breath while Sae was rubbing her fingers against her skin; the scent from her dark hair had a strangely calming effect on the tall girl and she tightened the hug.

Sae could feel the goosebumps on Sayaka's skin as she shifted in their embrace. Carefully, she tilted her head and experimentally brushed her lips over Sayaka's exposed neck. She was rewarded with a content hum that boosted her confidence. On her tiptoes, she nestled her cheek against Sayaka's, who was still humming under the touch. Tipping her upper body back just a little, she glanced up into a pair of beautiful brown eyes, just before she closed her own and leaned in. Sayaka met her halfway, gently pressing their lips together.

Sae was the first to break the kiss. "Let's go back inside."

Sayaka looked stunned, her lips parted and a deep blush starting to light her face on fire. Once they were in the house again and with one hand covering her mouth, she began rambling through the living room. "I-I- and you were.. and we.."

"Kissed?" Sae suggested, not sure if her happiness was appropriate or not. Sayaka was clearly not coping. Nah.. that kiss was awesome, you can grin. "I noticed."

Sayaka stopped midway between the Sae and the sofa; her face hot, eyes radiating a mixture of longing and fear.

Trying to be somewhat helpful, Sae took a step forward and held her hand out. "Care for another?"

It took Sayaka a split second to register that this was indeed real.. she grabbed Sae's hand and pulled her towards the couch, letting herself fall back, soon being covered with Sae's body. Sae pressed Sayaka into the cushions as she eagerly re-connected their lips, though with more force this time.

Sayaka parted her lips when Sae's tongue asked for entrance and, slowly but passionately, she explored Sae's mouth, her hands exploring the other's back in the meantime. She felt Sae's fingers weave through her hair and a soft moan escaped her lips.

Sae backed away, their faces barely an inch apart, her eyes glistening happily as she tried to catch her breath, still flush on top of Sayaka. "Your hair really is magical."

Sayaka rolled her eyes and laughed. "You're so cheesy."

"And you are adorable."




The ladies were still lying on the couch, Sae flush on top of Sayaka, both hands resting on her chest and a smile on her face. Sayaka was gazing into her deep hazel eyes and pulled parts of her dark fringe behind her ear. "So.. how do you wanna do this?" Sayaka gestured between the two of them. They hadn't talked about relationship stuff until now, like, at all. Sayaka didn't know anything about Sae's former girl-(or possibly girl?)friend's; she hadn't asked. Not like the Sae had either.. it was just a little weird to talk about..

Sae gave her a cheeky smile, on finger suggestively stroking down Sayaka's chest. "Upstairs on your bed? And without clothes?"

Sayaka hit the Sae in the shoulder with a flat hand. "Sae!" she laughed and rolled her eyes. Great.. her date was one of the horny kind.. This was a date, right?

"What? So I'm not getting lucky tonight?"

Sayaka stared at Sae with wide eyes, shocked at what she was hearing. "I can't believe you just said that."

"Relax, Sayaka. I was just joking." Sae looked down into Sayaka's tense face, trying to pout and flutter her eyelashes.

The tall girl couldn't help but laugh at Sae's adorable puppy dog eyes. Dammit. "You are horrible," she said, looking away from the girl on top of her. "Now get off me."

"But Sayaka! I'm really really sorry! Pleeease?"

"Okay, okay. Five more minutes.." she chuckled when Sae clenched her fists triumphantly, her face scrunched up as she victoriously exclaimed a silent YES!

Another quarter of an hour later, Sayaka's limbs were completely and utterly numb. she groaned when the unnerving tingling sensation in her legs began to hurt, causing Sae to gaze at her worriedly. "You okay there?"

"It's my legs. Asleep. Pain.." she groaned as she shifted to a seated position, Sae falling aside and against the backrest.

"Do you.. want me to rub them?"

"After that comment from earlier? You wish!"

"Come on, Sayaka," the Sae said, stroking the tall girl's back affectionately. "I was the one cutting off your blood circulation.. Let me help."

"Fine! But no-.. I mean, hands on the wheel, Sae!" Flustered, she lay back on the sofa again and Sae moved to sit between her legs. Her hands worked gently at first as they began massaging Sayaka from the bottom to the top. Slowly, Sayaka's little noises of displeasure disappeared and were replaced by a content humming sound. As Sae got further up Sayaka's long legs, she felt a blush heating up her neck and cheeks. She glanced at Sayaka's face, finding that she had put her arms behind her head and her eyes fixed on Sae's hands. When she noticed the Sae watching, she bit her bottom lip and held her gaze.

Sae changed the leg again and kept massaging, noting that Sayaka's breath had just hitched and she looked like she was actually biting her lip harder. I must be close to her.. Her own blush deepened, but her hands kept moving even when she saw that Sayaka's hoodie was rucked up. She almost started drooling at the sight of the exposed strip of skin, reluctantly making herself glance back into Sayaka's eyes, and waited for the sign to stop.

Then she brushed something.. And it wasn't a phone or a wallet, judging by the moan that escaped Sayaka's lips. Sayaka sat up immediately, hand covering her mouth, eyes wide and once more staring at the Sae's hand, which was now hovering over her leg and not touching her anymore.

"Sorry," Sae said quietly. "I know, hands on the wheel.."

"It's just.. It's been a while and you and I, we.. this is so new and I- I don't even know what we are.. This is so confusing.."

"What we are?" Oh right, relationship and stuff... The Sae withdrew her hand completely and folded both of her in her lap. When Sayaka finally looked her in the eyes, face still flushed (which, by the way, was simply the most adorable thing ever), she smiled warmly. "I like you, Sayaka. Do you like me?"

Shyly, Sayaka brushed her bangs aside. "Yes."

"Would you like to go on a second date?"

Sayaka smiled softly. "This was a date then?!"

"What else..?" Sae frowned. Seriously, Sayaka? "Okay, never mind, that's not important. You didn't answer me, though." she reached out and hopefully put one hand on Sayaka's knee. "Would you?" Sayaka covered it with her own and when Sae turned her palm upwards, she easily intertwined their fingers.

A second date, huh? Sayaka didn't even have to think twice about it, but she teased the Sae just a little longer, Sayaka's sister's words ringing in the back of her mind. Desperate.. When she answered, she couldn't help the grin that spread across her flushed face. "Honestly? Yes, I'd love to."

Sae smiled, leaning over, and placed a simple kiss to the tall girl's lips. Got lucky after all.. "So, what we are, you ask? One might call that dating."

OS # 17 Shine a light (Saeyaka OS)

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Re: [Atsuko_love's OS Compilation] New OS # 17 Shine a Light (Saeyaka OS)
« Reply #115 on: December 18, 2014, 04:22:19 PM »

I LOVE IT!!!!!!!!!!!!

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Re: [Atsuko_love's OS Compilation] New OS # 17 Shine a Light (Saeyaka OS)
« Reply #116 on: December 18, 2014, 06:55:23 PM »
U back!!!!!!!!

Love Saeyaka they so cute

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« Reply #117 on: December 19, 2014, 04:01:01 AM »
how come you said no experience!!!! you write the story sooooooooooo good!!!!!!!!!!!!! I love it very very very very x n much~!!!!! you write them cute~!! I gotta keep this story for my own hehehe

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« Reply #118 on: December 21, 2014, 05:37:44 AM »

This means I loved it deeply! With all my soul and heart!

It was the best gift EVAH  :heart:
I wub u  :inlove:

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Re: [Atsuko_love's OS Compilation] New OS # 17 Shine a Light (Saeyaka OS)
« Reply #119 on: March 30, 2015, 06:38:03 PM »
A new Wmatsui OS I written for a special someone who I care about a lot~
Special person, you know who you are~
I've written this for you and I hope you'll like it~
It's almost 19k words.. And I did it in a mere 3 days..
Just imagine the amount of sweat and blood I poured into this OS XD
I hope it will help you ease up your stress in your daily work and assignments..
Anyway, here it is~


OS # 18 Girlfriends (Wmatsui OS)

When Jurina steps into the tour bus, she's greeted with the sight of Takamina and Atsuko making out. Rolling her eyes good-naturedly because it's a sight she's familiar with by now and she really doesn't begrudge them their time together since they spend so much of their time apart, she sees Rena lying face down on the sofa. Making a beeline for her, she's about to lean down to tickle Rena because really she's just leaving herself wide open for it, when she pauses and takes a closer look. Rena seems to be staring at Takamina and Atsuko. Jurina's hand is hovering over Rena's back, poised to tickle but something tells her this isn't the time. Instead, she shifts to drop her hand gently onto Rena's head and lets her fingers bury themselves in Rena's curly mop. Rena turns her head slowly and it's like she's literally dragging her eyes away.

Jurina immediately reverts to protective mode and she crouches down to block the couple from Rena's view. "Hey."

Rena's eyes are now locked on her and she can see the sadness in Rena's beautiful gaze. Jurina lets her hand drop onto Rena's shoulder in a comforting gesture.

"You okay?"

Rena shrugs and that's all it takes for Jurina to grab her hands and yank her up off the sofa, ignoring Rena's unhurried protests as she tugs her out of the room and into the bunk area. She pushes her gently towards Rena's bunk. Rena shifts so that she's more comfortable as she sits on the edge of the bunk and looks up at Jurina, who eventually takes a seat on her bunk opposite.

"What's up?" Jurina asks and she keeps her voice low and soft. Her hand reaches out to cover Rena's, resting on Rena's knee and she strokes the soft skin idly. Rena just looks down at their hands and frowns. "Come on, talk to me," Jurina says and she squeezes Rena's hand in reassurance.

Rena's eyes drop immediately to the floor and Jurina can feel her heart sink.

"It's okay, Rena," Jurina soothes and she grabs Rena's other hand, offering strength to her friend. "We'll get through whatever this is, yeah? It's okay."

"It's nothing," Rena says quietly and she sighs like she has the weight of the world on her shoulders. "It's nothing, Jurina. I swear."

"I don't believe you," Jurina says, shifting slightly so she can lean forward, because Rena is barely audible at the best of times. "Why are you so sad, huh?"

"It's silly," Rena says and her tone suggests that she'd like Jurina to drop the whole subject, but they both know that's not going to happen. Jurina can never walk away from any of them when she knows there's something wrong. She's like a dog with a proverbial bone when it comes to one of them being upset and fixing them. "I just - well, I just wish I could have what they have, you know?"

Jurina blinks slowly as she tries to understand. "You want a girlfriend?"

Rena shrugs yet again and Jurina can tell she's a little embarrassed, which throws Jurina completely because she's never known Rena to actively seek out a relationship before. Jurina is at a complete loss of how to proceed or what to say, so she just continues to stroke Rena's hands and waits.

"It's stupid, right?" Rena glances up at Jurina as if looking for validation.

"Of course it's not stupid," Jurina says automatically because it's not stupid that Rena wants someone to love and to love her back. If anyone deserves love it's Rena. She's often thought it strange that Rena has been single in all the time she's known her. "What's brought this on then?"

Rena flushes and Jurina heroically manages to stop her mouth from dropping open in shock because she's never seen Rena blush before. "I guess it's been sort of there for a while. Like when Miyuki comes to visit and Sayanee gets all stupid and giggly and it's ridiculous because Sayanee being giggly is so beyond weird but also kind of amazing and that's what I want, I think."

"Yeah," Jurina says softly. If anyone understands, it's her. She loves being in a relationship and although she's been enjoying her freedom recently, part of her still craves that feeling when someone is entirely focused on you, who smiles when you walk into the room, who lights up when you're near and who loves you more than anyone else.

"So, perhaps I should like, go on dates and stuff," Rena says slowly.

Jurina nods encouragingly.

"But maybe I should wait til we're back home," Rena says and looks to Jurina for assurance and smiles when Jurina nods thoughtfully. "I think it'd be easier when we're not on tour and I can, you know, have some time to myself without everyone watching. What do you think?"

Jurina lets go of one of Rena's hands and reaches up to bop Rena on the nose, grinning when Rena wrinkles her nose and grins back. "Whatever you think is best, Rena. I'll support you."

"Yeah," Rena murmurs as she leans in and lets Jurina hold her in a loose embrace, her hands stroking gently down Rena's back. "I know."

"Hey, let's go shopping," Jurina says because she knows it always cheers Rena up.

"Shopping?" Rena asks and Jurina can see her eyes light up. "What kind of shopping?"

"Uh, whatever shopping you like?" Jurina says. "Clothes, music, home stuff?"

"Clothes," Rena says decisively and Jurina thinks it'll be totally worth the hassle of trying to get past fans and closing down stores (which Jurina still thinks is lame but she understands the necessity of it) just to keep that smile on Rena's face. It takes very little persuasion to get Mariko to agree and soon they're pulling up outside a designer store and Rena's eyes are lighting up like it's Christmas morning as she looks at the store front and eyes up some outfits.

Rena reaches over and grabs Jurina's hand before the door opens and they emerge together, keeping hold of each other as they smile at the fans and wave as they sign a few autographs and pose for pictures before their hands find each other again as they're ushered inside. Jurina pulls her closer as they head for the first rail and hugs her for a second. "Okay?"

Rena nods as she starts to browse and soon the poor store assistants are buried under jackets and jeans and shirts for Rena while Jurina has passed over a few things to try on. Eventually, Rena stops pulling out clothes and heads for the changing room, dragging Jurina into the same one as she pulls off her skinny jeans and tugs on almost identical ones. Rena asks Jurina for her opinion on everything and Rena listens carefully, rejecting anything that Jurina doesn't rave over and spending ages trying to check out everything from every angle. She ums and ahs over a jacket that Jurina thinks looks great on her and eventually deciding to put it in her 'buy' pile. Jurina is persuaded by Rena to buy two pairs of jeans that Rena thinks make Jurina's butt look amazing, so really Jurina can't say no. By the time they're ready to leave, Jurina's blown a couple of hundred dollars while Rena's purchases run into the thousands but Jurina knows it's worth every penny because Rena is happy and smiling as they pose for more pictures before being whisked into the car. Rena cuddles up to Jurina and grins happily as she rests her head on Jurina's shoulder with Jurina's arm around her shoulder and falling to her waist.

"You're the best, Jurina," Rena murmurs happily.

Jurina eyes up the bags in the back of the car and simply refuses to think about the amount of money they've just spent. Instead, she lets her head rest on Rena's and closes her eyes. When they get back on the bus, Rena insists on pulling every purchase out to show the rest of the girls, who have varying levels of interest. Mayu, who is completely disinterested, loads up FIFA and hands a controller to Jurina, who starts to play with half concentration as she's also keeping an eye on Rena. Sayanee looks up from her phone every now and again and gives her opinion, good or bad, which Rena just rolls her eyes at. Takamina insists on Rena trying on everything and gives a nonstop commentary on whether she thinks it's flattering or not. It results in Rena throwing herself on Takamina and tickling her until Takamina gives in and calls for Atsuko's help.

Rena's mood immediately shifts as Atsuko steps into the room, looking sleepy and adorable from what was clearly a nap and Takamina whisks her back to the double room at the back of the bus that couples use whenever girlfriends visit. Jurina doesn't even realize she's moved until she finds herself sat next to Rena, throwing an arm around her, dragging her into her body and cuddling while keeping an eye on the television and fouling Mayu, who protests loudly while Jurina laughs. She throws the controller to Sayanee who drops her phone to catch it and she's right in the game within seconds, leaving Jurina free to turn to Rena, who looks up at Jurina with a slightly wobbly smile and the sight of Rena looking anything other than completely at ease and comfortable has Jurina's stomach swooping and her face drops. She grabs Rena's hand and stands up, muttering something about needing to talk to her and just hauls her out of the room. She stands by the door, trying to figure out where they can go before drawing her into the bathroom. She pushes the door shut behind her and drags Rena into a hug, which Rena returns tightly.

"I'm such an idiot," Rena mutters and Jurina just holds on tighter.

"Just think about how amazing you're going to look on your first date with what could be the love of your life," Jurina says sweetly.

Rena laughs and drops her head onto Jurina's shoulder, her body shaking uncontrollably. "Jurina, you're such a soppy romantic," she says with a shake of her head. "How on earth have you managed to stay single for months?"

Jurina shrugged and frowned. "I thought you wanted a relationship?"

"I do," Rena says quickly.

“Yup. You'll be a lot happier."

Rena hums in agreement as she presses a sloppy kiss against Jurina's cheek. "Absolutely. In the meantime, I have you to cheer me up."

"Glad I can help," Jurina grumbles as Rena laughs in delight once more.

When Atsuko goes home, Rena's mood lightens and while Jurina is keeping a close eye on her, she rarely sees Rena looking sad, nothing that a ruffle of her hair or tickling her tummy can't solve anyway. Of course, that might be because Jurina is deliberately distracting Rena and filling her days and nights off. So far, they've gone to a jazz night with Sayanee, they've hit the beach whenever they're on the coast, they've snuck into a few movie theatres to watch a few romantic comedies that Jurina has wanted to scratch her skin off during but Rena has laughed long and loudly through them all so Jurina guesses it's worth it in the end, they've been to a few basketball games and on their nights in, Jurina has sat through hours and hours of Rena's favourite boxsets. Well, she's sat next to Rena and dozed through them, but she's still physically been there and Rena has seemed to enjoy it, so Jurina's counting them as wins as well.

It's all going really well until Miyuki drops by for a flying visit. Sayanee lights up when she's nearly there and drums her fingers on her thighs as she anxiously waits for her to arrive. Rena's on her phone, texting or on twitter, Jurina's not sure, but she keeps looking up at Sayanee before her gaze darts away. Jurina's hand moves so that it rests on Rena's leg as she reads the latest email from her mum. She feels Rena's sigh and Rena's hand rests on her lightly. Jurina turns her hand so that she can thread her fingers through Rena's and she squeezes gently. When Miyuki bursts through the door and throws herself on Sayanee, Jurina carefully sneaks a glance at Rena, who just looks at her. Her mouth lifts into a small smile and Jurina's so relieved that Rena's okay that she just beams at her. Rena reaches out to touch the crinkles by one of Jurina's eyes and she grins before her hand drops back down to lace once again with Jurina's.

"You okay?" Jurina says quietly as Rena's smile begins to fade.

"Yeah, I'm good," Rena says and Jurina actually believes her this time. "Just ... stay here, ok?"

Jurina nods and turns back to her email, her hand still in Rena's. Miyuki only stays for one night before she has to get back to the band and then it's their last night on tour and soon enough they're on a plane back home, exhausted but excited to be on their way to Tokyo at last. Jurina thinks she could sleep for a week, but Rena wants to head straight out to catch up with friends. Mayu is heading back to Hokkaido and Takamina wants to bury herself in family. Sayanee just wants to disappear. When they land, they're all hugging and kissing each other goodbye, and it's always a mixed feeling of sadness and elation that they all understand perfectly. Soon it's just Jurina and Rena heading towards their car to share a lift back to their houses and they snuggle up in the backseat, shattered. Jurina can feel her eyes drooping as she managed to stay awake on the flight over but she's just about done for and she's dreaming of her big, comfortable bed and turning off her phone to just sleep until she can't sleep anymore.

"Hey, Jurina?" Rena's voice rouses her and she opens one eye to find Rena staring at her.

"Yeah Rena?" Jurina's voice is husky with sleep and she can barely focus on Rena's eyes which are swimming in front of her.

"Come back to mine?"

"Huh?" Jurina shakes her head as if to clear it but she still feels fuzzy.

"I don't want to go back to my place alone. Come back with me?" Rena asks again.

"Okay," Jurina agrees sleepily as she lets her head fall back onto Rena's shoulder. When she next wakes, Rena is shaking her gently and telling her that they're home. Jurina grabs her bags and follows Rena to the front door, remembering just in time to turn and thank the driver before she stumbles into Rena's house and the door closes behind her.

"Come on," Rena grabs Jurina's hand and tugs her upstairs, laughing as Jurina trips several times before Rena shoves her into her bedroom. Jurina tugs her shirt over her head and kicks off her converse before attempting to drag her jeans off. She finally manages it and falls headfirst onto the bed, grumbling as Rena tries to drag the covers from under her. She feels Rena slide into bed next to her and then she has a handful of almost naked Rena curling up against her. Jurina tiredly lifts her arm and Rena scoots under to slot her body in tightly. Jurina doesn't notice because she's fast asleep.

When she wakes up, she's sprawled across the bed. Or more accurately, she's sprawled across Rena. Somehow in the night, she's flung an arm and leg over Rena as if she's pinning her to the bed and her head is burrowed into Rena's shoulder. Jurina shifts slightly to bring her arm and leg back to a more reasonable position before she lifts her head to find Rena's face turned towards her, mouth open and drooling. Jurina grins and fumbles around for her phone, snapping a quick picture that she plans to use for blackmail at a later date. Jurina wriggles a little and starts to poke Rena's side, muffling a laugh when Rena frowns in her sleep before her eyes shoot open and she flips over so she lands on top of Jurina, to her surprise. Rena's down before Jurina can stop her and she finds herself on the receiving end of a love bite. She knows there'll be a mark there by the time she can remove Rena so she just lies back and lets Rena continue, enjoying the feel of her mouth on her skin in a way that Jurina no longer finds weird. Sometimes, it was just nice to feel a physical connection to someone, even if that someone was one of your best mates and she was only doing it for a laugh.

When Rena finally lifts her head, she's grinning like a lunatic and Jurina can't help but reach out and tickle her sides. Rena falls forward and giggles furiously as she wriggles to escape but Jurina just laughs, because it always amuses her when Rena thinks she can overpower her. Eventually Rena gives in and just flops against Jurina, who shoves at Rena's shoulder so that she falls onto the mattress and they both take a minute to catch their breath.

"I guess I need to go home," Jurina says finally, turning her head towards Rena.

Rena hums gently. "What are you gonna do today?"

"Uh," Jurina thinks about what she should be doing today versus what she really wants to do today. For once, just today, she figures she's going to do what she wants because she's earned it after the tour and she's going to be selfish for once. "Nothing, really. I'm going to take a whole day and do nothing with it."

"Not even unpacking and doing your washing or calling your parents or some household chores?" Rena teases and she shakes her head in mock-disappointment at Jurina's irresponsible ways.

"Nope," Jurina says cheerfully and sticks her tongue out at Rena, who just grins.

"So instead of getting up, showering, dressing and catching a cab to yours, you could stay and we can hang around doing nothing all day and get takeaway and you can crash here again tonight," Rena says thoughtfully, casting a quick glance at Jurina before staring up at the ceiling. "Because since I plan to do absolutely nothing as well, we could just do nothing together."

"You want me to stay?" Jurina asks, the surprise clear in her tone. "I thought you'd be rushing to kick me out the door so you can catch up with all the people you haven't spent the last two months stuck in a tour bus with."

"Not really," Rena says and Jurina can hear her sigh. "I hate going from seeing everyone every day to seeing no one and being on my own."

"Alright," Jurina says easily, because she's more than happy to stay. "But we're not watching any romantic comedies. Deal?"

Rena pouts but eventually gives in. Jurina showers, and shoves Rena in after she gets out because she still has standards. Rena throws on some jogging bottoms and Jurina manages to find some shorts in her bag and they sprawl across Rena's sofa. Rena persuades Jurina to watch the first Harry Potter movie and they both yell out their favourite line together and Jurina tickles Rena until she's gasping for breath and collapses onto Jurina's side. They remain locked together through Chamber of Secrets until Rena decides she's so hungry that she might die if they don't order some Chinese food. Jurina gets up to take delivery because Rena has decided that picking up the phone and placing the order is the entire sum of effort she can put into today and when Jurina places everything on the table, Rena sends Jurina upstairs to grab a duvet and they spend the rest of the evening eating too much food, laughing at each other and sneaking pinches and pokes to make the other jump. When they finally decide to turn in for the night, Rena drags Jurina into her room, ignoring Jurina's protests and jumps under the covers, lifting them up for Jurina who just sighs and climbs in. Rena cuddles up to her and Jurina has to admit that she misses sharing a bed with someone and cuddling with Rena just happens to be a way of life for her now. It's almost unavoidable.

"Thanks for staying, Jurina," Rena says quietly into the silence. Jurina just tightens her arm around Rena and buries her head into Rena's neck.

In the morning, Jurina wakes up and blearily announces that she really has to go home, but somehow (and Jurina's a bit fuzzy on the details) Rena talks her into staying again. Not that Jurina minds, she figures she'll head home at some point. They spend the day doing chores, like their washing and food shopping, bickering over fruit and whether they want carrots or broccoli for dinner, while Rena blocks all of Jurina's attempts to throw anything with sugar in the basket. Rena relents when Jurina throws popcorn in though and Jurina thinks that's a pretty good compromise.

As they're unpacking the shopping , Rena casually mentions that Yuko and a couple of friends are coming over. Jurina blinks slowly before she finishes putting the fruit in the overly large and ostentatious fruit bowl that Rena loves. "Oh, okay," she says, trying to ignore the bubble of hurt and rejection rising in her because she knows Rena just wants to see her friends, which Jurina can hardly blame her for, and it's time for her to go home really, so she starts towards the door. "I'll just grab my stuff and get out of here."

"Hey, what?" Jurina feels Rena's hand around her wrist and she's being turned around to face a confused Rena. "I thought you were staying here?"

"But you know, with Yuko and that lot coming here, I thought you'd want me to go." Jurina asks, her voice a little huskier than usual. "I mean, I don't really know them and I don't think they really want me here, they're coming to see you and this means you won't be on your own anymore right?"

Rena just frowns. "Jurina, I don't want you to go. I asked you to stay, remember? And who cares if Yuko likes you, because I like you and I asked you to stay because it's my house and I want you to stay, so just stay, ok?"

Confused, Jurina just nods because she's not sure what else she can do. She doesn't really socialize with Rena's friends so she's a bit intimidated by them but if Rena wants her to stay, then of course she'll stay.

Rena slips her hand in Jurina's and squeezes gently. "Okay?"

"Yeah, okay," Jurina says and she manages a small smile. "Just don't abandon me, ok?"

Rena just laughs and pulls Jurina back into the kitchen to unpack the rest of the shopping.

The visit goes pretty well, Jurina thinks. They stay for three hours, lounging around and catching Rena (and Jurina by extension) up on what's happened while they've been out of the country. Jurina doesn't exactly know who some of the gossip is about but she nods and smiles in the right places, she thinks. Yuko makes Jurina laugh a few times and she smiles at Jurina in approval, so Jurina counts that as a win. And Rena sits curled up next to her on the sofa for the entire time they're there. She doesn't cuddle Jurina or get all handsy like Jurina's used to Rena being, but she figures it's just that Rena behaves differently with different people and that's fine with Jurina because she likes to discover new sides to Rena. When they leave, Yuko makes a point of saying goodbye to Jurina and calls out that she's sure she'll see her soon and Jurina stands on Rena's doorstep, waving goodbye because Rena's drawn her there. When Rena shuts the door, she flings her arms around Jurina and shudders theatrically.

"God, they talk so much," Rena moans and Jurina just rolls her eyes because she knows Rena loves gossiping and she loves her friends and this is just Rena being silly. "Dinner?"

"You're cooking, right?" Jurina asks hesitantly because she's terrible in the kitchen.

"Course I am," Rena scoffs because she knows Jurina's terrible in the kitchen. "Come keep me company."

While Rena cooks, Jurina struggles to bring up the topic they've been avoiding while they've been holed up in Rena's house. "Uh, Rena?"

"Yeah?" Rena asks distractedly as she tastes her sauce and wrinkles her nose before reaching for more seasoning.

"The whole dating and relationship thing, do you still want to do that?" Jurina asks, a little nervous about bringing it up.

"Oh yeah," Rena says, whirling around and grinning. "I forgot about that. I should probably go out and meet some people, right?"

"Well, that's what you're best at," Jurina points out with a smile. "You pick up more friends on a quick run to the shops than I've done in my entire life."

"Firstly, that's not true," Rena says sternly, waggling her spoon at Jurina with a frown. "And secondly, I thought I was best at singing like an angel?"

"Who told you that?" Jurina teases and moves to avoid the onion Rena's just thrown at her.

"You did at judges houses when I was throwing up with nerves," Rena says as she turns back to the stove.

"A little white lie to get us through," Jurina says with a grin, which becomes a laugh when Rena glares at her and she hands her back the flung onion. "Hey, come on. Seriously, what's your plan?"

"Uh, I don't have a plan," Rena says with a shrug as she starts dishing up. She carries the plates over to where Jurina is and sits down, reaching for the glass of wine Jurina's poured them even though Jurina doesn't really like wine, simply because she knows Rena does and Jurina is the most well-mannered guest Rena will ever have to stay. "I thought I'd just go out, chat to some people and see if there's anyone I fancy."

"You make it sound so easy," Jurina grumbles as she takes a bite. "Hey, this is good!"

"Well of course it is," Rena says, as close to exasperated as Jurina's ever heard her. "What did you expect?" Jurina just winks at her and Rena flips her off before she picks up her fork and tucks in. "What do you mean, I make it sound so easy? It is easy."

"For you," Jurina says and that's all she's willing to say. She ignores the look Rena gives her and is grateful that Rena changes the subject to the text she got from Yuko a few minutes ago asking her and Jurina to a party tomorrow night.

"She asked me as well?" Jurina asks and she tries to keep the disbelief out of her voice.

"Yeah, course she did," Rena says as if she can't comprehend why Jurina wouldn't be invited. "You'll come, right?"

"I guess, if you want me to," Jurina says as she clears her plate and sits back, stretching. She sees Rena looking furtively at her and she grins. "You want me to lift my shirt, babe?"

"Matsui Jurina, you flirt," Rena mumbles through a mouthful of food. "You know I always appreciate your body, considering the amount of time you spend showing it off these days. You're staying tonight, right?"

"I might as well just unpack here, Rena," Jurina laughs as she carries her plate to the sink and starts washing her plate. "I really need to go home at some point."

"Why?" Rena asks and the blunt tone has Jurina looking over her shoulder at a frowning Rena. "I mean, you might as well just stay here."

Jurina's initial reaction is to say no, of course she can't stay here when she's got a perfectly good flat two miles away when she realizes that there's no actual reason for her to go home, except maybe to check that everything's in order and maybe pick up some different clothes. "Okay. But I pay for half the food and when you want me to go home, just kick me out, ok?"

"No problem," Rena says easily and she smiles that slow smile of her that has Jurina turning back to the dishes with a warm feeling in her chest.

"You wanna try that new boxset tonight?" Jurina calls over her shoulder and hears Rena agree.

Once the dishes are clean and set to dry, Jurina puts the show on and lies down on the sofa next to Rena, putting her head on Rena's lap and she sighs happily when Rena's fingers slide into her hair and strokes and rubs gently.

After a ridiculously good night's sleep, Jurina is up and bounding around the house early, trying to get Rena out of bed despite her protests. She ends up physically lifting her out of bed and carrying a wriggling and yelling Rena to the shower, dumping her inside and turning on the water, chuckling as she leaves a very wet and bedraggled Rena grumbling behind her. When Rena emerges, she's got a beanie shoved over her head and she's glaring at Jurina, who offers her a piece of toast and a banana as a peace-offering.

"Why am I up?" Rena grumbles as she swipes the banana and peels it carefully.

"We're going to go check on my place and I'm going to pick up some clothes and stuff," Jurina explains as Rena swipes the toast and throws the banana peel in the bin.

Rena's expression immediately brightens. "Because you're staying here, right?"

"Right," Jurina agrees and she's shoving Rena's jacket at her and throwing her keys, which Rena fumbles before holding them aloft victoriously with an adorable grin.

They pull up and manage to get inside without anyone noticing them and Jurina hurries Rena into her apartment. As she looks around, everything seems okay and she disappears into her bedroom to start throwing stuff into a bag. Rena ends up lying on her bed, giving her opinion on what Jurina should take until they've wasted two hours deciding on whether Jurina should take her lightwash jeans or whether she needs five white t-shirts. She checks her messages, finds that none of them are urgent and grabs her mail, shoving it into her bag as well and she figures she can open it at Rena's.

Jurina runs into a Starbucks on their way home and grabs lunch, stopping to sign a few autographs and pose for pictures and she's grateful no one can see Rena through her tinted windows kerbside, because otherwise they'd have a mob on their hands. She manages to finally escape and falls into the car, groaning. Rena's look is sympathetic and she pats Jurina's hand in compassion before pulling away.

It takes Rena most of the afternoon to get ready, while Jurina spends the afternoon going for a run and vegging out in front of the television. When Rena yells at her because she's not ready and they have to go in twenty minutes, Jurina jumps in the shower, spends two minutes doing her hair, checks her stubble is still in some kind of tidiness, throws on her lightwash jeans and a white t-shirt, throws on a jacket for good measure and she's good to go.

Rena wolf whistles as Jurina walks down the stairs. Jurina blushes because she's still not used to compliments, even after all this time in this band of theirs where they aren't afraid to discuss at length each other's butts, their hair, their eyes, their hands, their torsos and well, anything really.

"You look hot, Matsui Jurina," Rena announces and leans in to smack a wet kiss on her cheek.

Jurina's flush worsens and Rena's grin widens. Rena's in black skinny jeans and some kind of rainbow shirt which Jurina thinks is both awful and amazing and she's got those damn brown boots on that Rena loves but Jurina secretly wants to throw out with the trash.

"Maybe while we're finding me a cute girl, we'll find you a cute boy, what do you think Jurina?" Rena teases as she grabs Jurina's hand and tugs her out of the door. Rena lets her hand slip into Jurina's as they walk the short distance to Yuko's place. "You're looking pretty irresistible tonight, you know."

"Shut up," Jurina says fondly as she nudges Rena with her hip. Rena nudges her back and they're halfway to wrestling in the street before someone walks past them and Jurina straightens, grinning stupidly as she holds Rena in a headlock. "You gonna behave tonight Rena?"

Rena twists slightly so she can grin up at Jurina from her tenuous position. "Probably not," she admits honestly but she looks so adorable that Jurina just rolls her eyes and lets her go. Rena instantly moves back into Jurina's side and they turn the corner into Yuko's place, Rena's hand on Jurina's back and propelling her forward so that Jurina has to walk in first.

After introducing Jurina to what feels like a hundred people, Jurina finds herself on a sofa, squeezed between two people she can't remember the names of but she's had too many drinks to care. She's talking to them about food when she looks up and sees Rena talking to some girl. She's pretty cute, Jurina thinks objectively. She watches Rena laugh at something the cute girl is saying and she feels a twist in her stomach. Probably just had too much to drink. She stands up carefully, excusing herself politely and heads for the bathroom. She gets stopped twice on the way by people wanting to talk to her, which she can still never get her head around because she's at a party with lots of famous guests, so why anyone would single her out is beyond her, but she manages to lock herself in the bathroom eventually and splashes some water on her face, grimacing as she peers at herself in the mirror. Running her hand through her hair, she tries to put herself together and after a few minutes, figures she's good to go. She heads back to where she last saw Rena, only to feel something launching themselves at her back. Without turning, she reaches down to pat the hands locked around her waist.

"Hey Rena," she murmurs before turning in Rena's arms. "How's it going?"

"I've met some cute girls, Jurina.." Rena says happily and cuddles closer, dropping her head onto Jurina's chest and tightening her grip.

"That's great," and Jurina really does mean it, even if she kind of finds it irritating that Rena can find it so easy to just collect people. "But you probably shouldn't be hanging off me if you want to find a date, you know."

"My dates have to love you, Jurina or they're not worth it," Rena slurs carelessly as her hands drop to Jurina's butt and while Jurina's hardly surprised because the band grope each other all the time, she's reaching back to lift Rena's hands back up to her waist because it's not just the two of them here and if Rena's trying to find a nice girl to date, nice girls aren't going to go on dates with Rena if they see her all over another girl, no matter how innocent it is.

"How much have you had to drink?" Jurina asks suspiciously as she reaches up to cup Rena's face and forces Rena to look at her.

Rena giggles. "You gonna kiss me Jurina?"

"Okay, time to go," Jurina says firmly as she tugs Rena over to Yuko and says goodbye and thanks her for inviting them. Rena plants a sloppy kiss on Yuko's cheek and waves goodbye as Jurina pushes her towards the door. As soon as the fresh air hits her, Rena's whining and trying to curl into Jurina, seeking warmth. With a sigh, Jurina shifts so that she can wrap an arm around Rena's back and offers Rena her body warmth.

"You taking me to bed Jurina?" Rena giggles again as Jurina turns into Rena's driveway.

"Something like that," Jurina mutters as she fishes Rena's spare keys out of her jeans pocket and opens the door. She pushes Rena upstairs and pushes her gently onto the bed. She slips off Rena's boots and works on tugging her jeans off, cursing their bloody tightness and considers it a victory when they finally slide off. Rena's lost in her t-shirt as she tries to take it off and calls for Jurina to rescue her. Wondering how this became her life, Jurina tugs the shirt off her and wraps Rena in the covers.

"Hey, you come to bed too," Rena frowns as she reaches out to tug Jurina down.

"Not yet, you idiot." Jurina frees herself from Rena's long fingers and heads downstairs to get a glass of water for Rena, placing it on her bedside table. She then quickly strips and slips into bed but makes no move to cuddle Rena.

"Heeeeeeey," Rena whines as she tries to move into Jurina's space and Jurina fends her off. "What's wrong? Where's my cuddle?"

"No drunken cuddles," Jurina says firmly. "You get handsy when you're drunk."

"You love it when I'm handsy," Rena says coquettishly before she giggles and reaches out again, only to find Jurina's hands wrapped around her wrists, keeping her at bay. "Hey, this is kinky. You never mentioned your kinkiness before, Jurina."

Jurina stays silent and prays for patience.

"I wanna cuddddddddle!"

Groaning, Jurina turns around and wraps her arms around Rena, flexing her arms tightly so that Rena is imprisoned and can't move.

"We're going to discuss this kinky stuff you're into in the morning," Rena informs her with a yawn. "I think I like it. I definitely like your arms, Jurina. They're strong and they make a girl feel safe, you know?"

Jurina pushes down the weird bubble of feeling that appears in her tummy. "Go to sleep, Rena."

"Night Jurina. Love you."

"Yeah, you too, you idiot."

Jurina wakes up to find Rena's face inches away from her own. She blinks slowly as Rena's face comes into focus. Jurina finds herself admiring Rena's face, because it's a very nice face, and she can see why her female fans go crazy over her. Sometimes she thinks she goes a bit crazy over Rena because otherwise she'd be in her own bed right now, in her own flat and seeing her own friends. Yet here she is, sharing Rena's bed and just staring at her like some kind of crazy stalker.

"Morning," Rena's husky voice has Jurina lifting her eyes from where they'd rested on Rena lips to look up into curious black eyes. "Sleep well?"

"As well as I can with a handsy drunk," Jurina replies but her voice is soft and her tone is fond, so Rena just lets her lips curve into a gorgeous smile and Jurina finds her gaze drawn back down to look at it.

"Sorry Jurina, can't help it if you're irresistible when you're being all responsible and sensible and trying to get me into bed," Rena says and then bites her lip.

Jurina frowns as she watches Rena's teeth worry her bottom lip.

"Seriously, thanks for looking after me," Rena says and Jurina's gaze is still fixated on Rena's mouth so she watches as Rena moves closer and presses a soft kiss on Jurina's lips. Rena moves back and jumps out of bed, complaining that she needs a shower and Jurina is left lying in bed, staring after her.

When Rena emerges, she tries to persuade Jurina to go sightseeing. Jurina argues that they'll be mobbed as soon as they head outside together, because it's just about manageable when it's one of them, but Rena promises to dress inconspicuously and promises that she'll wear a baseball hat, an offer that Jurina can't turn down which is why they end up queuing to get on the Ferris Wheel. Rena leans on Jurina's back, looking over her shoulder and Jurina stands as still as she can to keep Rena upright, because Rena has the worst balance in the world and Jurina's braced to catch her if she starts sliding.

"Hey Jurina, do you know how anything about plumbing?"

"Uh, a little," Jurina offers, a little dubious. "Why?"

"The kitchen sink's been a bit clogged, didn't know if you knew how to fix it or whether I should call someone," Rena murmurs.

"I can take a look later when we get home," Jurina offers and she hears Rena saying something that sounds like thanks.

"Did you hear from any of those girls you met last night?" Jurina asks idly as she watches the wheel turn, craning her neck slightly to look up to the top of the wheel.

"Yeah," Rena mumbles and Jurina's pretty sure she's got her eyes closed and is two minutes away from falling asleep on her. "Two of them want to set up dates."

"I don't know how you do it," Jurina grumbles, annoyed once again at the ease with which Rena can find dates. "What did you say?"

"Nothing yet," Rena says and she follows Jurina as the line moves, keeping her head on Jurina's broad shoulders. "What do you think I should do?"

"Um, go on dates with them?" Jurina rolls her eyes and wonders how Rena gets through life, generally. "Go on a first date with both of them and see if you get on with them. If you do, pick whichever one you get on best with and go on another date. And if you enjoy that date, marry them."

Rena lets out a surprised laugh and presses a wet kiss on the back of Jurina's neck, which has Jurina shivering. "Straight to marriage, huh?"

"I think it's best that you don't have too many choices, Rena," Jurina says seriously. "You're rubbish when faced with choice. You can't even pick a movie, let alone a life partner. I think it's best to just settle down as soon as you can find someone to put up with you and your idiot ways."

"In that case, we should get married," Rena muses.

Jurina laughs. "Yeah, or you could marry Mayu or Takamina. Maybe not Sayanee, I don't think she could live with you for more than three months at a time, max."

"Dating sounds like a lot of work," Rena says with a sigh and Jurina turns around to look at her.

"But totally worth it," Jurina tells her and Rena smiles sadly. Jurina reaches out and hooks her hand around the back of Rena's neck, bringing her closer and resting her head against Rena's. "I promise. In six months when you're happily coupled off, I'll be more than pleased to tell you I told you so."

"Deal," Rena says and leans forward to press her lips against Jurina's briefly.

"Come on lovebirds."
Jurina and Rena jump at the muttered comment coming from somewhere further down the line as they realise the line has moved in front of them and they've been so wrapped up in each other that they haven't noticed. Flushing, Jurina steps away from Rena and mutters an apology before catching up. Rena slips her hand into Jurina's and grins up at her. "That was embarrassing, wasn't it Jurina?"

Rena spends the rest of their time queuing cooing at Jurina and pretending to be girlfriends, amusing herself while Jurina just pretends to ignore her. she carries on, all through the ride, snuggling up to Jurina, pressing kisses against her neck and cheek and any bare skin she can get to before Jurina shrugs her off, sneaking her arms around Jurina and calling her all the pet names she can come up with, her favourite being Jurina-beans, for reasons that completely escape Jurina.

"You really need to get laid," Jurina says as they walk away from the wheel, making Rena laugh loudly.

"Hey, I'm trying," Rena points out.

"Not with me!" Jurina says exasperatedly.

Rena gives her a funny look. "I meant with my dates, Jurina."

"Oh, right," Jurina says and pretends that she's not completely embarrassed . "Did you text them back?"

"Yeah, I'm going on a date tonight. Is that okay?" Rena asks hesitantly.

"Of course it is," Jurina says, punching Rena lightly in the arm and pushing away the sad thought that she'll have to spend the night alone for the first time in forever. Perhaps she'll call Churi and see if she's around for a catch up.

"I won't be late or anything, especially if she's an idiot," Rena says as she presses against Jurina and looks across at her through her eyelashes.

"You can be as late as you like, Rena," Jurina says reasonably. "Don't worry about me, seriously. I'll text Churi and see if she's around."

"Okay," Rena says and Jurina can tell from her tone that she's unsure. Jurina doesn't want her to talk herself out of going on the date so she shoots off a quick text to Churi, who replies immediately to say that she can meet her for a drink.

"See? I'm all sorted," Jurina says and is entirely grateful to have such a good best friend.

"But you'll come back home after, right?" Rena asks and she slips her hand into Jurina's unobtrusively.

Jurina squeezes it. "Yeah, course I will. All my stuff's at yours."

Rena just smiles and they head towards the Tokyo Tower.

Jurina has a great evening catching up with Churi. She only texts Rena three times to make sure she's okay, that the date is going okay and to see what time she'll be home. From what she can gather, Rena's date is very nice, she was punctual and Rena will be home by 10pm. Jurina's a bit dubious about how well the date can be going if she's going to be home that early, so she insists on leaving at 9.50pm, despite Churi's incredulous protests and heads home. The house is still empty so Jurina puts the kettle on, because Takamina has drilled it into the rest of them that tea is good for any situation and sits down, playing on her phone and trying to pretend that she's not nervous. Nervous in case it went well or nervous in case it went badly? Jurina pushes the rogue thought away and starts to drum her fingers against the table. When the door finally opens, Jurina jumps up and hurries to meet her. Rena looks normal, Jurina thinks, no tears but no foolish grins either.

"So?" Jurina thinks the wait is going to kill her, even though it's only been five seconds before Rena walked in.

With a shrug, Rena hangs up her jacket. "It was okay."

"Just okay?" Jurina asks, grabbing Rena's arm and dragging her into the kitchen and sitting her down while she pours the tea.

"Yeah, just okay," Rena says. "Don't think there'll be a second date."

Jurina ignores the weird leap her stomach makes and sits down, placing the tea in front of them. "Oh, well better luck next time, yeah?"

"Yeah," Rena says, taking a sip. "I'm having lunch with the other one tomorrow."

Jurina ignores the instinct to protest, because it's another few hours she'll have to spend alone, and seriously what was wrong with her? She's managed to fill her free time from tour and band duties very well in the past, so why is she even thinking about moaning when Rena dares to spend some time going on dates, something that Jurina has long thought overdue?

"Cool," is what Jurina manages to say. she sees Rena looking a little down and she reaches out to tug a curl. "How can anyone go on a date with you and it just be okay?"

Rena bites her lip and flushes, keeping her eyes down. "Dunno."

"If that were me, I'd be dragging off to the nearest bed," Jurina says with a teasing wink that Rena catches with a reluctant grin.

"Well, you do drag me to bed every night," Rena says with a straight face. Jurina pulls a face, which entices Rena to reach out and bop her nose.

"That'll have to stop when you start shagging one of your dates," Jurina says and tries to stay upbeat when really the thought makes her much sadder than it should.

"Yeah, I guess," Rena says and Jurina thinks she sounds sad too. "But not tonight."

"Nah, not tonight," Jurina says as she stands and puts the cups in the sink to wash up tomorrow. She turns around and shoves Rena towards the stairs, both of them giggling stupidly. "Tonight, I'll put up with your wandering hands and flailing limbs."

"You love it," Rena returns as they run up the stairs together, Rena chasing Jurina with absolutely no hope of catching her. "As much as I love your stupid snoring and deadweight arms draped around me."

"Don't really know why we don't just make up the guest bed," Jurina mutters although really that's the last thing she wants.

"Because I hate the guest bed and refuse to sleep in it," Rena points out as she strips and climbs into bed, picking up the remote and turning on the television and finding something silly to watch.

"No, for me, stupid." Jurina says as she climbs in the other side and grabs the remote and changes the channel to the football.

"Like I said, I refuse to sleep in it," Rena repeats and lays her head on Jurina's shoulder to watch the game.

Jurina refuses to acknowledge how that thought makes her ridiculous, stupidly happy. "I fixed the sink," she says quietly.

"You're the best," Rena says just as quietly and she reaches out to squeeze Jurina's arm in gratitude, and Jurina doesn't mind when Rena leaves her hand there while they watch Match of the Day.

When Rena disappears on her lunch date, after Jurina's sat through three outfit changes and Rena trying to change her mind whether to actually go which resulted in Jurina stealing Rena's house keys and pushing her out the front door, Jurina decides to go for a run. She's been slacking on her workouts since they've been home and she's suddenly got excess energy to burn. She runs through the streets of Tokyo, keeping her stolen-from-Rena-beanie-covered head down and just focuses on the beat in her earphones and the rhythmic thud of her trainers hitting the street. She runs until her lungs are burning and she runs until she can barely breathe. She runs until sweat is dripping down her face and down her back and her whole body aches.
She runs until she stops thinking about how Rena's date is going and whether she'll be home yet. When she finally heads home, she finds Rena sitting on her own doorstep, tapping her feet and texting. Rena looks up and her eyebrows raise slowly.

"Shit, I forgot I had your keys," Jurina swears, rummaging in her shorts for a key. "Sorry Rena."

"No problem," Rena shrugs and Jurina's glad she's the easygoing one because Jurina would have been pitching a fit by now. A quick glance at her watch tells her that she's been gone almost three hours. "You look sweaty."

"I am sweaty," Jurina mutters as she finally finds her keys and lets them in. "I need a shower."

Ahe disappears upstairs and spends far longer than she needs to in the shower. When she emerges, she finds Rena curled up on the sofa, still texting.

"So how did it go?" Jurina asks as she flops down on the chair opposite.

Rena looks up and frowns at her. "Yeah, it went okay."

"So why are you frowning? Okay is good, right?" Jurina asks as she closes her eyes and stretches her aching limbs.

"No reason," Rena murmurs but it has Jurina opening one eye to squint at her. "Well, what are you doing over there?"

"What am I- uh, stretching?" Jurina answers, bemused.

"Well, stretch over here," Rena grumbles. "Stop being unsociable."

Jurina shakes her head in disbelief but gets up and joins Rena, who yanks her down to lie across her, head in Rena's lap. "That's better."

"You know it's not unsociable to sit on different pieces of furniture, right?" Jurina murmurs but she's not really complaining when Rena's stroking her hair and it feels so nice.

"Of course it is when there's only two of you," Rena says like Jurina's being stupid. "Especially when it's us."

Jurina doesn't answer because she's half-asleep, the combination of a crazy workout and Rena's soothing touch lulling her to drowsiness.

"I don't think she's the one either," Rena says quietly and Jurina struggles to open her eyes, looking up at Rena to see her smiling sadly down at her. Jurina reaches up and strokes Rena's cheek, smiling as Rena leans into her hand and closes her eyes.

"That's okay, Rena," Jurina reassures her. "You'll find someone, I promise."

"Yeah," Rena whispers and they stay there for ages, Jurina's hand on Rena's face and Rena's hands in Jurina's hair.

Every time Rena goes on a date, Jurina goes for a run. After a week, Jurina's fitter than she's ever been and yet she continues to push herself every time. She needs to run to clear her head each time because she knows Rena is going to come back from her date quietly upset and disheartened and it's going to break Jurina's heart a little more. They've developed a routine of sorts where Jurina puts on Rena's favourite movie or television show to cheer her up and Jurina wraps Rena up as tightly as she can in her arms and they stay there until they're drowsy enough to fall into bed, exhausted. Jurina kind of loves it. And she thinks Rena does too because she traces the muscles on Jurina's arms and wraps her hands around Jurina's wrists and that's how they settle in together. When Takamina calls to say she's coming down for a visit and bringing Sayanee, Jurina spends the morning before they arrive bouncing around, cleaning and fussing until Rena pins her to the sofa. Of course, Jurina could escape if she wanted to but she enjoys Rena wriggling around on top of her and she likes seeing Rena grinning stupidly above her, so she stays where she is while Rena holds her wrists together. And that's how Takamina and Sayanee walk in on them. Of course Takamina has keys, because she treats Rena's place like her own when she's in town, so Rena and Jurina barely spare them a glance as Rena crows above Jurina.

"Interrupting something are we, girls?" Takamina asks, amused.

"Jurina was being her usual puppy self and running around chasing her tail in excitement, so I had to sit on her," Rena explains.

"Well, let her loose and come give us a hug," Takamina says fondly and Rena scrambles off Jurina, giving her a pat on the cheek before she climbs off and finds herself wrapped up in Takamina. When they pull apart, Jurina is tangled up with Sayanee on the sofa and Takamina tugs Rena so that they both end up on top of them and Jurina is glad she's strong enough to hold all three of them because otherwise she'd be pretty squashed right now.

"What have you two been up to?" Takamina asks when they finally let each other go and she's made tea for everyone.

"Loads of stuff," Jurina says, looking over at Rena with a smile.

"Yeah," Rena agrees. "We've been sightseeing, we've been to a couple of parties and we've watched loads of movies, right Jurina?"

"Lots of movies," Jurina says with a fond eye roll. "Rena's stocked up on weird-looking clothes so that she can be papped in designer shit."

"Heeeey," Rena protests and dives on top of Jurina, who just catches her and holds her hands together, laughing as Rena struggles to get free. Neither of them notice the look Sayanee and Takamina share.

"Wait, have you two spent all your time together since we got back?" Sayanee asks, a bemused look on her face.

"Yeah," Rena says, finally wrestling her hands free and pushing her hand against Jurina's chest to push her back. "Jurina kind of never went home."

"Rena convinced me to stay because she doesn't like to be alone," Jurina shrugs as if it's not unusual.

"So you've been living here?" Takamina clarifies slowly, glancing at Sayanee again.

"Pretty much," Jurina says.

"Jurina's a pretty good housemate," Rena leans forward and whispers to Takamina and Sayanee, as if Jurina can't hear her. Jurina ducks her head slightly to hide her beaming smile. "She fixes stuff."

"Oh really?" Takamina says and her tone invites Rena to reveal more.

"Yeah," Rena nods seriously. "And she washes up after I've cooked and she doesn't mind doing the washing."

At Takamina' stare, Jurina just shrugs and tries to pretend that she's not flushing. "Sounds very ... domestic," Takamina says slowly.

Jurina ignores the pointed look Takamina is giving her and turns the conversation round to what the other two girls have been up to. All day, Jurina is acutely aware of Takamina's stares. She's aware of it when Rena curls into Jurina and she's about to wrap her arms around Rena like usual but stops herself. She's aware when Rena announces that Takamina and Sayanee don't have to share because Jurina's been sleeping with Rena this whole time and Takamina' eyebrows can't possibly rise any further. She's aware when Jurina and Rena move around the kitchen and each other fluidly when Rena makes dinner because they do this every night and they have a routine. It's just that she and Rena have spent a lot of time together over this break, that's all. They've developed a rapport, not dissimilar to Rena and Takamina in the past.

When Rena reveals over dinner that she's been on some dates, Takamina immediately turns to Jurina and stares. While Sayanee talks to Rena about her dates, Takamina leans closer to Jurina and says quietly, "So how do you feel about your girlfriend going on dates with other girls?"

Jurina just stares at her, her eyebrows drawn together. "What are you talking about Takamina?"

"The fact that you and Rena have some weird love nest setup going on here. What the hell is going on, Jurina? You're living here, sharing Rena's bed, snuggling together on the couch, going on dates, playing house together. Surely you can see that this is a bit ... unusual."

"It's not like that," Jurina insists because it's really not. And she turns back to the conversation, deliberately ending the conversation, but she knows it's not over.

When they sprawl out in front of the television with their beers, Jurina doesn't think it's weird if Rena nuzzles into Jurina's neck or if Jurina's arm curls around Rena, because Jurina would do this with any of her bandmates. When they eventually stumble up to bed, hugging each other goodnight and Jurina and Rena crawl into bed together, Jurina doesn't think it's weird because she's shared beds with all of the band at one time or another. When she eases behind Rena and wraps one arm around her waist, she doesn't think it's weird because it's Rena and it just can't be weird. Jurina's final thought before she drops off to sleep is that it can't be weird because it feels so right.

When they wave Takamina and Sayanee off in the morning, Jurina tries to put aside the warning Takamina gave her when they hugged goodbye. "Just be careful, ok?" she whispered in Jurina's ear. "I hope you know what you're doing, both of you."

Jurina just squeezed her shoulders because even though she's wrong, Jurina appreciates that Takamina cares so much. When Rena presses a kiss against Jurina's cheek before turning to go back inside, Jurina's stomach totally doesn't swoop and she doesn't want to lift her hand to press against her cheek whatsoever. But Jurina is slowly noticing things that she didn't notice before. Like how much she and Rena touch. Jurina doesn't realize she's doing in half the time and she's pretty sure Rena isn't aware either, but they rarely go five minutes without reaching out to the other. Or how much Jurina hates talking about Rena's dates. She'd thought she just didn't like seeing Rena upset when they didn't work out, but since Takamina' visit, she's trying to be more honest with herself and that means admitting that a part of her doesn't want Rena's dates to go well because it means Jurina will have to go home and this closeness they've achieved, something closer than the bond they'd built in the past three years, would be lost. And Jurina feels particularly awful about this particular knowledge because she does want Rena to be happy and to be in a relationship that makes her smile and laugh and be endearing. But she can't finish that thought process out because she's pretty sure she's not ready to face that particular truth yet.

Every time she touches Rena now, it's different. She finds her hands lingering, unwilling to pull away from Rena and lose the connection. She makes sure she gets up first in the morning, not waiting for Rena to wake up before she jumps in the shower because when she wakes up to find Rena pressed against her, it's had an effect on the color of her face that she needs to address before Rena can see anything. She's not sure what to do. Logically, she knows she has to get out of the shower, get dressed and pretend for the next fifty years that she hasn't just had a sudden realization that could break everything in her life. her friends, her career, her Rena.

She at least manages the first step. She's dressed and out of the house within minutes, running harder than she's run all week. This time she doesn't just want to forget Rena's dates. This time, she wants to stop thinking about kissing Rena. Stop thinking about setting up house with Rena and yelling honey I'm home in a semi-ironic way every evening. She really doesn't want to think about the pitying look Rena's going to give her if she ever learns about Jurina's crush because Rena will be so nice about it all while breaking Jurina's heart. She keeps running until she almost passes out. Then she grabs a chocolate bar and heads home slowly, wondering what the hell she's going to do.

"Juuuurrriiiiinnnnaaaa!" Rena's throwing open the front door and staring at her in horror. "What have you done to yourself?"

"Running," is all Jurina manages to say because she's suddenly more breathless than she was before she almost passed out. Rena is standing in front of her and all Jurina can think about is pressing her lips to Rena's and going back to bed. But that's not going to happen, obviously.

"Get in," Rena says and grabs Jurina's shirt, yanking her forward. Jurina stumbles and almost falls on Rena but manages to save herself at the last second. "Damn, Jurina."

"Sorry Rena," Jurina says slowly as she tries to regain her balance.

"You have to go shower, quickly," Rena says with a wrinkle of her very adorable nose. Jurina wants to punch herself in the face.

"Yeah, I'm going," she says tiredly and trudges upstairs, belatedly realizing that Rena's following her.

"We've got a guest coming for lunch," Rena says quickly and it's enough to make Jurina's heart sink as if she knows what's coming.

"Oh?" she manages to say as she starts to strip off but she's so exhausted that Rena steps forward to help her and it's the worst possible thing to happen because Jurina has to force herself not to wrap her arms around Rena or breathe in her scent.

"Yeah, it's kind of maybe ... she might be girlfriend material?" Rena says and the hope in Rena's eyes just about kills Jurina. She can feel her barely-there smile slipping and just about keeps it in place.

"Wow, that's great Rena," Jurina says stiltedly. "I'll just jump in the shower then."

"Okay," Rena says brightly and leaves Jurina to step into the shower and bang her fist against the wall in pure frustration. On the very day she realizes that she wants to play happy families with Rena forever, Matsui Rena, is bringing her first girlfriend home for Jurina to meet. Her life sucks. It really, really sucks.

She climbs out of the shower wearily and throws on jeans and a t-shirt before heading downstairs. She freezes halfway down when she hears Rena's giggle and another voice. Oh God. She can't do this. She's feeling awful anyway because it's not every day you realize that you're in love with one of your best friends and there's no way she should be expected to smile and be nice to Rena's new girlfriend when really all she wants to do is growl and throw her out of the house before throwing herself at Rena and begging her to give Jurina a chance. But Jurina knows that Rena is relying on her and she can't let Rena down, no matter what. And there's a chance that this girl could be the love of Rena's life, as hard as it is for Jurina to even think about that possibility, so Jurina needs to suck it up, get through the next few hours and then head home to wallow in her stupidity for the next two weeks until they're back on tour. Jurina straightens up, plasters her best fake smile across her face - something she's grateful for all the media training for - and heads into the room, looking for all the world as if she can't wait to meet Rena's girlfriend.

Two hours later, Jurina's head is pounding and she wants to be sick. Rena's saying goodbye to her girlfriend while Jurina's sitting in the living room with her head in her hands. She wants to hate Yuki, she really does, but she seemed nice and she kept glancing at Rena and smiling and Jurina just wants to rip her head off because Jurina is apparently the jealous type and Yuki is so gorgeous and funny and she makes Jurina feel absolutely inferior. She watched Rena laughing and giggling and generally being adorable and Jurina thinks she might just keel over in heartbreak. She pulls herself together though, because really who dies of heartbreak on the same day they fall in love? She heads upstairs and starts throwing stuff into her bags and she's stupidly sad that it only takes five minutes to clear up all her stuff and erase herself from Rena's home. She trudges downstairs and walks into the kitchen, dropping her bags on the floor. Rena spins round and her face falls. she takes in the bags and Jurina's expression and she starts to shake her head. "No."

"It's time for me to go home, Rena," Jurina says as brightly as she can manage while her heart weeps a little. "You're going to want to have this place to yourself now that you have Yuki and you're too nice to throw me out, so I'm throwing myself out."

"Jurina," Rena moves over to her and reaches out to grab her hand but Jurina steps back, mostly for self-preservation. She ignores the surprised look in Rena's eyes and just shuffles around. "Jurina, please don't go, I don't want you to go."

"Come on Rena," Jurina says as gently as she can manage, trying to overlook the fact that her voice has inexplicably deepened. "This isn't a permanent arrangement. I have to go home. How would you explain to your girlfriend that you share a bed with another girl every night?"

"She's not my girlfriend," Rena says with a frown.

Jurina just shakes her head. "She wants to be your girlfriend. And you want her to be your girlfriend otherwise you wouldn't have introduced us. I think she's really nice, Rena." The words don't quite choke her. "You're good together."

"We're good together," Rena mutters and Jurina's heart breaks a little more.

"We're mates, Rena," Jurina says, mostly for her own benefit. "I know you're scared of relationships, and that's normal because it's a big step. You have to learn to trust someone and give your entire self to them and it's scary because you don't know for certain that it'll work out, but you have to try and you have to be open. And you cannot share your bed with anyone other than your girlfriend, no matter how good mates you are. Okay?"

"Jurina ..." Rena's voice sounds like it's coming from far away.

"I'll text you later, ok?" Jurina leans forward and presses a fleeting kiss on Rena's forehead, moving back before Rena can grab hold of her. "Thanks for letting me stay here, Rena. It was fun."

Jurina grabs her bags and hurries out. She doesn't look back. When she gets home, she crawls into bed and shuts her eyes, trying not to think about how lonely her bed is without Rena in it or how her sheets don't feel the same way Rena's do and they don't smell like Rena's do. Pushing it all aside because she's afraid she's going to go crazy, she wills herself to fall asleep and to start putting everything Rena-related into a big, black box labelled 'friends and nothing more'.

Three days later, Jurina thinks she's finally descended into crazy. She hasn't showered or gotten dressed since she's been home. She's watched stupid romantic comedies that make her shed a tear and she hates them so much but she's also slightly addicted to them. She hasn't left her apartment and she's sick of takeaway but not so sick of it that she wants to go outside into the world because she's not ready to face anything yet. All she can think about is Rena and how much she misses her, and until that goes away, she can't face anything else. She spends her hours thinking about what Rena's doing, who she's seeing, whether she's asked Yuki to be her girlfriend yet, whether Yuki's stayed over yet, whether Rena's making out with her or if they're fooling around in bed and that's why Jurina thinks she's actually crazy now. Her phone has rung several times but she doesn't want to answer it so she doesn't. It's probably just her mum or her sisters, and she really can't deal with them now. Sometimes there's a knock at the door but she doesn't answer that either.

It takes another two days before Jurina finally tires of takeout and gets in the shower. She emerges feeling a bit better but when she walks into the store, all she can think about is food shopping with Rena and how much fun it was. Jurina grabs a basketful of necessities and runs home, locking herself in once more.

The next day, she's woken by someone knocking on the door. She screws up her face and blearily looks at her watch - it's 11am. She switches off the television which is stuck on the menu page of the Love Actually DVD she'd been watching and stumbles towards the door. She couldn't be more surprised to see Takamina standing there, staring at her.

"Jurina, what the hell?" Takamina shoves her back and steps into the apartment and slams the door shut behind her.

"Hey Takamina," Jurina's voice is croaky from lack of use. "What brings you here?"

"The fact that you disappeared off the face of the planet and Rena won't talk to me or the other girls and you look damn awful."

Jurina just shrugs because she can hardly deny it.

"Come here," Takamina grabs her shoulders and pulls her close, wrapping her arms around Jurina, who just collapses into her. "Hey, what's this?"

"I screwed up," Jurina mumbles into her shoulder.

"Yeah, I know," Takamina sighs and rubs her back soothingly. "Come on, I'll make tea and we can talk about what an idiot you've been."

Jurina laughs a little brokenly and sits on the sofa, staring at nothing until Takamina places a cup of tea in her hands and sits next to her.

"So tell me," she invites.

"I might have, um, accidentally ..." Jurina stutters because she's not said the words out loud before and they scare her. "Well, you know."

"Fallen in love with Rena," Takamina supplies helpfully.

Jurina's shoulders slump.

"Well, she is charming and beautiful and adorable, all that shit," Takamina teases gently but Jurina's just withdrawn into herself. "Have you told her?"

She shakes her head. "I just realized it when Rena invited her new girlfriend round."

"Well shit," Takamina's sympathetic tone almost kills Jurina.

"Yeah," Jurina half-laughs but it sounds painful even to her. "Great timing, right? Not that anything would ever happen with me and Rena but still."

"Why wouldn't something happen between you two?" Takamina asks before slurping her tea to amuse Jurina. "You're fit, she's fit. You've got loads in common, you know each other's bad habits and you still fancy her, oh, and you've been playing girlfriends quite happily for the past few weeks."

"We weren't playing girlfriends," Jurina denies. "At least, not intentionally."

"It was clear as mud, mate, to me and Sayanee," Takamina tells her, softening her words with a kind smile. "And it wasn't just you."

"That's just Rena though, right? I mean you two used to be like an old married couple," Jurina says sadly because she wishes it wasn't true, that it was different between her and Rena but no matter how much she wished it, it didn't make it true.

"Yeah, but that was just us being silly and scared and clinging to each other," Takamina says. "You two were proper domestic. It was pretty cute, actually."

Jurina just attempts a smile but when it falters, Takamina' arms encircle her and she pulls Jurina into her body and they just stay locked together. "I hate it when you're like this," Takamina mutters.

Jurina sniffs and apologizes immediately, which just has Takamina tutting crossly. "No, you idiot. It's perfectly alright to be upset, I'm just saying I hate it because you're so bloody resilient most of the time so when you're like this, it makes my stomach hurt."

Jurina's response is to reach out and pat Takamina' tummy gently and it has Takamina laughing but she doesn't let go.

"I'm going to sit here with you all night and let you wallow," Takamina says softly. "Then tomorrow, you're going to shower, clean this place up because it looks like a pigsty, then we're going to get you back on track, right?"

Jurina just nods.

The next day, Takamina makes Jurina turn on her phone. She's got a few worried texts from Sayanee and one from Mayu, announcing that she's the Hokkaido pie-eating champion and she expects due adulation when they next see each other. She's got a few texts from her mum and sister, Churi sent her a funny picture and there are six texts from Takamina, all more irate than the last. Jurina looks at her sheepishly but Takamina ignores her. And of course there are a lot of texts from Rena.

Jurina, are you home?
Juuurrriiinnna, where are you?
Jurina, call meeeee!
Why are you ignoring me? :-(
Jurina? I miss you and your stupid arms :-(
I can't sleep. Text me!

And that was just the first night.

What are you doing? Let's go do something fun!
Are you still alive?
I'm going to call Takamina if you don't respond.
Takamina's coming down in two days if you don't respond.
Jurina, seriously, are you okay?
You're not answering your door, so you must be out but call me, okay?
Oi Jurina, send me a text to let me know you're alive.
Juuuurrrriiiiiinnnnna. I miss you. I MISS YOU.

Jurina feels a little guilty. Hell, she feels a lot guilty.

"Miss you, did she?" Takamina asks smugly.

"Only because she's lonely in that house," Jurina reasons but her heart is pounding a little. "I'm sure Yuki is making it easier on her."

"Funny thing," Takamina muses. "When she called me in a panic because you'd disappeared off the face of the planet, she didn't mention Yuki, not once. And when she called me yesterday and ordered me to come down to find you because she'd been round three times with no answer and she couldn't find you at your gym or with Churi or your parents or sisters or with the rest of us and there were no pap shots of you and she'd even gone on tumblr to see if anyone had caught sight of you, she still didn't mention Yuki. I didn't even know Yuki existed until you mentioned her last night."

"Perhaps I should text her, let her know I'm okay," Jurina says slowly.

"Yes, I think that's a brilliant idea," Takamina says with a straight face.

Sorryyyyy, been really busy. Takamina’s here nowwww.

She gets a response straightaway.

Don't move one inch, I'm coming over!

Jurina groans.

"That's my work done, I'm off," Takamina says and grabs her stuff, pats Jurina's cheek comfortingly and heads out of the door while Jurina's still stunned on the sofa. "I'll be at Sayanee's, call me after!"

It takes Rena exactly seven minutes to make it to Jurina's door, and Jurina's not quite sure how that's possible because she lives further away than that but the minute she opens the door, she's got a handful of Rena and she's falling back onto the floor with the momentum with which Rena hits her.

"Don't you ever scare me like that again, Jurina," Rena growls into her neck.

"Uh, I'm sorry?" Jurina offers but really she's just lost in the pleasure of having her arms around Rena and knowing that Rena was worried about her.

"You're such an idiot," Rena mutters. "You didn't have to give me so much space that you disappeared altogether."

"Oh, uh, no, okay," Jurina stutters. "Perhaps we can get up?"

"I'm quite comfortable here," Rena mumbles and her arms tighten.

Jurina's tighten as well and they're locked in a tangle of limbs.

"So, how's it going with Yuki then?" Jurina asks the question she's been dreading for the past week.

"Yeah, it's okay," Rena shrugs, burrowing her head deeper into Jurina's neck. "She's nice.."

"That's nice," Jurina manages and she's quite proud of herself despite the sick feeling in her stomach.

"I missed you," Rena lifts her head at last and her stare is hard and bright.

"We've spent longer apart than this," Jurina points out but her heart is racing.

"But it's different," Rena whines. "We've spent two weeks together, just the two of us, and the two months before that on tour. I miss you. Come back to mine."

"Rena, I'm not coming back to yours," Jurina says with a gentle roll of her eyes. "Come on. We talked about this."

"Yuki can just sod off then," Rena grumbles.

Jurina's body jerks in reaction but she sternly reminds herself that Rena's just kidding.

"I hope someone's warned her about your mood swings," Jurina teases as she gives into temptation and reaches up to tuck a curl behind Rena's ear.

"No, not yet," Rena grins. " she still thinks I'm adorable."

"More fool her," Jurina teases again.

"Hey, I am adorable!" Rena protests.

"Not nearly as adorable as you think you are," Jurina replies and tweaks Rena's nose. "Or as adorable as our fans think you are."

"Tell me I'm adorable," Rena orders as she grabs Jurina's wrists and holds them above her head and too late Jurina remembers that they're lying on the floor in her apartment, with Rena lying on top of her, bodies pressed together and Rena restraining her hands.

"You know I can flip you without even trying, right?" Jurina points out.

Rena grins happily. "I know. But you won't. You know why? Because I'm adorable."

"I'm still not moving in," Jurina says firmly.

"Fine," Rena huffs as she finally clambers to her feet and holds out a hand to help Jurina up. She slides her hand into Jurina's as she reaches back to slam the front door shut and tugs Jurina over to the sofa and quickly arranges them into Rena's favourite position. "But you'll come over and have dinner, right? And watch movies? And fix my broken stuff?"

"Rena," Jurina says warningly and she has to steel herself against Rena's pleading eyes. "I just can't, okay?"

"I don't understand." Rena's frowning and Jurina can see that Rena really and truly doesn't get it. It's both endearing and frustrating in equal measure, which pretty much sums up their entire relationship up to the moment Jurina moved into Rena's, when it progressed to intimacy and awareness.

"I know you don't," Jurina says tenderly as she reaches out to run her hand through Rena's hair and lets herself enjoy the feeling once more before she starts her Rena detox. "You should invite Yuki around for dinner and curl up in front of the television with her."

"Fine," Rena sighs as she reaches for her phone with her free hand and shoots off a quick text. She gets a reply within minutes and throws it down on Jurina's coffee table. "There, she's coming around tonight."

"You could sound a little happier about it, Rena," Jurina says with a gentle nudge. She knows that this is just Rena being Rena and when Yuki arrives tonight, Rena will have a much better evening than they've ever had together at Rena's home, but she still has to bank down a little frisson of happiness at Rena's sulking.

"I'll be happier when you cuddle me and tell me you missed me as much as I missed you," Rena says grumpily.

Jurina grins stupidly. "I missed you, you whiny, needy crybaby."

Rena turns and glares at her.

"Okay, okay," Jurina laughs and lifts her hands in protest. "I missed you. Lots."

"That's better," Rena beams and presses a kiss against Jurina's cheek. If Jurina flushes, it's okay because Rena's turned back and is fidgeting to get Jurina's arms around her the way she likes. Jurina grabs the remote and puts on some antiques show that she knows Rena likes and they waste most of the day lying together on the sofa, not really talking. Jurina has to practically throw Rena out when it gets late and Rena needs to be home for her date.

"Fine, I'm going," Rena pouts as she stands in the doorway and looks at Jurina. "But I'd rather be here. Don't forget Yuko's party tomorrow."

"Wait," Jurina reaches out to grab Rena before she turns and leaves. "What party?"

"Yuko's party tomorrow," Rena says slowly. "Did I not tell you?"

"No, in the six hours you've been sat next to me all day, you didn't once mention a party," Jurina says with a sigh. "What time?"

"Get to mine for eight, ok? We'll go together," Rena says and she's off with a little wave. "Takamina, Sayanee and Mayu are coming too. Miss yooooou!"

"Go away!" Jurina calls after her but ruins the sentiment with the utter fondness she can hear in her own voice.

When she closes the door, she forces herself to sit down and find something distracting to watch so that she doesn't have to think about what Rena's doing, because if she does, she might just break.

Jurina decides to get up and go out in the morning, so she goes for a run and after a quick shower, heads into the city to do some shopping. She signs some autographs and poses for pictures and manages to almost double her wardrobe in one trip. She gets a text from Takamina mid-afternoon asking how it went with Rena.

Went ok. She went home for a date wth Yuki. It’ll be ok, promise. See you tonight!

Jurina dresses in black jeans and one of her new t-shirts. It clings to her shoulders and hangs loose around her torso. she doesn't wear a belt and chooses boots to complete the outfit.She grabs a jacket on her way out and heads to Rena's, wondering whether Yuki's going to be there or not. When she reaches Rena's door, she reaches for her key automatically before she remembers that she doesn't live here anymore. She rings the doorbell and waits, her foot tapping nervously on the step as she waits. Sayanee answers the door, an odd look on her face that Jurina barely has a second to decipher before Sayanee's pulling her inside.

"Hey." she says quietly before she steps in for a hug that Jurina returns instinctively.

"Hey." Jurina echoes with a smile as they pull back to look at each other. "Ok?"

"Yeah, yeah," Sayanee says. "Come in, Mayu's in the kitchen and Takamina and Rena are upstairs dealing with some crisis."

"Oh, uh, everything alright?" Jurina glances up the stairs as they pass, resisting the urge to run up and check that Rena's okay.

"Yeah, it'll work itself out," Sayanee says and Jurina's not sure what she means but figures it's probably about clothes or hair.

"Jurina!" Mayu catches her in a bear hug and Jurina leans in, holding her close before letting move back a little but she keeps hold of her.

"How's home?" Jurina asks, grinning happily.

"Ah, amazing," Mayu says and pulls Jurina down to sit with her as she regales her with all the gossip from Hokkaido.

Sayanee disappears somewhere halfway through, and Jurina suspects she's already heard this at least once, and when she comes back in, she heads upstairs. Jurina watches her go and has to force her attention back to Mayu rather than whatever is going on upstairs. When she checks her watch, it's almost 9pm and she wonders what's holding them up. When she mentions it to Mayu, she just waves her hand carelessly and says something about them being down when they're ready. When Takamina comes into the kitchen, Jurina's surprised to see she's fairly subdued.

"Alright, Jurina?"

"Uh, yeah," Jurina answers with a frown. "You okay?"

"Yeah," Takamina answers distractedly and pats Jurina on the shoulder.

"Where's Rena?" Jurina asks and she meets Takamina' gaze.

"She's just getting ready," Takamina says. "She'll be down in a minute. You know what she's like, she likes an entrance."

"So is Yuki coming then?" Jurina asks idly, or as idly as she can manage.

"No, no she's not," Takamina responds and her hand returns to Jurina's shoulder to rub gently.

Jurina leans into her and that's how they stay until Rena emerges five minutes later.

"Hey Jurina," Rena greets her.

Jurina knows something's wrong. She can see it in Rena's eyes and the way her smile is a little forced. She knows it because Rena hasn't run in to throw her arms around Jurina, the way she has for the past four weeks. And she knows because Rena is standing in the kitchen doorway while Jurina is several paces away. In the past four weeks, whenever they've been in the same room, they've been within touching distance of each other at all times. They've gravitated towards each other, and she actually hates how far away Rena feels right now. God, no wonder Takamina picked up on Jurina's feelings so quickly. It would have been obvious to a complete stranger, let alone one of their closest mates.

"So, ready to go?" Takamina asks brightly as she slips her arm around Jurina's waist and squeezes gently.

Mayu grabs Rena and spins her around, ushering her out of the house, followed by a more sedate Sayanee. As Takamina pushes a reluctant Jurina towards the door, Jurina can't take her eyes away from Rena.

"Tamakina, what's going on?" Jurina asks in a hushed voice.

"Just Rena being a diva," Takamina says with a cheeky grin. "Nothing to worry about."

"Let's get trashed!" Mayu shouts as they turn into Yuko's road.

"Not a bad idea," Takamina admits to Jurina as they walk into the house and Jurina loses them all immediately.

It's okay though because Mayu's back within seconds, handing Jurina a drink. Shrugging, Jurina tosses it back in one and grins at Mayu, who whoops excitedly. Jurina stops at the fourth drink and switches to water. She hasn't seen Rena or Takamina all night, but she's caught up with Yuko, she's seen Mayu bouncing around and checking in and she's currently chatting to Sayanee outside while Sayanee drinks.

"You okay there?" Sayanee asks as she sips her drink slowly. Jurina gives her a look and Sayanee just returns it steadily. "What are you going to do about Rena?"

Jurina sighs heavily. "Slowly torture myself while Rena falls in love with some perfect girl who is probably great in bed and makes stupid jokes that make Rena fall about with that stupid laugh she does."

"Sounds like a hell of a plan, Jurina," Sayanee says sardonically.

"It's the best I can do, Sayanee," Jurina says heavily and she leans into Sayanee when she slings her arm around Jurina and takes another drag.

Jurina starts to round them all up when the party starts to fade. She has Sayanee look after Mayu and makes sure they stay near the front door. She searches high and low for Takamina and Rena but they aren't anywhere to be found. She knocks on every door in Yuko's place but no one has seen them. she knocks on the last door, Yuko's en suite bathroom and Takamina' face appears. she's blocking Jurina's view and steps outside, forcing Jurina back.

"You alright Jurina?" she asks cheerily.

"Yeah, we're just heading off," Jurina says distractedly as she tries to look past Takamina but she's being effectively blocked. "You coming?"

"Yeah, we'll be right down," Takamina says. she turns to go back in the bathroom when she spins around and throws her arms around a surprised Jurina. "I love you, you know?"

"Uh, love you too Takamina," Jurina says, patting her back and wondering exactly how much Takamina had to drink. "See you downstairs, ok?"

Takamina just nods and disappears, leaving Jurina staring at a closed door. Jurina heads back downstairs and finds Sayanee and Mayu where she left them. They chat quietly but Jurina's gaze is on the stairs, waiting for the girls to appear. When they do, Jurina's up immediately and moving forward before she can stop herself. She moves past Takamina and stops in front of Rena. Jurina waits for Rena to look up, worried and when she does, Jurina's heart stops because Rena looks wrecked. She steps forward and pulls Rena close, wrapping her arms around her, locking them tightly the way she knows Rena likes. She feels Rena freeze for a second before she softens and wraps her arms around Jurina and they stay there for who knows how long before Takamina is coughing and suggesting that they head home.

Jurina lets her arms drop but she slots her hand into Rena's and squeezes tightly. Rena doesn't squeeze back but Jurina feels her move closer and they walk slowly home, following the others at a distance. Jurina's desperate to find out what's wrong, but she can wait a bit longer until she can get Rena alone. When they turn into Rena's drive, Takamina already has the door open but the three of them are standing outside, waiting for them.

"Uh, we're going to head back to Mayu's place," Sayanee says quietly. "Leave you two to sort things out."

"Look after her, Jurina," Takamina says before Jurina can ask Sayanee what she's talking about.

"Yeah, of course," Jurina says as if Takamina's said something stupid.

Then they're gone and Jurina is left standing outside of Rena's house, holding hands with a clearly upset Rena. Jurina steps into the house and pulls Rena with her, shutting the door behind her.

"Sofa or bed?" Jurina asks, turning to look at Rena, who seems to be avoiding her gaze.

"Bed," Rena says quietly.

Jurina's seriously worried now, but she leads Rena upstairs and they change into their pajamas quickly before lying down together on the bed. "What's wrong Rena?" Jurina asks and she laces her fingers with Rena's. She sees Rena look down at their hands.

"Uh, Takamina says I should just be honest," Rena says and Jurina hates the vulnerability she can hear in Rena's voice. "I um, well, you know I saw Yuki last night."

Jurina nods and her throat tightens.

"Well, it was going okay but all I could think about was that she wasn't the right person," Rena says slowly. "She wasn't the right person at all."

"Oh, Rena," Jurina whispers and moves closer to rest her head against Rena's. "It's okay. You'll find someone, I promise."

"No, it's not..." Rena pauses and moves back so that she can look at Jurina. "Takamina promised me it would be okay to tell you and I know it is because you're the sweetest, nicest, most loyal person I've ever met."

Jurina tries not to get distracted by Rena's words and tries to focus on what Rena wants to tell her. "You can tell me anything, Rena, you know you can."

"Yeah," Rena says with a sigh. she lifts herself up onto her elbows so that she's looking down at Jurina. She reaches out a hand and strokes Jurina's face, smiling fondly when Jurina's eyelids flutter slightly. "Yeah, I think I can."

Jurina waits patiently because she knows it can take Rena a while to build up to what she wants to say. So when Rena starts lowering her head, she just waits with an encouraging smile. Rena keeps coming though and when she presses her lips against Jurina's, she's so surprised that she just freezes. She cannot move. She can't move when Rena moves back and looks at Jurina in increasing horror. She can't move when Rena makes a little noise that has Jurina blinking quickly. She can't move when Rena closes her eyes and swears under her breath. When Rena moves to climb off the bed, Jurina unfreezes and grabs Rena's arm in a vice-like grip, preventing her from moving.

"Damn it, I knew Takamina was wrong, I knew it," Rena was muttering as she pulled against Jurina's grip.

"Wrong about what, Rena?" Jurina asks, her voice husky.

"About this," Rena gestures between them, eyes a little wild, her hands shaking. "She said it would be okay. I thought it would be okay."

"Rena," Jurina pulls her close and Rena falls back onto the bed, finding Jurina leaning over her and looking down at her. "You just kissed me."

Rena shrugs, avoiding Jurina's gaze, neatly pinned in by Jurina. Heart racing, Jurina slowly leans down, echoing Rena's move and presses her lips against Rena's. When Rena's arms come up to encircle Jurina's shoulders and pull her closer, Jurina groans against Rena's mouth and Rena starts licking into her mouth eagerly. Jurina buries her hands in Rena's hair, letting her fingers get tangled in the curls. She feels Rena writhing beneath her and it's a turn on. One of her hands slips down Rena's body to grasp Rena's hip and her fingers dig in as Rena bites Jurina's bottom lip. Jurina groans again and she breaks the kiss. When Rena lets out a disapproving whine, which has a serious effect on Jurina's mental acuity, Jurina presses another kiss against Rena's lips before letting her mouth drift across Rena's jaw and down her neck, pressing soft kisses anywhere she can find bare skin. She finally lifts her head and looks down to see Rena gazing at her with sleepy eyes. She notes the smile playing on Rena's lips and she dips again to kiss her.

"Takamina's never wrong," Jurina murmurs with a smile and she grins happily when Rena lets out a quick giggle.

"We should talk, ok?" Rena asks and when she licks her lips and glances back down at Jurina's mouth, Jurina highly doubts she can even finish a thought let alone have a serious conversation. There's too much to say and they're both tired and emotional. They've taken a massive step forward and while Jurina can barely think past the fact that she's making out with Rena in Rena's bed, she knows they'll make more sense in the morning.

"Let's talk tomorrow when we're sober and I can think properly and string two sentences together," Jurina suggests and she sees Rena nodding in agreement.

"Yeah, tomorrow," Rena says and her voice has already turned sleepy. "But you'll stay, right? Here? With me?"

Jurina settles herself against the pillows and reaches out to pull Rena into her side, where she places her head on Jurina's shoulder and snuggles in, pressing kisses against Jurina's chest and giggling. "I'm not planning on going anywhere."

"Goodnight, Jurina," Rena whispers and lets her fingers trail across Jurina's chest, making her shiver and seriously doubting the wisdom in trying to get some sleep when Rena's all pliant and affectionate. Jurina sighs and forces herself to cool off. Plenty of time for that later, she thinks to herself. She tightens her arms around Rena, presses a long kiss against Rena's head, which makes Rena wiggle a bit and sigh happily, before they both relax almost in sync and she closes her eyes. They're both asleep almost immediately.

When Jurina opens her eyes, her hand is already outstretched, reaching for Rena. When she finds nothing but sheets, she sits up quickly and looks around but Rena isn't there. She pauses, listening to hear whether Rena is in the bathroom or downstairs, but the house is silent. She throws on her jeans and heads downstairs, hoping that Rena's lying on the sofa watching cartoons, or in the kitchen making tea, but she's not. Jurina races back upstairs to grab her phone, but there are no missed calls. No texts. She looks around but there are no notes. There's nothing. Jurina tries not to think the worst. She tries not to think about Rena freaking out when she woke up this morning. She tries really, really hard not to think about Rena having regrets about the night before. About Jurina. She tries really hard to think about everything she knows about Rena, about how sensitive she is and how she tries to put everyone else before herself. She tries to think about how deeply Rena loves every single one of them, and how she's never deliberately hurt anyone in her life. She tries not to think about how Rena might be breaking her heart. It's so much to not think about that Jurina climbs into bed, shuts her eyes and tries not to think about anything at all because all she can do is lie here, in Rena's bed, and wait for her to come home.

After three hours of staring at the ceiling, Jurina decides that she can't wait any longer because Rena clearly isn't coming home and she dresses as fast as she can and runs all the way home, ignoring the stares of passersby, who hopefully just think she's doing the run of shame and don't pay any attention to the fact that she's one fifth of AKB Band and doing the run of shame. She jumps in the shower and just stays under the spray, turning up the temperature until it's painful and harsh on her skin. When she drags herself out, she's red raw and the pain is now as external as it is internal. But she's trying not to think about that because she knows there's a reason. She knows Rena wouldn't do this to her, not deliberately, because she didn't just imagine Rena kissing her last night. All she had to do was be patient. Rena would call her and explain everything and they'd talk everything out and they'd be okay. They had to be okay. Jurina doesn't know what she's going to do if they aren't okay. She dresses and lays down on the sofa, staring up at the ceiling, her phone resting on her chest so that she can check it every few minutes. When her phone finally vibrates, she grabs it and looks at the text message. It's Rena.

Hey, meet me at AKB Garden in 30 minutes? Wear something smart. I'll explain everything. Can't wait to see you .xx

Jurina's up and stripping off before she even processes Rena's text. She changes into a nicer pair of jeans, wears a button down shirt and grimaces as she slips her feet into a pair of lace ups. She's so desperate to just see Rena that she doesn't care that Rena basically abandoned her for a whole day because she knows if she just sees Rena, it'll sort itself out.

She arrives right on time, seeing Rena standing by the station trying to look inconspicuous. Jurina moves towards her and she sees the exact second Rena spots her. her dimples flash and Rena's moving towards her. They stop inches away from each other and Jurina's grinning stupidly because Rena is beaming. Rena grabs Jurina's hand and tugs her down a side street and into what seems like a dark house but Jurina realizes it's a restaurant that is deserted. Rena guides her towards a table near the back and waits for Jurina to sit, bemused, before Rena sits as well.

"Hey," Jurina says because she's suddenly nervous and she needs to fill the silence.

"Hey," Rena echoes, before she's grinning again and leaning forward. "You look great, Jurina."

Jurina flushes. She can't help it. She's not used to Rena giving her compliments, they're more likely to yell insults at each other's choice in clothing. She finally notices that Rena's in a dark shirt and jeans. "You look great too, Rena."

Jurina watches as Rena blushes and looks away, and she thinks it might just be the most adorable thing she's ever seen in her life.

"So you're probably wondering where I've been today," Rena says eventually after they've been staring and grinning at each other for a few minutes. Or possibly hours.

Jurina nods slowly.

"I've been planning this," Rena says, gesturing to the restaurant. "It's all ours, tonight."

Jurina's eyes widen. "Wow."

Rena giggles. "There's more, Jurina," she says with an eye roll. "I haven't spent all day hiring a restaurant."

"Oh good," Jurina says with a relieved sigh and crosses her eyes, making Rena laugh.

Rena reaches out her hand and lays them on the table, palms up. She looks at Jurina and she looks calm, Jurina thinks. She reaches out and places her hands in Rena's and Rena closes her hands, letting her thumbs run back and forth over Jurina's hands.

"So we should talk, yeah?" Rena asks for the second time and Jurina nods. "So you've probably guessed that my date with Yuki went spectacularly badly."

Jurina frowns, because she hasn't really thought about Yuki at all, to be honest.

"I just kept thinking that it wasn't right because she wasn't holding my hand like you do, and she wasn't laughing at my stupid jokes like you do, and when we were on the sofa, watching some terrible film that Yuki thought was hilarious, her arms were round me and I just couldn't bear it. They weren't your arms and she didn't feel like you and then I kind of freaked out and Yuki left and basically I don't think we'll be seeing each other again," Rena says and Jurina thinks she's leaving out a lot of information. "So I called Takamina who came over and after I explained that I didn't think it would work with Yuki, Takamina asked why," Rena continues and she looks up to smile sweetly, which has Jurina squeezing her hands. "Well, Takamina said that perhaps I was looking in the wrong place for a girlfriend. I told her I didn't know where to look then, but she just gave me a weird look and asked what I wanted in a girlfriend. So I listed all the things I wanted, and she asked if perhaps there was already someone who did all those things, who was all those things."

"Yeah?" Jurina prompted.

"Yeah," Rena says simply. "Turns out that person was already right in front of me. Fixing my problems, staying in my bed, taking me on dates and looking after me. The only thing was, it was completely platonic. And Takamina made me realize that I didn't want it to be platonic. So I freaked out again because I screamed at Takamina that you were straight, you had boyfriends and you fancied boys and when I finally stopped shouting, Takamina told me that I was an idiot and anyone could see that you and I were, like, practically a couple."

"Yeah, Takamina had to tell me that we were basically girlfriends before I realized it as well," Jurina says with a smile. "So we're both idiots."

That makes Rena grin stupidly. "So basically I spent most of yesterday freaking out and then when I saw you in the kitchen, I just wanted to go over to you and have you put your arms around me like you usually do, except I also wanted to kiss you stupid. So when we made it to the party, I dragged Takamina upstairs and she spent most of the night telling me to just go for it and I just worked myself up until I freaked out again."

Jurina waits but Rena seems to have said all she wants to say. "Did you freak out this morning?"

Rena shakes her head solemnly.

"Are you planning to freak out at any point tonight?" Jurina asks and she lets a little smile slip past her lips.

Rena shakes her head, grinning.

"So you're all done freaking out?"

"Totally calm," Rena confirms.

Just then, a waiter appears and Rena orders two glass of wine. Jurina scans the menu and they order. Jurina waits for their wines to arrive and the waiter to disappear before she looks back at Rena.

"So you're okay then, with this?"

Rena shakes her head. "Jurina, it's crazy how okay I am with this."

Jurina can't stop the smile that stretches her cheeks so much that they start to ache. Rena laughs and she's grinning too and they're just two idiots, grinning at each other.

"So what are we doing after dinner?" Jurina asks finally. "Or are we staying here?"

"I have a few plans," Rena says mysteriously and Jurina lights up.

"Oh, I love surprises!" Jurina bounces up and down and Rena just looks at her fondly.

They enjoy dinner, laughing and flirting and touching each other as much as possible. When they can't touch hands, Rena's foot is rubbing against Jurina's calf and Jurina's leg is stretched out to rest against Rena's leg, tangling together. Rena offers Jurina a bite of her chicken and laughs when it falls off Rena's fork before Jurina can lean forward. Jurina cuts a piece of her steak and puts it on Rena's plate, arguing that it's safer than trying it Rena's way, while Rena argues that it's not romantic and Jurina says that chicken that's fallen on the table isn't romantic at all. They skip dessert and Rena pays the bill, ignoring Jurina's protests. When they stand, Rena reaches for Jurina's hand and curls her own around Jurina's. They smile stupidly at each other before Rena leads her out of the restaurant. They walk through the streets, Jurina letting Rena guide the way, just happy to be holding Rena's hand and sharing stupid, secret smiles with each other. Rena stops outside a theatre. Jurina looks up, confused, because it looks closed.

"Uh, so this is kind of all ours for the night as well," Rena says shyly and Jurina laughs at Rena's utterly endearing version of date night.

"What are we watching?" Jurina asks as Rena pushes the door open and she smiles charmingly at the girl behind the counter.

"It's a surprise," Rena says and winks at the girl, who blushes. "Do you want popcorn?"

Jurina just raises an eyebrow and Rena grins as she reaches out to grab some chocolate. "And butter popcorn and a large coke."

Jurina nods in approval and tries to pay once again but Rena just glares at her as she hands over the cash. They walk into the theatre and Rena picks seats in the back row, although Jurina protests that they've got the screen to themselves so they could just as easily sit nearer because no one is around anyway. When Rena pouts, Jurina gives in and follows her to the back row.

The film starts as if by magic and Jurina chuckles when she hears the familiar theme. "You chose Toy Story?"

Rena grins. "I know you've seen it a million times, but this is our first date and I wanted it to be perfect."

"It is perfect," Jurina says earnestly and she can't resist the urge to lean forward, cupping Rena's face in her hands and placing a kiss on Rena's lips.

Except then they both forget about the movie and the food and spend most of the movie making out and copping feels that Jurina feels slightly guilty about because really they're still kind of in public but then Rena's hand is in her lap again and Jurina forgets what she was thinking about anyway.

"This is the best first date ever," Rena says as she presses a kiss against Jurina's neck, grinning when Jurina shivers.

"Absolutely," Jurina agrees as she pulls Rena closer for a kiss.

"We should probably talk about how this is going to affect the band and stuff," Rena murmurs against Jurina's mouth.

"Yeah, probably," Jurina's distracted by Rena's hand moving lower and hovering over Jurina's lap. "Maybe we should go home."

Rena beams and presses a quick kiss against Jurina's mouth. "Yeah, let's go home."

"Unless you had something else planned?" Jurina asks as she kisses Rena.

"Just a karaoke bar," Rena murmurs.

Jurina groans. "Next time, ok?"

"Yeah," Rena agrees as she stands up and hauls Jurina to her feet.

"Seriously Rena," Jurina pauses and Rena stops, her hand in Jurina's. "This was the best date. Thank you."

"I just wanted to do something special, you know?" Rena says and Jurina steps closer and kisses her gently. "I know we weren't dating when you were staying at mine, but you were kind of the perfect girlfriend anyway and I wanted to show you that I can be pretty good at this stuff too."

"Rena, you don't have to show me anything," Jurina says softly and Rena wraps her arms around Jurina's waist. "You just have to be you and I just have to be me and together we'll work it out, yeah?"

"Okay," Rena says happily and leans her head against Jurina's chest. "But when we get home, I can show you how fit I think you are, right?"

"Definitely," Jurina agrees. "It's actually kind of compulsory."

"And if you wanted to lift me in your stupidly strong arms, that'd be okay," Rena murmurs and Jurina grins.

"Okay, Rena, that's good to know."

"And while I don't normally put out on the first date, I think you might be in luck tonight," Rena says and she's tugging Jurina towards the door. "Because really, we've been dating for over a month now."

Jurina's still laughing as Rena hails a cab and they fall inside, limbs entangled.

"Okay, but when we celebrate our anniversary, I'm counting it from today," Jurina warns her.

"Anniversary," Rena repeats quietly and her eyes go soft.

Jurina just rolls her eyes, checks the cabbie isn't looking and yanks Rena towards her, kissing her senseless.

OS # 18 Girlfriends (Wmatsui OS)

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