Kodama Haruka 2013.09.19 24:34 Good Evening!Kodama Haruka here.
I turned 17 years oldヽ(´▽`)/
I am not 16, and not 18.
It’s the difficult age between being an adult or being a kid,
but I want to enjoy it to my heart’s content!!
My goals with 17 years.
But my goals haven’t changed,
it’s to make HKT48 famous,
and to get closer to my dream of becoming a multi-talent,
for that, I have to establish my ability in dance, singing and variety.
That’s it, right.
If i could achieve that.
Whether it is my important teachers and teammates I met at my club activities,
or my 42 points report score in middle-school, for which I studied so hard,
since I left it all unfinished,
up til now I don’t have any accomplishments.
That would become my first achievement.
Right now I am at such a waypoint.
But, I’ve been thinking.
About the whole Center situation.
At the time HKT48’s first single was announced,
I was very happy.
"At last I can show it!
I am glad that I held out with everyone this far!” And then only 2nd generations were made center.
My 16 year old self was surprised.
"Why?” I thought. I couldn’t hide my confusion.
However, right now I am facing forward and accepted it.
Since I am standing on a different position,
the world I am seeing is fresh as well.
I think that standing there, I will be able to discover a new self,
and I think that I will be able to look at myself objectively.
That’s why I want to extend my field of vision,
I think this is a opportunity for me to be able to develop various ways of thinking and to grow myself!!
Just because there was a 1st generation center,
doesn’t mean there can’t be a 2nd generation center that takes her place.
it’s a special kind of experience,
I feel like it can’t just be me who should be able to taste it.
To properly taste it,
I decided to alter my own strength.
I am very glad that there are people that often tell me at handshake events or in my google+ comments things like 『
For me, I want to see Haruppi as center.』『I think that Haruppi is the center.』.I think that I have to keep increasing the amount of those people!!
However, center is not the position I am wishing and hoping for.
Naturally and necessarily for the group’s sake it has to exist.
But I realized that it is not the position to grasp for, the one to put all your strength into to win.
Although the Sousenkyou is an exception…
Therefore, I wonder if I should stay passive on trying to get there.
By no means does it mean that I am giving up.
Once everyone recognizes me,
that’s when I will stand at that place.
At that time,
in order to become someone where people say
『Of course, it’s Kodama Haruka。』『This is how it should be!』,I will put nothing but my full power and my life into HKT。
Still, there’s my honored basketball club teachers that transformed me, and because I think that meeting such great teachers in life is a miracle,
I want to repay them that favor by showing them my activities now。
This year, I was able to have a wonderful birthday as well。
It’s all thanks to you all。
I truly thank you very much(´▽`)
It’s because you’re all there,
and you’re always encouraging me,
that I came this far.
From here on out as well,
let’s keep chasing after mine and after everyones’ dreams together!
I really thank you very much.
From Kodama Haruka。
Good Night。
Puhyuーhaー☆彡
sourcetranslation by sayanara231