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Title: My eternal blue rose (Sayaka's Graduation fanfic)
Post by: Ruka Kikuchi on April 07, 2013, 06:29:59 PM
I created this fanfic for ONE reason and ONE reason alone.

 :ptam-wub: Akimoto Sayaka's graduation!!! :ptam-hbk:

It just kills me inside to see such an amazing girl like her leave :cry:
So, I decided to write this.


 :farofflook: :gyaaah: :pleeease: Enjoy! *I'm going to cry now...!* :on speedy: :on blackhole: :on cloudeye:

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My eternal blue rose

Chapter 1-The promise of an eternal rose

Sae's POV

Location: Shanghai, China
It was basically any other day for me. At least, since I was transferred.

I remember that day clearly. When we were all performing together, all as one. Then, we had the biggest group shuffle in history. Takamina as General Director, Rabutan moving to HKT, and Akicha and Harugon transferring to Jakarta. But, I was devastated when my name was called out that way.

"Miyazawa Sae. Transfer to Shanghai(SNH)48."

"Eh?! Eh? EEEEEEEEEEEHHH?!?!?!?! Uso!!!"
I heard someone scream.

I didn't really care, it was my decision to transfer. But, I still cried, and I wasn't alone. Yukirin, Tomo~mi, and Suzuki Mariya cried, even though she was going with me. But, the one who I thought cried the most, who'd miss me the most, who would grieve and wait for me every second of every day...

...was Sayaka.

After the concert ended, I searched for her everywhere. She wasn't in the practice room or any of the restrooms, so my last choice was the dressing room. I bang on the door and call for her name. Since there was no answer, I open the door to make sure she's there. I saw her plopped down in a chair while staring up at the ceiling. I also saw her cheeks were still wet from her tears.

Authors' note: *This part will now take on from my fanfic "Those innocent eyes (http://forum.jphip.com/index.php?topic=34309.msg1145747#msg1145747)"*

"Sayaka?"

She turned and our eyes met. They looked so sad and wet. She gave me a sad smile that only broke my heart to see her like this.

"So, you're really going, huh?"

I nodded. I watched her as she shyly pressed her lips together and got up from her lazy position.

"Don't worry. It's not gonna be forever."

"...I just wanna know why..." she said as she slowly walked towards me. She looks like she's gonna cry again.

Sayaka... Please... Please, don't cry. I don't want to see you sad. Don't shed any more tears. You're beautiful when you cry, but.. you're even MORE beautiful when you smile... When you're happy, laughing... Don't be sad... For my sake, don't cry...

"...I think, for me to improve myself in AKB, I need a challenge. That's why I wanna do this."

She gave me a soft smile, but it only broke my heart more.

"..But..." I could hear myself sniffle a bit and my eyes get watery. I can't hold it. I'm gonna cry... "But... "

Our eyes meet one more time and I could tell she was surprised seeing me like this, slowly breaking down in front of her.

"But...I knew it would be a long... long time *Sniff* b-before I see you guys again."

"Sae..."

I wipe off the tears rolling down my cheek, but they keep coming.

"I-I... *Sniff* I don't wanna leave if it means you'll be sad."

Sayaka patted my shoulder and tried to give me a happy smile. But, I can tell... Behind that smile, there is sadness... I can't stand it. It only makes me more sad.

"Sae, I really AM happy for you..."

Lies... Sayaka, you're lying..!

"Usoda yo!"

I screamed and pushed her away. I can't let her force herself, but I'm unconsciously forcing myself, too.

Sayaka, I'm sorry... I don't want to hurt you... Forgive me...

"I'm telling you the truth...  I wouldn't lie about something like this. Honest..."

"No... You're just saying that to make me feel better..."

I could see her clench her fist and it makes me worry about her more. But, then I saw a sudden change in her facial expression. She had more worry than ever in her eyes. It was soft and sweet. Something cute, and that was rare for Sayaka. She shook her head a few times and hugged me.

"N-no... No. Don't. Don't look at me with those eyes. Not YOUR eyes."

"Eh?"

"Please..." I felt her hold become tighter as her voice started to break a bit and fade back into her sadness and tears.

"Sa-Sayaka?"

I rub my nose a bit and look up at her a bit. Her eyes were shut tight, as she was trying to hold the tears back.

"Don't make those sad, innocent eyes the last thing I see of you before you come back."

I pushed her back a bit and saw her whole face. Her sad smile, her wet cheeks, her sore from crying eyes.

"W-w-what are you talking about?"

"Those innocent eyes of yours... That kind of sad expression...I can't stand seeing you like that."

Eh? Sayaka, you...

This is something I've never heard before. Her TRUE feelings. And, they're for me... For my sake...

"...Surely, you feel the same way, right?"

I don't know what to say. Her honest eyes and her kind voice always overpower me from time to time again, I just can't control myself when I'm around her. I unconsciously bit my lower lip. Then, the unthinkable happen.

Before I knew it, she captured my lips in a sweet, sweet kiss. I could feel every inch of her warmth rush through me and I felt so happy. It was a longing, everlasting kiss. I never want to leave her. I want to stay like this with her forever. As we finally parted for air, we broke down in more tears and held each other close. I softly cried over her shoulder, and she caressed the messy curls in my hair.

"This won't be goodbye, right?"

"....Yeah. *Sniff* Yeah, I promise... *Sniff* I'm not saying goodbye to you... Not now. Not ever."

"...Me neither."

"..I... *Sniff* I love you, Sayaka."

She held my head close to her again and softly kissed my forehead.

"I love you, too, Sae."

A slight smile on my face, I bring her back in for another kiss, to which she made no objection. We kept just like that, forever in our embrace, until we were dismissed and had to leave.


The last day of Team K 6th stage. Also, my last day in Japan for a while. I was allowed to visit a few days, for concerts, the Request Hour, Nama-Uma... But, every day that past, I held my thoughts and feelings for Sayaka in my heart. Now, the biggest part of AKB48 has come. The general elections. I already sent in my application, so has Mariya.

I wonder... if Sayaka's signed up yet...

I check the site to see if Sayaka was up yet. But... her name was nowhere to be found. So, I thought I'd look up on her blog if she's made plans. But, instead, I saw something that shattered my heart to pieces.

"I, Akimoto Sayaka, will graduate from AKB48 without participating in the upcoming Senbatsu general elections."

Eh?


I could feel tears running down my cheeks uncontrollably. I couldn't hear anything but the echo of my cries in the room. Mariya suddenly came in and tried to calm me down, but I wouldn't stop. The room suddenly went black. ...And, I knew no more.


To Be Continued

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 :heart: Although hearing this news, I will forever cherish Sayaka and support her until the very end. :heart:

 :bow: I hope she will go down the road she wants and heads toward a wonderful future! :bow:
Title: Re: My eternal blue rose (Sayaka's Graduation fanfic)-CH 1
Post by: mayuki_daisuki on April 07, 2013, 06:56:47 PM
awww this fic is so sweet :heart: :yep:
i dont want sayaka to graduate!! :cry: :banghead:
i will always support her :cathappy:
Title: Re: My eternal blue rose (Sayaka's Graduation fanfic)-CH 1
Post by: Lost Heaven on April 07, 2013, 07:03:02 PM
I cry ...  :cry: :cry: :cry:
Sayaka ... Sae ... It's too sad ...  :cry: :cry: :cry:
I don't want Sayaka's graduate! Never!!!  :cry: :cry: :cry: :cry:

Forward to the next chapter!
Title: Re: My eternal blue rose (Sayaka's Graduation fanfic)-CH 1
Post by: sakura_drop_ on April 07, 2013, 07:18:17 PM
All I can say for now is

 :twothumbs

Continue this please~

 :)
Title: Re: My eternal blue rose (Sayaka's Graduation fanfic)-CH 1
Post by: BbSis on April 07, 2013, 07:21:33 PM
Nhyargh Sayaka's graduation announcement caught me off guards  :(

but since it was her decision we have to support her >< 

I want to read more!!
Title: Re: My eternal blue rose (Sayaka's Graduation fanfic)-CH 1
Post by: kuro808 on April 07, 2013, 11:46:25 PM
That was a great start to the fic.

I'm saddened to hear about her announcement but in the end she has a lot she can look forward to
Title: My eternal blue rose (Sayaka's Graduation fanfic)-CH 2
Post by: Ruka Kikuchi on April 10, 2013, 10:45:11 PM
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(http://fc03.deviantart.net/fs10/i/2006/326/7/e/blue_rose_by_olyana.jpg)
My eternal blue rose

Chapter 2-A saddened, fallen rose

Sayaka's POV
Sae... No, Sae..! Don't...don't leave me... Don't leave me alone... Sae, I'm scared... I can't find you. I need you. I need to hear your voice and see your smile... Please... Sae..! Sae..!!

"Sae!"

I suddenly rose from the bed and held the covers tight. My heart was pounding so fast and I was soaked in my own sweat.

"..It was..just a dream?"

I shook my head a bit and got up. After constant pacing over whether that dream was an omen or just something out of my imagination, I striped off my pajamas and got in the shower. Letting the hot water run down on my hair and body relaxed me, but I couldn't get over my feelings for Sae. I never want to leave her, and I don't want her to leave me.

But, even so... I...

"Ugh!" I literally splashed the water in my face and hit my head on the wall. "Damnit!"


Once I was finished, I got out and wrapped a robe around me while combing out my hair. I walked out of the bathroom and search for some casual clothes for me to put on. Nothing special, just a t-shirt and sweatpants, maybe. Once I put everything on, I was about to close the drawer, when my eye caught something I hadn't seen in years.

A letter. A letter that Sae wrote to me three years ago. It made me remember that day. All of us were writing letters to someone we wanted to show our true feelings to, and Sae, out of everyone, chose me. It made my heart throb, melt, and cry at the same time. I couldn't help but read it, remembering that day.

手紙.wmv (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ldmw43hvUPw#)

"To Sayaka...
Four years have passed since AKB was formed, and it will soon be four years since we met for the first time.

In that time, you couldn't communicate your feelings with honesty and even when you felt lonely, you bluffed like a loner but you were crying deep inside. However, the one who thought of the other members more than anyone, and was clumsy about everything was you, Sayaka.

Now I think you've become the one everyone relies on, the one everyone loves, and the one who has to be a part of AKB.
If I had to pick among all the AKB members, the one who was featured the most in 2009, I'd choose you.

In the AKB48 General Election held in July, I ranked 14th.

I saw this election as a personal battle, so I almost didn't feel any emotions like happiness or sadness about the rank. Truthfully, it was an event to confirm both the gratitude I have for the fans who voted for me and the level I am right now. But, when your name was called 12th, I was so happy that my feelings just disappeared and I cried.

In that moment, I felt that not only me but also other members, fans and staff, a lot of people were really moved by you.

The one who supports AKB today is you.
From, your eternal partner, Sae."



The memories flashing in my mind made me cry again, more than I ever did before. But, this was for a completely different reason than last. Sae's words overwhelmed me, because I never met someone like her or have things like that said to me before, and Sae instantly touched my heart. But, now...

Now, it only gave me pain and sadness... I promised Sae we were eternal. We would be happy forever. But, now... I'm leaving. I'm going to leave her all alone. If there's anything I hate more than her leaving me, it's me leaving her.

Throwing the paper down, I walked over and held my arms against the wall. I groaned and placed my head between the one space in between them. Then, out of the corner of my eye, I saw a picture of the two of us together. I remember when we took it. It was right after our first Team K performance. Again, so many memories... I fell to my knees and leaned up against the wall, softly crying into my knees.

Sae... I'm so sorry... I don't want to tell you. It will hurt you if you find out. I wish... I wish we could just run away together. Away from all the sadness, despair, pain... We could be together... Forever... For eternity...

"What have I done..? ...What have I done?"

To Be Continued

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Title: Re: My eternal blue rose (Sayaka's Graduation fanfic)-CH 2
Post by: kuro808 on April 10, 2013, 11:09:19 PM
Awww...

It is very sad although I should see a chapter where they fight through the tears, maybe?

Nice setup :twothumbs
Title: Re: My eternal blue rose (Sayaka's Graduation fanfic)-CH 2
Post by: mayuki_daisuki on April 11, 2013, 04:22:52 AM
awww this chapter is so sad but moving  :cry:
the vid also where sae wrote sayaka the letter was so sweet, sayaka so cute when she cried :heart: :yep:
thanx for the update :cow: :bow:
Title: Re: My eternal blue rose (Sayaka's Graduation fanfic)-CH 2
Post by: OMGACookie on April 11, 2013, 05:36:51 AM
Ah~~~

I've followed AKB since the beginning and to watch all the 1st gen leave is soo~~~ sad :(

Sigh... Ever since Maeda graduated...  It's never been the same for any of us...

I have to empathize with you in many ways, Sayaka was one of my favorites and to hear the ol' Aikido captain leave following Tomochin's announcement earlier in the year is kind of too much O_O.

Who knows... It'll only be a matter of time before Kojiharu graduates too.... Then the 1st gen will be gone...

Nice start to the fic though, I hope it all works out from here on :')
Title: Re: My eternal blue rose (Sayaka's Graduation fanfic)-CH 2
Post by: Lost Heaven on April 11, 2013, 08:54:39 AM
I cry again...  :cry: :cry: :cry:
Sayaka no baka! She leave Sae alone!  :cry: :(
Thank you for the update!  :deco:
Title: Re: My eternal blue rose (Sayaka's Graduation fanfic)-CH 2
Post by: BbSis on April 12, 2013, 05:29:53 AM
nhyaaaaa so so so  :cry:

Why are you leaving Sae alone then? ><
Title: My eternal blue rose (Sayaka's Graduation fanfic)-CH 3
Post by: Ruka Kikuchi on April 17, 2013, 03:40:17 AM
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(http://i693.photobucket.com/albums/vv295/Khalek/blue-rose.jpg)
My eternal blue rose

Chapter 3-Blue rose's tears

Sae's POV
"I hate you, Sayaka! I hate you! Hate you!!! HATE YOU!!!!"

"Sae... Stop..."


I'm punching her face... Beating her to a pulp... I can't control myself. My arms. My body. My tears. Why can't I stop? I hear Sayaka clearly, but I can't surpass my feelings anymore. Sayaka's just sitting there... Weak and bruised. Her lips are bleeding and she's coughing a lot.

"I hate you! I hate you! I hate you!"

The light in her eyes are slowly fading... I can't stop... I want to, but my body's rejecting me.

"You hurt me, Sayaka... This is all YOUR fault! YOUR FAULT, SAYAKA!!!"

"...Sa...e..."

"Why don't you just go, Sayaka? Just go! GO!!! GOOOO!!!!!"



My eyes opened and I slowly woke from my sleep. I must of blacked out after I saw Sayaka's blog and I was dreaming. That was such a nightmare. Why was I beating Sayaka senseless like that? I'd never do that to her.

"Sae-chan..."

I looked over to my side and saw Mariya leaning up against the couch. She found me crying and having a meltdown and must have been taking care of me after I fainted.

"You okay?"

"...Y-yeah, Mariya... ugh.. I'm fine... Just a bad dream..."

She gave me a sad smile. She could tell I was dreaming about Sayaka. After seeing a catastrophe I put on, it's easy to tell I'm in pain. I could usually bounce back easy, but this was too much.

Four words:
"Akimoto" "Sayaka" "AKB48" "Graduate"
A combination that caused me so much sadness. I hoped this day would never come. I thought it would be the end of the world when it would happen. But, even though every fiber in my being rejected it, I knew this day would come.

"I need to see her... I need to see Sayaka and make sure she's alright. We need to go back to Japan."

She looked down a bit, clenching her hands together. But, she looked up at me again and nodded.

"I'll call the manager and see what we can do. Just get some rest for now."

"Thanks..."
End of Sae's POV


Sayaka's POV
"...That's right... ..It was me." I recited my lines and read the atmosphere to fit my character perfectly. Recently, my work as an actress has gone way up, and now I'm guest starring in a new NHK drama. "Man, these people must love me," I thought.

"Why, Kanata? Why did you do such a thing like this?"

"'Why,' you ask?! You shouldn't need to ask! As far as I'm concerned, he DESERVES all this! ..I couldn't forgive him... Not after torturing my sister like this..."

"Kana-chan... you knew?"

I look over at the actress and grew more immersed in my character.

"Of course I knew. I knew everything about that retched man! You think something like 'Kataomoi' or 'Enjo Kosai' can pass me without a hinch, you're wrong! ..Anna, he was a drug dealer and a hoar. I couldn't forgive him for harassing you... That's why I killed him..."

I looked down at the blood stain on the carpet around the tape where the "dead" body laid.

"..Even the slightest mistake can spark a deadly fire in me... I believed his words, and he went behind me and lied to my own sister..." I could feel tears swell up in my eyes as a fell to my knees and pounded the ground. "A man like him shouldn't exist in the first place!"

I saw the lead actor slowly walk up and rub my shoulder a bit. I followed the script and looked up at him.

"Kanata... Could it be possible you've overpowered yourself for the sake of your sister?"

"Eh?"

"You're letting your own feelings get in your way. Yes, he lied to you, and yes, he was bad to your sister. But, such things are a bit too much. He was your co-worker, and, more importantly, senpai, so--" I pushed him off and got up again.

"Enough! I've had.. enough. I don't need someone comforting me anymore..."

I ran over to the table and picked up a gun, pointing it directly at the police officers. The other actress tried to come and calm me down.

"Kanata, you're over-reacting... Don't force yourself to--" I point the gun at her and scan it across the entire room. Whoever made the slightest move, I pointed it straight at their heart.

"...No more..."

She started crying. I looked over and saw her. Her tears were so real.

"Kana-chan... *Sniff* Stop... please..."

I slowly put my hand down and turned to her.

"Kana... please, consider his and my own feelings."

"Did you even bother to consider my own?!"

"...Ah!"

"Do you even know how I feel? Watching you with him everyday, his burly hands touching you like that. Do you know what it's like to come home and know the ONE person you care about is slowly going farther away from you each time you see her?!"

*BA-BUMP*

I suddenly felt my heart pound. I became so immersed in my acting, I started thinking about Sae again. I was lost in thought about her and thought about how she must feel now...

Sae... She must know by now... She must be crying her eyes out... Screaming my name... I...

"Kanata..."

I suddenly heard the actor's voice and remembered where I was. I went back to being Kanata and continued reciting my lines.

"None of you... None of you understand my feelings!" I pointed the gun at my head and prepared to pull the trigger, until the lead male came at me again and grabbed it. The gun set off and shot a hole in the ground, and shot again at the vase of flowers, breaking it.
My feelings in my character and my feelings for Sae became too much, and I cried.

As I fell to my knees again, my arms hit the table and I tucked my face in them and cried more.

"...I'm sorry.... Haa... I'm so... so sorry..."


After the filming ended, I cleaned my face off with a towel and gulped down the rest of my water. I suddenly felt my phone go off in my pocket and looked to see who it was.

From: Sae
Subject: Sayaka, we need to talk.
Body:
"I'm waiting in the office outside the rehearsal studio. I need to see you and straighten things out.
Please, Sayaka. I need you.
Please come."

Sae...


To Be Continued

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Title: Re: My eternal blue rose (Sayaka's Graduation fanfic)-CH 3
Post by: kuro808 on April 17, 2013, 03:48:52 AM
I read the first part and went  :shocked

Realizing it was a dream, it was understandable but Sae would be angered despite the distance but I have a feeling that she'll come back for that one performance before she leaves...

I feel bad that Sayaka was added to the growing graduation list :nervous
Title: My eternal blue rose (Sayaka's Graduation fanfic)-CH 4
Post by: Ruka Kikuchi on April 18, 2013, 11:14:02 PM
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(http://images2.layoutsparks.com/1/126775/blue-rose-white-ink.jpg)
My eternal blue rose

Chapter 4-A tainted rose

Sae's POV
I'm waiting... I'm waiting, Sayaka... Where are you?

The door finally opened and Sayaka rushed in.

"Sae!"

I sat there, cleching my hands together as they rested on the table.

"Sae... what's wrong?"

"....Sayaka..."

My hands pressed together harder and I held back my tears.

"...You broke our promise."

"Eh? Sae, I didn't break any--"

"Yes, you did!"

I got up and stared at her intensly. I could see she was worried and a bit scared.

"I thought we'd be together..forever... Why are you doing this? We said we were eternal, right? Right?!"

"........."

"Sayaka, answer me! Why are you leaving?! Do you not care about me anymore?!"

"Sae, of course I do..."

"Then, what..?"

She looked down at the floor and stepped back.

"..You know I have to go my own way."

I got mad and pushed her against the wall. I held her shoulders in place so she could move.

"What's that supposed to mean, Sayaka?!?! How do you think I feel about this?!"

"Sae..."

"Do you even know how much it hurts me.. BREAKS me to see you go?! DO, YOU, SAYAKA?!?!?!"

"..S-Sae... It hurts..."

My eyes widened. I saw I was gripping... no, digging my nails into her shoulders and pushing her too hard. My arms dropped and I let her go, tears falling freely from my eyes... I whispered, "I'm sorry..." and ran out of the room, crying more and more with every step I took.


*Author's note: This popped in my head as I wrote this chapter*
Vanessa Hudgens - Gotta go my own way (Lyrics+DL) (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7FkUVsLULEE#ws)
Red: Sayaka  Blue: Sae

Sae... Listen...

I gotta say what's on my mind
Something about us
Doesn't seem right these days
Life keeps getting in the way
Whenever we try, somehow the plan
Is always rearranged

It's so hard to say
But I've gotta do what's best for me
You'll be okay

I've go to move on and be who I am
I just don't belong here,
I hope you understand
We might find a place in this world someday
But at least for now,
I gotta go my own away

Don't wanna leave it all behind
But I get my hopes up
And I watch them fall every time
Another color turns to gray
And it's just too hard to watch it all
Slowly fade away

I'm leaving today
'Cause I gotta do what's best for me
You'll be okay

I've got to move on and be who I am
I just don't belong here,
I hope you understand
We might find a place in this world someday
But at least for now,
I gotta go my own away


What about us?
What about everything we've been through?
What about trust?
You know I never wanted to hurt you
And what about me?
What am I supposed to do?
I gotta leave but I'll miss you

So, I've got to move on and be who I am(Why do you have to go?)
I just don't belong here,
I hope you understand(I'm trying to understand)
We might find a place in this world someday
But at least for now(I want you to stay)
I wanna go my own way

I've got to move on and be who I am(What about us?)
I just don't belong here,
I hope you understand(I'm trying to understand)
We might find a place in this world someday
But at least for now,
I gotta go my own away
I gotta go my own away
I gotta go my own away

End of Sae's POV


Sayaka's POV

No, Sae... Don't cry. It's not your fault, it's mine.

I understand more of what Sae's feeling than what I am. Ever since I made the annoucement, I've been having frequent and recurring nightmares. Worst of all, they all ended the same. Sae was walking away from me, and no matter how much I ran to hug her and call her, she kept getting farther and farther away.

I knew I would regret leaving AKB to be an actress, especially since it meant leaving Sae, but I never thought it would take that strong a toll. I walked the streets alone at night and passed by a local bar. There, I saw Sae drunk and laughing while crying. I ran in and heard her yell at the waiter to get more beer. I made her turn to my gave and saw her glistening, lost eyes.

"Sae, what are you doing?"

"Ah~, Sayaka! Yer juz in tai~mu..."

"In time for what?"

She looked up stupidly and giggled.

"We're throwing a party! All~ of us!"

"Sae, no one's here but you."

"..Mou~ Tryin' to make it seem lezz fun, ah~? I worked so hard, tu~..." Her slurred voice and limp movements noted that she must've been drinking since she left and was too far gone to knock some sense back into her. "Sayaa... My cutie-patootie... Don't leave, 'ke? Promise yull stay her'...?"

"Sae, I'm too busy. We need to go."

I tried to drag her out, but she pulled my arm back, stronger than I did. Was it possible a drunkard Sae was stronger than me?

"No! Sayaka, ya neez ta stay~!"

"Sae, let go!"

"IYAA DA~!"

As I slammed her back to make her let go, her arm swung out and knocked over a man's glass and slipped it all over him. The man, also very drunk, got upset and threw the cup at Sae. Luckily, she ducked and it smashed into the wall, breaking into bits of glass.

"Hey, watch where you're throwin' that, Oyaji!"

"Huh?! Who you callin' 'Oyaji'?! Don't screw with me, ya lil' brat!!!"

"Haa?! Who you callin' 'lil''? All I see is some good for nothing bulldog!"

The man picked up a bottle and was about to hit Sae, until she grabbed his arm and it smashed into the table. The glass and beer flew across the counter and now the drunkard man was dead serious. I could see the heat rise up from his neck and a vain on his forehead pulsing badly.

He growled and chased Sae with the bottle in his hand. Sae was really faster than usual and got up top the counter. Unfortunately, the wet beer made her slip and fall and the broken glass got into her arm.

"Sae, no!"

"You messed with the WRONG~ man, missy!"

He was about to hit Sae again, but I went in and jumped on top of Sae, protecting her. The bottle hit my back and it hurt really bad. I could feel the blood slowly flow out.

"..S-Sayaka..?"

I looked at her face and saw the blood covering her shoulder. I got up and punched the man in the face, knocking him out in one shot. Then, I slowly picked Sae up off the table and brought her back to her feet.

"C'mon, Sae, let's go."

"No! I'll NEVER forgive him for hurting you!"

I held her beck as she tried to push me over and get back to the now unconscious man.

"Lemme at 'm! Lemme at 'm!"

"No, Sae! Let's go already!"

"No! LEMME AT 'M!!!"

Forgive me, Sae.

I pushed her out a bit to get enough space, then I punched her stomach. She coughed a bit, then passed out in my arms. I put her over my shoulder and carried her all the way to a hospital. They fixed up my back and removed the glass from Sae's shoulder and arms.

"You're both very lucky to survive that. Please, take better care of yourselves," one of the nurses pleaded.

"Of course. Thank you," I said to her before she left. I stared at Sae's unconscious body and cried when I remembered the horrible incident. I stood up and caressed her sleeping face and went down to her soft slender neck. I slowly picked her up again and left the hospital, carrying her home.

I ignored the comments I heard on the streets and went on to my apartment. I removed Sae's bloody clothes and put some nice silky pajamas on her. After I got back to my closet and changed, I tucked Sae into my bed with me and slowly fell asleep, holding her hand tightly. Tears fell as I was recurring more sad, painful memories of tonight... And the same nightmare continued as always.

To Be Continued

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Title: Re: My eternal blue rose (Sayaka's Graduation fanfic)-CH 4
Post by: kuro808 on April 18, 2013, 11:23:34 PM
Alcohol is not a great thing for anybody especially through a somber event like this.  Sayaka will always protect Sae no matter what kills her inside. :twothumbs
Title: Re: My eternal blue rose (Sayaka's Graduation fanfic)-CH 4
Post by: cisda83 on April 19, 2013, 10:30:11 AM
TTLuver497, this story is very good actually...

I like the way you described the twin tower relationship...

I like the last chapter the best... when you inserted 'Gotta go my own way' song from High School Musical movie.

It was one of my fav. song actually... so it was so great... very suit with the situation actually... so it was so good.

Thank you for PM me about this new fic...

Thank you for the story...

Can't wait to see the next

 :wub: :inlove: :heart: :love:

PS: Did they make 'High School Musical' Japanese version movie? They made the Chinese one.. I don't know if they made the Japanese one?!
Title: Re: My eternal blue rose (Sayaka's Graduation fanfic)-CH 4
Post by: mayuki_daisuki on April 19, 2013, 10:32:58 AM
same sae I don't want sayaka to graduate :cry:but try to keep calm :heart: :yep:
i liked how you used the song from highschoolmusical song for sae's pov :P
thanx for the update :cow: :bow:
Title: Re: My eternal blue rose (Sayaka's Graduation fanfic)-CH 4
Post by: fuu_kun on April 19, 2013, 11:57:28 AM
Nooo T w T Sayaka.. Dont leave sae chaan.. somehow i like when sae drunk~ i can imagine that part.. XD
Title: Re: My eternal blue rose (Sayaka's Graduation fanfic)-CH 4
Post by: Archie28 on April 19, 2013, 05:59:38 PM
I was totally imagining Sayaka and Sae singing the song... :thumbup :thumbup :thumbup

Sae's really hurt emtionally and now physically :(

and there she was... Sayaka to the rescue  :rock:

nice chapter  :twothumbs
Title: My eternal blue rose (Sayaka's Graduation fanfic)-CH 5
Post by: Ruka Kikuchi on April 21, 2013, 12:13:35 AM
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My eternal blue rose

Chapter 5-A rose who begins to wilt

Sae's POV
......

..........

....It hurts....

...It really... really hurts....


I open my eyes and found myself in Sayaka's apartment. In Sayaka's BED!!! I instantly pop up and saw her sleeping peacefully. Her hand was holding my own and her cheeks were wet from her tears. I try to remember what happened. I ran out of the studio after grabbing Sayaka like that and went to the nearest bar I could find. After drinking a few shots, I can't remember what happened.

Then, I saw the bandage around my hand, arm, and shoulders. I lifted Sayaka's shirt and saw her entire back and chest wrapped in gauze. My head pounded a bit and everything played again inside my head like an old tape. It was stratchy, but I was able to analyze it. I was drunk and got my shoulder hurt in a fight with a drunken old man. Sayaka protected me, then forced me to calm down by knocking me unconscious.

Tears fell from my eyes and I started to hear Sayaka's soft voice whispering some incoherent cries.

"Sayaka?"

".....Sa... Sa...e.... Du...g...."

"Sayaka!"

I shook her a bit and her eyes slowly opened a bit, squinting.

"....Sae...."

She held out her hand and reached to touch my face. I held it close to me and brought it up to hold my cheek.

"....I'm...so s-sorry.... Don't go...."

"...Sayaka..."

"I..... I lu...." Her eyes closed and she passed out again. She must still be hurt and tired from last night. She's been so busy, plus she risked her own life for my sake.

I can't let her do that. I can't let her get hurt just for me. I can't do this... I can't let her get too close to me... I can take care of myself. She has her own life to worry about. I need to be alone.

I got out of bed and changed into some new clothes. Then, I ran out of her apartment and rushed to the dance studio. Everyone was already waiting there for me.

"Sae? What happened to you?!" Yuko asked as she saw the bandages on my arm.

"Nothing, Yuko. Just a little accident while I was practicing."

I lied. I never lie to Yuko.

I felt such pain in my heart. I'm hurting my friends... Yuko... Sayaka... More importantly, I'm hurting myself.

But, does that even matter? Sayaka's getting hurt more than I am. I don't care if I'm hurt. I don't want Sayaka hurt. I'd rather I get hurt... I don't even care if I die, if it means Sayaka's gonna be okay.

To Be Continued

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Title: Re: My eternal blue rose (Sayaka's Graduation fanfic)-CH 5
Post by: mayuki_daisuki on April 21, 2013, 12:39:13 AM
aww poor sayaka :cry:
sae you don't need to be alone :banghead:
and also you shouldn't lie to yuko :smhid
thanks for this :cow: :bow:
Title: Re: My eternal blue rose (Sayaka's Graduation fanfic)-CH 5
Post by: cisda83 on April 21, 2013, 07:45:48 AM
Oh.. Sayaka is fighting off her fever from the injury...

What the heck, Sae what made you think avoiding Sayaka would be the best course of action

What Sayaka going to do... with Sae decision to avoid her?

Can't wait to find out the next

Thank you for the update

 :twothumbs :twothumbs :twothumbs
Title: My eternal blue rose (Sayaka's Graduation fanfic)-CH 6
Post by: Ruka Kikuchi on April 26, 2013, 07:23:05 PM
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(http://www.socialgreetings.net/upload/blue_rose.jpg)
My eternal blue rose

Chapter 6-Such a pitiful/precious rose

*The beginning will be a poem alternating from Sayaka & Sae's POV*

Sae...
Sayaka...
I love you. That's my I must leave you.
I hate you. It's because you're leaving me.
I must go on my own for a bit.
How will you survive alone?
I know that you are strong. You can live without me.
I know that YOU'RE strong. But, I can't live without you.
I'm sure you'll be fine.
I'll die without you.
Why can't we be together?
I hope you find your future...
I'm lost without you.
I hope someone will still help you, even if I'm not here.
I don't want anyone else. I want you.
Please try your best, Sae...
I can't do anything without you, Sayaka...
Because we're eternal.

*In Sae's mind*
High School Musical 3 / Walk Away FULL HQ w/LYRICS (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kDFtf0ImIIo#)

I guess I should've known better
To believe that my luck had changed, oh..
I let my heart and forever
Finally learned each other's names

I tell myself this time it's different
No goodbyes, cause eyes can't bear to say it
I'll never survive the one that's coming
If I stay, Oh no!

Just walk away! Oh and don't look back
Cause if my heart breaks, It's gonna hurt so bad
You know I'm strong, but I can't take that
Before It's too late... Oh, just walk away!
(Walk, Walk, Walk Away) Ooh, just walk away!
(Walk, Walk, Walk Away) heyyy heyyy yeahhh

I really wish I could blame you,
But I know that it's no one's fault (No, No, No, No)
Cinderella with no shoe
And the prince that doesn´t know he's lost
This emptiness feels so familiar
Each goodbye with just the same old song
But this time I will not surrender
'Cause I'm gone, noo noooo!

Just Walk Away! Oh and don't look back
Cause if my heart breaks, It's gonna hurt so bad
You know I'm strong, but I can't take that
Before It's too late. Oh, just walk away!
(Walk, Walk, Walk Away) Ooh, just walk away!
(Walk, Walk, Walk Away) Ooh,Ooh just walk away

I've got to let it go
Start protecting my heart and soul
Cause I don't think I'll survive
A goodbye again
Not again!

Just Walk Away! Oh and don't look back
Cause if my heart breaks, It's gonna hurt so bad.
You know I'm strong, but I can't take that.
Before It's too late. (Before It's Too Late!)
Oh, just Walk Away!
(Walk, Walk, Walk Away) Walk Away, Walk Away, yeah!
(Walk, Walk, Walk Away!) Walk Away, Walk Away, ooh noo
(Walk Away, Walk Away!) Walk Away, Walk Away.
(Walk, Walk, Walk Away!) Walk Away, Walk Away, Ooh...Ooh...


Sayaka's POV
I've been calling and texting Sae nonstop, but she won't answer me no matter what I do. She suddenly disappeared the night I saved her from that drunkard, and whenever I tried to get a chance to talk to her or see her, she'd run off and ignore me.

Sae, what are you doing to yourself?

After I finished filming, I texted Sae one more time. I prayed for an answer, but finally gave up and threw the phone onto the carpet.

"Ano, Akimoto-san, you can take a break for now."

"Ah! Thank you."

I walked into the break room and turned on the TV while opening a bottle of mineral water. The TV instantly turned to a variety show Sae was on. But, I began to notice a strange change in Sae's behavior. Sae's loud laugh was now only a small giggle or two, with a smile that didn't reach all the way. Also, her eyes looked so dark and lifeless. There was no more "genki-ness" inside of them, no radiance. No..."Sae."

What is she doing?

To Be Continued

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*Sorry it's short*
Title: Re: My eternal blue rose (Sayaka's Graduation fanfic)-CH 6
Post by: kuro808 on April 26, 2013, 08:12:35 PM
Incredible how you are setting all up by breaking down the pieces of the eventual relationship into IMHO one-shots and stringing them together :nervous
Title: Re: My eternal blue rose (Sayaka's Graduation fanfic)-CH 6
Post by: mayuki_daisuki on April 27, 2013, 01:35:00 AM
sae please don't ignore sayaka :cry: :cry:
thanx for the update  :cow: :bow:
Title: Re: My eternal blue rose (Sayaka's Graduation fanfic)-CH 6
Post by: Archie28 on April 27, 2013, 04:32:41 AM
Sae's really hurt  :( :( :( :(

Sae don't ignore Sayaka please... :(

Sayaka don't give up :thumbsup keep calling Sae....

Title: Re: My eternal blue rose (Sayaka's Graduation fanfic)-CH 6
Post by: cisda83 on April 27, 2013, 11:54:37 AM
I like how you used that HSM song... so fitting with your fic...

Ah... Sae is so upset there...

But she is under impression that by walking away and avoid Sayaka was the right thing to do

What's going to happen to Sae and Sayaka?

Can't wait to see the next

Thank you for the update

 :twothumbs :twothumbs :twothumbs
Title: Re: My eternal blue rose (Sayaka's Graduation fanfic)-CH 6
Post by: Ruka Kikuchi on April 27, 2013, 12:06:08 PM
I like how you used that HSM song... so fitting with your fic...

Ah... Sae is so upset there...

But she is under impression that by walking away and avoid Sayaka was the right thing to do
Glad to hear you like my use of HSM in this fic.

Yes, sad, but true. Sae is avoiding Sayaka and making herself suffer for her sake.

See ya with an update soon! :heart:
Title: My eternal blue rose (Sayaka's Graduation fanfic)-CH 7
Post by: Ruka Kikuchi on April 28, 2013, 05:40:16 PM
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(http://4.bp.blogspot.com/-lipKQnP0774/T2sN_QzswgI/AAAAAAAABIc/wOhHpq3KQmE/s1600/Blue_red_rose_by_The_proffesional.jpg)
My eternal blue rose

Chapter 7-Bleeding rose petals

Sae's POV
Flashback
130428 春のメンバー人事 新兼任等宣布 AKB48グループ臨時総会夜公演—在线播放—优酷网,视频高清在线观看 (http://v.youku.com/v_show/id_XNTQ5NDE4Nzcy)
Sayaka... I see you... I see you crying...

I know you must be happy... We can be together, but... only for a while...


"Sae!"

You suddenly hugged me. Aren't you ashamed? You hurt me.

Aren't you sad? I'm ignoring you.

You cry now. Why not then?

You sure do cry a lot, Sayaka...


"Sae, I'm so glad... Listen, I promise I'll never leave you, okay? Ill always be RIGHT HERE!"

I pushed her away and silently walked out of the room. But, she forcefully opened the door and chased after me. I felt her grab my wrist.

"Sae, don't ignore me!"

"............" I stay silent. I can't face her now.

"Sae, I DEMAND you SPEAK to me!!! SAE!!!!!!!!!!"

I made her let go and ran off as fast as I could.

"Sae, come back here! Sae?! Sae!!!"

Shut up! Shut up, Sayaka!

End of Flashback



She doesn't realize it. This is the ONLY thing I can do for her. I have to do this for her sake... For OUR sake. I can't let her get to close to me. Doesn't she see I have to be alone? I don't care if I make myself suffer. Sayaka needs to be alone, and that's exactly what I'll do, even if it means we both can't go anywhere near each other ever again.
End of Sae's POV


Sayaka's POV
Sae, what the hell are you doing to yourself?!

You're acting like Jurina, y'know? You're working yourself to death, refusing to eat, plus no matter what I say or do, you're always so dark and cold.

You feel cold to the touch and never say a word to me.

Sae, stop acting like this and turn back to normal!!!


I've already called Sae, but she only makes me leave a message. I've texted her I don't know HOW many times now, but she won't reply. I try to call her again and again, but her phone is always turned off. I found it almost impossible for her to be off her phone all day, so she must have ripped the battery out to prevent me from trying to call again.

Now, I've given up and had to search for her everywhere. I've asked the other members where she probably disappeared to, but they haven't seen her at all today after she left the practice room. Then, I finally found Yuko and asked her if she knew.

Flashback

"Mm~ after dance lessons, she just disappeared from us. Maybe she went back to her apartment. I dunno... I'd check, though, JUST to make sure she didn't fly back to Shanghai yet."

"No time for jokes, Yuko!"

"No, I'm serious! She's been saying that she doesn't want to got to close to you, because she may hurt you..."

"Eh?"

"Yeah, I'm surprised it's not the other way around!"

"..Oh, damnit, Sae!"

End of Flashback


I ran as fast as I could and finally reached Sae and Yuko's apartment. I stopped at the door and waited to open it, trying to catch my breath. This is the only other place I know Sae could be. I have to talk to her and straighten things out.

However, when I opened the door, I saw something that shocked me to my core. Sae was holding a knife in her hand, ready to cut her wrist. Her blank expression and dark eyes staring straight at her untouched skin, cold tears running down her cheek.

"Sae, what are you doing?!"

I grabbed the knife and threw it to the ground. Her mouth slightly parted as she blankly stared at me with wide eyes.

Sae... Don't do this to yourself...
End of Sayaka's POV

Sae's POV

I looked down at the floor to the knife, away from her strong gaze.

"...Go away."

"Sae..." Her grip on my wrist tightened and she made me look up at her eyes. "Tell me the truth. Why are you trying to kill yourself?"

"...You obviously don't need me, Sayaka. Y-you're just saying all this stuff to try and make me feel better... It wouldn't matter..'cuz you're going to leave me anyways."

She bit her lip and hugged me.

Sayaka, let go of me!

Why can't I say it out loud? I try to push her, but my hands don't cooperate.

"Sae, I'm so sorry if I hurt you! I won't hurt you ever again! I'll stay right here with you. ONLY you. I promise you, Sae! I LOVE YOU!!!"

I gritted my teeth and finally just..exploded.

"..I hate you.."

"Eh..?"

"...I HATE YOU!!!"

I pushed her hard and she flew to the wall. Her back pounded on the ground hard and she looked at me with weak eyes.

"Sae, I--"

"No! NO MORE!"

I punched her in the stomach, making her cough. I punched her again and again and she coughed up blood.

"Sae.. *Cough* *Cough* Sae, what are you..?"

"SHUT UP!!"

I punch her in the face. More and more time passed and her face was covered in bruises and scratches. Her mouth was cut a bit and blood was sliding out of her mouth.

"I hate you, Sayaka! I hate you! Hate you!!! HATE YOU!!!!"

"Sae... Stop..."

I'm punching her face... Beating her to a pulp... I can't control myself. My arms. My body. My tears. Why can't I stop? I hear Sayaka clearly, but I can't surpass my feelings anymore. Sayaka's just sitting there... Weak and bruised. Her lips are bleeding and she's coughing a lot.

"I hate you! I hate you! I hate you!"

The light in her eyes are slowly fading... I can't stop... I want to, but my body's rejecting me.

"You hurt me, Sayaka... This is all YOUR fault! YOUR FAULT, SAYAKA!!!"

"...Sa...e..."

"Why don't you just...!!!"


Wait...

My dream... This is exactly like that dream... I was completely reliving my nightmare.

"What am I saying?"

My hand slowly dropped to the ground. I looked down and wiped the tears off my face. My nose sniffled a bit and my rubbed my eyes.

"Sayaka, I..."

I looked back up and Sayaka wasn't moving. She was hurt badly and her eyes were closed.

"Sayaka? Sayaka?!" I shook her, tried to wake her up, calling her name again and again. I scream louder and louder, longing for her to answer. "SAYAKA!!!"

But, she remained still and silent.

"No.... No. Nononononono! NO! Nononono..." I quickly carried her to the couch and kept slapping her cheek a bit, shaking her more, trying to wake her up. "Sayaka, please, PLEASE wake up. Please... Nonono, don't... Sayaka, wake up! Sayaka! ...Please..."

I have to help her, but how? I can't call Yuko or the other members. They'll ask me how it happened, and I can't just say I beat her up. I can't call the doctor or any hospital cause they'll do the same. If anyone finds out I did this, I'll be sent to jail.

But, still, I need to tell someone. I called Yuko on my home phone, because I had already ripped the batteries out from it. But, when she answered, I told her I called by accident and hung up.

I slowly walked back over to Sayaka and tried to call to her again.

"Sayaka... Can you hear me? Please, say something, Sayaka... Please... Open your eyes..."

My tears fell on her bloody cheeks and she didn't even flinch as I slowly picked her up and hugged her. But, what broke my heart the most was that her body as so cold. She didn't have a pulse and was no longer breathing.

"Sayaka, don't die... Please, don't leave me! Sayaka, please, wake up!! SAYAKA!!!"

I broke down crying, holding her in my arms. I created a tragic fate. I killed Sayaka...with my own bare hands...


To Be Continued

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Title: Re: My eternal blue rose (Sayaka's Graduation fanfic)-CH 7
Post by: Lost Heaven on April 28, 2013, 06:10:39 PM
I'm crying...  :cry: :cry: :cry: :ptam-hbk: :hip cry: :ptam-cry: :fainted: :farofflook: :gyaaah:
Sayaka die because of Sae ... So sad...
This chapter... I have no words....
I'm die with Sayaka...
I understand how Sae feel... But, Sae killed her lover, it's... NOOOOOOOOOOOOo~~~~~~~ Arienai!
Sayaka are alive, ne? Please, let her alive!  :bow: :bow: :bow: Onegai shimasu!!!  :bow: :bow: :bow:
Title: Re: My eternal blue rose (Sayaka's Graduation fanfic)-CH 7
Post by: kuro808 on April 28, 2013, 07:17:24 PM
Sae unleashes her frustrations but ends up putting Sayaka into a grave condition :(
Title: Re: My eternal blue rose (Sayaka's Graduation fanfic)-CH 7
Post by: mayuki_daisuki on April 28, 2013, 09:36:17 PM
sae what have you done? :shocked
sayaka wake up!! :cry:
thanx for the update :cow: :bow:
Title: Re: My eternal blue rose (Sayaka's Graduation fanfic)-CH 7
Post by: cisda83 on April 29, 2013, 04:44:09 AM
Ah... Sae beat Sayaka up...

What's wrong with Sayaka...?

Did she die....?

Probably not... just unconscious... or having internal bleeding...

And she might be in critical condition...

Wah... what's going to happen next

Can't wait

Thank you for the update

 :twothumbs :twothumbs :twothumbs
Title: My eternal blue rose (Sayaka's Graduation fanfic)-CH 8
Post by: Ruka Kikuchi on May 03, 2013, 10:32:19 PM
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(http://fc05.deviantart.net/fs71/i/2011/323/5/0/blue_rose_by_deanna_alys-d4gpr2s.jpg)
My eternal blue rose

Chapter 8-Rose's dream

Sayaka's POV
.................

*Cough* *Cough*

.....Ugh.....

.....Mm... Sa..e...

.....Sae.... Sae.....!!


My eyes popped open and I suddenly woke up. I was lying on the ground. Then, I heard someone crying. Sae was crying on the couch. Someone was laying there. I slowly got up and walked over and was terrified at what I saw. I saw..myself! My own body beaten and bruised.

"No, it can't be!"

"Sayaka... *Sniff* Please, answer me..!"

"Sae! I'm right here!"

I try to touch her, but it was blocked off by an invisible forcefield. I call Sae's name more and more, but she can't hear me. She keeps crying and crying, desperate for me to answer.

"Sayaka, I'm so sorry! I won't do it ever again! Just PLEASE WAKE UP!!!"

I pounded harder and harder, trying to reach Sae. Eventually, I gave up and broke down, crying over the ground. My tears disappeared into the light from outside. I was a ghost, and I died. I can no longer stay with Sae.

"This is all my fault... All my fault..."

"No! Sae, it's NOT your fault!"

"I'm so.... *Sniff* so sorry, Sayaka..."

"Sae..."

"I didn't want to leave you alone. I didn't want to leave your side. You're dream was to be an actress...and I blew it... I'm sorry. I'm sorry, 'ya hear me?!"

I sadly smiled. I can't reach Sae, but her feelings can still reach me.

"I'M SORRY, SAYAKA!!!!!!"

"Sae... I love you so much..."
End of Sayaka's POV


*This song popped in my head as I wrote this chapter*
Bright Stream - Nana Mizuki Subbed on Vimeo (http://vimeo.com/63514486)

*I guess this can be either Sayaka or Sae's POV*

What are you, reflected in my eye, gazing at…?
A single ray of light piercing into the perpetual darkness
An injured heart too can become kindness
An innocent radiance releases everything

“Don’t fear
I’m always beside you”
Your voice echoes throughout my night sky

A pure white wing searching for hope
Surpassing countless pasts
Embracing the sorrow I hid alone
I believe I can surely become as strong
As the amount of tears I’ve shed
Because you’re here I won’t look down

What am I, reflected in your eye, thinking of…?
Unease attacks the warmth I know for the first time
Somewhere along, the wish that has disappeared time and again
Has had even the meaning of “sincere” erased

“I want to be here…
To be with you forever”
I thought if I said it it’ll be lost again

A straightforward dream seeking freedom
Writing an unending future
Destroy the clock that has stopped
I want to tell you first
Open the door of truth
Because I’m here I’ll protect you

Wanting to see your smiling face
Before I knew I was smiling too
You taught me that those days I took for granted
Are this precious

A pure white wing searching for hope
Surpassing countless pasts
Embracing the sorrow I hid alone
I believe I can surely become as strong
As the amount of tears I’ve shed
Because you’re here I won’t look down
Let’s fly to the place of genesis…



Sae's POV
I sat there, next to Sayaka's body. I cry over her stiff shoulder and hold her limp hand.

"Don't leave me..."

I slowly got up and held her cheek.

"I love you..."

I placed a soft peck on her lips and cry more. I decided to try and wait to see if she'd wake up, so I turned around and turned on the TV. I instantly started playing the video from the Request Hour DVD. The final day. I skip a few chapters ahead to where Sayaka's solo was on. I was so happy she could leave AKB with such a legendary song.

I wonder what will happen to the song after she leaves...

"Nee, Sayaka--"

I turned and remembered she was still asleep. Or, possibly asleep. I skipped a bit more and played my unit song. I was happier than ever and Sayaka was happy, too. I remember what happened after the concert was over.

*From my short fic, "Omedetou (http://forum.jphip.com/index.php?topic=34309.msg1147812#msg1147812)"*

"SAYAKA~~~~!"

"Eh?!"

I hugged her as tight as I could, never wanting to let go.

"OMEDETOU~~~~~~~!OMEDETOOMEDETOOMEDETOU~~~~~~~!!!!"

I could clearly see her blushing, and that only made her look even cuter. She turned to meet my gave and forcefully broke our hug.

"Sae. I should be the one congradulating YOU. You beat me."

"Mm~, I know, but.... No one can beat my Sayaka-chan! :heart: "

I hug her once again and, this time, she kindly accepted. Then, I felt her head shift down a bit as she whispered something to me.

"Compared to me, Sae, you've got so much more going for you."

"Baka!"

"Eh?"

She parted once again and looked at my eyes. I smiled and said, "I told you. No one can beat Sayaka. Not even me." I kissed her and she accepted each one as we went on.


I'm so happy to have met Sayaka. To be with her til the very end. To have her support me through and through. I could sometimes hear her voice correct me during rehearsals even if she wasn't there. And, even now, I'm positive it wasn't going to end.

I turned off the TV and slowly crawled back to Sayaka's side. More tears swelled up in my already sore eyes. I bring her hand close and slowly kiss it. Then, I bring it up to my cheek and let it hold it.

"***Sa****e****"

"Eh?"

I swear I heard Sayaka's voice calling. The next thing I knew, I thought I felt someone hugging me from behind. I felt someone's warm heartbeat and listened to the calming melody it created. I felt so..at peace...

"Sayaka..."

My eyes closed and I fell asleep. I could feel that person's warmth continue to grow and I drifted into a dream. I'm in my own world. A world where I can do absolutly anything. And, in that world, Sayaka and I are truly eternal, and no one can seperate us. I smiled in my sleep and continued to dream. Continued to feel the mysterious warmth from the heartbeat.

I absolutly had no doubt it my mind... It was Sayaka...


To Be Continued

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Title: Re: My eternal blue rose (Sayaka's Graduation fanfic)-CH 8
Post by: kuro808 on May 03, 2013, 10:54:32 PM
Saddening to see the story come to this. :(

Sayaka is probably still in a dazed state though
Title: Re: My eternal blue rose (Sayaka's Graduation fanfic)-CH 8
Post by: Archie28 on May 04, 2013, 07:39:56 AM
 :cry: :cry: :cry:

Sayaka  :cry:
Title: Re: My eternal blue rose (Sayaka's Graduation fanfic)-CH 8
Post by: mayuki_daisuki on May 04, 2013, 02:36:37 PM
omg :shocked the ending so sweet  :heart: :yep:but sad :cry:
thanx for this :cow: :bow:
Title: Re: My eternal blue rose (Sayaka's Graduation fanfic)-CH 8
Post by: cisda83 on May 04, 2013, 06:12:35 PM
Wah... luckily... Sayaka didn't die from her injury...

If she can recover her conscious, it means her injury was just physical...

May be a bit of bruises in her ribs...

But no internal injuries....

I like how you use the music to explain their feelings....

What's going to happen to Sayaka...?

Would Sae ignore Sayaka again?

How their relationship going to develop?

Can't wait to see the next

Thank you for the update

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Title: My eternal blue rose (Sayaka's Graduation fanfic)-CH 9
Post by: Ruka Kikuchi on May 06, 2013, 11:50:01 PM
:farofflook: We're almost ending!!! :farofflook:

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(http://img.mylot.com/2190630.jpg)
My eternal blue rose

Chapter 9-The rose's softest kiss

Sayaka's POV
A few hours ago...

Oh god, Sae! I can't take it!!


All my confidence at my side, I screamed Sae's name one last time and successfully hugged her. My tears would fal and pass through her, disappearing in thin air. I repeated her name again and again, until...

"Sayaka?"

"Sae! I'm here!"

"Sayaka..."

She heard me. She finally heard me. I saw her eyes close and she collapsed on the couch. She took slow deep breaths and smiled, holding my hand tight. I leaned up against her and hugged her again.

"Sayaka..."

"Sae... Oh, I love you so much..."

My heart felt like it was slowing down again. Oh, god, no... Please, don't let me die... If I'm gonna die, let me hold Sae just a little longer. More tears streamed down as my eyes slowly began to close. God, I don't wanna die yet... My eyes finally shut and I fell asleep...

A few hours have past now... Strange enough, my heart is still beating.

*Cough*

My eyes opened again. My vision slowly came into focus. I was lying on the couch and was sore all around... I could feel... I'm alive! Oh, thank god, I'm alive! I slowly lifted myself up, hissing a bit at how sore my body still was. Then, I saw Sae, still laying there, whispering something.

"I'm sorry..! I'm sorry..!"

"Sae?" I said in a hoarse voice. Sweat beads formed on her head and her eyes squeezed tighter. Dear god, she's having a nightmare...

"I'm sorry! I'm sorry! I-I-I'm sorry..!!!"

I slowly turned her a bit and shook her shoulders.

"Sae, stop! It's alright! Look!"

Her eyes slowly opened back up and her breathing calmed down. Her eyes widened when she saw me. She slowly sat up and carressed my face.

"..S-Sayaka? ...You're okay..?"

"Yeah... I'm okay..."

She smiled and hugged me tight, wailing into my shoulder. I caressed her back to try and calm her down.

"Thank goodness... *Sniff* I thought I lost you..."

"I thought so, too. I just didn't want to leave you alone, Sae..."

She broke the hug and sat up on the couch, just to fall right back on me and cry into my chest.

"I promise, I'll never, ever...*Sniff* EVER do that again!!! I promise on MY LIFE, SAYAKA!!!! *Wails* I'm so sorry~!"

"Sae, please stop... Don't cry... I'll still be here." I slowly sat her back up and stared into her eyes. "Look, just because I'm graduating to become an actress doesn't mean I'll be gone forever. I promise you, one way or another, we will be together again. Forever."

She wiped off her tears, but they get streaming down more and more... I swaer, sometimes she's a bigger crybaby than Takamina.

"..I-I..don't get it... *Sniff* Why are you so nice to me..*Sniff* even..hii..after I h-hurt you..?"

"...Because, I love you, Sae. I love you more than anyone."

I planted a soft peck on her forehead, and to my surprise, she pushed me away a bit.

"Eh?"

"Sayaka... You shouldn't be kissing me..."

She looked at me again, those innocent eyes I saw before she left for Shanghai not so long ago. Those eyes longing to stay with me forever. Ah... So cute.

"I need to kiss you. You're hurt... I hurt you...so, I'll heal you..." She kissed a small wound on my hand, which made me flinch. She moved up and pushed me down against the couch. "I'll kiss all your wounds and heal them... If you can do the least bit and forgive me, that will only make them heal faster."

She held my neck and started kissing the bruises around my shoulders, past my chest, and up to my neck. She slightly sucked on my neck and licked the blood off. She held my head in position and kissed my cheek gently. The bruises on my face and forehead. The small fracture in my nose; it wasn't broke, I was just so embarressed, I couldn't smile properly.

I turned my head a bit as she continued kissing my cheek. It became more intense and I can't take it. I turned my head and was about to say something, until our lips suddenly met each other and we both froze instantly.

Ah.. Her lips. They're so soft, so sweet. Before we knew it, we were making out, forgetting the world around us. We just stayed there and kissed. Neither of us stopped even once. The only reason we'd stopped was to breathe, then we'd return to each other and kiss again, more passionate than the last.

I felt her tongue slowly slip in and I began to do the same. My arms locked around her neck, deepening the kiss more, and she couldn't resist having the urge to slowly carress my body everywhere. We finally stopped after the two of us felt so hot, it was too much to take. She cried again and we hugged tightly one last time.

"Sayaka... I'm so happy... For you. For us. I hope you get in good as an actress."

I felt tears start streaming down and I clutched onto her shirt.

"Sae, thank you... I'll never forget any of you... Especially you, Sae. You're my one, true love, and that will never change."

"Then, let's graduate together! We'll get married," she giggled in a teasing voice.

"Sae, you think about YOUR future first."

"I am." She slowly broke the hug and smiled at me. "I'll be a star, just like you will."

*Giggles*

We hugged again, the sun shining down from the clouds. I can't control my tears anymore. I don't want to. They're tears of joy.


To Be Continued

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Title: Re: My eternal blue rose (Sayaka's Graduation fanfic)-CH 9
Post by: cisda83 on May 07, 2013, 09:22:18 AM
Ah... Sayaka is okay...

Just bruises all over her body...

Eh... Sae just said she would graduate too... so she could get married with Sayaka...

AH... what's going to happen next

Can't wait

Thank you for the update

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Title: Re: My eternal blue rose (Sayaka's Graduation fanfic)-CH 9
Post by: kuro808 on May 07, 2013, 10:48:05 AM
They are back together and now we wait fot more things to happen
Title: Re: My eternal blue rose (Sayaka's Graduation fanfic)-CH 9
Post by: mayuki_daisuki on May 07, 2013, 02:03:56 PM
awww saeyaka couple so cute :cathappy:
thank goodness sayaka's ok :nervous
haha this bit was so cute and funny "Then, let's graduate together! We'll get married," :lol: i would love for that to actually happen :deco:
thanx for the update :cow: :bow:
Title: My eternal blue rose (Sayaka's Graduation fanfic)-CH 10 *Final Chapter*
Post by: Ruka Kikuchi on May 09, 2013, 10:22:02 PM
Yay! We've finally made it to the end! :farofflook:

 :love: It's been fun, and also sad, but don't worry. :cry:

Sayaka has a bright future ahead of her, and Sae is sure to find her own, too. So, I will continue to follow Sayaka, for she is my eternal fav, and hopefully, I can be an actress like her! :luvluv1: May all happiness come her way! :heart:

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(http://www.wallpaperviews.com/wp-content/uploads/2013/04/Blue-Roses-9.jpg)
My eternal blue rose

Chapter 10-Twin Roses

Sae's POV
Date: 2013 XX XX, the day of Sayaka's graduation concert.

Outside you could hear the wotas chant her name to no end.

"They want an encore..." I heard Sayaka say softly. I nodded in response. I watched her as she slowly looked down to the ground, refraining herself from tears.

"What's wrong?"

"...." Silence.

"You're gonna miss us, aren't you? Don't worry, I'll always be here," I said as I pointed right at her chest.

"..Thank you, Sae." She softly smiled at me. She looked out to the stage a bit. The audience waving their glowsticks looked like the night sky filled with colorful stars and was so mesmerizing. "What will happen to this song after I'm gone?"

I smiled and patted her shoulder.

"It won't go away... It will be eternal, like us."

I slowly came in and softly pecked her lips. I came in again and we kissed more passionately until Sayaka had to part so she could go on stage.

"..See ya later."

"Un."

AKB48 Request Hour 2013 #05 Mushi no Ballad (Akimoto Sayaka) (http://www.dailymotion.com/video/xxr4ra)

I'm all alone
 in the heavy rain
 I wanted to get
 soaking wet
 I was trying to wash
 my dirty body and
 ugly heart

What should I
 believe
 in this day and age?
 Even if I ask,
 no answer comes

I'm not afraid
 of being hurt
 no matter how hard
 my path is
 In my eyes, this small me,
 this small me,
 becomes a single bug

As long as I live,
 I don't care if I'm unsightly
 My soul screams
 on the ground
 To living, to living,
 I cling

I'm not afraid
 of being hurt
 no matter how hard
 my path is
 In my eyes, this small me,
 this small me,
 becomes a single bug


To Be Eternal...

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Title: Re: My eternal blue rose (Sayaka's Graduation fanfic) *Completed*
Post by: kuro808 on May 09, 2013, 10:31:58 PM
Nice ending.

It kinda works well with the rush of graduation announcements of lately :nervous
Title: Re: My eternal blue rose (Sayaka's Graduation fanfic) *Completed*
Post by: mayuki_daisuki on May 09, 2013, 10:57:49 PM
awww the ending so sweet, saeyaka will always be eternal :heart: :yep:
mushi no ballad is such a nice song, love it :cathappy: :deco:
thanx for the update :cow: :bow:
Title: Re: My eternal blue rose (Sayaka's Graduation fanfic) *Completed*
Post by: cisda83 on May 10, 2013, 07:41:37 AM
Nice update and ending...

I like how you insert that MV

This song is her solo, right...?

Anyway, Thank you for the update

Can't wait to see your other creations

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Title: Re: My eternal blue rose (Sayaka's Graduation fanfic) *Completed*
Post by: Elo on June 22, 2013, 07:48:06 PM
I love this fic it is so beautiful

I think so too that the song will be eternal ^^

I hope sayaka will be happy ^^
Title: Re: My eternal blue rose (Sayaka's Graduation fanfic)
Post by: ametakarano on August 23, 2015, 06:55:08 AM
Kyaaaaah~~

Senpai!

reading this one recently, I started missing Sayaka so bad.  :cry:

but still... SaeYaka is eternal!  :rock:

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