"Thanks for taking me out today. I had a lot of fun. I know this won't happen again anytime soon. She's really lucky to have someone like you. If only I met you earlier."
There was no mistake. This was from Shimi-chan's number. Now why would she send me something like this? Could it be she's already seeing someone?
Suddenly I feel insecure.
Sugaya-chan has that cute classmate of hers and Kumai-chan told me that she's trying to get the attention of a real hot guy and now Shimi-chan's sending me a message that's intended for a guy, a guy who seems to already have a girlfriend.
What is going on here?
How can they do that? How can they be so comfortable with boys?
They were really amazing when we were in Music Fighter, admitting that they can tell a guy that they like them. I've always believed that it was supposed to be the guy to tell that to the girl, not the other way around.
Daisuki.
A lot of boys, yes a lot of boys, told me that before but I could never imagine myself telling that to a guy. Unless of course I really, really, really like him but I've never met a boy that I actually like to the point where I'll tell him that I like him.
Could it be because my standards are too high?
I'm not looking for too much in a guy. According to one of the psychology tests from my classmates,
I like guys who are smart, because I can learn a lot of new things from them; funny, because they can light me up when I'm sad; honest, so I'm sure that I won't get hurt; understanding, someone who knows what I'm going through; tall, because it gives me a sense of security and of course, cute.
That's not too much, right? But I've never met anyone like that before, well, except him.
Him.
Sugaya's classmate.
Speaking of Sugaya-chan's classmate, I'm a bit surprised how she was able to catch a hottie like him. Don't get me wrong. Sugaya-chan's charming and pretty but she's also very, very shy. What could that guy have done to make Sugaya-chan like him that much.
Before we met him, I asked Sugaya-chan if he gave her something or do anything special for her. She said that he didn't give or do anything, except teach her the lessons that she missed.
"Not even letters or gifts? Even flowers?" I said. "Impossible!"
"Those flowers he gave me the day you met him, that was the first and only gift he ever gave me." Sugaya-chan said as she smiled at me. Something in her smile told me that the relationship they have was that more than of classmates. I know that her locker also gets filled with letters everyday but not even one of those came from him. Unbelievable but true. That poem he wrote for her was really something. If I ever get something like that, I'd tell the guy that I'd marry him on the spot!
Just kidding. But that was really, really nice though I still couldn't believe he was the one who wrote that.
I'm happy for Sugaya-chan because she seems to be more inspired and lively nowadays and it's probably because of her classmate.
I also asked Kumai-chan what she did to get the attention of the guy she was talking about.
"I asked him questions like kissing and stuff boys and girls do. That way, if he's not slow, he might get a hint that I like him." she told me.
"So, what happened?"
"He said we can be friends, but up to that point only."
"So he dumped you?"
"In a way, yes. But because of that, I think I like him more." Just as I expected. Her style is too aggressive and I don't think guys like girls who take the initiative. But there was a sly smile on her face as she said that. "Did I already tell you that I was trying to be the third party? Poor guy. Knowing Kumai-chan, she wouldn't give up that easily. She'd probably do whatever it takes to get what she wants.
Kumai-chan and Shimi-chan look like their in the same situation but Shimi-chan would rather let go than hurt others. That's the way she loves and I admire her for that. She always thinks of others before herself. Don't worry Shimi-chan, I won't tell this to anyone. I know you'll find someone someday, eventually.
I'm not sure if I can do what they are doing. Maybe my interest in boys will come later. Right now I have to focus on my career.
But to tell you the truth, there's actually someone in my class that I do fancy. I tried so many times to catch his attention but he seems to be interested in other things like sports. He surprised me the other day when he approached me during lunch time and by telling me that our new single was nice. He told me that his cousin, who's also the classmate of another Berryz Koubou, got him hooked to Hello! Project. He said that they're going watch our next concert. I thanked him and told him that I'll be on the next Hello Pro Hour.
"Ganbatte!"
That's what he told me as he walked back to his seat. That's the first time a guy, aside from my dad or Tsunku-san, said that to me.
And it meant a lot.
He didn't say anything else but I know he will be watching me so I have to do my best.
Time to practice for my song in Hello Pro Hour...