@lollipopgirl and shadowolf8 You guys really got to me because I never thought that I could make anyone come close to tears or actually cry with my writing, so big hugs for you guys
@everyone else (Sorry for the bad classing >.<) All of you seem to be in a slight depression after reading part 1 of the fic
So to make it up I wrote part 2
I hope you'll like it, I don't think that it's as well written as part 1, but it's longer.
Her Final Wish
Gaki’s POV
It wasn’t until you died that I realised just how much I loved you. I had never been able to express my never ending love for you, and now I’ll never be able to. Your smile, your laugh, your scolding…it’s all gone. Yet, I can still hear your sweet voice echoing in my ears. It’s as if there had been a recorder in my head for every time you talked.
“Gaki-san.”I felt the reservoirs behind my eyes unleashing. I would never hear you say my name again, and I would never be able to reply. As each one of my tears fell to the floor in front of your coffin, I could feel my heart tearing apart. Why did you of all people have to die? You didn’t deserve that! You were still so young… You had always said that you couldn’t wait to get married and settle down, with me. I can never forget the blush you had when you had said that; you were so shy. I remember that one day you had asked me why I had picked you; why I hadn’t picked her. Simply, there was no way I couldn’t fall head over heels for you. Even if you were strange sometimes, that only added to your appeal. Sometimes your innocence was just so sweet that I could feel my teeth rotting, but you could also be so sexy that it was as if one was in heaven. The one thing that I never understood was why
you picked
me. There were so many other people that you could have been with if you had wanted to, yet you never once doubted your love for me. I never doubted my love for you; I just couldn’t express it as well as I wanted to.
I remember the day you confessed to me; it was the best day in my life. We had finished recording the PV for Aruiteru, and we were all staying in a beach side hotel for the night. We hadn’t really hung out much around that time so I thought that it would be a great chance just for us to chat again, and it seemed like you had been thinking the same. We both went for a stroll on the beach together after dinner. The sun was sitting on the horizon comfortably, radiating out a beautiful orange that filled the clear sky. It was almost as if God had been watching over us, not letting anything get in our way. Your nervousness was evident because you kept fidgeting with your bangs and you avoided eye contact. I thought that maybe you were just being your shy self but my heart was racing; something about the atmosphere was different. We stopped in front of the waves, watching as one disappeared into the next as they washed ashore. I looked up at the mesmerising sky.
“It’s a really beautiful evening isn’t it?” I asked.
You nodded your head, watching a lone cloud, illuminated by the sun, drift by.
“G-Gaki-san,” you said nervously, your voice shaking.
“Yes?”
“I-I’m like the sun and you’re the moon.”
I looked at you, your head still looking up and ahead.
“Why’s that?”
You turned to face me, our eyes meeting and your face flushed.
“Because I’m falling for you,” you said.
I felt my face go tomato red and my heart skip several beats.
“U-U-Uhh…” I stuttered out. The moment I had been waiting for had arrived and I had no idea what to say.
“I love you Gaki-san,” you stated. I could see the shyness in your eyes but at the same time I saw the determination. I took a deep breath and softened my wide eyes. I felt tears beginning to fall from my eyes as I smiled at you.
“I guess I really am the moon then, because the moon always falls for the sun in turn,” I said. You looked at me in disbelief for a couple of moments before leaping into my arms and crying.
“I love you too,” I too stated.
I couldn’t help but smile sadly at that memory, because it had been from that day that we had both taken an oath in front of the seemingly never ending sky and ocean, that we would be together forever. I felt the smile on my face vanish. We had taken an oath that we would be together forever, but now you were dead! Gone forever! I whimpered out your name. I’m so sorry, I couldn’t save you. If I had been quicker to understand what you meant that night when you said you loved me more than life before walking out of the door. I didn’t understand! I didn’t understand why you were so loving that night! I thought that you were just feeling really lovey dovey. Suddenly, I felt myself being pulled into a hug; it was her. I felt more tears fall from my eyes as I again recalled our moments together. No matter how much I wished you were there or how much I wanted to hold you in my arms, you would never come back. But what else could I do when wishful thinking was all that I had left?
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I felt my heart cringing as I looked through some of your stuff. Your death still stabbed a fresh wound into my soul. I was surprised to find a diary that you had owned. I guiltily flicked through the pages; I suddenly came across the date that you had died. My eyes shot open as I read; you had addressed that entry to me.
Dear Gaki-san,
If you’re reading this then I am probably dead. I’m so sorry; I’m dead even though we made an oath together underneath that beautiful sunset. Yes, I remember that, it feels as if that it was yesterday. I just about chickened out of telling you how I felt; I thought that you would reject me. Actually, I had been avoiding you at that time because I was so scared that I would blab out my feelings to you. I’d have never thought that I could be so happy. You’ve made life everything it is for me. Everything that you share with me turns a little darkness into light. Just the smile on your face makes me melt inside. You are an angel; something I’ve always wanted to protect. I can’t imagine how life would be if we had never met. I would never be the person I’m proud to be today. I will always love you, please don’t forget that. I know what you’re like, but I will request that you please find someone else to love. I know that you love me, and I love you; all I want is for you to be happy. If you don’t find someone else to go through life with, then you’ll never smile with your heart. I’ll be watching you always; I’ll never leave your side, so please, fulfill my final wish. I’ll never forget you.
P.S – I attached my most precious pictures of us ^_^
P.P.S – I also attached a song I wrote.I had never realised it, but my tears had stopped, as if they had understood your wish. Looking down on my lap, I found the pictures and song that you had mentioned, which had fallen out. Picking up the photos, I couldn’t help but bite my lip. Gently placing them down to the side, I picked up the song. I took a deep breath before beginning to read the words out loud to myself.
“Every time I close my eyes,
I still see you.
Every time I look at you sleeping,
I can’t help but smile.
It’s like you were sent from above.
Not even I can understand why you love me.
I’m not good enough for you,
Yet, just your reply is enough to make me soar.
I want to be there for you when you cry,
I want to wipe away your tears.
I want to be the one,
Who holds you in the night,
And says “I love you.”
I miss you every second we aren’t together,
Yet, I would wait forever if it meant that we could meet.
I just wish that you understand how much I love you,
Because I know how much you love me,
Even if you are slightly shy about it.
I never realised how hard saying goodbye was,
Until I met you.
For now that I must say it,
I can’t say it directly.
But I know that I must,
Otherwise I will regret it.
I don’t want to say it as if it's forever,
Because I know that one day,
We will be together again,
So I’ll just say it temporarily.
See you soon.”
I tasted blood on my tongue; I had increased the pressure my teeth had been placing on my bottom lip. I couldn’t help but let a few tears fall from my eyes. I couldn’t stand how we couldn’t be together, even when we loved each other so much. I wiped the tears which fell. I again picked up the pictures that you had picked of us. I smiled looking at them. I would continue living on, even if it meant that you weren’t there in the flesh, because I knew that you were in my heart and you wanted me to live life to the full. Carefully, I put the pictures and your song inside your diary, and placed it back inside the box I got it out of. I stood at my desk side, looking at a picture of you that I had framed. I picked it up and gazed at it for several moments before placing it face up in my top drawer. My final tears for you escaped.
“See you soon, Kame.”
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So, who got surprised by the ending? When I was reading all of your comments everyone thought that Eri killed Ai but it was really the opposite way around
. Oh, sorry if there are any spelling mistakes >.< Now, just to wait and see what people thought (especially now that Ai's alive). Anyways, that's Her Final Wish over, look out for the next story!
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