Imitation Black- Imitation series! part 1
Its ......only an imitation.
We don't have an ordinary life.We are after all, idols, how people look up to. They look at us as if we are perfect.Must be perfect.An ordinary life is no longer a variant. We must be perfect. So our life is more like and
TWISTED ordinary life.
We must not fall in love.And if we do ,we must love the ones our fans want.As our own choisses become
Forbidden
love.
We all have an insincere
heart.Painted over in black so we could never forget and forgive everything.
Our love is an
IMITATIONAn
incomplete
love .
Because as we say, the persons we truly love....... don't love us back.
Its a
jet black world.
'I've always wanted to
say to
you....' I say to my true love, as I wait with her for the rest to come.
She looked at me as I took her atention.Titling her head with a questioning gaze.
'There is just
one thing to say' I look at her with a nostalgic gaze as I say
- The
impulse that ca
not be
surpressed-
'I am glad that I was able to meet you.' I say looking in her black eyes
'hmm~ What's with that now , Rena-chan? Is everything okay?' She asked a little worryed
At this I just give her a smile saying 'Nothings wrong, I'm fine'
But that was just an imitation......I'm not fine.
I think I'll break soon.
To
love and to be
loved,
I think nothing , just imitations as Jurina comes in the big room and aproaches us. I happily sat up , give her a hug and sat back down with her at my side .They started talking, but I didn't pay too much atention, It was enough to know if they talked to me.
,to the point of going
mad.
Jurina turns to me and with a smile she kisses me. A
sweet and
burning kiss is an
IMITATION
Senses
numbing
Consciounsness fading
awayAs I think about the one I love kissing me.
Jurina broke the kiss and looked back at the one I was thinking about.The others come too and I need to pay attention.Still looking at the one I love how hugges Mayu and smile at her.
I can see Jurina looking the same way at Mayu with sadness in her eyes and a little smile to hide everything.
The overflowing
emotions and
reality
are painted over in
black.
So we could still hide behind a smile.
Everything I sing, I sing for you......as if I could hold you a time
I can't breathe anymore if you'll just say you want to stay with me.
Jurina and I are a couple.
We are perfect tougheter.
Or so everyone says.
We are , for each other just an Imitation, of someone we can't have.
I want to say everything I really feel, to give you a hug and after you to answer me with a sweet voice.
You are after all Kashiwagi Yuki.You have a sweet voice, a pretty face, a beauttyfull body.
Every fan would want you. You make them -daze-, as you say.They all fall in your place.
And so did I ,Matsui Rena.
In the night, the sinking moon is
overlapping with the clouds.
As if to hide the -shadows-.
As we all sit under the night sky, looking at nothing, and talking ramdomly.
I sit between you and Jurina how sits beside Mayu. You look somehow sad in Mayus direction, as if you wanted to sit with her.
I know that you love her like I love you, and as me you don't say it.I would want to make you happy and lets you sit beside Mayu but right now, I want you all to myself.
Can we not return anymore?
I want the two of us just disappear together.
And I wish so someday I can be with you, with that belief I lets go of my hand and say
' nee' Yuki?'
you turn your head to me
' yes? what is it Rena?'
I smile and look at your beautty
'If it is a love that doesn't suit me ,' I get closer to you and you made a surprised face as I softly kiss you on the lips with everyone seying it
After I broke the kiss I continue and say 'Then it might as well be broken' and smile seeing all the shoked faces around us.
After 5 hours everyone calmed from their shock, but no one said anything as everyone has a secret love witch is or isn't one-sided. We are once again in a big room together with everyone.Takamina called us all here, to talk about what happened and see how the press souldn't know.
'So ,what do we do?' Atsuko asked looking at Takamina
'hmmhhh.....I don't really know ,its good that there were just s few people around....but why did you do it Rena?' she said looking at me.
'I did it because......I wanted to feel the real thing.Not the imitation.' I said as I looked at everyones faces.They all trying to hide the thing that they wanted to feel it too, the feeling of kissing the one you love, not the one your fans love you with.
At a moment my eyes stop on you, and you are not looking at me, you are looking at Mayu as she tryes to hide herself in a phone game .And Jurina is looking bwtween me and Mayu.A scared look on her face.
' thightly and
strongly ,I want to be
embraced....' I continue looking at Yuki, my princess.
'after all , the ones with Jurina, the
warmth of the
overlapping bodies is
IMITATION.'
All of a suden a phone was closed and Mayu enraged sat up.
'M-Mayu? something the mather?' Yuki asked looking worried at her
Mayu looked at me and said 'if the
sun where to shrine
I would
be bothered Because the one I love would vanish from my sight'
I looked around and I could see that some understand what she said , as did I .
Yuko got up and said 'I too! I don't want to give my love to no one!' she said coldly looking at eveyone.
Everyone was silent for a time, so I said ' then, there must be an answer to everything'
It was the time for common sense and morals to be crushed and
destroyed.
After what will happen , if there are
punishments,
I, should be the one punished.
And what you said at the
end,
I shall embrace.
'I think its a good ideea.Its time for all ilusions to end.' Yuki said looking dawn.
'I aprobe that too.'Takamina said 'If everyone else thinks like that then lets meet here,at the same time in two weeks and end everything.Its time to confess everything and end the masked ball.' she said seryously and got up walking to the door.
the others did the same after a few moments.Each of them thinking about what to do, and everyone know that in that moment, in wich we well confess, the end will come and the 48THEATHRE will be over. It will be our last concert the one in two weeks and we all know it.
As I am thinking of you everyday,before everything will end.I will come and meet you.
Before that melts away into nothing as I know that you Love Mayu more than anything and I love you more than anything.
Embraced in a qui
vering and wavering fantesy, the kisses we , me and Jurina , shared where imitations.
I looked at Jurina how was walking beside me, we decided well spend our night together because the angst was to much.
And I said with a bright smile 'what I
said to
you where Imitations'
And she smiled sadly saing 'Me too'
On the cool skin the cold falls.
'everything and
anything in my memory are sinking into the
darkness' I say looking at the night sky
Everything is falling away-
'I want to love and be loved to the point of madness!' I scream to the sky
As I look back Jurina kisses me, the sweet and burning kiss is an
imitationSenses
numbing
Consciousness fading
awayThe overflowing
emotions and
reality
Paint it all over in
BLACKI, Matsui Rena , love Kashiwagi Yuki
Kashiwagi Yuki loves Watanabe Mayu
Matsui Jurina loves Watanabe Mayu
Watanabe Mayu loves..........?
End part 1-Rena's part-------------------------------------------------------------------------
sorry.....I konw I have another one I should finish but I'm on a little hiatus until I have more ideeas for it and the VanaN'Ice songs took me and I must do something to relax myself.......I talk too much again....sorry!
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