No, don't leave me..
Please..
I need you..make me feel better like you did last night..
"No!"
I woke up, heart pacing and in a sweat. I looked at the alarm clock, glad to have a couple of more hours before I have to go to rehearsals. I wanted to rest for a few minutes, hoping I would see your face again. Unfortunately, I can't do it. I wanted to cry, but I knew that you would not let me do it. I still remember the words you said to me before you left.
"Don't cry," you said. "I'll always be there for you."
Funny that someone said those words to me long ago.
I hop out of my bed, take a shower and get dressed. I started to hum a tune that we sung a long time ago. It was one of my favorite songs. As soon as I got dressed, I heard a knock on my bedroom door. "Who is it?" I said in a cute voice, hoping it would be you.
"Someone wants to see you," my sister answered.
"Who is it?" I asked.
"Only your best friend."
Oh no, not her..what do I do now?
* * * * * * * *
You've always been a friend..but just a friend.
However, we've always been close..
I don't usually make mistakes, but I believe I made one with you.
I'm sorry...
I'm sorry we never got to know each other personally.
I want to try that with you, if that's okay
What am I saying?
Wait..I know exactly what I am saying. I found someone right under my nose and I almost missed it.
I hope you can forgive me.
"Hi Sayu!" she smiled. "Ready to go?"
"I guess," I said glumly.
"What's wrong?" she asked.
She kept asking me that when we left my house. That was when I finally lost it, even though we never really argued when we were friends. "What is it?" I screamed.
"Calm down Sayu," she said. "I just asked what is wrong."
"You know what it is."
"No, tell me what it is."
"YOU'RE DATING GAKI-SAN, THAT'S WHY!"
I left her standing as I ran away, toward rehearsals. I hated to scream out the truth to her, but I had to. The truth was told, but unfortunately, there were only four people who knew that secret. I loved her, or at least, that's what I thought.
Do I hate Gaki-san? I don't really hate her.
But, she's my friend too..or was my friend.
I don't want to hold a grudge against either of the two, but I don't know what to do. Besides, Ai-chan wouldn't listen to me anyway.
Where are you when I need you?
I really need to call you.