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Archer1992 : thanks for reading my story and sorry for making you sad huhu, this is chapter 3 update haha
anakpanti : acchan and takamina has own background of what happened in the past, to question how minami turns into kai will be described in the next chapter, acchan go to break up with her because minami dad it’s one of the reasons and acchan has a dark past.
ryuuka : minami changed or disguised will be known on this chapter, yap kojiyuu here but the question is "they are going to be couple"?? hoho... I will make something different here so I hope you're still reading this story , even though you will leave this forum hemm I'm so sad about your decision but I will support you ....I'll be missing you, even if you forget me, even if you dont know me, I'll be waiting for you...
abraci : yap kojiyuu in here haha , I hope you will like their role in this story.
cisda83 : minami dad might be one of the reasons they broke up but there is another reason why atsuko act like that, yuu is his personal doctor also kai/minami bestfriend and for ray hemm she like kai/minami as a lover or just a friend?? you will find soon cisda-san hehe and for a dinner invitation from atsuko will be revealed in chapter 4.
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Chapter 3
They do not love that do not show their love. The course of true love never did run smooth. Love is a familiar. Love is devil. There is no evil angel but Love.
-William Shakespeare-
The pain of love is the pain of being alive. It is a perpetual wound.
-Maureen Duffy-
I should actually hate you
The more I embrace you, it hurts
Altough when morning comes,
I will look for you again
I should actually push it back
This love that can’t be used anymore
Because time will blur us again somehow
I’m sorry that I still think of you, that I still love you
That I won’t be able to completely let you go in the end
Let me love you just for one more day -- this is the lie I say again
But when I see you, I forget about it as I give you a smile
And I fall in love with you again
Let me forget you just for one day – these are words I can’t keep
If I don’t see you, I’ll hurt again, I’ll cry
But I still promise myself
I’m between heaven and hell because of you
I hate myself for becoming more desperate when things go more awry
When was it? When you looked at me and smile?
I’ll smile so you won’t figure out my heart completely
Because I won’t be able to give you this heart in the end
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Atsuko POV
This time maybe all what I wanted in the past finally can be achieved. I became a famous actrees in Japan and even always win the award, I was rich,and had a handsome fiancee. But all I get now is passed in an easy way? The answer is NO ! Since born I grew up from a family that is not harmonious and very poor, even my father leave me and mother just because of money. Yep “money” in here is he was cruel to leave her for a richer woman. From there, I and mother had to go through a lot of suffering just to survive and even as can’t hold all this suffering anymore, mother decide to commit suicide.
After that incident I was determined to become a rich and successful person because with wealth all the happiness is seems to come and also I wanted to revenge for him actions because it makes me loss everything especially my mother.
Day by day I through is like in hell , a lot of questions raised about why God was so cruel to me? Did I ever do anything wrong? Or Since born I received a curse to live like this? But all the anger had stored in my heart and make it reason to stay alive.
Since my mother died, I lived in the orphanage to get a home, school, and eat for free. Fortunately, when I graduated from high school ,I get the highest score even get a scholarship to University of Akihabara and this is where I met someone who was able to change my life to be very happy but at the same time is the saddest moment ,There’s only one person who I’ve hidden in my heart, the person who lives in my tears....
-Present-
[Atsuko apartment]
RINGGGGG..........
"Atsuko handphone rang and she picked up the call immediately.”Hello this is maeda atsuko , ohh ray-san how are you ? there is something you want to talk about?” .
“Hello maeda-san I’m sorry to disturb you , I actually don’t want to say this but maeda-san are you busy right now?” ask ray since meet at the restaurant they became close and exchanged phone number.
“Just relax, you dont disturb me, Today I dont have filming schedule so I’m free , what’s wrong ray-san?” replied atsuko.
“Fortunately, I want to ask for help, today I went to America for a while because I have to work and since yesterday takahashi-san was sick and he didn’t answer my phone . are you able to check on takahashi-san apartment ? I’m worried if him illness get serious and even his personal doctor were to go out of the country. I’m sorry to trouble you.”
“I’ll check takahashi-san, next time dont feel embarrassed if you need help,we friend isn’t it? Haha I’m glad I could help .”
“I’m so thankful maeda-san can help because in Japan takahashi-san has no family and friends so I can only rely on you. Takahashi-san apartment on the 4th floor and door password 2430. Sorry I cant call any longer because my plane will take off , I’ll call back again after I arrived in airport. Once again thank you maeda-san .” ray ended the call.
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Ding.. Dong ...Ding ...Dong....................Tok... Tok... Tok .....
After 10 minutes
“Hemm seems there is not answer from earlier, what if something happens with takahashi-san? Although disrespectful enter someone’s apartment like this but this is for takahashi-san sake.”
[Living Room]
AHHHH takahashi-san are you okay? Why you lay on the floor like this and Urghhh you smell of alcohol. “Hemm honey hic..hic thank you for coming, I’ve been waiting for you, please dont go anymore.” Kai suddenly hugged me very tightly and cried.
“Uhm Takahasi-san you drunk, let me drop you on the bed and you have a high fever, I’ll get you medicine.”
“Arghh my shoulder hurts” Kai cried out in pain as atsuko pull his right shoulder in quite fast.
“ Sorry takahashi-san did you get hurt? Let me see you shoulder maybe I can treat it.” Atsuko panic and when she will open kai shirt, kai immediately stop it by holding atsuko hand then they stare at each other closely, atsuko feel like hypnotized and she knew this gaze because it’s so similiar, kai was still staring at atsuko and suddenly kai grabbed atsuko’s face and kissed her lips, made atsuko eyes widen open and shocked after what had happened, they were both kissing and kai very aggresive toward atsuko and he started to deepen the kiss even more with the high amount of alcohol taste from him lips. Atsuko want to break this kiss but on the other side she feel that she want this kiss for so long and remember this feeling when she was still with mi..na..mi .
Before atsuko could process what happened, all of a sudden she felt a touch on the lips disappeared and when atsuko wake from the confusion, she saw kai fell on the floor and lost consciousness again due to drunk and after that atsuko took him to bedroom .
[6 hours later]
“Urkkk my head!!Damn hangover!! And also my shoulder is hurt ,where is my painkiller??” When about to climb out of bed all of a sudden he saw atsuko asleep beside him.
“Huahhh you....why did you get here?In my room? Dream ! is definitely a dream!! God I know this is a bad dream that always comes but why this time is so real?whether I’m crazy?.
” Kai was screaming and atsuko that was beside him immediate wake up and suddenly sat sideways on the bed, her own body closer to him. “How is it doing anyways?” she inquired with a worry before carrefully covering kai’s forehead with the palm of her hand.
”AH STOP! Please dont get closer, I’m fine maeda-san and how you can get in? “ Kai immediately distanced himself from atsuko.
“your fever’s still high.you really have to rest more takahashi-san and for your question it’s a long story but I’ll shorten it, ray-san called me to check on your situation and give me your password apartment.”
“Aishh ray !!” though kai. Thank you maeda-san for your help but now I’m fine so you can go home, I don’t want to trouble you anymore.”
“It’s okay I’m glad to help you,, hemm takahashi-san there’s something I want to ask , whether you have a family named Takahashi mi....nami?” Atsuko asked with her face down.
“Takahasi minami?? Hemm sorry but it looks like I dont know and have a family with a name like that. Although Japanase descent, since childhood I lived abroad but I am still studying the Japanase language. If may I know who it is minami?”. Kai replied calmly
“Ohh minami ? she’s my friend during in college and I lost contact with her after graduate , your family name is same with minami so I think maybe you have relationship with her, Sorry I have to ask such a thing like that.” Atsuko replied with a bit nervous and remembering the past.
“Did something happen to you at that time? or is there anything else that make you lost contact with her?” Kai’s face atsuko seriously and wait what will she replied.
“Anooo...........me and minami having the fights in the last meeting and after that she disappeared .” Atsuko face looks sad when telling kai about that.
“I hope you can resolve your problem in the past, tskkk women are always scary when she’s angry.” Said kai .“Although women is scary but you still like it right? I can’t guess how many women you’ve been dating hahaha.”
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“Maybe some people will be easily cured when they heart were injured by the woman but to me it looks like I can never recover again.”
“Have you ever been hurt like that takahashi-san? Because it seems you talk like you have been experienced it.” Atsuko asked with curiosity
“Yes, I’ve felt that since I had left by someone I loved at our engagement party. How do you think about that? It breaks your heart to see the one you love is happy with someone else, but it’s more painful to know that the one you love is unhappy with you .” Kai looked atsuko seriously
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“It really hurts when you expected so much more from the person you once loved so much but If the truth was told instead of a lie, then the pain would go away sooner and not hurt as much, So takahashi-san forget who hurt you yesterday, but dont forget who loves you tenderly today.”
“There was no one who would think like that when they are too shocked at what happened and negative questions is come about the reasons why someone might do that cruel thing , right? . Relationships are like glass, sometimes it’s better to leave them broken that try to hurt yourself putting it back together.”
Atsuko POV
Please dont make me remember it again, Too hurt to remember you minami . But that kiss....only you can makes me feel like that . who are you kai?why you kiss me?. Oh My God, I have to stop this mind
Kai POV
Even in this close you can’t recognize me, atsuko? Although I disguise as a man but you don’t feel anything? I dont know why they call it heartbreak, it feels like every part of my body is broken too.
“ Dont Look Back....” though atsuko and kai at the same time
TBC
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for chapter 4, I’m not started writing because there are still many things that need to be done and I'm still shocked for what happen with my favorite author, therefore if you have an idea of what will happen in next chapter please PM me or comment in here and I will make a story out of what you want,,,thank you for reading,commenting,and giving 'thank you' -- I’m appreciate it! Please do keep supporting me (still newbie in here) and special for my silent readers I LOVE YOU.
PS : I will update the story ASAP but I want to view your comment first about this and also sorry for grammar mistake (Ahhh really sad here ...DAMN YOU RYUUKA-SAN !!!!)
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Abraci : Sex? Hahaha it’s not yet for now but I believe you will like this chapter hehe .. thanks for reading my fanfic :)
Archer1992 : Can they be together again? Humm I dont know ... maybe yes, maybe no.. it depends on minami hehe If you want to know , you have to read until the end ... thanks for reading my fanfic :)
Cisda83 : Thank you for always comment and reading my fanfic :) .. do you like the kiss? Maybe you’ll like this new chapter too hehe
Blackwhite : Hey blackwhite-san :) its been a long time we have not chat each other , thanks for reading my fanfic , I hope you’ll like this new chapter
Anakpanti : Wow my favorite writer is still in here , OH MY GOD I’m so happy !! this is a new chapter for you XD I hope you like it.. thanks for reading my fanfic :)
Sydney W : Yeah deep inside atsuko still love minami but her life is so complicated and she have no choice to doing cruel things to minami .. thanks for reading my fanfic :)
Takeshi77 : Thanks for reading my fanfic :).. happy ending?Hmm how about sad ending?HAHA .. your answer will be reveal soon
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Chapter 4
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I live each day without a reason to live
I’m livin because I can’t die
The person who will make me alive again , The person who has made me smile again
Now that person is making me cry
Look at me standing here, can you hear me?
If you look back once, you could see me
Can you hear me? I love you
After a long time, after going far away,you came back
That person is right in front of me and is gesturing to me
My yearning grows and spreads through my heart
I try to hold it in but the words spill out
The words “I love you” is this hard
Can’t you come to me yet?
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“CUT! Okay thanks atsuko, your acting is amazing “said the producer. “its because your guidance producer-san , Arigato” atsuko reply. Finally the shooting schedule for today is finished and I was very tired. I am so tired because last night I could not sleep and the reason is because of the incident with kai always bothered me, maybe today I had hurry to go home and sleep all day. Arriving at the apartement without bath I immediately into the bedroom and lay down on the mattress. When I close my eyes I heard my phone ringing and the person who call me is my fiancee. “ Atsuko are you at home?” “hemm yes I just arrived home” atsuko answer with eyes closed as she was about to go to dreamland. “That’s good you’re at home, I want to ask something can you join me tonight to meet with takahashi-san?” “WHAT? Takahashi-san? Meet with him?” atsuko eyes suddenly opened wide and sleepiness was gone instantly when hearing the name of the owner 5 star hotel. “ Haha from your tone you seem surprised to hear him name, ah did you forget about that we’re going to hold a wedding in there and when I call him to meet for discuss our wedding decorations he said can meet with us today, So I will pick you up at 8 pm ok..bye atsuko love ya” Onoe ended the call.
When evening onoe came to pick me and we also went to the hotel. All road onoe can’t stop talking about marriage stuff and I just reply with a smile because in my head is just about the last meeting scene with takahashi-san. Suddenly I wake up from daydreaming when onoe tapped on the shoulder and say that we’re arrived at the hotel. When we got in the hotel restaurant I had seen takahashi-san sat waiting for us and when onoe call him, our eyes were met and that look was so cold. During dinner was just onoe and takahashi-san were chatting while I just play with food on the plate, as I focus on the food suddenly takahashi-san gave us both gifts, he said that gifts was a wedding gift and he told us to open to see if we like it or not. When I opened the wrapping, takahashi-san’s eyes continued to stare at me.
H-h-how? It’s impossible! My whole body trembled and my eyes fixed on the gift. Different from my situation, onoe seemed happy with the gift that takahasi-san give. The gift from takahashi is the same as the one minami give for me at the time she asked me to marry her and the one who make me cannot move at all and very frightened is a letter in the next gift and the contents of the letter is Do you still remember this?. After reading the letter I immediately looked takahashi-san that he calmly drank champagne and smilling at me. “Maeda-san do you like that?” he’s smirking at me “I’m sorry, excuse me” without answering the question I stood up and went to the bathroom. “
“what does this mean? Who is he? Why he always reminds me to her?” Atsuko murmured “remind to whom maeda-san?” when I turned back takahashi-san was behind me and he walked up getting closer “why did you come in woman bathroom? and who are you?” “huh? What do you mean maeda-san? You already know who I am . The owner of this hotel takahashi kai” Kai replied casually.
“By the way have you forgotten ‘THAT’ gift , maeda-san?” “YOU!! Are you family with minami? Are you her stepbrother ? But it’s still impossible because who knows about the necklace design was just me and her.” “it’s been a long time and nice to meet you again acchan” kai was staring coldly to atsuko. “Acchan? So you’re m-m-minami? For the sake of God please stop joking because this is no longer funny!” when Atsuko walking towards the exit suddenly kai holding her hand.
[Kai POV]
I was immediately hold atsuko hands and pinned atsuko against the wall, our bodies also even touch each other and her lips looked soft , they were as soft as marshmallow . Be seen from the look on her face it looks like she’ll act surprised that I did, but I looked into her eyes and said that when she came to the apartement and when drunk that I remember kissing her and she’s look so hot. When she heard these words, her eyes widened yet still blushing like a tomato and she said that it was an accident and understand my situation when drunken.
I moved my face closer to atsuko ear, whispering that it was not a mistake or accident. slowly I put my hand under atsuko’s chin ,started to move forward nearing her face bit by bit and I kissed her lips gently,atsuko complied and opened her mouth and gave me access to her warm tongue, our soft pink danced together in perfect harmony and I let her continue to control my lips . when she kissed me back, my hand began to stroke her back, moving to her arms, caressing her hair. Now I kiss her cheeks and neck, nibbling on her earlobe. She shuddered and this is a good sign. In the middle our french kiss suddenly she pulled away and slapped my face very hard, she bit her lip and whispered “sorry” after saying that she left the bathroom and leave me alone.
[Atsuko POV]
Atsuko felt all muzy inside. She felt a thrill shoot through her when he said she looked so hot. When kai kissed her like that, like they did in the movies, she weak all over. It made her funny in her stomatch. No, not in her stomach, but down there somewhere. She decided she liked this kissing stuff. When she felt his tongue slip into her mouth, all slippery and smooth, the feeling “down there” got more intense.
I could not believe this !! I was frustrated by now and I’m going crazy because of him !!
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“Hahahahaha...hahaha ah my stomatch hurts, you have to see it in person Ray when I gave it as a gift earlier, her face is very pale and hands shaking like seeing a ghost” after meeting with maeda and return to the apartement, kai contacted ray via skype and tell her about the scene during meeting.
“You look so happy at all kai just like winning a lottery, what would you do next?” asked Ray curious about what the next plan.
“Hemm to next plan I will....BUZZZZZZ” kai phone vibrate and smilling after seeing the name who call on the screen
“Sorry Ray I’ll call again and explain the next plan, now I have important call. Take care of yourself and get back to business in America when there are finished.. Bye Ray” Kai disconnect skype and answering the telephone.
“Hello honey, is it true you will come to Japan tomorrow? Well I’ll pick you up at the airport, I can’t wait to meet up with my beautiful girlfriend. Okay see you later Nyan nyan.. Love you”
The world is telling me to let you go like this but I can’t...Even if I die, if I die, I want you
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TBC
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PS : I will update the story ASAP but I want to view your comment first about this and also sorry for grammar mistake XD