TADADADADADADADAAAAAAAAAA~~~~~NNNNNNNNNNNFinally I finished writing my Omake....thanks to LoyalFlutist-san checking it out (whether it works or not) I have quite a problem writing it out whether it's good enough or not...So if it didn't reach your expectations, gommenasaii~
A little present for Mayuki-fans~
If you all recall it's a scene from Ch.07 of Amnesia
I just feel like I have to draw this no matter what! :3
My drawing is not that awesome...but just feel like wanting to draw it out ><"
For WMatsui....will come soon
(I guess it would be the kissing scene?)
Anyways~ please enjoy the omake!
Amnesia: CH07 Omake ~ History of Matsui Jurina
~XXX~
“You’re going to Tokyo.”
The man replied as the girl’s face frowned with shock. She couldn’t believe what the man was saying. “W-What do you mean?”
“I’m sending you to live with a friend of mine back in high school, he will guarantee your spot in medicine in one of the best universities in Tokyo, but you MUST leave here.”
“…You want me to leave that bad huh, dad?” Jurina glared back at her father whom was sitting at the couch with his wife. “Just say that you didn’t want me to be here.”
“Jurina!!”
He got up and slapped across Jurina’s face and made the girl fell onto the ground. She looked up and saw her father’s angered face. He was extremely pissed with how Jurina was picking a fight with him. “How dare you say something like that to your dad!?”
“Then did you just tell me that I’m leaving to Tokyo today!? TELL ME WHY DAD!” Jurina raised her voice against her dad and it made him angrier as ever but before he could say anything, the daughter continued where she left off. “Especially on the day that Rena-chan has her school fieldtrip. This is all of your plan…isn’t?”
“Stop this nonsense!”
“Dear! Please stop hurting Jurina!” Her mother came in to stop the husband before he would hit Jurina due to anger.
Fortunately, the sound of the car arrived in front of Matsui’s residence caught their attention. Kashiwagi Azuma, an old friend of Jurina’s father finally had arrived at Nagoya in order to come escort Jurina to Tokyo to live with his family instead. Jurina didn’t know what deal that her father made with his friend but she left her house with cold eyes to her father…she wasn’t given a chance to even say any farewell to Rena properly. To Jurina, she felt more of being kicked out from her family than moving over to study at Tokyo…-
A handsome girl was sitting at the back seat silently without uttering a single word throughout the entire ride. She didn’t seem to be in a mood for anything after she just had a boiled argument with her father. Nothing was but silence within the car. As soon as they turned at the corner and arrived in front of this prestigious house the car parked at the entrance. The driver went to open the door for the man and Jurina to get down. The girl had no life in her eyes. It seemed she didn’t have any expectations in anything in her life right now. The maids came to take her luggage in order to put it into her new room.
“Welcome back dad!”
The longhaired raven girl exclaimed energetically as she welcomed her father back home. She was standing alongside with another woman who looked similar to her. “Is it her?”
“Yup~ this is Matsui Jurina that will be living with us from now.” The gentle aura man turned to the quiet girl. “I welcome you to our home, please make yourself at home and I shall introduce you to my family.”
Jurina looked up and saw the raven-haired girl in front of her. She was shocked as she saw an image of her younger sister on that girl. But something was different between both of them. Jurina could say they shared some similar aura. She smiled energetically to her and approached towards Jurina.
“I heard a lot about you from father, I’m Kashiwagi Yuki, you can just call me Yukirin. Nice to meet you Jurina-san.” She extended her hand out and then Jurina took her hand and had a firm handshake.
“Matsui Jurina…nice to meet you.” She looked up to her and could feel the warmth from her smile.
“I’m Kashiwagi Saeko, I’m Yuki’s mother.” She warmly welcomed Jurina to their house. “I’m glad to meet you.”
~XXX~
Every story began right after Jurina had stepped into Kashiwagi’s family.
After left her precious hometown and family behind…
Many things waited for her in Tokyo that would change her life…
…This is Jurina’s History.
~XXX~
“The test score is available online right now. If you have any questions do ask.”
The teacher announced to her students as they all got real tensed. Some were excited, some were depressed, but I don’t seem to care what I got on the test at all. I simply stared out from the window and just waited for her lecture to begin. Right now I’m currently studying in a medicine degree at this prestigious university in Tokyo. After I’ve been reading books whole day whole night…I started to wear glasses these days.
Also…it had been two years since I didn’t contact much with my family as well as…my younger sister.
“Jurina.”
A familiar voice called me and as I turned her eyes met with her closest colleague I had so far in this university. She’s the well-known cyborg girl known to be the ‘ace’ of our year…Watanabe Mayu.
“How’s your test?”
I sighed softly as not much people knew about this, but Mayu was one real competitor that would seem like she’s forcing you to always compete with her in terms of grade…and I’m the victim for that ever since last year.
“You’re so competitive that I couldn’t follow up with you.”
“Well, my life is all about competing. Unfortunately I failed to get a 100. Its just a 98 though…” Mayu sighed with displease. She wasn’t happy to get 98% due to her ridiculous high standards in this degree. Anyone would be screaming and crying with happiness to get that high already. Nothing could satisfy the cyborg girl aside from 100%
“So what’s yours?”
“I’ll check it now then.”
I opened the result page on her phone before showing it to Mayu. It made the cyborg girl slightly surprised as she saw I got 100% on the test. “I guess I won this time.”
“Hehe~ you’re always a best rival I ever wanted to have.”
The mouse smirked with excitement, as I’m the first person that could equally competed with her in terms of knowledge and intelligence. That’s what she told me. She said she got quite attracted to me because of the aura I emitted. I still don’t understand that part but it didn’t really matter now because I’m stuck with her ever since then until now.
“Glad that I’m used to that side of yours already…”
I shrugged my shoulders as the cyborg sat beside me for today’s lecture. Mayu could be extremely annoying but I had to admit that because of the cyborg’s presence it helped make my life have some change in taste and color. I used to get really annoyed at Mayu back in 1st year but we seemed to become closer as ever in their 2nd year.
After the classes were over, I got a message from Yukirin. That’s quite surprising that she told me to meet at the entrance of the university as soon as I could. I wondered what’s so urgent about this. The only time I got a message like this would mean something quite…important. It caught Mayu’s attention and made her questioned my musing face.
“What is it?”
“A text from Yukirin. She came to pick me up so I’ll be leaving early then.”
“Heh, have fun with your girlfriend.” Mayu replied sarcastically and it made me smacked her head softly. “Ow…what was that for?”
“Nothing~ I’m leaving.”
I went out to meet with Yuki at the entrance of her school before Mayu could catch up with me to give her revenge back. From a distance away I could see Yukirin waiting for my arrival in front of this luxurious black car.
“Wow, that was fast?” Yuki was surprised to see me coming out early from my class. But without further ado, we both went inside the car before we could have any further conversations.
“So…is there something?” I asked her and she nodded firmly. Oh dear there’s actually something.
“Yup. Dad asked me to bring you to his office at the hospital.”
Yuki replied and it caught my attention. I couldn’t imagine what would Yuki’s father wanted to meet with me. A part of me was slightly scared since Azuma-san was a man that no one could really tell what he was thinking. “Don’t worry about it! Dad really likes you so he won’t harm you or anything.”
“Haha…thanks Yukirin. I’m just a little nervous. Never I could get used to that.”
I sighed as Yuki leaned against my shoulder and held my hand. It’s quite obvious as we’re couples and even Yuki’s parents accepted that too. They didn’t mind me dating their only beloved daughter but still I couldn’t share the uneasiness of having to confront Yuki’s father at times, especially when I’m alone with him…He can be really scary sometimes.
-
As soon as they arrived at the Hospital owned by Kashiwagi group. Yuki and I headed up to Azuma-san’s office to meet with him immediately. However he seemed to only want to talk to me in person and told Yuki to go wait somewhere else until we’re done with their meeting.
“I’ll go wait for you at the lobby ground then. Text me when you’re done.”
“Alright.” I patted Yuki’s head before she left the room.
Right now it’s only Azuma-san and I in the room. He asked me to sit at the empty chair in front of his table while he was getting out some sort of paper files onto the table. While I was switching my attention between the papers and Azuma-san, I tried to remain as calmed as possible.
“Jurina, you’re already 21 aren’t you?”
“Yes…?” It made me slightly confused and wondering why he would be asking about my age before he passed this paper file to me.
“I guess it’s the time for you to know who are you…”
I took the paper and the first word that struck her was her birth certificate that didn’t have. My name, my birthday, my blood type was indeed accurate but the except my family name. My family name of my birth certificate wasn’t Matsui…but it was Shinoda.
“…I received the permission from your foster parents to tell you the truth.”
Azuma-san continued while I had her mind blown away from seeing my birth certificate. I looked back up with my eyes filled with misbelief. It was something that he expected to see from me. “I know this is surprising…to be kept hidden behind you until now.”
“W-What…is the meaning of this Azuma-san??”
“Your biological mother, Shinoda Mariko…she’s a model. You’re likely to recognize that name didn’t you?”
His words echoed inside my mind. I remembered seeing this famous model of Japan on several TV shows as well as magazines…that woman was Shinoda Mariko and right now I was told that woman was actually her mother!?
“A-Ah…this is just too much for me to process…”
“I understand the feel, do you want to listen to the full version?”
“…Yes.” I tried to remain as calm as I could while listening to what Azuma was telling me.
It was one hell of a story. I didn’t know that my…mom was a closed friend with Shinoda-san back in their high school. Azuma-san wasn’t there to see but he heard the whole story from my mom and dad. About 21 years ago…Shinoda-san suddenly came to visit mom with a baby in her hand…that is me. She couldn't raise that baby because it would ruin her reputation as a model. I’m a child born from her and a movie director she secretly had an affair with. Obviously my mom and dad didn’t want to take me but then because Shinoda-san forced onto them…due to pity my mom had on me, she decided to take me in and raise me as their own daughter. Until now, they hadn’t told me the truth…and finally I learned all of it.
“Back then you were too young to know the truth. The world isn’t much of a beautiful place.” Azuma-san sighed and just waited for me to respond. But obviously how could I respond to that?
Then that means…Rena-chan is not blood-related to me. Then why did dad…have to chase me out? Instead of sadness, a tinge of anger rose within my subconscious. At this point, I couldn’t understand what dad was thinking at all.
“So that’s why I wanted to give you an offer.”
He passed me another paper and it even made me shocked even more. There were too many things gushing into my head today. At first he told me about my birth…and now…an adoption paper into Kashiwagi family. It made me understood immediately what Azuma-san was trying to say. He could tell from my facial expression that I understood the situation very well…
“I talked with your parents already and they allowed you to make the decision…whether you wanted to still be Matsui or become a part of Kashiwagi.”
“…!”
“That’s a part of the reason why they left you with me…they wanted to give you a better future that they couldn’t give to you.”
Azuma-san spoke to me honestly without holding back. But then I could see him sighed softly. “I honestly didn’t agree with them for doing this…but they’re so persisted with it.”
“…” My eyes kept staring on the table and Azuma-san just kept on continuing the talk.
“Take your time to decide it. Since you’re Yuki’s girlfriend…I don’t actually mind if you two decided to tie a knot with your relationship and become a part of Kashiwagi family with us. Yuki seemed pretty much really happy with you too.”
D-Did I misheard what he said!? I shot my head back up again and I couldn’t believe what he said. He gave me the permission to even marry his daughter? Marry to Yukirin? That’s just… T-There’s just too many things happening today now. I don’t know whether it’s a good thing or a bad thing.
“I guess you shouldn’t make Yuki wait any longer. Thank you for coming and do take your time to think about it.”
“H-hai…”
I walked out from the room and my head felt like exploding. I felt like things were getting too far serious than I expected now. I had to go talk to Yukirin about this immediately… I rushed down to the lobby and before I could text her I saw her sitting in the café.
“Oh Jurina! You’re done already?”
“Yeah, we need to talk a little.”
“…?”
We got back home without further ado. I didn’t bring the topic up because the driver would overhear us so I waited until we got back home into my room. I made sure that the door was shut completely so no one would hear us.
“Jurina…what’s a matter? What did dad told you?”
“Well…quite a long story if you don’t mind.”
I slowly told her everything that I learned. About me being the daughter of the famous Japanese model, about given the choice to either be Matsui or Kashiwagi…about Azuma-san given me green flag to marry Yukirin. I could tell she was equally shocked as me. It wasn’t that surprising at all since who would expect that coming? Especially…when Yukirin and I weren’t in a real relationship.
“T-That’s…I-I’m so sorry Jurina!”
“It’s okay, I didn’t expected things to become that serious…” I sighed softly and just seemed to remind myself the purpose I became Yukirin’s girlfriend.
It was for the sake of protecting her from getting engaged to Miyazawa Sae. It was a fake relationship between us. I never thought of Yukirin more than a sister, or a friend, because…it seemed my heart still belonged to someone else. That was one hell crazy day when I went to talk to Azuma-san regarding cancelling Yukirin’s engagement. I’m quite glad that he didn’t kill me and Saeko-san was there to help us as well. That incident end smoothly than I expected it to be. It’s a great news for me, but after Azuma-san gave a green flag to actually marry to Yukirin it’s just…beyond my expectations. It was quite one big tension between us right now and I think I should loosen it up a little…OH RIGHT!
“Yukirin, isn’t your birthday coming up?”
“O-oh! Talking about that…you’re right.”
“Well it’s next week Wednesday…sounds good! My class ends quite early on that day.” I patted her head and hoped that my energetic smile would break the tension down.
“We’ll celebrate it!”
“Aw~ that’s so sweet of you Jurina!”
Yukirin jumped into my arms and hugged me tightly. She could be really childish at times too. That’s her attractive side, but then she left since she had to go finish her assignments. So I’m just resuming my studies but for some reason I couldn’t focus that well at all. My mind was really distracted by the facts that was thrown onto me all of the sudden. It’s just too much for me to actually focus on my studies.
(Jurina: So I’m not a part of Matsui…no wonder they kicked me out like that.)My dark inner thoughts kicked in and made me froze. I denied that I didn’t actually felt like that but I couldn’t shake the fact that…I might felt like that.
(Jurina: But then why…since Rena and I are not related…why did dad shove me out? Why…!?)Suddenly, anger surge through my heart and it’s obvious that I’m angry with dad. He always did something like this and never explained anything to me. In the end it’s Azuma-san that told me the truth. Maybe I should have left Matsui and start a life with Yukirin. She’s a really nice person; maybe being with her might help me forget about…Rena.
~KLANG~
“Huh?”
The odd clashing sound caught my attention. It’s a necklace I brought from Nagoya and that’s…a necklace that Rena-chan gave to me on my 18th birthday before I got kicked out from the house.
“Rena…”
I don’t want to leave her. I miss her. Even though I’m really angry with my dad…but I still love him so much after he’d been raising me for this long without abandoned me. Then it seemed I realize that in the end…I don’t want to abandon the name of Matsui. I’m proud to say I’m Matsui Jurina beyond anything else. Is it a coincidence that this necklace fell because I was have a dilemma about being Matsui or Kashiwagi? Did my thoughts reached Rena in some sort of way? Maybe? Or maybe not? But I hope it did…I wonder what would Rena say to me if she knew about this.
“I guess I can’t abandoned my feelings for you after all…Rena.”
Even after for two years I had this ‘fake’ relationship with Yukirin, I really hope I would change my feelings and forget about her. Yet I failed, and ended up yearn for Rena even more…I’m just a failure sister.
~XXX~
One night, I went to Azuma-san’s room in Kashiwagi’s household. I knocked on the door and he allowed me to enter his room.
“Good evening Azuma-san.”
“Good evening Jurina, is there something you want to talk to me?”
“…Yes.” I replied firmly and as expected, he could tell what I was thinking from my eyes. He asked me to sit down and then he went straight to the point of our conversation.
“So…it seemed you made your decision already am I right?”
“Yes, no matter what…I’m proud of be Matsui. I love my parents, my family, and I’m proud to be their child even though I’m not blood-related to them.”
Azuma-san looked at me and he had a smile of satisfaction across his face. He was really impressed with my answer and told me about how my parents loved me so much even they’re willing to sacrifice everything in order to give me a better future. Even until now…they would always try to send as much money as possible for me without I realizing it at all. It was really shocking to learn about that…it made me even happier that I decided to hold the name Matsui for the rest of my life.
“Well, I’m glad you’re able to give me your answer. By the way…isn’t it Yuki’s birthday tomorrow?”
“Yes.”
“Both Saeko and I will definitely excuse ourselves to come back for her birthday. We missed too much of her birthday already, please do tell her for us.”
He smiled back at me and I’m really happy about it. I’m so happy for Yukirin that her birthday this time, her parents would be there to celebrate with her! It was one of the best news I never expected coming. Oh I just felt so happy for Yukirin!
“That’s amazing! Yukirin will definitely be so happy about it.”
“You think so? I’m glad! Well then I shouldn’t keep you from staying late any further, I hope you have a good sleep Jurina.”
“Thank you, and you too Azuma-san.”
I can’t wait to tell Yukirin tomorrow with such awesome news like this. I could see her screaming and hopping around with utmost excitement. This would be her best birthday ever.
-
Today’s is already Yukirin’s birthday. I did go to buy her birthday present with Mayu’s help for selection. At least she did bought something for Yukirin as well. We came out to Yukirin’s favorite café to have her shortcake after Mayu and I are done with our classes. Since it’s her birthday today, I’m paying it for her.
“Oi, happy 18th birthday. You’re now one more year closer to death.” The cyborg girl stuck her tongue out at Yuki while passing a present box to her.
“Can’t you be anywhere close to stop being sarcastic on my birthday?” Yuki grumbled and snatched it immediately.
“Where’s your gratitude kirin?”
“I’m not a giraffe for god’s sake!” Yuki glared and then Jurina broke the tension for them as she started a whole new topic of the conversation.
“Guys~ let’s order the cake okay?”
Jurina called the waitress over and they ordered their snacks and drinks before both Mayu and Yukirin would continue their debate again. Yukirin knew Mayu beause she dropped by to our place once and she had Azuma-san’s attention as well due to her talents. We spend time together just the three of us before Yukirin and I headed back home together. Mayu is sure really sarcastic with Yukirin…I started to wonder why since she doesn’t usually act like this with others. EH!? Don’t tell me…Uso~! If this is like some actual drama or anime…Oh wow Mayuyu! I don’t know how she usually acted when she’s in love but she’s really sure one HELL tsundere…I wonder what I really think is right or not! If its right, this would be…oh I just reminded myself that Yukirin is my girlfriend. This is becoming one insane love triangle…
“Jurina, I think it’s about time we should go?”
Yukirin nudged me before I glanced at my watch. Oh wow it’s already late 5pm! I agreed with her that we should be heading back soon now. I guess Yukirin’s excited as well since her parents said they would be there for her this time. I turned to Mayu and she seemed to understand before I could even say a word.
“I’ll see you guys next week then.”
“Yeah. I’ll talk to you tomorrow night about our assignment okay?”
“Yeah yeah~”
Mayu shrugged her shoulders and left. She gave me the money but it seemed she gave me more than what she ordered. I looked at her with dumbfounded look while we made a silent eye contact. “Special occasion to pay.”
Then she just walked away. Somehow I had a feeling she’s speaking to me indirectly that she’s willingly to pay half of what Yukirin ordered. Obviously Yukirin didn’t understand Mayu’s communication but I stayed with her long enough to understand how indirect Watanabe could be.
(Jurina: That girl could at least be a little more honest with herself…)“What did she mean?” Yukirin asked but obviously, there’s nothing to stop me from telling her about this.
“Mayu paid for you.” As I expected, Yukirin’s eyes gawked widely with shock as she couldn’t believe that the sarcastic woman would be that generous to her.
“Eh!? No way!”
“That’s Mayu~”
I giggled at Yukirin’s overreacting reaction. As we headed back home I told her how Mayu could be really indirect at times and it would take one hell time to actually get used to her. Obviously Yukirin couldn’t believe that she always seen Mayu as a sarcastic annoying asshole all the time. Maybe at least this might be able to help Yukirin view Mayu in another perspective.
-
As we got home, I could obviously tell how much Yukirin was excited to have her parents come to celebrate with her. Azuma-san told me he would be back around 7pm and right now…its 10 minutes before it hits 7. Yukirin was there staring at the clock patiently in the living room like a little puppy waiting for her master to arrive home any second. I studied a little while waiting for both Yukirin’s parents to arrive home and suddenly my cellphone rang…
~RING~RING~
It’s from Azuma-san. For some reason…why didn’t I felt good about it at all? I picked up the call while Yukirin was looking at me with curiosity. She probably didn’t think that it’s her father that’s calling me.
“Hello? Ah yes she’s here…W-What!? N-No way…!”
Obviously, my thoughts could process what Azuma-san was telling me. The news was just…too shocking for even me to be able to control my emotions. As I kept listening to him I slowly able to grasp my control back, but still my mind was exploded already…
“Y-yes…I understand. ”
Azuma-san hung up the call and Yukirin walked up to me. As expected she had a puzzled look on her face.
“Who’s that?”
“…” My mind wasn’t even ready to utter a word. How am I supposed to tell Yukirin about this? It’s just too much for Yukirin to handle; especially today is her birthday…why does it have to end like this?
“Jurina-chan?”
“Yukirin…we have to head out now.”
“Eh? Why? Both dad and mom are heading back right now aren’t they?”
She asked and I couldn’t hide my dreadful expression, I ignored everything around me and just grabbed her hand. I dragged her out from the house without bringing anything along with us aside from our cellphones. Great that I learned how to drive, so I took one of the cars at the parking lot and drove off to our destination…to the hospital.
“Jurina-chan…what’s wrong? Please tell me.”
Instead of Yukirin furious over me, she was worried about my odd behaviors. I glanced at her and I could only see worries within her beautiful dark orbs. Sometimes at moments like this…I wished she would be raging at me more than worrying about me.
“Yukirin I…please don’t ask anything and just come with me for now.”
“…Okay.”
She listened to me and I drove quickly in order to reach my destination. My heart was trembling and aching badly in order to embrace the truth that Yukirin and I would confront. As soon as we arrived at the familiar building…obviously Yukirin was surprised and got confused about why am I bringing her here.
“E-Eh?”
I didn’t reply anything to her and hurried parking the car before I leaped out immediately. I could see her following me but still with that puzzled look on her face. I held her hand and then walked into the hospital quickly as I could.
“Jurina-chan! Why are we here at dad’s hospital??”
“I-I can’t tell you…!”
“…Jurina!”
Yukirin raised her voice and shook her hand off from mine. Obviously she seemed to reach the peak that she demanded for an answer or else she wouldn’t do as I asked her. The moment I knew she’s unsatisfied was the moment she didn’t call my name with any honorifics anymore.
“Tell me…why are we here?”
“…I can't tell. I’m not in a position to tell you that.”
“TELL ME! You have to tell me Jurina! You knew right?”
“Yes, Jurina knew it but I asked her not to mention of it.” A male’s voice came from behind, as it was Azuma-san in his surgery outfit. He just came out from the surgery room and didn’t change into his normal clothes yet. “…Because I have to tell you directly instead, Yuki.”
“Dad…? What’s going on?”
“Let me take you there…and I’ll explain everything.”
Then we followed Azuma-san up to the ICU center, the intensive care unit center…I knew that the horror was waiting for us. My legs are trembling so badly. It’s not that I’m scared or anything…I’m scared what would Yukirin reacted to this when she’s meeting her mother who’s about to pass away any second from now…or at most, tomorrow morning.
-
I saw tons of wires everywhere and Yukirin’s mother lying on the bed with the ventilator helping her to breath. What would you expect Yukirin to react; obviously she was shocked beyond anything else. I only could stand by her side while Azuma told what actually happened.
He told Yukirin that her mother got into a tragic accident that the bus driver seemed to sleep in and accidently went off its path and crashed the crowd of people walking on the footpath. It was one big tragic and obviously this would definitely go on the newspaper tomorrow… loads of people were terribly injured and right now the hospital was indeed really busy as endless numbers of injured citizens hoarded into the emergency section. Azuma-san wouldn’t expected his own wife to be one of the victims from the tragic bus incident…but what made Yukirin’s mom even worse comparing to others is that she’s shielding herself for this young child beside her. That made the boy unharmed, but she took twice the damage she’s not suppose to have taken…Even though Azuma-san did his very best, he’s isn’t god that could save everyone…Saeko-san might be gone tonight or at most…tomorrow.
“M-Mom…!” Yukirin went to her mom’s side and held her hand tightly. At the least, her mom still had her conscious.
“Yu…ki…”
“Mom! Please! Don’t die!!” Yukirin sobbed very hard and her mom just only smiled at her, patting her head. “Why do you have to be so selfless!?”
“I’m sorry Yuki…”
Her daughter didn’t reply anything only but crying even harder. What could be even worse with her mother getting into an accident on her very birthday? It’s just purely coincidence and I wondered destiny was having fun treating us like this. Yukirin don't deserve this…why does she have to go through this pain?
“Jurina…I have something to talk…to you.”
“H-Huh?” I was surprised, what would Saeko-san wanted to talk to me at this moment?
“Azuma…please…take Yuki out for a minute…”
His wife asked for a favor and he took care of Yuki. Maybe she needed to calm down a little. I could hear Yukirin’s yell from outside, she’s raging at her father…maybe they knew that this is coming and Azuma-san decided to take all the burden with him. I walked up closer to Saeko-san and I held her hand gently.
“Jurina…I know…that Yuki and you are not…together.”
“!?”
I flinched upon words I heard from her. She knew that Yukirin and I aren’t actually having a relationship but how!? We never told anyone about this at all yet how did Yukirin’s mother know about this?
“Azuma and I knew that…but only he thought that you’ll eventually love Yuki in the end…but you didn’t feel like that for her, right?”
She smiled at me as if she’s reading me like a book. She knew that I didn’t love Yukirin in that way. She told me the way I looked at her was just different from how lovers would look at each other. She could tell from my actions…that I already loved someone and it’s not Yukirin. She’s right for everything she said…
“I’m so sorry…and thank you so much for looking after…my dear Yuki.”
“Not at all, Yuki is like a sister to me. I love her, and I care for her…”
“I’m glad…please don’t hurt Yuki more than this…from her eyes, I can tell, she dearly loves you.”
Upon those words, she told me how Yukirin always looked at me with those eyes of those who were in love. I never knew that Yukirin would felt like that towards me and since when she felt like that? I had no clue at all… Saeko-san kept going on, telling me that only I could support Yukirin from now on since she wouldn’t be able to go on any further than that. She pleaded me…to look after Yukirin and take care of her. Obviously how could I refuse that?
“I promise I will protect and look after Yukirin with my life.” I replied and I could see a weak smile from her face.
“Thank you Jurina…please…you have to be happy as well. You’re like a daughter to me…please you must find your own happiness---Ack ack!!”
~BEEP~BEEP~
The alarm from the machine went on and then both Yukirin and Azuma rushed back into the room. There were nurses rushed in to help Azuma-san as Yukirin’s mother’s heart rate was decreasing. It seemed she doesn’t have any time left anymore…
“NO! PLEASE! You can’t die!!!” Yukirin screamed to the top of her lungs and I embraced her from behind. I never seen her cried this hard before and that’s so obvious…
“Yuki…”
Her mother called her name for one last time and it immediately caught Yukirin’s attention. “Be strong…and be happy…I love you.”
That was the last word we heard from Saeko-san…we could hear the long BEEP sound and a straight line across the screen. Obviously both Yukirin and I understand what it meant…right now, Yukirin’s mother had went into a peaceful eternal slumber. I hugged Yukirin tightly and she started to cry on my shoulders. Why does this have to happen? I kept asking myself all the time. Why does these bad lucks have to happen to Yukirin? She never did anything to deserve this at all. I could feel…my tears ran down my cheeks upon the sight of Saeko-san’s death. She cared for me like I’m her daughter…and I saw her like my 2nd mother ever since I moved to Tokyo. To lose her…was like losing someone closed to me.
“Jurina…please…don’t leave me as well!”
Yukirin’s words struck me. She spoke up out of blue but I knew what she meant…This morning I didn’t just told her the news about her parents coming to celebrate with her, I also told her about my decision to remain as Matsui instead of being a part of Kashiwagi. She obviously accepted my decision but at this point…I had learned that Yukirin didn’t wish like that. It all made sense after Saeko-san told me that…Yuki had feelings for me. I understand how she felt…how is that different from me having feelings for Rena? I just felt like I’m seeing myself in Yukirin right now. I wish to remain as Matsui because I still wanted to have something to remind me about my eternal connection with Rena. Even it is just a last name…it still worth something to me.
“Yuki…I promise, I won’t leave you.”
I hugged her tightly and it seemed…I had decided to make one huge decision. I couldn’t leave Yuki like this. I know this is just as ridiculous but this is a decision I made. I can’t leave her just like how she’s now…even it’s going to sacrifice my own personal happiness. It’s the promise I made with Yuki’s mother. I will protect Yukirin and always stay by her side. She just resembled me back then too much. Seeing her right now just reminded how desperate I am to remain at Nagoya because I don’t want to be separated from Rena…she’s no different from me back then, and I don’t want her to experience the same pain as I haunted me until now.
“Azuma-san…I wanted to make some changes with what I told you.”
“Hm…?”
“I…If you don’t mind it, I’ll become part of Kashiwagi.”
I declared firmly out and it made both Kashiwagi turned their full attention to me. Of course they would be and I kept going on to finish where I left of. “Please let me become Kashiwagi Jurina.”
“Are you certain about this? I know this situation right now is dreadful but it could have an impact on your deci---”
“I’m certain and I’m completely aware of the consequences…my decisions could be wrong, but this is what I’ve decided. It’s the promise I made with Saeko-san.”
“I see…I understand.”
Azuma looked at me and he could tell how serious I was. He sighed softly and came in to stroke my head gently. He nodded and accepted my decision. That moment, there’s no turning back. I could feel a tinge of pain aching in my chest since then…the pain that I left Matsui, and left Rena. But I’m willing to sacrifice my own happiness for Yukirin’s. She’s important to me and I couldn’t leave her like that. No matter how hard I tried I couldn’t look at Yukirin as a lover at all…until someone could come fill the hole inside Yuki’s heart, I will always protect her. Even it’s going to be a decade…it’s a promise I made with Saeko-san…
I’m so sorry Rena…I’m so sorry…I’m no longer Matsui Jurina to you anymore. As I’m already…a member of Kashiwagi family.
~XXX~
[Yuki’s POV]
The moment I saw that dead straight line across the screen, my heart sank. I never knew how painful it could be to lose a family member. Now I know how it felt and why they cried so hard…I’m used to seeing that but never could be used to that feeling. I could feel Jurina hugging me tightly and I cried heavily on her shoulders. At least I’m not broke down because I still have Jurina…but she declined to be part of Kashiwagi…it made me upset to know that, maybe I should’ve told her I love her and wanted her to be with me. What should I do…I don’t want Jurina to leave me. I don’t want her to leave me or else I…!
“Jurina…please…don’t leave me as well!”
Words came out from my mouth unintentionally, I was surprised and I knew that’s the most dreadful mistake I could ever make in my life.
“Yuki…I promise, I won’t leave you.”
She replied me and patted my head gently. Her words were like a medicine that would always healed my wounded heart. Jurina’s always so gentle to me, no matter what she would always help me even until now…I couldn’t help but to think I’m just a burden to her.
“Azuma-san…I wanted to make some changes with what I told you. I…If you don’t mind it, I’ll become part of Kashiwagi.”
My eyes grew wide with shock and I swore at that moment, I did stopped crying. Why did Jurina change her decision about that? I swore she told me this morning she decided to remain as Matsui instead. Don’t tell me it’s because I said those selfish words…! Why Jurina? How could you be this selfless…?
“Are you certain about this? I know this situation right now is dreadful but it could have an impact on your deci---”
“I’m certain and I’m completely aware of the consequences…my decisions could be wrong, but this is what I’ve decided. It’s the promise I made with Saeko-san.” Jurina cut off my dad’s sentence and it made him stayed in silence…
“I see…I understand.”
He replied her and accepted her decision. I couldn’t help but to cry but not just from the pain of losing my mom…it’s almost mixed with guilt feelings I had so far. I pushed so many things on Jurina. I forced her to be my girlfriend, I forced her to be together with me, and now I forced her to become a part of Kashiwagi…it’s all because of me. I’m just so disgusting…when I already knew that Jurina’s in love with someone already. Her eyes told me everything…I could see the way she looked at her sister’s picture…she loved her, the girl name Rena. I knew it for all along but I always had faith that one day…she would look at me as a lover. But never it would happen. Even though she would be forever bounded to Kashiwagi family and me…I could never be happy about it. I made Jurina sacrificed her own happiness just because of me. At that moment…I gave up with having Jurina fell in love with me. I just wanted her to be happy…but how could I do it? I’m so weak that I always had to rely on her. How could a weakling like me save her and give happiness back to Jurina?
I’m so sorry…I’m really sorry Jurina…but I promise you. One day…I’ll give your happiness back to you. I’ll repay all the things you’ve given to me. But just for today…right now…let me cry in your arms…
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~OMAKE: END~
Topic: AMNESIA: Chapter 14 ~ [WMatsui + MaYuki]~ (18/12/2015) (Read 111577 times)