I like you already Both because of this fic (TakaGaki what more can you ask for?) and cuz you are a KameMame fan. Bean + turtle FTW seriously Please write more soon, I'll be looking forward to reading
Thanks, and here's the next fic =3
I just kinda came up with this fic when me and my family were driving around and it was sunny (the sun makes me happy
) and I was listening to one of my "thinking" songs and this idea popped up into my head. Anyways, onwards with the story!
Her Final Wish
She was never meant to die, please believe me Gaki-san, it was never part of my plan. My jealously and rage took over me and now, this was the consequence. As you stood over her coffin looking down at her body for the last time in the flesh, the grief on your face was evident. It was almost unbearable to look at. The only person that you ever loved was now gone forever, never to hold you, to laugh with you, to cry with you, or to love you. Every second of my life is now filled with remorse and sadness; I can never forgive myself for what I did to the both of you, ever. Sayumi appeared by my side, our eyes meeting.
“No-one can ever replace her and now she’s gone.”
She walked over to you, pulling you into a hug as she too began to mourn. I felt tears prick at my eyes. Did she think that I didn’t know that? No, she knew perfectly well, she was just trying to confirm it to herself. The distant look in her eyes showed that off.
I stood in the same place, never moving. Many people came and went, each saying their final words to her then respectfully moving out of the way for others. I so desperately wanted to say something to her, but what would I say? Sorry for killing you? I winced. Why did she have to die? Why did she have to be so perfect…for you? I was so jealous that you two were perfect for each other in every single way. I had wished that she had died. I regret for have ever thinking that, for now that she was really gone, nothing will ever be the same again. I cannot bring her back, no matter how hard I wish. I again winced as I heard you whimper out her name. You were one of the people who were hit the hardest by her death. You were one who had shared souls with her and now that she was dead, so was a part of you. Suddenly the words from her will popped into my head; she had left you in my care. I weakly smiled; she was still her same old careless self, even in death. She knew exactly how I felt yet she never once said or did anything against me, even when I was so cruel to her… I felt a lone tear scorch down my cheek. In that one tear all my feelings were packed. I quickly wiped it away; I had to be strong for you, and for her. She always trusted me and I would not let her down.
I slowly began to walk towards you, my legs feeling heavy. With each movement a memory flashed through my head. She really was beautiful. She made both long and short hair look stunning. She made strange outfits look like something from a princess’ wardrobe. I stopped. The room was unusually quiet. Looking around I realised that even former members had come. It seemed like everyone had someone else’s shoulder to cry on. Makoto was clutching onto Yoshizawa’s clothes, tears flowing while Yoshizawa held one arm around her, biting her lip, holding back a torrent of tears. Even some of the first generation had appeared. But Gaki-san, you were the only person who didn’t have a shoulder to lean on anymore, because the one person that you could lean on was no more. I couldn’t let that be anymore. I gently pulled you into a hug and a new bout of tears sprung from your bloodshot eyes. I held you even closer as I felt your body shaking.
“Everyone will miss her; she was one of a kind. I’m sure that she’s going to keep smiling wherever she is, watching over us all,” I said reassuringly into your ear. Somehow it was as if I was reassuring myself because if she was not happy wherever she was then I would never be able to live on.
You looked up into my eyes only for a mere moment, yet it was if I in that small amount of time I had been able to search through your heart because unplanned words just tumbled out of my mouth.
“I won’t ever try again, I promise.”
I wasn’t sure if you heard me but I was sure that she was listening. But it didn’t matter, because what I said was true; I would never try again to make you love me and I would never lose to the monster inside of me. I looked up and past your shoulder to where she lay serenely. I closed my eyes.
“I’m sorry and…goodbye.”------------------------------------------------------------
Was that ok? I hope so, I've re-read this fic like 50 times just to make sure it was good and had no spelling mistakes
I wonder who you thought was narrating and who died... I was thinking of writing a part 2 and it would be from Gaki-san's POV and you would find out who is who, but I'm not sure, what do you guys think? Do you prefer cliff hangers or an answer to your minds?
Let me know