Hello there...I know i really shouldn't be writing this since...... I have not started writing the next chapter for my main story.... but... couldn't help it
Sorry!
I really do have alot of short stories in mind...but the main is keep me from writing them
Anyway.. Here's the first...
It's a little long for a one shot.. but... Enjoy!
Envy Me“Kame... Will you go with me?”
Even though I always hated the reason why you asked me out, nevertheless, I just want to stay by your side… even if I am only a replacement…for now….
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“Hmmm… New perfume… is that
The Beat from
Burberry?” Risa asked while pulling the turtle’s collar to her to get a better smell.
“Arr……Ya… I bought it…ar…yesterday.” With the slightly older girl barely an inch away from her, Eri tried her best not to stutter.
“Good choice… I like it” Risa gave her that bright smile she always loved.
“Let’s go shall we?” Before the older girl could even reply, the turtle was practically dragging her off. Eri knew it all too well. She did not want Risa to notice her probably blushing face now.
Even though the turtle had a crush on her sub-leader since their GakiKame theater days, she never really mentioned anything to the older girl.
Since she was the closest to Risa after Ai, they often spend a lot of time together doing shopping and having frequent stay over. Eri always felt happy to just be with her. Risa was no doubt a great friend, even though they are of the same age, she was always looking out for her regardless of how troublesome she can be sometimes and does not mind putting up with her willfulness too. Eri always find herself being able to be just herself when around the girl.
Slowly, she realized that during her free time, her thoughts would eventually drifts to her. When she was all alone at work or at home, she always wished she was there with her. It was during that day, just like the moment before, Risa pulled her collar to get her closer for a sniff, she found herself blushing madly.
From then on, even a simply smile from the girl will make her heart race. Whenever Risa does or gets something for her, she will no be able to wipe that silly grin off her face. Whenever Risa gets slightly closer to her, she would turn tomato.
On many occasion, she would deliberately be either a willful brat to piss Risa or that sweet child to sugar her up so that she could see many more of her cute expression…and to get more of her attention. And. It always does. No matter what she does, Risa will be there, looking out for her.
Although, Risa had told her many times that she will be there for her if she needs any help, but guessed that Risa says that to all the other member as well. The girl always put others before her. Moreover, how can she tell her something concerning about she herself.
Eri always knew no matter how or what she does, she will never be able to be the first place in Risa’s heart. That special place have and always been reserved for Ai.
Even so, Eri knew there is at least one thing that Risa always does to her which solely belongs to her. Risa had a sharp nose and always been able to differentiate the different type of fragrance.
Since the rest of the members use a single fixed perfume for a long period while Eri loves to change hers every now and then, Risa always had fun guessing them. Even though Risa she herself too always used a fixed flora perfume she always managed to get them right almost every time. Moreover, whenever she does so, Eri was the only one who will receive the collar pulling treatment. Not even Ai gets it. Hence, Eri always make it a point to change her perfume every time they are out.
Many times, she came really close to confessing but always chicken out at the last second. She was afraid the confession might pressurize the girl. She was content with what she can get from the girl...for now. Not wanting to lose this friendship, she tried her best to control those feeling.
Recently, it had been harder and harder to suppress that feeling.
Other then being on the same radio show every week, Risa have been inviting her out more frequent than usual. Risa practically stays at her house almost every weekend, cuddling her to sleep. Eri thought maybe she might stand a chance this time, however, what she found out later only pushes her further into depression.
Ai was going out with Reina.
Since Ai was busy most of the time, so she turns to her more instead.
She hates it whenever Risa asked her out but never have the heart to turn her down.
At least now, the least she can do…is to be with her even though it hurts to be in the position.
“I know you have a hectic schedule this week but… Thanks again for joining me today.” Risa said in a quiet tone.
“Hmm” an acknowledge sound was all Eri could make up.
Currently, they are up on the ferry wheel. This was always the last ride they take before leaving the amusement park.
Usually, Risa would be sitting at a side looking out at the night sky silently while Eri just stares at somewhere close to older girl so as not to get caught.
How captivating the girl is when she is in deep thoughts? Every single time she stares at it… she falls in love with her once again… and it just piles up more and more till she feels this heavy dreadful feeling in her chest every single time when she got over the initial marvel.
“Not you…” That small voice in her head… making her swallow that imagery lump in her throat… and shutting her sense of sight from that angel to forcefully calm her saddening, bleeding heart.
However, today, instead of the usual, Risa sat in between her legs and was leaning back fully on her with her head nestled to her neck. The turtle was so out of it that she just sat stupidly on the seat, not moving until Risa pulled her arms to wrap them around her waist.
She dare not look down. Having Risa so close and having her perfume constantly making its way to her was enough to make her crazy. She was not sure if she was able to hold herself back if she sees what she yearned for so long this close to hers.
It was a silent ride like usual. But this time, awkward silent it is to the turtle. But anyway, she felt relieved that it was so too…in a way… she would not have to embarrass herself to death to muster up something for the girl she was secretly in love with.
When she casually offered to send Risa home, the older girl unexpectedly agreed. Usually, Risa would have insisted on sending her home instead. But anyway, Eri is not going to complain though. It means she gets to spend more time with her and this moment only belongs to her solely as well. Risa was always the one to send Ai home even though she was the younger one.
“Thanks Kame… I guess I’ll be seeing you next week when we’re at Hawaii?” Risa said in yet another quiet tone, all the while still not releasing hers hand.
“Hmm… I’ll see you next week.” Eri was turning to go when she felt a sudden tug on her sleeve.
“Kame… I……” Risa stuttered
“Ya?”
“Arr… Nothing… just want to give you a goodnight kiss.” With that, Risa leans up to the younger girl, kissing her on the cheek.
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Now, on the flight to Hawaii, Eri finally have some time to really settle down for a rest. The poor girl was so busy for the week that she even barely has time to think about anything else. The moment she gets home, it’s just shower and bed. Even if there is, it’s always the kiss that Risa had given her that day. Risa just seems very different that day from usual. Moreover, Risa would drop her a text message every single day to check on her well being. Risa is very caring…but not up till this point.
The younger girl was really getting curious about Risa’s strange behaviors recently. It could not have been because of Ai. She and Reina started dating way back like half a year ago and the girl only acting like this since last few weeks.
Maybe something was troubling the older girl. Eri is determined to help the girl out if needed.
They are currently going to make a new Aloha DVD that just includes the two of them. Risa had already taken an earlier flight over since she has something on up till late afternoon. Eri was kind of surprise that she was chosen for this instead of Ai but she is not complaining. It means more personal time for them together.
After gathering her luggage, Eri turns on her phone and immediately a text message came in.
“Kame, I heard you are on the plane already…Most probably you can’t see this now…but…Hope you have a safe trip. =]”
“Is that supposed to be cursing me or something? T.T ” the turtle replied as she got onto a cab but before even she got the reply, she fell yet into another deep slumber.
The reply never came. Eri was wondering what must have been keeping the girl from doing so. Usually Risa almost immediately replies her.
As she was opening the hotel room door, she heard someone approaching.
“Guess who?” an arm circled her waist and a hand was coving her eyes. It took awhile for Eri to compose herself having that person pressing up against her from the back and not to mention, wearing a bikini too.
“Hmmm……Fat bean bag.”
“MOU~ I’m not fat!” Eri giggled as Risa circled both her arms around her neck from the back and playfully bit her lightly on her shoulder.
Not trusting her voice now, Eri chose to open the door and got into her room, of course dragging along the bean bag that was clutching to her neck.
“I might faint soon.” Eri said jokingly as she places her luggage in the corner. A joke to Risa it may be but she needs to cool down now.
“Don’t worry…I’ll save you.”
“But you are the one causing it.”
“How mean.” Risa pouted as she finally releases the turtle but only moving to the front and hugging her with an arm on her waist and the other around her neck.
“I missed you… Kame” Eri just stood still. Her heart was beating so fast that she was sure the girl would have notice it even if she tried hiding. She really hopes Risa does not raise her head and look at her now. It will be too embarrassing. She is probably blushing more than ever. With Risa wearing this, in their current position and saying sure stuffs is just too much for her little turtle body. Nevertheless, she just returned the hug, but in a more friendly way. It was a little awkward. Risa is really acting very strangely.
Suddenly, Risa shot up and dragged her into the bathroom.
“Bathing time!” Eri just widen her eyes in shock. Once they got into the bath room, Risa started to fill the tub, stripped and got in in one swift move.
Eri just stared stupidly at her feet by the tub side, not daring to take a look at the girl. Even though they had frequent sleep over, they never soaked together. She only turned and focused solely on her face when she felt a tug on her sleeve.
“Join me?” with that pleading look, there was no way Eri was going to reject her even though her system is on the verge of breaking down.
Finally joining the older girl in the tub, Risa pulled her to sit in between her legs before resting her head on her shoulder.
“Hmmmm…
Light Blue from
D&G?”
“Ya… I just got it from the air port.”
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After the final shooting for the day at the beach, Risa suggested going for a walk and so, they are now just leisurely strolling down the endless shoreline as the sun sets across the horizon.
“What are you curious about?”
“Huh?”
“
Curious from
Britney Spears's Elizabeth Arden fragrance series” Both of them were wearing an overlarge shirt but instead for going for the collar, Risa went for her neck for the first time. It was not surprising she is blushing but did not bother to hide it this time. Obviously, Risa is not oblivious of the whole thing. It was quite impossible after the older had kissed her in the tub the day before.
“Arrr……” It is just impossible with her still attached to her neck with her arms loosely wrapped around her. What was she suppose to say? What does she want to hear? Can she finally let out the long overdue confession? Will she accept it?
“I… ar…” she felt one hand leaving her waist to gently hold onto her slightly trembling one.
“Um mmm~?” came the supposedly calming and encouraging prompt but it only made the turtle total lose it to be have it hummed at her neck, shaking her every core.
This was her chance… It’s now or never…
Taking a deep breath, Eri steadied herself. She is finally going to come out of her shell. No more hiding. She can’t be wrong with all the signs…she is confident… but if it is an unexpected rejection, then she will embrace it as well. At least……she tried.
Risa smiled into the healthy pink column when she felt that firm grip from their joined hands.
The older girl reluctantly leans back when she felt the younger cupping her petit face gingerly with her free hand.
The sight of the angelic face along with the amber glow from the sunset was more than enough for Eri to reconfirm and anchor her love for the bean for the final time.
“I…I’m a very… selfish person.”
A nod to continue.
“I…” had her mind set straight it may be, but she can’t help to be nervous.
A reassuring squeeze from their linked hands.
“I want it all… or nothing.”
A mysterious smile.
“Do you understand what I’m saying?” The turtle was on the verge of returning back into her shell. Risa was not showing any obvious sign that she needed. Or maybe, she was just too unsecured to see it.
“I don’t want to be just a replacement…… I am who I am… I’m not her…and I’ll never be like her…… Even if I want to, I can never be… I will not be me anymore..... I’m just usele………”
“I love you.”
“………”
“I love you, Kamei Eri”
“………”
“I, Niigaki Risa love you, Kamei Eri”
“………”
“I love you with all my heart, Eri”
“……………………………………”
“What…… about Ai-ch…” before she could even finish her sentence, a pair of soft lips was pressed onto her in the gentlest way and was slowly answering her doubtful question in the deepest way. Her tears were free flowing but she did not care. She would have thought this was all a dream if not for the firm hold the older had on their connected hand, keeping her soaring heart in place like an anchor to a ship in rough waters.
When it was over, she could only entrust Risa to hold her up as she leans the whole of her weight onto her, nestling her teary face into her neck. Never had she thought that Risa would turn back to look at the one, who was her, that had been behind her all along… and to return the feeling. Never had she dared to dream that Risa would confess to her.
“When…… How…did you find out that I…”
“Had been awhile…but I wanted to make sure that it was real… I’m sorry I took so long…”
“It was worthwhile.” She tears up again.
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“Hey… Isn’t that my perfume?
Sunset Heat from
Escasda” after she had calm down enough, Eri realized that Risa had actually put on one of her favorite scent, which coincidentally went missing a few days before her trip.
“Sorry that I…ar… borrowed it…without your consent” Eri lifted her head to look at the slightly stuttering girl. Yes, she is very curious now.
“I happened to see it on your dressing table in company the other day… and guessed you forgot to bring it home… I was thinking of passing it to you when I see you…But as you know, I wasn’t able to catch you even for a slight moment for the week… Plus I was really missing you horribly…I……Can you stop me now?” Risa was babbling on and on trying to explain herself when she realized the girl had long lose interest in whatever she was saying.
“But it’s cute.”
“It’s embarrassing…” the older girl covered her eyes with her free hand. They still had the other hand linked.
“Thank you…” Eri said as she removed the hand to glaze deeply into those dark chocolate one that she love so.
“I know your perfume was a gift from her and you have been using it since then.” She leans in closer to the slight opened lips.
“You can have my bottle…Don’t worry about restocking it.” Closer.
“……I want to hear it.” Almost there.
“I love you, Niigaki Risa.” Sealed.
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“You’re unexpectedly early! How was the trip?”
“Isn’t it like our usual Aloha DVDs? Ai-chan…You’re so silly.” Ai pouts and smacks her girlfriend lightly on the arm.
“OUCH!”
“Don’t pretend just because there is someone here. It wasn’t that hard!”
“Awwwwwwwww……..!!! Look Eri! Now you see the real her! She is a monster!” Eri could only laugh out loud as she watches her normally calm leader chasing the kitty round and round the empty meeting table.
Like mentioned, she did make an effort to come earlier today. She just wants to see her as soon as possible. Anyway, where is she? She is supposed to be here already.
Eventually, Eri got a little dizzy from all the roundabout. Reina, who was only barely ahead of Ai, let out a loud shriek when Eri hailed her as she zoomed, not very fast, across her. Ai was way too fast to brake and so, the trio ended up being piled together on the ground.
All three groaned as they got up. Reina was the loudest as she got it worst since she was sandwiched.
“Hey… Eri… Is that a new perfume again?” Ai said as she leans in closer to Eri for a sniff and on instinct, Eri was about to move back a little when she felt someone pulled from the back into a protective tight hug.
She doesn’t even need to turn to see who it was. The scent tells it all.
The other two watching them pretty much was looking at each other with a knowing look before turning to them with an arching eyebrow.
As if the single arching eyebrow was not enough, both of them had both their eyebrow arched when her girlfriend move in for a sniff at her neck.
“Hmmmm…
Envy Me from
Gucci… I like it…” The new couple shared a knowing grin.
END
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If you're wondering.. yes... i have all the above perfume
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