HELLO again! I've been floating around reading a few fics here and there
. I'll get around to commenting on them once I've finished posting this here... uh... bunch of words that I hesitate to call a "fic". But here you have it. *hides*
Unwholesome BondThis is the fourth time Maki had cancelled our plans.
You put your all into spending time with that one person.She said she would make it up to me, like she said she would the previous three times.
But that person doesn’t even bother giving you the time of day.I waited and waited, but she never did.
Even when they continue to hurt you… you always run back to them…It was always something along the lines of “I can’t get out of work”.
…Only to be thrown off to the sidelines in a never ending cycle of carelessness. Why does it…
Why does it……hurt so much?
…hurt so much?It wasn’t always like this. When we had a date, she was always there on time. If I had to work overtime, she would stay and wait for me. Had I done something differently, had I tried harder to hold on to her... would we ever have become this screwed up?
*****
Maki had cancelled their plans yet again, promising to make it up to the younger girl another time. Work was always the reason – no – the
excuse used to try and explain why she wasn’t able to follow through.
Maki wanted it to somehow be justified that the reason was work. A fellow H!P girl was involved… that was reason enough that it was indeed work, not play.
“Miki, you
know I had plans today,”
“Yeah… but you
know you like
my plans more…”
That was always Morning Musume’s former leader’s rebuttal. It didn’t matter what Maki had planned to do, nor with whom. Merely by fulfilling her request, Maki had proven that nothing was more important, and that was more than enough encouragement for Miki to continue her untamed ways.
Untamed ways which had Maki pinned against a living room wall. Untamed ways which had Maki gasping for breath. Untamed ways which had Maki writhing uncontrollably.
“Miki, not today,” Maki breathed, forcefully pushing Miki away from herself. Miki narrowed her eyes.
“What are you talking about?”
“I already told you. I had plans today.”
In one swift motion Miki had her former Gomattou member roughly pressed against the wall again.
“Don’t come back to me when that wannabe
yankii tells you to piss off,” words laced with poison were hissed into Maki’s ear before the other body slinked away.
“You’re scared, aren’t you?” Maki turned the tables on Miki and watched as her shoulders visibly tensed up.
“Excuse me?” Miki replied through gritted teeth.
“You want to be with her, but you’re afraid that she’ll just throw you away.”
“Shut up.”
“That’s why you resort to putting your hands down any other girl’s pants you can.”
“Shut up!”
“You’re hurting, so you want everyone else to hurt as well.”
“I said
shut up!!!”
By this time, Miki had turned to face Maki. The girls stood in silence, silently staring each other down.
“Miki, the three of us used to be like
this,” Maki held up two crossed fingers in the air. “I know her almost as well as you do. Talk to her.”
“What would you know? You think just because you have someone now, it gives you the right to preach? How
dare you tell me what to do when you’ve repeatedly come to me instead of
her.”
“There won’t be another time like this. I’m going to her.
For good.”
Miki gave Maki a confused look. She felt like she was losing somebody she had grown close to, even if recent events had somehow twisted that closeness. Why was she still treating her like she always had – a friend – after what Miki had done to her?
“You’re still Miki. Nothing’s going to change that.”
*****
“Reina-chan, here,” Maki said as she handed me a glass of water. I had been coughing pretty badly for the past few minutes. I hated being sick but I think I was coming down with something
“Thanks,” I rasped out gratefully and quickly downed the entire glass. Maki laughed as she took the glass from me, brushing my hand. I felt my face slightly colour. As corny as it sounds, every time she touches me I blush. Every single damn time!
“You know, I have some cough drops in my dressing room. I’ll bring them down to you. Be back in a minute!” Before I could reply Maki flew out the door. I breathed a sigh of relief. Well, I don’t know if it’s possible for someone in the midst of a coughing fit to breathe a sigh of relief, but I guess it was close enough.
The girl drove me insane. I wanted to be near her all the time, yet when I was I became incredibly nervous and shy. I just couldn’t figure her out.
“Got them!” Maki burst through the door, holding up a few packets of cough drops. I reached out my hand for them but she wagged a finger at me. “Nah-uh. I’ve got three flavours. Close your eyes and I’ll put one in your mouth. You have to guess what flavour it is!”
What the hell?! That’s got to be the most ridiculous proposition I’ve ever heard. I told her directly.
“That’s ridiculous!”
“Do it!” Maki said with narrowed eyes with that sexy vixen smirk of hers. That did it. I gulped and nodded my head, closing my eyes.
Next thing I knew wasn’t a cough drop being placed in to my mouth. It was another mouth being placed onto my mouth. I coloured about ten shades of red and pink and my eyes shot open to be greeted with Maki’s closed ones. Damn, she was beautiful! And damn, it was getting hot!
“Hey Reina, guess what I ju – WHY HELLO THERE?!” Risa’s voice bellowed as Maki and I tore apart and very obviously sat as far away from each other as possible. I’m not quite sure how many different shades of red and pink I was by now, but it sure as hell was a lot.
“Uh……………………. Hi?” I was at a loss for any form of communication at this point. I glanced at Maki. She was shifting around uncomfortably and looking very intently at her shoes.
“Um. I just. Well. Nice talking to you. Bye!” And with that Risa had slammed the door shut.
“So…” Maki said as she slid closer to me. I gulped.
“Uh. You’ll get sick. I mean – coughing – me – then you…uh… and then…” I trailed off as Maki put a hand mid-way up my thigh.
“Don’t care. Worth it.”
“I… moo…” I moo?! I FREAKING MOO?! Reina does NOT moo, where as a cow DOES. Was I a cow? NO, so why was I moo-ing?!
“You moo?” Maki tried not to laugh. I was close to having a nervous break down. She couldn’t help it any longer and burst out in hysterical laughter. It wasn’t long before I was laughing too. Damn contagious laughter! After some time we had calmed down and I felt like less of a nervous wreck.
“Reina-chan?”
“Hm?”
“Stay with me.” "...ou listening to me?" Eri's voice makes its way into my thoughts. Woops... I tuned out...
“Sorry… I always call you every time this happens.”
“It’s okay. This is what friends are for, right?” Eri gave me a comforting squeeze on the shoulder.
“Some friend I am. When was the last time I was there for you?”
“Well… there was that time I tripped and skinned my knee.”
“That was three years ago. I gave you a band-aid and chewing gum and told you to get over it.”
“Haha. Yeah I guess, but it doesn’t mean that you haven’t been there for me.”
“Do you think she’ll call?”
“She always does.”
“Do you think she cares?”
“You ask me this every time. The answer is still yes.”
“But – “
“But nothing. We’ve had this conversation more than a million times. I know you two care about each other.
No, I don’t know why she does things like this.
Yes, she’s the world’s biggest idiot for standing you up again.
Yes, you’re just as big an idiot for being so helplessly hung up over her. And finally
no, I don’t think you should give up on her. You chose her so there’s gotta be something that I’m not seeing.”
This has got to be the most dysfunctional relationship to exist. When people hurt you, isn't your natural reaction to stay away from them? I get so angry everytime she bails out on me. Angry to the point of doing violent things to anything that crosses my path. Then why do I keep going back to her? Even after she does all those...
things... Even though she seems eternally "busy with work"... Even when I reach out my hand in search of her and can never find her... The moment she calls asking to see me, I can't get over to her fast enough. I've given her everything possible... and she refuses to open up to me and tell me what's going on. No matter how hard I try, I just can't stay mad at her... as soon as I see her face, I just don't want to believe that it was
her that made me feel that extremity of anger. I sigh. Why am I so hopelessly in love with her? But Eri's right. If I care about her so much, there must have been something there that's missing now... right?
“Eri?”
“Yeah?”
“Thanks.”
Topic: Ramblings of a goosefish (updated 29th july~!) (Read 45567 times)