Hello~
i'm back with another os!
well, actually i've got the idea for this one since last year, but i just finished it a couple days ago :nervous
thank you for your help about the poster, resha! *actually she doesn't had any account here, but, well, just want to thank her again :nervous
i'm sorry if there's any mistakes in this fic, i'm not really good in english
i hope you all like it,
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Two little girl was hid behind a tree. One has a shoulder-length black hair and smile appeared on her face; while another one has a long black hair while her face just faced the ground.
“Keep it as a secret okay!”
“O-Okay, b-but is it alright to tell me your secret, Jurina-sama?”
“Rena-chan, stop calling me too formal like that. We’re friend, there’s no need to be formal in front of me. And then, of course it fine~ but you must keep it as secret!”
“O-Okay then,”
The shoulder-length haired girl brought her face near one of the long haired girl ear,
“I love you, Rena-chan.”
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“Rena! Bring these things to young master room!”
“H-Hai!”
Rena rushed to the kitchen where her mom shout her. For her entire life, she devoted her life for the other Matsui Family. From child, she already become the young master assistant, friend, and maybe the only person that know anything about the young master, except young master’s parents.
But, there’s another one thing about Rena that everyone don't know;
she love the young master.
She never know when is the exact time when she realized that she had that feeling for the young master; Matsui Jurina. But she know, even before 5 years ago, when Jurina said something that shocked her, she already had that feeling.
Jurina once said one thing that maybe the greatest word she ever heard in her life,
“I love you, Rena-chan.”
That word, just simple words. But for Rena, it has many meanings behind that. Even know that maybe it just a friendly love from an 11 years old girl, Rena never cared about it. The most important thing is, she love Jurina, even if the other girl never had an interest to her, it doesn’t matter.
Jurina is an important person in her life. She’s her first bestfriend, the one that know perfectly about her, the one that took her first kiss,
The one that she love deeply.
“Jurina, are you in there?”
“Un, just open the door, I’m not locking it.”
Rena entered Jurina’s room. It’s neat and tidy. Well, of course it is, Jurina is an oujosama. Even if her true self never like a ‘real’ princess, she’s the opposite of it. She’s cheerful, reckless, and childlish. Her parents always tell her to keep her room clean so she wouldn’t bother Rena to clean her room. But even if Jurina already clean her room, Rena will always offer her to just do whatever she liked and let her clean Jurina’s room.
“Ano, my mom told me to bring these cookies to you.”
“Ah, okay, just put it here.”
Rena put down the tray then approached Jurina,
“Have a problem with your homework?”
As usual, when Jurina can’t do her homework, Rena will be always there to teach her. Rena always be the great friend for Jurina.
“Ah, yeah, a little bit. Do you still remember this?”
“Let me see. I think the way is you must multiply it with this, then move it here, and last divided it. Now you get the answer.”
“Ah, thank you Rena.”
Jurina continued her homework while Rena keep watch her. It just in case Jurina will asked her again. It’s already become Rena’s habit to be Jurina’s private teacher. Since she’s one of the smartest person in their school. Yup, they both is in the same school. It’s a prestigious high school. And of course, Rena doesn’t want to bother the Matsui Family to paid for her school, so she took a scholarship test and she made it. And now, she’s on her last year in high school, while Jurina was just start her first year in high school.
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All these day, Rena have thinking about going abroad to study for her college. A prestigious college in U.K already sent her a letter that she got a scholarship in there. Rena was a little bit hesistated to take the offer. She doesn’t want to leave Japan. There’s so many things that she doesn’t want to left. Her parents, the Matsui Family, and of course, Jurina; the one that she loved.
But since a few days ago, Jurina was always advoid Rena. She doesn’t know why, since she thought that she never did anything wrong. And she’ve said sorry to her if she made a mistake to her but Jurina keep being cold and avoid her all the times. At school, and even at house. So she thought maybe Jurina wants to be a little mature person, or maybe she just want to learn to do everything by herself. Rena understand it, but when she asked her about it Jurina just gave her cold shoulder.
So Rena thought that maybe it’s not really a problem to leave Jurina. She already said about her choice to her parents, and they said it’s okay. And today, she decided to talk about it to the Matsui Family.
“Ano, Matsui-sama, t-there’s something that I want to say to you. I-It’s all about the letter.”
Matsui-sama; Jurina’s father took a sip of his coffee and then looked again to Rena.
“Ah, it’s from that college from U.K, right? So, do you already make a decision?”
“I-I think, I’ll took the offer.”
“Ahh, it’s great~ you should do whatever you like in your youth, Rena-chan.”
Rena nooded her head softly,
“You shouldn’t worried about Jurina-chan too much. She can take care of herself.”
Jurina’s mother approached her and then pat her head,
“It’s okay, just think about yourself, ne?”
“Hai.”
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Today was Rena’s graduation day. The last day of her high school day. Actually Rena never cared about the things like that, her life will go on like usual. Except that she will go to U.K to study overseas. Except that she will never hear her mother voice calling her to wake up, her father pat when she did a great things, and look at Jurina’s smile when she’s happy.
Jurina...
She wondered how is she doing now? Jurina, somehow she’s being really far away from Rena. She ignored Rena, never respond to her words, and even went to school early so she wouldn’t go with Rena. It’s not really a matter with Rena, but at least, she want to know her reason why she would do that to her.
The Jurina that she know will never ignored people or advoided them. She will aproached people and make friends with them. But now, it just seems like... It’s not Jurina. She just someone in a figure of Jurina. Someone that Rena doesn’t know.
After doing many things at school, Rena immediately go back to her house; Matsui’s Family house because tomorrow she will go to U.K in the morning. Jurina’s father already helped her to find a mansion for her, and for the payment too. The owner of the mansion is one of Jurina’s father old friend, so he thinks that it’s okay if he’s the one who paid it. He said it because he can paid it whenever he wants since the owner of the mansion is his old friend. It’s a silly reason from him, but Rena knew that it just a joke and he just want to made her believe that it’s really okay. So Rena took the offer.
In front of the house gate, Rena can saw Jurina stood unpatiently while keep looked at her phone a couple times. Deep inside, Rena really want to greet Jurina, but she believe that Jurina will just ignored her. She know that Jurina doesn’t want to talk to her this time. So she just walk passed Jurina without greet her or even looked at her.
“Rena, Hey – W-Wait!” Jurina’s hand immediately took Rena’s arm to hold her after saw Rena walk passed her. Rena was shocked and stuned after heard Jurina’s voice after a long time she ignored her.
“Y-You’re really going to U.K?” Jurina said with a small voice while her face looking to the ground. Rena turned her back then replied Jurina,
“Yeah, I’m going tomorrow, sorry for not telling you this.” Jurina thighted her grip on Rena’s arm. Somehow, as her face still faced the ground, behind her long bangs, her tears starts to flow on her reddened cheeks. She cried silently with Rena keep looking at her. Her hair covered her face so Rena can’t looked to her face clearly.
“I-It’s okay, it was me, I-I’m sorry – “
“No, It’s all good, I-I must go now.”
Rena easing away Jurina’s hand from her arm and starts to walked to the front door. Honestly, she really want to talked more to Jurina, asked her why she ignored her these few months. However, after saw Jurina’s tears flowed, she hold back her words and decided to just leave her. It’s not that she don’t want to calmed her like usual; she just doesn’t want to saw Jurina crying in front of her; just before the day when she will leave Jurina.
Jurina doesn’t want her to leave her.
Jurina never want to be separated with her.
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After a couple minutes crying alone in front of her house gate, Jurina wiped all of her tears and start to walk to her house. She opened the door and immediately went to her room. She ignored everybody that greet her. Her maid, her personal driver, Rena’s parents, and even her mother. She can’t think clearly and she doesn’t want to burst in to tears in front of everyone.
She walked through Rena’s room. Yup, their rooms are beside each other. It’s hard for her to think that Rena will leave her soon, and these few months she always ignored Rena and gave her cold shoulder just because a stupid childlish reason. And fortunately, her mother opened her eyes to stop being like that.
Flashback
“Jurina, you’re being so cold toward Rena-chan lately, is there anything wrong?”
“Nothing, mom.”
“You shouldn’t do it to her. She’s worry about you, you know?”
“I-I know, it just... I want to convince about this feelings. I-I don't want to destroy our friendship just because I’m being selfish.”
“Loving someone is not a selfish thing, Jurina. If you love someone, then just do it. It’s not a problem if the person you loved is not loving you back. At least you’ve tried. And the offer to took a college in U.K, she has decided to took it.”
F. End
Her mother already know about the things between Jurina and Rena. She is Jurina’s number one adviser. And fortunately, she support Jurina to confess her feelings to Rena. But it just Jurina is too stuborn to do it.
She shouldn’t do it at first. She must keep become the cheerful Jurina for Rena. She realized she doesn’t want to be a selfish person, but her way to not to be like that is just so selfish. She just think about herself, she is not thinking about what Rena will feel after she become like that.
It’s painful more to Rena than to her. She wanted to say sorry to Rena, but her ‘sorry’ will never repay her fault to Rena.
“I’m really sorry, Rena.”
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This morning is the last time of Rena be in Japan. In just a few minutes, she will take off to go to U.K. Everyone want to bid of farewell to her. Everybody in the Matsui Family house, except one person; Jurina.
Jurina decided to just be in her room for the rest of the day and pretend to be sick so she can be in her room all day long. It just, looking at Rena’s face will just make her want to stop Rena to go there. And of course she can’t. It’s Rena’s choice so she can’t make her stop all of her dreams just because of her.
As she walked back to her room, she walked through Rena’s room. Since the way to her room is just that, she can’t stop to walked through Rena’s room. Thinking that maybe Rena already took every things on her room, Jurina took a step to the door and opened it slowly.
So Rena doesn’t bring all of her things. Jurina thought while keep walked to the entire room. It’s almost look same like the last time she went there, nothing different particular. But then, her eyes locked on a small picture frame on Rena’s study desk. There’s a short haired girl with her wide smile and her right hand made a ‘peace’ sign and another girl with a long hair and a glasses smiled softly.
Jurina smiled while keep looking to the picture inside the frame. If just people don’t need to grown up and become a child forever, then she doesn’t need to think about love at all. She believed that it will be not this complicated.
But suddenly, she realized that there’s a piece of paper under where the picture frame placed. It writed ‘To Jurina’ on the front of the paper. She took the paper and read it carefully,
Dear Jurina,
Hey, it’s been a long time since we’ve talk to each other, right? You’ve been advoided me for, I don't know, a month? It’s really annoyed me, but I know you had a reason to did that. I understand that you don’t want to talk about it to me. If it was my fault, I’m really sorry. I don't know what is it, but I’m really sorry to make you angry or pissed.
Now, I believe you’ve sneaked to my room and then took the picture frame of us when we just a little kid back there. It’s really nostalgic, right? Seeing your smile there, it always calm me down when I’m mad. And I just want to say that, you can say your problem to me anytime and anywhere. Just depend on me. Don’t just keep it by yourself, okay? I’m your ‘best’ best friend, right? And, it’s bad for your health, you know.
And, one more. I will not help you again, so you must do everything by yourself now. It’s not like I don't want to do it, but how can I help you when I’m already at U.K? but you can call me or mail me just when you miss me, it just if you reaaallyy miss me.
I’m kidding~. You can do it everytime you want to talk to me. If you don't know how to solve your homework, or when you can’t sleep, or even when you’re frustate because something silly. Just like usual days.
Don’t forget about me, ne?
Jaa~
Rena
“You’re so silly, Rena-chan. How can I forget about you.” Jurina’s tears for the nth time flow down to her cheeks. That letter, it made her felt guilty more. She believe that even right now, Rena would still think about her.
If just she’s not like a coward, she will not hurt her more. Rena has been thinking about her alot all these time. Everything that she did until now, is always for the sake of Jurina. Rena always think about Jurina more that anything else, but she always think about her selfish wish.
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1 year later,
Today, Rena doesn’t have any class, or even part time job. It just a day to relaxed on her mansion. Even if she can’t relaxed at all. Since the time she leaved Japan, she can’t stop to thinking about Jurina. Being here doesn’t make she forget about her, but it just made her remember about Jurina more than what she thought.
When she’s eating, take a bath, studying, before sleep and after awake, she can’t stop thinking about that girl named Matsui Jurina. She just realized that the thing that people usually said is true. Love is really stupid and crazy, but even when you know it, you don't want to stop. Even when she’s really hurts because loving Jurina, she never want to stop loving her. When she really want to stop, but she can’t. Deep inside her heart, this feeling can’t stop to grow more and more.
While lied down on her bed, Rena opened her phone.
“Still no message or call from Jurina.” Rena mumbled to herself. All this time, she always waited for the time when Jurina finally called her. But that call never comes. Or maybe, Jurina not read the letter she made a year ago?
“Uhh, I know I shouldn’t just put it on my study desk. I should just gave it to her.” Again, Rena grumbled while her hands start to messing up her hair like she’s been in a mental hospital or something like that.
Should she just go back to Japan on the next holiday to said what she want to say to Jurina a year ago? Well, it’s not like she just want to go back to Japan just because of Jurina; well, maybe yes. But she also miss her parents, the Matsui Family, the maids, the drivers, and everyone on that house.
Yeah, maybe she need...
“TING--!!”
Eh? She thought that there’s no one would visit her... ah, maybe it’s Yamada-san – the mansion owner – she thought again. She rushed to the door and then opened it. But then, the world feels like stopped for a while after she saw the one who stand in front of her mansion door.
It was Jurina.
Jurina looked really different from her last time saw her. She let her hair grow longer, and she curled the tip of her hair. Jurina looked so, mature right now.
After for a long time facing each other face. Jurina seems to be blushed suddenly. She immediately faced the ground after realized that she took a long time to look at Rena’s face. And for Rena, just like Jurina, her face blushed and they both really looked like a red tomato.
“A-Ah, please come in.” Rena invited Jurina to entered her mansion, Jurina just followed what Rena said. After closing the door and put Jurina’s suitcase near the sofa on living room, Rena go back to the front door, but it turn out that Jurina still stood right where she stood before Rena went before,
“I-I, t-there’s something I want to tell you, a-and fortunately you’re here right now. I thought you were on your class or maybe you’re going to your workplace.” Jurina said while shuttering a little bit,
“I – Wait, why are you here? Isn’t tomorrow is the first day to go back to school in Japan? You’re not run from house or something like that, right?” Rena said then she shook Jurina’s shoulder with both of her hands.
“No!” Jurina immediately faced Rena. Her eyes looked really red. Again, she cried. Rena released her hand from Jurina’s shoulders. “It’s because I want to see you so much then I decided to go here.”
“I – after you go away, I-I start to study harder, being a good girl, so I can get an exceleration then I can go here, to see you again. So I can keep being beside you, no matter how hard it is. I just, don't want to lose you again. It’s really hard when you’re not there, Rena. It’s really hurts, when everytime I walked passed your room. It feels so empty when you’re not there.”
“I know I’ve become really selfish back there. Instead of made you happy, I just made it worst. I wan’t to say sorry to you everytime I looked at you, but my apologize for you is worthless than everything you’ve done to me. I keep advoid you even know these feelings, even I know that it’s true, and I can’t hide it anymore. I even don’t have any courage to faced you. All these things – I don't know, Rena! I don't understand it at all! I don't want to just said that it’s something that people usually said about. If it’s not, I-I don't want to hurt you anymore. Y-Your pain because of me, i-it’s enough already.”
Rena wiped Jurina’s tears,
“Then, instead of keep it all by yourself,..” Rena hugged her tightly, “You should just say it to me. It’s okay for me to be hurt, I don't want you hurt either. You’re an important person for me, Jurina. I’ve told you to just tell me everything that bother you, everything, I don't care if it will hurt me or make me happy, everything is fine as long as you’re happy.”
“Rena, I’m so sorry...”
Jurina keep repeated that words as she cried harder. She keep say sorry to Rena, while Rena herself just can say “I’m fine.” or “It’s okay.”
“I know I’ve already become a selfish person, but, R-Rena, this is will be my last selfish wish to you. I’ll not bother you again, but please, let me get my wish.”
“Please let me love you. E-Even if it’s disgusting for a girl to love a girl, but please, let me love you. Just this one, it’s my last thing I want you to let me do it. After it, I’ll go where I can leave you in peaceful for the rest of my life. I promise.”
Jurina released the hug and wiped all her tears. Then she raised her hands to Rena’s cheek, she wiped Rena’s tears away and smiled softly. She took back her suitcase then walked towards the front door,
“You can’t, Jurina. You definitely can’t do it to me.”
Jurina stopped her foot,
“There’s no way you can leave me like that! Why can you become this selfish and stupid?! You weren’t asked about what I feel about you, and, and you just want to go away like that?!”
“I-I wasn’t...”
“And how can you said that I will live in peacefulness if you’re not by my side? Being here, without you near me, I-I can’t stop thinking about you. You don’t know how desperate I am waiting for your call or mail every second in my life. And now, you said that you will go away from me, forever? I prefer die right now than to be seperated with you for the rest of my life.”
Rena approached Jurina slowly and then raised her hand to caressed Jurina’s cheek,
“R-Rena, stop it. I-It will become harder for me to leave you, i-if you’re keep doing this.”
“Then just don’t go! I’ve told you to don’t go!”
“If you keep persistent to be by my side, y-you will hurts again. I-I, i-it’s too hard to hold my feelings for you. Since we were child, I’ve know that there’s something I felt about you. Something... special. B-But then, I realized... I-I love you, and it’s make me confused, is it like what love is like? Or is it just a sister love? If just – “
Rena suddenly sealed Jurina’s lips with hers. There’s nothing to say anymore. If she’s replied her kiss, then Jurina have that feelings to her, but if Jurina doesn’t replied it or pushed her away, then what she felt now is just a sisterly love.
‘Jurina, you love me, right? So please, kiss me.’
Not long after that, Jurina kissed her. It’s a pure kiss. Not passionate, they just put all of their love in that one kiss.
“Sisters wouldn’t do what we just done, Jurina.”
“Then all these time, I really love you. I’m sorry Rena, if just I’m not doubting my feelings towards you...”
“No, don’t say sorry. It’s fine, love takes time, and I don't care if I must wait for you for my entire life.”
Jurina wiped Rena’s tears. She smiled softly then took Rena’s hand,
“Ne, Rena-chan, can we go to your room now?”
Rena immediately blushed after hearing what just Jurina said to her. She can’t stop her pervert thought about Jurina’s demand. While Jurina on the other side grinned then laughed after looked at Rena’s face.
“R-Right now?”
“I mean I don’t know where to stay right now, so maybe I can put my luggage to your room.”
“Mou, you can just said that to me.”
“Hehehe, but we can do it later, don’t worry, I’m all yours.”
Jurina entered Rena’s mansion then winked to Rena at her last word.
“Jurina!”
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