like i'll ever go to Japan? that's another dream that'll never happen. no way i can go
Where there's a will, there's a way.
If you have a dream, chase after it. Why are you being so negative? Find the motivation to make your dreams come true, don't sit around and sulk and wallow in self-pity believing that it can never happen. MAKE it happen, even if it's the last thing you do.
How many people on Earth have made sacrifices to go places, to do things, to realise dreams and play with possibilities???
You should really turn your attitude around. If you've got arms and legs and a heart to follow things through, then go for it. I can't exactly go to Japan right now either, but I'm hopeful that one day I'd be able to go and teach there...
DON'T GIVE UP.