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Kurosawa87: Lol stole what?? Dang it... one pairing down only 3,000,000,000 to go
Hahaha and yeah I have fun doing these experiments. Thank you for reading!
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Quiet-san....
cai-san...
you read it!!! And
Kawaii-san and
rndm-san as well !!!!
Arigato! Hope you enjoyed!
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Hey guys! I'm back with another seed. Seed number 26 is up! Now lets see...it was inspired by Father's day... even if that remark may surprise you as you read. But hey, I've had this on my mind for a while and it was handwritten first so...yeah... I enjoyed writing it (that may surprise you as well after you read it.) So I hope you enjoy yoursel as you read seed number 26! [Oh and I didn't know how to name it so lets put it as Revelations lol]
Revelations“Babe I’m home.”
[…]
Silence was the only thing that replied her as she called her lover’s name. Greeted only by a darkened apartment, she recalled the reason why her only reply that evening was silence. They had fought, and not lightly like other times. This was a serious fight and she knew she had hurt her lover deeply and that angered her. It angered her because her lover was not at fault; it angered her because it was her own reluctance to get closer to the girl what had brought on this fight. Even though it had been two weeks since that incident; the memories from that day were still fresh in her mind.
~Flashback~
“Ok girls, you have a one hour break before rehearsals begins once again so enjoy.”
Ai had addressed the girls after their instructor had left for lunch and soon everyone was grabbing their bags to leave for lunch as well. But Reina was stumped as she looked around the studio’s floor for her seemingly lost bag. She hadn’t lost her bag before and she knew just exactly where she had left it, but in its place her cellphone lied and as she picked it up she noticed there was a new message.
\’Bananas are great…Chocolate is good. If you want to eat your food; search for the magnificent Jun!’ JR11-11/
Giggling at the message, Reina followed the address her banana loving panda had texted her. She wanted to be alone with the girl but she didn’t know that her wishes would be fulfilled so soon. As soon as she got to the Janitor’s room on the eleventh floor at the eleventh door; she felt her heart beating fast from excitement as well as her stomach rumbling in anticipation since she knew her panda was a great cook. Opening the door, she was met with the smell of freshly made ‘yakiniku’ that was served over a candlelit white cloth covered table. Across from her; she saw her lover sitting there smiling in pure delight as she took in Reina’s expression from the small surprise she had made the girl.
“I hope you’re hungry darling.”
“You bet I am.”
It was no wonder that they would wolf down their lunch, since rehearsals were hectic enough that they would be immensely tired and hungry, but after every four-five bites they would look at each other and smile. The love-struck cat looked at her lover and took in each beautiful feature the candles heightened as she ate. Her long dark hair pulled back in a bun, her messy fringe that was slightly stuck on her face because of the previously sweaty activity, her big eyes that only looked at her, and her mouth that had stuck its tongue out at her after the owner had noticed her staring. Jun Jun belonged to her; nobody could be as close as she was to the panda and that’s the way she wanted it forever and ever.
“Reina…if you keep looking at me like that; desert won’t be enough to satisfy me.”
The kitten blushed after Jun’s comment but she knew from previous make-out sessions that the older girl desired her so it didn’t shake her up much. Still, Reina wanted to at least please the girl one way or another so she scooted over towards her until she sat on her lap and brought her arms around the panda’s neck to bring them even closer. Jun knew her lover well and after the kitten sat in her lap she deeply looked into her eyes to see if the girl was wavering in her decision. There was a small exchange between the girls and both relaxed in each other’s arms as permission was granted for a kiss.
A kiss that started slow and tempting with both lovers fully taking in the taste in their mouths. Knowing her girl; Jun let Reina set the pace and she complied with the kitten’s every move. It was a sweet kiss; but slowly the kitten’s tongue shyly poked Jun’s lips and the panda granted the access her lover was asking for. Still slow in their movements; both girls explored each other’s mouth and soon Reina tightened her hold on Jun’s neck as she felt the panda’s arms begin to move from the floor; then towards her hips, her stomach, and finally towards her ribcage. Reina visibly tensed but didn’t break the kiss even if her focus was mostly on her lover’s hands. Jun’s left hand slowly glided down to rest on the kitten’s hip as the panda’s right hand rested on the girl’s ribcage before tightening that hold and bringing her girl closer to her so that she could lay over her.
“Mm…wait…stop.”
Engrossed in the kiss, Jun didn’t hear her lover and thus tried to deepen the kiss but Reina pushed her off as she repeated once again what she had said. Shakily, Reina took the panda’s hands off from her body and slowly stepped down from her lap as she sat across from Jun once again. The panda was quite irked but Reina was more focused in calming herself rather than explaining the reason for stopping so she didn’t notice when Jun had gotten up and turned on the lights before blowing the candles out.
“Jun…”
“It’s ok. No need to explain.”
“No but Jun… don’t be mad.”
Jun looked at the girl right in the eyes and Reina couldn’t imagine what the panda was thinking nor predict her next moves. But Reina gasped and her eyes widened when her lover had made a move towards her to hold her by her midsection and bring her closer to taste her lips once again. Unlike their previous kiss; this one was rough… desperate. Coupled with Jun’s pleading eyes; Reina began to tremble under the girl’s presence and she felt her lover break their kiss but stay close enough to feel the vibrations of her voice on her lips as she whispered.
“How can I not be mad Reina…when I can’t even touch my girlfriend without being rejected and pushed away by her?”
“…”
That silence angered Jun even more and she proceeded to claim the lips of the girl in front of her once again. She held the squirming Reina in place and wouldn’t let go even after hearing the girl’s whimpers. Still, the panda knew that what she was doing wasn’t right so she ceased her actions and broke the kiss. She was truly sorry for her actions and couldn’t believe that she could be able to almost force her girlfriend to kiss her against her will. But what she saw in her lover’s eyes was something she had never seen before: Reina was hurt by her actions…deeply hurt.
“Reina…I’m so sor-”
*Smack*
“Oww…Reina…wait! Hold on!”
She ran away as fast as she could. Away from her lover’s voice desperately calling her name and begging her to stop. But the pain in her heart grew more and more as those desperate yells resounded in her name. By now she was crying and running through the unforgiving rain that had befallen Tokyo that afternoon; her thoughts still on her pleading lover back at the dance studio.
‘I’m sorry…it’s not you…it’s me! You’ll only end up getting hurt Jun…’
Her running had ceased by now due to fatigue but she still walked under the rain as the drops stabbed her shoulders after each step she took. The smell of freshly made bread caught her attention and she slowly turned into the direction the smell came from and walked to get face to face with the front of the bakery’s window. Amidst all that pain she was feeling, a smile began to grace her lips as she saw a young girl take a bite out of a freshly made loaf of sweet bread. She remembers clearly how she used to save money each day to go at least once a week to eat something from the local bakery back at Fukuoka, and seeing that this newer generation was able to have this small delight put her heart at a small ease.
But after a couple of seconds she saw that the girl had been called by someone and she had replied with her brightest smile. Curious as to who may have called the child she saw a man in his 30’s walk up to her with open arms that were soon filled with the girls small body as she eagerly hugged him and called him ‘Papa’. He was smiling proudly at his child and both shared an honest hug before they felt a third person’s stare as they embraced each other. But when they looked over the window of the bakery only the rain greeted them.
‘Why wasn’t my Papa like…’
~End Flashback~Her memories had triggered yet another round of tears to fall from her eyes and soak not only her cheeks but the armrest of her apartment’s sofa. Grateful that both her mother and brother were out for the day; she released mournful cries that were muffled by the cushions on that sofa. Heartbroken, empty and alone; that’s how she found herself that evening… Plagued by guilt from the actions she had taken that afternoon two weeks ago and scarred for life because of events she was powerless against. She didn’t know how much time had passed whilst she was in that position but neither her mother nor brother had returned home and the sun had already settled for the day.
‘It’s been a long day Reina… you need a shower.’Agreeing to her mind’s request; her tired body slowly stood from the sofa and trudged towards her room to take some pieces of clothing with her to the bathroom. In her bedroom; she took in all of the pictures that evidenced just how far she had gotten in that relationship she held with her loved one. Her first real relationship…her first true love…but still she felt guilty that she had hurt that special person in such a way when she didn’t even deserve it. Taking her clothing, she went towards the bathroom and stripped off that earthly mantle that covers her frail body marked by years of falsely professed love. Without wasting time she turned on her shower with a warm setting and stepped into it to stand under the falling drops she secretly hoped would cleanse all her worries. Muscles relaxing from the warmth, deep breaths exhaled in an attempt for relaxation, and closed eyes that earnestly tried to get the images from her past away from her vision. She took the soap that lay beside her and began to lather her body and cleanse herself when suddenly her hands came to a stop at a specific spot over her left ribcage.
{“Farmers, slave owners, even normal people like me…we all have something in common and do you know what it is?”
A man said as he turned his cigarette in his finger whilst smugly smiling. He then glanced at the girl on the floor before eyeing his cigarette once again.
“They all put marks on what belongs to them. A brand so to speak… And after their belongings were branded they would have ownership that lasted until death did them part.”
He began to laugh out loud and demanded that the woman who aguishly cried by his side ceased her bawling since he knew the little girl wouldn’t remember this in the future. He then took one last look at the little girl who was clutching her left side with fury filled eyes that met his gaze; and smoked out a puff of his cigarette before deviously smiling in accomplishment.}Trembling under the shower, she traced her fingers over the imprint on her left ribcage and her anger boiled once again. Before she could explode; she decided to get out of the shower and head into the living room to try and at least watch the program broadcasted at that hour. Not even 15 minutes had passed after she was seated on the couch in front of the T.V when her doorbell suddenly rang. Looking over the clock under her T.V she noticed that it was still early for her mother and brother to come home and they had keys so they wouldn’t need to ring the doorbell. Standing from the couch she went over to see who was visiting at that hour and her shocked gasped couldn’t be hidden after she saw who was at the door.
“Jun Jun…”
“Good afternoon…we seriously need to talk.”
Reina hesitantly stepped to the side to grant her visitor entrance to her apartment. Jun was cold in her actions… border lining plain rude… but Reina knew that she deserved much worse after what she had done so she just motioned for them to sit over at the couch. The panda hadn’t looked her in the eye at all ever since she had gotten to the kitten’s apartment five minutes ago and the silence was beginning to stab at both their hearts so they decided to speak.
“I’m sorry.”
“No…Reina…I shouldn’t have forced you…I’m the one who’s sorry.”
“I shouldn’t have slapped you Jun…you’re right…I’m always so closed off you can never…you can’t…”
Reina began to tear up once again but Jun Jun got closer to her and gently wiped the small tears that had begun to fall from the kitten’s eyes. Afraid that if she kissed the kitten’s lips everything would worsen; Jun Jun opted to kiss her lover’s forehead instead as she shushed her. Holding each other’s hands; they looked into their eyes and tried to show their most honest expressions and feelings of love. The panda, trying to get over this bump in their relationship and bring some happiness back into the kitten’s eyes, stood up and asked Reina to get dressed because they were going to the cinema for an impromptu date. Reina looked at her lover and slowly nodded her head to the panda’s request since she shared the girl’s wish to try and progress in their relationship. As she got herself dressed, she eyed the scar on her left ribcage but a soft touch over it, from the quiet panda that had silently followed her to the bedroom, prompted a whimper to escape her lips.
{“No…please stop…”
Reina begged almost inaudibly against the lips that furiously attacked her mouth. The hold on her hands tightened and her tears escaped as her body kept receiving the unwanted contact. She squirmed and pushed off the weight that straddled her but it was effortless. Then she felt fingers trace over the mark on her left ribcage and her naked and frail body trembled at the rough touch.
“You see this spot over here? This says you’re my property and I can do with you as I please so stop resisting.”
She looked into unwelcoming eyes and felt like prey to this abusive beast. The tears that kept falling never once helped her blur the face of the demon that held her in his grasp but she tightly shut her eyes when she felt something harshly poking between her thighs to gain access.}“Reina are you ok?”
The kitten took quick and shallow breaths as she was pulled from her memories by her lover. Jun, who was holding her hands in deep concern, looked into Reina’s eyes and searched for something wrong with her girlfriend. Reina was trembling, her heart was racing and tears were beginning to fall from her eyes. Her lover shook her by the shoulders and when the kitten looked into her eyes she could only see the face of the demon that tormented her in the past. Jun could clearly see the suddenly frightened face of her lover and she couldn’t understand what had brought on this pained and scarred expression from Reina so she unconsciously tightened her hold on the kitten. After the hold on her shoulders tightened; Reina began to panic and her shortness of breath was evident to the panda who, after noticing her actions, tried to soothe her in any way she could. But this was too much for Reina and suddenly she fainted.
“Woah Reina! Reina!”
{“No…please stop…”
“Stop? Why? You belong to me.”
A continuous and desperate sob could be heard all around the room as the subdued earnestly tried to free herself from the aggressive hands that touched her all along. She continued to move around trying to escape but she was strongly held in place and the person that straddled her kept marking her body with ferocious bites. Amidst her sobs, the room was filled with the crackling from the fireplace next to them that continued to do its job to warm up the ambience in that cold and unwelcoming room without being disturbed by its occupants.
“You won’t ever leave my side. That, I promise… Even if you do manage to escape; this mark I’ll leave will remind everyone that you only belong to me.”
The person kept biting under her left breast as if to mark the place but she saw an arm reach over to the fireplace and take a hold of a metal rod that, unbeknownst to her, was warming up until now. The lips that were previously biting her; separated from her left side and took ahold of her lips for a second before breaking the kiss and licking her lips one last time.
“Remember this day as the day you shall never leave my side.”
A scream echoed aloud as she felt her skin burning off by the metal rod the person had taken from the fire and placed over her left ribcage. She was tightly held in place as the excruciating pain enveloped her whole body and the smell of burnt skin filled the air. Her thoughts were blank; only focusing on the pain that the rod was bringing her, but the clear sizzle her skin made as it burnt was music to the ears of her perpetrator who imitated its sound and giggled. The torture had already taken her voice hostage and only her tears were left to fall all over her pain contoured expression. And after what seemed like an eternity; the person slowly took away the rod from the now burnt skin and saw how the burn mark adjusted to its new home and revealed its complete form. She opened her tired eyes with much difficulty after being so tightly shut due to the burn and saw the lioness that hovers over her smugly smile and stare at the new artwork imprinted over her small and frail body before sweetly going down and placing a tender kiss over it.
“Now, you belong to me…only me Jun.”
“Why…Reina…why?”}Gasping, Reina jerked up in her bed clutching her left side as the nightmare had woken her up. Sweat was falling from her brow and she proceeded to hold her chest to try and calm her fast beating heart. But the desperation brought on by that nightmare nulled her attempts to calm herself and she kept thinking about what she had just seen; her lover…marked by her own hands… forced by her own selfishness. She couldn’t bear to see her lover as the submissive prey she was under her hands, so she had decided to try and prevent that from happening in any way she could.
‘Jun… if we stay together… I’ll only end up hurting you…’Looking around her room in search for the panda; she came face to face with her lover who was silently staring at her and drinking a glass of water. Jun’s eyes were filled with tears and her whole being tried to mask her brokenhearted expression to no avail. Reina, after seeing her lover defeated, began to bawl over the knees that were right now close to her chest. It was too late; she did what had been done to her in the past…she broke her…the person she loves the most…she marked her. Jun felt defeated since she couldn’t do what she had promised herself: protect Reina no matter what.
“Reina…”
After being so long with the kitten; she knew there was something obscure that she hadn’t been told, yet she didn’t pry into her lover’s life to lean what it was. Still; while Reina was unconscious she kept mumbling as she tossed and turned…mumbling something that to anyone who was close enough to hear was horrible. Her sobs as she kept on mumbling:
‘Papa… itai…yamete…yamete kudasai…please stop, Papa…please… it hurts…’ kept on repeating itself in the panda’s mind but still she decided to try and mend this broken girl in front of her any way she could so she slowly stood and began to approach Reina.
‘I need some answers Reina…I’m not going to let you suffer alone anymore.’Sitting on the bed, Jun dried her tears and walked towards the kitten before softly placing her hand over the girl’s shoulder as she held her knees and quietly sobbed. The gentle touch quickly caught the kitten’s attention who in turn gasped as she looked at the panda who was sitting in front of her with clear concern. Jun was trembling…it was a slight tremble but Reina felt her lover’s nervousness as she tried to voice out her request. After a couple of minutes like that, the hold on the kitten’s hand shoulder and Jun fixed her gaze to stare at the girl’s eyes.
“Reina…It’s not easy for me to ask you this and… and I know it will be even harder for you to answer me but… I need to know.”
She nodded at her girlfriend’s request and both deeply sighed as they prepared themselves. Reina knew this was about her past and about the reason why she never gets closer to Jun. Yet since she has never told anyone about this, not even her mother, she was quite afraid to voice out her story for the first time in her life. She thought for a second on how to begin this since she knew that after she began there was no turning back…but she also knew that after she told Jun; the possibility of being left behind by her was very high.
“That scar on your side…your frightened eyes as you gazed into mine…how you never let me touch you…and the way you kept on pleading to your father to stop. Reina; you told me your dad used to hit you when you were young but…it’s more than that isn’t it?”
This was it; Jun hit the nail on the head and was now asking her lover for an explanation. Reina swallowed hard as she prepared herself to answer but when she tried to begin no words would come out of her mouth. She didn’t even notice but she had begun to tremble and take shaky breaths before nodding to her girlfriend’s question.
“Reina…you can’t keep all of this bottled up inside you forever. I’m here…I’ll listen…so please tell me. I can’t help you if you don’t.”
At the panda’s words Reina took a deep breath and mustered up what little courage she had to begin and tell her girlfriend the whole story…her whole story. As she began, she couldn’t bear to look at Jun in the eyes so she looked to the side and spoke. Soon enough, memories from the kitten’s childhood began to be recalled and told to her lover who listened intently.
~Flashback~
“Reina, come here!”
A man called for his five year old daughter to come meet him in the living room of their big house. He was resting for the day since he usually works the night shift and taking advantage of the fact his wife had gone out of the home to her own job; he decided to enjoy his time with his precious daughter.
“I’m here Papa!”
The small curly haired girl excitedly ran towards the living room and into the arms of her father. She gleefully laughed as he tickled her sides and she hugged his big head and enjoyed the scent her dear father expelled. She playfully screamed as he began to softly bite her round cheeks and ears before laughing along with her. After their small game he put her down in front of him and she looked at his expression with her innocent wonky eyes.
“I’m bored Reina-chan, Mama left for work so now it’s the two of us. How about we play a game? You are learning how to read in school right?”
The little kitty nodded her head from excitement over playing a game with her loving father that involves one of her favorite activities: reading. He showed a sly smile, which in his daughter’s innocent eyes looked as excited as hers, and began to explain the rules. He picked up a notepad that was set over the coffee table by his side and addressed his daughter once again.
“I’ll write some words here for you to read and give you a reward for each word you read correctly. If you can read it: I will give you a kiss, but if you can’t read it: you have to take a piece of clothing off. Do you understand Reina-chan? Want to play?”
Reina nodded and bounced around as she waited for her beloved father to begin writing words on the notepad for her to read. In her young and chaste mind she kept telling herself to get them all right so she could be showered by sweet kisses from her Papa even if her dear father had rather obscure plans. Soon enough the game began and she successfully read three of the words her father had given her. His kisses were soft against her skin and his stubble made her giggle from the ticklish sensation but as soon as she laughed his tongue traced the spot he had kissed. He kept on writing on the notepad after his daughter read the words and soon enough began to alternate between words he knew she could read with those he knew she clearly couldn’t thus varying the game between kisses and pieces of clothing being discarded from the young girl’s body.
“Can you read this Reina-chan?”
‘触れる’
“To…touch…?”
She shivered as he nodded and began to place a kiss over her naked chest before softly sucking on it. Completely naked to his eyes, the girl began to feel uncomfortable under his touch and tremble each time his rough hands felt around her body. He quickly noticed and shushed the girl that was beginning to get frightened before he kissed her on the forehead and sweetly smiled at her. She was beginning to get tired from this scary game but the smile that laced her father’s lips was enough to convince her to keep playing.
‘Papa…he never smiles like this…I want that smile to be mine…’
After another round of words that were both correctly and incorrectly read, Reina found her naked self cradled in her father’s arms as he trailed gentle kissed from her stomach all the way to her forehead. After he reached his daughter’s forehead he eyed the clock that hangs on the wall across from the sofa and placed the girl gently on the floor as he straightened his clothing and cleared his throat. Reina knew the game was over and she slowly began to pick up her clothes from around the living room as he smiled in pure satisfaction. He then gently helped his daughter get dressed as he told her that the girl’s mother would be home from work in a couple of minutes and the girl diligently obeyed him and let herself be dressed by his now soft working hands. He kissed her forehead once again after she was fully clothed and took her by the shoulders before speaking directly at her.
“Reina-chan, this is our special game ok? So let’s keep it a secret from mommy or she’ll get jealous. I love you very much sweetie.”
Reina nodded at his words and she imitated his playful sign by putting her finger on top of her sealed lips before smiling at him. She then proceeded to sit beside him on the couch and began to watch the program he was previously watching on T.V right before the front door opened revealing the matriarch of the home. The young girl smiled as their parents shared a loving kiss after they greeted each other and in her mind decided to keep the secret game she had with her father as that: a secret.
‘I love Papa very much. This is our secret because he loves me as well.’
~End flashback~The smaller of the two girls was crying by now and Jun only managed to sharply exhale the breath she had held on for who knows how long. Her mind was soon filled with thoughts of hatred towards this man she hadn’t even met. To have touched his daughter at such a young age was despicable and unimaginable to the panda whose parents couldn’t be more caring and loving than they were. She looked over at her girlfriend who was trembling and aguishly crying as she told her story. Still, Jun sat by her side, keeping a safe distance so as to not scare the girl and patiently waited for Reina to continue…but she wasn’t prepared for the startling confession that came from the kitten’s lips.
“That’s only the beginning Jun…from there on it got worse…”
“Reina…”
The girl took another shaky breath as she prepared herself to continue. Her hands no longer held Jun’s and her hold on the bed sheets tightened as her fury filled voice resounded in the room.
“When I was seven…Papa branded me with his cigarette. I was taking a shower when suddenly Mama entered the bathroom and saw me. I had begun to take showers alone when Papa and I began to play our game, since Papa wanted me to keep the spots left by his mouth a secret as well, and she found that strange so she went into the bathroom to find out what was going on with my reluctance to bathe with her. When she saw my body…her eyes widened and a horrified look covered her face as she studied every mark on it. She then slammed the door shut and began to scream at my father. I remember touching every hickey and asking myself if these marks Papa left after each of our games was wrong… I remember the feeling of disappointing Mama by keeping this a secret from her but…I loved Papa’s smile too much to let it fade by revealing our secret.”
Jun looked at Reina as she listened to the kitten’s story and she tried to hide her shock when she began to do the math of the girl’s age when that incident had happened. She was quite sure but she didn’t know how to ask and she began to fidget. Reina, in the midst of her tears, noticed Jun’s hesitation and looked at her to try and let her spit out what she was thinking. Jun noticed her lover’s stare and asked the question that was nagging at her.
“But Reina…wasn’t your mom pregnant with you brother when you were seven?”
Reina nodded and her eyes soon filled up with the utmost feelings of wrath a human could manage. It was wrath brought upon pain but she was feeling it as if it was happening once again. The memories of that evening were crystal clear and she looked to the side as angry tears fell from her eyes.
“That’s the reason I had actually gotten out of the bathroom. I could hear the clear yelling from both my parents but in the midst of that yelling; I heard my mother scream after a slap resounded. My father yelled at her some more and I just ran from the bathroom towards the living room where I saw her on the floor crying her eyes out and clutching her stomach as blood dripped from her lip. I truly felt the desire to just murder him right there…he hurt Mama… he hit her knowing how delicate she was at the time…he hit her and grinned. He was satisfied he hit her and even more so when I yelled as well. He then faced me and ran towards me putting my hands over my head before placing his cigarette over my left side. He didn’t even hesitate Jun… he just placed it there…the pain was unbearable but the look in his eyes as he branded me was even worse. My mind was blank but my mother’s scream as he did that was clear and right after; he threw me across the room. I still have dreams about that night Jun… he brands me and then throws me aside after giving explanations about what the brand means… Even though it’s a small thing…it’s the thing that reminds me the most of him and of these events.”
Jun processed all of this in her mind as Reina kept on telling her about the experience. If it was hard for her, she couldn’t even imagine how hard it was for Reina to tell her about it. Jun kept asking herself how could Reina bear this all on her own for all of these years and still live a somewhat normal life. Her thoughts revolved around her lover and she clearly understood the reason Reina didn’t like being touched in any way. But the kitten’s next action brought a gasp from her as Reina slowly lifted her shirt, took Jun’s hand in hers and placed it over the scar so that the panda could touch it. Both were trembling but this small touch brought them closer than ever and suddenly Jun remembered the fact that this scar was acquired when Reina was seven.
“But Reina…if he did that when you were seven…that means there’s more right? You left for Tokyo when you were twelve didn’t you?”
Reina put Jun’s arm by her side but never let go of it and nodded her head since Jun Jun was right. Jun shifted on the bed and looked over at Reina once again as she waited for the kitten to continue. She didn’t think it could get worse but the words spoken by the kitten caught the panda off guard.
“When…when I turned nine…Papa took his perverted game a step further and he… he began to-“
The kitten began to wail as she tried to tell Jun what happened and the panda could only do what she knew best. She took the kitten into her arms and let her cry out her suffering. The small and frail girl that clung to her as if her life depended on it didn’t notice the panda shuffling on the bed to rest her back on the headrest and hold her tighter than before. Jun didn’t pressure her to speak; she just held her close to her chest and let her be. But Reina, after a couple of minutes, spoke again.
~Flashback~
The man kept on writing the numbers his calculator gave him as he did the math whilst doing the bills. His unsatisfied face didn’t go unnoticed to his wife, who was taking glances every now and then as she cooked him a meal. He grumbled each time an unwanted sum came up but he still wrote the number down and balanced his checkbook. As he kept on doing the math a strong cry came from one of the bedrooms and prompted him to lose count of what he was doing which in turn made him throw his calculator at the wife.
“Damn it woman! Keep that child quiet or I will!”
The mother, after having been thrown the calculator in her face, ran towards the room where the baby was crying and desperately tried to shush his cries. A tear ran down her cheeks as she cradled her son calming him down and a bruise was beginning to form in her forehead from the previously thrown calculator. Soon; silence could be heard once again in the home before being broken by Reina who opened the front door and announced her arrival from school with a monotone ‘Tadaima’.
“Okaeri, Reina.”
After her father recognized her arrival, Reina hurriedly went towards the stairs to go into her room but she was stopped by her father’s voice. He had put his papers aside and taken off his glasses to look at his daughter.
“Shower, then come to my room.”
He then picked up everything and proceeded to go to his room where he waited for his daughter to finish. It wasn’t long before Reina came into the room because she knew her father hated waiting for her so she took a quick bath and met him there. She slowly walked towards him after he beckoned for her to come closer.
“I truly love the smell of your body freshly showered.”
The man smelt Reina’s shoulders as he kept taking off every piece of clothing from her body and kissing the exposed skin. The nine-year-old sat on the bed as her father kept undressing her and the only thing that kept going through her mind was that she was the one receiving all his ‘love’ and not her mother or little brother and that thought was enough to give her the strength to endure this. Then; the man took off her underwear, grabbed her small hips and brought her closer to him to put his lips on her underdeveloped mounds to suck and lightly bite them. Those bites prompted tears to fall from her eyes and small yelps to leave her lips as she trembled under his rough touch and senseless caressing. Yet he was not over and in a swift move he picked her up and placed her in the middle of the bed. She turned stiff at the action and prepared herself for what was to come as he took off his clothes. His rough lips when he kissed her didn’t do much to muffle the painful yelps the young girl let out as he violently entered her small body.
“Ahh…I needed this. With you I can forget everything. I love you my sweet Reina.”
He said that without halting his actions and the girl could only limply lie under his body as he continued. Her lifeless eyes brimming with tears as well as her small trembles due to the pain she was feeling were the only sign of life from the girl who had already lost all hope of ever living a normal life. Time seemed to stretch on into eternity but still her father had found himself satisfied after a while and slowly exited the girl whilst placing tender kisses across her face. When he was completely out; he eyed his work and his gaze halted at the place they were previously connected which had a thin blood trail that slowly dripped onto the bedspread.
“Whops…to hard. Don’t worry sweetie, you’ll get used to it since I’ll never get tired of you. You are the one who always clears my mind when it’s filled with unimportant things. Why Reina…if you were for sale I would always buy…you.”
His thoughts were cut short as his gaze met his daughter’s and an idea flashed through his mind. For the past few months they were experiencing some monetary problems and his daughter proved to be the solution to them. Reina could see in his eyes that a horrible idea had come up in her father’s mind but she couldn’t fathom what it was due to the pain. Her fatigue from the previous work had caught up to her and the girl faded into a deep and tired slumber in a couple of minutes. Still, she heard one last thing come out of her father’s lips before she succumbed to slumber.
“You’ll fix everything my little princess. I’ll make sure of that.”
~End Flashback~“…Papa…Papa raped me almost daily those last three years I spent in Fukuoka… But that wasn’t all…Papa sold my body to his friends so that he could pay his debts. He then sold me to businessmen, politicians, foreigners, men and women alike… He sold me for a price that changed depending on how they were going to do me…and people paid him regardless of the fact that I was a young girl. Even after paying his debts he continued to sell me…he… he became rich off my body Jun!”
Jun stopped breathing after that revelation from Reina and she felt her whole world crumbling at the words. This was even worse than she had imagined…her lover had endured all that abuse for so long and nobody knew… The person she trusted the most had betrayed her; her own father. As she kept on thinking about it, her strength kept diminishing and the hold she had on the kitten turned limp. She didn’t know when but as she processed the happenings in Reina’s life once again; she had begun to tear up. But she noticed what she was doing quickly and put her own pain behind so as to stay strong for Reina and as she closed her eyes she tightened her hold on the kitten once again. The girl’s crying intensified and she began to speak incoherently amidst her tears. To this, Jun just rocked her back and forth to calm her down but when it didn’t work, she did what she hadn’t done that whole night; voice out comforting words to the kitten.
“I’m here Reina. You’re not alone; it’s going to be ok. I’ll protect you. You don’t need to speak anymore, I get it.”
She had decided. She didn’t know how to begin but she was still going to try and find help for Reina. Jun cradled the kitten whose hold on her tightened and silently cried with her. In her mind she kept wondering that if this happened to her lover…just how many more children around the world have been through situations like this and still try to do their best to live. She didn’t know what to do about this situation but she knew that she needed to help Reina any way she could.
Reina… will she ever be healed from that pain…?
Can she overcome this…?
Can Jun help her…?
Reina…will she let Jun be by her side forever…?
Many questions kept ringing in the panda’s mind but as she clutched her suffering kitten she didn’t falter in her decision.
‘I’ll never leave your side.’_____________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________
Phew... nothing much... just that; it needed to be written. I seem to find angst easier to write lol Oh and thanks for reading!