Helloo everyone... I'm so sorry for the long update..
The holiday is over, so I need to do many homework now. Being a college student is really take all my time to continue this story. So please forgive me and my long update, I hope the next update will be next month, until then please wait for my fic...
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Senpai Please Notice Me
Chapter 2
“Otsukaresamadeshita....”
“ Otsukare...”
“Maeda-san Otsukare..”
“Otsukaresamadeshita minna-san” I said bowing to the director and other staff.
“Acchan, otsukare.. Now you can change your cloth and we’ll go to the next photo shoot.” Said my manager reading my daily schedule.
“Hai.. I’ll go get the change then.” I said leaving my manager.
After I close my changing room, I sit on the chair in front off the big mirror. I let out a sigh and start massage my own shoulder. ‘Uhh... I’m tired and there still a photo shoot to do.. Haahh I wonder what time I can go home tonight?’ I thought while start to get up and changing my cloth. As I about to put my stuff in my bag, suddenly my phone start to vibrating,
‘Ahh.... a message from Mariko.’ I wonder what is the message.
“Acchan, how about we going to have lunch together this weekend? The other members already start to miss you... well especially your lovely midget captain. Although she pretend to not to, we all can see how much she miss you. She’s forcing herself to work harder than before, we’re all worried about her health. I think she’s been skipping her sleeping and eating time. She’s even refused my offer to buy her a katsudon.. a KATSUDON!! CAN you imagine that? There’s must be something really wrong about her, after more than six years knowing her, I never saw her to refuse the love of her life which is KATSUDON. We really need to meet and talk about her, before she collapse and things going worst. Well then reply me when you have break.. jaaa nee..”
After read Mariko’s message, I close my phone and slowly sit on the chair in front off the big mirror. Reading Mariko’s message about Minami make me feel nothing but sad and guilt. I can’t believe that Minami will ever refuse katsudon, but I know Mariko won’t trolling over a problem like this especially about Minami. I know that Minami will feel lost after I graduate, but I don’t think that it will effect her this bad. If only I can turn back the time, where I still the ace and standing on the stage with her on my side, I will going back to that time so I can hug and kiss her whenever I want. Truth be told that I enjoy my new life now, but somehow I felt there’s something that missing in my life, there’s a time that I felt so lonely and depressed. At times like that I remember how Minami will hug me or just patting my head, then I will lay my head on her right shoulder and hear nothing but her encouraging words until I feel better or doze off in her warm hug. With my graduation I know that things will never be the same, even Aki-P told me that. That’s why even there’s a time that I really want to go back to the past, or times where I want to go to Minami so I can just hug and have her to comfort me and lulling me to sleep, I hold myself to do that. I’m afraid that I will bother her, especially with her new position as Soukantouku and her debut song. Another reason is I’m afraid that I can’t live my life without her, I’m afraid that I’ll become too depend on her, I’m afraid that I can’t stand on my own feet and face off the world. I need to stop depend on her like I used to, it’s not just for my sake but for Minami too.
“Acchan, come on we need to go to the next photo shoot!” Said my manager breaking my thought.
“Ahh... okay let’s go then.” I said standing up from my seat and following my manager to the next photo shoot.
#Senpai Please Notice Me#
It’s been a month after Atsuko graduation, I try my best to live my life like I used to. I wake up early in the morning, taking a bath and then have my breakfast before I go to theater and start to practice by myself until other members come and we have our usual practice. At this end off the month we will release our new single. This single “Uza” have many difficult steps, many members have been stress about the steps. Yuko and Jurina as the centers practice very hard for this song, other members also try their best to remember the steps.
As the days passed by, I busied myself to practice Uza, I came more early and left more late than usual. It’s not like I don’t remember the steps, I already remember it at our third practice. I just want to make my steps perfect, no.. I need to be perfect for the sake other members. I need to be perfect so I can give an example and help other members. Other members like Mariko, Yuko,Kojiharu, Tomochin, and Miichan already told me to not forcing myself for practice too hard. I really appreciate their concern towards me, but I really need to make my steps perfect so I can help other members
‘and help myself to forget my loneliness without her on my side.’ Today as usual after other members going back to home, I start to practice by myself. I turn on the music and start to move my body following the music. I keep myself to repeat the dance over and over until I feel my body and my t-shirt wet from the sweat and the tiredness taking over my body. As I repeat the dance once again, I feel my knees trembling and my hands going weak like a jelly. I feel my vision start to blurry and then I fall down.
‘Shit... at time like this, why my body get this pain too? I get enough with this pain in my heart, why must I feel both pain at my heart and body?’ I thought as I laying my body looking at nothing but the ceiling.
‘I need to practice again, I can’t let myself drowning in this pain. This pain is nothing, I need to practice again.. I must practice again..’ I thought myself and start to get up.
I start over the music and start to practice again, I still can feel the pain in my knees and body as I dance, but I try to ignore it and endure the pain. I keep move my body, trying hard to finish the dance. At the last step, I need to throw down my body and then pull up my body from the floor in the spilt of seconds. I throw down my body, and the next second when I try to pull up my body from the floor, I feel like all my remaining power left me. Then I feel nothing but pain all over my body as I fall again on the hard floor. I fall really hard as I can hear the sound of my body crush the floor echoing the empty practice room. “Shit... shit..shit... why must I fall at time like this... Shit.... why I’m so weak??” I cry out all my frustration of tiredness, pain, loneliness, and anger as I keep punching my hands at the hard floor.
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“Nee.. Yuihan, see you tomorrow. You sure don’t want to go home with me?” Paruru asked me as she open the changing room’s door.
“Ahh.. see you tomorrow Paruru, well I still want to practice my steps. You know I’m kind a left behind at our practice, and I still can’t remember all the steps.” Answered me as I also exit the changing room.
“Well, other members also can’t remember the steps. You know I fell about three times at todays practice.” Said Paruru with her usual salty face. “What I mean is, don’t force your body too hard, we still can practice tomorrow you know.” Said Paruru again.
“Wakata.. It’s not like I will force my body too hard you know. I’ll just practice 3 or 4 times then going home. Besides it’s already late in the evening.” I convinced Paruru while straighten my blue and red braided bracelet.
“Well.. If that’s what you want, I’ll see you tomorrow then. Jaa nee.” Said Paruru while walking towards the theater’s door.
“Jaa nee, I’ll see you tomorrow.” I said waving my hand.
As Paruru left, I walk to the practice room. I remember that the main practice room must be locked by now, so I practice at the smaller practice room where the kenkyuusei usually practice. I turn on the music and then start the practice. I try to remember every steps, in the end I just practice about 4 times. Actually I still want to practice, but I feel very exhausted by now, so I decide to end the practice and going home.
I walk to the changing room while humming Uza, but then suddenly I hear a faintly sound of Uza song being played from the main practice room. I decide to check the room from the slightly open door. There I see Takamina-senpai practice alone in the empty practice room. As usual her moves look so perfect and full of power, but I kind a feel that’s something wrong with her moves. I keep watching her moves until she going to do the last step, then suddenly after she throwing down her body and want to pull up her body back, she ended up with fall to the hard floor with a loud “thump” sound.I was shocked to see her fell down, and want to help her, but then when I see her crying her frustration out, I cancel my plan to help her. It’s not like I don’t want to help her, but I don’t know how to help her at time like this. I never see her crying like this before, so I already know that my help can’t ease her problem now. Then slowly with a sad sigh I close the door and heading my way back to the changing room.
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“Ahhh... I’m sooo tired, todays practice is straining all my energy. Nee... Nyannyan hug mee.. I need to recharge my energy...” Whined Yuko while runnning and chasing Kojiharu in the changing room.
“Mouu... Yukoo.. yada.. yada... Don’t hugging me with sweat all over your body..” yelled Kojiharu avoiding the pervert squirrel deadly hug.
“Mouu.. Nyannyan give me a hug... it’s skinship you know..” Said Yuko keep chasing Kojiharu.
“Mouuu... Yukoo stop it, or I’m not gonna go home together with you..” Threated Nyannyan still avoiding Yuko hug.
“Noooo... Nyannyan, don’t leave me alone. I want to go home with you.... Nee Takamina watch out, I need to immediately changing my cloth before Nyannyan changes her mind.” Said Yuko pushing Takamina aside from her open locker.
“Awww... not that hard Yukoo..” Said Takamina after being push and nearly fall from it.
“Sorry midget, I really need to hurry.” Said Yuko while open her locker which is next to Takamina’s locker.”Ehh... what’s that card on your locker? And what’s with that heart on it? Is that a love card from your fans?” Said Yuko while trying to take the card that being attach to Takamina’s locker.
“Mouu... Yuko stop trying to take it off from my locker. It’s not what you think it is. You see it’s just a cheer up card from someone.” Said Takamina blocking Yuko from her locker.
“Ehhh... Is that soo? But who is the one that sent it? Is that from one of members here?” Asked Yuko.
“Well, it just said ‘from your secret admirer’. But whoever is the person that sent this, I feel really thanked for her card, energy drink, and this cute rabbit band aid.” Said Takamina. “If that person in this room, I’d like to thanked and hug that person.” Said Takamina again while looking at the sofa which being seated by Kojiharu, Mariko, Tomochin, and Yuihan.
’From this card I really feel that my lost energy suddenly fill me and give me a power to face my problem, this person I really need to thanked her.’Flashback... After crying my heart out, I regained my power back and decide to end the practice and going home. I opened my locker and found a bottle of energy drink, a cute rabbit band aid and a card. I took the card and read it, then I smile a little after reading the cheer up card. Somehow read the card can ease my problem a little. I took the energy drink,the band aid and the card from my locker and put it into my bag. I closed my locker back and was going to walk to the door when I saw a blue and red braided bracelet under my locker,
‘ehh isn’t that bracelet..’Flashback end... A week later, Uza PV shooting finally end. As usual Yuko invite all the members to get a little party together when they get a day off. Takamina, being one of the members that going to the party. At the party as usual Yuko being pervert with touching and molesting Nyannyan breast. Mariko and Miichan then start to cheering and recording them. Actually Takamina, didn’t want to go to this party, she rather took an all day sleep at this day off. But Mariko, and Yuko insisted her to come, and kidnapped her from her house. So here she is at the party with other members, as she try to enjoy the party, suddenly the door open and Takamina feels her heart stop when she saw Atsuko come in.
Yuko, Mariko, and Miichan stop their action when saw Atsuko and then group hug her. Other members then greet her or take a photo with her. Takamina still in her daze, can just looking at how pretty Atsuko with her new long hair and how cute her crinkle nose when she laugh.
“Minami... how are you? You seem off when I entered the room just now. Are you okay?” Asked Atsuko while sitting next to Takamina.
“Ahhh.. I’m fine, just being tired. How’s your job now? I heard you play a new drama this Desember.” Said Takamina trying to regain her focus from her long daze.
“Well... It’s kind a hard at the beginning, but I tried to work my best.. Mouu Minami I miss you so much...” Said Atsuko hugging Takamina.
“I...I.. miss you too, Atsuko.” Said Takamina stuttering. “I miss you so much Atsuko, I really do.” Said Takamina hugging Atsuko back, while slowly patting Atsuko head.
The two of them then start to talking about their jobs, day off, and other members and keep their hugging position while they talk, until the other members like Mariko, Nyannyan, Yuko, Miichan, and Tomochin interrupt their moment with engulf them in a group hug.
“Mouuu... guys what’s with the group hug all the time this night? Get up from me!! You all heavy you know..”Said Takamina trying hard to release her body from the deadly and heavy group hug.
“Ck.. Takamina, it’s not just you who miss Acchan you know, besides you still have this all night to being lovey dovey and do other hot things at your Acchan you know..” Said Yuko wriggling her brows in her pervert way.
“That’s right Takamina, you can have your Acchan later this night, why don’t you let us to hug her? Come on spare us some time with her too. Besides she’s my waifu you know.” Said Miichan also wriggling her brows and keep hugging both Atsuko and Takamina.
“Well, I think Takamina is so eager to take Acchan home, so they can lovey dovey all the night..” Said Mariko joining tease the midget captain.
“Ohh my God... Yuko pervertness is start to take out Takamina’s pervertness too, I’ve told you guys this Wmidget is a natural pervert from the start.” Said Tomochin with her disapproving eyes on Takamina.
“Tomochin is right, just then I think that you are different from this pervert squirrel. To be honest I kind a disappointed to you Takamina.” Said Kojiharu while shaking her head disappointedly.
“Hey... Hey...Hey... What’s going on here, why suddenly I’m being the pervert one here. We’re just hugging you know, it’s not like I’m gonna take her home and we’re make out or do other pervert things.” Said Takamina blushing hard from the tease.
“Ehh.. so you don’t want to take me home with you nee.. Minami? Mouu.. Minami hidoi yo..” Said Atsuko pretending to be mad. “Did you guys know? Just now Minami kept hugging me even if I tried to break the hug, but now she’s being all tsundere and mean to me...”Said Atsuko pouting her lips.
“Ehhh... not you too Atsuko, I do really want to take you home, but you know... I don’t mean to do the pervert things they think.”Said Takamina trying hard to explain to Atsuko.
“ You see that guys.. Minami is not just a pervert, now she’s a tsundere too.. poor my waifu.” Said Miichan still tease her captain. “Come on Acchan just leave this midget and going home with me. I’ll tell you a good story about her later.”Said Miichan trying to pull Acchan from the midget captain.
“Miichan is a good husband for you Acchan. Just leave this pervert and tsundere captain here.” Said Mariko joining Miichan.
“Miichan..”
“Acchan..”
Then the two of them start to hugging each other, leave the poor midget captain being all teased. Just when the two want to pretend to kiss, Atsuko’s phone ringing breaking their moment.
“Sorry.. I need to answer this call first.” Said Atsuko breaking her hug. “Moshi Moshi, it’s Maeda here...”Said Atsuko to her phone.
“Ahh... wakata, I’ll go to there now. Jaa nee.” Said Atsuko ending the phone.
“Nee... Minna-san gomen ne, I must go now, I’ve got a job to do.” Said Atsuko after closing her phone and put it back to her pocket.
After saying goodbye to all members including Minami, Atsuko then hurry take her leave. But because being too in rush she left her long coat on the sofa. Takamina then hurry pursuing Atsuko to give her long coat back. After running all the way to the entrance door, she spot Atsuko walking heading to a car. Just as she want to call Atsuko, she spot a man standing near Atsuko. Then when that man greets Atsuko with a hug then holding Atsuko hand tightly as the two start to enter the car, Takamina decide to hurry going back in, so she can’t feel another pang of hurt breaking her heart. Meanwhile there’s another pair of eye watching the same scene that Takamina just seen. That person then decide to go back in following Takamina.
After Atsuko left, the party start to going more crazy, Yuko start to drinking like she never drinking for years then keep blabbering about Nyannyan breast and start to demonstrate how to skinship to other members. This action too being recorded by Mariko and Miichan with their phones. Other members then start being drunk too, Tomochin keep drinking when she’s barely can raise her glass. Takamina who usually being the one who keep sober, drinking her drinks for about 3 or 4 glass, then stop it before she’s being drunk like the others.
At the other side of the room, Yuihan watching Takamina drinking her drinks. Watching her senpai drinking her drinks with those sad empty eyes, make her feeling the pain from it. She knows why her usual sober senpai, now joining to drink her drinks. She know what makes her senpai feel sad, but she doesn’t know what she can do to help her. She feel so useless right now, and she hate to feels this.
‘It’s worst than when I felt sad about knowing she loves someone else, Seeing her sad and down like this and can’t do nothing is making me feel so sad, I feel like I want to cry for her now.’ Yuihan thought while keep drinking her drinks just like it was a water. She keep drinking until the alcohol’s effect takes her body.
When the time shows that it’s already midninght, the members decide to end the party and going home, some members going back together to their home, Takamina then decide to going home with Yuihan because their house is near with each other. After saying goodbye to other members and help the drunk Yuihan to climb her back, she then take Yuihan back home while piggyback her. The way to Yuihan home didn’t take much time. After open the main door, Takamina then take Yuihan to her bedroom. Slowly she puts Yuihan down on the bed and cover her body with a blanket. After Takamina covers Yuihan with a blanket and checking the half-sleep yuihan, she decide to going back home. Just as she want to leave the bed and heading to the door,suddenly she feels Yuihan’s hand grab her right hand.
“Takamina-san... Daisuki...” Said half-sleeping Yuihan while crying her tears out.
Takamina startled by the sudden confession for a while, before she leaning her body down and wiping Yuihan’s tears with her hand. She let out a sigh before whispered to her self,
“I’m sorry Yuihan, I can’t...”