they have a unique relationship that is not going to get sexual at any point
Chapter 7
The next morning I was in his room and he was still sleeping on the couch.
“Yuki, you need to get up, we have work today.” I start to wake him up.
“Risa, I know but I need my sleep, you know how hard it is to have a woman in the apartment.” He rolls back.
“What does that suppose to mean?” I put my hands on my hips and my face an inch from his.
He rolled over, “Risa, we are not in a relationship, we are never going to ever be that way, and you in this apartment is painful enough.”
“If you do not want to protect me, tell me so, other than that you decided on it remember?” I was not in the feeling of fighting.
Then, he grabbed me and gave me a deep kiss.
He stopped and got up to walk around.
“It is hard enough to have you here and I know you do not want to hear it from me.” I interrupted.
“I know you have feelings for me, but I can always give you a favor in return.”
“Risa, no, I won’t take you in that way, it will be against my own ideals.” He started to put head into his hands.
I never felt this bad for a person; he was doing everything not to make me his girlfriend.
He was suppressing his feelings and if he ever throws himself away, he will never forgive himself.
“Risa, I am sorry for getting angry, but you have to understand, it is not like we are a couple, we are roommates that have nothing between them.” He went to the bathroom and got himself ready.
He wanted to be with me for all this time and I told him no, I hope he is not guilty tripping me.
I knocked, “Do you really want to do it?”
He peeked out, “NO, I am trying to find a person out there who is for me.”
“If you find her, is she going to come here or her place?”
“How should I know? Where ever we want to go it is OUR business.” That made me mad.
I knocked and dove towards him.
“If we ever go out together, you will always be with me, right?”
“Yeah, but I will never ask you for a while, I really want to find a person for me now.” He pushed me out and closed the door.
He seemed serious, I could not offer him anything, he was trying to find a relationship in this process, and he is so confusing.
He got ready, picked up the newspaper and waited for me.
I got ready and he dropped his newspaper, then he grabbed my hand and we walked out the door.
We stood at the train station; I started to feel queasy but insisted we get to work on time.
We got to work and I felt a fever coming on.
The boss sent me home but I went to Yuki’s place for protection.
I took the train home and felt even worst.
I got off the train and dragged my way to his place.
I opened the door and dived onto the couch.
My eyes felt heavy so I decided to sleep.