Chapter 4
Jun's POV
06.00 AMI woke up realizing that I've just finished one song,damn i have to write 12 more songs in 14 hours time span ?!
"Shit,shit,shit,shit,OMG i've been to lazy these few weeks,damn" i wrote songs about my life story,and my apology to rena,and whatever those are
Timeskip 12 PM"huff,finally I've done 7 songs, 5 more to go,i better eat lunch first" i said to myself as i get out from my room and greeted by the maids
"Prepare lunch for me,no spicy foods ok,and please call sebastian to meet me at the outdoor pool " i said as i walk to the swimming pool,sitting on a pool-side lounge chair. "the wind is so nice,if Rena-chan were here..." i said to myself as i feel the gentle breeze on my skin i closed my eyes and Rena's pouting and smiling face projected to my mind
"Jun-sama,Why did you call,and this is your favorite food,spaghetti,and what do you want to drink ?"
"I want some red velvet,and i want to drink chocolate milkshake bring them immediately,ah and i forgot my phone and headphone too just ask the maid to bring them,you have to make my milkshake and cake" i said and he immediately run to get those things i ordered
"Ah,this thing is delicious,but none is better than mom's" i smiled bitterly and before i realized it my tears were already flowing down
"are ?,I'm... crying ?" i touch my wet cheek
"Jun-Bocchan,here is your phone...,eh bocchan ?!,are you crying ?" a maid ask me and i quickly wipe my tears
"Eh ?!,no it's just dust got into my eyes,ah and thanks" i take my phone and headphone,the maid bowed and left,i put my headphone on and starting to listen to music,and i heard a random song that says : 'time machine nante iranai,kako mo mirai mo kyoumi nai
itsu datte anata to iraretara (I don't need a time machine I don't care about the past or the future Whenever I'm with you),yeah i think this song's lyric is very...,deep i guess ?,It's Atsuko's song that Rena recommended to me,and her family is Maeda right ?,i guess i ever heard that name from sebby or ojii-sama,oh well whatever i continued to eat my spaghetti,and sebby come to me with my milkshake and cake
"Do you need anything else My Lord ?"
"Hey sebby,do you know Maeda family ?" i ask him while gulping my milkshake
"Yes I know them Jun-sama,shall i explain it ?" he smiled
"Yeah,I need it" i nod
"Maeda is one of Matsui group's business partner,They have 2 kids,the first one is a son named Maeda Kei,and the second child is Maeda Atsuko your fiancee's friend,is that all ? Jun-sama ?"
"Ah bring me some music sheets and a camera,that's all" a few minuets later after i finished my foods sebastian gave me the things i asked and left
Timeskip 7 PM"Hufff,finally done recording and all,the left thing to do is shooting mv ,guess I'll do that later" i said as i head to my room and take a bath,and prepared for my concert
"Finally all done...,I'm still worried about Rena after all..."
Timeskip 10 PM
Rena's POV"Rena why you don't you come to school today" Yukineechan ask me as she sit on my bed
"Isn't it a bit late to ask that now ?,IT'S FREAKING 10 IN THE NIGHT NOW !!!,and if i come to school today I WILL SEE HIS DAMN HANDSOME FACE" i sulked
"So you still loves him right ?,seriously you will regret that you didn't hear him out yesterday,he even do a dogeza in front of me just to meet you yesterday" she said while laughing at my first heartbreak ever
"Thanks for the advice onee-sama,hohoho" i laugh in a monotone manner
"Haha,I'm turning the TV on okay" she said as she sit to my couch
"Do whatever you like" i rolled my eyes and frowned as soon as i see who's on the TV
"I take it back turn it off,I DON'T WANT TO SEE HIS FACE ANYMORE" I said trying to grab the remote from oneechan's hand
"wait,i want to see otouto's debut concert" she dodged but i keep chasing her and tried to take the remote from neechan's evil hand
"Onegai,imouto yo" she use her alien eyes,and somehow it made me creeped out,and once she's on this mode I doubt i could say no
"Okay" i sighed
Jun's POV"Everyone,My name is Matsui Jun and thanks for coming to my Concert today and the first song i will sing is I want to hug" the crowds is getting crazy,so i started to sing with my guitar,so if the live is in band version pretty cool,i muttered in my mind before i sing
AH- kono tenohira wo
suiheisen to heikou ni shite nagameteta
AH- natsu no hizashi ga
tobiuo no you ni aoi umi wo haneteru
tsugi no BASU ga kuru made
bokutachi wa mada koibito da
mou sukoshi dake kono mama de...
omoide ni suru ni wa hayai
dakishimetai kedo
sabishisa ni nareyou
kimi ga inai mirai
sugu ni hajimaru
mada kienu ai wa
kono sunahama ni oite yuku
konna ni dareka wo
mou ni do to ai senai darou
AH- donna kotoba de
ima no kimochi wo tsutaereba ii ka wakaranakute
AH- boshi ga ikutsu ka
sora ni mietara kimi no hitomi mo kagayaku
saishuu no BASU da yo
bokutachi mo SAYONARA no toki
amai kisetsu mo sugite yuku
miokuru umi ga sawagu nami
dakishimetai kedo
KISU wo shite shimaisou
boku ga inai mirai
jama wa dekinai
deaeta koto made
koukai wo shite shimau mae ni
ichiban suteki na
koi datta to itsuka ieru you ni...
hi wa shizunde
yami ga maku wo hikinagara
massara na ashita no
junbi wo surunda
dakishimetai kedo
sabishisa ni nareyou
kimi ga inai mirai
sugu ni hajimaru
mada kienu ai wa
kono sunahama ni oite yuku
konna ni dareka wo
mou ni do to ai senai darou
Translation
Ah~ in this palm
I was looking for a horizon line
Ah~ Summer’s sunlight
Is splashing on the sea like flying fish
Until the next bus comes
We’re still lovers
Just a bit like this…
It’s too early yet to make memories
I want to hug you but
I have to get used to loneliness
A future without you
Will soon begin
This love that hasn’t disappeared yet
I’ll place it on this sandy beach
I won’t be able to love
Someone this much again
Ah~ no matter the words
I don’t know how to convey my feelings
Ah~ several stars
Like I was looking at the sky your eyes are glowing
It’s the last bus
And our time to bid farewell
The sweet season is also passing
The coming waves are making noise
I want to hug you but
Let’s kiss
I can’t interfere
In a future without me
Until the time I meet you again
Before this becomes regret
I’ll someday say
This was the best love ever…
The sun is dying
Darkness is pulling the curtain
I must prepare
For a brand new tomorrow
I want to hug you but
I have to get used to loneliness
A future without you
Will soon begin
This love that hasn’t disappeared yet
I’ll place it on this sandy beach
I won’t be able to love
Someone this much againas the crowd is getting crazier i changed my clothes into a black suit with a fedora,the back up dancers are ready to,and in 3,2,1 Music start !
"Soredewa kiite kudasai,darkness"
Love is darkness...
If night were to fall, oh, upon the two of us
Everything would vanish, oh, like a shooting star
ima no ai wa ichi SENCHI saki ga mienakute
tesaguri wo shite motome atta fukai yami yo
boku wa kimi no nani wo mite ita?
nani wo shitte ita no darou?
semai mado ga
[mugendai to
kanchigai shite ita yo
kiete shimaou
kono kanashimi no soto e
kioku wa chirabaru dake
kagayaku koto no nai hoshi
zetsubou ga subete nomikonde iku
kasu ka na hikari ya oto mo...
boku no ude ga dakishimeteta
nukumori sae mo nuritsubusarete
Dark.. Dark...
donna toki mo ikanaru joukyou demo kono mama
mukuwarenai unmei de mo kage de ii sa
kimi wa boku no nani wo shinjiru?
nani wo gisei ni suru tsumori ka?
kagami no naka
sono honne wa
doko ni kakushite aru no?
tozashita HAATO
mou maku wa kudariteru
mirai wa imi ga nai sa
jikan wa sude ni tomatta
atarashii sora ga hajimaranai nara
kuuki no ugoki ya nioi mo...
boku no gensou de shikanai
aishiteiru
aisareteiru...
moshimo kiseki ga
kono yami wo saite mo
taiyou nante mienai darou
zutto doko made mo
eien ni kimi wo tada omoitsuzukete
boku wa fukai yami ni iki wo hisometai
kiete shimaou
kono kanashimi no soto e
kioku wa chirabaru dake
kagayaku koto no nai hoshi
zetsubou ga subete nomikonde iku
kasu ka na hikari ya oto mo...
boku no ude ga dakishimeteta
nukumori sae mo nuritsubusarete
dare mo shiranai gingakei no hate made
kotae no nai inochi wa rinne suru
TRANSLATION
Love is darkness...
If night were to fall, oh, upon the two of us
Everything would vanish, oh, like a shooting star
I can't see this love even one centimeter in front of me
Fumbling around, it's the deep darkness we wished for
What part of you was I looking at?
What did I know?
I was mistaking
That narrow window for infinity
I'll disappear
I'll go beyond this sadness
Where my memories are just fragments
Stars that can't shine
Despair will swallow everything up
Both the hazy light and sound...
Even the warmth that I held in my arms
Will be blotted out
Dark... dark...
No matter when, no matter what situation
A fate like this unable to reward us is fine being insubstantial
What about me do you believe in?
What do you plan to give up?
Reflected in the mirror
Is that intention hidden somewhere?
My heart is closed
The curtain has already dropped
The future has no meaning
Time has already stopped
If there's no new sky
Neither is there the scent or movement of air...
It's nothing but a delusion of mine
Loving
And being loved...
Even if a miracle were to rend this darkness
I still wouldn't be able to see the sun
Forever, no matter where I go
I'll just be chasing you for eternity
I want to hide away in this deep darkness
I'll disappear
I'll go beyond this sadness
Where my memories are just fragments
Stars that can't shine
Despair will swallow everything up
Both the hazy light and sound...
Even the warmth that I held in my arms
Will be blotted out
At the very utmost reaches of an unknown galaxy
Life without answers will be reincarnatedI sang some songs more ,and finally It's the time for me to sing that song for Rena
"I will sing this song as an apology to my um... future fiancee ?,i don't know what's our relationship status for now,the important point is that i love her the most,Rena,haruna was just taking me to a bakery,and she's my cousin,then sorry for the rambling earlier and the title is Tada Aitakute..." i walk to the piano and start the song
Kanashii kako mo
Waku sugita hibi no ayamachi sae
Kimi ni deaete
Fukai umi ni shizumerareta no ni
Ano goro no boku to ieba
Aishikata sae mo shirazu...tada ...
Bukiyou ni kimi wo kizutsukete
Yasashi sa wasurete ita.
*Tada aitakute...
Mou aenakute
Kuchibiru kamishimete naiteta.
Ima aitakute
...Wasurerare nai mama
Sugoshita jikan dake ga mata
Hitori ni saseru.
Saishuudensha
Boku no kata ni kao wo uzumeta mama
Neiki wo tateru
Nani yori mo shiawase datta yo....
Ima naraba sakebu koto mo
Kimi wo mamori nuku koto mo dekiru.
Mou modora nai toki dake wo
Kuyande shimau no wa...naze?
Tada...itoshikute... namida mo karete
Kimi no inai sekai wo samayou.
Wasuretaku nai... kimi no kaori wo mada
Dakishime nemuru yoru ga
Ah~kodoku ni saseru....
*Repeat
Tada...aitakute
Translation
The sad past, and even the mistakes of the days when we were still too young...
Altough I sunk into a deep sea after I had met you...
Talking about myself from those days,
I didn't know how to love,
I just hurt you with my clumsiness
and forgot my gentleness.
I just want to see you, but I cannot.
I bit through my lips and cried.
Now, I want to see you, I cannot forget you
And I am left alone by the time we spent together.
In the last train, while I buried my face in your shoulder,
a heard a gentle breathing from you,
Oh, I was so happy.
Now, I can neither scream, nor can I protect you till the end.
All I do, is to regret the time, that I cannot go back to ... Only why?
I just ... love you ... my tears are about to dry out
I wander around a world, in which you are not existing anymore
I don't want to forget you... The nights, when I hold your
fragrence tight to me while sleeping... Ah~ they make me feel the loneliness again."Thank you for coming today" i bowed and head to the dressing room,I changed to my casual clothes,and i relaxed for a while before sebby called me for he said that i have to shoot my some mv's,then the photo cover,btw this is how i look now
"okay without the kiss mark...,finally all done,dam It's 11 now, I hope Rena hadn't sleep yet" i ride my black maserati GT2 to Rena' house,as i arrived there i head to Rena's room as fast as i can
"Rena-chan,are you still awake ?,and did you saw concert ?" i knocked her door no answer...
"Rena... are you still angry at me ?,You know...,haruna is my cousin,we didn't kissed or anything,and she was just showing me the way to a bakery",so please give me a chance..." no answer again...,aha i got an idea
"oy black marimokkori are you awake ?" i knock her room that's just beside Rena's
"Yeah I am and whaddya want ?" she ask me as she open the door,and letting me in
"let me borrow your balcony" i plead
"Okay" she opened the glass door
"Thanks" i said before Jumping off to Rena's balcony,i opened the door slowly,and saw rena is sleeping her eye bag was swollen and she looked like voldemort i swear,I bet she's crying,i put my jacket on a couch and close the glass door softly,i walked to her and sat down on her bed,well good to know that Rena is not crying anymore it calms me,i stare at her face for a long time,and her sleep was interrupted with a frown, a nightmare i guess,and with a few minuets of frown while calling my name,she cried...,I'm going back tomorrow It's so painful to see Rena in this state,so i get up to leave but... i can hear Rena's voice saying something,that makes my heart forgot how to beat
"Jun,daisuki...,so don't leave me..." she said between her sobs,i run to her side finding her wide awake
"I'm here Rena-chan,don't cry" i wipe her tears with my thumb and i hug her gently to comfort her,i could feel that she's crying on my chest
"Shushhh,Rena-chan I'm here so don't cry ne ?" i stroke her hair gently to soothe her i don't know what she's feeling now
"gomen jun..." she muttered between her sobs
"No,I'm at fault here,i should have never leave your side" i kiss her forehead
"No,I'm the one that misunderstood,so I'm at fault Jun gomenne..." she said staring at my eyes
"It's fine,because i will always love you Rena-chan" i smiled at her
"Arigatou,Jun" she stop sobbing
"So,about our engagement ?" i ask
"Can we just restart our relationship ?,from lovers first ?" she ask me with that cute face...OMG i can't resist those WHY ?! WHY ?!
"I'll do everything for you Rena" i peck her lips
"And i better go home,It's getting late"
"Stay here please,i want to be with you" uwahhh,those puppy eyes they rivals mine...,okay fine i give in
"Okay,I'll stay here as long as you want" i lay down beside her and she use my chest as a pillow
"Rena-chan,are you going to sleep or not ?" i ask her
"I'm trying to sleep but i can't,what should i do Jun ?" she ask me with those teary eyes,OMG SOOO CUTEEEEEE
"Shall we watch a movie my princess ?" i chuckled
"okayyy" she nods like a little kid
"What movie do you want hime-sama ?" i chuckled at her attitude
"MADAGASCAR 3 !!!!" she's jumping on her bed like a little kid,and that action destroys her 'OJOU-SAMA' image instantly but i don't care because if she's happy so i am
"Okay2,calm down Hime,do you have the dvd ? " i said as i get up from the bed and she simply nodded and follow me
"Oh it's there,I'm playing it" she said and put the dvd inside it's player,i lay down on her coach and she snuggled up to me,we watch the movie together with laughter,and i could see that Rena is very happy now,but my phone interrupt me
"Hello,what do you want sebby it's 11.45 at night now" i grumbled to the other line
"Sorry for disturbing your private moments,but there is an urgent meeting between the Matsui's business partners"
"Okay,who will be present there ?" i asked with a sigh,and the other line chuckled
"The ones will be present are the family successors,and childs,and the family that will be attending there are these families:Kashiwagi,Watanabe,Kojima,Oshima,Yamamoto,Maeda,Takahashi,Itano,and Yokoyama that's all"
"Where's the location ?" i asked while taking a glance at the laughing Rena
"Matsui resort the one at akiba" he said and i cut the line
"Nee,Rena-chan,can you accompany me to a meeting ?" i ask her using my puppy eyes
"oh ?,wait for a minuet I'm going to change my clothes" get into le toilet
"I'm done Jun let's go" she got out from the toilet wearing short white skirt,a simple sleeveless floral dark-teal shirt,a pair of light pink wedges-sneakers,and she applied some light make ups too,she's beautiful...,we talked about random things till we reached my car
"Get in rena-chan" i opened the door for her
"Such a gentleman" she rolled her eyes
"Yes i am" i said as i started the engine
"Put your seatbelt on rena" i sad to her as i left the Kashiwagi's residence
"Nee,I'm turning on the radio is it fine Jun ?"
"Whatever you want hime" i turned on the radio and turns out to be AKB ANN
Jurina:AKB ALL NIGHT NIPPON,Good night everyone My name is Matsui Jurina tonight's announcer nyan~,and here is my partner
Ego:Ego Yuna desu nyan~
Jurina: nee nee,ego-chan,who should we call today ?
Ego:Can i suggest a non-member ?
Jurina:dozo dozo~~~
Ego:Ja,Kashiwagi Rena-san that make Jun the ikemen model,and an Artist lovestruck even though I'm cuter than her~~~
Jurina:Meh,Rena-san is cuter than you~~~,then let's call her~~~~~~~~~
"Ehhh ?!,is she really going to call you Rena,and why her name is Matsui too !?" i asked her,and Rena's phone rang
Rena:Hello ?
Jurina:ahhh she picked it up,sumimasen if i woke you up
Rena:Eh ?!,nonono,I'm not sleeping anyway
Ego:Rena-san where or what are you doing right now ?
Rena:oh,I'm going to a meeting with Jun,he's beside me now
Jurina:Ehhh ?!,at such hour ?!
Ego:you must be sleepy Jun-san,don't fall asleep if you're dead i won't forgive you okay ?!
Jun:ano... Yuna-san ?,since when I'm involved in this ? *stopping the car and get down*
"Rena-chan we've arrived" i whispered to rena that's still talking to her phone,and we walked to the ballroom where we will held the meeting,and as the guards opened the door,i feel 2 people pull me inside
i was greeted by cakes and cream pie thrown to my face
"OTANOME JUN HERE IS SOMETHING FOR YOU" yuu said to me and smashed a cake to my face,damn the creams...
Jurina:Rena-san is something happening there ?
Rena:yeah,Jun is being trolled in his birthday HAHAhhahahahahahahahaha
Jurina;oh then we will hang up thanks
"Otanome playboy" the girls began to spray whipped cream to my whole body
"HEY HEY HEY !!!!,THIS IS NOT EVEN MY BIRTHDAY,MY BIRTHDAY IS TOMORROW YOU KNOW !!!" i wipe the creams from my face but everyone began to spray those again,damn...
"and this is the tomorrow you're talking about Jun,It's 12.05 now" Sai,Mayu,And yuu laughed out loud
"SEBASTIAN MICHAELIS !!!,YOU BETTER HAVE A GOOD REASON FOR THIS" i glared at my butler that's smiling in the corner of the ballroom
"Guys aren't you too hard on him,even at AKBingo,nobody ever got something like this" Tomomi and Atsuiki sighed
"And this is the first time we meet him" A shortie,and a playboy type like me said in unison
"That's the same for me" a tall guy said the same thing
"Hey,btw this is the first time i see you guys,what's your name" i take the wet towel from sebby as i ask them and wipe the cream off my face
"My name is Takahashi Kai nice to meet you,and please call me Kai" the shortie said
"Nice to meet you too,and please call me Jun" i smiled
"My name is Maeda Kei please call me Kei,nice to meet you Jun"
"And my name is Yokoyama Yuuji,nice to meet you Jun"
"Nice to meet you Kei,Kai,and Yuuji,sorry but I'm going to revenge first" i smiled,and i want shake hands with them but... my hand is full of cream
"Re-na-chan~~,did you know about this ?" i said in my seductive voice
"Yeah,and you better change your clothes" what she trolled my too ?! oh come on
"You're so mean" i pout and hug her,so she get the cream to fufufu
"Jun..." she glared at me,and i kiss her on the lips
"You tastes like cream" she said blushing
"NOW GUYS,LET'S START THE CREAM WAR" i shout and everyoe starting to spray whipped cream to each other
Timeskip 5 AM"So in the end who won ?" i said before collapsing like everybody else at the creamfull ballroom
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So an update hoohohohohohohoho,sorry if there's some grammar mistakes and mispellings LOL,reviews please Nyan Byeeee
Topic: S2 This Is My Life's Dorama - chapter 10 (WMatsui) 19/03/2016 (Read 122901 times)