Memories. -KojiYuu OS-
I have written this for two hours so please bear with it even if it's bad. Hehe. Please enjoy~
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'Im tired of this...'
'Im tired of our charade..'
Doors opening..
Slamming back close..
Clocks ticking..
Time running..
Memories rushing..
River of tears trickling..
Memories of when..
when it all started..
"My name is Oshima Yuko!"
"Im Kojima Haruna."
We were sitting there on that school bus.
Just the two of us alone.
That's how we met, it's the best memory of all.
You were a transfer student to the school that i go to.
It's probably fate, we're in the same class too.
"Wanna join me for lunch?"
It was a hopeful question, i hope you agree.
Honestly, i've never asked or seen someone so pretty.
You smiled for a reply, then stood up from your seat.
You held my hand and said, "sure, i'll go."
This is weird..this is not my usual heart beat.
It's faster than before.
Maybe, just maybe, i found who im looking for.
We started as friends..
and we hoped for more..
Three years arrived, we're both going to college.
Same course, same class, same thing every year.
The sun is brightly shining..
but not as bright as you.
You called my name so loud, im sure my mom heard you.
You were so glad we're in the same class, and hugged me tightly too.
"Im happy im with you," you said, smiling kiddily. I hugged you much closer, and smiled in glorious glee.
"Yeah," was my reply, our faces real close, i felt my heartbeat run, the same feeling from years ago.
Time flew past...
But our feelings still last..
I was sitting on my rooftop, with the wind blowing at me.
Well it was winter break, so of course, we're free.
You told me that you're busy, and sadly cannot go, so i smiled at you while saying, "sure, it's alright," but really, im out of hope.
We both have been so distant, and rarely we'll be free.
It's just that we're so busy, it's impossible to meet.
Then suddenly i felt creaking of this roof im sitting on. Behind me was you, with a smile plastered on.
"Surpise!" You said, hugging me from behind, "Im here so yeah, what i told you was a lie."
You laughed really loudly, and soon i joined you too. I stood up from my seat to get a hold of you.
You struggled jokingly, and said you cannot breathe, so i hugged you really softly, much closer to my heartbeat.
"I missed you so much," i said, feeling your warmth more.
The very same warmth that comforted me in my cold nights, nights when im in need.
The feeling can't get any better..
"I love you."
I finally realized.
The feelings i kept hidden.
The feelings i tried to deny.
I confessed that day, in the middle of the rain.
I can't hide it any longer. I want us to be closer.
Closer than the bestfriends we're supposed to be.
You stood there in the rain, your eyes boring on mine.
I gripped my shirt tightly, my eyes looking down.
Never have i been nervous in my entire life.
"I love you too," was your answer, pulling me much closer.
That moment was the best, wished it lasts forever.
Another three years has passed..
How long will our forever last?
It's getting worse..it's getting worse..
This sickness i have...
Can't it leave me alone?
I was at the hospital, with my most trusted doctor.
"Yuko-chan," she said, her voice melancholic and sad, "im afraid you only have three more months left."
I looked at her, my eyes threatening to tear, but with all the courage i have, i made a smile, but bitter.
"I'll make my three months left...the best it can get.."
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Im sorry Haruna.
Im running out of time.
Im sorry i can't tell you.
It's something i have to hide.
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I remember that day, the first day we met. Today is the day, and i have something to say.
I ran towards your house, in the middle of the angry storm.
I spotted it and walked over, knocking at your door.
"Yuko?" You said, confused that i was there.
I smiled at you while saying, "Sorry, i don't have much time to spare."
I told you that i love you.
And said that it's now gone.
The love i once felt,
I told you that they're gone.
I hated that i lied to you.
But i really have to go.
Even if it's against my own will.
You looked at me while crying, and my face as hard as steel.
"I trusted you," You said, "And now you're gonna leave me?"
"Im tired of this," was my reply, my face emotionless, "Im tired of our charade."
Your hand met up my face,
your tears running in pace.
You stared at me in mixed terror,
and slammed down your door.
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Im sorry i had to do this.
Im sorry i had to leave.
Just please always remember,
the times we spent so happily.
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It's been three months since i last saw you.
And now i have to say goodbye.
I hope you find this shortly,
shortly after i die.
I'll keep this in my pillow, and sure you''ll know it's there.
Hey Haruna, will you promise me?
Promise me you'll be happy.
It takes a long time, i know.
But when i look down, i want you to be smiling.
And then i'll finally have my peace.
Hey Haruna, will you always remember?
Remember that i love you.
And if i ever get reborn in another life, healthy and unharmed,
I promise you i'll find you.
And then we'll be happy.
Just know this always,
I love you, Kojima Haruna,
No matter how long it takes for us to be together forever,
I'll still love you for eternity.
-Sincerely yours,
Oshima Yuko.
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Third Person POV
"It's been three years, Yuuchan."
Kojima Haruna smiled at the grave in front of her.
On her hand was a notebook, the once she's been reading since her death.
Since Yuko's death.
Tears started to flow from her eyes as she caressed the cold stone in front of her.
"I miss you," she uttered, a bitter smile on her lips.
"Happy anniversary, Yuuchan. I love you."
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