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AKB48 Fanfics => AKB48 Fanfics => Topic started by: thelonewolf48 on October 04, 2014, 08:44:39 AM
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Okay, so I wrote the first part of Acceptance when I heard the first news of Acchan dating this man. At first, I wrote a kind of angst Os from the news. And made Takamina suffer the most, in some way.
After that, I reflected and went into a deep thought of what would be more realistic? Knowing my Kami, even though I don’t know her at all, except what she show us, I decided that IF Takamina loved Atsuko very much then she would let her be happy. If she is happy, Takamina is happy too. Sort of what she did when Atsuko announced her graduation.
So, that’s why I wrote ‘Acceptance’ in first place.
Now depending on how well it goes with the first part, I will post the second one. Even though if you read this part only it's also okay, since the "second" part is not really related to the first one :on lol:
Either way, I will post the second part eventually! So I hope you enjoy this one too! :on GJ:
PS: Maybe some people already read this one in some other site! Lol but who knows! xD
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-Takamina… Are you really going?
I snapped from my thoughts in the instant I felt Yuko’s hand on my shoulder.
-Un…
She sighed and added –Good luck, then-
The news was already old to me. Nothing was really ‘new’, at all. She confessed it herself one night a few weeks ago.
She had invited me to eat, in one of those rare occasions she and I had a short free time. She came, wearing that smile I always loved to see. We ordered food and ate. We talked about everything and nothing at all. The topics were diverse, from the weather to AKB48, from “How are you” to “You should take care of your health”, from scandals, graduations and fake rumors to the topic I always feared the most.
I was prepared though, I was thinking about it long time ago. I never expected the time, it was too soon. Or maybe I was just thinking about that promise she made on her blog and an old TV Show.
-I’m seeing someone… – she said cautiously – He… is a good boy.
I was surprised and at the same time not surprised at all. If that even makes sense.
-Is he?
She nodded.
-Does he make you happy? – I asked her, feeling my heart beating fast.
- I am happy. But… – she looked at me, staring into my eyes – It’s not the happiness I was expecting.
Those words had a double meaning, I knew it. But I can’t. Not right now, not at this moment in which AKB48 has some troubles. I… just couldn’t.
I nodded and pouted.
-I don’t like tomatoes… – “Why did I even ask for this?”
She smiled. That kind of smile she always had when I accepted all her requests. She then, took the tomatoes form my plate and ate them.
-You really should eat your veggies, Takamina. This is the reason why you never grew up – She laughed.
-Mou… Atsuko!
Some days ago, I got a text message from her.
“From: Atsuko.
Let’s have dinner together! After the theater show, if you don’t have anything else to do. I want you to meet him; he’s excited and a bit scared though LOL. Say yes, please?”
How could I even say no?
And so, here I am. In the changing room, preparing myself for the most shocking event of my whole life; meeting Maeda Atsuko’s boyfriend.
The whole trip towards the restaurant was slow. Too much traffic, but I was glad for it; it gave me time to think on the many things I could say, even knowing that I will forget half of them.
It would have been troublesome to have us 3 on the same table at bare sigh of everyone. So, Atsuko opted for a private table. I walked inside from the staff room.
I counted my steps. 50 was the magic number. 50 slow steps. I sighed and after contemplating the door for some minutes I knocked.
-Minami!
I looked up; in front of me there was a sight that I most feared.
Atsuko was holding hands with him.
I smiled and waved at her; but my smile vanished when I glanced at him. There was a tense atmosphere the whole night.
-How was today’s show, Minami? – Atsuko asked, trying to break the ice.
-Umm… As usual, I guess. – I couldn’t think in anything else. I have to act all tough; I have to scare him, to let him know that this won’t be easy only because of Atsuko.
-There wasn’t anything new? – She insisted.
-Not really. Oshiri sisters with their usual teasing, Mocchi all over my ears, Paruru and her salty responses, Haruna being an airhead, me failing…
-I get it, I get it! – She laughed – Just like always, right?
-Except. – I looked at her – You weren’t there…
The guy removed in his seat. “Feeling uncomfortable?” I smirked.
We ate in silence.
Dessert wasn’t sweet at all. It was bittersweet, at least for me. The two love birds were enjoying themselves way too much and it was starting to make me feel annoyed. I cleared my throat quite loudly.
-So… He is…?
-I’m Onoe Matsuya, nice to meet you. – He bowed.
Good manners. At least he has it.
But that face… That FACE! I… Why him, Acchan? Why? I’m even more handsome than him!
-Takahashi Minami, ni—
-I know! …
Is he nervous now or something?
-When is her birthday?
I kept eating the piece of cake I ordered, without even looking at him. The unexpected question made him more nervous.
-I-i-it’s 10th… Ju-july 10th.
I glared at him.
-Oshimen?
Atsuko giggled and I barely could contain a smirk. Onoe-san looked at Atsuko and then at me. He was thinking.
-O-oshi-ma…?
I frowned. He desperately looked towards Atsuko. “Looking for help now?” I saw her eyes movements. She looked at me.
-I-I’m kidding! I-It’s of co-course, Takahashi-san.
I narrowed my eyes.
-Her talents are?
-… Acting…?
I sighed.
-Husband?
He now looked all desperate.
-… Me…?
-You wish…
-Minami…
-Yes, Atsuko?
-Stop it.
That glare; that sweet voice; that smile…. I gulped. She stood up, walked towards me and hugged me tightly.
-Just say yes… – she whispered on my ear.
-He needs to study hard… – I sighed hugging her back, possessively while looking at him. The message was sent.
-You will be my number one forever. Just stop looking at him like that. He might faint… – she said still whispering and giggled.
-Just this time, Atsuko. Just this time.
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Update ~~
I want to know More what's will happen next!
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oh!! i like it.. minami has a rival..
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Ooh, this fanfic looks good!
Please continue...
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Its a good story. Very good start. Please update soon :twothumbs
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That rival feeling, nice intro please continue :thumbsup
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Since there was comments here it is the second part. :thumbsup
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It started with a phone call from Atsuko.
It was quite late at night and I was returning from a recording in a radio show; I was tired by my day schedule, half conscious I flipped my phone open and answered. I didn’t check the caller ID, at this time it only could be the staff, some of the members or even Akimoto-sensei. But when the other person spoke, all my tiredness went away.
-Minami~
-Atsuko? What’s going on? Are you okay? Why are you calling me at this hour? – hearing her voice surprised me, it’s been months since the last time we see each other and for her to call me at this hour, it wasn’t normal.
-Now I can’t call a friend? – I imagined her pouting
-No! It’s not that and you know it! – I sighed – It’s just… it’s rare for you to call me at this hour, that’s all.
I heard her giggle.
-I can’t sleep – she said in that sing-sang voice she used when she was bored – Can you come here?
I blinked. What? Why? All this questions started forming in my mind. I really wanted to go, I wanted to see her; check if she’s okay or if she needs something, but my time… My excuse was my busy life, but in reality, I also was jealous and hurt.
-You can’t… – she sighed- I understand…
I could hear disappointment and sadness in her voice.
-I will call my manager – was my last statement before cutting the line and calling my manager.
Honestly speaking, I was nervous. Why? I don’t really know; maybe it was because it’s been so long, maybe it’s because I know she has a boyfriend and me going her apartment sounds weird, maybe it was my own feelings towards her. I’m seriously so confused, as to why I was nervous. I hesitated for some minutes, before inhaling and knocking the door.
She greeted me as usual, grabbing my hand, pulling me inside and launching herself against my body in a bear-crushing hug. I had my back against her closed door, as usual, my arms were on my sides and my hands turned into fists when I felt her nose against my neck.
-I’m glad to see you too, At-Atsuko… – Stuttering was the norm for me.
She giggled and planted a kiss on my neck before pulling away. Chills ran from my neck. She smiled at me, that beam smile of hers. Was she really that happy to see me? I wondered.
In silence she grabbed my hand and guided me towards her room; once inside she took my bag that was on my shoulder and placed it randomly on the floor. She removed my scarf from my neck slowly and then threw it to the side, falling on the floor too. She continued with my hair, it was a bit longer than the last time we met; she removed the hairpin and started stroking my hair. It was like a little massage and I couldn’t help but close my eyes and enjoy it.
When she stopped and I opened my eyes, she smiled at me sweetly.
-Do you want to take a shower? I still have some of your old clothes in here.
And I remembered that, since I used to spend so much time with her in here, we decided to bring some of my clothes. I smiled and nodded. I really needed a bath right now.
Once inside the bath, filled with warm water, I started remembering the old days when we spend our time together. I smiled.
Once out, and with a t-shirt and one of my old pajama pants, I was ready to sleep. I walked closer to the bed, slowly and trying to not make much noise, as I knew that Atsuko was already sleeping. I didn’t feel bad, actually this was normal. It was as if, knowing I was with her, she suddenly relaxed and fell asleep faster than she wanted.
Slowly I lifted the bed sheets and went inside. I removed for a bit before finding a comfortable position. I sighed and looked to my side. Atsuko was really a beauty when sleeping, she was simple perfect.
I smiled and closed my eyes, ready to have a night of good sleep.
And, then, I felt Atsuko’s arm around my waist and her head on my shoulder.
-Minami… – she whispered still sleeping.
I couldn’t sleep that night.
I don’t know when I fell asleep, but I guess that it was maybe around 5 in the morning, but the sound of my cellphone alarm woke me up, as usual, at 7. I tried to grab it and turn it off but I couldn’t reach it.
Opening my eyes, I moved a bit away from under Atsuko’s, still sleeping, body and I turned the alarm off. I could feel part of my body numb due our position and I tried to change it, so I could stretch. But it didn’t work. Even sleeping Atsuko had a strong hold.
I sighed and opening my phone again I checked my schedule for the day. I called my manager to tell him to come to pick me up later that day and, when I was hanging up, Atsuko hugged me tighter.
-Do you have to go? – She said in a still sleepy voice.
I nodded.
-Would you come back later?
-Why?
-I just really miss you, Minami. Don’t you miss me too? – She pouted and I suppressed a smile.
-I do miss you, Atsuko. But I’m busy… – It was always the same excuse.
-Fine then! – She then got up from bed – Don’t come back if you can’t. I’m sorry for disturbing your busy schedule.
She spoke in a soft, almost apologizing, voice. But, her actions spoke louder than her words. She walked out of her room and closed her door shut.
And that brings me to my actual situation. Sitting in Atsuko’s living room and wondering again why I am here. Oh wait, I remember. Since I didn’t want to make her angry I just moved my schedule a little bit and before leaving her apartment I told her I would come back at around 6 in the afternoon.
-Do you really only wanted me to drink tea with you? – I asked in disbelieve.
-I really want to spend time with you. Is that wrong?
-No. – I looked at her with an eyebrow up – But really? I don’t think you just wanted me to drink tea with you. – I just knew her too well.
She sighed.
-Alright – after placing her cup of tea back in the small table in front of us she continued – I want your help in something.
I frowned a little bit and turned my “serious” switch on.
-My help? In what exactly?
-This is going to be like, the first time, Onoe-san is taking me to this fancy restaurant and I TOTALLY can’t decide what to wear. Can you help me? – She brought both hands together and made a cute face.
I really couldn’t refuse. But, I tried.
-Why didn’t you call Tomochin or Haruna or even Yuko for this? Don’t you have like also your own stylist or something? – I was just playing hard to get at this point.
-Haruna? – Her eyebrows went up, clear signal of annoyance – Now you call her Haruna?
-What? – She’s always changing topics – I have always called her Haruna though.
-You used to call her Kojiharu, not HARUNA.
I blinked. Okay, fair enough. All this “me calling Kojiharu, Haruna” was to make her jealous. But… maybe I should just answer and not make her angrier.
-Well, she and Miichan are the closer people I have now inside AKB48… so, I don’t really understand why this is a big issue. – She made a movement with her mouth. That was a clear sign that she was upset. Well, damn! –Look, just tell me why you didn’t called any of those 3 in first place. You were agreeing with everyone that my clothes were ugly in the past. So…
She sighed.
-Tomochin was busy; Haruna is busy, actually with Yuko. And my stylist has her own life too. I just wanted you to tell me how I look, you know, the male perspective.
-The male perspective… I see… – I sighed again. She’s mocking me, I know.
-At what time will he pick you up again?
-At 8.
-He’s late – I looked at the time on my cellphone – he has to be here at least 30 minutes before the according hour!
-Could you stop? You are starting to sound like my father.
I looked at her, very beautifully dressed, and we had this staring fight, which I lost.
-I just want him to treat you well.
She came closer and hugged me.
-He treats me well, don’t worry – she giggled.
-Really? – She nodded.
Her scent was making me go crazy. Having her so close after god knows how long was making me go crazy.
-Atsuko… I … – And I was interrupted by the doorbell.
We separated and she was going to open the door, but I grabbed her hand and walked towards the door. It really didn’t surprise me the shock in his face.
-Ta-Takahashi-san. Ni-nice to see you aga-again – He stuttered. “Isn’t he cute?…. Nah”
-Nice to see you too. – Flowers, he came here with flowers – Oh, those are for me? – I grabbed the bouquet before he could even answer – Well, thank you! Come inside she’s waiting.
I gave him my biggest fake smile.
-I’ll just grab my purse and we can go – She announced to him before she went back to her room.
-Before you go – I said – I have some rules. – He looked at me and I really wanted to laugh at him – Don’t touch her more than necessary. No holding hands in public; many paparazzi are following her movements and I don’t want any scandal, adding to that, definitely no kissing, not even in the cheek. Don’t call her names. She’s not a kid. Be a gentleman and pay for her meal too even if she refuses. And I want her back here at 11. Not later. – Many years of being Captain and now General Manager prepared me to this day – Do you understand?
-Ye-yes, ma’am.
-What did you said?
-Yes, ma’am!
-Minami~ – Atsuko suddenly said – Stop~
Again that smile and that voice, well… She came closer and hugged me again.
-You don’t have to stay here and wait for me tonight. – She said in a sweet slash I am annoyed voice.
-But I want to. – was my firmly reply. What can I say? I’m stubborn.
-Don’t you have a schedule tonight? – She added.
Well, damn, again.
-I’ll call you after I finish the radio recording – I said feeling defeated.
She smiled again and walked towards her boyfriend. At least I’m glad that they didn’t kiss.
-Let’s go – she told him while smiling and he only nodded.
And before they walked through the door Atsuko looked back at me. I smiled and wished her good luck, by bringing my thumbs up, even though I wanted to kill that man. She smiled again and waved good bye.
Omake:
I was tired. I wanted to go to bed and sleep again. The recording went well and I had fun, but I was a little bit distracted by the fact that Atsuko hadn’t replied to my texts.
I closed my eyes, I just wanted to surrender to the tiredness I felt and sleep until I arrived home and then throw myself in my bed. But my phone had other plans. A new message.
“It all went well :D Thank you for helping me. Are you going back to your apartment? Why don’t you just come home?”
I blinked. My mind wasn’t working so well at this point. And then, after a few minutes, I realized.
-Kenji-san, could you turn around and leave me at Atsuko’s apartment again? – I asked.
The man looked at me from the front mirror of the car and nodded while smiling.
-Let’s just go home – I whispered.
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First thing first... I WANT MORE!!! GIVE ME PART 3!!! :lol:
I really like it, but I feel really bad for Minami having to help Atsuko for her stupid date :angry:
I think jealousy Atsuko is always funny and needed in fics. Minami playing hard to get was definitely new XD and I always love it when Minami is commanding and being strict, it's very sexy to me :inlove: She definitely needs to put Onoe back to wherever he came from because he is not needed for Atsuko :twisted:
Anyway, I look forward to the next update, and you should definitely post this on tumblr too if you haven't already :)
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Its so funny about Minami black mailing... we need part 3
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Urgg...so when will this Onoe guy get kicked out of this story since he's obviously not needed :? ? And why did Acchan decide to date him in the first place when it's clear as daylight that she's no that into him :? ? Having said that though,I'm looking forward to you update :P
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I'm definitely waiting for 3.0 XD
anyway, Minami really acts like a over-protective father here XD
the black mailing is great!
Onoe-san ... when can we say goodbye to you?
Jealousy is great!
Acchan and Minami's home~~ hmm~~ XD
looking forward ~
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First thing first... I WANT MORE!!! GIVE ME PART 3!!! :lol:
I really like it, but I feel really bad for Minami having to help Atsuko for her stupid date :angry:
I think jealousy Atsuko is always funny and needed in fics. Minami playing hard to get was definitely new XD and I always love it when Minami is commanding and being strict, it's very sexy to me :inlove: She definitely needs to put Onoe back to wherever he came from because he is not needed for Atsuko :twisted:
Anyway, I look forward to the next update, and you should definitely post this on tumblr too if you haven't already :)
Eh? Part 3? Umm I'll try to write part 3! I already have some ideas to continue, but... we'll see :P And I guess I should post it on tumblr! I will later!
Its so funny about Minami black mailing... we need part 3
Already wrote some ideas! Soon! XD
Urgg...so when will this Onoe guy get kicked out of this story since he's obviously not needed :? ? And why did Acchan decide to date him in the first place when it's clear as daylight that she's no that into him :? ? Having said that though,I'm looking forward to you update :P
I probably have to make a kind of flashback to why Acchan decides to date Onoe in first place. You gave me a new idea that I can use! thank you! :lol:
I'm definitely waiting for 3.0 XD
anyway, Minami really acts like a over-protective father here XD
the black mailing is great!
Onoe-san ... when can we say goodbye to you?
Jealousy is great!
Acchan and Minami's home~~ hmm~~ XD
looking forward ~
I guess everyone wants Onoe out of the story but, I will try to kick him out xD there's a reason for why he's here xD
Ah and you noticed that ending! thank you for reading and I will definitely try to update soon! :twothumbs
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Okay so, it’s been a while. I was sick but now I’m better so ….
Since Acceptance got actually good reviews so… here is the third part! Now I wanna ask something.
Since I tried to make this fic as real as possible, at first I didn’t intend to break the Atsuko-Onoe pair… but Should I break them up and pair her with Minami or…? What do you think? Let me know!! xD (though I think it's really obvious)
So here is the third part, I didn’t review it or edit it. I don’t feel like it. Also I didn’t want that flashback to be like that but honestly I can’t think of anything else in the moment. I don’t want you to keep waiting so here is it!
Ps: I know it feels rushed, sorry for that but I really couldn't think of anything else :smhid
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-Why am I here again, Atsuko? – I asked
-I really want you to taste this meal I’m doing. – She smiled at me as she placed all the plates in front of me – I want your opinion. It’s the first time I’m doing all this, so…
-Right…
Let me tell you something, the sweets she cooks are always delicious, but, when she tries to cook a decent meal the taste is simple... Not good. I looked at the meals in front of me, they didn’t have a strange color or smell, but I was more worried about the taste.
She called me hours ago, asking me if I was free and if I was hungry. Honestly, I thought we would go to a restaurant or something to eat, I never expected for her to invite me to eat and that she would cook. But again, even if she tells me that she wants me to jump off of a cliff, I would never say no. And so, since I had that night and next morning free, I decided to accept.
Once I arrived at her apartment and she again gave me a bear-crushing hug, I finally noticed the characteristic smell of cooking. I told her that I never expected she would cook, and at this point I was sweating, and she simple giggled and told me that she wanted to try cooking once again because she wanted to give Onoe-san a present on his birthday.
The boyfriend was named again and here I am being the laboratory rat. But I can’t deny her anything, not to her. I wonder what would have been of us if I would have accepted her proposal after her graduation party. Would she be cooking for me now? Shaking my head I decided to stop thinking about that. I always believed that once you made a decision you have to live with the consequences, no matter how hard it is.
I looked at her; she was looking at me with a big smile and expectation. I gulped and grabbing the fork I bravely tasted the first plate.
It wasn’t as bad as I thought it would… Or so I believed that in the beginning. The salty taste of the meat and then the sourness, all combined with all the random ingredients exploded after a few seconds of having them on my mouth. I didn’t want to hurt Atsuko’s feelings and I wanted that boyfriend of hers to taste this, so I just simple swallowed it all.
-Is it okay? – Atsuko asked me.
-Its… its… not… so bad actually… - I was trying not to make any gesture, but it was really bad.
And she noticed.
-Are you sure? – She insisted.
I nodded, fearing that if opened my mouth I would throw up. She wasn’t so convinced and told me to eat it all so she can be sure that everything had the right flavor. That didn’t end too well…
-You should have told me that it was bad! – She reprehends me as she passed me a cup of tea.
-I just didn’t want to hurt your feelings – “And I wanted for that man to suffer this instead of me” I added in my head.
Well, I guess that what people say is true… Karma is a bitch… I was half sitting, half lying down on her couch, she was next to me.
-Still! – She pouted.
I caressed her cheek, slowly, with my right hand and I smiled.
-It’s not like I’m going to die – I giggled – One more dish and I would have though…
She blushed and then slapped my arm. I liked that side of hers. The always shy and insecure Atsuko; that side that I wanted to protect at all cost, that side that I wanted to make happy; even if she wasn’t mine.
-Just let me recover for a while and I will help you out in the kitchen, okay? – I smiled, still feeling my stomach sick.
-Could you stay here till tomorrow? – She then asked – It’s just that I want to give it to him tomorrow because I won’t be around on his birthday.
And how could I say no?
I couldn’t sleep; for some reason I don’t feel relaxed. Maybe it’s because Atsuko is sleeping besides me, as usual, maybe is because I keep thinking about her and that man. Don’t get me wrong, I love the fact that she can experiment other kinds of love, that she is living her life, but what about us? What we are? I feel confused.
After her fail cooking of earlier, she told me that she had to work. She arrived home late and went straight to bed, without even changing her clothes, she didn’t hug me, so I feel free. I walked to her kitchen and made me a tea. The sounds of some cars roaming the streets and the characteristic sounds of the night relaxed me a bit.
I didn’t know what to do. If I keep coming to her house, keep half living with her, I fear that I could do something that I will regret and I don’t want to lose her. She’s my best friend above anything else. But my heart is just not happy with just that title. Sitting in her living room, in front of the TV, I just drink the hot tea as I let it warm my body in this fresh night. Sighing, I close my eyes and my memories come back to me, especially that day, at her last performance in the theater, her graduation.
There she was, with that radiant and big smile. She was trying to hold back her tears, but we were crying, knowing that we won’t see her as often as we usually do, that she won’t be there on special days, in the theater, that she won’t be there with us at concerts. But we all knew that she will be there for us.
Backstage was a chaos, the younger girls crying and hugging her while everyone else just cried alone, waiting for a moment as Atsuko assured that we are gonna be okay again and again. It wasn’t a heartbreaking image; to me she was an amazing example of braveness. And even though she said that she would be okay, I knew she was feeling scared. Soon enough she will be alone.
We changed our clothes and went out, to celebrate her graduation and her future success. I couldn’t see her; I was feeling worse than I thought. Nevertheless, I laughed and played along with all our friends. Mariko as always teasing and joking around, Yuko being Yuko and Kojiharu trying to control her; Miichan, however, was still crying while Atsuko spoke with her. For some reason I felt bad, I felt that the air in this private salon was heavy and I just needed to get out of there.
The rooftop had a good sight of this part of Tokyo. The bright lights and the busy people on the street, going home or to some kind of party; the workers that went out with their coworkers and the young people going to clubs and being young and stupid; and me, at my 20’s I wanted to be free, young and stupid.
I sigh; it’s so not like me to think like this but Atsuko’s graduation made me think about that freedom we get from this group. We are free to certain extent, but we have rules, and me, who’s at the very top I can’t just think like this. Though I would be glad to just do what the other girls do at this age. Young and stupid, for some reason it sounded great.
-Why are you here alone? – Her voice startled me and I jumped for a bit before turning back at her.
And there she was, still with that big and radiant smile, but with sadness in her eyes. What can I say to her? That I wish, even if it’s just for a second, to graduate too and follow her? I couldn’t say that, I needed to be strong. Feelings are just so hard to keep.
-I just needed some air – I laughed nervously – I think I drank a bit more than I should.
She raised an eyebrow, she knew me well.
-If you were drunk, you would be sleeping by now.
Well, that excuse will not work. I only had to be honest with her.
-I just… - she came closer to me – I just feel lonely… You’ll be gone soon and I…
She hugged me suddenly, hiding her face on my neck, and I could notice that she started crying.
-I will miss you too… - She whispered near my ear, making me shiver.
I hugged her back, tightly, trying to always remember how well we matched together; trying to always remember how warm her hugs are; and to remember that we won’t be away for too long.
-Live with me – She whispered suddenly.
I tensed right away. I knew what she was trying to say, I knew that she loved me; she already confessed it. I knew that I loved her too. But from knowing to actually acting as we were a couple, I just couldn’t. She noticed my change and pulled away, to face me.
-We can’t Atsuko… - I said softly.
-We already did – she said with a certain disappointment in her voice – What do you call to all these years and months together? Don’t tell me you don’t feel the same…
-I…
-Why Minami? Why is so difficult to agree? – She used that low voice that I hated.
-The love-ban rule… - I whispered.
-That’s stupid you know?! – She laughed bitterly – Either way, I’m free from that stupid rule now.
-But I don’t and I have to put an example and-
-Oh, come on! Every one of the members thinks we are together already! Don’t you see it?! You are the only one that it’s in denial.
Young and stupid. I wanted to be young and stupid and yet, here the captain in me totally didn’t allow me to just say “yes, let’s live together”
-I love you, Minami. Don’t you love me? – She whispered.
I gulped. Accepting that I loved her was like accepting the fact that I wanted to live with her and for some reason the words got stuck on my throat and instead other words were said.
-You don’t know that for sure – I said in a really low voice – You don’t know if you really love me. We’ve been together for a long time; this could be only confusion on your part…
-Don’t say that… I know I love you-
-How do you know? You don’t know anything else! Have you loved someone else? – I looked at her trying to put the serious face I always used with the members. I never used that face with her.
She looked at me for a few seconds and then she smiled.
-You’re right… I don’t know… - She cleaned the trail of tears from her cheeks and then smiled. – Just don’t regret it later okay?
I jumped when I felt a pair of arms around my shoulders.
-What are you doing here? – Atsuko asked with a very sleepy voice
-I’m sorry, I just couldn’t sleep… Why don’t you go back to bed? I’ll just stay here for a while and then I’ll go back…
She yawned and walked in front of me; she then sat on me and hugged me again.
-I can’t sleep without my pillow, remember? – She whispered and hugged me tighter.
Of course, this koala needed something or someone to hug every time she slept. I sighed again.
-Atsuko, let’s just go back to bed then… - No response and I frowned- Atsuko…?
I blinked. Great… She was sound asleep and not even an earthquake will wake her up… I wrapped my arms around her and tried to make myself comfortable in my current position. I sighed one last time and I let her characteristic strawberry scent fill my nose.
The next day I woke up feeling better and numb again, her hold around my waist was really strong. Opening my eyes, slowly as the sun made its way through the window of her living, I noticed, or more like the lack of feeling from my legs, made me realize that more than half of my body was still asleep. I looked at the koala I had still around my body and I smiled.
Her beauty was beyond the normal standards. Even when she said that she wasn’t cute and pretty, she was. Her bed hair and her natural look were even prettier. I wanted to wake up like this every day. I kissed her forehead and she then, lazily, opened her eyes. She looked at me, still asleep, and smiled; I smiled back.
-Good morning – I softly said.
-Good mor… - she yawned – ning
She stretched her whole body and deliberately slapped me.
-Oi!
She giggled and then placed a kiss on my cheek before getting up and walking towards the bathroom. She’s playing with me, I know. She likes it, playing with my feelings and having me in the palm of her hand. I am not complaining though.
After getting up, I went towards her kitchen. I wanted to prepare breakfast to her. Pancakes and fruit with orange juice to her and coffee to me; Atsuko never liked drinking coffee, saying that the flavor wasn’t made to her taste buds. I was so immersed in my own thoughts that I didn’t hear her coming until she was hugging me from behind and with her chin resting on my shoulders.
-Pancakes! – She excitedly said – it’s been awhile since I ate them!
I was getting nervous, having her so close and yet not being able to honestly express what I was feeling was surely a punishment. So I just smiled and continued with my task. Atsuko didn’t move from her place, not even when I finished with the pancakes and started cutting the fruits. If I moved, she moved with me and giggled. I was getting nervous again. When finally I finished, she separated from my body and after giving me another kiss she sat on the table; just like a kid waiting for her favorite meal.
I laughed at this and teased her. She looked away and pouted, I could notice that she was blushing too. Finally, placing the breakfast on the table, we ate in silence. There was no need for words at this point; both of us enjoyed those times when we stayed in silence, in company of the other. I could see her enjoying her meal and I couldn’t help to smile again. I missed her so much and even though work keeps me busy and prevented me to think about her, at every opportunity I had I always thought about her.
I loved her, there was no doubt about that; but I wasn’t ready.
-At what time is he gonna arrive again?
-Don’t do this again, Minami! – She yelled from the bathroom – He will come soon.
Tsk… She learns so fast.
We spent the whole afternoon cooking. She made a few mistakes that I had to fix, nothing too bad though and in the end everything tasted fairly good.
It was 7 pm already. I had work at 9, so I wanted to stay there until the very end. Of course, Atsuko would not allow it.
-You okay? – Asked me Miichan.
The recording for that day was AKBSHOW and I was spacing out more than I should.
-Yeah, just thinking about…
-Acchan?
I wanted to deny it but then again I couldn’t. I simple keep quiet. Miichan giggled and gave me a few pats on my back.
-You really should get married soon.
-I know right? … OI! Miichan!
She just laughed.
-It went that good, huh? – I said softly as Atsuko hugged me again.
-Thank you, Minami! For always being there to help me! – She said and kissed my cheek.
-Always… - I whispered.
She smiled and snuggled closer to me. She fell asleep quickly while I, on the other hand, sighed again.
What am I doing here again? I told to myself. We were in bed at Atsuko’s apartment, once again.
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I think you already knew the answer but I'll just say it out of courtesy :). The whole reason we like reading fanfics is that we do not like what's happening in real life; so...why still bother keeping what happens in the fic as close as possible to its real-life counterpart? That defeats the purpose of fanfic, won't it? I believe when Atsumina fans come here reading the fic, they do not expect reading Atsuko and that Onoe guy together so I think your question is not really a question since the answer - like you said too - is already obvious, plus the title itself gives off the impression on which pairing will be prominent. Truthfully speaking, I get irritated every time his name gets mentioned especially from Atsuko while being lovey-dovey with Takamina - I hate that the most - I'd rather them being cold to each other and doing their own things, but the way Atsuko acts in this doesn't make me hate her, but you know what I mean. In short, he's not welcome here so you know what to do :twisted:
Regarding the reason for Atsuko dating him, I don't quite get it, but I think Takamina is the one to blame for this. She brought it upon herself for rejecting Acchan after all XD.
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Hmmm...
Being a Minami oshi, I like for her to be happy, ya know? I don't want to see her staying in this situation any longer, so there's 2 ideas that I came up with, and it's up to you if you like to use them :)
1. Minami is getting tired of helping Atsuko with her boyfriend, so she decided to distance herself away by ignoring her. Of course Atsuko noticed and started feeling lonelier day by day. Even when Atsuko is spending time with her boyfriend, she wasn't really there, and keeps thinking about Minami. Eventually, she'll realized that having a temporary boyfriend is the same as having no boyfriend because she only yearns for Minami and only wants Minami.
2. Minami starts spending time with other members. Like sexy members. Mocchi or Milky or Sayanee, girls who likes/crushes on Minami that has a killer body like Atsuko. The more time Minami spends time with the other girl, the less time she spends with Atsuko, so of course Atsuko would also noticed that. She starts getting irritated because Minami doesn't have time with her anymore. The more days have passed, the more angrier and jealous she gets, to the point of forgetting that she has a boyfriend.
Both of those ideas of course will have Atsuko dumped the boyfriend lol
Anyway, I look forward to what you'll do next ^_^
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I think you already knew the answer but I'll just say it out of courtesy :). The whole reason we like reading fanfics is that we do not like what's happening in real life; so...why still bother keeping what happens in the fic as close as possible to its real-life counterpart? That defeats the purpose of fanfic, won't it? I believe when Atsumina fans come here reading the fic, they do not expect reading Atsuko and that Onoe guy together so I think your question is not really a question since the answer - like you said too - is already obvious, plus the title itself gives off the impression on which pairing will be prominent. Truthfully speaking, I get irritated every time his name gets mentioned especially from Atsuko while being lovey-dovey with Takamina - I hate that the most - I'd rather them being cold to each other and doing their own things, but the way Atsuko acts in this doesn't make me hate her, but you know what I mean. In short, he's not welcome here so you know what to do :twisted:
Regarding the reason for Atsuko dating him, I don't quite get it, but I think Takamina is the one to blame for this. She brought it upon herself for rejecting Acchan after all XD.
Yeah!! I think almost the same.. BUT I really love the flavor of this "experimenting love" from atsuko for me it oks that she had a boyfriend so she can see that doesnt matter gender she gonna love Minami doesnt matter what happen.. and Minami being overprotective with her is funny.. for me its really ok BUT in the end need to be Atsumina.. cause.. ITS ATSUMINA!
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Can't waite the next chapter.. :w00t:
From where you all get this ideas what to write.. they are great.. :thumbsup
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I think you already knew the answer but I'll just say it out of courtesy :). The whole reason we like reading fanfics is that we do not like what's happening in real life; so...why still bother keeping what happens in the fic as close as possible to its real-life counterpart? That defeats the purpose of fanfic, won't it? I believe when Atsumina fans come here reading the fic, they do not expect reading Atsuko and that Onoe guy together so I think your question is not really a question since the answer - like you said too - is already obvious, plus the title itself gives off the impression on which pairing will be prominent. Truthfully speaking, I get irritated every time his name gets mentioned especially from Atsuko while being lovey-dovey with Takamina - I hate that the most - I'd rather them being cold to each other and doing their own things, but the way Atsuko acts in this doesn't make me hate her, but you know what I mean. In short, he's not welcome here so you know what to do :twisted:
Regarding the reason for Atsuko dating him, I don't quite get it, but I think Takamina is the one to blame for this. She brought it upon herself for rejecting Acchan after all XD.
I know everyone wants Atsumina... though this is what I wanted. To know your opinions like this, so I can write the next one. I already have like 1/3 of it. I have a bit of work... so maybe it will take me like a week or too to finish it. But just wait for it! I promise some drama xD
Takamina is the one to blame indeed xD but Atsuko was quite desperate.... she wanted to make Minami jealous... but it backfired her xD Don't worry! Please wait for it! I will post the next part as soon as I can!
And thank you for the great comment! :on GJ:
Hmmm...
Being a Minami oshi, I like for her to be happy, ya know? I don't want to see her staying in this situation any longer, so there's 2 ideas that I came up with, and it's up to you if you like to use them :)
1. Minami is getting tired of helping Atsuko with her boyfriend, so she decided to distance herself away by ignoring her. Of course Atsuko noticed and started feeling lonelier day by day. Even when Atsuko is spending time with her boyfriend, she wasn't really there, and keeps thinking about Minami. Eventually, she'll realized that having a temporary boyfriend is the same as having no boyfriend because she only yearns for Minami and only wants Minami.
2. Minami starts spending time with other members. Like sexy members. Mocchi or Milky or Sayanee, girls who likes/crushes on Minami that has a killer body like Atsuko. The more time Minami spends time with the other girl, the less time she spends with Atsuko, so of course Atsuko would also noticed that. She starts getting irritated because Minami doesn't have time with her anymore. The more days have passed, the more angrier and jealous she gets, to the point of forgetting that she has a boyfriend.
Both of those ideas of course will have Atsuko dumped the boyfriend lol
Anyway, I look forward to what you'll do next ^_^
Both are great ideas. I will probably use a bit of both to create some drama action! xD I already started writing it! But I'm busy right now.... so... wait for it!
And thank you for the comment and the ideas! :hee:
I think you already knew the answer but I'll just say it out of courtesy :). The whole reason we like reading fanfics is that we do not like what's happening in real life; so...why still bother keeping what happens in the fic as close as possible to its real-life counterpart? That defeats the purpose of fanfic, won't it? I believe when Atsumina fans come here reading the fic, they do not expect reading Atsuko and that Onoe guy together so I think your question is not really a question since the answer - like you said too - is already obvious, plus the title itself gives off the impression on which pairing will be prominent. Truthfully speaking, I get irritated every time his name gets mentioned especially from Atsuko while being lovey-dovey with Takamina - I hate that the most - I'd rather them being cold to each other and doing their own things, but the way Atsuko acts in this doesn't make me hate her, but you know what I mean. In short, he's not welcome here so you know what to do :twisted:
Regarding the reason for Atsuko dating him, I don't quite get it, but I think Takamina is the one to blame for this. She brought it upon herself for rejecting Acchan after all XD.
Yeah!! I think almost the same.. BUT I really love the flavor of this "experimenting love" from atsuko for me it oks that she had a boyfriend so she can see that doesnt matter gender she gonna love Minami doesnt matter what happen.. and Minami being overprotective with her is funny.. for me its really ok BUT in the end need to be Atsumina.. cause.. ITS ATSUMINA!
Yeah, exactly. Plus is a quite different side of the Atsumina pair don't you think? Don't worry, it's gonna end being Atsumina! xD
thank you for commenting!
Can't waite the next chapter.. :w00t:
From where you all get this ideas what to write.. they are great.. :thumbsup
It's actually really difficult to get the ideas.... so I write several small scenarios and then pick up the ones that suits the fic better! HARD WORK!!
Thank you for your comment! :whistle:
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Now thinking back about it, I have a feeling Atsuko actually just wants to test Takamina's jealousy and her own feelings at the same time, but more on the former.
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I love the story. But, I dont know.. I really want to see Acchan gets jealous because Minami with the other member. That will be interesting. Waiting for next chapter
And sorry for my bad english. Lol
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Now thinking back about it, I have a feeling Atsuko actually just wants to test Takamina's jealousy and her own feelings at the same time, but more on the former.
WE HAVE A WINNER!!!!! :onioncheer:
That's exactly what I wanted to project in this story xD
I love the story. But, I dont know.. I really want to see Acchan gets jealous because Minami with the other member. That will be interesting. Waiting for next chapter
And sorry for my bad english. Lol
Don't worry, Jealous Atsuko coming next! :glasses:
thank you for commenting :on GJ:
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Thanks to Rain-san for keep me amused so I could finish this chapter!
After this one.... Maybe there will be another one, maybe it will be the end. I'm not sure!
Leave comments xD It is so rushed and unedited so, I'm sorry if you find any errors! :depressed:
Also, thanks to everyone who read this story!
Enjoy~ .... or not.... :sweat:
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The rehearsal extended for a few hours more, as I was trying to get rid of the thought of Atsuko being with that guy again, even after weeks of their date. I was really feeling frustrated and angry. But I just couldn’t say anything. We just couldn’t…
-I think… we should… stop now… Minami-san… - A voice said distracting me from my thoughts.
I looked around and I saw all the members on the floor. I looked up at the watch on the wall and I was surprised when I saw the hour. We’ve been here, practicing for more than 8 hours, non-stop. I couldn’t believe that I didn’t notice the tiredness on the members’ faces, and I felt a bit guilty. I agreed with the instructor and I apologized with the members for not noticing their physical state. They said that they understood and that they didn’t blame me. I bowed at them as they left the room, until I stayed alone there. I sighed and I sat down on the floor, I scratched the back of my head and I looked up.
We’ve been busier than before. Especially me and a few of the most popular members, and yet, I couldn’t stop thinking about her. Maybe, and just maybe, if I could be brave enough and tell her that my answer was positive. If I just… I sighed again.
-It’s too late now! – I said to myself – She has someone else already and I just can’t walk in and just… ugh…
I decided to keep dancing and try to forget about her, at least for a while.
It was 6pm when I finished with one of the many recordings of that day. I had a few hours to myself before going to another studio for another TV Show. As I was saying good bye to the staff and other people around, I heard my phone rigning. It was a message from Atsuko.
“Are you busy right now? I feel kind of bored. I’m about to eat something. Have you eaten yet?”
How is that she knows the exact time to call me or text me? Like, is she spying me or something? Certainly, I haven’t eaten since last night dinner and now, at the mention of food, my stomach growled.
-Are you coming, Takamina? – Said Miichan
-I have something else to do – I replied – I’m sorry! I will see you later!
I waved to all the members in the changing room and left as I replied to Atsuko to give me the name of the place she was in right now.
-How do you do that? – I asked as I sat right in front of her.
-Do what? – She asked me confused.
-You know … that timing of calling me and then I’m suddenly free and closer to wherever you are and… Are you stalking me?
She looked at me with a confused face for a couple of seconds before bursting in laugh. I frowned, I was being serious though.
-How can I be stalking you, since, I practically don’t know where you were? – She giggled – I’m just arriving from overseas and decided to eat something and I wanted some company, so I called you.
-Why didn’t you call your boyfriend? – I said quite harshly.
Her smile instantly disappeared and I knew that, once again, I said something I shouldn’t. We only looked at each other for a while, until the waiter came and asked for our orders.
-If you didn’t want to come, you should had just say it – Atsuko said in a very neutral voice and I knew she was very angry.
I was jealous earlier and also stressed by all the amount of work we had the past weeks. I couldn’t stop my brain on time.
-It’s just that, I look more like your boyfriend than your friend, you know? – She looked at me as she placed the spoon down on the table and looked at me quite surprised, I was feeling brave, and stupid, so I continued – You already have Onoe-san, who I bet will have more free time than me right now. Why don’t you just call him and spend more time together?
Atsuko then smiled, and don’t be fooled, when she smiles like that, it means she’s utterly angry.
-You’re right – She started saying – I’m sorry for not taking in consideration that you are always busy. You’re right; I should spend more time with my boyfriend than with just a friend. Thank you, Takamina.
She then grabbed her purse and left me there, alone.
I knocked my forehead with the wooden table and groaned. Great Minami, just great.
-We still can make some changes in the arrangement, right? – I asked to the staff member.
-I think we can do something about it, but I have to ask first – she said.
I nodded and she left. I sighed, which apparently was my new habit; I pushed any different thought away and started checking the schedule for the day.
I looked around and, after seeing the tired faces around me, I decided to call for a break. I grabbed a bottle of water and started drinking the content quite fast. I felt more tired than usual; perhaps it was because now, apparently, I can’t seem to sleep well. I was thinking about that day, I will be lying if I didn’t feel hurt. Not because she’s not trying to fix this, but because I was the one who caused all this, and I was the one avoiding her. Scared of her wanting an explanation or a confirmation, all I do now is to wonder if I should call her or not; if I should just go to her apartment and ask for her forgiveness, not only about my words, but for everything else.
A pair of arms wrapped around my shoulders from behind and for a moment, I wished it was Atsuko. But the real owner of those arms started nibbling my ear.
-Stop it, Mocchi – I said calmly.
I was used to her attacks, that didn’t make me feel less embarrassed though, but it was so normal now, that I didn’t even fight against her. She giggled, as usual.
-I missed you, Captain – She said in a rather sexy voice.
-I am not your captain anymore though – She giggled again.
-Oh, should I correct that and say Sou-kan-to-ku instead? – I could feel her smiling against my nape and I shivered.
-Ju-just stop, Mocchi. I’m not in the mood right now.
She took my chin with one hand and softly made me face her. She was smiling, not in a pervert way, like Yuko, but somehow, it made me feel relieved seeing that expression of hers, after so long. It reminded me of the old days. When Atsuko would come to the dressing room right when Mocchi was harassing my ears and with a very dangerous tone, she would suggest Mocchi, to leave me alone.
I giggled. More because of that memory than because of the way she was sniffing my ear. I was about to tell her to stop again, when a voice interrupted us.
-Could you please, get away from her?
She froze in her place, her eyes opened bigger than ever and she gulped. It was as if she had seen a ghost, all pale and without moving.
-Should I repeat myself?
Faster than ever, Mocchi jumped away from me, and I was relieved that she did. I sighed and I looked at the person who saved me, I wanted to thank her for making her go, but the words didn’t come out. Maeda Atsuko was in front of me, just a few meters away from where we were rehearsing with a really dark aura. One would think that Yuki was the most dangerous person to piss off. But in reality, if you ask me, Atsuko is always above everyone; even above Mariko-sama’s craziness. And, honestly, I would prefer an angry and sarcastic Yuki than an angry, cold and sadistic Atsuko.
She then walked towards me; I wanted to run, but where could I run to? The older members knew better to step out of her way; they knew that that aura she was emitting wasn’t her idol aura. Some of the youngest members wanted to greet her, but the other members stopped them before they would taste Atsuko’s rage. This was my opportunity to apologize, to explain things to her. But obviously, if I did that, I wouldn’t be Takahashi Minami.
I reunited all my strength and braveness, from heaven knows where, and I put that “Captain” mask I always used when the members weren’t listening. The serious side of me came out to play, and the scared me, didn’t know if I could deal with such hell it was approaching at every step Atsuko took.
She didn’t wait to be near me to start talking – yelling, mind you.
-Why haven’t you called me or texted me?! – She asked – I’ve been waiting for you to apologize and an explanation!
-Could you lower your voice? – I looked around, all members from the sister groups and the staff were looking at us with curiosity and fear – We are in the middle of work.
-Oh, so now your work consists in letting Mocchi do things to you? Wow! How AKB48 got from Idol work to harassing! This time you guys did it! – She laughed sarcastically.
Behind me I could heard Miichan’s voice telling everyone to leave us alone. Great Miichan, Atsuko is here to murder me and you are just making it easier to her. What a great friend you are, Miichan! I got distracted for a second there and when I went back to reality, I had Atsuko a few centimeters away from me.
-First was that NMB girl with the blue hair, then it was KojiHaru and now is Mocchi? What the hell, Takamina?!
Woah! Did she just call me by my nickname again?
-It wasn’t Momoka-san first. – I said to myself – Since the beginning was Kojiharu, then Mocchi and then Momoka-san. Ah, and don’t forget about Nako-chan…
-WHAT?!
Oh, crap… I didn’t say that out loud… did I? My failing face appeared. I didn’t know what to say and what to do. My automatic mode acted by itself before understanding what I was doing.
I turned around, grabbed my bag and looked back at her.
-Look, Acchan – I said her nickname with poison – Why are you here? You made everyone go when we didn’t finish rehearsal. I have work to do and I don’t have time to talk about childish stuff. Why don’t you wait after rehearsal or when I have some free time and then we will talk?
She looked at me, disbelief in her face. I was trying not to break that mask of seriousness I had, but deep inside, I was so damn scared. She opened and closed her mouth a few times, a gesture she always did when she didn’t know what to say and was in the middle of a rant.
After a few minutes in silence, I sighed.
-I will go now. Please, next time you want to talk call me first – I started walking towards the dressing rooms, sweating and hoping that this was the end of the conversation today.
-You’ve been ignoring me… - She said. She said it in a low voice, but loud enough for me to hear it, and it made me stop. That voice, I knew that tone very well – I’ve called you, many times. And you never answer or call back.
-I’ve been busy, okay? – I said, feeling guilty because in fact, she was right.
-Could you please drop that excuse already?! – She yelled – Just tell me why you are ignoring me already!
-I am not ignoring you – I said calmly –I’ve been really busy lately. I haven’t had time to call you back I always arrive home at 3 in the morning just to try to sleep for a bit and then wake up at 6. I saw your calls, I wanted to call you, but I kept forgetting about it.
-Stop, lying! Why don’t you admit it already?! Why don’t you grow up already?! Oh, wait! I forgot! You will never grow up more! – Atsuko said with sarcasm.
I frowned, did she just…
-What did you say? – I stared at her, I really hated when people messed up with my height.
-You heard me
I walked the few steps that separated us and with an angry expression, I faced her, daring her to repeat her last words. She didn’t look away; she had that insane and wild look on her eyes. As weird as it sounds, I also missed that expression; that expression that was part of a warning, part fear. The demanding and yet scared way of looking.
She leaned down, near to me as possible, and I didn’t move an inch. If this was a challenge I will never back down. Anger, jealousy, stress, tiredness, love, and many other feelings passed from her eyes. But, I realized way too late, that all those feelings weren’t Atsuko’s. Her eyes were mirroring my own feelings flashing on my eyes.
And that’s when I felt it and the bottle of water slipped from my grip.
The sweet taste of her lipstick and the soft feeling of her lips against mine; I didn’t closed my eyes. My heart was pumping faster than ever before and my head was spinning. I could felt myself giving in to my own feelings of love, but then a face flashed before my eyes.
The Boyfriend.
I grabbed Atsuko’s shoulders and I was about to push her away, when someone else opened the door.
-Oh! Sorry for interrupting you! – I pushed myself away from Atsuko fast and looked at the person who interrupted us –more like saved me. – You can… you know… keep doing whatever you were… doing…
-It is not what you think it is, Haruna! – I said feeling scared. Haruna giggled – It is really not what you think!
-Sure… - She said and waving her hand she was lost from our sight.
I gulped; I didn’t dare to look at Atsuko. I didn’t even dare to move my body an inch.
-Onoe-san and I… - She said breaking the silence.
The boyfriend again, I was done with this and that man and Atsuko.
-You know what? – I said interrupting her – I don’t care anymore. Go to him and do whatever you want to do. I don’t want to know about it anymore. – I crouched to grab the bottle I had minutes earlier and after grabbing it, I looked at Atsuko – I’m your friend, not a toy you can tease and then leave. I can’t stand this anymore. I’m sorry, Atsuko. But… I really can’t keep doing this.
Her acting skills were so good. She just looked at me with a blank expression. I didn’t see any sort of guiltiness or sadness, not even anger. If she just had done something, slapped me or yelled at me again… And if I just had seen what that new expression meant, I would not been feeling guilty hours later.
One month. One month without knowing anything about her. One month feeling like a total jerk, thanks to Haruna and Miichan of course, they where the first ones to notice my sudden change and, after they practically tortured me, I told them what happened with Atsuko the other day.
Haruna was angry at me and even punched me a few times while Miichan just laughed and told me “what a jerk”. That was exactly what I needed.
-Why don’t you just go to her house and apologize? – Miichan suggested when we were heading to our respective apartments after the radio show that night.
-Right now?! It’s too late, I can’t! – I said
-Not right now, idiot! I mean, someday.
-Like later – Added Haruna
-And just apologize. – continued Miichan.
-She’s angry. You know her and she will just be the cold princess she is! She won’t even look at me!
-Well, you deserve it, you know?! – Both said at the same time.
It’s been, another month and no messages and no calls. I was feeling more and more guilty about what I said and Miichan’s words resounded on my head.
Arriving home, I left my bag and my shoes on the entrance, I walked barefoot towards my room and without turning the lights on I sat on the edge of my cold bed. I sighed and glanced to the small desk I had. I walked towards there and I grabbed the newspaper from months ago.
Dated with the day after our fight at the theater, in the front page I could read, even if I couldn’t see it quite clearly, “BREAKING NEWS: MAEDA ATSUKO AND ONOE MATSUYA. BREAK UP!”
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(It's leave, not left :v wahehehe)
I WILL EDIT MY COMMENT LATER :depressed:
(Here it is~!)
BUT ONE THINGS FOR SURE, I'M GOING TO KILL YOU! :mon XD:
(I WILL! WATCH OUT!)
I hope I inspired you! /slapped :mon cry:
(I did, right? :dunno:)
ALL HAIL JEALOUS ACCHAN~!
So our lovely Goddess decided her true feelings eh? :hehehe:
Remember the part you sent me? I read it again, and I couldn't help it but I smiled but I felt the sadness at the same time. :depressed:
The lonewolf48-san! I hope Takamina will do something so that she's going to win Acchan~. :dunno:
Takamina! You better do something girl! :mon geek:
Thank you for the update! :mon bye:
I will wait for the next update and that OS~ :gmon bang:
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LET ME BE THE FIRST ONE TO LEFT A COMMENT :farofflook:
I WILL EDIT MY COMMENT LATER :depressed:
BUT ONE THINGS FOR SURE, I'M GOING TO KILL YOU! :mon XD:
I hope I inspired you! /slapped :mon cry:
Oh, yeah. You will really kill meh... so.... /runs away/
:shock:
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fuck, I wanted to be first, but shit :angry:
I too will have to come back and leave a comment later because it's late at my place and I need to sleep for school...
I will tell you though that I have many conflicted feelings!!!
ALSO YOU DID NOT TAKE MY IDEAS AT ALL!! YOU TWISTED IT TO SOMETHING COMPLETELY DIFFERENT!!
So I came back to write an official review, but I just don't know what to say... I hope things will get better for them :twothumbs
Wow calm down or you're gonna scare lonewolf-san away lezperv XD. I think the reason she/he came up with that idea was because that would make Takamina's situation less heart-wrenching and Atsuko's actions less hateful to us readers. Atsuko did get jealous though, also in the way that you suggested, only that the reason for it isn't what you would have come up. I'm fine with this because Atsuko's actions in your fic really give me a hard time interpreting her true intentions behind it or siding with her :nervous.
Lol, I actually know lonewolf from tumblr, so we're good. It may lessen Minami's heartbreak and Atsuko's hatefulness, but now it makes Minami seem like a jerk. I can't say I like seeing my Minami being the bad guy here, so I guess I would prefer heartbreaking over this haha
I'm completely fine with the way it was twisted, don't get me wrong, I'm just surprised that it wasn't the way I depicted.
About my fanfic... well I hope Atsuko action will be clearer in chapter 6 :)
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Wow calm down or you're gonna scare lonewolf-san away lezperv XD. I think the reason she/he came up with that idea was because that would make Takamina's situation less heart-wrenching and Atsuko's actions less hateful to us readers. Atsuko did get jealous though, also in the way that you suggested, only that the reason for it isn't what you would have come up. I'm fine with this because Atsuko's actions in your fic really give me a hard time interpreting her true intentions behind it or siding with her :nervous.
So lonewolf-san, do I get any rewards for being the winner (and no, the new update doesn't count XD ). And you know that I would prefer if you keep writing another chapter after another and so on 8)
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I really like that part, when Acchan come in to practice room and her scary oura..he..he.. :D
Takaminaaa, why you fail some much... and you should read newspaper more often.. :grr:
Acchan, why you can't just tell to Takamina the true, about your feelings.. you will kill here with your attitude.. poor Takamina.. :farofflook:
Please update soon the next chapter.. and good luck to writing them.. :on GJ:
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Quick replies because I'm tired xD
THANK YOU ALL WHO COMMENT XD I LIKE READING YOUR REACTIONS! :on lol:
BUT first thing first. I think some people are a bit confused with the plot, so... I'm gonna do a real quick explanation.
In short Acchan accepts and is aware of her feelings for Minami. She openly says that she loves her and she wants to be with her for the rest of her life. She was the one that suggested Minami to live together, but it was actually our Bakamina who said NO. Since I'm doing this from Minami's point of view, we do not see the other side (Acchan's) but, I think we all can guess how she feels for the way she acts. Her reason for Dating Onoe in first place, was made out of anger. YEP, SHE WAS ANGRY AT MINAMI WHO "SUGESTED" THAT SHE SHOULD EXPERIMENT OTHER KINDS OF LOVE WITH OTHER PEOPLE, and she just wanted to make Minami jealous. She indeed likes Onoe as a person. She enjoys her time with him and all, but she never loved him the same way she loves Minami.
That's the reason why she always calls Minami, to whatever event she has with Onoe. To make Minami jealous. But as you see, that didn't work too well in the beginning.
Everything said.... I hope you understand a bit more of "Acchan' side" :sweat:
NOW REPLIES!!!
@ChibiRine: since you already killed meh there won't be more updates. :imdead:
@lezperv: Lol, better luck next time xD
I TOTALLY USED ALL YOUR IDEAS!!! If I remember well, you wanted a jealous Acchan. Done! Also Minami's ignoring her. Done! Maybe because I'm not writing Acchan' POV that's why some people don't realize how affected Acchan is. But she is affected and she actually wanted to tell Minami PERSONALLY that she broke up with him.... but of course our Takamini didn't let her.... :cool2:
You suggested Mocchi since the beginning, so that, not my fault! Again, from Acchan' side, she was VERY angry, especially because she saw ALL the images and interviews, where Minami said that she "loved" certain girls. And then, she dumped le bofriend.
SO, as you can see.... I USED ALL YOUR IDEAS :cool1:
MINAMI IS NOT A JERK!!!! She is just slow... :err: And was stressed and you know that we can act a bit harsh when under so much pressure.... Besides, she then regretted it and felt like shit afterwards so!!! And I'm glad that, apparently, I don't kind of stick to the "standard" plots :kekeke:
@Tanchan: Don't worry, dear reader. I was killed by ChibiRine already. And as lezperv says, we are best buddies know each other so, don't worry xD
The reward is the last update... Since I don't know when I will be able to feel in the mood with so much work on me right now. Even my vacations are on the line if I don't finish with work....OTL
I know what you would like it though! I will post another story (one-shot) as a reward! :hee:
@black_maa: /whispers/ Actually poor Acchan xD but yeah, don't worry. Bakamina feels so sad for the words she said to Acchan. :hiakhiakhiak:
And Thank you! SOON!!!
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@lezperv: I don't find Minami a jerk at all. Like Lonewolf said, she's just slow XD- the usual Minami in almost every Atsumina fanfic. I look forward to your chapter 6 by the way.
@lonewolf: I'm not worried, that post was just for fun XD
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So FINALLY!!!!
After many things happened in my life, a lost, too much stress, too much work and absolutely no will to write... Finally I wrote this last Chapter of this not planed fic!!!
I won't say many things, just that I'm sorry for any mistakes, I really just re-read it once! I'm lazy okay?! Don't complain!
Now, Go ahead and Enjoy it! Or at least try xD
Leave your reactions xD I really enjoy them~~ :twothumbs
-I’ve been thinking… - Oshima Yuko stopped eating and looked at me- Maybe it’s time…
I couldn’t face her, not yet; I wasn’t even sure about my own decision and even if I already had discussed it with Akimoto-sensei, I still felt like I wasn’t ready.
After Atsuko’s breaking up news and many months of silence from her part, I really thought about it. Maybe, and just maybe, it was time to graduate myself. But I wasn’t really sure. The younger members were not ready, yet the older generations, only three of the first generation was left, only three.
-Are you sure about it? – Yuko asked me.
-No…
I was being honest, I never liked to talk about this with someone, except maybe Akimoto-sensei, but I felt this necessity to say it, to someone; and there was no one better than a graduate and a friend.
-He said that if I’m ready then I just should follow my heart.
-And your heart, what does it tells you?
I smiled.
Looking at my reflection on the mirror I noticed deep marks under my eyes from my lack of sleep. The mirror showed me the reflection of my tired a face. I sighed. I looked at my phone and I unlocked it; in the screen a simple yet constructed message was shown. I added the number I wanted to send it to and then pressed the button. The answer arrived a few seconds later while I changed my clothes, it was also simple.
I asked for a day off, I told the manager that I needed this day for an important meeting. I wasn’t lying, I was tired and I wanted to sleep but I really needed this time to talk with someone; with her. I walked down; I didn’t want to rush myself. I was trying to feel everything around me while I headed to her apartment.
For some reason, the day was brighter than ever, the usual cold wind of November, it wasn’t so cold. It was just perfect. If I have to use a word to describe it, I can’t think of any other word than perfect.
I grabbed a cab, with a cap on my head, barely anyone knew it was me; in the past though, people recognized me, but as I said, for some reason no one did. I told the driver the direction I wanted to go and I looked out of the window.
The cars and the people outside were so busy and loud, the normal routine of their lives, something so rare in my eyes. I could see some tired faces as well. This stress and this pain wasn’t mine alone, I smiled. Not because I was glad that other people could feel pain but because it reminded me that I wasn’t alone.
The travel to my destiny was slow, the traffic jam of that day was heavy, I was glad again. I remembered that day, the “meeting my boyfriend” day, I grinned. It was like this, the traffic and me thinking of many questions, many answers, many talks and many topics; and all that thinking just to be forgotten at the exact second her face was in front of me.
I was weak, she made me weak. It was always like that. She is my strength and my weakness. I sighed again.
The car stopped right in the front entrance of the building. After paying and getting out of the car, I couldn’t take another step; I was afraid, suddenly the fear of the unknown overpowered my courage and all my body wanted to do was to turn around and run, as far as I could, run away from there. I closed my eyes and swallowed the knot in my throat. I was Takahashi Minami, the same Minami that always walked ahead even if she was unsure of the future.
Walking inside the tall building was really nerve breaking; I never expect it to be, if I’m honest. It was just a building. It was a meaningful building. I chuckled. The way up to the exact floor was slow, for some reason, the time seemed to go slowly than ever, as if telling me that I still could regret my decision and just turn around and forget about all this.
It’s funny how our minds work during our biggest decisions, during the hardest times and even during our most joyful moments. The painful and long way to the top; the fast and hectic schedules of the top and, then, again the slow ending of everything; it is funny how our mind works indeed.
Without noticing I was right in front of the door. I wasn’t really sure of what should I say, a simple “Hi” or something along the lines of “I’m sorry for being a jerk”? Which one could work best?
Finally, knocked the door with my knuckles and waited. Maybe it was the longest waiting of my entire life. It felt that long. The door opened slowly and in front of me, there was the person I wanted to see.
We looked at each other for a moment and then I smiled. All the words I thought earlier disappeared. She had that effect on me. We really never needed words, we only had to see each other eyes and we knew.
The body seems to remember way better than the mind. Memories were powerful, yes. But there were memories of the mind and memories of the body. I missed her touch for so long, that when she launched at me, after I went in and she closed the door, I felt like crying; I got goosebumps and tears started falling from my eyes. I hold her in my arms as if my life depended on it; and just maybe my life really depended on it; of having her like this.
She rubbed her nose near my neck, barely touching it, and it made me sigh.
-I missed you… - she whispered.
I caressed her hair so slowly, feeling every strand of her longer hair. She hugged me tighter, maybe to make sure that I was there, maybe to encourage me to say something, maybe because she didn’t want to cry. Many ideas went to my head, apparently a new habit of mine, but I only could reply with the same exact words.
-I missed you too, Atsuko.
She pulled away slightly, just enough to look at my face and smiled. It wasn’t a sad, tired, relieved or acted smile; it was just her smile, the one that only showed when I was with her, my smile.
And I’m not gonna lie, I kissed her. So sudden, so not like me, that she froze on the spot. It was the first time I kissed her and now I understand why she liked to do that. The feeling I had from seeing her like that, shocked and surprised, it made me giggle.
I left her lips and looked at her, still giggling. I never planed that kiss, she was just so cute and I was just so glad to see her that my body acted by itself.
-We need to talk – I said a few seconds later.
She was still surprised, she nodded automatically, but I knew that she was still affected. I giggled again and grabbing her hand I pulled her with me until we sat on her couch. I left her hand once we were seated next to each other and I looked down, again trying to choose my own words.
She waited patiently; she didn’t move nor said anything. She just waited.
And I couldn’t help but start crying.
-Did you apologize? – Miichan asked me the next day.
I stopped reading the script in my hand and looked at her; she was expecting something, maybe a “No, I couldn’t” or a “Yes, now we are back as friends” or something. I simple smiled and continued reading.
-That’s so unfair, Bakamina!! – She yelled – I demand an answer!!
I laughed.
Both, Miichan and Haruna were so persisting about what happened that they would use any excuse to actually ask me about it, but I really didn’t wanted to talk about it. It was so personal, and yes, too embarrassing, just remembering about it made me blush.
It didn’t happen anything out of the extraordinary or something wild, as maybe Miichan was thinking, since she mentioned a few times already. It was just so us, so normal, that it really wasn’t that relevant. Yet I knew I had to tell them someday.
I grinned; they needed to suffer for calling me jerk for days.
We were in the middle of the practice when Akimoto-sensei appeared and called me for a talk. These days it was weird to see him around that I noticed the tension that fell on the room. I apologized to the members, left a few orders I wanted them to follow, told the captains that they were in charge and I left. I didn’t change my clothes, there was no need, I knew what he wanted to talk about and I had my answer already.
-And then? – He said first once we were inside his office.
-I will stay for a while – I said firmly- I am not ready to leave.
He smiled. He always knows my answers and what I would do. Was I really that predictable?
-You can’t date, that’s the rule – He said while looking at me from behind his desk.
I smiled.
-I will not date a man, sensei – I said and he laughed – I will not make it public either.
-Good. – He turned his chair and sat on it – I never expected anything better than that.
I laughed and bowed.
I left his office and went back to the practice room. I wasn’t really ready to announce my graduation yet; I wasn’t ready to leave the group; I wasn’t ready to take that step, but I was sure and ready to follow my heart.
And my heart had a name, her name; Maeda Atsuko’s name.
Omake:
-Are you going to tell us what happened? – Miichan asked for the… I don’t remember what time in days after that – And why that old man wanted to talk with you so suddenly?
I looked up from my meal, they really were persistence and I couldn’t even enjoy my katsudon in peace. I sighed.
-Okay, okay – I saw how Miichan’s face went from frustrated to delight in less than a second and then Haruna placed her phone back on her purse – Listen carefully, okay? – They nodded – Because I will just say it once.
Atsuko hugged me until I stopped crying, I don’t really know if it were minutes or hours already, but when finally I calmed down I looked at her. I wasn’t really ready to leave the group, my family, my all. But then again, here I was in front of this person that was also my all, this person that I wanted to be with forever.
-I can’t… - I sobbed- I can’t… Atsuko… I’m sorry…
For some reason we could understand each other without many words and, after saying those words, she hugged me tighter and started crying too.
-I know… I know…
She then cupped my cheeks and made me look at her, she was crying and yet she had the most beautiful smile I’ve ever seen on her face. She nodded. She approved my decision. And that’s all I wanted from her. She placed her forehead on mine and wiped my tears, I was clinging from her shoulders, trying to stop my own tears, but I really couldn’t.
-I know… - She whispered and kissed my forehead – I know… - She repeated and kissed my cheeks- I know… - This time she kissed my nose – I know…
The kiss that followed that was so slow and so soft that, for a moment, I thought that it wasn’t real. Her lips barely touched my own lips and it made me sigh; in part, it was a frustrated sigh and in part a relieved one. But I really just couldn’t stop myself from what happened next.
I moved my hands from her arms to her face and I pulled her down. My lips wanted to die in her lips, tasting them, kissing them.
-I love you – I said between kisses- I love you…
It was the only word that my mouth and mind knew at that moment. And Atsuko cried as she kissed me back.
It was desperate and urgent. I desperately wanted to pour all my feelings for her on that one kiss that I literally attacked her without letting her breathe. She pulled me down on the couch, still kissing me, and…
-And you two finally did it! – Miichan yelled out of the blue.
All the eyes in the restaurant looked at our table, Haruna slapped Miichan’s head while blushing for the sudden attention we got and I covered my face with one hand.
-You had to scream, right? You just had to… - I sighed.
Miichan rubbed the spot where Haruna’s hand landed, but didn’t apologize. She instead looked at me expectantly.
-No, we didn’t – I said defeated.
-Why?!
-Because there was no need to do it! That’s why! - Again everyone looked at us and then I lowered my voice – We just smiled after that and hugged each other until it was time for me to leave. – I looked at both, what? Kids? I wonder what these two are – That’s all, happy?
Haruna nodded and Micchan growled.
-I wanted some more action you know? – Miichan said a few minutes later, as I continued eating- Like, you know, wild sex and all.
I almost died, my food got stuck on my throat and I started coughing.
-I’m gonna kill you, Miichan – I warned her after I gulped down my whole glass of water.
Miichan pulled out her tongue and Haruna laughed.
“Acceptance: ‘Sometimes we want what we couldn’t – sometimes we love who we could’” I remember reading that somewhere… But I forgot.
And now I accept it, I love Maeda Atsuko and nothing will change that.
dah end!
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Miichan is so bold.
The ending somewhat shows Takamina's personality.
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Mangoooooooo! :mon cry:
Thank you! Thank you! Thank you! :depressed:
And to think you're one of my favorite person, hu-waw! :mon zoom:
You never failed to leave us, your readers, craving for more AtsuMina :mon inluv:
Oji-san! Are we going to expect that scene, or what? :dunno:
Thank you, for inspiring me! :mon thumb:
I inspired you! So we're even!
Will wait for your new works! :mon bye:
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i want wild sex too
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So great... such an interesting OS
Minami at last ready to give her everything to Atsuko...
Thank you for the OS
Can't wait to see more Atsumina story
:twothumbs :twothumbs :twothumbs
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At least, they both are together.. :nya:
It was good story.. I really like it.. :hee:
I hope, there will be more this kind of stories.. :)
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To everyone who read it, THANK YOU.
And to all who commented, Thank you too!
Now...
Mangoooooooo! :mon cry:
Thank you! Thank you! Thank you! :depressed:
And to think you're one of my favorite person, hu-waw! :mon zoom:
You never failed to leave us, your readers, craving for more AtsuMina :mon inluv:
Oji-san! Are we going to expect that scene, or what? :dunno:
Thank you, for inspiring me! :mon thumb:
I inspired you! So we're even!
Will wait for your new works! :mon bye:
i want wild sex too
Maybe, and just maybe, I will write that scene :glasses: :hiakhiakhiak:
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Thank u! Thank u so much!
your story is lovely! i really like it!
Minami stop with AKB and go to your Atsuko! ....
At least they are together somehow ^^!
hope to see you again! and thx again for this beautiful story!
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Nice story :twothumbs
:cow: