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PART 24
MAKI - MARCH 2006
After that, I focused on my career and nothing else. I shut all thoughts of her away from me. I avoided her whenever possible.
Looking back, I don't know what I was thinking. Shoving all of my emotions aside like that... like they didn't matter, like none of it had ever mattered... I had almost convinced even myself.
I guess I was just young and stupid.
We were sitting on the field near each other, waiting for the pep talk to start. She glanced over and caught my eye and smiled. I smiled back before gazing off into the distance.
"Hey," Yossy hissed, scooting over next to me and leaning in conspiratorially.
"What?" I whispered back. She glanced over her shoulder quickly.
"Is it just me or is Kei not wearing any underwear again?" I clapped my hand over my mouth to keep from bursting into laughter. I casually looked over at Kei.
"Oh my God, you're RIGHT!" I hissed.
"Oh my gah, remember when she went commando during that Utaban taping?" Yossy snickered under her breath.
"What?! No!"
"You didn't know about that!? Oh man... that was so wrong. I never wanted to see that much Yasuda." Yossy shuddered a little.
"You DIDN'T!"
"I didn't have any choice! It was RIGHT THERE!" she protested. I just shook my head. We fell into a comfortable silence. "So..."
"Yeah?" I looked over at her.
"How've you been?" She smiled easily. I blinked and had to force myself not to do a double-take. When in the world had she become so beautiful? Yossy'd always been pretty but... well... kind of a pretty boy. Now she looked just... wow.
"Good!" I replied a little louder than I meant to. "Busy! You know how it is..."
"Yeah, I really do," she laughed. "I have a new respect for Kaorin."
"Just her?"
"Well, Nakazawa is already - "
"Yossy, are you STILL scared of her?" I laughed.
"Shut up," she grumbled.
"Seriously! She's a real sweetheart underneath that sharp-tongued exterior," I explained. Yossy laughed softly and looked away from me into the crowd of members. "You okay?"
"Yeah... yeah, I was just thinking of something," she shook her head and grinned. "Never mind."
"OKAY, KIDDIES, LISTEN UP! IT'S TIME FOR THE DAMN SPORTS FESTIVAL, OK?" Nakazawa bellowed. Yossy and I both snapped to attention.
Yuko might be a sweetheart underneath it all, but that doesn't mean she's not damn scary.
I grinned as I walked out of the arena, humming "Suki Sugite Baka Mitai" to myself. I headed through the parking lot, swinging my purse back and forth in time with the tune.
What a great day. My team didn't win, but I had a blast and I hadn't talked to Yossy that much since...
I paused and bit my lip.
I'd missed her. I'd missed talking to her, joking with her, being around her... being with her. But it was too late. I had my chance once and now...
I looked up. Her car was right in front of me.
A slow smile spread across my face. I turned on my heel and walked back towards the building. My footsteps echoed in the deserted halls as I made my way back towards the hopeful light of the locker room.
I cautiously peeked my head around the door.
Yossy was leaning against the lockers. She was already changed, wearing jeans and a ratty old band t-shirt. She glanced down at her watch and then looked straight ahead again.
I started to head inside, but something stopped me. Something seemed a little off...
"Sorry," a voice called from the showers.
"It's about time! Everyone else already left!" Yossy mock-scolded.
"I know," Miki grinned, stepping into my line of sight. Her wet hair was slicked back and she was wearing only a towel as she advanced.
Yossy's eyes traveled lazily over Miki's exposed skin, a slow grin spreading across her face.
"Like what you see?" Miki asked, pushing her body against Yossy's.
"You know I do," Yossy replied in a low voice. Miki laughed and dropped her towel.
I turned and fled.
Did I really think she had just been waiting for me? That her overtures of friendship meant she wanted to be with me again? That a girl like her comes along more than once?
I guess I'm just young and stupid.
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