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Author Topic: Secret Friend ADORKS 2014[furuyanagi,atsumina,marimii,yuiparu,saeyuki,yukorena,a  (Read 5883 times)

Offline sastio13

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i was crying when i read your os :cry:
you know, it's like, like what i felt.
my dad, he'd already gone too, when i was in middle school hahaha


 When I left my room, I decided to eat, it was then I saw my living room fixed for the casket to be placed there. When I saw my mom crying as she eats, I wanted to cry but I have to be strong, for her.

I went inside the kitchen, with a semi clueless face.
I sat on a chair opposite to her and stared at her as if Nothing was happening.

" Mama, Maamaaa, what's for breakfast~?" I asked her.

"E-eggs and ham... Just go and eat, a-alright...?"

I just nodded. I acted as if it was any other day. My relatives would often ask if I was alright, if I was doing okay even though my father is dead. I would respond:

"Yeah, I'm, I'm alright"
"I'm doing fine~!"
"I'm okay"

Every response was true, I was doing okay. But I was wrong when I locked myself in my room. In a corner I sat and cried for him, holding a picture of my dad and I that was taken during my birthday.

I would call out for him to come back. I told him I still needed him. I wanted to bond with him. I was..

I was apologizing so much.

I regret not telling him I loved him so much, that... That I appreciate all the things he had done for me...  I regretted not telling him this.

" You made a promise... You, you promised me we'd hang out again... We'd go jogging together... We'd play at the arcade at the mall... You promised you'd be by my side... Dad..."

'You promised me...

I made a fool of myself during his wake. Smiling, and doing the things I'd normally do.


"Dad... I'm sorry for everything... I'm sorry I yelled at you... I'm sorry that cou... Couldn't be by your s...s...side... Dad... I love you.... I hope you can hear me..." I whispered as my tears fell.

thankyou :)
Yo, i'm sastio! i like to read fanfics! :)
a silent reader :grin:

Oshi: Shinoda Mariko,
Kashiwagi Yuki, Matsui Rena, Yagami Kumi, Okada Nana, Shinobu Mogi, Thalia, etc.
overall, i like all members hehe

every pairing is fine, as long as i enjoy :)

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