Yea guys its not supposed to feel right
But yes thats the ending basically (besides what I am putting up right now...)
*bows head* I'm sorry its so sad
Personally I've been thinking for a while about making a almost sequel later and having it be happy (but idk if I will because this was the ending...but if enough people want me to I'll consider it xD)
crypticshadow8 hit the nail on the head there with that spelling choice. =]
and lollipopgirl I'll think about putting it up. But basically they were just like longer versions with mindless dribble to make the scene longer
anyways...then epilogue-like final chapter
and to clarify its from Mikis pov basically talking directly to Yossui. Although Yossui will never hear her of course.
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Chapter thirty-eight: Fujimoto Miki
Even though it’s the thing that broke us, I still wear my pendant. I can help it. I feel naked if I don’t have it on.
Aya used to ask me about it, but I would just change the subject and eventually she left it alone. She probably just didn’t want to really know since I avoided it too much. It’s still not good to bring you up in conversation even though we don’t see each other all that often…since you left.
It’s probably better that way now that I think about it. My heart just aches when I’m even just thinking about it. Hell, its hurting a lot right now even though I know you will never hear my thoughts of you.
In all honesty though, I’m happy with Aya. She’s a nice girl and I love her. She’s safe.
She soon got tired of my weird schedule as a Musume, so she asked me to leave. Aya wanted us to be able to do more GAM things together. Too bad Tsunku wouldn’t hear of it. He said that losing you was already a big blow. They couldn’t lose me too.
Aya wasn’t satisfied. She came up with probably the dumbest way to get me out.
But it worked, I was out of Morning Musume. Too bad it backfired and I wasn’t in GAM anymore either. She was completely upset. Although, I can’t say I was angry about it. Its been nice not having to worry about working. I do miss it though.
Oh well, she was happy that she now got to see me whenever she was off. So I guess that means I was happy. Right?
I don’t regret leaving Morning Musume. It wasn’t so much fun with you gone.
You know it’s been almost a year since you left?
At least you’re still working. I’m watching you now in your first Ongaku Gatas concert. You look so free and happy on stage.
Did you just catch my eye? I think you did…now you have a slightly puzzled look upon your face. Shit, I don’t want to be noticed. I quickly dove behind some fans to avoid eye contact again.
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Why am I heading backstage after the concert? I’m just going to hurt all over again when I see you.
I sighed running my hand through my hair. Just say hi, that’s it.
Soon I located your dressing room but no one was there. Entering I looked around at the various costumes. I stood and just smiled up at the ceiling, glad to be even breathing your air once again.
Then I heard footsteps and I was compelled to dive behind the costume rack. You and Rika entered acting all lovey-dovey. I think I’m going to be sick.
I watched as she messed with your hair, and then you started to undress her for her. I couldn’t watch. You were just too happy…with her.
After a moment I heard my name. You had both finished changing and were now just idly talking. “Did you see Miki in the audience?”
“No why?”
“I could have sworn I saw her…”
“If she were in the audience she would have come back here to say hello.” Rikas tone was almost hateful as she spoke of me. I wanted to jump out and be like IM HERE BITCH! But I restrained myself, for your sake.
She kissed you lightly on the cheek before exiting the room. Leaving us unknowingly alone.
You looked down at your feet, “Yea I guess so…oh well…” You sighed and finished packing up your bag.
I began to tear up, I don’t really know why. Do you really miss me that much Yossui?
Suddenly you spoke, but to no one in particular. “I love you Kuwagata.” And you left the room.
Slowly I came out from my hiding place and watched the spot where you had been standing moments before.
“I love you too Kabutomushi.”
-FIN-
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