Right I'm here once again and sorry to the readers who read my on going fics for not updating it instead I'm making OS here hahaha ^_^.
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*NOTE: Yuki is 16 in here while Mayu is 15---------------------
Light in Darkness
We’re born in the world, crying. Some do cries tears of sorrow and some do cries tears of joy. Guess where in the two I belong? Yeah, I think the tears that drop from my eyes when I was born were tears of sorrow. Each one of us is waiting to see the brightness of outside world but I, was not given a chance to witness it. I have to live in the darkness where there’s no day, only night but I don’t blame anyone about this since this is my fate. Running away from this will just make me a sore loser in life and all I could do is to have hope and faith that someday that brightness will come and shed me some light, a light that could change my life forever.
“we have a new girl in our home today” the head of the orphanage spoke making me stop eating my dinner for awhile.
Yes, I’m living in an orphanage. I've been here for so long now since my mother who can’t take care of a useless child like me, abandoned and left me. It’s still a warm home though but still I’m looking for a mother’s care, a mother’s warmth, a mother’s love.
“your room will be the same room as her so it’s better to start a conversation with her” the head spoke once again. I don’t know who she is referring to nor do I know the girl’s name.
It’s pretty a common event here that orphans do come and some go when they are already at the right age to be independent. I still have 2 years before I’ll turn 18 but I don’t know if I can go on living on my own.
“hi” an unknown voice said and then sat down next to me. I’m blind I know, but I can do feel and be aware of the presence of each and individual around me. I didn’t bother to respond the greetings as I’m not that sure if she’s really talking to me.
“hi, Yuki-san” she said once more putting my name into it.
The hint of hatred and sadness tone of her voice is blend well making it a calm one. Everyone has a story after all and each of every chapter of their story gives you a clue and understanding to their personalities and she might have a painful past too just like the other children here.
“hello. By any chance you are the new girl?” I asked just to confirm if she’s really the new one.
“yes. I’m Watanabe Mayu, I’ll be your roommate starting today. Hope we’ll get along well” She said and grabs my hand for a shake.
“I’m Kashiwagi Yuki, I hope we’ll get along well too” I replied and shook our hands. Her hands are soft and I can feel her warmth. She’s kind, I thought.
We continue eating our dinner. Silence filled in the air between the two of us. No one dare to speak or to try to know each other. Time passes by without giving us the chance to have a conversation. It’s been the very first time that someone is being assigned in the same room as mine and I don’t want to slip this opportunity to finally experience having a friend.
It’s not that I don’t have friend in this home but people distances themselves from me. I think I’m not a bad person so I don’t really get it why and it just added the loneliness I have inside.
“uhm do you want me to tour you here in the orphanage?” I asked a silly question. I know she’ll refuse it because of my condition but we will not know if we
wouldn't try, right?
“it’s fine, I don’t want to roam around tonight” She replied and stood up. I sighed with disappointment as I know I failed.
“but you can talk to me about the people and events here in the orphanage in our room”
Those kind words cheers me up inside without even knowing, I’m already smiling. It’s the first time someone told me that. It makes me feel that she wants to talk to me and I’m not a bothersome. I stood up and pick up my tray but someone holds it in the other end making me stop taking a step.
“I’ll do it” She says and gets my tray
“but” I tried to refused but then those calm voice spoke again making me to nod.
“this will be an exchange for the conversation tonight”
She can pretty deliver her warm words well making you feel comfortable. I know I just met her but I feel like she knows and understands me more than the others. After things were already done we went to our room and I waited for her to ask some questions about the orphanage.
“neh, do you want to see the world?”
She suddenly asked making me think for a moment. I thought it will be about the orphanage but this question really caught me off guard.
“why?”
I asked to know her reason for asking a heavy question.
“coz if you want I can give you my eyes”
I was quite irritated as I thought she’s mocking at my condition. I’m disappointed that I judge her that soon earlier being a kind person despite right now she’s the opposite. I mean who would give their eyes to a stranger they just met? And who would exchange their brighter world than mine who’s in darkness?
“are you trying to make fun of my condition?”I annoyingly ask
If people are just like this then I don’t want to be friends with anyone, anymore. But is that possible though? I thought to myself.
“I’m not making fun of you. I’m just asking if you want to see the world. Can’t you listen to the sincerity of my voice? I thought people like you are more aware than people like us”
She’s right. I can’t feel any lies in her voice nor do it changes since earlier when she first spoke.
“alright, but why did you ask that? Why do you want to give your eyes to stranger like me?”
I’m now more open to hear her full reasons as why she opened this kind of topic, a reason that might open a door for me to know her better.
“I just want to try what if feels not to see the world”
What a weird girl, I thought. If I were born normal, I wouldn't even wish or want to try to be like in this state. No one wants like to be in this state to be exact.
“you’ll regret it once you become like this”
I don’t regret it since I have no choice but If I only I could choose, I’ll definitely choose to see the world.
“hmmm I wonder?”
“is there something bothering you?”
“nothing. Well good night”
She didn’t give me any chance to know her real motive asking that question. She just ended it like that making me want to know her past. Her question still keeps repeating inside my head.
“neh, do you want to see the world?”Do I really want to see the world, the world that I've been longing for so long to distinguish? Does the world that I’m currently imagining is opposite to the world Mayu-chan see? Am I really the only one in darkness?
Lots of thought inside my head that I didn't even know that it’s already morning. I stood up and grab my cane then went to the garden to smell the freshness of air. I usually do that every morning since they say it’s good for me.
“neh did you see the scars of the new girl?”
“yeah some are big and there’s quite few that are still fresh”
“I know, it must a tough life for her before coming here”
I heard some children talking and I know who that person they are talking about is. I don’t know why my body voluntarily moves and brings me to my room. I open the door and I can feel she’s already awake.
“good morning”
I smiled so that she will not get suspicious.
“good morning”
She replied and passes right next to me but I stop her holding her wrist. I touch her arms and they are right. I can feel the scars on her skin and can’t help but to feel sad about what she’s been through. She quickly releases her arms from my touch and sighed.
“see? the world is not what you think it is. It’s cruel”
With those words, she left. A warm fluid runs towards my cheeks and pain is being felt right through my heart. I've never thought that there are people who can see the bright world, lives in shadows. I now found the reasons as to why she asked that question last night. She doesn't want to see the world anymore because of its cruelty, its sadness, its pain. She had enough of all those things.
“is there a possibility that someone like me can be her light in darkness?” I thought to myself. I've never been really too attach to people but she’s different. I want to protect her.
Because of what happened, things get awkward and once again, silence fills the room. I want to talk to her, I want her to know that somehow there are still some people who will be there for her, that will love her and care for her.
“Since birth, I’m living in the darkness while wondering what it feels like to see things. I thought I should be fine as long as my mother is there, as long as I can feel her love and warmth but she abandoned me at the end. Loneliness and sadness fills my heart but hope and faith is still there. I always think if someone out there needs me, that someday I could be useful enough so that people will not leave me anymore. If only I can see things, If only I’m not a burden, If only someone will need me, I will not really feel this lonely. These emotions is slowly killing me inside”
I opened up while trying to prevent my tears from falling. I wanted her to know what I've been through because I couldn't see anything. I want her to feel that she’s lucky that she can see.
“I see” She replied.
I managed to get her attention and hope she will not say those things again.
“but you’re lucky not to see the sins that some people are doing. Yeah I know I’m born normal but that doesn't mean I’m happy. Some people out there suffer and you can’t do anything. Some people just turned their eyes away from reality and that’s the world we are currently living at. My eyes had enough of it, my body doesn't have a space for a new wound anymore and my heart is slowly giving up”
I hear her sniff while trying to prevent her tears, tears that’s been hiding for too long. I went to where she is sitting. I wrap my arms around her shoulder and let her cry. I can feel her scar every time I touch her and can’t help it but cry.
“we’re living in different world but we share the same pain. Not because you haven’t seen my world, doesn't mean it’s nice and peaceful. It’s your destiny to see things, to overcome things. You’re the only one who can decide if you’ll continue watching what you are seeing or change it the way you want it to see”
I said still hugging her and she hugs me even tighter.
“It’s too painful. I don’t know if I can take it. I don’t know if I can last long”
Her voice is trembling; the tone gives the feeling of being scared.
“you have just seen the negative part of the world. I’m sure when you already notice the positive side of it, you can overcome the obstacles you have”
I tried to encourage her but even I wasn't sure what the description of the world was. Sometimes I just want to scream for people to notice me that I’m here, living.
“I don’t want to be alone again, I don’t want to suffer anymore” She said in a whispering voice. It breaks my heart, she’s fragile.
“I’ll be here if you need someone as long as you’ll be there if I need you. As long as we are here for each other, we will not be alone anymore. We live in different world, I know, but it’s the fate that makes us meet to make a world of our own. I’ll be your protector and you’ll be my eyes and we will share happy memories to bury the sad past. When I become 18 I’ll let you come with me and we’ll find a place we can call HOME. We’ll be together forever”
I told her what I really feel without having a second thought. I want to try again how to feel someone’s warmth just like my mother’s. I don’t want to be alone anymore, I want to be needed by someone.
She broke the hug and maybe she wipes her tears away. I waited for a reply but a sudden warm hand touches my cheek and wipes my tears that keeps falling since the beginning.
“baka! How can you protect me if you can’t see the world but I’ll be your eyes as long as you’ll be my shoulder for me to lean on when things gets difficult. I’ll never leave you alone as I know how it feels to be lonely”
I smile of what she just said. It’s really feels great inside when you know someone needs you and willing to be with you. It might get difficult from here on but if we have each other I know we can surpass any obstacles that the future might have for us.
She grabs my hand and put her pinkie to my pinkie.
“I’ll be light your light in darkness forever” she said and I nodded
“I’ll be light your light in darkness forever” I replied
“PROMISE!”We both said the last word and let a small chuckle. The world might be cruel for us but right now it opens a new door, a door that will completely change our lives.
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I know the plot of my OS's are weird but I want it to have a hint of reality. So probably you already know what the next story will be about ^_^.
Hope you like this one and appreciate.
Please excuse my error as i'm sleepy right now haha but thanks to someone who read it first and correct my errors.
ja ne ~
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