Hi, thanks for reading, i know there are a lot of questions, and with this chapter you may have even more, but please be patient everything will be answer with time. And yes, jurina is a girl yet a prince it makes no sense i know, but drop logic there are a lot of thing that make no sense in this fanfic. Hope you like this chapter THROUGH TIME - CHAPTER 05
After that afternoon, I couldn’t take off the scene from my mind, since that, the place where Jurina placed her hand felt like something was missing, but what really was disturbing my mind, was what Jurina said, obviously she was in the middle of day dreaming when she said it, that’s why when she got up, none of us said a thing, like if nothing happened.
Mayu, after being here for two weeks I already know every person here, and I am sure that there is not anyone with that name nor I listened someone saying it, that is why I always came back to the same question, who is the person in Jurina’s dream, but one thing is sure, she must be a really important person for her. I had raised the idea to ask her, but something in the back of my mind said me that it was something that I should not ask, but the name of Mayu follows me since then.
In this moment I was washing the dishes, I discovered that it wasn’t as difficult as I thought, it was simple, you wet the plate, soap it, and finally wet it again, now it looked really stupid for me to pay someone to do this simple task for me.
Aiko woke up sick, that’s why I was the only person in the kitchen in the morning, till I heard someone’s voice in my back.
It wasn’t necessary to turn around to know who it was, I recognized perfectly her husky voice in morning, Jurina always came here to take breakfast with my and Aiko, I always wonder why she didn’t do it in the big table at the dining room, and when I asked her, she answered me that she preferred to eat here in the small table with Aiko and I, than in the huge at the dining room alone.
“Where is Aiko?” She asked me while sitting in the table watching my back.
“She is sick”
“Mmmm” I had learned that Jurina wasn’t a person that talks too much; when she talked she always went straight to the point.
Then an awkward silence found place in the kitchen, the only moment where we were alone, was when we were at her office and the only thing that we talked was about work. I could felt her gaze on me; she followed every single movement that I was doing.
“Is the first time that I see you doing this kind of chore”
Jurina was saying the truth, I always tried with all my might to avoid doing this, I always had an excuse, something like my head was hurting, or that I had work to do, at the end another person had to do it for me.
“I am not use to do it neither”
“Yes that is what I am seeing, you are doing it wrong”
“That’s not true, it is clean”
“Of course it is not, look” and then she got up from the table and approached where I was, then she took a plate that I had already wash and showed me that in fact it had a stain.
“Oh come on, is just a little stain”
“It is still a stain”
In the middle of our discussion, I didn’t realize that a knife that I had was slowly sliding in my hand because of the water, I only realize when it had already cut my finger.
“You are to careless Rena”
And the she took my finger in her hand and took of the blood with her lips, it was like if time stopped, I couldn’t feel pain any more, the only thing that matter were my gaze in her deep and black eyes, I was trying to look for an answer in her eyes for what I was feeling, but I could not find any answer because her gaze was as confuse as mine.
“Go to disinfect you finger better, I will finish with this” Jurina bring me back from my day dream.
Without saying anything I went out of the room, and not because I needed to disinfect my finger, I couldn’t care less in this moment; I was running away from Jurina, and everything that she made me feel with a simple touch of our fingers, I was running from her eyes that made my heart race, but I couldn’t stop losing in them, I was running from all the things that I had never felt before.
On my way back to my bedroom, I had my gaze in the floor and I was lost in my thoughts, that is why I didn’t see that there was a person in front of me, I only realized it when I had already crush with her.
“I am sorry I didn’t see you”
I had never seen the women in front of me, and I am sure that she is not a servant more, her aura had to be of person from royalty, she had a perfect and tall figure, with a long and black hair, although she had a strong look and aura, she had a friendly smile and a smooth gaze.
“Don’t worry; I should have paid more attention too, what is your name?”
“I am Rena”
“It is a pleasure Rena, My nam-”
“!Get away from her!”
Jurina’s voice was heard through the entire hallway, and at the same time she took my wrist and dragged me to her side, to then stand in front of me like in a protective way.
“Don’t you dare to put a finger on her, Kashiwagi Yuki”
My morning couldn’t have started better, I had sleep perfectly and my body was like new, I had already done with all the work I had, so I could sleep without thinking on something that I had to finish and wake up without had to work.
When I went to the kitchen was only Rena, lately I really enjoy being around her, I feel like if I don’t have to hide something from her, I can forget for a moment my status like prince and just be myself. In some occasions I even found myself smiling from nowhere and without any reason, I didn’t know what did Rena on me, or what is so special in her, but I like it and I didn’t want this feeling to stop. In the kitchen I couldn’t stop watching her, I followed every single one of her movements, her long and black hair moving with her clumsy way of washing dishes, and that can’t be more adorable.
But when I saw that women, Kashiwagi Yuki around her, I couldn’t control my body, I didn’t want she to be around Rena, nor touch her, or even say her name.
There was no other person in the world that made my angry as Yuki does, she is the person that took away everything that I wanted, because of her is that I am what I am, she once had the only thing that I loved, and I will not allow her to take Rena away from me, not her.
“It’s been a long time Jurina”
All my rage was flowing through my eyes, I only wanted she to go away, what I most hate is that she never changed her gaze, she always had that silly and friendly way to see everyone, it doesn’t matter how bad the moment is, she never show any other expression, nor even when she died, she is like a monster without feelings.
“Why don’t you get out from here?”
She cut the fight that our eyes were having, and with a little grin in her lips turn around and started to walk away.
“You haven’t change Jurina”
And when she said that she disappear from my sight
What looked like a perfect morning had just ruin with the simple fact of listen to her voice, all the memories of 3 years ago came back to my mind when I saw her face.
Because of the rage I had, I didn’t remembered that Rena was behind me, until I felt a little pull at the edge of my shirt, I turn to face her, and when I saw her face all the bad feelings were replace with calmness in a blink, now what bothers me is her confuse expression.
“I am sorry if that scared you”.
I place my hand on her cheek, I always wonder how soft her white skin feels under my touch, and just as it seems, it was completely soft, and I felt a little tickling on my palm, it’s been some days that my desire to approach her has been increasing, my body is always looking to touch her, at least a little touch of our fingers, and that is exactly what happened in the kitchen, it was de desire that moved my body.
“Who is she?” it’s obvious that she will ask me that, even more after the way I reacted.
“She is Kashiwagi Yuki, Shinoda’s counselor”
I didn’t want to go deep in her presentation; after all it is a history that I want to forget.
“And that is it?”
“Yes, that’s it”
I knew the answer that she wanted, after all I’ve learned that she is really curious, but now is not the time to talk about it.
Rena was going to say something more, but before a word got out from her mouth, our conversation was interrupt by a servant.
“Jurina-sama, the Queen is asking for your presence in her office”
Why was Shinoda in the castle? She had gone on a trip three days ago, and supposes to come back in 2 more days.
“We will talk later Rena”
Then I turn my steps to Shinoda’s office, wondering and making any kind of hypothesis of why she came back 2 days before, and for some reason, something inside me, tell me that Kashiwagi Yuki is the reason.
When I entered to her office, Shinoda was looking outside the window and I could only see her back.
“When did you arrive? You should back in 2 more days”
“Good to see you too Jurina, I just arrived, and I came back before because the person that I was looking for came back from her trip already”
“You never told me who that person was”
I didn’t need her to tell me, because the person that I was wishing with all my might not to see entered to the room, now I understood why she was in the castle, and it was logic, after all Kashiwagi Yuki is Shinoda’s counselor and right hand, although I do not like it.
I didn’t want to be in the same room with Yuki, so I started to walk away without saying anything; Shinoda knew perfectly that I don’t like her.
“Stop there Jurina,” Shinoda raise her voice before I got out, it was strange in her to raise the voice when she talk to me, that’s why I couldn’t help but to freeze in my place.
“It is time for you to move on”
Of course that I knew that I had to move on, believe me that is one of my wishes, but a part of my just refused to do it, every time that I remember that night 3 years ago where I lost everything, the impotency that I felt came back and the guilt invades me. It doesn’t matter how much I hate Kashiwagi Yuki, the truth is that I hate me, and when I saw her all those feeling came back, I can’t see her because she reminds me all the thing that I can’t forgive myself .
“Why do you call me?” I wanted to end the conversation as fast as I can.
Yuki just stay there without saying a word; she only stood there watching the conversation.
“I will go to the point, Yuki will live here from today, now that she ended her research trip, I need her working for me full time, so I hope that you stop your attitude toward her, please by professional, and get along with her, you haven’t talk to her to know the real truth.”
I refused to accept that, and I don’t need to talk to her to know what really happened, I saw it with my own eyes, but I knew that Shinoda’s decision would not change, and I understood that she needs Yuki’s help.
“Just stay away from me”
And then I could get out of the room.
I was going in circle around my bed, I couldn’t sleep. I didn’t see Jurina in the rest of the day, what happened made me make a lot of questions, Kashiwagi Yuki, the only person that I saw Jurina raise her voice, or at least disturb her a little, the rage that was in Jurina’s eyes made my goosebumps, while Yuki never changed her calm and friendly look.
Giving up to the idea of sleep I got out of my room, I loved the silence that night had, is like if everything can be exposed when the sun goes down. In the middle of the silence I heard a soft melody, it was a piano, the music was a slow ballad, and it reminds me the feeling of nostalgia and sadness.
Following the music, I arrived to a room that I had never entered, and when I opened the door it was Jurina the one who was playing the piano, she had a melancholic expression while her fingers went through the piano keys.
When she saw me she didn’t stop playing, instead she made a signal with her head for me to approach her, I walked a little insecure and then sit on a nearby chair.
“Once I heard someone said that art express your true self, all the feelings that you suppress are expose through painting, sing, sculpt, or any kind of art. That is what I love piano, there is nothing I can hide from him, piano will always know my true self”
Jurina never stopped playing while she talked, and I had this feeling of knowing who the culprit of her sadness was, I couldn’t hold anymore wanting to know what happened between the girl called Mayu and Jurina, and something told me that Kashiwagi Yuki was involved. That is why, without holding it anymore, I dare to ask what I wanted to know since I heard her name.
“Who is Mayu?”
With my question Jurina stopped playing, and silence took place in the room, my hand were sweating because of my nervousness, I knew that I shouldn’t have asked that, but I could not take it off from my head if didn’t know the answer.
And just when I thought Jurina will not answer, her voice rumbled across the room.
“She was my fiancée, I loved her… but I wasn’t the one she love”
She had a little grin in her lips, and in fact it was the first time that I saw her smiling, and I wish I didn’t, because her smile was completely empty, but at the same time full of sadness.