THROUGH TIME - CHAPTER 07
I didn’t know what to say, how is it possible that some one can hold so much pain being so young, and even so be so kind, through all the history Jurina didn’t shed any tears, but every time that she said Mayu’s name I could feel all her pain in her voice.
I was looking straight into her eyes, all the sadness and pain could be see, and I was feeling how my own heart was suffering too, I could only wish be by her side and take away that look from her eyes.
“Sorry, I don’t know why I am telling you this, I just feel like I could be myself with you”
Jurina then broke the connection between our eyes and turn her gaze to her hands, I wanted to embrace her, and I wanted to share her pain. All my life I had been selfish, I had everything that I wanted, and I could only care my well-being, but I can’t understand what I happening with me in this moment, for the first time in my life I feel someone’s pain like mine.
My body was moving by itself, the only thing that I wanted was comfort her and be by her side, but before I could put my arm around her another voice echoed in the room, her voice made Jurina changed her expressions to and anger own, and then she stood up to face Kashiwagi Yuki
“I see, so that’s why you hate me”
“What else did you expect?”
The melancholic voice that Jurina had was replaced with one full of hate, I didn’t knew what to do in this situation, it was the same scene that happened in the afternoon, but I had the feeling that this one is not going to end well.
Jurina and Yuki were facing each other.
“You should listen to my version of the story Jurina”
“There is no need for me to listen to you, I saw how you leaved Mayu died, you don’t deserve her lov-“
Before Jurina could end what she was saying Yuki’s fist hit Jurina’s face, I was completely I in shock, Jurina felt to the ground with the impact, and Yuki’s expression changed for the first time, anger and pain was everything that her expression said.
“She was the most precious thing that I had” Her voice tone had change too, there was no sign of the friendly and calm tone she had before.
Jurina stood up from the floor, in the edge of her lips was a scratch that was bleeding. Jurina then approached to Yuki and hit her too, the most surprising thing is that Yuki didn’t tried to dodge the punch.
“Then why you left her die, why didn’t you saved her”
Shouted Jurina know with tears falling from her eyes, At the same time Yuki hit again Jurina’s check, neither her tried to dodge it.
“Of course I prefer to save her instead of a little brat like you, but Mayu didn’t think the same”
When I saw the last punch that Jurina received I thought that it went too far, I had to stop them, I was going to do it, but when I started to walk a hand took me from my shoulder stopping my steps, I turned my face to see who it was, the queen Shinoda was behind me, this was the second time I saw her, she was a completely mystery for me. She always was in her office or in a trip, the only time I saw her was from afar, I had never talked to her before. Her aura was completely intimidating, plus her tall figure piercing eyes, she had the perfect image of the queen that I read in history books.
“Do not stop them yet, this is something that both need” Was what she said.
Jurina and Yuki didn’t stop shouting things and punching each other, it was like if they let out through the pain all the feeling that they had repressed. Each time that Jurina was punch I couldn’t help but closing my eyes, I didn’t wanted to see how her face was in pain.
After a couple of minutes that felt like hours, finally Shinoda intervened.
“Ok that’s enough”
With Shinoda’s words, Yuki and Jurina stopped their fight and turned to face her, both had scratches in their lips, and in the morning their sure will have bruises.
“It’s time that you both let go the past, none of you is guilt of what happened and you” saying to Jurina “You need to listen Yuki’s version, believe me she have been suffering to much for what happened that night too”
Jurina didn’t say a thing, she was facing the floor, Yuki, like Shinoda and I were looking at Jurina waiting for her answer.
“I will listen”
“Ok, let me start then”
I have always loved flowers, I felt comfortable around them, it doesn’t matter how hard it rains o how burning the sun was, they will always look beautiful. That’s why the only place where I went when I wanted to relax was the garden, but since I found a gorgeous girl that have those dreamy eyes that I always love to lose in, flowers took another meaning, every time I saw a flower it wasn’t pace what I felt anymore, it was her face and her smile what comes to my mind.
The first time I saw Mayu in the castle I couldn’t believe that a human being could be so perfect, her skin looks like porcelain, and I even thought that if I touched her she would break.
I loved spend my evenings with her, although we didn’t agree to meet each other in the garden, because for some reason it wasn’t necessary to say it. I always told her about my boring stories, and I knew that she was boring, even so, every time I ended one she asked me to tell her another, I couldn’t be more happy at those moments knowing that she loved to spend time with me as much as I do, even if I just talk about boring things. With the passing of spring and our chats in the garden, it happened the inevitable, I fall in love with her.
But our happy moments didn’t last long, in the Prince’s 15 birthday Mayu’s engagement was announce, I already knew I month before, I knew that the best for both was stop seeing her, like that our separation wouldn’t be more painful, I always repeat myself “Just one last time”, but I couldn’t hold on my wish to see her, although my brain gave the orders to my body, my heart had all control over me.
The ball was being held in a huge house ball out from the castle, I was in the garden it wasn’t as beautiful like the castle’s one, but it’s better than nothing, I was here hoping that flowers could took away my worries as they used to, but the only thing that brings me is nostalgia and melancholic, this place reminds me what I used to have and love, and that tonight I am going to lose.
With the corners of my eyes I saw how a small figure was approaching me, it wasn’t any figure, she was owner of my thoughts and the one who would take away a part of me tonight.
“What are you doing here Mayu?, they must be looking for you”
“I was looking for you, Yuki” her voice was a little husky and her eyes a little red, she have been crying.
“You know that we can’t see each other anymore”
My own words made my heart sink, but I had to be strong for Mayu’s sake, she wasn’t someone that could hurt people on the contrary, she would always sacrifice her own happiness, that’s why I had to be strong for both.
“I know, but I just wanted to see you one more time… I have to tell you something”
“Mayu this is not the mom-“
My words were cut be Mayu’s lips over mine, it took me a moment to realize what was happening, and my heart was beating so fast that I couldn’t believe it was possible. I was kissing Mayu, her lips were completely soft and sweet, and without realizing I found myself closing my eyes and placing my hand in her neck to make the kiss deeper, I didn’t wanted to let her go, I wanted to run away with her to a place where we could be together and live happy ever after, I didn’t want that someone else could taste her lips.
The lack of air was the only excuse to make our kiss stop, even though our foreheads were softly touching each other, and for the first time in the night I felt happiness by being this close with her.
“I love you Yuki, I always did and I always will”
Mayu said it with a smile in her face, but there were tear in her eyes, it was our first and last kiss, it wasn’t necessary to say that this was a goodbye, I wouldn’t be see her this close again, I will not be caressing her silky skin like I was in this moment. When I was about to give my reply, Mayu interrupt me.
“I don’t want to listen your answer, it would be more painful and there would not be anything that make me leave your side”
Mayu buried her head in my chest and started to cry, my instincts made me embrace her right away.
“Just promise me that when you remember me and the time we spent together you will smile, because I was really happy when I was with you, and I am going to remember it with a smile”
Then she just left, the warmness that I felt had already gone with Mayu, and a part of my heart too.
Through all the ball party my gaze never leaved Mayu, although I wanted avoid it, my eyes always fallowed her everywhere. I had never cared about social status, even if I was born in one of the most prestigious families in kingdom I never give it to much importance, but for the first time in this night my only wish was stand in the prince’s place and could take Mayu’s hand and let everyone know that she is mine.
The way back to the castle couldn’t have been more uncomfortable and awkward, I even shouldn’t be here, it was support for me to go on a different carriage, but since Shinoda left before, the kings offered me her place, and of course I couldn’t reject them. But I wasn’t expected that Mayu and the prince were there to. The prince for some reason was staring at me the whole time, I was really uncomfortable with that, but I didn’t wanted to argue so I just smiled at her. Suddenly the carriage made some abrupt movements and felt from a precipices. When I opened my eyes I was some meters away from the carriage, I heard someone screaming for help, I walked there as soon as I could waiting the worst.
I found that the person who was screaming was the prince, and when I saw her my heart stopped, Jurina was dragging Mayu who was unconscious and drops of blood were falling from her head, I was frozen in my place I didn’t knew how to react seeing the love of my life in that state.
“Yuki, help me taking her out o-” A bang that made me come back to reality echoed, someone had shoot the prince, she felt to the ground, the situation become worst, Mayu and the prince were injured and I could see the kings anywhere. I had to take a decision, I couldn’t follow the logic, my decision was selfish but there was no way that I let Mayu die.
I approached her, I was going to carry her, but suddenly she opened her eyes a little bit, the relief that I felt made my knees week and I felt to the ground, with my shaking hand I took her face in my hand and tried to wipe the blood.
“You will be alright Mayu, I will take you out of here” My voice was shaking to because of my tears and the fear to lose her was too much.
She looked around with confuse gaze, but when she saw Jurina’s body it changed to shock one.
“What happened to Jurina?” I barely could hear what she said, her body was weak because of the blood she was losing, she needed help immediately.
“She was shoot, but I think she is still alive”
With my answer Mayu’s eyes widen in shock, she tried to approach Jurina’s body but she felt because of the weakness.
“Don’t you move too much I will take you out of here”
Mayu released from my grip.
“Save Jurina, if the prince dies is the end of the Sakae”
I couldn’t accept what she was asking me, there was no way that I let her die and save other person, not matter who it is
“No, I will save Mayu”
She started to close her eyes, I could see how her life was ending.
“No no no, I love you Mayu, don’t die please, I will save you” I couldn’t hold my tears any more, but Mayu was smiling
“I am happy, after all I did wanted to hear you saying it, now leave please and save Jurina that is my wish, who did this should be around, I love you Yuki, I will always will”
And then she just faint, I will never forgive myself for what I did next, but I had to fulfil Mayu’s wish, after kissing her lips that now were cold and lifeless for the last time, I took the prince’s body, and I started to walk leaving behind Mayu, I could heard that Jurina was saying something, but I couldn’t hear anything, if I looked back I would be more painful.
Mayu had died, and the king’s body was found too, and there was not any suspect or at least a clue from the guilty.
Since then there is always an emptiness in me, it was where Mayu was, during all her funeral I kept a smile in my face, after all I promise her that I will always smile with her memories, and that was the only thing that I had, her memories.
I only could see the scene from afar, the simple fact of hearing Yuki’s story between tears, made me feel all the pain that both have been through. Unlike Yuki, Jurina didn’t say a word. She was standing there with an empty gaze and looking a blank space in the room. Shinoda approached to both and said them
“You both have been suffering too much, none of you is guilty for what happened, she always looked for the happiness of both, and it’s time to move on, that I s what she wants”
Then she faced me and say
“Rena treat Jurina’s wounds, I will take care of Yuki”
“Ok” How is that she knows me name, is the first time that we talk. Seeing that Jurina still didn’t move, I took her hand and dragged her out of the room, she was like an empty body.
When we arrived to the room where all the medicines were, I told her to sit while I searched for some cotton and alcohol. Then I sit in front of her and started to clean the little cuts.
I thought that she was going at least react to the alcohol in her wounds, but there was not a single movement, until I started to clean a scratch in her check, I little tear was rolling down, and when I turn my gaze to her eyes, they were full of tears. She then lay down her forehead in my shoulder, my heart was racing because of the proximity, and I could smell the sweet smell from the first time we met.
“Let me stay like this for a moment, let me be weak just in front of you, is just for a moment”
Her body was trembling because of the sobbing, and my shoulder was getting a little wet. I couldn’t hold it anymore and wrapped my hands around her shoulders in embrace and she started to cry harder, for the first time in 3 years she finally let out all the sorrow that she’s been holding.
My heart was hurting in my chest, looking at her so weak and broken made me wish stay by her side and take her sadness away.
Hi, with this chapter all Mayu's thing and Jurina's past is over and the sad thing too, this is like the first arch of the history i hope that you've been liking it, thanks for reading