WHAT ARE WE?
Reika was watching tv while stuffing some snacks when the bells at front door ringing and turn out to be her best friend, Wakatsuki Yumi appeared with face without smiles.
"Oh yumi, what's wrong?" Reika asked in bewilderment as it has been so long she hasn’t come to her place; she closed the door behind as Yumi slided into her house and follow behind. Though she felt a little irritated by that cold attitude of her friend still she said nothing.
"I'm tired and I left the keys somewhere." said Yumi already dive on her stomach to the long couch.
"Do you want to shower?" Worried by Yumi's rare state, Reika asked, ready to get her towel.
"I need food." Yumi mumbled under her breath which sometimes sounds incoherent when she lay like that.
"Sokka. Can you wait little more? I will make you some." Reika already moving around her kitchen when she said that, leaving only her best friend in the living room with talking tv..
Reika didn't take long time to make simple food for her best friend, knowing dragging more time will make the other girl suffer even more. She didn't know what happen before Yumi came to her, but she planned on asking that later.
Putting the very simple pasta she could make with her limited cooking ability on the coffee table, Reika then touched her friend shoulder to wake her up. The soft touch is enough to make Yumi stand straight to the couch, blanking staring at her friend.
"Dinner is ready. Finish it." Reika smiled and sat back beside her friend; continue to enjoy what she delayed.
However, Yumi only looks back and forth between Reika and food on the table. "Why am I here?" She asked that to herself but it managed to catch Reika’s attention anyway.
"Maybe you just miss me." Reika replied with faint mischievous smile short after, taking the plate and presented it in front Yumi. "Finish it before it gets cold." It doesn’t take even a minute for her friends to devour herself with the white coloured paste she made.
Yumi was too occupied with the food that she doesn’t even raise her head to realize Reika watch her in amusement. Reika knew their schedule a lot tighter these days since the concert for 5th anniversary is around the corner but she couldn’t think any reason why her best friend would look so exhausted like that and even starve herself.
Its either her cooking abilities have improved or Yumi was too hungry because in just two minute, the plate already emptied. Her lips curved upwards, silently satisfied.
"I'm sleepy." Giving no chance for Reika to reach water for her, Yumi laid her head on Reika's lap, making the latter stunned by her act and frozen on spot.
Watching sleeping Yumi, Reika wondered if there any changes in her friends face since they first met last year that even until now the calm face managed to make her heart skip a beat.
"You must be too tired." Reika smiled to herself while caressed her friend's hairs, eyes still stuck at Yumi's face. Taking chance of the sleeping figure, Reika leant forward and planted a kiss on her friend's forehead, careful not to awake the girl from her dreams.
"You're so cold to me. Yet i miss you so much." Reika sighed as she remembered their last cat fight a week before.
Yumi was too furious at her for not taking care of herself and sprained her ankle when she was practiced alone. With the reason it was just a small injury, Reika didn't even tell anyone about it and mysteriously manage to put an act like she was not affected by it a little bit. But, Yumi was just being Yumi, she was fast to notice the little change in Reika when she avoid her eyes.
Of course she was scolded badly by Yumi who younger than her by a month. Sometimes Reika found it funny, because when Yumi seriously scolding her, she knew that is proving that she was someone important to her and this kind of small thing could win her attention she craved so much this past few years.
Wakatsuki Yumi she knew is really a serious girl. She takes everything seriously, like how she should react when Bananaman-san cracked a joke so she would be seen as funny yet beautiful or how she answered when they were accused being a couple. Others might not realize but Reika knew, Yumi had tried various way of reaction that she could barely listed but other way, Yumi looks beautiful to her eyes.
That was just a simple example of how serious Wakatsuki Yumi is, and Reika could handle that seriousness very well. Even to the level where their relationship was involved. Being Wakatsuki Yumi, their friendship was not something to be displayed to public and people shipped on them. Yumi once said to her in the past that,
'Our relationship is real, it is not something to be displayed and people make profit of that. So let’s keep this between us only.'
And Reika couldn't agree more. It is not like she dislikes the way staff from Bingo or Doko? make them as a 'to laugh' at materials because it also unexpectedly gave them so many shipper which crazily marked them as the perfect couple at the same time. But, yeah like Yumi said keep it only to themselves in their very private space.
Even so, Reika still can't control herself when Yumi cutely act to the camera and she so miserably failed to control herself at their verbal promise. When things went too wild, Yumi decided to distance herself from her. That was hurtful to be truth, but she guess that was the best for them because she knew, where this coming from.
With Yumi being so girly yet manly to other members like Zukkyun Manattan, or cute kouhai, Reika too determined to be the normal captain towards other members likes she purposely pair up with Ikuchan during danso episodes on Bingo past few months. Though the true reason behind it is, she actually wanted her friends to be jealous of them and retrieved their so called 'not to be displayed relationship' and just be straightforward.
But then, Yumi bluntly declared they already break up from that day. Though she knew, Yumi was taking advantage from the situation so that they will no longer targeted as a couple, still the agony are there, like they were seriously break up, though they are not really in relationship to begin.
Since then, Yumi purposely spent time more frequent with other members especially Manattan that she adored so much which also widen their distance. They barely meeting each other's eyes in the waiting room, barely talked to each other during practices and even more in their so called private space. How can they have private space and time when Yumi devoted herself wholly to make their relationship not to be displayed until she not noticed their relationship has sunken deeper than Mariana trench.
What is wrong with having friends more than friends but not yet lover? The crack in their relationship has affecting Reika focus in work which then lead her to be admitted to the hospital. News said that she has poor health till and unable to join midsummer concert last year but truth to be told, she was too heartbroken for Yumi.
As far as Reika remembered, Yumi don't even showed up to visit her when other members keep coming telling her stories so she won’t be sad to not participate the concert.
Well, not untill late at night, Yumi secretly coming to visit her. Reika sure it was not the first time since Yumi know exactly where she puts her dirty clothes and change to new one, Yumi even change the water in vase and sleep by her side till dawn then missing before she woke up. That day, Reika knew that Wakatsuki is really something different. And Reika secretly crazy in love with her again.
That was the last thing Reika remembered about Yumi warmth and care to her, so Reika no longer doubt that special friend of her and let everything just go by flow. Time will take care of everything for them.
So when Yumi finally showed at her door after long time, honestly Reika was happy even the other girl still cold as usual to her. But that was only her mask for not showing her feeling too obvious.
Reika don't remember of waking up in the middle of night and walked to her room because she might also sleep walking hence the last thing she remembered is she falls asleep with Yumi still on her lap. Reika usually slept in the middle of queen size bed since it less lonely, but looking at how she was purposely laid at the left side of bed with the other side looks too neat for her, she guessed that Yumi moved her into her room and sleep side by side with her. Even Yumi also a girl, but she has that mysterious strength in her muscles too, which was not possible for the case to happen.
Reika couldn't stop grinning to herself as she dragged her body from dreamy blanket and make her way to the kitchen.
'Thanks for last night dinner. Don't forget to take your breakfast. -Yumi.'
Reika read the sticky notes on the table besides her breakfast prepared by Yumi. She can't stop smiling as she munched her sandwich with half cooked egg and hot chocolate. This is too great to be a reality but she silently hoping this reality always occurs to her.
Took almost an hour to get ready for work, Reika now ready for her today's activities. Since they have birthday concert together with Nanamin's graduation concert next week, so their schedule a little bit pack which giving her no time to be lazed around her comfy bed as usual. But work is work and she enjoyed her works the most.
Reika arrived pretty early that morning well blame Yumi who make her feel so energetic than usual today and nobody in the lesson room aside from Yumi that seriously practicing. But when Reika wanted to open the door, she saw another figure that got blocked by door before so she chooses to watching them.
"You left your keys and phone last night." Manatsu handed out bunch of keys to Wakatsuki together with her mobile phone. Despite Manatsu was so normal that day, Wakatsuki however didn't look good at all with her presence, she seemed pressured.
Reika gasped at the scene. Now she knew why Yumi came to her place last night, she left her keys at Manatsu's, also the same reason why Yumi rang the bell, and not using the spare key she gave to her last few years. Reika's heart sunken even deeper but she can't even left.
"I know you're mad at me for last night. But please don't leave like that just before we had dinner." Manatsu said, pretty mad but she managed to control her voice not to make the other more pressured than she already had.
"I'm sorry." Wakatsuki answered briefly before she continued her lesson hinting Manatsu that she didn't want to talk anymore.
"Nee Waka. Let’s discuss a little bit more." But Manatsu don't gave up, she tucked her hand into Wakatsuki's arm but the latter quickly pulled back, quite harshly.
"Please don't act like this Akimoto. I don't want people to see us. They might misunderstand us for something else." Wakatsuki retorted and back off few steps, frustration obviously displayed on her face.
"I will act like it never happen and please be normal when others are here." She warned with extremely low voice, calmed herself down, know that rage would not get them anywhere. Distancing herself from Manatsu,Wakatsuki continue her lesson, no longer paying attention to the shorter girl who then choose to leave her alone.
Reika didn't expect Manatsu to leave that fast so they met in front of the practice room. Manatsu then gave her annoying look before tightly close the door.
"I bet you heard everything." Manatsu smirked a little, feeling she can't deny what happen in lesson room when Reika pale face explain everything. She heard.
"A little bit." Reika fidgeting at her place know that she was guilty for eavesdrop their private conversation.
"So you know now, what happen between us. I hope, you can keep it as a secret.. well, you know how she is right?" Then Manatsu left, leaving Reika stunned and heartbroken at the same time.
'So thats why she was so cold to me.' Reika weakly mumbled to no one but herself, almost cannot believe at what her eyes and ears witnesses. If not because of the nearby chairs, Reika swore that she will turn to jelly right away.
'Everything makes sense now.' No matter how much she convinced her heart to just give up; still it was hard for her.
Like that, the whole day was so doomed for Reika. She was practicing like crazy, hoping that it would tear her mind away from Yumi, but no matter she go, Yumi’s eyes always found hers.
That might be her fault too, as she failed to act like nothing when Yumi asked her about her breakfast and Reika coldly answering before walked away. Of course Yumi will sense something was wrong with her and always keep an eye to her. Yet, Reika didn't want to admit that she was not okay.
Not until when everyone already gone to had their dinner, Reika still practicing, memorizing her lines as emcee for the concert later. Though she felt hungry as she also skipped her lunch today, but she didn't have enough courage to face her best friend either. So, using bento as excuse to other member, Reika now was left alone in the practice room.
Sure Reika can lie to other members, but Wakatsuki know exactly that Reika didn't bring any bento as she knew her the best.
"Do you have something in your mind, Reika?" Wakatsuki Yumi asked as she fixed her eyes to Reika's reflection on the mirror. Their eyes met merely seconds before the captain quickly broke the gaze.
"Nothing." Reika repeated her dance movement, making sure it was perfect. Even so, she noticed the eyes still on her.
"I brought your dinner. Please don't skip meal anymore, we need you to be there, Nanamin will be sad if you're absent in her graduation." Wakatsuki said before leaving the meal she brought in earlier near Reika' s backpack and left seconds after that.
Alone in the room again, Reika watched the door where Yumi has gone missing too. Though she appreciated that Yumi didn't dragged her interrogation, the small parts of her inner self wanted Yumi to spill everything to her, or at least stay with her.
'Well, she has Manatsu now.' Reika reminded herself as she hungrily devoured her meal; realize that she almost starved to death.
'And she a very caring person, so it’s not weird if she cares of me since we are friends.' However, the word friend that echoed in her head hurt so much.
"Reika, whats wrong?" Wakatsuki Yumi asked again on their way back. They have finished lesson 30 minutes ago, and Reika surprisingly missing faster than she thought as if Reika avoiding her. But Wakatsuki don't gave up and chased for her beloved friend, worry something might happen to her, though they walk in distance, she knew Reika fuming for some reasons.
"Nothing. I'm just tired." Still fasten her feet, Reika answered without looking back, know Yumi still carefully watching her. Maybe that answer was enough, because Yumi was silent after that.
"I'll stay here for now." Yumi said as she received curious glance from Reika when she is not showing any hint for leaving yet after they arrived Reika's apartment. She is not asking either, she telling her decision because deep there she was 100% sure they need proper talk.
Throw all of her belongings on the couch; Reika went to shower straight away. While Yumi pick them up and keep it in Reika’s room. She then roaming around the dimly lit room, searching nothing in particular but making sure Reika live a better life when she was not around.
But that girl still never changes the last time she remembered, the dirty clothes already mounted in the basket and scattered on the floor near washing machine. Wakatsuki tentatively collected them and put in right place. And after she satisfied, she moved to the kitchen, ready to prepare late dinner for both of them. Since they lost so much energy for daily dance routine which usually sucked all the energy out, the idea of late dinner always a bless.
Somehow, while making dinner, Wakatsuki Yumi weakly smiled. Feeling nostalgic whilst doing the same thing she haven't done for a long time. Before this, she always lodged in Reika's house she always taking charge of breakfast, lunch and dinner, as if she was the owner. She can do everything she want because Reika let her to, believe it or not, she also have her own room here even she never use it.
'My house is yours too, so you can freely come here anytime you want.' Said Reika when she first moved out from her parent’s house, at the same time giving the spare keys to her. And honestly, nothing made Wakatsuki happy like that ever.
But now, how long has it pass since last she was here? Sadly, Wakatsuki couldn't recall.
After she served their dinner which is just fried rice, Wakatsuki went to call for Reika because her friend strangely took longer time to bath. But, she found only Reika’s figure on the bed with all lights was off – well that kind weird for Reika since she always left the small lamp to enlighten the mood.
"I prepared dinner for you, want to eat?" Land at the edge of the bed, Wakatsuki asked, hoping Reika still not drifted too far in her sleep. Yet, her wish not granted, Reika not even move an inch.
"I guess I have to eat alone again tonight." Wakatsuki whispered to herself while fixing blanket on Reika's body as her friend easy to get cold. Then she went out and closed the door.
"Please stop caring for me Yumi, it will make me hard to let you go." Reika cried after Yumi left her alone again. She deeply felt sorry for not appreciating her friend efforts making dinner for her but she also can't bring her heart to receive any more kindness for her. Because Wakatsuki Yumi she knew, was the kind and caring girl. She care everyone more than herself. And Reika, was no difference, just a member Yumi care.
Finishing her dinner 5 minutes later, Wakatsuki keep Reika's portion in the fridge to be eaten later. She then took her short bath and ready to sleep.
"Maybe this is time for me to use the room." She sighed, feeling dumbfounded at what actually in Reika's head. And Wakatsuki didn't plan to let it off too far. She needs to know the source of Reika weird behavior lately
A week to go before their fifth anniversary concert, today they have first rehearsal at the stadium. So all members was very busy memorizing the songs arrangement, dance move, concert flow and even the stadium basement plan in order to accomplish their extravagant concert together with Nanamin graduation.
During this period, everyone was very focus and seriously practicing and planning the flow as they didn't want to ruin perfect momento for Nanamin.
"Do you have any question?" Reika asked to all the members after briefing about changes in the flow. She looked to everyone's eyes, making sure they all understand what she just said.
"If none, we can take a rest for now." And everyone dispersed after bowing to each other for good works. Reika is the last one missing to the backstage to grab some drinks before her steps then was stopped by loud scream.
The scream was followed by loud sound of something fall and broken, the spotlight just fall from the high ceiling which almost hit Reika if not because of Wakatsuki quickly grabbed her and they both fall to the floor not too far from the incident.
The staff then repetitively apologized for their recklessness but Reika just smile because she was at fault too.
"Look where you walk Reika! What if something happen to you?" Wakatsuki scolded Reika right away, she almost have heart attack from the incident.
"Then you should stop worry about me and take care of your Manattan instead." Reike retorted and pulled her hand from Yumi grasp, making the latter surprised. She then walk away, didn't want Yumi to see her tears.
Wakatsuki Yumi just stood at her spot, flustered by what she just heard; Reika raised her voice at her. "Am I too harsh?" She rubbed her face in regret. The more she tried to understand, the more she got confused.
After that, they barely making eye contact with Reika was obviously mad at Yumi who now deeply feeling guilty for some reasons. Well, she always scolded Reika but she never expects the usual ponkotsu Reika to ever reply like that.
With Reika constantly avoiding her by playing with other members and doing something else, Wakatsuki decided that she will talk to her once they were home.
"Reika, did something happen?" Wakatsuki asked once they stepped into Reika's apartment. She will not let this slipped off again just like last night.
"Nothing happen. I just tired." Reika dropped her thing on her way to bedroom, wanted to run from the Yumi once again. But it seems like she can't when Yumi keep following her, and she can't say no for coming to her place too.
"Then what’s wrong with you recently?" Wakatsuki already lost her mind, she grabbed Reika's hand before she could reach her towel and missing into bathroom.
"Then let me asked you, what is wrong with you? Keep coming into my house when you already have girlfriend? What if she misunderstood us? You don't want that right? You don't want everyone to misunderstand everything you do right?" Reika blurted as she tried to pull back her hand but the grips are so tight and they are now facing each other.
At the first glance, Reika could tell that Yumi was flustered and knew she messed things even more.
"Girlfriend? What girl?" She got more confused. "And are you telling me not to come anymore?" She looked into Reika's eyes, finding an answer but the latter averting again bit her lips in hesitation.
"Are you?" Wakatsuki enclosed their distance until they can feel each other’s breath. "Tell me the reason Reika." She was too desperate for answer at the same time fear for it.
"Then tell me, what are we Waka?" Reika braced herself to look into Yumi's, though it also means exposing her teary eyes.
"You know I can't explain with words, there are no right words to define us Reika." As much as she hurt seeing Reika crying, Wakatsuki hates herself for being too weak.
"Then proves it with acti.." Before Reika could finish her sentence, Wakatsuki already sealed their lips together. Reika stunned at her place, frozen with eyes almost bulged from its socket.
"Is that enough?" Wakatsuki asked after short and simple kiss, Reika still stunned at her place.
"I'm deeply sorry for what I have done all these years, I keep running away from us, keep denying that you're more than friends, and I’m really sorry for neglecting you Reika." She hugged Reika who gives no response pure to shock.
Reika blinked twice, cannot believe to what she just experiece till she can't even respond to the hug. "Then what about Manatsu?" She can't help but to ask pure to curiosity to what she witnesses before.
"What with Manatsu?" Wakatsuki grinned mischeviously and Reika knew she already know she doomed.
"Are you jealous?"
"I am not."
"You are." Wakatsuki laughed, disbelief to the fact that behind Reika's weird attitude to her was jealousy.
"But seriously Reika, she is just friend who misunderstood my treatment."
"That’s because you're way tooo kind to everyone." Reika rolled her eyes in annoyance.
"That’s because they're too cute. I can't help but to be nice to them." Wakatsuki laughed again when Reika was cutely pouting, feeling jealous. Now she really enjoyed teasing Reika, who knows that clumsy yet cute girl know how to be jealous?
"Shut up Waka!"
"Hey where are you going? Let’s take bath together." Before Reika engulfed herself in bathroom, Wakatsuki already slide through the almost closed door.(A/N: yeah I know I shouldn’t do this but please take it as bonus since I was in the middle of writing my thesis and almost have no time for update and I felt like relaxing a bit with this. But still, do tell me your opinion upon this short story.)
@wakasama__: yeah, even with simple things, WAKAREI always make me in shock
suddenly I remembered something about waka. at the hs yesterday, I read the live report from waka fans. He said that waka likes a girl! I do not know if it's true but clearly I was so speechless. In my mind now, wakarei is real! they love each other (not as a friend but as a lover)
like seriously?? can i have the source of your reading too? hahah well it is not shocking anymore that waka like that, but i'm just hoping that, that girl is truly reika and not just anyone else (
because the members also a girl
well lets just pray to god that they are seriously real.
thanks for comments
and btw, i like your video about WAKANANA (
sorry for telling you like this bcos i don't have a youtube account)