Changing Time
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“We’ve explained this too many times, Fujimoto-san. Again, there is nothing we can do to jog her memory. Whatever object fell on her head, the blow was damaging enough to her right side of the temporal lobe. Because of this head injury, Yoshizawa-san has what we call ‘Traumatic Amnesia’. Meaning that the object that fell on her temple was what caused her to loose her memory. The doctors understand that you are pop idols, but we need to keep her here to run more tests. We’re still unaware what branch of traumatic amnesia your friend has. We have decided to keep Yoshizawa-san here until tomorrow; she’s still resting and we need to run some analysis on her -”
Doctor Aoyoma was cut off short
"Hmmmm," Miki pondered outside of the kind physicians' explanation again, "So what you're saying is, I can't do it like the movies and just have the same traumatic blow to her head to jog back her memory?" She said with a serious and broad-thinking expression. She didn't understand all the unrecognizable medical terms the doctor was saying anyway.
At this point in the conversation, the doctor was no longer frustrated from having to explain to the idol about Yoshizawa's condition for the fourth time. Now, he was just plain horrified that someone would come up with such an idiotic way of helping what he thought was a friend. In short, he was left dumbfounded.
"Uhh…. I… I'm gonna go. You're helpless. Go home Fujimoto-san, it's been a long night. Come by tomorrow at 5pm to pick up Yoshizawa-san. We assure you, she's in good care." With that, Doctor Aoyoma left Miki.
On the drive back to the Hello! Project building, Miki started to reflect again. Thinking too much made her think of crazy ideas, but this time, what she imagined seemed like it would really happen.
Miki's grip on the steering wheel started to tighten again. Thinking even harder now about what Tsunku is going to think about the situation made her take her right hand and bite the knuckle of her thumb, something she did only when she was in a rut. It was a good thing it was dead at night and the hospital wasn't too distant, if not, the vehicles that would have been in front of her on a normal night would have gone unseen to her. No matter how out-of-this-world her thoughts were, her Producer was going to be pissed.
Day Breaks..." What do you mean she's in the hospital?! How could you let this happen? I already booked her to make another speech at Tokyo U!"
Tsunku was P.i.s.s.e.d."How could you let this happen? I thought if I let Rika launch her solo career with BiYuDen this would all end. Now it's you two as a couple? Do you understand how much damage you can be doing right now? I was just about to announce a new single too!" Tsunku was just about to reach a deeper shade of red but he stopped himself and took a breath. He was running out of things to say while scolding what he thought was his responsible sub leader.
"Maybe I
should have let Takahashi be the leader…"
Miki interrupted with exasperation, "What? But this was an accident! We didn’t plan for this to happen, we were just having fun and that stupid picture frame fell on top of her. This is no reason for you to start questioning my responsibility; I'm a hell of a leader, and I'm damn sure that I make a better one than Takahashi would ever be." Miki immediately began to panic because her position in Morning Musume was on the line, this meant that her power over the little brats would be taken away. That also meant it was going to be a pain to be in a group instead of solo again.
Miki took a second to breathe. "I'm sorry, I didn’t mean to yell. All I'm asking is for your empathy."
Tsunku did nothing but stare into space then look blankly back at the puppy he just put into the dog house. He then nodded and searched for what else needed to be said. "I apologize. It's just that…. it's just that I already had a plan to have a sub-group with just the two of you. You know, showing leader ship and everything. But now… now, it seems it's too late."
"But we don’t even know Yossuis diagnosis, maybe there's still some hope." Miki was surprised herself that she managed to say something. A sub-group? With Yossui all the more? What more can she add to make her regret? One of her biggest dreams just started to fade away.
"Okay, this is the plan. Things are going to change around here, and don't think it's because of what's happened last night. I've been thinking of this for a while now but I didn't think things would escalate. I want the two of you to move into the BiYuDen apartment, they are the only ones with space. Plus, I'm sure they wouldn't mind, you two and Rika were in a group together. Now, before you interrupt me, it’s only because I don't want the other members to be affected by this. I want them to be as focused and ready for performances and such while Hitomi is in this condition. I'm pretty sure I don’t need to explain that. Besides, you two are old enough to live by yourselves, and the buildings are near each other. Also, no offense, and this might be where it gets unclear, but I just don’t think it’s appropriate to teach the other girls what you do with Hitomi. Nothing against it, it's just… well, I don’t need to explain, it's my orders. I'll leave you to tell everything to the others and BiYuDen."
"Wa-" Miki stopped herself short and sank her eyes, realizing this conversation wasn't going anywhere. She knew there was nothing she could do but obey orders. She bowed her head and left Tsunku's office.
I wonder… I wonder what look she'll have on her face?It was time to face the music. Miki waited patiently for the doctors to finish last minute tests and talks with Yossui.
"Good evening Fujimoto-san. Before I take Yoshizawa-san out, I want to disucuss her condition. We established that it is called Traumatic Amnesia, but this is what the result of her amnesia is. We believe Yoshizawa-san may have a mix of what we call call 'Dissociative amnesia' and 'Source Amnesia'"
Miki noticed that the doctor ceased talking and took it as a sign that she didn't understand.
"Oh yeah, I know all about that doc."
Miki was very talented at making stupid jokes and being sarcastic at serious situations that made her anxious and confused. She even added the affects of nodding her head in agreement.
Realizing the hint that she didn’t understand, the doctor continued. "Dissociative Amnesia is when a person is unable to recall information but they are still able to learn new information and may even help them jog their memory of what they forgot." The doctor paused to make sure Miki understood. At least he was able to read her expressions. "Source Amnesia is when someone can remember certain events or information but they don’t know how they remember it."
Miki stared back blankly and said absolutely nothing for a while. But the words "Shit" and "Shiiiiiitttt" were written clearly across her forehead. She then blinked before starting.
"So…. what you're saying is, she'll be able to remember things, but not everything?"
"Yes. For instance, she will remember everybody, but she won’t remember how she is associated with them before the accident, well at least that’s what we have accumulated. From our test and questions, she doesn’t remember that she was an idol, but she does remember lyrics to music when we asked her to sing. She's a bit rusty on dance steps though, so that may need work. Let's see… she remarkably remembers significant people the most, like friends and family, but she still remembers people she has spent her time with, but why she knows them and how she's related with them needs some work." The doctor finished and called for Yoshizawa who looked like she was about to fall over from exhaustion.
Just what kind of tests do they perform in hospitals anyway?Just like her old self, Hitomi didn't ask any questions and just followed
Miki to their free Hello! Project company car. It wasn't too shabby; it just wasn’t what a teenager would jump for joy for if they received it.
The pessimistic Miki stared back at the sleeping Hitomi. Again, she bit her knuckle and tightened her grip of the wheel on with the other hand while she wondered why she wasn't speaking. Of course, she was asleep, but she didn’t say a word to her. But still…
"Damn, what a way to start off the New Year." Miki scoffed and thought out loud.
What if she really doesn’t remember what we shared? Miki wished nothing more than for the doctors to be wrong right now. Shutting her eyes tight (hey, it's rush hour, they caught traffic) and thinking REALLY hard. Maybe if she thought hard enough, her wish would come true. But then again, if doctors were often wrong, then Miki would have known not to bring her to a place full of doctors.
***
"Hey Miki! Why so glum? Aren't you excited? The New Year is coming and we're just about to start the countdown! Exactly 90 seconds Mikitty! Better find someone to pucker up with, just about everyone is paired up!" Niigaki happily said to Miki who was sitting by herself. She obviously couldn't tell when someone just didn't give a crap.
Just the thought of lovers spending the New Year together made her think of Rika again.
Thinking of Rika made her sad.
Being sad kept her from socializing.
Without even thinking, Miki's body started to lead her up the second floor. Why she was going up there was a mystery to even herself.
Who's so important right now?To her slight surprise she ended up at the door step of the only person she had left. The only one that cared for her even if she didn't make clear why she was acting differently ever since
that day.
Just as she thought, once she came back to her senses, Hitomi was sleeping.
She must have been so tired. Her new position in the Morning Musume affected her so much. She was always either busy or knocked out tired. Hitomi never had time for anything other than meetings, recordings, and advertising. Yet, when Miki and Yoshizawa were together, she still managed to let Miki know she was there for her even through the silence.
Looks like although it was New Year, it must have slipped from Hitomi's mind. Poor thing, all she wanted to do was sleep. Miki was sure she didn’t have to apologize for her intrusion.
Miki hovered over the body in slumber. She observed her position. She must've been staring stupidly out the window wondering why it looked like there was some sort of celebration because her head was slightly turned towards the balcony window.
Without hesitation, Miki acted on impulse as any desperate person seeking something new would do.
She kissed Hitomi.Hell it was the New Year, fireworks were shooting off in the sky and the colors illuminated the midnight sky. Miki could hear the cheers of the rest of Morning Musume and their staff. It added to the mood.
All the more, her lips were still softly placed on Yoshizawa's lips, sweetly planted for the sprouting of the new comings.
Miki slowly let go of Hitomi's lips as Sleeping Beuaty began to wake. When she first saw Miki's face, her eyebrows started to furrow in confusion.
The longest three seconds passed. "Happy New Year." Miki plainly said as her and Yossui's face were merely three inches away from each other.
"Wah….?", the half awaken Yoshizawa said.
Miki stared back into Yoshizawa's eyes waiting for the next subject. Obviously, she wasn’t making a big deal out of this. And like a child waiting patiently for a surprise, she waited for the next move.
"What was that for?", Yoshizawa continued, clearly reading Miki's face.
As if trying to act cute because she was being slightly scolded, she simply said, "I had no one else to kiss…"
***
That's how it began. And as quickly as it started, it seemed like it was ending even quicker.
That night still lingers in Miki's mind from time to time. Especially the moments that seems to test their relationship. Their night was spent in each others arms for the first time as a couple.
Ever since then, the pain that Miki had been pierced with slowly lingered away each day she spent with Yossui. Now a new one could be forming.
Miki quickly wiped the tear that was falling from her eye as she realized Yossui might have been awake for a while now. She loooked very awake and just stared back at Miki.
Traffic was progressing and they managed to be just one block away from their apartments.
Ugh, the apartments. Miki thought, remembering that they had to move. She hoped Yossui didn’t mind or maybe it didn’t matter seeing as their was a possibility she might not ever remember. Miki was almost finished packing anyway.
"Sooo…. you wanna tell me who you are exactly? Um, not that I mind being in a car with a hot girl, but I'm not sure if I know you. I mean, I think I know, you… you
seem familiar… I know that I know you, but again, why am I here?"
These questions made Miki's chest ache as she was pulled up to the Hello! Project parking lot. But she had to take this professionally, she couldn’t let Yossui see that she was feeling upset about questions that deserved to be answered.
"I'm Fujimoto Miki; we're sort of dating… Both of us are a part of Morning Musume, a famous group of girls who sing, dance, do interviews, have their own morning show, and have photobooks. I'll explain everything that happened so please be patient and cooperate. Now, the doctors said that you are able to remember certain things, but I guess that’s only because they come naturally. Everything that you don't remember, I'll be there for your."
Miki took Hitomi's hand even if Yossui seemed to be reluctant of the situation.
Please, just trust me. Give me strength to help you remember as much as possible.
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Wouldn't you like to Know 4
AH! HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!! I hope every one was safe and didn't drink too much, hehe.
Sorry for the delay. I didn’t make a Christmas special, so I thought at the last minute to add in this New Year special.I really tried to finish this up in time, but certain forces *which are called… brothers… X_X* kept me from doing so. :T
New Year changes so far…. err… My xanga background is now BoA. Whee~ BoA <3333 *haha, I'm listening to her right now
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I couldn’t decide if to hint the New Year scene with some steamy s e x or have it with a light air and just keep things oblivious *because every one knows Yossui is slooooowwww* but silly and romantic. Oh well, you can describe it yourself
Changes: My original plan, that was supposed to be a sorta big reason why this was made was to make it seem like my Forever 21 subgroup idea had come to life, haha. But I decided to change that and let Tsunku hint at it instead. Why? I have no clue either, haha *sweatdrop* I also was gonna end the chapter with the New Year scene, but I decided to see how long I could
drag keep the chapter going.
~Currently Listening to : BoA - Moon and Sunrise *Korean artist playlist <3*
~Thanks to my friend *I'll call her Mae mae* for giving me a small idea, haha.
Oh God, it's so effffiiin' late. X___X
EDIT : I should REALLY start re-reading as much as possible to catch these mistakes. Either that or stop writing really early in the morning... I wonder how
Mikan does it...