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Here is the 3rd chapter. Hope you guys will enjoy it
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Chapter 3
Who is the person? I am curious…. I move closer to the door and then….
TAP…TAP…TAP…
I have to hide coz I heard voices are approaching me. I hide myself behind the trash bin. It is quite big so I can hide my body behind it. Well, they are Oshima and Kojima. Hmm…. recently they always go home together. I wonder what relationship they have. Sometime I saw them were hugging each other and ^#&%. And now they are holding hands, that Oshima seems so happy. Well, forget it. I have to know with whom Marichan talks inside that room. When I am about to walk, someone calls me. I turn around quickly.
“Could you please to not even once make me surprise!” I said. She is frozen.
“I surprised you? Ow… sorry.” she covered her mouth. “Should I call you once again? So you won’t be surprised?”
“No! Just what is it?” I shout to her as I pull her away. Here we are. Far away from the room. I hope Marichan didn’t hear my shouting. Tsk…
“Ow… you sure are strong. Look, my arms gotten red.” She holds her arms.
“So, why were you calling me?” I ignore that ‘red arm’ part.
“Oh….ehm… what were you doing there? Hmm…. Hiding behind trash bin? Were you playing hide and seek?”
“Just answer my question!” My eyes widen.
“Okay, okay… Sorry. Well…ehm… Can we have something to drink outside?” asked her. I take long breathe. This is my first time meeting someone like her. Okay, be patient.
“I am busy.” I coldly answer.
“Why? What are you going to do? Didn’t we just finish our practice?”
“I said no! Can you leave me alone? I am feeling dizzy!” I rub my head. Then that little captain quickly put her hand on my forehead.
“Are you sick?” asked her with her soft voice. She is so gentle to me. I can feel it from her hands. It is so warm. “Come with me.” she grabs my hand and forces me to follow her. I say I don’t want to go but she is still forcing me. I can’t against her strength. I know she is smaller than me, but she is too strong. I can do nothing except following her.
Okay here we are. At café near theater. She said she would treat me ice cream. We sit on the corner.
“You have to enjoy your time, enjoy the meal, enjoy the ice cream. So that you will feel fresh, that’s why you feel dizzy. You never go out and having conversation like this lately.”
Yap, she’s right. Since our practice for concert I rarely go with Marichan together like before. Ah! Speaking of her, I still don’t know with whom she was in that room?! It is because this annoying person who forcibly take me here. I have to go back now! I get up and want to go back to theater.
“Hey where are you going?” asked her as she also gets up.
“Not your business.”
“Can you at least finish your ice cream? We have not even started our conversation yet.” she sounds disappointed.
“What would you like to talk to me? We are not even friends, aren’t we? I am Maeda Atsuko, the girl without something special, I can do nothing, I am such a fail, not like you! You are good in dancing, you are always being praised by everybody around you, you are leader, you are captain, no one can be like you, you are just too perfect! Why do you waste your time to talk with me? Okay, maybe I am the ace, but no one likes me!! Everybody hates me! Now, just leave me alone!! Do your own business and don’t ever involve in my life again!” when I am about to leave, she holds my hand.
“Just…. LET ME GO!!” I shout to her.
“ATSUKO!!” she shouts me back. I stay quite. “…you are wrong Atsuko.” she lower her tone. I look at her. I am about to cry now. I can’t hold it anymore. Then, I could feel my tears fall. I look down, I don’t want her to see me crying. She approaches me and then she says,
“You are wrong Atsuko. I am not that perfect, I am not that good. I still lack of something. And I still…can’t be a good leader.” I just cry, can not give any response.
“You….you are talented. You surely can do something, Atsuko. Your dancing, your singing, it’s even better than me. I am sad when you said that you were such a fail, and could not do anything. You are totally wrong Atsuko.” I look at her. She smiles.
”Remember yesterday when your foot sprained? You still did your best to dance, you tried to not feel the pain, you kept dancing, didn’t you? What you will call yourself then? A fail? No. It is not a fail. You are doing great. That is your own victory Atsuko. You are such a true idol. I don’t know if I can do the same like what you did. That is awesome you know.” She smiles and strokes my hair. I can feel my tears stop falling. I feel relieve after hearing it.
“W-why are you so kind to me?” I asked as I didn’t see her face. I still look down.
“Is that a question?” she chuckled.
“I don’t know.”
“Haha… Yeah, I am such kind person, right? I don’t know why everybody keeps saying that, though I feel normal.” After hearing that, somehow I don’t want her to say ‘I am kind to anyone’. At that time I just want her to be kind just to me. Just me.
“Yeah since entering AKB we don’t even talk once, though we are in same team.” said her. Well, she’s right. After what everybody thinks about me, I assume all of them are like that except Marichan…
“Hey, please sit.” then I follow what her asks me to do. I sit back.
“How is your foot?” she asked.
“It’s better.” I eat my ice cream. Ehm… delicious.
“When I asked you to go home, why you stayed? And after Mariko-sama told you to, then you easily did it? I don’t get it.” she looks at me so sharp. Looking for a good answer. I feel awkward.
“Y-yeah.. I was falling at that time, I-I didn’t have any choice! So I decided to go home.” she sighs.
“Huff… you know, at that time I wanted to help you, but I don’t want to make you angry. So I think its better if I didn’t make any movement.” so it was like that. I am feeling more relieve now.. I think she was lying, saying she cared but actually it was all lie. But I am happy that she is saying the truth.
“How come I will be mad?” I chuckle.
“Wah!” she looks surprised. I look at her as I eat my ice cream. “Hm?”
“This is the first time I see you smile. Hehe…” she laughs.
“Oh really? I am gonna miss it then…”
“Eh? Why? You don’t want to smile again? or laugh?”
“Kind of….” she finishes her last piece. “…aaaaa!! It is so delicious!” I smile again, and then I see her, she smiles too.
“Why are you smiling?” I asked
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“No. Just…. I am happy when I see your happy face.” she still looks at me and I know my face blushed at the same time. Waa… what I am gonna do?! What is it feeling? Shouldn’t I hate her already? Why…..why I sit here eating ice cream together with this annoying person? Uwaa…!
“….ya know, you look cuter when you smile. I like it.” DEG! I don’t know how to react! She is really straight forward! I feel like wanting to hide my face inside of my bag now!
“W-what are you talking about? Don’t talk about nonsense!” I can’t control my tone. Maybe she knows that I am nervous.
“What? I didn’t talk about nonsense. That is the truth.” oh please stop right now! I don’t want to hear anything from you or I am gonna melted here right now!
“H-hey its hot here! I want to walk outside.” I get up and walk as fast as I can.
“Hoi, wait for me!” she gets up and runs towards me.
“Didn’t you just finish your ice cream? How could you feel hot?”
“So-so what? I just feel hot… Am I wrong?” I walk even faster. She tries to walk beside me.
“Could you walk slower? I want to walk together with you…” she tries to have the same step as mine.
“No way!” I run and leave her behind.
“Hey! Why are you running? You said it’s hot, didn’t you? Hoi!!” she chases after me. I turn back and laugh when I see she runs to me. I keep running as fast as possible so that she can’t reach me. Well that is fun. That is my first time I feel joy. Thanks Minami.
Day by day I pass in theater, practicing for our upcoming concert, and it is the day after tomorrow. Everybody does their best even in practicing. They are sure if they are serious in practicing, their performance will be much better. I do the same. I don’t want to lose here. I don’t want to make fans disappointed, Marichan, and…..Minami. I will show them I could do something, I am not weak, I am not a loser. I am Maeda Atsuko, AKB’s ace and this is what an ace should do right? Even though everybody never looks at me and pretend I am not around, I don’t care. That is not a reason for me to give up, I am strong and I want to be stronger, more and more than this.
We finished our practice so late, and everybody seems tired. They take their bags and then head straightly to the exit. I also take my bag and change my cloth. I see Marichan, I greet her.
“Marichan.” I said as I approach her. She turns back and smiles.
“Oh, hi Acchan…”
“Ehm…. You’re going home now?” asked me. She nods. “Yeah, of course. Why? Do you have something to ask me or what?”
“Ehm….ano…” Actually I want to ask about last day when I heard her voice in a room with someone. I really want to know about it, with whom and what they talked about.
“Marichan…. About last-” I’ve not done my words yet then Minegishi approaches her.
“Mariko, you are so slow. What are you doing?” she holds her hands. DEG! What is she doing with my Marichan? She holds her hands? What? I see their hands are holding each other, I feel my heart ache. I don’t know what to do. Minegishi looks at me with…. hate looking.
“Nee, Why do you talk with that perfect-center-girl, Mariko?” She stays quite.
“I have been waiting for you, but you are too long. I think you have something to do with Takamina, so I decide to look for you, but…. you are wasting your time with her.” I can’t look at them both. I look away as my heart is so hurt. I can’t take any of these kind of words.
“Miichan...” whispered Marichan. I know she is feeling uneasy by her saying something bad about me.
“Okay, we are going now.” said her to Minegishi. Then Marichan looks at me. “I am sorry Acchan. I have to go. We continue it later, okay?” They are leaving now, I heard Minegishi said, ‘What? Acchan? Since when you call her like that?’ ‘Fine, just walk’ Marichan said.
I just only can see her leave with other girl. Marichan… I miss you. I miss you when you walk me home. We never go out since this intensive practice that we have. Once I see you with other girls, I feel a pain in my chest. I can’t cry here! I must hold it! I am not weak! She is Marichan. She is kind to anyone, it doesn’t mean they have special relationship or what. Okay! No more tears.
“Why are you still here?” I heard a voice from my back. I turn back.
“Oh, It’s you…” I heard my voice is…..so weak.
“Let’s go home. Tomorrow morning we have rehearsal for our concert. We must go bed early.” the leader said.
“It is almost 12 am and you said it is early?”
“Wahaa…” she rubs her neck “… okay forget it. Let’s go home together.”
That is my first time I go home with somebody else beside Marichan. On the way home we take mostly same direction, so we walk together and she always tells me the joke, but actually it is a fail joke. But I enjoy it. Looking at her telling me the story still with full energy, I envy her. I want to be someone like her, but I can’t. I don’t have any courage. and also I guess I and Marichan are slowly getting a part. I know she can’t talk to me so easily if the members are around. Maybe she feels uneasy with me if the situation is like that. I am sad when that is true. It means that she wants to talk with me if there is not somebody around. I am alone since very beginning. I don’t have friends, even one.
“From now on, everyday I will walk you home.” said Minami. I look at her. Somehow I feel she could read my mind.
“Huh?” I am raising my eyebrow, confused.
”Isn’t it clear? Everyday I will walk you home like what we do now.” She smiles.
“W-why… It’s so sudden?”
“Sudden? Hmm….. I want to for a long time ago, but at that time you always go home with Mariko-sama.” I still look at her. What did she say just now? She wants to walk me home everyday? Can I trust her? I trust Marichan, but she breaks it. And now this little captain, can I trust her? Or she maybe is just the same with Marichan?
“Don’t trouble yourself. I am not a kid anymore, I can go home myself.”
“Why? I think it will be more interesting if we are going home together? We take same direction, and you won’t be bored when you go home just by yourself. Trust me, two is better than alone.” she keeps talking. I lose my energy to argue with her. Okay, I agree.
“Do what you like.”
“Yatta~” she is so happy with my simple-short words. And then she holds my hand.
DEG! DEG! DEG! My heart is beating so fast, and I blush at the same time.
“Is it okay if I do this to you every time we go home?” she looks at me. I look away, I can’t show her my face gotten pink like peach. I nod. Right after that I feel she holds my hand tightly, like she doesn’t want to lose me.
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