I've been holding off posting and looking up too much about her graduation, but tumblr sort of forces it on you when you follow MM related blogs!
; I'm finding it hard to express how I feel about it...
I guess can clearly say now that I know what it is to be a fan- I've been around to see some auditions and I've seen 5 members graduate, and Ai's graduation has hit me the hardest.
I can't believe I used to dislike Ai when I first became a fan... after realising Yossie had graduated I remember I held this dislike for her because I didn't like that she sung her lines in concerts- childish I know, but I was a nooby 14 year old and didn't really know or like the current line up I was seeing. I later realised just how amazing she was, and gradually just accepted her as something the group needs, even though I may not really be a fan of her- she carried and led the group. About a year ago I realised I always wanted to buy her merchandise over my favourites, Sayu and Gaki. I liked her style in her blog pics, and her hair, she was so gorgeous- I wanted to look as pretty as her and I think, really, she's the reason I'm growing my hair out now after browsing oldish photos of her~
I really did get this feeling that suddenly, someone was really becoming my oshimen- I want to know all about her, see all her photos, watch all the concerts etc. etc. but then her graduation was announced.... so I suppose I've just been waiting, watching this graduation creep up, and now it's happened it feels strange thinking how she won't be in any more concerts with Morning Musume. Now she may be harder to keep up to date with, and some of the things she does we might not get to see anything of, but I'll keep looking out for her, and I'll keep loving that voice of hers~
I still feel quite sad and weird about the fact that she's no longer in H!P but I'm sure that soon it'll seem like ages ago
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Keep going Ai!! I hope she lands some great jobs/roles~~