"So, what do you want to do?" you asked me.
"I..I don't know," I said sadly.
"Come on Sayu, what is wrong? You know you can tell me anything."
"How do I do that?"
"Wait, you're asking me what you should say. You know I'm not a mind reader."
You always knew me better than that, I thought. I just wish I knew how to express myself.
"Well..are you going to tell me or not?"
"I can't say it..." I began to sob uncontrollably before you embraced me again. I don't know how long I can keep this inside. It's been eating me up for so long that I don't know if even you could say me. I mean, you not only have been so good to me, but there's something about you that...
"If you want, I'll keep it a secret," you said to me. "Only the two of us will know it."
"Are you sure about this?" I asked you.
"Of course," you whispered, "for you."
"No one's done that for me before," I said.
I actually lied. There was someone who I thought I could trust with my secrets.
Why did she have to hurt me?
I know I should trust her, but I'm afraid...
Afraid of being hurt again..but I don't want to be hurt by you.
Besides, you're the only person I have left to turn to.
I decided to tell you my secret, but I left the most important part out.
The one person that I thought I could love.
"I don't want to pry into your business, but was that the reason why you were in the dressing room earlier?" you asked.
I simply nodded. "Can we not talk about this anymore?" I asked.
"No problem. Now, where would you like to go?"
"Far away from here," I replied. "Anywhere."
You never told me where we were going until we got there. We went to a movie together and we had a good time. To be honest, that was the first time I had a good time since all of this happened. I always seemed to have a good time when I'm with you. Even though we didn't get to do much while you was there, I still cherished those memories that we did.
Please..don't hurt me.
Please...
I told you part of my secret. Luckily, I didn't tell you who was responsible for this.
But still, could I really love again..maybe love you?