@ Kuro-kun: Thanks for reading and this will be the final part...I think
@ rndmnwierd: Did I lose you somewhere??? I think this last part will identify what the pairings are actually.
@ kRisZ: Bingo, Gaki is the one in the hospital and Eri was the writer of the letter.
POV 3
I was finishing a report when I heard a knock on my door, I turned my head to see them in which I was not surprised because it was going to happen sooner or later. They had questions and I had some of their answers. I looked at the one that was being guided in, she looked weak and fragile as if she was going to break any time soon, but at least she is alive. I’ve asked about her condition from her doctor, on a timely basis, she hasn’t really been eating and she’s been in this depression but hopefully after our discussion and her guide’s assistance, she will come out of it.
They both took a seat in front of me as I finished what I was doing. “Hey, I knew you would find me sooner or later”
“Sorry to bother you but we just couldn’t wait, we have so many unanswered questions”
“In which I will answer to the best of my knowledge”
“W-what…h-how” your voice was hoarse so I got up and poured you a glass of water
“How about I tell you my end of things, maybe that will clear up a lot of your questions” they both nodded
“I met her approximately one year ago…”
Flashback
I was walking back from lunch and I saw a girl sitting on a chair in the halls not moving so naturally I went up to make sure everything was okay “Er… excuse me miss, are you okay?”
She wiped her tears and smiled up at me “Yeah, everything is fine”
“Are you sure?” I was sceptical, fine does not entail a person sitting here crying
“Yeah” as she got up and left
I didn’t think much of it then but I saw her again the very next day talking to one of my colleagues, to be exact a colleague that was a specialist in treating cancer. They were bidding themselves goodbye and I saw her lower her head scurrying off. I don’t know why but my curiosity got the best of me as I walked up to my colleague “Iida-san, is she a patient of yours?”
“Tanaka-san, is she your friend?”
“Um…sort of”
“Well if would be best to persuade your friend to check in immediately, it would be best if she went through therapy regardless of the outcome”
“I will Iida-san, er…I’ve got to run but we’ll have lunch sometime” as I zoomed off ‘She’s got cancer, no wonder she was upset’
I was walking around on the roof for some fresh air, a habit I have when I am overworked, stressed or needed alone time to think and I heard crying. I looked around for the source and I found her crouched against a wall crying. Instinctively, I went up to her and handed her my handkerchief “Here…are you okay?”
She took my handkerchief and smiled at me “yeah, I’m fine. It seems like you always come out with that phrase miss…” she looked at my name tag “Tanaka”
I took a seat beside her “yeah it seems that way doesn’t it? Do you want to talk about what’s bothering you?” I didn’t want to let her know I knew what was wrong in case she was one of those who would over react
“Nothing really” she was in denial again, I didn’t know what it was but I wanted to continue to talk to her so I blurted out the first thing on my mind.
“Why aren’t you taking therapy?” the moment those words left my mouth, I put both my hands over my mouth. It wasn’t what you’d expect a stranger to say to you so you had on this shocked look and froze on the spot “I’m sorry but I saw you talking to my colleague and I got curious and…I’m sorry if you are offended” I got up and bowed profusely
As I was bowing I felt a hand on my shoulder, I looked at the hand and traced it to where you were standing, I was so caught in apologizing that I didn’t notice that you had gotten up, but you were smiling at me “No need to apologize. Thank your for your concern but let’s just say I can’t” You sat back down and patted the spot beside you
“Why?” I sat beside you with millions of questions “Why can’t you?”
“I’m in my final stage so nothing really works so why waste that money? I think I’d rather do something better with my time and money”
“Is that why you’re crying because you feel like there’s nothing left to help you?”
She shook her head “No, I’m crying because I can’t imagine how my friends and family will take it. I don’t want to see them sad or upset”
“Eh~?” was all I can say, it wasn’t normal for people to think of others at times like this, usually people would be crying wondering why them and not someone else. I guess I bore an odd face because she giggled beside me
“You’ve got a funny face” hearing her giggle and seeing her smile immediately brought a smile to my face
“I don’t think I’ve properly introduced myself, Tanaka Reina” I held out my hand
“Kamei Eri” she shook my hand “what department are you in doctor?”
“I’m not a doctor yet only training”
“You’ll make a great doctor”
“How so?”
“You’re caring. You don’t know me, I’m not your patient but you still cared, isn’t that the most basic thing a patient can ask from their doctors?” As I was giving it some thought, she got up and ran off “See you around Tanaka-san”
End of Flashback
“I saw Eri more and more because she required to do a checkup every week and every time she did she would stop by and talk to me. She told me loads about herself and her bestfriend in which she missed the most. Everytime she talks about her memories created with her bestfriend she would start to get teary-eyed. I started to look forward to her visits, she even started visiting when she wasn’t due for her check-up just to come chat with me. We would usually go to the rooftop, sitting on the ledge and just talk about anything, my things, her things, movies just about anything. I guess that is how I grew more attached to her as I finally asked her out and tried to ask her to be my girlfriend
Flashback 2
“Eri-chan, its nice out tonight nee?” she hooked her arm around mine as we took a stroll along a beach
“It’s nice! I love the beach, the smell of the sea, the sounds of the waves, the feel of the sand…”
“Eri-chan…”
“Nani?” we stopped walking and she looked at me
“Will you let me walk down the remaining path with you?” She froze and slowly I felt her hand slip away as she started to run in the opposite direction we came from. I ran after her and stopped in front of her holding onto her shoulders. She lifted her face and she was crying “What’s wrong?”
“Reina, don’t!!! You know that nothing will come out of this, I won’t be here for long, I don’t want this to end up hurting you”
I wiped her tears away “Silly Eri, by you not accepting my offer and my feelings is what hurts. I’ve thought about this thoroughly and yes I know you will leave me one day and yes I may be heart broken then but at least I wouldn’t go through a life in regret”
She took my hands off her shoulder and looked away “Don’t say anymore, I’ll pretend you didn’t say anything”
“I want to be there for you in your time of need, I want to be with you regardless of the time span we have left. I want to be the one there for you because…because I love you. I know you may think I am talking crazy, that I don’t know what I’m feeling but I reassure you I’m not doing this because I sympathize you, I’m doing it because I truly love you” I took her hand and placed it over my heart “This heart I have is beating this way because of you, because of who you are as a person, because of your uniqueness that has managed to capture it” Your hand slipped away from my heart, as tears started building and were flowing down my face. I closed my eyes and decided to let everything out for it may be my only chance “Please give me a chance to be your pillar of support. Please give me a chance, be my girlfriend” my legs gave way as I was crying my heart out, pleading for her to accept me
She crouched down putting her hand on my shoulder “Sorry but I can’t return those feelings however I hope we can still be friends” she got up and started walking away. Never in my life had I felt like this before, I felt so helpless and so defeated as if a part of me was disappearing away from me right before my eyes.
I scrambled to my feet “I’ll be there for you, even as friends, I’ll do it!!!!”
She froze in her steps not looking back at me, I was unaware of what was going through her mind but she suddenly turned, smiling at me “come on slow poke, loser treats ice-cream” as she ran off towards the train station. I didn’t care if she didn’t love me at least I love her and I was given the chance to be her confidante
End of Flashback 2
“You know I was more or less jealous of you, I was never able to become any closer than just a friend”
“B-but you guys….”
“It was a lie, a staged production. She was getting weaker and she knew it so she asked me to play the girlfriend role so that you wouldn’t be worried about her and I would help her be more convincing when she was absent on her check-ups and you question” I felt a drop on my hand and realized that I had started to cry reminiscing the past “At some point, I even loathed you for knowing her first, you were all that she talked about usually, it made me wonder at that point whether she loved you but I found out later that she didn’t, it was just who she was. I remember her last day…”
Flashback 3
“Well fine use protection” the ‘bestfriend’ ran off as Eri was yelling random things out
As soon as they were out of sight, you clutched your head and your legs gave way, luckily I caught you in the nick of time before you fell to the ground “are you okay? Where’s your medicine?” I searched around for your medication but you put a hand over mind to stop me.
“Thank you for all you’ve done for me, helping me create memories for her as well as for us. I know it was unfair for you but I honestly thank you for the time you’ve spent on me”
“D-don’t! Don’t say anything, let’s get you to the hospital” I mustered all of my energy to carry you as I waved a taxi down
I held you in my arms throughout the whole ride, worried about your condition, yelling at the driver to hurry up. You tugged at my sleeve, “don’t worry! I’m okay! I need you to do me a favour”
*sniff sniff* “What…what is it?”
“In my purse there is a key attached to my house keys, that key is for the locked drawer in my room. Inside there is a letter that I want you to deliver for me when I am gone…”
“Don’t! you won’t be gone… you have to stay with me”
“Shhh! You knew this was going to happen at any moment” I knew but I had also fallen so deeply in love that I hoped it wouldn’t come yet “will you do this last task for me?” your eyes sparkled in its own way even in your condition
“y-yes, I’ll do it”
“Thank you” were your last words before you fell into eternal slumber
End of Flashback 3
“As promised I did as was told and gave the necessary documents out” I looked up from my walk down memory lane and both were crying, unable to speak. I took both their hands in mine and looked at them straight in the eye “It was a loss we didn’t want but thinking back at the efforts she made for your happiness, I hope you guys understand what her last wish” I got up from my seat and headed out the door
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I went up to my usual spot on the roof and sat on the ledge, the ledge I use to share with Eri, after my discussion, I felt tired about thinking back of the past. I pulled out an envelope and opened it up, a part that I didn’t tell them.
Flashback
When you left, I remembered my promise as I went to your house with the keys and zoomed straight into your room. I looked around the room and it felt…cold and empty, it was different from the other times I was here, maybe because the owner is no longer here anymore. I glanced around the room at the toys and pictures that were there, smiling at some of the goofy pictures that were taken. I continued to look around until my eyes lay upon your desk and I was brought back to the real reason I was here. My hands trembled and fumbled with the keys but I managed to open it and on top was a letter addressed to Ai-chan. I picked it up and noticed another envelope, an envelope addressed to me. Slowly I sat down at your desk and picked it up, opened it and began to read it
Nee nee Reina, surprised? How are you taking it? Genki? By the time you’re reading this, I most likely have left this world to a far away place. I want to thank you once again for everything you’ve helped me through
There is something I’ve kept a secret unable to bring myself to say to you, lack of courage I guess, which may seem weird nee (laugh) That night when you confessed your feelings for me, my heart broke down, I thought that god was playing a truly mean trick on me because I loved you too. When I first was diagnosed with cancer, I was ready to leave making sure that everyone around me was cared for, I didn’t anticipate your appearance, nor did I anticipate my feelings to grow for you. The days I came over to talk to you were because I missed you, I didn’t realize it then but when I did, I hated the feelings and tried to suppress them yet you were like a drug, I couldn’t keep away. It was okay as long as you didn’t feel the same way for me too, because then that way I wouldn’t be the one to upset you when I left. But who knew? Who knew that at that moment you would confess to a sick person, your speech at the beach really touched me but I couldn’t give you that false hope not when I wasn’t going to be around long. Although you say you didn’t care, I did! I couldn’t bear to see you upset if I did give you that chance so I did the one thing that I thought would minimize it, I rejected you. I was leaving this world so me suffering from this was better than both of us but you were a persistent one nee? Even when I rejected you saying that we can only be friends you took that as a chance. I was astonished and touched that night, wanting to badly to run up to you and tell you I loved you too but I couldn’t be selfish.
These remaining days of my life were the best I’ve ever had because they were with you, you brightened everything when I thought it was dark. I may be smiling on the outside but inside I was engulfed in darkness until you showed up, you made every moment I had left bright just by being there, like an angel sent down from above and I thank you Reina, thank you for making my days the best, thank you for showing me love, and showering with love. I’m sorry I couldn’t tell you this face to face but I LOVE YOU!
Reina read the letter over and over till it was at the point where she memorized it as she took a lighter and set the letter on fire.
“I love you too Eri” as she got up from the ledge “Forever and into our next lives, I’ll find you”
‘Goodbye minna-san, I just can’t leave her alone’
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