*is finished reading*
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I have to say, throughout the reading I just couldn't quite get into RenAi. I'm not sure why (perhaps, I don't like Reina as much as I do Risa... ^_^). I was aching for Risa... what she must have felt to be so brazenly betrayed. >.<
BUT, there were also moments when I felt sweetened by RenAi. Everything Reina was saying leading up to her 'I love you' to Ai and everything spoken afterwards... this scene was a particularly powerful one and had me really cheering for Reina.
Love the angst.
Really well written and the way you structured the story was effective too.
I had a feeling it was a 'man' who had done something to Ai in her past to shape the way she is now... I don't remember what it was, but you dropped a hint early on. I was surprised nobody picked up on it... but yeah, good job with the authoring!
Despite feeling a lot when Risa was officially dropped, I didn't cry. You managed to make me cry at the end though, after reading this bit:
They had missed their chance together.
It rings true. Life is like that - full of missed opportunities. It was frustrating that Ai was only willing to face up to her feelings when it was TOO late. >.< Even more so that Reina couldn't bring herself to forgive Ai months afterwards when they come face to face again... but these are people we're looking at, and their flaws disable them. Especially during the most critical of moments - we're liable to being reactive rather than proactive. It was only when Ai realised that she'd lost Reina (when it suddenly hit her that Reina had not once looked up at her after receiving the phone call), that she was suddenly sparked with emotion and into action. Great depiction of some aspects of the human nature.
There are still some questions left unanswered though. Perhaps we really don't need to know, but you've sure made me curious.
- WHY exactly did Ai think she had wronged Reina? Is it simply because she thought she had 'tied' Reina to her? I always thought it would be something a lot more dramatic...
- WHAT exactly had happened between Ai and the mystery 'man'? Ai apparently felt filthy after what had happened, and so we can imagine so much... but apart from this, there is still a lot fog surrounding this part of Ai's past. I wonder if you'll ever elaborate? (perhaps in Destiny Love?).
Anyways, I really had an enjoyable read. A little frustrating at points (but I guess that's your aim
), but a really good read nonetheless. Essy has so far lived up to her name.
I'll definitely give Destiny Love a shot now.
Thanks for sharing this story with us.