@ rndmnwierd : You're getting your wish aren't you??? So no need for chants right???? TANAGAKI!!!!!
@ Chloe: Unfortunately, at this point there is no need for Miki's service, however I will keep her in mind if I ever write about MM in this type of format.
You're too cute!!!! Naw, you make a good point, because I am the author so I see everything more or less like the almighty
So no you aren't taking it too seriously, if anything it makes me as an author proud how the readers are absorbed into their fics.
Trust me I am pretty sure a lot of readers have had similar feelings, just like myself. I have had similar situations and let's just say it was pretty tough and lasted for a long period of time.
I wasn't that quick in the end, but in the future I do plan to maintain my record of updating as soon as possible. Also because I was and am a reader myself, so I can totally understand the feeling of waiting for updates and such.
Chapter 40I laughed at the next couple of days when Kame kept on urging me to go speak to Tanakacchi, the different methods she used and the frustration she had when I wouldn’t budge. I wouldn’t budge because every time I saw Tanakacchi with JunJun I couldn’t help but feel like I’ve already lost that chance. Kame didn’t let up though, when I wouldn’t speak to Tanakacchi she pushed me towards Sayumin, to get something out of her but what? A secret that Tanakacchi has? If it’s a secret shouldn’t it be left that way until Tanakacchi is ready to tell the rest of us? Don’t these people understand privacy?
“What is there to be afraid of?” Kame asked me and I looked at her.
I never did answer that question as I repeated the question in my diary entry
‘What is there to be afraid of?’ And even now I couldn’t answer the question or at least I didn’t have the guts to write it down but in my mind: Enough! Rejection can be one, the reality that we could’ve been something but can’t now is another but then again isn’t that what Kame was facing when she decided to confront me with my diary? What was going through her mind? I never did fill in details for that entry as I flipped through the next entry and also my last one so far.
‘I finally got the courage to go up to Sayumin to find out what it was that Kame wanted me to know…’Flashback“You haven’t answered my question which signifies that you don’t have an answer and having no answer you should come with me to find Sayu!” debated Kame
‘I don’t know if it was me, but Kame definitely doesn’t sound like the Kame that I know’ “Okay who are you and what have you done with my Kame?” I put my hand on her forehead
She swatted away my hand “Gaki-san, quit playing! You have to ask Sayu if you want to know anything about Reina”
“But why can’t you just tell me what you know? It’s the same thing isn’t it?”
“No! Because I am basing everything on observations so I want you to come with me and hear it from Sayu together” Kame dragged me towards a café in which I saw Sayumin sitting.
‘Why that sneaky turtle!!!! I am going to have to..’ “Hi Sayu” I smiled awkwardly because I was afraid I will curse out loud my thoughts. Not a pretty sight to have a Morning Musume member cussing in public…especially towards another member
“Gaki-san! Eri! What are you guys doing here?!”
“Sayu, there are some things that Gaki-san and I want to talk to you about”
“What things?”
“Reina”
“Why don’t you ask her then?” Sayumi feint ignorant
“If it was that easy Sayu then I wouldn’t be asking you now, would I?” Eri rolled her eyes and I watched on over their squabbling
“Okay….what do you want to know?”
“Reina….she likes Gaki-san, doesn’t she?”
Sayumi’s eyes grew wide like they were about to pop out “W-Wha…H-how…” she stuttered
“Don’t mind that part, please tell Gaki-san what you know”
“What do you mean tell her! No offense Gaki-san but don’t you think it would be foolish to tell you things if you are with Eri?”
Kame face saddened, I guess she hasn’t told her fellow Rokkies yet “We…we broke up”
“WHAT??!!!” hollered Sayumin, getting up from her chair, causing people to stare in our direction
“Hush Sayumin, we don’t need this to go public anytime soon” as I pulled her down back to her seat.
Sayumin sat back down “what do you guys mean you broke up? How did that happen?” I didn’t know how to answer her because I felt ashamed, ashamed that I led Kame to this.
“We broke up because…because Gaki-san doesn’t love me like she does Reina. Since I started observing Gaki-san’s behaviour prior to I have been noticing that Reina has gotten…skinnier, paler, unhappier...ever since I got together with Gaki-san. So in that sense, can you please tell us?”
Both Sayumin and I turned to look at Eri, shocked “Okay who are you and what have you done with Eri?” Sayumin held up a fork to protect herself.
“Stop joking around Sayu, it really is me”
“Who is me? And if you really were Eri, when did you ever become so observant?”
Eri grabbed the fork away from Sayumin “Haha so funny, me as in Eri and what do you mean when did I ever become so observant? I can be observant you know. But can you please tell us the details about the kitty already? Gaki-san here has been a pain in the buttocks with her emotional troubles!”
Sayumin looked at me and I gave her an awkward smile
‘Thanks Kame! Can you be anymore blunt?!’ “Oh crap!!! What should I do? I shouldn’t, Reina will have my head for this”
“Sayu don’t worry, what she doesn’t know won’t hurt her right?”
“That’s not the point, do you realize how Reina will feel knowing this??? She will beat herself up inside more than she already is and…how are you sure she will accept?”
“I…I…I didn’t think about it like that! All I want is the truth to be known because we are owed this truth don’t you think? I went into a relationship just to realize that someone I hold dearly loves my bestfriend and thinking that my bestfriend probably held back because of me and because of it, it could be….it might be…eating her up inside. She’s having health issues because of this isn’t she?”
‘Now I was officially lost, what did Kame mean by her best friend holding back because of her’ Kame turned to face me “Yeah you heard right! Reina probably held back her feelings in part because of my feelings. She was probably stuck at a dead end yet she didn’t find ways out, instead she just kept everything inside, making her sick” I was shocked before, now I was feeling dizzy from all this, it felt like my heart stopped working as I gulped and downed my glass of water holding onto my chest as if in need of air.
“Gaki-san are you alright?” Kame and Sayumin looked at me in concern. I couldn’t answer them I just picked up their glasses of water and downed them before I could regain my breathing again.
“Gaki-san! Are you okay? Do you need more water?”
I shook my head “Can…can…can…can we take *cough* take this from *cough* the…the. *gasp* very top?”
“Maybe this isn’t a good idea right now”
I grabbed onto Kame’s arm, “you *gasp* started this…*cough* now finish it!” I then grabbed onto Sayumin’s arm “just *gasp* get me *cough* more water and then *cough* you better start talking”
I saw an exchange of eye contact before Sayumin ordered a pitcher of water “Okay if this is what you want but I warn both of you, yes including you Eri that what I am about to tell you will have no holes and that you better be ready to accept it”