One-Shots:
Three words, Eight letters (Atsumina) (http://forum.jphip.com/index.php?topic=37686.msg1279780#msg1279780)
Now or Never (KaiiAcchan) (http://forum.jphip.com/index.php?topic=37686.msg1300003#msg1300003)
Now or Never (Atsumina) (http://forum.jphip.com/index.php?topic=37686.msg1303201#msg1303201)
An Opportunity To Forever (KojiYuu) (http://forum.jphip.com/index.php?topic=37686.msg1313665#msg1313665)
Part II (http://forum.jphip.com/index.php?topic=37686.msg1314254#msg1314254)
Always (KojiYuu) (http://forum.jphip.com/index.php?topic=37686.msg1320712#msg1320712)
Three words, Eight letters
Someone's POV
There is no perfect life, it is not always happy, you don't get what you always want. Sadness always come after happiness, but after the rain, rainbow is there. How ironic...
Yeah, I've experienced such things. I thought all the things that happen to me is perfect, a loving mom, comfortable life, loving girlfriend, supportive bestfriend, fun friends. I'm happy. I wish for nothing.
And yet... I'm only just experiencing happiness. And sadness is yet to come. But I believed if I overcome the storm, there is always a rainbow to welcome me, right?
Happiness is being with someone who'll stick up with you no matter what, being with friends that understand and support you, no matter what situation you face. Happiness… it is not something you wished, you don't wait for it. We, we have the ability to do our own happiness. It is our decision if we choose to be happy or not. Right?
Who'll give me happiness then? Love has something to do with happiness right? They say… love has it ups and downs, it's twist and turns. Love leaves us pain, teaches us until we learn something and even if it takes us so long, it will always takes us to where we belong. But, how could you know where you belong if you have two choices? Two choices that hard to choose cause there are positive and negative reasons in both side.
Relationships are like traffic signs, 1-way, 2-way, do not enter, no U-turn, no left turn, but the best so far is give way and keep right. You drive your own life, right? Are you gonna follow the traffic sign or you drive your own life roughly? Will you turn to the left or will you turn to the right?
Who are you going to choose, the one you love or the one who loves you? If she/he left you, will you just be stupid to wait for him/her? Or let go of him/her and start again? But what if I did that, will he/she still wait for me? What if I loved someone else?
Loved or be loved?
Atsuko's POV
"Minami"
I followed her.
I don't know but when she walks away from me, I feel hurt. There's a big part of me can be missing. It's not like when Takeru left me… because I know in myself what's gonna be missing to me. But… But… Now, I don't know. Blank. All I just know is. I don't want Minami left me. No. Not her.
She stop her pace and stare at me. What's the problem? Is she mad at me?
"When will I be, Atsuko? When?"
When she will be what? Is she mad because I choose Takeru that morning?
That's the reason?
Flashback.
"Atsuko"
He hold my hand while Minami is holding my other hand.
"I'm sorry. I know that you might not forgive me. I know you. What I've done is wrong. I'm really sorry. Even if I sacrifice the last of my life I will, just forgive me to the stupidity I done."
Takeru… Why? Why are you saying those things? Why? Why are you making me so confused?
"Don't leave me. Don't… Don't… Just. Not now. Please don't leave me."
I just stare at him. What he's saying? Of course, I won't leave him. I'm not going anywhere.
"Atsuko, let's go."
In my left… there's Minami. I look at her. She still holding my hand. But Takeru grip his hand to my right hand. I look at him.
No! He's crying. No! Takeru is such a crybaby. He's crying. And when he's crying there's no one who can stop her. He just punch anybody. He change to a crazy man.
"Don't leave me now. Please Atsuko…"
His voice is shaking. I look again to Minami. She's just staring at me. I know Minami will be mad at me if I choose Takeru. But I can't let him down.
I'm sorry. But… I'm choosing...
Minami's POV
She said that she don't want to cry again. She said that she's tired of crying. But… everything is ruined. It ended... Who will she choose? Me or Takeru? Left or right? I know that she choose Takeru. But... in my heart. I hope... She doubt and choose me.
But... But... But...
"I'm sorry Minami. You can go first. Let's meet later, okay?"
I want to shout at her and said... 'Choose me. I won't hurt you.' I want to say what Takeru said. 'Please don't go.' I want to hold her and keep to my side. Don't give her to Takeru. But... I just nod and say...
"Okay"
Hurt.
That's what I felt. I'm hurt. Why did she... I was hoping that she might choose me. I know that whatever happens, it's still Sato Takeru. I'm weak. I'm hurt. I've done anything for you... because he left you, but... now he's back and you choose him. Gahd, I hate you Atsuko. I hate that I love you so much.
Atsuko's POV
Is my decision right? That I choose Takeru? For sure, Minami is mad at me.
"Thank you Atsuko. For not leaving."
I just smiled at him
Flashback end.
Atsuko's POV
"Minami what's wrong? Are you mad at me? Because of what happen earlier? I'm sorry. I have to pick Takeru because when he's crying, he just punch anybody and I can't let that happen. I'm real—"
"WILL YOU PLEASE STOP!"
She— she shout at me. She always shout but this time... it's different.
"I'm so– sorry"
"Sorry? You're just good at saying sorry. You're always say sorry to me. You always choose them first. WHY?!? Because you're confident that I'm not gonna leave you. I won't let go of you. And for that you have the confidence to leave me. ARE YOU HAPPY?!? ON WHAT HE SAID?!? You have a chance to be with him again. But what can I do? I don't have the right to stop you. WHAT?!? There's nothing, right? And when he left you again? You come to me and say sorry again? I hate it. Because... me... I accept your sorry. Why? Who am I not to accept that."
'No. I can't... I can't leave you. I don't want. Now that... Now that I know I can't be happy again if you'll leave me.'
I want to say that. But... I don't have the guts. I won't... I just keep it.
"ATSUKO!?!"
She shout at me. Me. I'm crying. Why? It really hurts! What is this? I don't want her to shout at me. I don't want her to be like this. I don't want her to he mad at me.
I remember when Takeru left me. Minami is always by my side. She is my hero. She save me from pain. I don't want her experienced this.
"I hate this! You and what have you done. I hate myself because... when you say sorry—"
She looked down and clench her fist.
"What is it when I said so—"
"I CAN ALWAYS FORGIVE YOU!?!"
O__________O
[A/N: That's Acchan when Takamina said that! Sorry for ruining the mood. HEHE :P]
"Always... Just one sorry and I can forgive you. It's nothing to me again. I can't be mad at you. Just one smile and my anger is gone. When I see you, I feel weak. I can't resist you."
She stop. And... and. HOW DID I LET THIS HAPPEN?!? She's crying. But... but... MINAMI?!? MINAMI'S CRYING?!?
OKAY.
CRYING?!? THATS... A CRIME!?! A CRIME THAT I'VE DONE!!?! WHY DID I LET THIS HAPPEN?!?
"Atsuko."
Her voice is low now. And she is sad.
"... I was hoping. Earlier. That even if there is no miracle, you might choose me. You said that you're tired of crying. YOU SAID THAT YOU DON'T WANT IT!?! But... you. You choose to be hurt again. I just want you to be happy. I won't hurt you. You know that. I CAN PROTECT YOU!!! But, why you didn't want me to do it? Because you want Takeru to protect you. That it's always be him. I separate you from him. But you always go for him. I don't know what to do anymore. I don't want you to be hurt. Because that's the last thing I do in my life. To hurt you."
Minami. Don't cry. I'm also hurt. And this is different from the hurt that I experienced when Takeru left me. This hurt feelings when I know that there is someone who is hurt because of me. I know that you don't want to be hurt. I feel it. I know it. When I'm with you, I feel that there is no one who can hurt me because you are there to save me.
"Atsuko... Why?? Why is it always Takeru? I want to help you. Cry at my shoulder, beat me, slap me, anything. I don't care. But why you didn't let me to take care of you? To protect you? I CAN AND I WANT!!! I'm always here. Wherever you go, I will accompany you. It's ok for me if you shout at me. Just let me be by your side. I don't want that guy to do that. Why is it... you don't let me to—"
To?
"... to hold and guard you heart?"
Huh??
Heart??
"I want to take care of you, make you happy if you are sad, accompany you if you are alone, help you in your script, drive you back and forth, hold your things after you go shopping, cook your favorite food, sing you a lullaby if you can't sleep, dance to make you amuse, scratch the itchy part of your body, click the remote and change to Cartoon Network, Nick and Disney Channel, and most of all..."
She stop crying. Is she not angry anymore? But the sadness in her eyes is slowly disappearing.
"Maeda Atsuko"
Minami come close and hold my cheeks. She's staring at me.
"...I'm ready to love you. I want to love you."
What? She wants to love me? W-Why?
"Atsuko, I want to be with you. Share everything with you. Spend my life with you. Anything related to you."
" O____O "
" (-' ' , -) "
"O____O"
"HEY ATSUKO! I'm serious here. I confessed my feelings for you but your just spacing out."
Here she come's again. Shouting!
"Excuse me... If you keep shouting at me, I just leave her—"
[A/N: Ara~ Acchan such a tsundere. Hehe, sorry for ruining the mood again. I can't help it :P]
"Try it. Try to leave."
"What??"
"Nothing. *smile, more likely grin... KAWAII..!* Because... wherever you go. I will follow you. *smile* Wherever Atsuko. "
Awwww... she's so sweet.
"I can be and I will be the 'girl' who calls you beautiful instead of hot, who will call you back when you hung up the phone, who will lie under the stars and listen to your heartbeat, or will stay awake just to watch your sleep. You should love a 'girl' who kiss your forehead, who wants to show you off to the world when you are in sweats, who holds your hands in front of her friends, who thinks you're just as pretty without make-up on. One who is constantly reminding you of how much she cares and lucky to have you... The one who turn to her friends and says, 'THAT'S HER'."
"You should love that kind of girl. Fortunately, I can be that girl, so... LOVE ME."
I remembered Takeru. He's a 'YOURMAN'. Hmm... but Minami. Whenever I cry, she would always make me feel like she would change the world if she could so it couldn't hurt me anymore.
"Atsuko... don't doubt my feelings for you. Because it's the only thing I'm sure of."
I decided to tease her.
"Why? What's your feeling for me? That you seems so sure. And that I can't doubt about it?"
She looked down and blush. Aww... she looks like a baby. KAWAII!!!
"Atsuko. Three words, eight letters. That's what I feel for you. That's what I feel that it makes me hurt whenever you think Takeru."
When she said that, she push me to the tree. She looks like she gonna push the tree. I stuck in the middle. I was like O____O
"Three words? Eight letters? What? What are you saying?"
"MY FEELINGS FOR YOU. STUPID!!"
-____-
What's that? Three words? There's so many words. And wait... how come three words and eight letters become feelings? I only know that it is a noun. And what is the meaning of that? I HATE YOU?!? NO! I know that she mad at me. I - H - A - T - E - Y - O - U?!? NOO!!! But it can also be I want you. I need you. I like you. I... I LOVE YOU?!? UGH!! I hate guessing! So I said...
"Then say it! SAY THAT THING!! Say what you feel for me."
"38!!!"
"What's 38??"
"My feelings for you!!"
"Minami. I'm hella serious here, 38 is a number. What I ask is your feelings! GAHD!! SAY IT!! Say what you feel for me..."
"What is it to you if I say that? Nothing will change. I'll still be Minami and you'll still be Atsuko. Nothing will change even if I say it or not."
She look down.
"There's gonna be a change. Three words, eight letters. Say it, Minami. Say it and I'm yours."
When I said, 'say it and I'm yours', I hold her cheeks. I don't know but... I want hold it. I... I just want to tell her that I give up. I'm falling for her. No, I'm fallen for her. I'm inlove with this girl. That even if she keep shouting at me. I know that she won't hurt me and always protect me. And I'm safe with her...
"Atsuko."
Her face come closer.
" I "
Closer.
" LOVE "
Closer.
" YOU "
Closer.
"Can I kiss you? *blush then look down*"
I stunned for a second and smiled at her.
Then our lips met.
And I know that this is L.O.V.E
And... Hell yeah... I'm a girlinlove.
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How was it?? :dunno: :dunno:
I think this deserves a part two??
Yeah, I guess!
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