I already change some part of it's and this is it~
YEY!
mode107 approved this fanfic is safe to post in the normal fanfic section!but i still warned you that this chapter contains some a PG scene. so i hope the readers that under 18 accompanied by their parents when they read this chapter, that's kinda impossible. LOL the main focus in this chapter is not the 'scene', but the thoughts. :3
feel free to comment and give me some critics. :3
without further adieu~
OH! i forgot about something.
try to listen to at the beginning from richard marx and donna lewis.
YukiRena will sing this together in the middle part of the story. :3
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ONE
ACT TWO
LIFE
[Rena POV]Mommy.. why do we have to eat Steamed Pork Buns again?
I grabbed the warm, round food in my hand, full of disgust.
I'm tired of it... I want a Melon-pan!
I let go of the Pork Bun and grabbed the Melon-pan next to it.
I peeled the outer layer of plastic and found another layer of it..
Strange..
I peeled another layer of plastic. Satisfied with it, I put my favorite bread in my mouth..
I’m trying to bite it, but it’s so bouncy..
Hmmm?
Hey! Why does my chest feel funny?"Unnn—Nyahh.. Mmmmhhnnn." exclaimed Yuki’s weak voice.
"Huh?" I started, still half asleep.
I tried to open my eyes and trying to gain focus about something that i bite.
It turns out.. the “Melon-pan” is....
“Nyahhh... Hmmm? Y-YAH!”, exclaimed the cute voice.
“J-just.. w-what are you doing!!!”, she blushed as she tried to covered her “melon-pans” with her hands, safely from the reach of my hands and my hungry mouth.
"I want a Melon-pan.."I mumbled, still half asleep.
“Aishhh.. I still want to sleep..”, she shook her head in disbeliefs, staring at the clock that hanging on the wall.
"Anyway...", she continued, "I'm going to go to bookstore later... and I- "
"YAWN! Okay... Go ahead..." I said, closing my eyes. "Just bring me back a melon-pan!"
As I continued to lie there, I heard Yuki take a couple of steps away and walks into the kitchen.
She cooks? But it didn't look like it was used much? Is she going to make me a Melon-pan? Ah it’s impossible, but an instant ramen would be nice! YAY~!"YAH! WAKE UP!" shouted Yuki as she dumped a bucket of water into my face.
"WH - WHAT WAS THAT?" I shouted as I looked over my wet clothes. "Now my clothes are all wet."
"Stupid, I didn't think that through. Now I feel wet." Yuki started, talking to herself. "Anyway, I have some work to do and we can't separate, remember? So, I need you to come to bookstore with me."
Oh yeah... we can't separate.."Okay...Fine..." I reluctantly agreed before getting out of bed. "But you have to promise to buy me a Melon-pan! Two!"
As Yuki nodded, I grabbed her hand and led her to the bathroom.
"Wh - What are you doing?" asked Yuki.
"Like you said, we can't separate!" I responded. "Now I’m going to take a shower."
I took off my shirt and shorts and left them to dry in the sink.
Why do I feel... embarrassed..."R - RENA!" yelled Yuki blushing. "WHY AREN'T YOU WEARING A BRA?"
"Huh?"
I looked down to my chest and saw that my... "Melon-pans" were happily staring back at me.
Oh yeah! Hmm... guess I forgot..."Why are you so embarrassed about?" I said, trying to change the subject. "Were both girls, aren't we? Nothing to freak out about!”
“B-but! But! It’s em- YAH!” she said before i pulled her into the bathroom and trying to strip her off from her clothes.
“YAH!!! W-what are you doing!!! D-don’t try t-to do anything w-wierd! Or i will scream!!”, she tried to push me away from her
It’s futile Yuki~“What? Don’t you want this?”, i asked her, grab her melon-pans with my hands and bit my lips seductively.
“Y-YAH!”, she pushed me away as she strom out of the bathroom with a red face.
You’re so cute.hihihi“Where are you going? Let’s take a shower together!” I shouted from the bathroom
“NOOOO!!!!”
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After this hectic morning, we finally made it to the "nearby" Times bookstore. It’s so far from her apartement and she didn’t want to take a bus or anything. She forced me to walks with her.
Does she walk everywhere? No wonder she's so fit... "Do you have to walk like this? Why don’t we took a bus or something?" I said to her as we entered the store, that only recieved a nod from her.
Aish..Yuki didn't browse through the bookstore like I thought she would. Instead, she went straight to the cafe and started to randomly jot down random lines and words on her notebook. And since we couldn't separate, I couldn't go off on my own to grab anything to read.
Also... it felt kind of awkward that I was wearing this one piece dress Yuki lent me. I mean.. She wore this too, right?
Mmm... It smells like her... Ah... what am I thinking?"Hmmm?" went Yuki, making a cute face as she stuck out her tongue while she concentrated.
"What are you writing anyway?" I asked, actually curious as I took a peek at her notebook.
"Hey!" she exclaimed, hiding her notebook from me and blushing. "What are you doing?"
"I'm just curious about what you're doing..."
"Yah! Don't do that! I don't like it when people read my work before it's done.. Um.. Well.. I'm writing a story."
"Writing a story?" I asked
"Yeah." she nodded as she handed me a piece of paper.
The paper was a flyer for a writing contest that was hold for local amateur writers. People had to write a short story, essay, or poem about something important to them. The top writers will get published in a collection of books that well be sold at a bunch of other bookstores. Also, the grand prize winner will get a chance to publish their own book.
"Wow!" I smiled. "That's pretty cool! You don't just love books, you like writing too?"
"Yeah!" Yuki happily exclaimed. "It's nothing special, but I write stories and post them online. I have quite a bit of readers."
I couldn't help but be amazed as I watched her write sentences, eventually making paragraph after paragraph covering page after page.
How can she just do that? Just keep writing and writing.Yuki’s eyes never left her notebook as she wrote, fully concentrating on her writing. But the feeling I was getting from her, it was confusing.
Even though it is hard, it seems like she really is enjoying herself. She seems a bit impatient as she started scratching out some lines or whole paragraphs. But, she seems happy.
Ah! I get it~ "You really love this," I said. "Writing, I mean."
"Yup!" she nodded.
"When did you get interested in writing?"
"Um... well... since I won an essay contest in junior school," she explained. "I don't know why? but it's fun! That's why I'm at Literature Dept! My Dream is to become a famous writer and publish lots of books... Like all the authors of the books in my room, I want to make people feel something with my writing!"
Ah... that's why she's entering the contest... HAHAHA! Now she's embarrassed because she revealed so much about herself![Yuki POV]Aish... now I feel embarrassed... I hope she doesn't feel that... Why the hell did God make us share feelings anyway?"Rena..." I started, trying to change the subject. "Um... Do you have anything you want to do? Any dreams?"
I suddenly felt happy and excited.
"I want to be a singer!" Rena happily exclaimed.
Ah! Of course! Why i asked this question?"Ah! Yes! I just realized that you’re actually an AKB trainee." I stated. “Oh, and don’t you have any training today?” I asked
"No, I already contact Togasaki-san and Akimoto-san.” She paused for a moment. “I will graduating this week. And this week, it will be my last performance.”, She answered as she stared at the white floor, but she can’t hide her sad expression.
I suddenly felt different... What is this a mixture of guilt, regrets and sorry.
But just like that. The feeling left.
“Why?”, i asked. “Why did you decide to graduate?”
“Hmmm..”, she sighed before she continued. “I have something.. that i can’t share to anyone now.. even you..”
She looks down again.. Why?“Hmmm.. Okay..” I felt another emotions, it’s sadness and guilt.
"Oh," She started. "The day after tomorrow, i will have a solo stage as my goodbye stage. Will you sing with me as a duet?"
"Um... Eh?? But.. Bu-“
“Your voice is pretty, Yuki. I’m sure that you can do it.”, she begged me with an irresistible puppy eyes.
“ Ah... Emmm.. Well yeah... I used to sing that song too when I was younger, but I stopped my voice lessons during high school and concentrated on writing.."
"AH! Then... Then... It’s fixed!!! Let's sing together then!"
"Huh?"
NO WAY! But... I couldn't possibly say that. She felt so... so... excited... energized... when she heard me say I can sing. I knew she would get sad if I said no, which would make me sad too!"Um... sure..." I nodded. "But... let's get you that Melon-pan now."
"Never mind that Melon-pan! I can always get that while I sleep~"
"HUH!?! Wh - While you sleep?"
Wh - What does she mean by that? Grope me again?"Let's go home~" exclaimed the happy Rena, totally ignoring me. "Practice, practice, practice~"
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"At the beginning with you~" I sang.
And with the music, I finished singing the song.
"How was that?" I asked, feeling nervous.
Rena let her mouth hang open in a big "O" and clapped.
"I don't know why you feel nervous!" she said. "That was amazing!"
"Really? I've never sung in front of anybody before..."
"No worries!" Rena said as she patted her hand on my shoulder. "Hey, I can feel that! HAHAHAHA! Anyway, we will do wonders at my goodbye stage!"
She got up from my bed and started walking around the room, deep in thought.
"You and I~ Yuki and Rena~ Yuna~!" she shouted randomly, getting really excited. "We will be Yuna! Two beautiful women conquering the stage! It's perfect! You, the Blackhearted Yuki and I, The spice lover Gekikara Rena~!"
I raised an eyebrow and stared at her, unimpressed.
"Yuna? Gekikara? And what’s with the ‘black’?"
"YEAH!" she nodded. "What you think?"
"You concentrate on singing... I'll work on the names..."
"Okay~! I'll practice th -!"
Rena got cut out mid sentence by the soft rumbling sound that came out from her stomach.
Great... now that she's hungry, I'm feeling hungry too!"Do you hungry?"
“Yeah”, she whined sadly because of her stomach
“I’ll cook you my speciality dish then.”, i said with a smile on my face.
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[Rena POV]"Umm... are you sure this is okay to be eaten?" I asked with horror written all over my face.
"Of course! It’s MY SPECIALITY!" She said proudly.
"Really?"
"You see..." She started, making me feel confident as she explained. "I thought it looked kind of plain, so I thought about giving it some color to make it look more appetizing by adding green peppers and mushrooms."
"and why you cook the outer layer of eggs seperated?"
“It’s because i’m not too good in making the eggs too wrap the rice, so i have to cook it separated."
I stared at her cooking method and watching it in horror.
"Here you go~"
I looked at the plate of the omelet rice that she set on the table.
"Yuki..." I started, feeling confused.
"Hmm?" She nodded, smiling.
"Why... is the rice kinda sticky and squishy?", I wondering the thing that she called food in my plate as i nudge it with my spoon.
"It’s okay! Trust me!"
Slightly nervous, I open my mouth and the ‘food’ entering her mouth.
Please don’t let me die now..I slowly chewed.
Hmmm?"See? It's not that bad!" She smiled. "I can't tell you like it!"
"Um... I think you are confused Yuki... You're right, it's not bad... Bu... It's just that... I can't taste anything? And why are you so hyper, different from the usual blackheart Yuki?"
"Huh?" went Yuki, tilting her cute head to the side
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"and there's no flavor at all... I can't even taste the eggs... and it’s kinda sticky.. it felt like i’m eating pudding with rice.. How is that even possible?"
I traded glances at Yuki, who was currently feeling how confused I was, and the omelet rice on my plate.
"Well..." Yuki started, somehow smiling. "The important thing is that it doesn't taste bad!”
“Hmm, do you have any tabasco, or chili sauce?”
“No.”
“Why? And why are you turned into the black Yuki again?”, I whined
“I don’t like spicy things.”, she coldly replied
“so you prefer it plain like this ermm.. food?”
“Yah! That’s not nice!”, she said as she slap my hand lightly.
“I’m just kidding!”, I started. “I prefer something spicy though..”
“Is it not spicy? I thought i already added so much green peppers on it.”
“No....”, i shove another spoonful of ‘food’ into my mouth.
“Here, try this.” I lifted up my spoon with a spoonful of omelet rice and held if to her mouth.
"Say AAHHH~"
[Yuki POV]Ehhh?I didn't know why, but I couldn't help but happily accept it when she fed me like that. Made it seem like the taste of my speciality dish come out and pull me into a dream land. It taste fantastic.
Her feeding me... Rena sitting here with me at my table in my apartment... It's like... "You know..." Rena started, looking embarrassed. "Sitting like this... And feeding you..."
"It's like we're a lesbians..." I said without thinking.
Wh - what! Why did I say that!I suddenly felt my face get hot as I started to blush.
"Hahahaha!" she laughed. "I had a feeling you were thinking that, since you’re a cold black person!"
"H - HEY! You... This is sexual harassment!" I said, still blushing as i tried to argued with her.
"Who cares... I would find out sooner or later anyway," she smiled back," Being lesbian is not that weird."
"Sigh..."
"Now here~!" Rena said cutely, putting another portion of my omelete rice near my mouth. "Say 'AH~!'"
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[Rena POV]"Hurry up!" I shouted as I held Yuki hand as I pulled her to the AKB’s theater. "We don't have any time to waste. Literally!"
"Ah! Wait!" said Yuki, full of embarrassment by the fact that we were holding hands. "Slow down! And stop making jokes about us dying!"
"Oh, come on! Lighten up~" I smiled to her as we ran. "I know you like it when I hold your hand! Hehehe~"
Yuki’s face only got redder.
Hehehe~ I'm enjoying it too, Yuki...=======================================================================================================
"HEY~! I'm Gekikara Rena!" I yelled out to the mike, feeling confident as I used the title Yuki worked on last night.
Of course... I gave them my usual bright smile!
The crowd happily cheered with applause making me feel ever happier.
"And... Um..." Yuki mumbled.
The whole crowd went quiet with Yuki’s secret attack... the “Blackhearted Comment."
Unfortunately, that made Yuki more nervous!"Come on, Yuki~" I cheered her on. "You can do it! Fighting!"
I suddenly felt a wave of stress release from my body, no more anxiety...
Hehehe~! Yay~! I made Yuki more relaxed!"Hello, I'm the Blackhearted, Yuki," she said prettily with a small smile.
"And together..." We started at the same time. "We're YukiRena~"
A roaring applause of excitement rang through the theather, cheering both of... No, not both of us... cheering YukiRena on!
“Ah! Before i forget!”, I started. “I want to thank you to all my fans.”
“I know this is so sudden, but i will graduated after this performance. I have an urgent proplem that need to be done.”, as i said that, i can felt my tears start to trickled down from my eyes. I felt a hand holding my hand so tight and giving me strength. I knew it’s her hand..
“It’s really nice to be in AKB, eventhough i’m only a kenkyuusei and i hope you will cheers my friends so they could get a promotion into the main team.... and please enjoy this last stage of mine.”, i said with a genuine smile as i felt sadness, regret, gratitude, and relieved at the same time.
She must be felt the same..
So we sang...
I almost lost myself when I heard her sing next to me. It was so strong, so confident, so different than the usual Yuki. Even that part in the chorus that I can't sing quite right... It was so beautifully done when I heard it with her voice.
And it was because I was cheering her on. She wasn't nervous anymore. Standing there right next to her to support her.
I knew, that right then. I was feeling it..
The happiest feeling I've ever felt.
A feeling I only get when I'm with the pretty Yuki.
Of course, I couldn't hide it.
She already knew how I felt.
Because I know, she was feeling it too.
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The days rolled by like that...
She would drag me off somewhere to write, working on her story for the contest while I silently watched over her, making suggestion... That she never listened to! Then the next day, we go for a date at tokyo disneyland, just the two of us. It’s so full of fun. The day after that, we go to aquarium, i just realized the fact that she had a phobia with deep water.. It was so fun and i hope it’ll rest forever!
It went by so fast...
We became one person so fast...
But...
It's funny...
We...
Nearly forgot it was eventually going to end...
Until it was too late...
Even though God told us to talk and decided which one of us would live...
We never did...
We didn't want to...
But, it was okay...
I made my decision...[Yuki POV]Even though the two of us were supposed to decide who dies...
We never talked about it...
I didn't want to... And I knew...
She felt the same way...
My life was never this crazy...
This hectic...
This...
Exciting...
More importantly... in the last few days I have... Um... It's just that the time I'm with Rena.. Gekikara Rena who loves to tease me.. It's fun!
It became clockwork for us... always being together... always sharing...
She became my inspiration when I wrote... Her hair, her eyes, her lips, everything!
Well... Except for her suggestions... she's not meant to be a writer...
But it was still cute that she tried! And then I'd get all embarrassed as she dragged me along, seeing places that even i haven’t visited yet.
I loved it...
I loved every moment of it...
Maybe it was kind of embarrassing that we looked like a lesbian couple...
But...
I didn't care! I was happy with her...
I think I just went lesbian for Rena..
I could never stop taking glances at Rena as we walked around holding hands or sitting down at the bookstore so I could write... I couldn't help my feelings anymore...
And... I'm sure that I've already been found out...
Even like this... in this crazy situation... in the face of Death... I have fallen in love with her...
But I didn't care...
I didn't want it to end...
I didn't want her to stop smiling...
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Tomorrow... is the 7th day... Once I finish this story about the most important thing to me... I can give it to her... So she can remember me by it...
We sat in my room, snacking on some of my Omelet rice. As always she repeatedly fed me as I wrote with my right hand. I would have gladly taken the work load off of her by eating with my left hand.
Also... Rena never let's go of my hand... Not ever once...
Everywhere we went, she would always be holding my hand in the same manner... When we walked, when we talked, when we slept... she wanted to hold my hand...
It was so cute..."Say 'AH~'" pleaded Rena as she rose another spoonful to my mouth.
"Ah~" I responded, opening my mouth to take in the food.
"What are you writing about anyway?" she asked, probably the hundredth time already. "You never told me."
I was really surprised with the question.
"Isn't... Isn't it obvious??" I blushed. "Why do you have to ask."
"Because..." Rena smiled, her face turning red too. "I want to hear you say it..."
I tried to look away from that pleading smile that made me, the Blackheart, soften... But I was already change, I’m not the infamous Blackhearted Yuki anymore...
"I'm writing... about you..."
"Ah~" she smiled before picking up another spoonful. "I guess I'm you're most important thing, huh?"
As she fed me, Rena started to look over my shoulder and read some of the lines I was writing.
"H - HEY!" I shouted, feeling embarrassed as I tried to hide my work. "Y - You can't read it yet! It's not done!"
"Hahaha~" she laughed. "What are you so embarrassed about? We have nothing to hide..."
But still!!! It's embarrassing...I ignored her comment and, while still feeling my cheeks were red, continued to write.
And I wrote... Line after line... Paragraph after paragraph... All about her... I felt like Leonardo Da Vinci painting the "Mona Lisa" when I wrote about Rena...
A smile that giving a single ray of light for this black heart of mine...
There is more I still have to say... Why... does it have to be over...
And then, I felt something. It was so weird. I was all worried, anxious, annoyed, excited, happy, embarrassed..
passionate.
all at the same time..
I didn't know what it was.
Until, Rena started nibbling on my ear.
"R - RENA!"
But she wasn't listening anymore. She wasn't thinking anymore. She was just feeling. Just riding on her feelings, and I didn't want her to stop.
I understood now, I understood why God let us feel every emotion.
I turned my head and kissed her softly on her lips.
The sudden surprise I felt from her. It felt so good. I barely kept sane as I was feeling what she was feeling too.
Rena wasn't just hugging me anymore, she was embracing me, holding me, exploring me. I felt her hands lift up my dress, revealing my undergarments, and her fingers crawl up and down the spine of my back, teasing me, and in the process, exciting herself as well. One of her hands quickly found the hook for my bra and undid it. The other one just went lower... and lower... eventually finding its way down my body...
"Ahh... Nyahh...." we moaned in harmony.
With one swift motion, my clothes were gone, and with amazing strength and adrenaline, she lifted me up, still kissing me, and we landed on my bed with her on top of me.
Rena started to go deeper.. Her kiss wasn't soft any more.. It was harder... stronger... She didn't stop at my lips.. She continued... going into my mouth, eventually finding my tongue...
It was so weird... so good... We shared everything... I could feel her kissing me and at the same time... I could feel myself kissing her...
And now I wanted more... I wanted to be on top...
Off went her shirt... her shorts... her panties...
I was sweating... she was sweating... both of us were so bothered.. so hot..
I was becoming mesmerized... hypnotized... intoxicated with the sight of her bare body... And... she was feeling my fascination too...
Now I was the one exploring... Not missing a single inch of her body with my mouth... Her jaw... her neck... her collar bone... and lower I went... Eventually reaching her flat stomach...
I felt everything she was feeling... Every tingling sensation... Every pleasure I was giving her came right back at me... My lips along her neck... her chest... her stomach... I felt it all on my own body!
There were no more words... only cute little moans... We didn't need to talk anyway...
We could already feel what each other wanted...
We got hotter... Burning passionately...
And at the same time, we felt a need. We both wanted more, hungered for more...
So, we gave it. We let our feelings loose and fed on one another's desires.
It was so... amazing... euphoric... I could barely describe it... Every kiss... every lick... every taste... We both enjoyed it... Getting off at the excitement both of us were experiencing at the same time...
And her emotions... She was so happy, so excited, so crazy, so... so many other words that I could never find the time to write it all!
We were one... Feeling everything... Everything was shared... Every kiss... we shared... Every moan... we shared... Every tingling stimulation and sensation... we shared... Every worried, anxious, annoyed, excited, happy, embarrassed, passionate feeling we ever felt... We shared it...
For the first time of my life... I felt it...
This is it...
This is what I was missing...
This is love..."Say it!" Rena moaned. "Say it, Yuki! Please."
"I love you..." I smiled, breathlessly. "I love you so much... Rena..."
"Hehehehe~" she giggled, red in the face. "I love you too... Yuki..."
I was so enlightened... so up lifted... And I knew she was feeling it too...
I was so in love... so deeply in love...
So much in love... that I didn't want it to end... I didn't want the feeling to stop... It was too painful to stop...
But it had too...
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I let her sleep...
When I went away... I didn't want her to see me... I didn't want her to live on with the sad memory of seeing my leave... I wanted to leave her smiling in her dreams...
I somehow got out of her groping that hold on me and found a shirt on the floor to wear.
There was something I needed to finish... I had to write... I had to finish my story...
My story of my most important thing...
My thoughts... those were the only things I was able to keep from her... Not that she couldn't tell what I was thinking sometimes depending on how I felt...
But..
I wanted to tell her... I wanted to tell her my thoughts...
All my thoughts about her smile.. her laugh... her presence... I wanted to tell her...
so that when I die...
My memory stays with her...
These past 7 days...
That's what I wrote about...What do you think of Fate...
Do you think your Destiny is already set out for you by God...
Why would God be so cruel...
So cruel to have your Life set in stone...
No, wait... Not cruel...
I got it now... I fully understand...
Fate brought me to Rena...
Destiny wanted me to fall in love with her...
God... God gave me the gift of an opportunity...
God wasn't cruel... He was kind...
Because for the past 7 days...
I loved...
I lived..."Keep singing... For the both of us... Good bye... Rena... I love you..."
ACT TWO END