One finished shot after a long time, lol. Hope you enjoy it.
Someone to Share
I've been fed up by everyone in my house. Blaming, fighting, yelling on each other, but neither of them were listening to each other's yells. They just yelled like animals, even animals were much better. Nobody was right, they were all at fault. It wasn't like I didn't want to stand on any side, but they were just the same. Moroon.
I walked outside, slamming the door hard. I turned my lighter and burn my cigarettes, one habit to eas my mind. I've been walking aimlessly for two hours, maybe more. I didn't feel like staying in the place where people were yelling on each other, I better save my ear, mostly my life.
Now, my friends were this burning cigarette and a can of warm coffee. I laid down on a bench in some random park, I felt tired, I didn't even know where the hell I was right then. I tried to forget what those people were talking about, divorce. I hate it the most. I pulled another one, ready to burn it with my lighter when someone called my name.
"Jurina-san, isn't it?" The soft tone said.
I looked up and greeted her, "Oh, Miss President," I continued to burn my cigarette.
She sat beside me, "It's Anna, or Annin, we're classmate after all," she smiled.
This girl was the president of student council in my school. A beauty, smart and popular girl. She was also a kind person. But I didn't care at that time, even if she was the president I'd keep on smoking. My chaotic mind couldn't wait. She didn't asked me to turn it off as well, so I guess she was fine with it.
"What are you doing here at this hour? Your house isn't around here, right?" She asked.
At that time, I wish I could pour every chaos out from my mind. But, as I wanted her to hear me, my stubborn side prevented me. She wasn't my close friend, she was just a mere classmate and a student council's president.
"Nothing, just feel like going out. Tomorrow is weekend so I guess it's okay," I answered her.
She looked at me with those unbelieving eyes. Maybe she could read me, but then she just shrugged it off, I should've thanked her for not asking more further.
She just nodded then. She looked for something in the groceries bag, it seemed like she was just out from buying some stuffs. She pulled out a bottle of lemon water, she tried to open it but somehow she failed. With the cigarette sticked between my teeth, I grabbed her bottle and opened it for her before handed it back to her.
"Oh, wow, thanks," she smiled then drank the water. "You want some?" She asked me.
"No, thanks, I've got mine," I showed her my coffee. She nodded.
Silence fell. Nothing could be heard unless the sound of burning cigarette and how I blew the smoke out.
"So, you smoke," Anna looked at me. Her statement sounded like a question, but an unsure question.
"Just like what you see," I smiled at her.
"You know, I could report you to the head master if I caught you smoking at school," she said.
"But we're not at school,"
She laughed,"You're right," she stopped for a while then continued her sentence,"It's not good for you,"
"They're my best friends when I'm in a bad times," I told her.
"So you're in a bad time right now? You should've find your friend to share it, maybe you'll be much better," she said.
"I don't have any real human friend, you know," I scratched my neck and laughed.
"You're not considering me as your human friend?" She asked.
"We're not that close," I said.
"You're distancing yourself, being all alone in classes and break times," she said. Just when did she realize it? Why didn't I realize it myself?
I laughed. Honestly, this was the very first time I talked to her and saw her closely. She had this beautiful smile and a warm aura. For the very first time, I felt like wanting to share my story with her.
I breathed in deeply and straightened my posture,"My parents are fighting at home and they're talking about divorce everyday, then I go out from the house, finish," I said to her.
"That's it? Just because of that you tried to kill your lungs and smoking?" She asked. I nodded and she laughed at me.
"You don't understand!" I snapped at her, oh my.
"What do I not understand?" She asked.
"I don't want them to be separated, I don't want a broken family, I want to have a normal and complete family. I have nobody to rely on if I don't have them!" I yelled at her.Now I wish I could punch her on the face.
"My parents died in a car accident when I was 11, then I lived with my grandma, then she died when I was 13 so I decided to live alone up till now, though my uncle supported my needs," she smiled. "But I don't smoke, I have friends to cheer me up when I was down,"
It was my turn to looked at her in disbelieving eyes. How strong. I smiled back at her.
"I just don't have anyone to talk to after all, huh?"
I felt like crying, I was a simply stupid. I felt stupid. She was right, maybe if I had friends I wouldn't be this frustrated. Maybe if I could share my thoughts to someone else I would feel much relieved. I looked down and when I realize I cried a lot until I couldn't stop. I didn't know why but Anna's hands on my back soothed me and calmed me down as she rubbed there.
"It's okay to cry," she said as I cried louder.
A few months later...My mom gave a divorce accustion to my father saying he was cheating and all. The court session spent several months, almost a year, because of their long quarrel. Finally the courthouse decided that they officially divorce today.
After waiting for some times in the waiting room, my parents went out from the courtroom. Through my black glasses, I could see both of them looked at me though they didn't looked at me with those lovely eyes, they were empty. My mother nodded at me, while my father just looked down.
"Your father and I now are no longer a wife-husband couple," she said.
"Oh, okay," was all I could say. That was when I felt a tight grip on my hand.
"Let's go," the soft voice whispered.
"So, I wish you two a happy life," I bowed my body at the two, so did the person beside me.
I left them, I've packed my stuffs and decided to not live with any of them. They already had a new family as well, so I just didn't want to involved in their new life. Besides, this person beside me could take a very good care of me.
"Oh, come on, just forget them. It's not a time for you to be sad anymore, right?" She said as she locked her arms around my neck. It was a bit hurt since I had to bent down. I snatched her arms and turned to circled my right arm around her neck.
"Of course, I wasn't thinking about them," I said as I looked at her.
"Oh yeah? So what was on your mind?" She raised an eyebrow.
I pondered a bit,"You, and our plan of living together, I was a bit curious of what would happen everyday if I have to live with my girlfriend," I said with a smirk.
"Don't even think about perverts things!" She yelled.
I laughed at her, pulling her closer and kissed her cheek. "Really, thanks for everything, Anna. If I didn't meet you that night maybe I have cut my wrist and ended up in the hell,"
She ruffled my hair, "Anytime, Jurina, anytime..." She kissed me, on the lips.
It was the first time she initiated a kiss, since she was the passive type. I was surprised as well, just how come this georgeous beauty ended up as my girlfriend. Life is strange, but I love it.
"I thought you hated PDA, miss president?" I teased her.
"We're not at school, stop calling me that," she slapped my arms.
"Okay babe," I winked at her.
"Now I love that, honey,"she smiled.