I had this chapter almost finished yesterday, so I finished today and here is
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Eternity: Vampire | Guilt
Vampiro
Vampire…
There aren’t to much ways to say that word, at least not in romance languages, but, what was a vampire? I started to think more about what they really are on the past weeks.
I knew that they were dangerous creatures, not human, with great strength and that they live a lot of years, but what more I know about them? I just know what I see in books and movies, but those things books and movies show me, are real? what things aren’t?
Right now I have Rena in my arms, which was bleeding, but she will die because of that? from what I think I know that’s impossible, then, what happens? why Yuka and Mieko said nothing?
The silence was insupportable, why they were in silence?, now the hot topic was Rena, the silence, everything that was worrying us doesn’t matter anymore, there are still Airin’s servants? all was over with her dead? I also forgot that I was at the side of her dead body, the only thing was heard were my sobs.
But something changed when I saw more closely Rena’s face, she looked more pale, more slim, it was as she was becoming an skeleton, it was an aspect out of reality, it was as if I was watching a dead person from a lot of years from dead, scared I looked at Airin body, it was just dust… what happens?
“Yuka, say something…” I said scared as I touched Rena’s face, Yuka came close to me and knelt by my side.
“Rena is a vampire, her existence can’t be eliminated just because a dagger in her abdomen, but you know that a vampire need blood, right?” she asked with precaution “what you know about us? what say to you your common sense? with all you know about us, what is happening right now?”
“She needs blood” I say without think much, Yuka nodded
“Well, is part of” said Mieko “A vampire, although is immortal, needs human blood, or blood from animals to have energy… Rena lost all her anergy in the fight, and she didn’t drank blood since I don’t know when…”
“Because she was protecting me” I said in a whisper
“Exactly” Mieko answered “Our appearance change when we reach our limit, we looks more like dead that humans when that happens”
“When she wake up again, she will not recognize who are friends and who don’t, she will ignore us because we’re vampires, but every human or living being will be food and no more” Said Yuka as she was watching me
“What do you… mean?” I asked
“It means that she will attack you if you’re here” she said in a serious voice
“But if I run away, I will be safe, but her?” I asked scared
“She will attack every living being that is close to her, everything will be just kill to her and certainly… she will kill more than one” Mieko answered with a pained expression on her face
“You two can’t do anything? doesn’t matter what? take her away?” I don’t want Rena to became a killer, although I didn’t know if she already killed someone or not
“We don’t have time to take her away” Yuka said as she took my arm to take me away from Rena “I will take you out of here, if Rena hurts you… it will be horrible to her”
“How you can say something like that? I don’t want to leave her again!·” I yelled as I took Rena again in my arms
“This girl…” said Yuka angry and then she looked at Mieko “She makes me remember you” continued saying with her frustrated expression but Mieko was smiling
“Yuka, you can just take her with you by force, you’re stronger than her” said Mieko smiling “But I don’t think you will do it, not without Rena’s consent although is for her good, still, Jurina, you know the pain Rena will feel if something happens to you, more if is for her own hand, right?”
“Yeah, I know…” I answered
“I will take you out of here and Yuka will protect Rena to kill someone”
“Me? Do you remember that Rena is really crazy when is like that, right? I couldn’t stop her the last time, and now that she’s stronger than me I don’t know if I will can do something” Yuka said scared, but once she saw Mieko expression she was more scared
“Just say you will do it!” Said Mieko angry, I saw how Yuka stepped back and nodded as if she were a child scolded by her mother, I need to remember not to upset Mieko never…
But we doesn’t have more time I felt how Rena moved… she was waking up.
“Hey… I think she will wake up” I said a little scared
“What?” asked Yuka surprised
We couldn’t say more, Rena opened her eyes and the first thing she saw was me, her eyes red, and her fangs showing and reflected in her eyes I saw my neck.
“Stay away of her!” Yelled Yuka as she pushed Rena away of me standing between her and me
Rena stood at high speed and watched Yuka reproachfully, but she saw me behind Yuka, and at see me began to ignore everything around her, Mieko stood behind Rena and hugged her forming a chain with her body, but couldn’t hold her long, with a simple movement Rena get free of Mieko, Rena took Mieko’s arm and throw her with great force leaving her out of action.
“Mieko!” Cried Yuka at see what was happening “I know it’s not your fault Rena, but don’t miss with her!” Yuka shouted angry, she ran towards Rena, but couldn’t do much, although Yuka hit Rena she didn’t took back a single step, the smile on Rena’s face showing her fangs, and her eyes fixed upon me.
For more Yuka attacked her, Rena didn’t show to be affected, it was like watching Airin in a more malignant form, but who wanted to kill me now wasn’t Airin… was Rena
Rena stopped one of Yuka’s hits with her hand and for a moment all Rena’s attention was in Yuka, she took her with great strength and slammed Yuka against the floor, I heard how Yuka was screaming in pain, it seems that it all was true, Rena didn’t distinguish friends and enemies, only me, which looked like food to her…
After hitting Yuka a few times, Rena threw her in the same direction as Mieko falling beside her, now Rena was watching me again, but for more scarier she looked, I knew it was Rena, under all that monster who was coming closer to me, was Rena, the vampire who was like my angel, the one who loved me…
“Rena…” I whispered her name, but Rena didn’t stop, when I realized she was in front of me, with that big smile on her face and her eyes lost in my neck, if there was no other choice, if it’s my destiny, at the end I prefer to her to take my life…
Rena approached me and at see I didn’t put resistance she leaned a little and bitted me… the pain was intense at first, but as the seconds passed I would feel it less, at the same time I felt like I was getting dizzy from second to second, I felt how my blood was sucked out of my body, but I could do nothing, although I wanted to try to do something, I knew theres no way out…
I closed my eyes waiting to falter at any time and never wake up again… but suddenly I stopped to feel Rena’s lips on my skin, I didn’t hear her throat pass my blood through her, perhaps was all over? this was be dead?… but it wasn’t, I opened my eyes slowly and I could see her again, it was Rena, her aspect slightly more normal, her eyes weren’t red, her fangs wasn’t protruding from her mouth, but something was wrong, her expression…
Rena watched me with terror, but suddenly I felt weak, I would fall to the ground but she took me in her arms
“Jurina… I… I did this?…” she asked as she watched my neck and touching a bit with her cold fingers
“Rena… you’re okay…” I answered a little weak, touching her face with the palm of my hand, but Rena surprised me, she pulled her face out of my hand, she didn’t dare to look me in the eyes and turned towards where Yuka and Mieko was, both recovering from the blows they had received, when Rena saw that she was more surprised.
“I did all this…” she said more to herself than to us, she lifted me up and walked over Mieko and Yuka “I did this to you two? I did this?” she asked in a frustrated way, Mieko avoided eye contact with Rena, and Yuka with an expression of deep pain nodded
I saw how Rena shock her head repeatedly, her staring lost, I didn’t know what she was thinking but she wasn’t saying anything.
“Rena..” I whispered her name gaining her attention, but her expression remained the same, she didn’t wanted to look at me in the eye “Rena… look at me please” I said as I was trying to get off of her arms, but she didn’t allow me
“I’m sorry for all this…” she whispered, her eyes closed and she stood like that a few moments before speak again “Take care of Jurina” Yuka took me on her arms allowing Rena to be free of me, and without saying anything more I just watched how she disappeared from my view at high speed.
“Rena! don’t! wait!” I yelled trying to get Yuka let me go, but when she did it, I don’t know if was for pity or because she knew it had no case to keep me like that, I hadn’t the strength to stand up for long, Mieko stopped my fall and hugged me
“Yuka, go behind her” commanded Mieko to what Yuka didn’t say anything and ran behind Rena
“It’s not her fault…” I whispered
“We can’t blame her, and she know it, but she hurt you, whether or not intentional, she hurt you… give her time”
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I had bitted her, I almost killed her, I almost killed Jurina, why I couldn’t keep control? why I had to harm all those who I love?… not just I almost killed Jurina, but I also dared to attack Yuka and Mieko.. and if they were also killed by me?…
I don’t deserve to be with Jurina… I will bring only bad luck… I just will bring danger to her and I’m myself a big danger to her
“Rena..” I hear Yuka’s voice behind me
“Not now Yuka… I, I don’t dare to see you in the eye, to stand before you, the story is repeating again” I said without turning to see her
“It didn’t, this time you didn’t kill anyone” She said in a calm voice “Rena listen…”
“I don’t want to listen!… you don’t understand? I didn’t kill anyone but I almost kill the one who I more love in this world!, I’m not better than before, I will never be as before, we’re only creatures who seek to kill, like it or not that’s our result, I can’t be with Jurina, I couldn’t be with her when Airin was behind us, and now that she’s not longer chasing us I can’t be with Jurina anyways”
“Rena… Jurina loves you as much as you love her, what you’re doing is not fair to either of you, stop acting like a child and accept who you are, accept that Jurina loves you for who you are and doesn’t matter if you’re a vampire or not! I’m sure that if you talk with her, at the end, she wouldn’t blame you for anything, she already accepted you” Yuka said as she approached me and making me look at her.
“Yuka… the worst isn’t my fear to her to not accept me… the worst thing is that I’m not better than Airin… I’m like her… I don’t deserve to be at Jurina’s side, she deserves the best and I’m the worst”
Having the opportunity to be with the one you love is an opportunity of once in the life, I would like to take this chance even when I don’t have a real life… but being with Jurina is put her in danger… I prefer to be her shadow incapable of being with her, but with the satisfaction that I will always protect her….