awwwwwwwwwwwwwww so sweeeet! Poor Reina! Is she about to get dumped or something? It seems like they wont last much longer, unless Maki changes. And aww, how cute was the KameGaki! So sweeet! And I hope Miki finds Aya for 'that' or whatever else she needs her for! GJ once again!
Hehe, I love torturing my characters too much, don't I?
Thanks for reading!
the eri/risa at the end caught me by surprise! it was extremely cute, though
miki searching for aya is funny, specially if you don't know the exact reasons 
but reina/maki... I hope they figure it out... 
Glad you liked the Miki searching for Aya part
It was fun to write. *glomps Miki*
MakiReina = 
Miki calling Risa and Eri "squirts" = 
GakiKame = 
Oh Maki and Reina, when will you ever learn to get over your complicated issues?
We'll just have to wait and see, won't we?
And without further dilly-dallying... I bring part 3! So I sort of got stuck in to writing some Sun, then got distracted... AGAIN... and um... thus we have the 3rd part of what was meant to be a one-shot
Unwholesome Bond - Part 3I close the door as quietly as possible behind me, even though I’m sure she’s still awake. Placing my bag on the living room coffee table, I take a moment to collect myself.
How many times have I done this to her already? How many times did it take for me to realise that in doing so, I was pushing her further and further away? How did this all begin in the first place?
Too many times.
Before the first time had even ended.
A moment of weakness, a seized opportunity by another, and a ridiculously stupid amount of lack of self-control.No amount of reasoning or apologising would be able to take back what I’ve done. Not now, not next week, not in twenty years… not even in the next lifetime. If I could take back what I’ve done, I would. How lame and cliché does that sound? But it’s true, and I wish with all my heart that I had never done her any wrong in the first place. I drowned in an indescribable amount of guilt after the first time it happened. I continued to stare into her mournful eyes as she placed her hand on top of mine, telling me that it was alright. She said she forgave me, she kissed my cheek and held me close. Would she have said that if she had known what I had done? Would she still love me with her entire being? I didn’t deserve her then, and I certainly don’t deserve her now.
I wanted to tell her, but I was so scared. I didn’t want her to disappear from my life. The life that I had worked so hard to build for her. The life that I wanted to nurture and preserve with her. But I took that privilege away with that one night. The night that ruined it all. The night that repeated itself behind my eyes until I felt sick in the stomach.
A shuffling of steps. A sudden change in atmosphere.
“Where have you been?”
*****
She stood. She stared. She analysed what she saw before her eyes.
Takahashi Ai: Current Morning Musume leader.
Blank expression or not, her mind was always working, always thinking. Something was wrong. Today’s dynamics weren’t up to par. What was it this time?
Ai patrolled the dance studio and briefly checked the time. They had a whole twenty-four minutes before rehearsal would begin. Her nostrils slightly flared as she realised there was one missing member: non other than her best friend and sub-leader. She had articulated several times before that she wanted all members to be at the studio a full thirty minutes before rehearsal began. Just as Ai had reached for her cell phone, said sub-leader ran into the studio with ruffled hair and expression to match. Ai’s eyebrow twitched.
“Ai-chan, I’m SOOOO sorry!!!” a breathless Risa yelled, almost smashing her forehead on the ground in attempt to deepen her apology. Ai’s eyebrow twitched again, not because of Risa’s tardiness, but because the atmosphere seemed to become even stranger.
Ai patted Risa on the shoulder, causing the girl to violently convulse defensively.
“We’re going to have a word,” Ai plainly said to her sub-leader as she motioned to the far corner of the studio. Risa dropped her sports bag and followed Ai. Usually this meant that Ai had something important to say, as opposed to reprimanding her for being late. She leaned against the cool wall and turned her head to face Ai.
“Ai-chan, what’s on your mind?” Risa asked her friend. Ai took a moment to survey her group before turning back to Risa.
“Reina looks like she didn’t sleep at all last night. Eri looks almost as bad, just not as… I don’t know… not as emotionally drained…” Ai trailed off, once again turning to observe said members. The two were currently in deep discussion in another corner of the studio.
“Yeah… you know about Reina and Maki… they’re having issues again. Eri spent all night making sure Reina was alright. She’s really worried about her,” Risa summed up. Ai rubbed her temples and sighed. She felt Risa lay a gentle hand on her shoulder. “There’s nothing you can do this time, you know? Reina’s got to work this out for herself. You’ve gotta stop beating yourself up over things that aren’t your fault,” Risa tentatively assured Ai.
“But I’m the leader! I’m supposed to keep my group together!” Ai-chan said in exasperation. She hated not being able to help. It made her feel unworthy for her position. This position that she wasn’t ready to accept, let alone control with flare like the previous leaders had done before her. The position was forced upon her, and she was starting to buckle under the pressure.
“How do you think I feel? You refuse to let me help with the workload, always using up your personal time to finish things up,” Risa replied, just as frustrated. With one look at Ai’s face, Risa unconsciously softened her gaze.
“But you shouldn’t need to - ”
“Ai-chan, just let me help you.”
*****
BANG!
I jump in shock as my dressing room door bursts open and Miki stumbles in, panting and puffing as if she had just run a marathon. I turn back around to continue fixing my hair.
“Can you forgive me?”
I turn and face my best friend. What is she talking about now?
“For what?”
“I did something really bad to Maki.”
Miki was visibly shaken up and it looked like she hadn’t slept well. My instincts kicked in. The protective ones that made me feel older than Miki, even though I wasn’t. The weird ones that made me think I thought of her as more than my best friend. The even weirder ones that told me I wasn’t the only one that felt that way.
“What have you done this time?” I ask, putting on a condescending tone even though I’m genuinely concerned.
“I slept with her.”
You never were one to avoid telling the truth, were you?
My chest tightens. My eyes narrow. My lips purse together.
She takes it as a sign that I’m pissed off because of what she did to Maki. No wonder Maki and Reina have been a little odd lately. I should be pissed off about that, right? I should be angry that my best friend ruined something good that my other friend had going, right? Then why do I feel like I’ve just lost everything dear to me? It’s not like… it’s not like Miki and I have obligations to each other or anything… do we?
“I don’t know how it happened! I just… she was having a bad day… and… and… I went and screwed it all up, didn’t I?”
“Yeah.”
“I’m sorry.”
“Yeah.”
“Aya?”
“Yeah?”
“You’re crying.”
Topic: Ramblings of a goosefish (updated 29th july~!) (Read 45765 times)