PERSONAL REPLIES
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Archer1992 : thanks for reading my story and sorry for making you sad huhu, this is chapter 3 update haha
anakpanti : acchan and takamina has own background of what happened in the past, to question how minami turns into kai will be described in the next chapter, acchan go to break up with her because minami dad it’s one of the reasons and acchan has a dark past.
ryuuka : minami changed or disguised will be known on this chapter, yap kojiyuu here but the question is "they are going to be couple"?? hoho... I will make something different here so I hope you're still reading this story , even though you will leave this forum hemm I'm so sad about your decision but I will support you ....I'll be missing you, even if you forget me, even if you dont know me, I'll be waiting for you...
abraci : yap kojiyuu in here haha , I hope you will like their role in this story.
cisda83 : minami dad might be one of the reasons they broke up but there is another reason why atsuko act like that, yuu is his personal doctor also kai/minami bestfriend and for ray hemm she like kai/minami as a lover or just a friend?? you will find soon cisda-san hehe and for a dinner invitation from atsuko will be revealed in chapter 4.
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Chapter 3
They do not love that do not show their love. The course of true love never did run smooth. Love is a familiar. Love is devil. There is no evil angel but Love. -William Shakespeare-
The pain of love is the pain of being alive. It is a perpetual wound.
-Maureen Duffy-
I should actually hate you
The more I embrace you, it hurts
Altough when morning comes,
I will look for you again
I should actually push it back
This love that can’t be used anymore
Because time will blur us again somehow
I’m sorry that I still think of you, that I still love you
That I won’t be able to completely let you go in the end
Let me love you just for one more day -- this is the lie I say again
But when I see you, I forget about it as I give you a smile
And I fall in love with you again
Let me forget you just for one day – these are words I can’t keep
If I don’t see you, I’ll hurt again, I’ll cry
But I still promise myself
I’m between heaven and hell because of you
I hate myself for becoming more desperate when things go more awry
When was it? When you looked at me and smile?
I’ll smile so you won’t figure out my heart completely
Because I won’t be able to give you this heart in the end=================================================================================
Atsuko POVThis time maybe all what I wanted in the past finally can be achieved. I became a famous actrees in Japan and even always win the award, I was rich,and had a handsome fiancee. But all I get now is passed in an easy way? The answer is NO ! Since born I grew up from a family that is not harmonious and very poor, even my father leave me and mother just because of money. Yep “money” in here is he was cruel to leave her for a richer woman. From there, I and mother had to go through a lot of suffering just to survive and even as can’t hold all this suffering anymore, mother decide to commit suicide.
After that incident I was determined to become a rich and successful person because with wealth all the happiness is seems to come and also I wanted to revenge for him actions because it makes me loss everything especially my mother.
Day by day I through is like in hell , a lot of questions raised about why God was so cruel to me? Did I ever do anything wrong? Or Since born I received a curse to live like this? But all the anger had stored in my heart and make it reason to stay alive.
Since my mother died, I lived in the orphanage to get a home, school, and eat for free. Fortunately, when I graduated from high school ,I get the highest score even get a scholarship to University of Akihabara and this is where I met someone who was able to change my life to be very happy but at the same time is the saddest moment ,There’s only one person who I’ve hidden in my heart, the person who lives in my tears....
-Present-
[Atsuko apartment]RINGGGGG..........
"Atsuko handphone rang and she picked up the call immediately.”Hello this is maeda atsuko , ohh ray-san how are you ? there is something you want to talk about?” .
“Hello maeda-san I’m sorry to disturb you , I actually don’t want to say this but maeda-san are you busy right now?” ask ray since meet at the restaurant they became close and exchanged phone number.
“Just relax, you dont disturb me, Today I dont have filming schedule so I’m free , what’s wrong ray-san?” replied atsuko.
“Fortunately, I want to ask for help, today I went to America for a while because I have to work and since yesterday takahashi-san was sick and he didn’t answer my phone . are you able to check on takahashi-san apartment ? I’m worried if him illness get serious and even his personal doctor were to go out of the country. I’m sorry to trouble you.”
“I’ll check takahashi-san, next time dont feel embarrassed if you need help,we friend isn’t it? Haha I’m glad I could help .”
“I’m so thankful maeda-san can help because in Japan takahashi-san has no family and friends so I can only rely on you. Takahashi-san apartment on the 4th floor and door password 2430. Sorry I cant call any longer because my plane will take off , I’ll call back again after I arrived in airport. Once again thank you maeda-san .” ray ended the call.
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Ding.. Dong ...Ding ...Dong....................Tok... Tok... Tok .....
After 10 minutes
“Hemm seems there is not answer from earlier, what if something happens with takahashi-san? Although disrespectful enter someone’s apartment like this but this is for takahashi-san sake.”
[Living Room]AHHHH takahashi-san are you okay? Why you lay on the floor like this and Urghhh you smell of alcohol. “Hemm honey hic..hic thank you for coming, I’ve been waiting for you, please dont go anymore.” Kai suddenly hugged me very tightly and cried.
“Uhm Takahasi-san you drunk, let me drop you on the bed and you have a high fever, I’ll get you medicine.”
“Arghh my shoulder hurts” Kai cried out in pain as atsuko pull his right shoulder in quite fast.
“ Sorry takahashi-san did you get hurt? Let me see you shoulder maybe I can treat it.” Atsuko panic and when she will open kai shirt, kai immediately stop it by holding atsuko hand then they stare at each other closely, atsuko feel like hypnotized and she knew this gaze because it’s so similiar, kai was still staring at atsuko and suddenly kai grabbed atsuko’s face and kissed her lips, made atsuko eyes widen open and shocked after what had happened, they were both kissing and kai very aggresive toward atsuko and he started to deepen the kiss even more with the high amount of alcohol taste from him lips. Atsuko want to break this kiss but on the other side she feel that she want this kiss for so long and remember this feeling when she was still with mi..na..mi .
Before atsuko could process what happened, all of a sudden she felt a touch on the lips disappeared and when atsuko wake from the confusion, she saw kai fell on the floor and lost consciousness again due to drunk and after that atsuko took him to bedroom .
[6 hours later]“Urkkk my head!!Damn hangover!! And also my shoulder is hurt ,where is my painkiller??” When about to climb out of bed all of a sudden he saw atsuko asleep beside him.
“Huahhh you....why did you get here?In my room? Dream ! is definitely a dream!! God I know this is a bad dream that always comes but why this time is so real?whether I’m crazy?.
” Kai was screaming and atsuko that was beside him immediate wake up and suddenly sat sideways on the bed, her own body closer to him. “How is it doing anyways?” she inquired with a worry before carrefully covering kai’s forehead with the palm of her hand.
”AH STOP! Please dont get closer, I’m fine maeda-san and how you can get in? “ Kai immediately distanced himself from atsuko.
“your fever’s still high.you really have to rest more takahashi-san and for your question it’s a long story but I’ll shorten it, ray-san called me to check on your situation and give me your password apartment.”
“Aishh ray !!” though kai. Thank you maeda-san for your help but now I’m fine so you can go home, I don’t want to trouble you anymore.”
“It’s okay I’m glad to help you,, hemm takahashi-san there’s something I want to ask , whether you have a family named Takahashi mi....nami?” Atsuko asked with her face down.
“Takahasi minami?? Hemm sorry but it looks like I dont know and have a family with a name like that. Although Japanase descent, since childhood I lived abroad but I am still studying the Japanase language. If may I know who it is minami?”. Kai replied calmly
“Ohh minami ? she’s my friend during in college and I lost contact with her after graduate , your family name is same with minami so I think maybe you have relationship with her, Sorry I have to ask such a thing like that.” Atsuko replied with a bit nervous and remembering the past.
“Did something happen to you at that time? or is there anything else that make you lost contact with her?” Kai’s face atsuko seriously and wait what will she replied.
“Anooo...........me and minami having the fights in the last meeting and after that she disappeared .” Atsuko face looks sad when telling kai about that.
“I hope you can resolve your problem in the past, tskkk women are always scary when she’s angry.” Said kai .“Although women is scary but you still like it right? I can’t guess how many women you’ve been dating hahaha.”
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“Maybe some people will be easily cured when they heart were injured by the woman but to me it looks like I can never recover again.”
“Have you ever been hurt like that takahashi-san? Because it seems you talk like you have been experienced it.” Atsuko asked with curiosity
“Yes, I’ve felt that since I had left by someone I loved at our engagement party. How do you think about that? It breaks your heart to see the one you love is happy with someone else, but it’s more painful to know that the one you love is unhappy with you .” Kai looked atsuko seriously
--DANGGGG--
“It really hurts when you expected so much more from the person you once loved so much but If the truth was told instead of a lie, then the pain would go away sooner and not hurt as much, So takahashi-san forget who hurt you yesterday, but dont forget who loves you tenderly today.”
“There was no one who would think like that when they are too shocked at what happened and negative questions is come about the reasons why someone might do that cruel thing , right? . Relationships are like glass, sometimes it’s better to leave them broken that try to hurt yourself putting it back together.”
Atsuko POVPlease dont make me remember it again, Too hurt to remember you minami . But that kiss....only you can makes me feel like that . who are you kai?why you kiss me?. Oh My God, I have to stop this mind
Kai POVEven in this close you can’t recognize me, atsuko? Although I disguise as a man but you don’t feel anything? I dont know why they call it heartbreak, it feels like every part of my body is broken too.
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Dont Look Back....” though atsuko and kai at the same time
TBC
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for chapter 4, I’m not started writing because there are still many things that need to be done and I'm still shocked for what happen with my favorite author, therefore if you have an idea of what will happen in next chapter please PM me or comment in here and I will make a story out of what you want,,,thank you for reading,commenting,and giving 'thank you' -- I’m appreciate it! Please do keep supporting me (still newbie in here) and special for my silent readers I LOVE YOU.
PS : I will update the story ASAP but I want to view your comment first about this and also sorry for grammar mistake (Ahhh really sad here ...DAMN YOU RYUUKA-SAN !!!!)