Things That Mix - 48G FanficAKB48 Kouhaku Uta Gassen - Dream
THE PAIN on Maru’s head is paralyzing that she couldn’t even open her eyes. Her whole body felt sore. If only she is allowed not to move she will choose to rest for the whole day but today is another busy day for her.
“How can I even face them after getting drunk like that?” she murmured as she massages her temple.
She cursed herself even more after seeing all the drunk texts that she sent last night. They were really embarrassing that she just wanted to find an abandoned well and throw herself in there.
The girls are currently rehearsing for the big event later as the red and white team are going for the yearly showdown once again. Everyone is busy but here she is, sulking in a corner with her vision whirling around.
What’s worse is she couldn’t find her medicine. She knows that it was in her pocket last night but she woke up with her clothes changed. She looked for the bottle on her last night’s clothes but it wasn’t there.
The thought of it being dropped somewhere entered her mind. It was the last of her stock. She wanted to go buy a new one but the manager already arrived to pick her up.“WAH!”
She jerked up at that cute surprise. It was Paruru who just finished rehearsing for the Christmas medley the white team is going to perform later.
Maru heavily raised her head but a shy smile got immediately painted on her face. She hid her face with her arms. “What’s that for?”
Paruru just giggled and then pulled a mono bloc to sit in front of the sulking girl.
“Are you alright, Hoshi? Paruru asked with a cute smile showing her deep dimples. “You sure had a lot last night.”
Maru buried her face even more. “I know. It was a foolish thing to do.”
“I’m sorry I left early today and didn’t wake you up. I had to finish some shoot in the morning.”
Paru playfully raised the other girl’s head. She guffawed at Maru’s hangover face, her eyes half opened and her hair is all over the place. She started playing with her cheeks.
“Are you enjoying jat sho much, Shimajaki-shan?” Maru asked as her face became Salt’s toy.
Paruru just laughed and let go of her. She looked straight to her eyes and Maru tried to do the same. They just looked at each other until Maru got tired and pinched Paru’s nose.
She leaned back on the wall and tapped her legs, inviting Paruru to sit on them. The Salty Queen immediately flustered as Maru opened her arms wide open. She looked around to see if other people are watching them.
“Not going to sit?” Maru asked impatiently and then dropped her arms. “Okay then—UGH!”
She almost choked when Paruru suddenly sat on her lap. She just dropped herself that Maru almost got sandwiched.
“S-Sorry, Hoshi! I-I-I didn’t mean to—“
Maru slowly enveloped her arms around the girl and tightly embraced her. She buried her face on Paru’s shoulder for it has become her favourite place on earth. She started to enjoy the girl’s alluring scent which made Paruru even more flustered.
“H-Hoshi...” she called in a tensed voice. “There are people around...”
“I don’t care...” Maru placed her chin on top of Paruru’s shoulder and looked at her. “Are you embarrassed?” she whispered to her ear and then tightened the hug even more.
“A-Are you still drunk?”
“Then why are you suddenly this... sweet?”
Instead of answering, Maru just planted a kiss on Paru’s nape which made the girl jerk. She tried to release herself from the hug but it was futile. Deep inside her heart she knows that she likes where she is sitting.
“Say, Haruka...” Maru called her in a low voice. “After this month you are going to be a full-pledged actress, right?”
“Mhm...” Paru weakly nodded. “I already have a drama for next year and I am really enjoying the shoots.”
“That’s your dream now, right?”
“Hmmm...” she thought aloud. “I’m not really after recognitions and awards. I just want to do something that makes me really, really happy. Let’s just say it is my dream to continue doing this for a long time.”
“Why did you ask?” Paru turned to her to have a good look of her face but she got surprised to see lonely eyes behind her specs. Those sad eyes just looked at her for a moment, confused on whether they will shed a tear or keep them in.
“I’m going to support you in everything that you do.”
Paru smiled at her and patted her cheeks. Maru buried her face on Paru’s shoulder and looked up to her as if she is a puppy. Paru giggled at the cuteness and then they leaned on the wall together to take some rest.
“They are just too sweet, it’s giving me cavities!” Jurina gritted her teeth while looking at the couple from a far.
“Are you jealous because you still haven’t kissed Sakura yet and your Aniki has already cleared the kissing stage?” Sayanee teased her. She’s currently busy eating her takoyaki.
“It’s all thanks to me they are like that now!”
“Don’t steal all the credits, pup!”
“Wait, Saya-chin...” Jurina called with an enlightened face. “I just realized this now... If you are Aniki’s father and I am her brother then you are my fath—“
Sayanee shoved a takoyaki in Jurina’s mouth. “I don’t have a vicious kissing beast like you as a son. I’m contented with one annoying child…Even though she made me a laughing stock last night.”
“Cruel.” Jurina commented while munching the food. “Man, this is delicious! Can I have more?”
“No way!” Sayanee kept the takoyaki away from Jurina’s reach. “Anyway, have you seen Yuihan? Those two are so into PDA, Yuihan shouldn’t see them...”
“I saw her being called by Shinobu-san earlier. It looks serious just by judging their faces.”
“Give me some water…”
They all shrieked when Yuihan suddenly appeared behind them. She looks terribly pale as if she has seen a supernatural being lurking around. The two immediately blocked the view that will surely pierce Yuihan’s heart.
“W-What happened, Yuihan?” Sayanee asked. “W-Why do you look so pale?”
Yui pulled a seat and dropped herself. She drank straight on the bottled water without using a straw.
“Has anyone of you seen Maru-chan?” She asked. The two took a quick look of the lovers in one corner. They are still on that position and they look like they are sleeping.
“S-S-She arrived earlier but she doesn’t look like she’s in a very good state.” Jurina answered, she moved a little closer to Sayanee to make sure that the view is completely blocked.
Yui released a very deep sigh. “I have to talk to her.” She stood up from her seat but she immediately got blocked by the two.
“What?” She asked with a hint of irritation with her voice.
The two looked at each other, thinking of what to say. They saw how Yui raged right after they dropped Maru at her unit. Paru stayed behind to assist the drunken Maru. After they went out of the unit, Yui let out of her feelings and raged like a drunken old man. She saw the love of her life being kissed in front of her, only a stone will not react to that. It was a trap for her own self.
It was hell for the two aces to have her calm down so they can’t afford her to see the on-going PDA.
“Are you ready for our showdown later, Yuihan?” Sayanee asked her in a very challenging tone.
“It’s obvious that it is a handicap match.” Yui answered, dismayed. “Now let me through and I will look for that kid.”
She tried to pass through them but Jurina blocked her and pushed her back to her seat. “You see these takoyakis, they are really delicious, Yui-sou-chan! Have some!”
“W-Wait, those are mine!” Sayaka swatted Jurina’s hands away from the precious takoyaki.
Yui looked at the two with the eyes of Otabe. “What is going with you two? Is there something—““Yo! Minna, genki?”
Their eyes widened at the sound of that familiar voice. They looked at the direction of the source and wide smiles got plastered on their faces.
They shouted on top of their voice which gathered the attention of the other people around.
“OSU!” The first ever soukantoku of the 48G and the original center of AKB48, Takahashi Minami, gave them a salute. She’s pushing a trolley with lots of boxes. She’s even wearing a Santa hat.
“What are those, Takamina-san?” Jurina marvelled at the amount of boxes the former soukantoku was pushing all by herself.
Takamina opened one of the boxes and showed them what’s inside. “I brought my old clothes to give to anyone who would like them. I want to give them especially to younger members.”
People started to gather around Takamina. Everyone is so happy to see her. They are all surprised yet moved that she still monitors the activities of the group. She even came with presents.
“Help yourself, everyone!” She cheerfully said to the girls as some of her staff lay the presents on a huge mat. It now looks like a flea market. She then made her way to the current GM and the two aces from Sakae and Namba. “What’s up? How is the rehearsal?”
“I-It’s going on really well!” Yui immediately answered as if she is reporting to her supervisor.
Takamina smiled at her and placed her hand on Yui’s shoulder. “That’s good to hear. I’m looking forward to the event.” She looked around as if looking for someone.
“Is there something wrong, Takamina-san?” Sayanee asked.
Takamina scratched her head. “I’m looking for this glasses—“
“Maru-chan~! Let go of Paruru-chan already and stand up~! You need to get prepared!”
Their attentions were caught by Nyan Nyan standing on one corner with her hands on her hips. The two soukantokus took a better look of what’s in the corner. The two aces gulped as the thing they were trying hard to cover is now right before Yui’s eyes.
Nyan Nyan started to pull Paruru from the tight embrace of Maru but the girl isn’t letting go. Paruru is just laughing as Nyan tries to set her free.
“No! I want to rest with Haruka. My head aches too much I can’t even open my eyes!” Maru insisted while still hugging Paruru. Her eyes are still shut.
“Stop with this childish act, Maru-chan~!” Nyan moaned. “They entrusted you to me~ I have to get you ready ASAP!”
“Yeah. Stop making Nyan Nyan frustrated. It’s rare that she is this hyped with a task entrusted to her…and Yuko will be angry at you!”
The people involved in the commotion froze as if they are doing the mannequin challenge when Takamina entered the scene. Paruru jerked up at the sight of Takamina which left Maru hugging the air.
“Takamina!/Takamina-san!” NyanParu exclaimed. Maru’s ears rang at the name. She slowly opened her eyes and saw Takamina smiling at her with her usual smug expression.
“It’s nice to finally meet you, Hoshino Maru-chan!” Takamina greeted her. The other three are standing behind her. Somehow the appearance of Takamina diverted Yuihan’s attention.
Maru’s eyes widened when she finally recognized this important figure in front of her. She abruptly stood from her seat which made the mono bloc fall down.
“C-C-Chisai!” Maru shouted which made the others give a boke reaction. She shouted it just like her thoughts slipped on her tongue. She immediately covered her mouth as she remains stiff.
Takamina scratched her head. “Well, I know that already so don’t tell it straight it to my face, Hoshino-chan.”
“I-I-I am sorry…” Maru took a 90 degree bow to show how sorry she really is. She messed up with a lot of people last night including Aki-P. She must hold her tongue or she will get killed. She took a glimpse of Sayaka at the back of Takamina and she knows she is already killing her in her mind.
The former GM smiled at her widely. “I’m really wondering why we have never crossed each other’s path until now. It’s really nice to finally see you in flesh.”
“T-Thank you…” Maru stuttered. She hurriedly pulled off her phone from her pocket and pulled the stylus of it. She handed it to Takamina and then bowed again.
“P-Please give me your sign, Takamina-san!”
Everyone fell silent. It was the first time Maru asked for an autograph. She didn’t ask even Acchan or Yuko or even her oshimen for it but here she is asking Takamina’s.
“S-Sure!” Takamina shrugged her shoulder before giving her a sign. She handed it back to Maru and her face brightened in a flash. It seems like her hangover has been lifted from her.
“N-Next time, please sign all my posters at home! I really admire your leadership and everything that you did for the sake of the whole group!”
“Oy, oy!” Sayanee butted in. “You are asking for too much!”
Takamina just laughed but she agreed with Maru’s request. This made the glasses girl almost jumped in joy. She’s like a child who met her superhero.
Kojiharu suddenly clung to Maru by her shoulders. “So much for this! You can go meet Takamidget later! We have to fix you immediately!”
“Who are you calling Takamidget!?” Takamina shouted at Nyan but the tall girl just stuck her tongue out to her fellow No3b member.
She started to drag Maru away from them but Maru’s eyes are still on Takamina even though she is being dragged. “S-See you later Takamina-san! H-Haruka, you too!”
Jurina flicked her tongue and rolled her eyes. “Are we just air for her? She didn’t even notice us!”
Paruru chuckled at that protest of the puppy. “She must be shy because of all the drunk messages she sent you.”
“She must really hide from me!” Sayanee grits her teeth. “She made me a killer!”
They all laughed even Takamina. She also heard from Aki-P about the certain text message that he received around 2 in the morning.
“I’ll be watching from the audience today. I’m really excited!” Minami ecstatically said. “How about let’s tour around. I want to see Mayuyu and the others!”
“Okay then! Let’s go!”
They started to walk but Yuihan was left still looking at the direction where Maru went with Kojiharu. She sighed. The information that she received earlier is enough to shock her.
“Yuihan?” She jerked at that call of Takamina. “Is there something wrong?”
Sasuga, the daijobu sensor of the first soukantoku doesn’t falter even after graduation. Takamina also looked at where she is looking and then she released a sigh.
“That girl is as precious as what Akimoto-sensei is talking about. It’s sad that I can’t talk to her longer.” Takamina released another sigh. She has been wanting to meet Maru but Nyan Nyan just took the girl like that.
“She’s included at the Kouhaku election, right?” She asked which was answered by a faint nod from Yui. “I looked at all of your profiles and read all your dreams but that girl didn’t write anything on her form. I want to ask her about it.”
Yui also released a deep sigh. Her heart is in deep distress.
“I want to take wonderful pictures forever…
I believe that is what she is going to answer.” Yui whispered.
“Hey! I thought we are going to tour around! What are you two doing there?” Jurina waved her hand at them.
Yui took a deep breath and then forced a smile. “Let’s go, Takamina-san.”
THE SPOTLIGHT transferred to the panel of the judges right after the tap dance version of RIVER ended. It was focused on the keyboardist and also a composer and arranger for 48G’s music, Inoue Yoshimasa. The audience were in silence because he started playing an Oshima Yuko song, Nakinagara Hohoende, but there is no one who is going to sing it.
The fight between Shirogumi and Akagumi was put into a halt by this number. No representative is coming out until everyone was put into awe when Kojiharu, who’s one of the judges, stood up from her seat, a mic on her hand.
She started singing that bitter-sweet song of sending off someone’s most special person. It feels like she is already saying good bye to everyone as she is also someone who is in the graduating list. Everyone is just savouring this moment in which the other half of KojiYuu is singing this song.
Maru, who happened to be one of the judges too, took a picture of Kojiharu with her phone and immediately sent it to Yuko. The squirrel immediately sent her a reply as if she is really waiting for that picture to arrive.
Nakinagara Hohoende - Kojima Haruna
[Sorry I don't know how to use the hyperlink tag. help.
(As I cry, I smile)
anata wo miokurimashou
(then I'll see you off)
(Many times you stopped)
shinpaisou ni furikaeru keredo...
(and look back worriedly, but ...)
(As I cry, I smile)
hitori ni nareru made wa
(and until I get used to being alone)
koko kara mada ugokenakute
(I still won’t be able to move from here...)
sotto te wo furi
(Quietly, I wave my hand)
chiisaku naru omoide no chikaku ni itai
(fading memories of wanting to be near you)
Maru smiled as she felt her heart started to feel down especially when Kojiharu took a glimpse of her. Is she singing that song for me or what? She asked herself while smiling foolishly. I’m being delusional.
The song ended with a big round of applause from the audience. The members who are also watching backstage clapped so hard, the younger members were even moved into tears. It is Kojiharu’s last performance for AKB’s Kouhaku. It is indeed a good song choice for someone who is leaving.
The pianist looked at Kojiharu with a satisfied face. He looked so proud that he has worked with this wonderful ponkotsu. He was able to watch her grow into a more beautiful, independent lady. (I know it’s the same to all the Nyan Nyan oshis out there.)
Yoshimasa bowed to her as a signal to move on for the next part. Kojiharu then turned to Maru who immediately removed the nervousness on her face. She stood up from her seat and the crowd started to go wilder.
She’s wearing a skirt for the first time in her life. Kojiharu made her wear the Kojizaka46 outfit she used at the Janken Taikai before. Shinobu-san just added up the sleeves to cover her scars. Her hair was also curled a little topped with a beret with the matching colour of her outfit.
The members backstage and those who are watching on the stage started to make a fuzz when Kojiharu handed Maru the mic and the latter took her position. Sayanee immediately called Paruru to take watch the happenings with the monitor backstage. They all sat in front of the monitor together with Jurina, Sakura and Haruppi while the Soukantoku is just watching at their back as she is on stand-by to perform next.
Maru took a good look of the scenery in front of her. The people are all anxious of her next move; their lighsticks are all lighted up. She flashed a wonderful, shy smile which is enough to make the audience cheered for her. She bowed her head, closed her eyes and took a deep breath. She nodded to the pianist a sign that she is ready. She put the mic in front of her mouth and started to sing.
Kimi ga iru nara donna yume mo
(If you are here, whatever dream it may be)
kanau youna ki ga shiteru yo
(I believe that it will all be fulfilled)
Kimi ga iru kara akiramenai
(Because you are here, I won’t give up)
Arigatou kimi ni aete yokatta
(Thank you, I’m glad that I met you)
Maru is singing DREAM by Shota Shimizu. It’s not an AKB song. She just thought that she could reach the notes if she sings a song originally sung by a guy. It’s her personal pick, also because of the message of the song.
Dream by Shota Shimizu
but I prefer this cover for Maru---> Dream by Lefty Hand Cream
[Sorry for my translation. I tried.]
hitori bocchi Lonely
(I was lonely being alone)
ano koro no koto omoidashite
(as I remember that time)
doushiyou mo nai kurai
(I can’t do anything about it)
(It was lonely, it was painful)
atarimae no nichijou ga
(The days go by just ordinarily)
tada tan tan to nagarete itta
(nothing is changing)
Fly... Fly... dokoka tooku
(Fly… Fly… Somewhere…)
sonna koto bakari kangaeteta
(I only think of that thing.)
soshite kimi to deai
(But then I met you)
umareta no wa chiisana negai
(With a small wish, I was born again)
kono hito to motto issho ni itai
(‘I want to be with this person even more’)
kono hito to zutto waratte itai
(‘I always want to laugh with this person’)
"mamoritai" sou omotta
(“I want to protect you” Yes, I thought)
umarete hajimete tsuyoku nareta
(For the first time in my life I want to be stronger)
Fly... Fly... dokoka tooku
(Fly… Fly… Somewhere)
sonna koto kangaenaku natta
(To where I can stop thinking of those things)
Maru smiled as she remembered that fateful meeting she had with someone on a bus stop. She suddenly realized that it was the beginning of all this feelings. That meeting is also the reason why she is where she is now. She held her chest as if she’s telling her heart to stop being so excited.
donna ni BORO BORO ni nattemo ii
(I don’t care how tattered it is)
tada kimi to issho ni ikite itai
(I just want to be with you)
kimi no egao wo miru sono tame ni boku wa utau yo
(For the sake of seeing your smile, I will sing)
The chorus was repeated and there goes the surge of emotion once again. Maru has this magic whenever she sings. It is as if her words can make a stone-hearted yankee cry on his knees. The song is about being thankful but the emotions overflow that tears are inevitable.
motto tsuyoku Tell you
(I want to be stronger to tell you)
toki ni wa kimi wo kizutsukete
(Sometimes I might hurt you)
mune ni komi ageru nanika ga
(There’s something in your heart)
namida ni kawatte yuku
(That makes you want to cry)
shounen ga otona ni naru
(But boys turns to adult)
tsubomi datta hana ga saki hajimeru
(Flower buds begin to bloom)
sou sa, aruite yukou
(Come, let’s walk)
kimi to nara nani mo kowakunai yo
(I fear nothing if you are with me)
dareka ni baka ni saretatte ii
(I don’t care even if people make a fool of me)
tada kimi no tame ni yume wo kanaetai
(I just want to fulfil my dream for you)
nando machigattemo tsumazuitemo boku wa utau yo
(Even if I make mistakes I will sing~)
She then looked at the camera as she repeated the chorus for the last two times. Paruru instantly felt that Maru is singing for her which sent her to tears without her knowing.
Arigatou kimi ni aete yokatta
(Thank you, I’m glad that I met you)
arigatou boku ni deatte kurete
(Thank you for coming to my life)
The song ended and there goes the applause from the audience. Everyone felt how grateful she really is for the people who have been supporting her from beginning until now. They gave their best clap for Hoshino Maru’s first ever singing performance.
Maru smiled even wider. Her eyes are being prickled with tears as she savours the privilege of singing in front of this people. Who would have thought that she hated doing this before but here she is, being filled with joy after making everyone moved with her performance.
She loves the sight of the lightsticks, how they glittered in the dark like the stars that she admires. If only this will last… but… all good things would come to an end…
“M-Maru-chan!” Kojiharu called out to her as she remained standing there even if the focus has already went back on the main stage. Maru’s eyes are wide open and tears are rolling down her cheeks. She’s frozen to where she is standing.
Kojiharu reached out for her and she started to panic at the sight of the red fluid flowing from Maru’s nose. She immediately made Maru sit to avoid attracting attention. She reached for a tissue and helped Maru wipe her nosebleed.
“K-Kojima-san…” Maru called her with a cracked voice. Her face painted with fear. “I… I cannot see…”