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¡Hello everyone! It's time for you to travel in this story in which you need to choose a side. Our protagonist will be Murayama Yuiri, Okada Nana and Kojima Mako.
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INDEX:
Chapter 1 | Mako’s diary: Knowing her
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Chapter 2 | Yuiri's side: Any normal day
http://forum.jphip.com/index.php?topic=46426.msg1437619#msg1437619 (http://forum.jphip.com/index.php?topic=46426.msg1437619#msg1437619)
Chapter 3 | Mako’s diary: Her girlfriend
http://forum.jphip.com/index.php?topic=46426.msg1438090#msg1438090 (http://forum.jphip.com/index.php?topic=46426.msg1438090#msg1438090)
Chapter 4 | Yuiri's side: My favorite person
http://forum.jphip.com/index.php?topic=46426.msg1438091#msg1438091 (http://forum.jphip.com/index.php?topic=46426.msg1438091#msg1438091)
Chapter 5 | Mako’s diary: The date
http://forum.jphip.com/index.php?topic=46426.msg1438288#msg1438288 (http://forum.jphip.com/index.php?topic=46426.msg1438288#msg1438288)
Chapter 6 | Yuiri's side: Protect my prince
http://forum.jphip.com/index.php?topic=46426.msg1438401#msg1438401 (http://forum.jphip.com/index.php?topic=46426.msg1438401#msg1438401)
Chapter 7 | Mako’s diary: First fight, first friend
http://forum.jphip.com/index.php?topic=46426.msg1438761#msg1438761 (http://forum.jphip.com/index.php?topic=46426.msg1438761#msg1438761)
Chapter 8 | Yuiri's side: Peace, tranquility and joy
http://forum.jphip.com/index.php?topic=46426.msg1438762#msg1438762 (http://forum.jphip.com/index.php?topic=46426.msg1438762#msg1438762)
Chapter 9 | Mako’s diary: Finally together
http://forum.jphip.com/index.php?topic=46426.msg1439589#msg1439589 (http://forum.jphip.com/index.php?topic=46426.msg1439589#msg1439589)
Chapter 10 | Yuiri's side: Forgive me Nana
http://forum.jphip.com/index.php?topic=46426.msg1439590#msg1439590 (http://forum.jphip.com/index.php?topic=46426.msg1439590#msg1439590)
Chapter 11 | Mako's diary: Believe in her
http://forum.jphip.com/index.php?topic=46426.msg1440774#msg1440774 (http://forum.jphip.com/index.php?topic=46426.msg1440774#msg1440774)
Chapter 12 | Yuiri's side: Wait for a miracle
http://forum.jphip.com/index.php?topic=46426.msg1440775#msg1440775 (http://forum.jphip.com/index.php?topic=46426.msg1440775#msg1440775)
Chapter 13 | Mako's diary: Diary, dedication & love letter
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Chapter 14 | Yuiri's side: Love will have triumphed
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Chapter 15 | Nana's decision: Her journey
http://forum.jphip.com/index.php?topic=46426.msg1444786#msg1444786 (http://forum.jphip.com/index.php?topic=46426.msg1444786#msg1444786)
Chapter 16 | Nana's decision: By her side
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JUST CHOOSE! - PROLOGUE
It was a morning in the city of Tokyo, the last leaves were falling from the trees indicating that autumn was ending and the imminent winter was approaching. The cold was beginning to feel it but you could still dare to bring short sleeves from time to time. People used to walk in the afternoons in a hurry thinking about what they had to do and not worrying about the wonderful spectacle that nature was offering them. Just in this environment this story happens, a love story but not just an ordinary love tale but one in which in the end someone will lose but it's all for the happiness of the well-loved.
- Someone POV -
Sitting in a train car I was thinking looking out the window, if someone right now was looking at me I probably wouldn't notice. I sigh, it's all I can do at the moment, I relax ... my heartbeat is normal, do not shake uncontrollably, this feeling of peace is nice although I know that this will only be momentary and that's why I give myself the freedom to enjoy it every second.
You may be wondering why I appreciate just having my heartbeat calm, this actually has a first and last name or should I rather say "first names" and "last names". I am at a crossroads in my life where I know that hopelessly someone I love very much will be hurt, unfortunately my actions have caused two wonderful people to have their hearts in my hands, offer them to me but to my misfortune one will have to take it and another I'm gonna throw it away.
For anyone it's very easy to say "ONLY FOLLOW YOUR HEART" the problem is that this is treacherous since it beats in the same way for both girls, yeah I mean two females. Although Japan is not a country where homosexuality is so well seen, let's say it is a little more tolerant and more open being in Tokyo, for me that was never a problem because since I was a teenager I knew that I would never feel attracted for boys.
My first love I still remember it, she was my best friend from childhood, I still remember when I met her she was a very shy little girl but with hints of courage when someone messed with me. It was not difficult to make friends with her tenderness, simplicity and honesty were some of her attributes that caused something to be born within me. Little by little I realized that I loved her a lot, for a long time I attributed it to being my best friend but then adolescence came. I realized that I liked girls but among all of them one of them I liked more than all so I just let myself go with this feeling to discover why I felt this way and ended up discovering not only that I was a lesbian but that I was also in love with my best friend.
Part of my first teenage days I had this strong feeling that I would calculate that until I entered the university it could be said that I was hopelessly in love with her, we distanced ourselves a little because she took a different career from mine. After I decided to have dates with other girls but that relationship evaporated with the wind, others took a dangerous path but in the end I gave up my feelings for her and according to me We became best friends again as we were from the beginning.
That is why when she confessed her love to me, I suddenly went into complete shock, I did not believe it, I did not know how it had happened but now I had what was my first love confessing her feelings towards me, at that moment I did not know what to answer because according to me these feelings had disappeared, in the end she showed me her true feelings and asked me to accept her in my life but not as a friend but as someone to live with the rest of my days. She has asked my permission to make me happy. My confusion is that now I am not alone because there is another person, that person in just a few months came to revolutionize my world to such an extent that I thought that my feelings for my best friend no longer existed but now with her confession I just feel uneasy.
While I have told you on one side that it is my love for my best friend on the other side is this new person who entered my life like a hurricane, moving my life 180° from what it was. It was not a coincidence that we met, but it was destiny. It all started the first day of university, while I was daydreaming a voice asked me "Is this place busy?". I could not help but stare at her, she was someone very attractive, she had that black hair in a ponytail that made her face stand out, that lively voice asked me again "Do you hear me?" which I just shook my head at. "Don't you hear me?" she says to me now with a mischievous smile on her lips that makes her show me her pretty dimples. "No, sorry, I meant it's available" I say blushing like an idiot, "what a good way to hide that you are a lesbian on your first day, moron" I thought. Contrary to all prognosis, she did not say anything and just sat next to me, from the first moment I could feel the connection between us, it was not necessary to be a genius to say that we are attracted but over time that attraction became something more deep.
Our beginning was simple but many doubts arose, jealousy, misunderstanding but in the end we managed to overcome them, we were just about to have everything and have the most romantic love in this university when a new test came, time after I ask her to be my girlfriend my first love confessed her love to me and my new love was only there waiting and believing in our love until the last moment. I can definitely say that I fell in love with her deeply too.
A sound brings me out of my thoughts, listening carefully I realize that I have reached my destination, my heart beats quickly for the decision I have made. It took some time for me to take it but now I know I have done the right thing. I see you in the distance while you play distracted with your cell phone, I know that you are nervous because I am.
From the moment I was asked to choose between the two of you, I couldn't sleep well, I didn't know which person I love the most, I didn't know what to think or feel.
- I'm here- I say in a low voice almost like a whisper
- You came ...- you tell me like letting out a sigh while you show me the most sincere smile and your gaze shows me infinite love. From the moment I saw that sincere expression of love I knew that I had made the right decision.
* End POV *
And this is how this story begins, where our protagonist will have to go through endless emotions to know who she really loves and in this process someone will definitely be inevitably hurt.
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I just realized Yuiri and Mako both have dimples and black hair.
Nana makes her preferences clear.
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¡Hello everyone again! Are you ready? This story it's a little different because we going to know both sides of this triangle love. Enjoy it. Don´t forget put your comments below!
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JUST CHOOSE! - Chapter 1 | Mako’s diary: Knowing her
Mako’s diary
Hello my new diary, today I will talk to you about the first day at my new university. I am a student in the music career, and to be honest, today was a crazy day, because I have known love at first sight. How was our first approach?
Well ... I had to do my first theoretical projects, so I had to look for the book "Music's history 1", I proceeded to go to the library, when I got there I noticed that the book was on a fairly high shelf and as I am very short I had to request a ladder.
When I went up and stood on tiptoe I noticed that I could barely touch it with the tips of my fingers. As I jumped a little, I slid off the ladder, when I fell I felt like two arms took me by the back prevent my fall, but those arms did not support my weight and we both fell to the ground. Opening my eyes I saw the face of an angel.
*flashback*
-Wow ... I think I have died because I am seeing an angel -After saying these words I saw how this girl's face turned red like a tomato as she walked away from me to later hear the words. - are you good? are you hurt?-.
- Yes, I'm sorry, although my head hurts a little-
- I'll take you to the infirmary.
-No, I'm fine thanks ... by the way I'm Kojima Mako but it's ok if you tell me Mako -.
- Glad to know, my name is Nana-. She answered followed by a smile that made me blush, and then she got up and extended her hand to get up. I took her hand and immediately realized how soft it was, without a doubt a sensation that I will never forget.- Oh you are the girl who sits next to me, I had not noticed.-
- You are very concentrated in the class or very distracted. I have to go. I tried to move forward to be stopped by that warm hand.
-Hey you can't say that and leave me here like nothing else - I blushed and tried to say something but the words just didn't come out of my mouth.
I just turned around and ran to hide, I still remember the speed with which my heart beat, I thought it would come out of my chest, I started to sweat a little so I looked for my handkerchief that I always carry with me but I couldn't find it. Just thinking that I have to go back to the classroom for a couple more hours makes me nervous, but even so, I don't know why I want to see that angelic face in which I lost myself for a few seconds that seemed like hours to me.
Upon returning to the classroom, the first thing she noticed was that she was there reading a book while several girls sobbed when they saw her since her ikemen appearance made her popular from the first day. I didn't know what to do so I just ignored her and sat at my desk hoping she didn't notice that I was there. No seconds passed when I heard her voice
-And you tell me I was the distracted one when you forgot this in the library-.
-Oh, the book ... thank you- I answered to take the book, when doing it her hand delicately brushed mine, I immediately blushed and turned my gaze towards the window.
The rest of the day I avoided Nana, I was really very sorry, it was the first time in my life that I felt this way, just seeing or thinking about her makes my heartbeat accelerate.
The departure time has come and I can finally relax for a while so I thought about going to the roof of the school to eat something, since I love the mountainous landscape that can be seen from there. As I sat down and started eating my onigiri, there was that voice again
- So you like heights-.
- And you like to harass people-.
-Hey, don't be so aggressive, I just came to give you this back.
-My scarf !!! -.
-Let's be friends what do you think? -
-I don't Know, I have to think about it-
-So how bad do you think am I? -
-Hahaha just kidding but hey ... it's okay I accept -. I said smiling to later be reciprocated by that angelic girl again while looking her smile which when I seeing it my heart speeds up. -well I have to go see you tomorrow-.
"Bye bye," I replied to see how her figure disappeared behind the door.
After that, I immersed myself in my thoughts full of doubts and mixed feelings. God will you like it? Perhaps I will have a chance with her? ... Mako stops rambling on and time will tell us. I was eating my onigiri when I leaned on the railing to better appreciate the view before leaving for my house. In that moment I saw the figure of Nana running towards the entrance of the school, in it I saw how she approached waving to another girl a little more short a, takes her hand and goes outside the campus.
* End of flashback *
That's right ... dear diary I was an idiot, an ikemen like her obviously had a girlfriend. Now I don't know what to do, since I've never been in this place, I don't know how to react or what to do, what I really know is that I've fallen in love with an angel AND that I don't want to lose her. The most horrible thing of all is that I don't have the power to do anything, sometimes I hate how shy I am and everything scares me. Apart from what I saw her girlfriend is beautiful and I can't compete with her I'm not cutie enough... oh, my God what should I do.
Something will occur to me at the moment, the only thing I can do is observe in the distance.
And well dear diary is everything for today
Crazy day right?
We will see what fate has in store for us. But for now, bye.
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JUST CHOOSE! - Chapter 2 | Yuiri's side: Any normal day
Yuiri POV
I'm standing at the entrance of the university while I check my watch, I see that it's been 20 minutes since I've been waiting for Nana in this place. At times I move my feet from side to side trying to move them to calm this craving. I don't like being the center of attention and I can see that some boys who pass by me shamelessly turn to see me, since I was little I know that my discreet attitude caught a little attention but since I entered high school until today the boys are more daring to invite me out or ask for my phone number.
So I hate waiting for someone where there are a lot of people, but Nana asked me to wait for her. And you will wonder who is this "Nana", because two times I've talked about her. Well, who else could it be than my best friend from childhood, well since elementary school if I remember correctly, she has been my support in all those days and despite the fact that years ago we had a setback that could hurt our relationship, it actually made it more stronger.
- Yuuchan - I heard a voice while I felt like an index finger collided with my forehead and before such an awake movement of my reverie.
-Hey?! - I can only say as I look towards the front.
"Is it possible to know what Miss Murayama was thinking or should I say who?" She says with her characteristic detective smile.
-Don't say nonsense. I was thinking that you had already taken a long time and I was about to leave you - I tell her pretending to be angry as we start walking towards the station to go home, it's an advantage that we live very close to each other.
"You wouldn't dare," she says in an offended voice.
"Try me, Okada, try me" I say with a defiant look to end up laughing, both knowing that it would be impossible for that to happen.
- And well the lady is going to tell me because I had to wait almost half of hour for her when she assured me that she was going out immediately- I say looking to the side noticing for the first time something that I had not seen, she had a very happy look and a radiant smile outside than usual.
-Definitely I am going to tell you, today I met a girl who is in my class but that is not the most important thing, at first I could not speak well with her, then in the library I help her but we finished collapsing in the ground and finally I looked for her on the roof to give her a handkerchief that had fallen off in that accident - she finishes telling me while we continue walking watching the sunset a little.
-So now you harass your classmates? - I say jokingly as I watch her blushing.
-Of course not! These were coincidences, I swear - Nana tells me while raising both hands to prove her innocence.
- If I did not know you I would say that you have already set your sights on your next conquest - I say with a smile, it is well known by several of the campus and ex-schoolmates that Naachan was that type of girl who makes more than one person sigh and therefore we can always see it well accompanied. Only few know her secret, in reality she is ... mmm how to say it ... well she is not interested in boys if I explain it casually ... at first it was quite strange but not the fact that she was interested in girls only to know that she is trying to find a girlfriend but now I know that not only were they of her interest but she also wanted to go out with them but what surprised me is the no acceptance that this still causes in many people, so Nana is quite reserved, she doesn't hide it but she is not shouting her preferences all out loud.
-Oh come on Yuuchan! You know that I am not like that, she is also a girl in my class that I just met, it's not as if I wanted to go out with her - she says to me but there is something that her voice tells me that only perhaps this girl has caught her attention more than the previous ones.
"And may I know the name of your damsel?" - I say with a smile since seeing her so interested in someone makes me happy.
- Mako - she says to me with a happy voice.
-Just Mako, don't she have last names - I ask curiously.
- I forgot to ask her, I'm so clueless - she said with a smile.
In that we were walking on the sidewalk when I felt that without warning she takes my left arm with her right hand while she pulls me behind her until I'm on her left side, then she takes my right hand with her left hand.
-What are you doing? - I asked curious.
-Cute girls like you shouldn't go to the sidewalk, what if someone wants to kidnap you? - she says very seriously.
-Don't be so paranoid I don't think someone wants to steal me from you - I say with a smile, since we have known each other she always has this kind of attention with me.
-It's better not to tempt luck - she says while smiling at me.
- Also if someone tries something I have my brave knight to save me, right? - I say with another smile.
-Of course, I will always be there to protect you - Nana tells me as we walk hand in hand, nothing unusual in our friendship.
What can I say my life is good? I have my parents, friends, I studied the career that I like and I also have my best friend by my side, although nothing is perfect I am quite comfortable as everything is happening lately. I really want Nana to find someone who makes her happy because with everything she has gone through she deserves it, I will always be there to support her and maybe you are asking who I am. My name is quite common Murayama Yuiri, best friend of this cheerful and serious woman named Okada Nana with whom I simply go hand in hand as on any normal day.
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I recently got involved with this pairing (YuuNaa) and I love it, so this fic comes at a good time but the addition of Mako makes it even more interesting, love triangles are always usually complicated so this has everything to be a great story, it's difficult to have to choose and it seems that Nana will not have it very easy.
Thanks for this, I will be waiting for the next update!
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@Nozokime Welcome to the Yuunaa world. Yeah! I will try to make the decision difficult for nana's and viewers too.
There are a lot of yuunaa fanfic outside
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Interesting first 3 chapters! We got to see the POV of each of the three mains so far.
Small note: Good job on using 180° instead of 360°. Even great writers make that mistake. It's a pet peeve of mine.
Naachan's intro shows that this is not going to be an easy choice since it looks like she loves both of them equally.
Excited to see how their relationships grow from here.
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@aneramyre: Thank you for the comments! I really appreciate when people let a message because this help me to know that somebody it's reading my work.
And thanks for your small note :)
Also I'm gonna give you a small spoiler structure fic, this time we only gonna know Mako and Yuiri POV, because I want you to know only their feelings and worries and maybe in the last chapter we could know Nana's one *wink* *wink*
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¡Hello everyone again! Sorry I just forget to updated this. Keep reading and drop down your comments please!
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JUST CHOOSE! - Chapter 3 | Mako’s diary: Her girlfriend
Mako's diary
Hello dear diary,
Well, it's been a long time.
Spring is over, that is very sad, this has been a spring full of memories that I will never forget. Memories that today I am preparing to write them on your white pages. The day after seeing Nana leave with her "Girlfriend" I felt quite depressed, I didn't want to do anything, even just seeing my homework on the small desk in my room frustrated me a lot.
"I can not believe this is happening to me, I had not thought it was the first time that I felt interested in a woman, wow mako if you are on the right track ... Jum- I said to later get entangled in the sheets of my bed.
The worst thing about this is that she has a girlfriend, and from what I saw she is a very pretty girl ... maybe I could never compete against her, she looks like a beautiful girl and I ... well, it's just me. The best thing I can do is leave the idea about dating Nana. Well at least I used to be single so it's not gonna be a problem.
The next morning in the classroom, as I was trying to complete what was left of my homework that I didn't do last night, all because I was thinking about Nana and her "Girlfriend", however I was concentrating on my notebook when I heard that voice, that voice that did not want to hear again at least for today.
-Wow ... doing homework at school Mako san I thought you were more responsible - she said followed by that smile that made my heart beat a little too fast.
- Shut up it's your fault that I didn't finish my homework- I told her and decided to ignore it. The normal classes ended like a blink.
To be honest at the end of the day I was exhausted from avoiding and ignoring Nana.
- I am really prepared to get away from her, it's better for me. I was thinking as I was going to go to have a quiet lunch at one of my favorite places on campus, the roof of the university, when a hand with a familiar touch and warmth clung to my arm and again that voice but in an annoying tone.
-Mako san wait, you have something please tell me what happened-
- It's nothing, I have to go to breakfast -
-Wait!- I listened as I walked away from her.
When I got to the roof of the school I was about to take the first bite of my salmon onigiri when I noticed "that person" in the opposite corner from where I was sitting. She seemed to be waiting for someone.
-Now that I see her up close she is more pretty, I don't need to guess why Nana is in love with this girl, well it's time to eat. As I said and then took a bite out of my onigiri and savored how delicious it was, only to be interrupted a few minutes later by the angelic singing of that girl.
- Wow, this girl certainly has talent, she sings so well. Minutes later I saw a familiar figure that short brown hair was unmistakable in my eyes.
-Yuiri- I could hear that she said to her, she put her hand on the shoulder for that girl to turn.
-Oh you came! what happens? you see a little down.
-... It's Mako-
-The girl you told me the other day?-
-Yes, her-
-Did you fight with her?-
- No, mmmm I don’t know. This time I don't know why she is like this, she has been ignoring me all day, I have tried to speak to her and she just lowers her gaze and walks away, I really don't know what to do - She said to this Yuiri girl and the girl just hugged her. My reaction to this scene in front of me was a small shock of impression which caused the juice I brought to fall and make a loud sound of a can rolling. They just sater their gaze in my place and tried to run away. But again that warm familiar feeling clinging to my arm doesn't let me go.
-Mako san wait please tell me what is happening to you because you are avoiding me I can no longer tolerate this-.
-Sorry I shouldn't be here, I have to go - After those words Nana put me against the wall and put her hand right next to my face we were so close to each other that I could feel her breath and hear her heartbeat.
-I won't let you go until you tell me what happen -
-Nana you shouldn't do this kind of thing while your girlfriend is watching us -
-Ehh !! ... Girlfriend? I have no girlfriend-
- And then who is she? - I said pointing to the person behind Nana.
-Yuiri? hahaha is just my best friend. You seriously thought that she and I were girlfriends. Of course we are not, she is just my bestfriend - she told me.
- Ehh! .. to…. So are you not a set? -I really need to ask for this.
- We are not girlfriends, Mako san. We are just friends, nothing more. Nana has always been like a sister to me- said this Yuiri girl.
-... I see ... sorry Nana-
-So are we fine?-
-I guess..Yeah-
- By the way Kojima-san, how long have you been there?- ask Yuiri san
- Enough to know that you have a great voice, and you can call me Mako - As I said to her, Yuiri's face turned like a tomato.
- Thanks Mako san ... I mean Mako-
A few days pass by and well after that Terrible disaster has happened. Now I get along better with Nana, and Yuiri has joined in my circle of friendship, and now….
-Well, you like being on the roof Mako.-
-Nana what are you doing here? And Yuiri? Well I was looking for you and she is good busy with various things, hey ... Why do you like being here so much?
- I love the mountainous landscape of this area and above all those trees over there will soon bloom and I bet they will be beautiful.
-I bet not as much as that sparkle in your eyes when I see it.- she replied and then shrugged and blushed - I know a place where the sakura looks beautiful. I can take you if you like.
- Has the prince of this school asked me to go out with you? -.
-eh ... emm ... only if you want-
-... Not-
- Ehh-
-It's an obvious silly joke if I would love to go out with you- I answered followed by that beautiful smile that Nana's mouth showed.
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So diary, what do think? Many things happened this week, I got new friends and also a date with Nana. Maybe a romantic date or not but I just want to try.
See you soon.
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JUST CHOOSE! - Chapter 4 | Yuiri's side: My favorite person
Yuiri's POV
-Definitely this one, no .. How about this one? - I heard a voice but decided to ignore it - Yuuchan, you are ignoring me! -
-Of course the red one looks good on you- I already say with a voice of annoyance.
-I should never have asked you for help, you are not helping me at all - says the angry voice of Okada Nana again and now you will wonder what is happening. The reason is that my childhood friend is going out with a schoolmate and why is it incredible? You will ask yourself again, well simply because she is not just another schoolmate otherwise is apparently someone of Nana's interest.
-But you did so now hold on, I don't know why you make such a fuss - I tell her with a big smile I am very happy to see Naachan's face of bewilderment like a lost puppy - come a little closer -
I say to her as she shyly approaches me, the truth is that she wears gray jeans, a white blouse and a black jacket ... classic but cool. Without wasting much time I get very close to her while I take her from the lapels of her jacket and I bring her towards me in a quick movement being quite close, I accommodate her neck while I raise my gaze slowly moving it from the feet to the head, when our glances connect I can't help but give her a smile to calm her down a bit.
-Come on, breathe, we do not want Makochan to be left without her date- I say as I move away from her a little and I can see that she takes a long breath as if she is holding the air, I look for the hair wax that is in the dresser and I get close to her again - Don't move, I have to leave you fabulous -
Carefully, I took a little wax directly from the boat and spread it in my hands and began to spread it slowly, unfortunately it was not as comfortable a position as I imagined.
-Emh .. Naachan can you sit down? - I say with some embarrassment without being able to avoid blushing at what she just laughs - Shut up if you want my help, sit down -
She only obeys now I can start playing with her hair, which despite being short is quite manageable, I try to accommodate it so that it looks a bit "wild" if that's the style I'm looking for. I was so focused manipulating her hair that I didn't realize that Nana had closed her eyes as if she was enjoying the moment, although maybe she already fell asleep, surely because of her nerves she couldn't sleep well. Satisfied with the end result, I had to speak to her to see if she liked what she had done.
-Naachan, what do you think? - I asked her to be satisfied with my attempt to be a stylist for a day.
-Perfect - she smiles at me through the mirror in front of her.
-Now just missing some lipstick and voila - I say as I proceed to take one.
-Wait, wait .. I don't want to wear that - Nana tells me a little terrified.
-Oh come on, don't be exaggerated. It is only a gloss to highlight your lips - I tell her showing with physical evidence that what she said was true - So keep quiet -
Just when I finished saying the phrase she focused her gaze on me, for a few seconds I can't help but lose myself in that gaze. Many will say that their eye color is brown but if you look closely you can see some nuances of honey color that are lighter with the sun, I can feel that they transmit peace, security and confidence, mainly the last one. I ignore that little jump that my heart had as I continue taking it by the chin slowly with my left hand delicately. I use my thumb and index finger to make it raise the face slowly and proceed gently to outline those lips with the shine. As I go through them I notice certain details that I had not noticed before, such as that they will look thin from a distance but at a short distance they are quite generous, in terms of their texture they look soft since each time the gloss passes it slides as if it were silk.
I can feel her gaze as I finished doing my job, at the end I ask her to press her lips so that there is no space left but she did it so hard that it ran a little on her lower lip so with my thumb I took it off slowly and I finally realized that they are indeed as smooth as they seem.
Coming out of the trance I move away from her while I watch her from head to toe, seeing that nothing is missing.
-Well, are you carrying everything? - I say in a worried voice.
-Obviously, it's not the first time that I go out with someone -
-But it's the first time you go out with her - I tell her as I collect all the mess that Nana's whirlwind made.
-Do you think she likes it, what happens if I'm not well dressed for the occasion? - She says she is really anxious.
-What are you saying!?, Makochan would be blind if she doesn't like what she sees. Also if she decides doesn't show up on your date, I assure you that you can invite anyone who is passing by, they will be so happy to be with a handsome woman.
-YUUUCHAN! - She says shocked.
-It's the truth, you're beautiful! - I say with the most sincere voice I have.
-You say that because you are my friend- she says, lowering her head.
-No, I say that because I have two eyes and good taste - I finished saying.
For some strange reason I see her blush but I decide not to say anything, surely this happens because of the nerves of her date with Makochan.
- Now you are ready, you can go now - I say widening my smile to see how beautiful my friend is, modesty aside.
-Thanks Yuuchan - she says while taking her to go out.
-You know that I will always be here for you - I say accompanying her to the front door of my house because since I received that call last night I knew that it was something important that I have to help her with. Because above all, she is my favorite person.
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It's still very cute so far! I bet Yuuchan and Mako are gonna have a rivalry soon.
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As someone who appreciates angst, I enjoyed the little pinch of pain that Mako's entry had before she learned that Yuiri is not Naachan's girlfriend.
Yuiri's feelings seem far more platonic than Mako's (outside of her admiring Naachan's lips while she was applying lip gloss) so for now I'm rooting for Mako.
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JUST CHOOSE! - Chapter 5 | Mako’s diary: The date
*Mako’s diary*
Hello dear diary,
The day came when we finally went out, I fell asleep too late since I was all night looking for what to wear, and well in the end I decided on a long white lace dress, a black sweater and well my hairstyle was a simple one braid. I had to meet Nana near the shinjuku station to go to her secret place that she hasn't mentioned anything to me since then.
Upon arriving at the station I saw a familiar figure wearing a white blouse with gray jeans in addition to a jacket and well, that short brown hair anywhere would recognize her. She looked great, suddenly her voice got me out of my thoughts
- Hello, you have been waiting for me, sorry for the delay-
- No, I just arrived, don't worry ... wow you look beautiful, I think your beauty will overshadow the place - she said and I blushed like a tomato, we got on the train and left for that destination, ten minutes later we got off the train to walk to the most beautiful park I have seen since my arrival in Tokyo.
-And? say something .. do you like it? -
- I must say that you show off, this is wonderful-
- I told you it would be beautiful- We walked through that place that seemed out of another world, we talked about how beautiful the flowers were, Nana told me -I will show you the best place of all but you have to put this blindfold on your eyes since I would like it to be a surprise -
I agreed to the proposal and we walked for 10 min. What I loved the most and it made me nervous is that Nana took my hand all the time, feeling her warm hand next to mine made my pulsations rise enormously.
-It’s here, we have arrived. Are you ready?-
-Yes- I answered when I took that blindfold off, my impression was enormous. We were on top of a small mountain, where all the sakura trees in the park were seen. -Wow is…. I don't even have words to describe it…
- Thank you Nana - After those words I felt that familiar warmth taking hold of my hand and then listening to those words that still echo in my head.
-Never thank me for this. I do it because ... I really like you quite a lot and well I had to bring the most beautiful girl I have ever known to the most beautiful place I know although, I am sincere, nor does all this beautiful landscape contrast with how beautiful you are today-
You can believe that day I was more than excited, and for the same reason I could not say anything. After that we sat on a stool, to chat better, but before that she offered to bring a few drinks to the vending machine a few meters from where we were. As I watched her buy the drinks, her words over and over and over echoed in my head.
- Nana I want to ask you something-
-Yes, tell me-
- Tell me a little more about Yuiri and you-
-What's this all about?-
- It's nothing, just curiosity - At that time I just thought about not making her uncomfortable but I still wanted to know about them. What she said calmed me internally but also made me a little sad. She told me that since they were little kids they had been friends and she told me several funny stories about her childhood, such as the time that Naachan fell from a tree and Yuiri scolded her. The jokes you could make to a sister, among other things.
And she told me about her adolescence, and that time where you start to feel physical attraction to either a man or a woman, in this case Nana was attracted to Yuiri, at first she did not know what to say or what to do about it, so she suppressed her feelings. Until reaching the point where she couldn't take it anymore, she confessed to Yuiri and well she rejected her since that day she saw her as a little sister.
Without a doubt this made Nana suffer a lot, so to fill that hole in her chest that she had, she went out with many girls, but no one could fill that void inside her, later she was alone and in that hard time she became a depressed girl. Nana distance herself from Yuiri because it was too painful to be with a person who don´t love you, a few months later in hell something bad happen and both decided to try again because both of them are suffering, so Nana told me than her love for Yuiri became in another type of love, a sisterly one in which they protected each other. They have a relationship worth admiring, and that not many can start after what happened.
After that she said something to me that simply left me sleepless the past two days as those words are still fresh in my head.
- Life takes many turns and after a long time of being alone you appeared in my life, I have seen how you strive daily and god that smile you have kills me Miss Mako, I wish I could see her every day of my life-
Later I responded.
-And yours, Miss Nana, and not just that, but the warm sensation of your hand on mine makes my heart race a thousand times an hour, I don't know is an indescribable feeling.-
After that talk we came down from that mountain. It was something magical that we lived there. I would like to live again and again over all, that warm kiss of Nana on my cheek when saying goodbye was amazing.
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And well, diary, that was our first little date, I still can't believe that Nana corresponds to my feelings, and although for the moment we are still friends. I like being with her. Someone once said all things come in time. And I think in the same way I don't want to accelerate anything I just want to let everything flow.
I have also approached Yuiri, she is a very pretty girl, the three of us are getting closer and very good friends. And well, dairy, that's it. This time we will see what awaits you and me in destiny.
See you soon.
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JUST CHOOSE! - Chapter 6 | Yuiri's side: Protect my prince
*Yuiri’s POV*
It's been three weeks since the famous Naamako date, which is how everyone in the hallways is calling them. It's quite surprising how gossip flies so fast. The next day everyone at the university knew that they were out on a date. In reality it was not a surprise on the part of Naachan to be so popular, obviously someone would find out, the rest was just a snowball that was forming, by now everyone knows about it and even made a OTP's name for them.
I would be lying if I said that I was surprised that Naachan will take Mako chan to “that” place since it is quite sacred and there are just few people who know it but that means that she is opening more and finally she will be able to overcome the relationship fiasco that she had with Taniguchi Megu, which I think would be the longest and most torturous relationship if I may say since ... well, since our distance friendship broke up.
- Earth calling Yuiri - Shinozaki Ayana better known as Ayanan calls me trying to gain my attention.
-Uh !? - I say already returning to earth.
-I'm talking to you for a while, in case you didn't notice we are already on recess and I wanted to know if you wanted to go to the cafeteria - she tells me she keeps her things in a backpack.
-Of course, why not? -I replied, imitating her movements and later leaving the room. Without wanting to, my sight began to look for Naachan, although we had not agreed to meet here, I had hoped to see her even for a moment.
-If you are looking for your prince charming I will tell you that he is over there, but I must warn you that he is with his new princess- she says with a mischievous smile. You didn't have to be a genius to know who this "he" was referring to from the first day I met her. She has the obsession to tell me that Naachan is my "prince" but she knows that we are only friends.
-Do you think we should get closer to them or should we leave the new couple alone? -
In less than a second I could see that Naachan was looking towards ours and gave me that huge smile that she usually gives to me and made a hand signal for us to get closer.
-Apparently your prince invites us to his chambers - Ayanan says as she walks towards her direction.
-Girls, how strange it is to see you at this time in the cafeteria - says Naachan with enthusiasm.
-What happens is that our teacher from the next hour reported ill so we decided to come and eat something - Ayanan answers.
-Oh seriously! Good, rather not because of the teacher but because we could see each other - Nana says smiling - Isn't that right Mako? -
-Yes .. Yes of course - she says. As soon as I got close to them, Nana got up from her place to take the tray from my hands and put it next to her, indicating where my place belonged and then Ayanan sat next to Makochan who was sitting in front of Nana.
Everything was going quite normal or at least that's what I thought since I kept feeling that someone is looking in our direction. We were laughing about a tale from Ayanan when an unpleasant voice made an appearance.
-Well, so everything was true, finally the ikemen of this university Okada Nana has a girlfriend and is nothing more than her childhood friend and best friend Murayama Yuiri - Taniguchi Megu spat with poison stopping at our table and speaking in a tone a little higher than normal what made many viewer turn to us - And you will still dare to deny me the times we fight because I claimed that you were still in love with her, please Nana if you have to see the look of love you have and the silly smile you're giving her right now -
-You are wrong - I said I did not want a misunderstanding.
-Get away Megu, better get involved in your affairs - Nana says courageously.
-Well, that's true, you are no longer my business but it only makes me laugh to see that in the end I always knew, you could never forget her - Megu says with a certain touch of melancholy.
-That's a thing of the past - says Nana still calm - and just to be clear Yuiri is not my girlfriend -
-That is not the rumor that runs throughout the university- says Megu.
-It is true that I’m dating someone but it is not her, her name is Kojima Mako - she says very sure of her words while I am frozen by the news.
-So, and does your dear Kojima knows that you are here hugging Yuiri and giving her those loving looks? - she says injecting more venom while directing her gaze to effectively Naachan's arm that wraps my shoulders - You know, forget it, do not answer me, it is something that should not interest me if you are cheating on your new girlfriend or not. But someone should warn her about you, and tell her that you will have only one great love and it is that one that you have at your side, that's why nobody can take a place in your heart. Also tell her that I feel very sorry because you will make your new girlfriend believe that she is unique, that you have never felt something like this for anyone else, that she is special both inside and out but you and I know that you have been cheating her since the beginning. What you have with Yuiri simply goes beyond what any of us can understand and you really love her and nobody could win your feelings for her. She always will be you priority number one-
After she said this, she shot me a hateful look and then calmly left while I looked worriedly at both Naachan and Mako who had been looking down and sad for a long time.
-Mako please do not listen to her comments, between Naachan and me there is nothing more than just friendship and sisterly love, please she is just a jealous ex-girlfriend spitting poison - I said in all sincerity while Makochan looks up to see me in the eyes
-It's true Mako, don't listen to her. I had already told you that one of the things I hated most about her was those attacks of jealousy without foundation -
Saying this Mako let out a sigh and smiled which meant she did believe us. I still can't believe that after all Megu did, she still wants to hurt Naachan because no matter what she says, I will do everything to protect my prince.
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JUST CHOOSE! - Chapter 7 | Mako’s diary: First fight, first friend
*Mako’s diary*
Hello dear diary,
Well this summer has been crazy, like everything lately. You may wonder what happened from that date in the park. Well a lot has happened, hmm how to start ...
Well everything continued normal after that date with her, we were still “friends” but more like friends, until now Nana never ask me to be her girlfriend...yet. And well as Nana is very popular the next day there were already rumors that she and I were girlfriends, I would lie to you that I did not like hearing those kinds of rumors but the the truth is that after what that girl named Taniguchi Megu said that time, she left me with many doubts about what Nana really feels for me.
Let's be honest if someone tells you that your ‘'almost-girlfriend' 'is still in love with her impossible love, how would you feel? I simply decided to stay away from Nana and Yuiri for a while, I was just clueless and did not know what to do, and although Nana assured me a thousand and one times that she felt nothing but sisterly love for Yuiri, I still have my doubts.
Several weeks have passed since I moved away from the two of them and I began to make new friends to try to forget about it, and now among the most trustworthy and close friends I met a new friend, her name is Takahashi Juri, I met her the same day that happened that cafeteria's incident I called it a fate. Next days I used to hang out with Juri and this gave me an excuse to be away from them because everytime that I see them I just want to cry.
How I met this Takahashi girl? well, I know I am not a very strong person and I break easily. Being on the roof I couldn't take it anymore and I broke down crying and a voice in the distance asked me if I was okay, I just couldn't answer. She came up to me and offered me a handkerchief and said that if I wanted to talk about what was going on she would listen to everything I had to say. At first I had my doubts since I did not know her, but my desire to let off steam earned her my fear of expressing myself with someone else.
Juri san just sat next to me and without outlining a single word she just listened to me, and let me vent at her side. In that instant I apologized since I didn't even know her name and I was overwhelming her with my story. She simply answered me with her name and saying don't worry, nothing happens, since that day for some reason she knew what it felt like to be in my shoes and we got closer and closer.
And what happened to Nana and Yuiri? the two of them just tried to talk to me over and over again, until one day when Juri couldn't have lunch with me, Yuiri appeared out of nowhere. I was cornered in a dead end so I had no choice but to talk to her.
She told me how Nana was suffering, no longer ate and no wanted to see anyone other than me, and what worried me the most she told me that Nana had passed out and was in the infirmary. That touched a very sensitive fiber in me, I wanted to see her immediately but before I had to do something to get all those doubts out of my head.
I asked Yuiri - Do you really feel nothing for Nana but a sisterly love? -
-I swear Mako chan, she is like my sister and I quite like seeing her happy with you, besides you think that if she really liked me, would she be there? -.
And that was the answer that clarified everything within me, I asked her to please take me with Nana since I was really worried, so we left for the infirmary.
When I got there Yuirin told me that she would wait outside, when I entered I saw my ikemen lying on a stretcher like a sleeping beauty, as I approached her, that voice that I missed listening to sweetened my ears once again.
-Well, I must be dreaming because the most beautiful girl of all has come to my rescue.-
-Nana don't talk nonsense, why did you do this? -
-Sorry for worrying you-
- Do not apologize ... the one who has to apologize is me for the fact of walking away without saying anything and above all for doubting your words and feelings in truth ... I am very sorry -
-The important thing is that my beautiful princess is here with me-
- Shut up sweet talker, you make me blush, I wanted to propose something to you-
- Whatever my princess wants-
-I want to compensate you for everything, let's go to the "Mita matsuri" and see the fireworks together, I'll buy the tickets, ok? - Her gaze changed in an instant and I saw that beautiful smile that I missed so much to see. Nana answered yes while holding my hands.
- Well now you have to eat something, Yuiri told me that you haven't eaten in days right? Look today I brought an extra obento do you want? I cooked it. Two seconds later Nana snatched that object from my hands to eat all the contents inside it.
- Wow it was delicious, by the way, who told you that I was here?-
- Well then…- I said and opened the door then Yuiri and Juri fell to the floor.
- Look to this intruders right now-
- We are sorry- both said and then got up from the floor-
- wow it seems that you finally ate Naachan-
-Yes and it was delicious because mako cuisine is super delicious-
-Eeeee !!!! Mako that was the obento that I asked you to prepare for me now What I’m going to eat-
- Sorry Juri, I know I promised you that I would cook for you today but don't worry, I will invite you to eat after school, okay? -
-ok, ok, - Juri said
-Mako and who is her? -
-Oh it's true I'm sorry Nana, she is Takahashi Juri she has become one of my best friends -
-Oh, I'm glad I finally met in person the famous Takahashi Juri san, well what do you think since we were talking about food, how about leaving school and go to eat Yakiniku all 4 together? It helps that I know a little bit more about Juri-san.
- Naachan - Yuiri said scoldingly.
- I am sorry, it is that I really need to know who is my princess's friend ...the plan is made, we will go to eat together-
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I feel tired diary, maybe tomorrow I can write more about our meeting.
See you soon.
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JUST CHOOSE! - Chapter 8 | Yuiri's side: Peace, tranquility and joy
*Yuiri’s POV*
At the direction of the nurse, Nana had to stay in the infirmary while Makochan, Takahashi san and I went to our respective rooms.
-Is everything ok?- Ayanan asks me as I sit in my place in the living room.
-Yes, everything is much better now - I let out a sigh - Finally things take their course again -
-I understand, hey when this class finished do you want to go for an ice cream? - Ayanan tells me with a smile.
-Sorry, I've made plans - I say it with an apologetic look.
-Don't tell me, I'm gonna guess that it's surely with your prince - she says with a smile
- AND WITH HER ALMOST-GIRLFRIEND - I urge you to stop making those meaningless comments.
- Okay, okay - she says to me as we remain silent as the class is about to start.
* Already in the restaurant *
- Good afternoon when ... oh! Nanachan and Yuiri chan, how are you? - Asks a friendly man who was at the bar attending.
-Very well Mr. Ishida - Naachan and I answer at the same time.
-From what I see now, you come with company - he says with a huge smile.
-Yes, they are friends from our university -
-Kojima Mako, nice to meet you sir -
- Takahashi Juri, a pleasure sir -
-Well manner girls, take a sit and somebody gonna take your order -
And so we proceeded to sit at a table that only has two large armchairs opposite each other, so Nana was the first to arrive at this while she looked at me expecting me to sit down first for later she takes place next to me, about this action I just look at her with a surprise expression because she is an airhead in this moment. I made a stare and told her that she needed to sit beside mako and not me. I saw her freeze so I just sigh and without saying anything I sat on the other side and Takahashi san sat next to me, while Mako sat on the same side as Nana.
-Welcome to the restaurant, what do you want ... - said the waiter but immediately shut up while turning all red - ... to order? -
- Don't you think it would be better if you bring us a menu? - Takahashi says with a big mocking smile.
-Ah ... yes, of course - saying this, he runs from our side to the big bar.
- How strange is that guy! - Nana says bored.
- I find it quite nice - I tell her, since seeing him blushed seemed a little cute.
- What did you say!? - Nana says with a raised eyebrow.
- Excuse me, here is the menu, feel free to talk to me whenever you want. By the way my name is Takeshi and I will be your waiter - having said this, he gave me a brief look for a tender moment but perhaps I am imagining.
A short time later we ordered the food and were waiting for the food to be brought to us.
-Hello girls, everything is fine. Are you missing something? - Mr. Ishida said.
-Everything is ok, Just could you tell that idiot to stop looking so much towards here? He is looking so much in this direction - Nana says a little annoyed, we just look at each other.
-An apology Nanachan, This boy Takeshi is so excited that he finally meets the girl of his dreams - says the man with a smile - He has been anxious since I told him that she is a regular client here -
- You mean ... - Nana asks now, frowning.
-Who else, you know how popular Yuiri chan is with boys - says the kind gentleman to whom I couldn't help but blush - I always saw him looking outside searching for someone after a few days I discovered that he is searching for our cute Yuiri chan so I told him that she is a regular here and the next time that she came I'm gonna introduce him to her so since that day he has been waiting patiently to meet you so ... Hey Takeshi come! -
- Yes, sir?- says the young man without turning to see us.
- Well now I can introduce you to Murayama Yuiri, that was you were waiting for weeks right? - He says as I look up at Takeshi kun while giving him a smile that makes him turn redder.
-Ah, hello .. Mura .. yama san! - He says with an embarrassed expression on his face.
-Nice to meet you, Takeshi kun- I say gently.
- Are you not going to go for our food? - Nana says quite annoyed.
-Are you okay Nana? - Mako asks, a little puzzled by her attitude.
- Wow... apparently you are super popular with boys Murayama san - says Juri taking advantage of the fact that Mr. Ishida and Takeshi were gone - First that handsome boy in the university and now this -
-WHAT BOY !? - Nana says again.
- Ah, the captain of the soccer team! Do you remember that he had invited me out?, well he tried his luck again - I said.
-How stubborn that guy is, if you already told him no, he shouldn't insist - Nana says, sitting down again - I think I should talk to him -
-You are not going to do anything, we agreed that you were going to control your jealousy and you were going to let me solve my affairs - as soon as I said this I had to reformulate my sentence- Don't misunderstand this Mako, here Nana behaves like a jealous brother who only wants the best for me but she has already scared me all boys around me who tried to date me. So probably I'm gonna die alone.-
-No one has proven to be valuable enough to be worth it and date you -
-That's something Yuiri should decide - says Takahashi san with mockery.
-Mmm ... - Naachan can only say.
- Do not worry, if someday I fall in love with someone you will be the first to know - I say with a smile to which Nana only gives me a melancholy look.
Without saying more, we continued talking about everything and nothing, we were having a really good time. I wish I could freeze time and be able to stay like this where everything is peace, tranquility and joy.
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JUST CHOOSE! - Chapter 9 | Mako’s diary: Finally together
Hello dear diary,
This time everything has turned 180 degrees in my life again, why? you may wonder.
Well I will just tell you that jealousy is something that has always hurt me. After that meal at the restaurant and watching Nana die of jealousy every time Takeshi san spoke to or looked at Yuiri I knew that this jealousy was not as Yuiri described it, it was more than just brotherly jealousy. After we left the restaurant together, making our way home. The first to leave was Juri, then Yuiri, I kept saying no word until that voice that previously sweetened my ears was now the opposite.
-What's wrong mako? Everything is alright?- she said wanting to take my hand but I just pulled it away quickly.
-No, Okada san, nothing is fine, you swore that you had no feelings for Yuiri but now I have confirmed the opposite-
- What are you talking about Mako? -
-That jealousy is not of an "Big Sister or brother", that jealousy is what someone feels, when a person feels something for someone else, and before you say anything, if Okada I know how differentiates them, it's okay to be silly but I know what I just saw -
- Mako please wait - she said trying to grab my arm but I just shook her grip with a quick movement and walked away.
Upon arriving at my house I simply threw myself on my bed remembering that scene over and over again but not before shedding tears for her once again.
What saddened me even more is that I was really excited to see the fireworks with her, I had even already bought tickets to go with her near the school.
The next day at school I decided to give those tickets to Yuiri. When I did it she told me over and over that what she said that time was true, but let's be honest I didn't believe anything anymore, so I gave them to her and left it. Everything continued practically normal in those subsequent days, we returned to being Juri and I alone on the roof at lunchtime.
We talked about everything except Nana and her love for Yuiri. I even decided to go to the matsuri with Juri, I needed to go out and get a little distracted. And well, on the day I saw the girls dressed in their yukatas, many with their boyfriends, out the window of my house. I did not lie, I was quite nostalgic to see those scenes.
But even so I decided to go out, so I quickly fixed my hair, put on my yukata and prepared to go out. I arrived at the agreed place but there was nobody and I thought for sure she was late as usual, so I just sigh.
About 15 minutes passed and she did not arrive, I tried to dial her phone but at that moment a familiar voice seemed muffled that voice that just hearing it speeds my heart.
-Mako-chan? What are you doing here?- told me Naachan.
- The same I must ask, I need to leave -
-No, wait please, I don't know what is happening. I'm supposed to meet Yuiri here.-
- Oh, sorry for being here. I need to go now -
- No Mako, I didn't mean to...- she replied followed by a hug.
Diary, that hug inexplicable move every fiber in my body and i could felt Nana's heart, it was as if a magnet would stick to a metal plate, for some reason the tears and scars on my heart were erased, that hug was even more effective than any medicine was like a cure that works wonders.
- Mako really, I'm sorry it was those stupid jealousies that took me away from you. really forgive me I can no longer be without you, I know I'm a fool and a sloppy and all the other bad adjectives you want to put on me. But this person full of defects in front of you LOVE YOU and I can't live without you, please forgive me-
If I am sincere, I was stunned. Feeling her breath so close to me seeing her tears flow, I don't know it made me feel like the dumbest and most detestable person in the world.
- Nana, did you say you love me?-
- That's right Kojima Mako, I Okada Nana love you with each cell of my body only you and nobody else.-
- Okada Nana there have been many rumors that you are dating me and that we are girlfriends, is it true?
-Yeah, it's true. Why?- I said to later give her our first kiss, that kiss that transported me to a parallel universe in which only she and I exist. That kiss that felt like a dream, we separated only by the lack of air.
-I no longer want them to be rumors Naachan I want you to be my girlfriend and that you only look at me, that you pride me and that you love me and give me the best of yourself, obviously I will do the same for you but tell me? Do you accept me? -
Nana simply lunged for me again giving me a huge hug followed by a kiss even deeper than the last.
-If that's not a yes then I don't know what it was, and Naachan.-
-Yes? Mako chan-
-I have also loved you for a long time and I want us to be this way for the rest of our days-
-Of course, my beloved Mako chan, nothing and no one would separate us and here before the gods that come down from heaven to celebrate with us in this matsuri, I promise that you will be mine and I will be yours until the end of our days.-
- I promise the same, Naachan- I said for this time while I kiss her again.
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Dairy, I would lie to you if I did not tell you that I love the sensation of her lips. I know you can't see it but right now I'm wearing a ring in my hand which Nachan won in one of the matsuri games, this symbolizes our union.
And finally this time I will say now it doesn't matter what or who gets in our way I will always fight for her. I know that as Naachan said I am hers and she is mine until the end of our days.
See you soon.
TO BE CONTINUED >>
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What do you think? Our golden ship is official!
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OTHER EPISODE! EVERYTHING IS CHANGING
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JUST CHOOSE! - Chapter 10 | Yuiri's side: Forgive me Nana
*Yuiri POV*
-Here is your soda- when I heard that word, I looked up and I could see Takahashi Juri extending me a drink that she had gone looking for - I hope you like this flavor since you didn't tell me what it was you wanted -
-Ah, sorry, thanks! - I said, as I took the can and drank some of it, it was quite a refreshing drink.
- They look pretty good, I mean Naachan and Mako, right? - she also looked towards the direction where my eyes were fixed.
-Yes, it was only a matter of time for this to happen - I said with a modest smile.
-Hey, why are you crying Murayama san? - Takahashi suddenly tells me as I raise my hand to effectively wipe away a tear that slid down my cheek.
-I know it’s sounds dumb but it’s the happiness of seeing my friend who will finally be able to be happy with someone who loves her and vice versa - I said without wanting to add anything else.
-You know, I was very surprised to receive your call days ago - Takahashi begins to tell me as we decided to move away from where the couple was contemplating the fireworks - I never imagined that you wanted to plan their meeting to fix their misunderstandings -
-And why not? - question.
-I don't know, judge me crazy but I would swear that there is something between you two- I was just about to answer that when she raised her hand to indicate that it was not over yet - but in the end I realize the love you have for her, that's why you help them find their happiness with whatever is at your hand -
-I don't love Nana - I told her to correct her mistake.
-Murayama san do not misunderstand me you can feel love towards a person in different ways and not only for someone you want to be your life partner - she says seriously - Every time we see Naachan and you together we can feel that connection at distances, trust and desire to do everything for the happiness for each other, so I was not surprised that Makochan had those thoughts-
-But I have already explained that I have nothing with Nana more than deep friendship and could never have it - I explained a little tired of having to repeat the same story.
-You could have it if you wanted but as you have expressed it simply it is something you do not want -
As we continued walking I was thinking about her words but I just couldn't find what to say about it, I was honestly tired of having to justify my actions and Nana's actions with everyone. Now that she has found her true love I hope that everything goes for the best.
-You know, when I received your call with the whole plan I was quite curious since in the end I could not enjoy the festival with Makochan but I know that she cannot be in better hands right now - she tells me while I just nod with my head.
-I know they were planning days in advance and I'm glad you accepted the idea - I say sorry for ruining her plans to spend time with her friend but I knew it was the perfect opportunity for Nana and her being able to fix things, it really wasn't nothing difficult to convince Naachan to fight a little more for Makochan, we can seen (Juri and I) in both still exist love.
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*Next day*
To say that the news now confirmed by both had spread like wildfire would be to judge gossip in a superfluous way, because the following Monday for 9am. Everyone knew that Naamako is official, that’s mean Okada Nana has a new girlfriend called Kojima Mako unfortunately before this news there was collateral damage that we never premeditated since with the announcement of the new couple there was also the story of the deceived girlfriend aka myself.
There is a rumor that Kojima Mako got into our relationship, that everyone saw it as the most beautiful, long and lasting relationship on the entire campus. Obviously this was an exaggeration but when stepping on the campus of the university I could see pity glances at me for a few people since I was someone very respected and loved on campus, although I was not very popular I had a very good status there.
As I advanced to my classroom I felt all the eyes of those present and as soon as I put one foot everyone fell silent and stared at me but I didn't say anything. I just went to sit in my place.
-Good morning Yuiri - says a cheerful Ayanan as she sits next to me.
- Good morning, would you mind telling me what's up? - I commented to Ayanan in a low voice.
-You remember what I told you about the rumor that Makochan had gotten into your relationship, well it seems that everyone bought this information - she also tells me quietly - So now everyone believes that you are sad and desolate because of your cheating girlfriend-
-But .. But .. agh - I couldn't say anything because the teacher came to the classroom but still felt helpless because I couldn't keep quiet about those gossip so it would be best to ignore it.
The class was over and I told Ayanan that if we went to the roof of the building I didn't feel like meeting the condescending gazes of the people in the cafeteria.
-You know you won't be able to run away forever - Ayanan tells me.
-I know, but at least until this rumor passes or better yet that there is another new one I need to hide a little. I don't want people to look at me in that way. I'm not broken-hearted. Please kamisama I need a rumor of another person and they pay attention to this one - I said sighing and praying that tomorrow there is another news that will remove attention from me.
-I'm not talking about it - she says very seriously.
-So? - I tell her while I see her intriguing.
-When are you going to tell Nana that for a while and until today you are hopelessly in love with her? -
My mind was blocked for a moment and I couldn't avoid my surprised face when I saw Ayanan challenging me to insinuate in front of her that what she said was a lie, when she has been the main witness of everything that happened when ... I couldn't ... I didn't want to ... I'm afraid of losing her. Forgive me Nana.
TO BE CONTINUED >>
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What do you think? FINALLY YUIRI TOLD US THE TRUE!!!!
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JUST CHOOSE! - Chapter 11 | Mako's diary: Believe in her
Hello again dear diary,
I have come to vent this time again on your pages. Well ... these last few months have gone from happiness to sadness, why? .. Well.
After the festival where Naachan and I formally became a couple everything was going great at first it was awkward to see everyone's gaze, since many were surprised and others hated me, after all Naachan was one of the most desired person in college by men and women, and I, Kojima Mako take away their perfect ikemen.
Happiness flooded me, although as always not everything can be so perfect, for some reason Yuiri began to distance herself from us, there were times that it was just Juri, Naachan and me.
I was really worried about her so I decided to investigate what was happening. I tried to ask her directly what’s going on but she just smiled at me. I really didn't know so I just left her alone. Maybe she needed some time alone.
It was weeks after I came up with the idea to ask her best friend Ayana the reason why Yuiri was behaving in that way so I finished eating quickly, I said goodbye to Naachan and Juri and started searching for Ayana, searching the entire campus and I did not find her, it was until I went up to the roof of the school that I finally dazzled her figure, I told her that I was looking for her throughout the school, to which she was surprised, I told her that I needed to ask her a very important question, staggering from how tired I was of running around the campus. I approached her and took her by the shoulder.
- Please tell me what happens to Yuiri. I am worried about her, perhaps people are harassing her, or she has family problems ... please tell me what is wrong. Las days her behaviour is just to weird that worried us-
The answer she gave me made my blood run cold.
-You really have not realized by yourself Kojima san. Are you are really very blind?, Or did you pretend to be?. I will be direct with you, she finally realized the love she has for her best friend Naachan -
Diary. I can’t lie. I was in shock for a minute. Yuiri was in love with Naachan, Really? I couldn't believe it. Sounds so impossible after all what happened between us. Days after learning that news, I began to notice a strange behavior in Naachan, no longer looking for me in the hours off or at lunch. I started to worry about her, so I decided to spy on her. I know it was wrong, and believe me daily I still regret what I just did.
After a while of following her, my surprise was huge when I saw that she met Yuiri behind the school building. I really wanted to go immediately after her but my feet did not respond.
I could perfectly hear the conversation they had. Naachan asked Yuiri why she was avoiding us, maybe someone was bothering her, maybe she didn't like us anymore.
-Don't you love me anymore?- Yuiri simply shrugged and Naachan, frustrated at not getting any answer, put her hand on the huge pillar that Yuiri leaned on, making the distance between them almost 0.
- Get away from me -
Naachan kept insisting over and over and over again until distance between them became almost nil, seconds passed without response so that later Yuiri did something that destroyed my heart -
She placed her lips on Naachan's, she tried to separate immediately but Yuiri put her arms around her. Seconds later they parted, a silence invaded the place, until Naachan said.
-What does this mean Yuiri, I’m with Mako and you know it, she is your friend and my girlfriend, you know that you are betraying her-
-I did it because I like you, not that’s not... I love you Okada Nana, I love you deeply and I was stupid for not accepting my feeling for you long time ago - Naachan was left speechless after all those were the words she always wanted to hear from Yuiri's mouth.
When I heard those words, I couldn't believe it, I wanted to run away from there and cry. But taking a step back, I remembered the promise I made to Naachan, no matter what or who this time I would fight for her love. So I plucked up my courage and took a step toward the two of them.
-Is what Yuiri just said true?-
-Makochan- Naachan said as she was impressed by my presence.
- Tell me Yuiri, why do you do this now? Why did you wait so long? - I said full of rage, I felt betrayed as if my heart was a little ball with which she could play as she pleased.
Yuiri's response was nil, she just shrugged and looked away. - You will not say anything Murayama, those feelings of yours are hypocritical and selfish, I asked you a thousand times, and you denied it every time, you even swore to me that Naachan was like your sister, and now this, you know how many times I cry thanks to you? I think that's why you don't care and you said it but I'm tired of running away and crying, apart from all this I promise Naachan that it doesn't matter what or who we would do everything to be together, and here I am doing what that I never thought to do in my life and much less do it with you, I will only tell you something Murayama if you want Naachan you will have to first pass over me-I said to take Nachan by the hand and leave that place.
When we finally left the place Naachan spoke to me, she told me that she did not know that side of me. Following that I asked a question that would determine the direction of everything between Naachan and me.
- Naachan, tell me something. Did you feel something the moment she kissed you? Please be as honest as possible -
- I would be lying to you if I told you that I don’t feel anything with her confession. After all, she has an important place in my heart. But nothing compares what I feel when kissing your lips, my Mako - she said, and then took me by the waist, approached me to her and placed a long and warm kiss on my lips - She answered me
This is dairy as well as the autumn leaves that fall from the trees. Our friendship disappeared in the blink of an eye. Did I do wrong? Did I do well? I do not know…
I only know that the love I have for Naachan is enormous and it doesn't matter who I will fight for her.
See you soon.
TO BE CONTINUED >>
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THEYYYY KISSED!!!!
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JUST CHOOSE! - Chapter 12 | Yuiri's side: Wait for a miracle
*Yuiri POV*
-Am I late? - A sweet voice says to me.
-Not at all, I just arrived -
-Well, Are you going to talk about why I received an invitation to this place?- She says, with a bit of satiety in her voice.
-I want to talk about what happened.-
-For me everything is quite clear Murayama san, you are in love with your best friend but she doesn't want anything with you, or am I wrong? - she tells me now with a malicious smile that shows her dimples that belong to my new executioner whose name is Kojima Mako.
-Well, about the first part of being in love with my best friend, you are correct, but about the fact that she doesn't want me as a girlfriend ... - I looked at her eyes defiantly and with a sly smile finished my sentence - ... I wouldn't be so sure -
- Don't dare to...- she says as tries to get up.
-Stop, I guess you want to know why I insisted so much on seeing you right? - That being said, she just looks at me suspiciously as takes her seat again.
- You better be quick - she tells me with annoyance.
- Believe me I will be as brief as possible - then I take a breath - ... I'm sorry ...-
I exclaimed in a voice full of regret and pain.
-Do you think that will be enough? You don't know the damage you've caused. Now you apologize for saying that you love Nana. What are you playing with?- she still says suspiciously.
- I do not apologize for saying that I love her, this love will never be a reason to regret it. My apology is for not being completely honest with you for saying that I only saw her as a friend or sister - I replied being as honest as possible.
-Well, is that all? - She continues to attack me although I honestly don't blame her, it's understandable.
-Please listen, It’s true that I lied about the part about telling you that I only saw her as a friend but it was because I really believed that this feeling was already forgotten. I don't know how far you know our history but in the past Nana declared her love to me, at that time I did not have romantic feelings or at least I did not feel it in the same way, so I rejected her. After that, a person entered Nana's life, at first she made her very happy but later everything turned into a toxic relationship, You already know her, her name is Taniguchi Megu - I tell her and she only opened her eyes - She induced Nana to do bad things which I cannot say because it's too private, in summary a very destructive relationship that left her heart broken, at that moment I realized that I loved her, because I was worried about her a lot, I start to feel the needed to protect her and be her shield from everything and everybody. I just want her to be mine in not friendship manner but something else -
-And if you discovered your love for her why not say it, maybe your love would be what her heart needs to heal - Mako said with bewilderment.
-For coward, indecisive, for not wanting to increase the pressure in her life. Tell me What would happen if she didn't feel anything romantic for me at those moments. I just realized that in that moment she did not need a new lover, what she needed was a friend to accompany her in this bitter times and not someone who came to put more doubts to her head so I decided to keep quiet and over time I made myself believe that this feeling was just a feeling of despair to see my beloved friend suffer what had made me see her as something else. Then everything returned to normal until you arrived - I say in a sigh as I remember all the past events that have tormented me - Do not misunderstand me, it is not that you arrived and suddenly my love was reborn, I really do not lie when I say that you are someone special for her and also that I was glad than you were a couple ...-
-Then why harm us? Why kiss her when you knew she was happy with me. If you say you love her so much, we are not supposed to be happy If our beloved is happy doesn't matter with whom. Why come to make this mess when we were already happy - she says with a trace of reproach in her voice.
-I realized that I must also see for my happiness, because I want to be next to Nana as you are now and above all because she deserves to know the truth, she deserves to know that ... I love her and that I want to make her happy, not as a friend less as a sister but as a woman who wants her in her life to make her the most happy woman on earth - I said now looking into her eyes.
-And what if you're wasting your time, if she decides that she no longer sees you as more than a friend, are you willing to risk everything for this? -
-Yes, I know that if she rejects me, nothing will ever be the same again, but I am willing to take risks, I don't want to be a spectator in her life anymore, I want to participate and make her happy with everything I have. If she asks me to get away, I will do it, but if in spite of everything she still wants me by her side, I will be there - Mako cannot hide her surprise at my answer, she cannot believe that someone has so much devotion to a person and is willing to risk everything.
-You know that she rejected you, she doesn't accept your kiss - Mako tells me curiously.
-Yeah, she walk away but it was because she was stunning about what happen, I plan to talk to her and explain everything -
-I thought it's crazy what you plan to do, Nana and I, we are together, get away for our lives - she tells me but I can still notice a touch of fear in her voice - But guess what, do whatever you want in In the end Nana will have to choose who she really loves-
She moves away from the table where we were, I follow her silhouette until she leaves the place. I honestly don't know what I'm doing but I want to fight for her love, I want to be loved by Okada Nana and if I have a chance even if it's small I want to take it.
-You better come over here and sit next to me- I say in a tired voice.
-How did you know it was me?-
-I distinguish your perfume and also your cell phone ringtone a while ago. I only know one person who has that silly song as a ringtone - I say with a smile.
-It's not silly .. And I wasn't spying- Nana says as she takes a seat where Mako was sitting a few minutes ago - Mako told me that she didn't want any more lies between us so she asked me to listen your conversation -
-I knew you were there, and it seems perfect to stop lying and then you know what you have to do? - I say without haste to make it clear that we are serious.
This has been one of the most difficult decisions in life, putting aside what is right and looking for my happiness. If in the end my heart ends up broken it will be because I fight for it and not because I will stay and wait for a miracle.
TO BE CONTINUED >>
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Yuiri makes her move
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JUST CHOOSE! - Chapter 13 | Mako's diary: Diary, dedication & love letter
Hello dear diary,
This will be the last time I will write on your pages, because from now on you will belong to that person who is the most important person in my life. Thank you for allowing me to vent and tell you the best time of my life. My dear diary, this is a goodbye.
Juri insisted on me many times so I decided to go to meet Murayama-san. I said many things that I regret that day. Jealousy and anger sometimes take over your words, so I decided to see Murayama-san one more time. After insisting more than a million times she accepted, we went to a private place, where I could apologize for my words, and finally tell her what I really felt.
-Murayama san, I really want to apologize for everything, I was seized by jealousy so I have decided to give Naachan some time since our last meeting. She has been sad and confused at what we have, so we will leave it in her hands, while so much I do not want remorse and problems with you. You are an incredible person, also I was equally selfish in thinking of eliminating you from Naachan's life. You are her best friend and a fundamental part in her life after all, I was a fool and ... Yuiri, I am really sorry and no matter who she decides to be with, I will support her and I will always be there for her - I said extending my hand towards her, she without thinking took it.
-Don't worry, Mako, we can't be great friends but even so I can't erase you from her world too, so we're both fine, we said things, yes, we threatened, yes, but we were both fools to get involved in our lawsuit and we put aside for a moment the most important thing for us, Naachan-
-Christmas is approaching and it will be the day she decides but even so I will continue fighting for her until that day I will not lose to you Yuiri -
-I feel the same way, Mako-chan -
And that was the last chapter that I will be able to write in this diary. The rest will be decided by fate. Now it's a goodbye dear friend and again thanks for everything.
Dedication
Naachan I give you this diary along with a letter which contains everything I need to tell you even for once in this life. I hope that when reading this paper you understand many of the things that I lived by your side. I will always love you, because you are mine and I am yours until the end of my days ¿right?.
= Mako's letter to Nachan =
Hi Naachan,
I know you've been confused these days and that's why we drifted apart a bit. I hope that this letter will clarify a little those feelings that for now seem more tangled than a skein of yarn.
To be honest when I met you that time in the library, I never thought of falling in love with you or anybody, since I suffered enough in my past relationship, they broke my heart more than once, after that I spent the last eight months before meeting you, thinking of everything that happens in love, it breaks, burns and ends, but when you came into my life, that love that I thought was dead, I saw it reborn once more.
Every change in my life the second that I saw myself reflected in your gaze, I touched your hand and I saw that beautiful smile which brightened my days no matter how bad it was. I knew that for the first time in life I had fallen in love with a woman and found true love. From that day on I changed to my happiness and gave it the name of Okada Nana.
Then came our first kiss which transported me to another galaxy where it was just you and me, at that moment I didn't want anything I felt complete, happy, full.
And now I know that even though I will give up touching you forever, I know that somehow you would still feel me. You are the closest thing to heaven I've ever had, and I don't want to let you go. Because all I can savor are all the moments I spent with you, and all I breathed was your life and it may all be over soon, I just know I never want to miss you.
I never showed myself what it really was like to anyone, because I don't think they understand me like you did. I really want you to know who I am. I want you to know that thanks to you I am what I am today, before I was simply a university student who was shy and had no friends. If that's not a miracle then what is? You created this new Kojima Mako. You consummated me with the sweet touch of your hands.
Naachan, in this world I have no other concern than losing you because I know that I will always be yours, since between both of us we consume this love that will be eternal. I will always love you and it does not matter that I will always be by your side in the sun than warming your body every morning, in the air you breathe, remembering my perfume and in the petals of the sakura flowers that you touch you will remember the feeling of my skin on yours.
Once again I will remind you of this. I will always love you. I will be waiting for you on Christmas day under the giant tree in Shibuya no matter how long I spend there. I will be waiting for you, my beloved Okada Nana. I hope this letter is not a goodbye.
ATTE.
Kojima Mako
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Do you miss me? I'm back...
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JUST CHOOSE! - Chapter 14 | Yuiri's side: Love will have triumphed
*Yuiri POV*
- And are you going to meet her? - I asked seriously.
- I don't know - she tells me anguish.
We are both sitting in that park in the middle of the night swinging on the swings. And you will wonder who I am with, the answer is quite simple with my torment and the cause of my happiness for a long time, Okada Nana. How we got here, let me explain.
/ * Flashback * /
-What are you doing with that? - Nana says surprised as she looks in horror as I have Mako's diary in my hands along with the letter.
-You asked me to read this, but what I don't understand is why? - I was curious, since I didn't know what to do with this information.
-EH?!, when I asked you to do that? -
-Yesterday, your message came to me saying that you wanted me to read something important, and told me to come into your room and look for this notebook - I say surprised and show the message and Nana is surprised to see that it actually came from her line account but when comparing her tray of messages we verified that it did not have it, it was as if someone had deleted it.
-It could be .. I don't believe... - she says thoughtfully - Could it be that Mako did it? -
-How can she do that? - I answer curious
-She knows my LINE account and password - she says still surprised. In the end it was true about not wanting to hide anything from Nana.
/ * Flashback ends * /
Without saying anything I get up from the swing and stand in front of her taking both chains so that she stops rocking.
-You know you can't run away forever, the time will come when you give us an answer - I say looking seriously - We need an answer -
-I know, if you had asked me before ... My statement would undoubtedly say that I love Mako but now - she says, biting her lower lip. That said, I make her stop until she is face to face with me - Don't think about it, you must feel it. Do what your heart tells you -
-My heart is confused Yuiri, on one hand there is her, my hope to leave my past behind, to forget my first love, the obsession with Megu, it presents me with a panorama of calm, in addition you read it, she needs me, thanks to me is what it is, now she trusts in someone, she doesn't had someone else than me. I would not forgive me if something happens to her because I left her. That woman loves me above all things including herself because she can finally be her true self. I could not just abandon her, I could not bear the guilt that something would happen to her if she were alone again because she is someone special - she tells me with anguish in her voice.
-And no one tells you to abandon her, but really this love you feel is love for a person with whom you want to spend every day of your life or is the commitment to be the only thing that she has, because you would not like to be the cause of something tragic happen with her, right? - I say calmly - I understand your concern, Makochan is a lonely person and needs friends. This new Mako that you helped to discover will be able to make friends without your help but not at your expense, so you should think about yourself for a moment, you want to be with her because you feel compelled to do so since she only has you or because you really love her -
-I just.. -
-Get up, close your eyes, let yourself be carried by my voice - I said this, and she close her eyes instantly - Dispel all those ideas that torment you and take a deep breath -
That said, I took her hands placing them on my waist, then put my hands on her neck. I had always wanted to be like this. Following this I placed my head on her chest to listen to her heartbeat that was quite agitated.
-Just breathe, let yourself go - having said this I could feel that her heart began to beat slower to the point of being in sync with mine - You don't know how long I dreamed of this moment but I was always afraid to cross that line and when I was determined Mako came and I stepped aside but now I want to be a selfish person, I want to show you with facts that I can also make you happy. That is not because I need you by my side to be someone different, but I want you by my side to make you happy. We have gone through so many things together that I cannot imagine my life without your presence but now I am not satisfied with that. I want to take your hand and walk together through this adventure that is called life. I want to marry you, I want us to have a home, children, whatever we want. I want to show you that this world is much better than what you have lived, I want to live to make you happy and vice versa because while I am with you, you can also smile at life. All this I want to do but only you have the power to make it happen -
-Yuiri I .. - With my index finger I placed it on her lips so she would not speak -Don't answer me now, just like Mako did I will also wait for you but at the Roppongi station, if you arrive I will know that we will have a future together if you won't arrive I will understand that you have decided your happiness elsewhere -
-But I want you by my side, I don't want to lose you - she tells me with anguish.
-And you won't but understand I want more than your friendship, I'm not satisfied with just being part of your happiness I want to be your complete happiness - I say calmly - As I don't know what will happen that day let me fulfill one of my most longed-for dreams If you never want this so much like me don't hesitate to move away-
-But what ..-
That said, I pressed her neck to lower her face and took her lips calmly leaving the room in case she wanted to move away, at first I could feel that she stiffened. I was ready to withdraw, when I felt the pressure of her lips against mine, our hearts began to beat rapidly. I could not imagine in a million years this feeling of being kissed by my loved one, in that Nana raises one of her hands to my neck to kiss me longer and better and I begin to feel a heat that runs from my belly to my face, the blood lava returns. My senses are focused on the person in front of me, time becomes ours and we are not willing to let it go.
-You don't know how long I dreamed about this - she manages to say very flushed.
- Then there are two of us - I say equally as I hug her without wanting to let go.
The cards are drawn, I do not know what will be in store for us, but if the heart is not mistaken, finally love will have triumphed.
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So time is coming.. Nana need to decide who gonna be her lover...
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I'm so happy to see an update! I was so afraid that you stopped wriiting! :frustrated:
YuuNaa is ever closer within our grasp. I'm so excited!
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@StrongStyle9Q Of course not!! I'm going to finish this!! :). Thank you for reading and for your comment. I'm feel so happy knowing that someone read my story and comment about it!!
See you next chapter
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Finally catching up with this nice love triangle.
Thanks for this cute chapter I think that ending deserves an answer, I was left wanting to know who I would choose :panic:
I will be waiting for the next update!
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So I' m here again with a new episode. This time we gonna heard Naachan side. Let your comment really appreciate it a lot!
@Nozokime: thank you for your comments. You still have time to chose a side :). Happy reading!
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JUST CHOOSE! - Chapter 15 | Nana's decision: Her journey
*Nana POV*
Again I am here thinking and thinking what I should do, pay attention to my mind or let myself be carried away by my heart. This year has gone by very fast since we started the cycle, everything was a roller coaster of emotions that I just couldn't get off to take a breath until today, or at least that's what I want to think.
I have always wondered how those people who live without someone to love do, perhaps they will feel calm because they do not feel any conflict in their heart or on the contrary that will make them feel overwhelmed by the fact of not feeling anything. I can't help but look around and see all kinds of love, like those high school siblings who are "fighting", that old couple who seem to have been together for a long time. That recent family formed with the new little member in the mother's arms. Even those furtive glances that pair of boys give each other at both ends of the wagon. There is no correct and unique form of love but each one is unique in its own way.
Even though my decision has been made, I can't help but think about what would have happened if Yuiri had accepted my love on that day.
/ * Flashback start * /
I was very nervous, my hands were shaking. I was about to confess my love to my childhood friend Murayama Yuiri, why? Simply because it is a feeling that I can no longer hide and since we met, we promised to always speak the truth to each other so I will take advantage of our Friday “date” to watch movies to tell her about my feelings and maybe to start a story together.
-Naachan, are you there? - She tells me while I see that she already has the popcorn in her hands.
-I'm sorry I was a little distracted - I tell her as I make a space for her to sit on the couch, without being able to help it I admire her face, it is always cute but now that she is becoming a woman, I find her irresistibly beautiful.
-Are you sure you are alright? - She asks me now with a more concerned voice.
-Yes ... yes - I say now hesitating as I curse myself in my thoughts because this only makes her raise an eyebrow.
-For the past months I have seen you different, pensive, worried and call me crazy but even a little distant with me - she says now looking me in the eyes.
-No .. Nothing happens, you are imagining things - I tell her without being able to look her in the eyes because she will realize that I am lying.
-Then the fact that you hesitate and don't look me in the eye is just part of my imagination - she tells me while raising her voice a little which is already beginning to worry me - It's better that you start talking OKADA NANA -
Okay. I'm officially dead. There are a few occasions that she speaks to me by my full name, and if that happens it means that she is one step away from getting angry with me. So she sighed, gulped, and took a breath.
-I ... you're right there is something wrong with me - I finally say, letting out a sigh, my hands start to shake without meaning to, my mouth being dry, I'm terribly scared. I see that Yuiri sees my hands so she takes them between hers and gives me a look of tenderness giving me confidence to speak - You see there is something that I have been hiding from you for a while and I simply cannot hide it anymore. For a time I have had these feelings that were born in my being and as much as I have wanted to, I can no longer control or rather I no longer want to control. There is a person who has become indispensable in my life, that I love her, I respect her but above all I want her happiness above all things, but beyond all that I want to be the person who makes her happy, I want to be that person who not only be in her joys but I also want to be in her sadness, be her support and strength when she feel faint, I want her to count on me to go through trials that life can give her as well as being the most important person in her life -
Given what was said, I only see that Yuiri has been speechless because of everything I have said, I know that her mind is working at a thousand per hour trying to decipher who this person is and especially how she can help me, she was about to say something when I continued with my monologue.
-This feeling of friendship has been transformed into something else, I am no longer satisfied with being her friend, I want to be her life partner, I want to take her by the hand in a more personal, even selfish aspect, and under her consent I would like to show her my love through a kiss of love, being able to taste her lips has been my delirium in those dark nights where I fantasize about having her in my arms protecting her from everything that surrounds us- delicately while my left hand is now the one that holds her hand that is still in my lap. She looked deep into her eyes like I have never done before, revealing my deepest secret and my wish that she knows the truth. At first she observed in her eyes, curiosity to know who she is, those brown orbs in which I have missed countless occasions.
I can't help but smile tenderly. In an automatic way I take advantage of my hand that is still caressing her cheek to be able to slide my thumb over her lower lip in a delicate and sensual way as to confirm that I am talking about her and at the same time ask her permission to be able to taste her lips.
If I could be proud of something, it is that we do not need words to understand each other and I know that Yuiri with all the information that I am giving her already knows who I mean, I can also see that her eyes went from being curious to showing a hint of surprise extreme that in my opinion makes her look prettier and I can't help but release a small smile, she is the purest creature I've ever come across in life.
-Maybe .. Are you talking about .. You .. and ... - she says in a whisper
- That’s right, Murayama Yuiri, you are the person I am talking about, you are the person who fills my thoughts when I go to sleep and brightens my mornings when you allow me to accompany you to school. I could not tell you exactly when I fell in love with you, it could have been the day I met you or recently but you were always special to me. We have shared so much that from being my best friend you are now the most important person to me. I have reached the point that I dream of having you in my arms and one longing I have is to be able to kiss you and taste those lips that produce me so much fascination, that is why I am here opening my heart to you and asking you for an opportunity to be that someone in your life. Murayama Yuiri, would you like to make this poor soul happy that loves you madly? Would you like to be my girlfriend? -
Like a strong breeze I could see how Yuiri suddenly held her breath as if everything around her had been paralyzed, while after asking the question the confidence vanished, only the expectation and the nerves remained. When I saw that she didn't get an answer, I let go of her cheek and also the grip on her other hand, and I couldn't help but create a space between us. I didn't want her to feel threatened or forced to do something she didn't want.
-Nana ... - it was all she managed to say, the next thing I saw broke my heart, her gaze changed from surprise to concern and then sadness. At that moment I felt my heart break, as I had said before, words were not necessary to understand each other, just by listening to the tone of her voice I knew her answer. Suddenly I felt my heart stop, it was hard for me to breathe, my eyes threatened to release a couple of tears but I couldn't, I shouldn't so I only managed to get up to get away from all this, but I never achieved my goal. She took my wrist and forced me to stay sitting next to her while she looked at me distressingly, patiently waiting for her to speak since she couldn't say anything because she knew that my voice must be broken by the accumulation of feelings that I have right now.
When she saw me return to my place, she released my wrist and took a great sigh as I could see in her eyes how she tried to string the right words that she was going to say.
-It would be a lie if I said that you have not surprised me because you have done it at this moment, and I will be honest I never noticed anything that would indicate that you saw me differently -
Given what was said, I could not help but release a knowing smile, if Yuiri saw how I have always treated her in a special way, even before I knew that I liked her, I would see her face troubled by the same, countless times many people confused us that we were a couple because of those attentions than I gave her - I'm looking for the right words putting my feelings in order but we have always promised to tell the truth and this is that ... I love you Nana. Like a lot but unfortunately my love for you is merely friendship, I don't see you as something more than a friend I would dare to say that almost a sister, for that reason I cannot reciprocate your feelings -
You finish saying to me with a really distressed face and see that your hand goes up to my cheeks and tenderly you catch the tear that falls slowly, trying to wipe my discomfort. I can't blame you, I can't hate you because I love you but the truth is that I understand that this love thing cannot be forced, it is not mandatory that you see me the same way but that does not mean that it does not hurt a bit less.
-Nana please look at me - she took my chin and lifted my face because my gaze was down -You know that I love you very much right? -
She tells me with the most sincere voice I have ever heard her, so much so that I can feel it in every fiber of my being, at what she said, only I nod.
-That's not going to change for anything, I love you not in the same way as you do to me, but I know we can find a middle ground in our feelings but if you feel uncomfortable with me or if you want space, I can understand it. I wouldn't know what to do if it were the opposite and I was the one asking for your love. So I just want it to be clear that I love you very much and you are an important person in my life, that you do not have any doubt-
My mind and my heart registered every word but I felt that a dagger was stuck in my heart and an immeasurable desire to cry nested in my soul, so I took the hand that was still holding my cheek and interlocked our fingers while I thought how well it was.Her hand and mine were molded, I breathed deeply to finally say something.
-I know you don't want to hurt me and as always I appreciate your total sincerity for that, let me be it too, I would like us to take some time. I ... need to evaluate the situation without your presence clouding my feelings and my reason. I need to be able to look into your eyes and not feel the need to protect you from all the people around you, the need to show you not only with words how much I love you and above all, the need to kiss you as I am having now that finally you know how I feel about you-
At the end of my sentence I could see Yuuchan's eyes of surprise, I had never dared to look at her that way but I simply had to say it and express all these feelings that I have harbored for so long, now is the time to leave nothing to say because now that I know her answer. I know that what goes on is going to be a bit complicated at the beginning, but I also know that everything will improve because that's how we are, always fighting against the world side by side.
/ * End of Flashback * /
How delusional I was to think that things were only going to change a little, that our friendship was fireproof that nothing I do could break our pact but the reality was not like that, after that day something happened between us like what I asked, Yuiri left me a space so that I could think over and in less than a week the after-school outings were over, the sleepovers at one of us's house, the waiting at the school door to walk back home together, the furtive messages between classes, the company in the breaks, the calls at night and above all the glances we exchanged from afar. I was surprised that my face will be reflected in her gaze, I was surprised not being able to see that sweet smile and those cute dimples that adorn her face, if I have to be honest it was a real hell to be without her and that was when I realized that I loved her much more than what I thought. If before I thought it was torture to be with her but not be able to have her as my girlfriend, being without her was even worse.
My heart couldn't handle this feeling of abandonment and that's when Taniguchi Megu appeared in my life, confusing things and taking advantage of my weakness. Too many things happened that I am not proud of, it led me to do things that I never thought were possible while my friendship with Yuiri hung by a thread but disappeared until that day.
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-THIS IS WHAT YOU WANT, TAKE IT! BUT CAME BACK TO BE THE SAME NANA THAT I KNOW ... THE SAME NANA THAT I ... MISS - Yuiri told me with tears in her eyes as I looked puzzled as her blouse was open and some buttons were about to fall off and others lay on the floor. Then I could feel a stinging on my left cheek and suddenly I felt hot where she had hit me. For a few seconds I looked at Yuiri in horror, understanding in a certain part what I had done.
-I .. I'm sorry Yuiri, I .. No .. I swear it was not my intention - I tell her while I feel like my stomach turns and I have retching, I am feeling a lot of disgust about my own person. How could I say that I loved Yuiri when I had been willing to hurt her, without more my legs lose strength and I fall to the floor covering my face with both hands crying incessantly, suddenly I feel that someone is hugging me and I cannot help but hold on to that heat so known but at the same time so strange. It's been so long since I felt that warmth next to mine and that perfume that I missed so much, I couldn't help crying more because I didn't know what I had done to meet someone like her, who despite everything is always on my side.
-SORRY!, FORGIVE ME! FORGIVE ME! - I say non-stop, I don't know what else to say to show my regret. She gently separates from me and takes my face with both hands and wipes my tears with her thumbs while I can see the sweetness of her eyes and a shy smile that tells me that everything will be fine.
-Will you continue acting like an idiot? - She tells me, now frowning at what I make a gesture with my head indicating no.
-Will you keep putting your life in danger? - She keeps looking at me intensely but now I feel hypnotized and I automatically shake my head.
-Will you keep ignoring me? - I immediately deny again.
-You promise to stop doing those dangerous things -
"I promise," I say solemnly.
-Good, if you want me to forgive you. You will have to attend classes, leave those toxic friendships, eat healthy .. - She listing one by one the things I should do to resume my life at
a normal point - ...but above all you are forbidden to stop talking to me, in addition you must spend a lot of time with me watching movies, walking in the park and buying me a lot of ice cream -
Given what was said, I can not help but smile, that was her way of lightening things up. Holding out her hand, she invited me to get up so we could get out of where we were. Inadvertently I couldn't help looking at her up and down and admiring what that now completely open blouse was hiding, and without wanting to, I could feel a blush take over my face.
-Do you like what you see Okada? - Yuiri tells me with a slightly serious voice, I would dare to say that it even sounded sexy. At that I turn my face but I know it is extremely red.
-I .. I .. -
-Haha I'm kidding, calm down - she says with a mischievous smile, definitely I don’t know this side of her, I knew she only did it to break the tension so I took off my jacket and put it on her.
"Cover yourself, I don't want you to get sick," I say with a smile, which now makes her blush a little.
-You say it as if you don't like what you see - she says playfully.
-Don't start something that you're not going to finish Murayama san - I answered with a serious tone, now making her blush.
/ * End of Flashback * /
After that our friendship climbed one more step, something I never thought would happen, our interaction also changed because I allowed myself to show my love and not disguise it as friendship but I did not force Yuiri to reciprocate. It was clear to me at least that she would never see me as something else but at least I know that I am a very important person in her life and with that I can live, I realized that I want to be by her side regardless of the circumstances or labels and if for this I have to live as her best friend so it will be.
At first I will not deny that it was complicated for me but over time things just happened, although I will not deny that when someone approached her I could not help feeling jealous but I have learned to control it because first of all I want her to be happy and if it is at side of another person I will do nothing to prevent it but that if that person will be in my sights and if they hurt her, they will deal with me.
Months passed and after Yuiri's insistence I started dating girls who always demanded my attention, I will not lie and say that they forced me because that would be a lie I really wanted to go out with them unfortunately most of the time things did not work out and I don't blame them, many times I spent it talking about Yuiri and I think that was not right. Some did not speak to me again because they talked about how they could not constantly compete with Yuiri or others who became my friends and they only looked at me with understanding that my love for Yuiri will always be above them.
Everything settled down little by little, I had dates ... Many dates if I can boast but none of them filled me up and Yuiri went out with several guys but nothing serious or at least that's what she told me. Our dynamics had changed now allowing me to be gallant with her and she flirted a bit with me which I was glad as I didn't know that side of her. Everything was fine until that spring when someone very important in my life arrived, although at that time I was not going to know.
Meeting Mako has been one of the best things that have happened to me in my life, finding a person who loves me, cares for me and watches over me like she is something rare to find. I accept myself with all my mistakes, I did not ask questions about my past, she never questioned my friendship with Yuiri until our meeting with Megu but in general respected my privacy and came to appreciate Yuiri which gave her extra points, over time I realized that Ithought about her a lot, wanted to be with her and felt an anxiety to see her.
Things evolved in such a way that we developed a very special relationship, where she had become one of the most important people in my life. I wanted to be with her all the time, to talk, to live together, I wanted to take care of her and protect her, Do everything in my power so that she could be happy, we had endless talks after classes, messages and phone talks. Everything was almost like a fairy tale of how good our relationship was but now that I think about it I don't know why I hesitated so long to ask her to be my girlfriend if I liked everything about her.
Time passed, there were several ups and downs but no danger, I had everything, I was doing well in my career, I had a girlfriend whom I loved very much, a best friend always by my side so everything looked the best until that fateful day,. Mako couldn't handle the rumors of a possible relationship between Yuiri and me and decided on her own to get away from me, which made my heart break in a way I never imagined, because of this I committed foolishness after foolishness until I fell sick and it was nothing more and nothing less than at the University, Mako found out and went to visit me.
After this we were able to fix things and resume our relationship, everything was back in place now with a new member who was Mako's friend named Takahashi Juri, I will not lie to say that I liked her from the beginning because I saw her with a little suspicious due to the closeness that Mako had with her, later I understood that she was just a friend and Mako is not always friendly with all people so I decided not to give it more importance.
Some time later the event happened where we went to the cafeteria and a guy tried to flirt with Yuiri and I found out that there were more men who were hanging around her, there I knew that something was wrong with me because how could I be jealous that my friend seeks love, always seeing flaws in any man who tried to approach her with other intentions. I swore at that moment that it was just a friend's jealousy, that knowing that we won't be able to spend so much time together I would feel alone despite having Mako by my side, speaking of her I had another problem due to my jealousy that everyone knows. They realized, after thinking about it a lot, I convinced myself that it had only been jealousy of a friend or sister and not of another type so with this in mind I talked with Mako and told her that I felt nothing but sisterly love for Yuiri and even told her that I loved her because at that moment I was convinced that what I felt for her was purely love.
Everything happened normal or at least that's what I wanted to think but Yuiri began to distance herself from us and that began to bother me but I decided not to say anything so as not to worry Mako, then I decided to pluck up my courage and ask her once and for all why she has been ignoring me, the answer I got was not what I was looking for, the situation got out of my hands and I cornered her, at that moment I did not know why but her indifference hurt me again like that time we distanced ourselves after my declaration of love, then after an intense battle of gazes and my threatening closeness that was beginning to suffocate her, she took me by the shoulders and kissed me, it was not an innocent or quiet kiss. It was a passionate kiss, I did not know what to think YUIRI MY BEST FRIEND AND EX FIRST LOVE was kissing me to which I did not know what to do but suddenly an image came to my mind ... MAKO, I was her girlfriend and I owed her all my loyalty, so reacting I ended up taking her away from me and claiming her for which she had a surprised expression as if she could not understand what had happened, then she looked at me with horror and Mako arrived to take my hand and leave the place. An impulse within me told me that I should stay and talk things over with her because things couldn't stay that way but the reason told me that the right thing to do was to stay with MY GIRLFRIEND.
Soon after another event happened, Yuiri requested to see MAKO, she (Mako) no longer wanted to have secrets with me and she invited me to listen to her conversation, as her talk went by, my mind is becoming a battlefield where my thoughts towards Yuiri were changing She was openly confessing that she loves me, that she wants to be by my side to form a life together as a couple and that she is willing to risk our friendship in order to achieve it. In my mind it convinces me that my place is next to Mako because our history together but on the other hand knowing that Yuiri finally had those feelings for me made me feel very indecisive, when I listened at the end of her talk that I had to choose between the two, my heart was shattered because I didn't want to, why I had to choose?, why couldn't I be like before .. why... why...
The last thing was my last meeting with Yuiri, after receiving Mako's diary that made me understand many things that were going through her head, it was time to face Yuiri for the last time to the surprise of both of them it was Mako's idea to deliver her diary so that she would also know our history and our feelings. Afterwards, as we have always done without planning it, we were already in our favorite place, that park with swings that could tell so many stories about us, so many shared laughter and tears and now it will be part of our history witnessing this moment of decision but that now could be something definitive. Having her by my side gave me peace because I know that I can always count on her but that does not let my thoughts cloud over reality. I know what she wants, she wants me to make a decision that will affect our relationship forever. Those moments were very useful to me because I was able to be calm even for a moment. She allowed me to relax and think about things without pressure to make the best decision for me because I know that in the end both what they want is my happiness and that is what I intend to do.
At the end of that evening I could see my whole panorama clearly and that kiss that I shared with Yuiri that could be the last one was a balm to my heart in an inexplicable way, maybe because I didn't feel like I was cheating on Mako. It was so natural that moment, having her in my arms as I always dreamed of but I never imagined that it could happen, when our lips met it was quite an experience, although she had kissed me previously, it was not the same as sharing a kiss where we both put our part. It was something magical that happened that night, I felt a connection that was not there before and I do not speak only physically but about something else.
/*Back to reality*/
Decide. That is what I must do with my mind clear but with emotions on the surface, I can finally take that step that scares me so much, I see the map of the train and I can glimpse the name of that station that I wait so eagerly , the sound that indicates that the doors are about to open sounds, I hurry out of the car to leave the station.
And there I can see her distracted with her cell phone, I hope I could freeze this moment to be able to see her always calm. I sidled up since I did not know how to start the conversation.
-I'm here- I say in a low voice almost like a whisper.
- You came ... - You tell me while you draw the most sincere smile and your look shows me an infinite love.
To be Continue >>
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Hope do you like this? Ia ppreciate it a lot your opinions!
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I think Naachan made her choice a while ago :P
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Wow Nana really has very deep feelings for Yuiri and is stronger than I thought, it hurts that she never reciprocated :(
I guess Naachan will make the decision later but I think she should be with someone who really loves her and it seems that we already know who is her..
Thanks for the update and we will be waiting for the next chapter.
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Hello everyone! Its time to close this story, so I want to say thank you to all reader who read this and of course all the people out there who leave a comment from this. Hope you enjoy this.
@StrongStyle9Q Let's pretend that we don't know :P
@Nozokime Both love Naachan so much but yeah, she needs to make a final decision.
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JUST CHOOSE! - Chapter 16 | Nana's decision: By my side
*Nana POV*
- You came ... - Yuiri tells me while drawing the most sincere smile and her gaze shows me an infinite love - ... I thought you were not going to do it, you were an hour late -
- Sorry I had something to do first - I replied
/ * Flashback * /
After a long time and thinking so much I decided to follow my heart and I had finally decided with whom I wanted to share my life, it was not something easy ... it was quite complicated but when I made the decision, everything began to settle in an incredible way. I saw the stations´ names one by one until I saw the station "Shibuya" that was the station where Mako was going to be waiting for me, waiting for my answer. Something inside me made that when the doors in that station were opened I ran to the doors at the last minute. At that moment I knew that I had to do it, I had to talk to both of them, I couldn't live with one without talking to the other at that moment so before going to Yuiri I would talk to Mako.
I left the station and walked to where I knews he was going to wait for me, at the Hachiko statue, so I went there, as I got closer, my nerves took hold of me because although I had rehearsed what I was going to tell Yuiri, with Mako it’s a different story because she was not in my plans but I owe her so much that I could not leave her waiting for who knows what hours for my arrival. And suddenly I stopped in my tracks, beautiful ... in the full extent of the word, looking distractedly at the people passing by and you could see from leagues that she was very nervous just like me, so without making her delay any more I approached her.
As I still lacked some space to reach her, she could see me from a distance and I observe how her face changed to the brightest smile that I have ever received from her, her gaze lit up, on her face I could see her cute dimples, everything in her radiated a happiness that I could feel, unfortunately for her it only lasted a few seconds because she surely noticed my facial expressions. Unfortunately I did not have the heart to answer her properly because of her happiness and that guilt began to eat away at me. How could I make one of the people I know love me so much suffer. I thank God that she did not attempt to hug me or that she had approached me with the intention of kissing me because I would have had to reject her physical contact and I know that it would have hurt both of us a lot, even more than I was about to do since I feel like you need an explanation of my behavior.
-Hi - I tell her already staying in front of her
-Hi - she answers me in the same way with a really dismayed tone of voice, I know she can feel the tense atmosphere.
-We'd better find a place to sit and talk - And so we did, we walked to a nearby park, contrary to all the times we've been together, the road was really quiet. Not those quiet silences but more of those uncomfortable ones, the kind that you can feel all the tension in the air. We got to the place and sat down, I knew I had to start talking and explaining everything.
-Thank you - It was the first word that came to my mind to which she just tilted her face a little waiting for an explanation - You are the first after all my love disaster that managed to make me feel alive again, which made me I felt a peace inside me that I had not achieved in years. Your dedication, your understanding and patience made me fall in love with you in a way that I never imagined I could feel in someone else after all that I lived. They have been some wonderful months, one of the happiest of life, I found in you a valuable, sincere, honest person and above all willing to give herself completely-
Mako's eyes started to fill with tears, she didn't know if they were happy or sadness but as soon as I saw a tear roll from her cheeks I took her in my arms to merge into a hug, I wish with this I could explain everything I feel, I wish I could heal her heart but I know that I cannot and there are still things what should I tell her, I separated from her, we stared at each other for a considerable time, I was just beginning to open my mouth to continue with my speech when she placed a finger on my lips in a silent plea not to speak.
-You do not have to thank me, you are everything a girl can ask for, it was not difficult to fall in love with you, together with you I discovered trust, tenderness, feeling protected, valued but above all I felt that I was a special person for you. You gave me great moments that will live forever in my memory no matter what happens today - said this, she took my cheek and caressed it gently. I have remained speechless I do not know what to say, she does not deserve what I am going to do but I know that I must do it, I must clarify my thoughts, tell her my decision in a concise way but without her thinking that I played with her because it is the last thing I would want.
She gently took her hand and pulled it away from my face. I just can't allow this waiting to continue.
-Mako, as you have asked me, I have come to this meeting point to give you my answer - that said, I see that now her face is still expectant, I can notice a hint of illusion in her eyes and I try not to focus on it and just say the truth - First of all I want you to know that my decision is based entirely on my feelings, you did not do anything wrong. I do not want you to feel guilty only I ... -
-I understand - she tells me with a melancholic smile - it was always her -
-No, wait .. - but before I can say anything elses he takes my hand and gives me a gentle squeeze.
-Don't get me wrong Nana, I know that what you felt for me was something strong, special, different, our connection is real, our feelings for each other but I also know that she was always there. That these feelings towards me were sown on those feelings that you wanted to bury when she rejected you, so let's say they were not well founded. I know you didn't do it on purpose, I know that you genuinely thought you were in love with me but if you think about it, if those feelings were true, Yuiri's declaration of love would not have affected our relationship at all and therefore your feelings would have me - at her statement I couldn't help but look down due to embarrassment, I was so easy to read. Given this fact now she took my chin and made me look into her eyes - I don't blame you, I really don't, we were simply victims of circumstances, Hell! I can't even blame Yuiri, she tried to be a good friend until the last minute but in the end she decided to risk everything to have you by her side and the truth is I don't blame her, you are someone very special -
That said, a silence was created between the two of them. I didn't really know what the next step was, I didn't know whether to continue with my speech or just get away from it. I had to say something, Mako deserved to know everything that inhabited my heart.
-You are an excellent person, woman and partner. I know that you will find someone in the future who can love and appreciate you in the way that you deserve. It would have been unfair to continue with you knowing that my heart beats and lives for another person, so I wish you the best. Have a full life, I know that we will have to give ourselves some time but you know that you can count on me for whatever you need because I would like to continue conserving your friendship - having said this, she took both her hands in mine so that she has no doubts about my words .
A sigh filled the silent void between us, the words were beginning to extinguish one by one, I was thinking in my mind if there was something else to add but I didn't know how to continue this difficult conversation.
-Nana, before you go I just have one question. How did you know she was the one? - She asks me curious questions to which I only show her a lopsided smile.
-To tell the truth, it was quite complicated to know, but I simply asked myself the following. I thought of a situation about what would happen if you told me that you were getting married and I even imagined being at the altar to one side watching someone else marry you and that was when the answer I was looking for was given. When looking at you there at the altar, beautiful with your dress showing that beautiful smile, I did not doubt that I was going to be smiling too, seeing how after all you can be happy even if it is not by my side. I would be happy to find someone who could appreciate, love and care about you - I tell her with a big smile - On the contrary, as soon as I imagined Yuiri holding someone else's hand my heart felt a pang, it began to beat rapidly When I imagined her at the altar next to someone else, it made me uncontrollably want to take her in my arms and carry her away, but I also felt happiness because she found love, I felt a peace that someone was going to take care of her even though she knew that no one is going to love her like me. I imagine her smiling at me with that beautiful smile that she has as if looking for support, I would answer her with another smile to reassure her because no matter that inside I am dying I will always be willing to give everything for her happiness, then the kiss scene would follow to end her union and there I could not contain it anymore and I would sob, hiding before people could notice it, or maybe if they did it, they could think than they are tears of happiness and not tears of a longing that I know will never be fulfilled. At that moment I knew, I wanted to be that person by her side, I wanted to live a life with her, I ... I still love her even more than when I discovered that I was in love with her and if I have a chance to make us happy it would be a silly to let it go -
-I understand - was everything that came from your lips, I knew that my words were hurting you but you mentioned it before, there should be no secrets between us - I think it's better that I leave, you still need to talk to her, right? -
I just nodded and she gave a wistful laugh. Moments later she gave me a hug again, at the moment of moving away our faces were inches away.
-Everyone warned me that this would end like this, I believed that I would be the person who would occupy your heart, that space that she left empty thanks to the rejection of your love, but in reality your heart continued to beat for her and will continue to do so, doing until it stops. Thank you for such good times, I was very happy by your side and with all my heart I hope that you are very happy and that she knows how to appreciate you because you are a very valuable person. I love you Nana, never forget that - When she finished saying her speech, she kissed me, taking me by surprise and I could feel how more tears adorned her face and without time to react she moved away from me, I could only see her back move away until she was lost between the crowd.
/ * End of Flashback * /
-Nana, Nana! - I heard a voice that took me out of my thoughts. I focused my view and there she was with her face that showed concern - Sorry I got distracted a bit -
That said, we were left without knowing what to say or do. I knew I had to say something but I did not know that I would declare myself again? Do I ask you to be my girlfriend? A date? A kiss ?. In that I was struggling internally I heard a laugh and it turned to my right and I saw that it is she who is laughing.
-I'm sorry Naachan but you are making very funny faces, from here I can see that your mind is thinking very fast until you almost feel the smoke emanating from your head. Even your ears turned red! - keep saying with a playful voice
-It is not true! You're making it up - I tell her, pouting, as I turn my eyes away from her.
-Don't get mad, Nana .. Naachan .. - She tells me while I still don't turn around.
-Perfect, if you don't want to talk to me I'm leaving - I hear her say with an annoyed voice making me turn to her to stop her but what is my surprise that when I made that movement my lips were captured between hers in a delicate way - I was dying to kiss you again -
Seeing her smile again and still feeling the tickle of her lips that remained like ghosts, my heart beat frantically, I had to open and close my eyes several times. My mind and my heart still didn't register that all this was real ... Yuiri and I ... She kiss ... Oh my god!
-Haha say something or else, I’m gonna be angry - she says playfully. I take her face between my fingers, outline her features, linger a bit on her lips, remembering all those sleepless nights thinking about her. Imagining what her lips will taste like and now I can taste them whenever I want so I leaned in to kiss her slowly. We were like this for several minutes just exploring each other. I had to separate myself from her because even though I like the feeling of her lips against mine, we had to talk.
- I love you - I said with a smile.
- I know, I love you too - she tells me - I refused so many times to say it, that now I will spend the rest of my life making sure you listen to it -
Her words are like a balm for my soul that cried so many times for an unrequited love, that heart that begged each shooting star that if it wouldn’t be reciprocated then it should be eliminate this love for my friend but in the end my heart refused to do so and continued despite everything.
-You are very thoughtful, would you mind sharing what is going through your head - she says while she rests her head on my right shoulder and only manages to hug her.
-It still seems impossible in my mind that you are here with me, telling me this. There were so many nights that I asked for this and now that it is passing my head continues to think that one day I will wake up from this beautiful dream - I say while I take her left hand with my right hand.
-Well, I see it complicated because then I too would have to wake up and believe me I don't want to, not after all that we've been through. I just want to be by your side and make you happy - she tells me with a very soft voice almost in a whisper. It is clear that we are both enjoying the moment.
-And ...? - I say while trying to ask the question that refuses to vocalize in words - We .. We are .. Well you and me -
-Do you want to be my girlfriend Okada Nana? - She tells me as she separates from me, gets up from the seat to kneel. I'm in shock, I can't believe it, she's asking me for it. I took her by both shoulders and made her stand up while I did the same until she was face to face.
"Nothing would make me happier than having the honor of being your girlfriend" I say with a smile as we seal our engagement with another kiss.
This journey was very thorny, I had to decide between two people who were very important but now with seeing her I can finally say that I made the right decision, I know that we will not have the easy way but if our love and dedication continues just as strong we will be able to bear all the problems because in the end she was always by my side.
END
/ * OMAKE * /
- I thought I could get used to this about us being girlfriends and being able to kiss you as many times as I want, today definitely set the record for the number of times we have kissed - I told her with a smile.
-I thought there are still a few more kisses to break it ... - she answered me with a little smile.
-WHAT!? - I asked her with surprise.
-I'll just say ... Muto Tomu's party - she answered me with a sheepish smile
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AAAAAAAAAAAAND THIS IS THE END!!! Hope you can leave your comments. See you in the next story!
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YuuNaa is together as we expected!
At least Mako isn't too upset about it and remained friends. I hope she finds someone good for her!