I was trying to make a video last Saturday when my lovely computer crashed and left me with my eyes almost popped out like this -->
lol and caused me my BPQ sinking fund damn -_- lol
S!hu!SEEEE..I TOLD YOU YOU ARE EBIL!!!..LOL..
Shhh
either cant wake up, or wake up, or forget ppl..hmmmmmmmmmmmmmm
Why are you sad
rnd-sama kawaii beam^
i love u i had that some though XDD
and K u are ebil...why give ai a brain tumour!? ebil i say! i really cant wait for the next chappy X3
I've read your comment ummm... last Sat.?. and it really made me
why? OMG I don't want to be too nosy
I've deleted my comment at
rnd-sama's thread after composing myself from over joy and excitement because something caught my attention in there but OMG please don't make me lose my control again
baddie imagination overload
It's official! YOU ARE EBIL!
oddball UP~End “What’s happening to us?” though the voice was low and soft, the newly arrived girl was startled upon hearing someone speak, but she immediately collected herself after recognizing the voice.
The room was covered in darkness and the only illumination it had was from the light outside the open door. Slowly, Ai reached for the light switch and turned it on. She did not expect Risa to be there, waiting and sitting at the edge of her bed let alone in darkness. She knew from the very start, the younger’s not very fond of darkness when she’s all by herself, she’s not that brave.
Risa, after so many weeks of not being able to hold a decent conversation with Ai, finally got a hold of her best friend without any distraction this time. She purposely stayed awake and waited for Ai at her bedroom. For how long, it definitely did not matter to the bean.
When the light flickered, she searched for Ai’s eyes and asked again. “What’s happening to us, Aichan?”
Ai opened her mouth to respond but then she fell silent after seeing the younger’s forlorn eyes. Tonight’s the first time she saw Risa looked so helpless. And then nothing came out from her half opened mouth. Her rehearsed alibis were all forgotten and a vague sense of unease crept up inside her.
“Is it really because of that girl you’ve been seeing?”
Ai stayed quiet and looked sideways. How’s she going to answer such question when deep inside her, her heart’s been beating for her alone?
“Do you love her more than you care for me that you’re now having no time for the both of us?”
Stepping a few back steps, the older leaned against the wall as she kept her silence, eyes on the floor, but ears continued to listen.
Bringing her vision down on her trembling hands that were resting on her lap, the bean took a deep breath before she continued. “Do you love her that much that you are now leaving me all alone?” the words came out with Risa’s uneven voice, as if choked with her restrained emotion.
This time, Ai’s eyes quickly landed on her closet where the bag she’d prepared days before was placed. The thought of Risa’s devastating reaction upon seeing the luggage made her body quiver, made her heart throb.
“What about me Aichan?” hearing Risa’s weak and pained voice was like a dagger slashing her heart. It made her wants to run and hug Risa with all her might, but what good would it make? It would only make them suffer more. She can’t drag Risa in. She can’t afford to make Risa suffer of losing someone all over again. The risk is just too high. She has Eri now and keeping it that way is the best option there is.
Burying her true emotion deep inside her, she let out a silent sigh. She gathered all her energy and dragged her feet toward her closet. And then took out the packed bag and a jacket.
“What’s wrong? Can’t we talk it out?” Risa sounded almost begging, but Ai stood firm, her mind stood firm though her heart was madly aching.
“I need to go Risa.”
“Why?”
The older did not respond but took her steps toward the door without even looking at the devastated bean.
“Don’t you walk out on me this time Takahashi!” Risa’s voice was trembling but unbending. “I had enough of this bullshit!” the short haired girl continued. Ai was surprised at the bean’s tone. This is her first time hearing such tone.
She turned around and looked at Risa’s eyes. That’s when she saw a tear threatening to fall from the younger’s eyes but was briskly wiped away. Anger and pain was written all over Risa’s face. Ai took a step to move closer to the bean to console her but her phone beeped.
“Moshi-moshi”
…
“Okay”
…
“I’ll be right there in a minute.”
…
“Bye.”
After ending the call and returning the phone inside her pocket, Ai paused for a moment. But after a few seconds, she picked the bag up again and turned her back on Risa and again, started to walk.
“What about me Aichan?!” she blurted, now with tears descending one after the other. Ai stopped from her track but again, did not look back. She was trying to conceal her pained expression and her silent tears that started to glide down her cheeks.
“What about me?” Risa complained again in between sobs.
“You’ll be fine. The trust fund and the money in the bank are more than enough to last a lifetime”
“You know that wasn’t what I meant!” Risa’s voice raised, her hands thrown onto the air, exasperated.
“You have Eri now, you’ll be fine.”
“Oh god. What really is your problem?!”
Ai did not respond and so Risa exclaimed again “Can’t you tell me, just this once, what it is that’s so bothering you? Don’t I deserve to know what the reason behind all these is? Why don’t you kill me now Takahashi! I’ll die anyway! Wait, let me get a weapon for you!” a drawer creaked as it opened, a rummaging sound then followed.
At that moment, Ai became intensely tense. And so she threw her bag away and faced the bean. “I’m in love with my foster sister! That is the problem!” Ai blurted. Her voice was no longer controlled. All her contained emotions wanted to explode. Her eyes were brimming with tears too. She was shaking.
Taken aback, Risa was lost for words.
“I’m so in love with you that I’m becoming irrational. I’m so in love with you that I’m feeling I’ll be insane any minute. I’m so in love with you that it pains me seeing you everyday. I’m so in love with you that it hurts just to breathe.” Ai’s grip on Risa’s shoulders loosened as her tears continued to flow. “Please, let me catch my breath.”
“Why didn’t you tell me?” almost a whisper, Risa asked.
“If I had said I love you, would you have said I love you too?”
Risa was still stunned, too stunned to respond to the question. And then there was silence, until a knock on the open door was heard. When they looked toward the entryway, a smiling Eri greeted the two. She was in the process of removing her headphone from her ears when she asked the two “Am I interrupting something?”
“No. You’re just in time.” discreetly, Ai wiped her tears away after removing her hands from the bean’s shoulders. She glanced one last time at the somewhat lost Risa before stepping to get her bag and toward the door. She paused when she was side by side Eri. “Please take good care of her… please?”
“I will keep my promise I made to you this morning, you can count on that. And please don’t lose hope and keep on fighting. Don’t lose to those bad cells.”
“Thank you.” Ai smiled before she stared down at the floor, paused for a moment and uttered a word one last time
“Goodbye.”
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The song that made me cry once upon a time