Now I admit fact about mood.. if it's down, you can't write anything..
But still I somehow write it in many days. So, there will be a reason, why Acchan is worry so much. But somehow, I think, I write it little bit too harsh, about this reason.. sorry..
Also, thank you for your comments and everyone else, who read it.
Enjoy reading!
PART 3 In next morning, I wake up with strange feeling inside in me. I am not sure, if this feeling are happiness, because Minami is here with me, in bed, or… feeling, like something will happen. Something like… I don’t know.. but my heart doesn’t want stay calm. This feeling start to scare me more and more.
„Good morning, Atsuko.” I was so busy with my thought, that I didn’t saw when Minamis open her eyes, and already watching me.
„Oh, Minami, good morning you, too.” Hmm.. maybe this strange feeling is happiness? Yes, it’s happiness.
„About what you thinking so much?” She hug me more tighter.
„Hmm.. about us. I want you stay here with me. I want you to live with me.”
„O… are you sure about this? Well.. maybe we first need to go some… a date?”
„About that. You still didn’t told me, where you will take me.”
„Sorry, but I won’t tell. I want to make you a surprise.” She kissed me on the forehead.
„Mou, Minami.”
„Hihi..” She leaned closer to me my face and gave me a gentle kiss on my lips. „I love you, Atsuko.”
„Hmm.. I love you more.” I don’t want to wake up.
„By the way.. What we have in breakfast?” Oh, yeah. I forgot about this kind of thing.
„Amm.. not sure.”
„Oh, then I will go to make something. I will call you, when they are ready. Okay?”
„Minami, don’t go. You are so warm, come back.” She got up from my bed, put her clothes on and went out from bedroom. Ah, Minami! I don’t need real food, I don’t mind to eat you.
While Minami was in kitchen, I lazy get out of my bed. I put some clothes on me and went to the kitchen. When I enter there, she was very busy with cooking things. I approach her from behind, putting my hands around of her waist.
„Oh, Atsuko, in the end you got up.” She was till cooking something and it smell very nice.
„Hmm.. Minami. I am so happy to be here with you, in my arms.” My head was on her right shoulder and I hug her more tighter.
„Me, too, Atsuko.” I turned her around and gave her gentle kiss on the lips. She taste so good. „Atsuko, breakfast will be soon. Go take a shower and then everything will be done. Okay?”
„Okay.” Before leaving I again gave her quick kiss on lips.
After peacful shower and tasty breakfast, with perfect person beside to me, no one can take away my smile from my face. Probably I look like an idiot, who all the time is smiling with no reason, but for me, I have a reason. This reason is Minami.
Finally, Minami take me on our first date. I was so happy, that I could scream from happiness, what she is giving to me. She still didn’t tell me where we are going, until I understand to myself. We are at the..
„ZOO..? Minami? How did you know, that I wanted come to here?” I look at her and she just smiling at me.
„Oh!. You- You like it? I didn’t know. I just want to take you somewhere, where we can see something interesting.”
„Yes, I like it. It’s very long time ago, when I last time was there. I glad, that we came here. Thank you Minami.” I gave her quick kiss on left cheek.
She paid for our tickets and we went in. Every where I look, I saw different kind of animals. There was small ones, little bit bigger and big, like that elephant.. Oh, there was also little tiger baby. He looks so cute, I want to hug him.
Luckily for us, there wasn’t many people. I feel like little kid, who is first time in here. The sounds here was so many, I even couldn’t recognize all of them. There isn’t only different kind of animals, but also plants. I saw one high plant with strange look. I went closer.
„Oh, Atsuko, don’t go there. This plants eat meat.” Minami said it to me.
„EH?!” I quickly grab again Minami hand and went away from there. I don’t want to be eaten .
„HAHA..!” Minami was laughing
„What? Don’t tell me you were joking?” I hit her on arm. I was mad at her. But I still didn’t let go her hand and drag her with me.. somewhere.. I don’t know where.. I just going.
„Atsuko, wait! Where we are going?” I didn’t look at her or answer hers question, just going.
Walking hand in hand with Minami, we spent there about 3 hours. The time is going so fast, because our stomach asked for food. We went out from there. Bought some food, more like junk food and start to walk to near park, while we are eating. Weather is so good and looks like sun were shining only for us.
„The day really is nice.” I said it after I finish my food.
„Yeah, it is. And looks like all day it will be like this. But usually when get darker, then there are clouds with rain.”
„I hope, it won’t be like that.”
We both sit in the park, one of the bench, what was there. Our hands were interwined. My head on her right shoulder. I want to stay like this for ever. Until that strange feeling came back to me, like something will happen. I try to ignore it. If I am with Minami, then nothing bad can happen. But why I have this feeling, like we need to go away from here and right now. No! I want to stay like this little bit longer. But I shouldn’t ignore it this strange feeling, and run.. run far away. To the place, where no one can find us.
Stay there was big mistake for me, because someone approach us. I should listen to my strange feeling.
„Acchan?” It was a man. When I look at him, I know who is he.
„Takeru? What are you doing here?” What’s going on?
„I am looking for you.”
„Atsuko, who is he?” Minami with confused look asked to me.
„He – He is..” He didn’t let me finish my sentence, and said most hurtful words ever for Minami ears.
„I am Takeru Sato, Acchans boyfriend.”
„WHAT!? NO!” Why the heck he told something like this.
„A – A boyfriend?” When I look at Minami, her eyes was lost, with pain in there. „Atsuko? What did he mean with this? You said you don’t have no one. You lied to me?”
„Minami, I don’t have. I would never lied to you.” She try tp separate our hands. I didn’t let her. She stand up and I also with her.
„Acchan, please let me go.” She looks hurtful.
„Acchan, can I talk to you.” He interrupted us.
„What you want?!” he take my other hand. What he think he is doing?
„Acchan, I want to talk about us, about baby what you are carry.” What the…?
„Baby? Acchan, you are pregnant?” Minami got our hands separate.
„What!? No!?” My heart, why it’s beating like crazy?
„Then why he is….. He won’t tell something like this, if it won’t be true. Please tell me, if this is true?”
„Minami, I… I…” At that moment he grab me closer to him and kiss me in front of her. I was in shock. „Acchan, can we please talk somewhere alone.?” What have you done? When I look at Minami she was in frozen shock. She start to speak, with trembling voice.
„You.. you should talk to.. him. I-I need to go. B- Bye.” She turn around and start to walk away. She looked broken… Inside and outside.
„Minami! Wait!” I try to run after her, be he stop me, grabbing me again by my hand.
„Acchan..”
„Why you did this?! Why are you even here.?! What have you done?!” I felt tears in my eyes. I need to chase her, but he don’t let me.
„Acchan, please! About baby!”
„What baby?!! There is no baby!! Yes, there was, but I lost it, because of you.!!” I rise more higher my voice.
„What do you mean, you lost it because of me?”
„Ha..!! You even don’t remember!! Well, It don’t suprise me, you were too drunk.!!”
„Acchan.. then at least please give me another chance. Didn’t you love me back then.?”
„Love you? HAHA!! I never loved you. Back then, I was drunk. I just wanted forget my pain, what was in my heart. I pretend to be happy. I never had feelings toward you. Because in my heart is only one person very long time and it’s not you. Leave me!!.. And things what happen back then, while I was drunk, never should happen, if some of my ‘friends’ wouldn’t betray me, for letting me there.. alone.. with you.” More tears from my eyes.
„Acchan, please.. I..”
„Stay away from me.!! You just made everything more painful for me.”
„Acchan.. I still love you.” He still hold my hand more tighter. He try to kiss me again.
„Let me go!! You are hurting me.!”
„Acchan, please, let me prove it to you!” SLAP! When he raised his voice, at that moment I slap him very hard.
„DON’T DARE TO TOUCH ME AGAIN OR SPEAK WITH ME! I HATE YOU!” I run away from him and tried to look after Minami.
I run.. and run.. but there is no sign from her.
„Minami.. where are you? Please.. let me explain. Minami, I love you.” I talk with myself, while I was searching for her. I look all possible place, where I know. But no sign from her. I called to her phone too, but it was off.. When I think there is no tears what can come out from my eyes, then they start to fall again.
While searching for her, it’s start to getting dark and cold. I don’t know, where to look or who to ask help..
„Yuko..” This word came in my mind. „Maybe she will know something?” I search for my phone. I called her number.
„Moshi, moshi.”
„Yuko! It’s me, Acchan.”
„Oh! Hi Acchan.. Acchan, why you sound so strange, like were you crying?”
„Yuko, do you know where is Minami?”
„Minami? Hmm.. If she isn’t with you, then probably at her home. Why you ask? Did something happen between you two?’
„Yuko.. I.. I am sorry” I start to cry again.
„Acchan, what happened?”
„I am sorry, Yuko, but I hurt her. I am so sorry.” I start to cry more louder.
„Acchan.. You shouldn’t apologise to me, But to her. I don’t know what happen between you two, but you need to do something and fast!” She raised her voice to me.
„I know. But I don’t know where she is. I search every where I know. Yuko, please help me to find her.”
„I will try. I hope we will find her soon. I hope she won’t do something bad to herself.”
„Yuko, please don’t say like this. I am scare to losing her. I don’t want that.”
„I know. But.. do you really love her?”
„Yes, of course. More then everything in this world. I don’t need anything, only her, beside of me. Yuko, please, help me to find her.”
„I will call everyone, what I and her knows. But you should go home. It’s getting dark and cold. You don’t need to catch a cold right now. Go home. In the morning I will call you.”
„How I can go home, if I don’t know where is she.?”
„Acchan, listen to me. If you continue to searching for her in this kind of weather, you can wake up in hospital. You need to get back your strength. Go home! NOW!”
„Yuko.. I..”
„ACCHAN, NOW!!”
„O-Okay, but I don’t think I could sleep.”
„You have to try it. After while I will call you back. If you won’t be home, I will start to searching for you and then things will be more painful not only in your heart. You don’t want to know how angry and scary I can be.. especially, if someone hurt my good friend.”
„I.. I understand. I am going. Bye.” I put down my phone and start to go to my home. My footsteps was very heavy and slow. My look was at the ground. Something was dripping from the sky. It was rain. I look at the sky and let the rain to fall on my face.
„Minami, where are you. I need you.” I said in low voice. I hug myself. After some and long while, I was in my home.
I still can feel Minamis presence here. Like she would be here. But she is not. And that hurts even more. I fall on my knees in the middle of my living room and start to cry again. There was tears, but no sounds.. I open my mouth and wanted to scream, but still, there was no sounds..
„MINAMI!! Come back!! please..” I yell to no one, at least I try to do it. It hurt.. it hurt so much. Why? Why it’s happening again, like two years ago. Why? Why again its hurt so much.? But this time.. it’s my fault. I should tell her everything about those two years. Then maybe she would understand. Then maybe she would be here.. in my arms.
„Minami…” If I hadn’t run away before two years, then nothing like this never would happened. Why there is this mistake again and again? Does it mean, that my and Minamis happy ending its not possible.? I don’t understand…
<<°-° When you think, that no one can change your love towards person, who you love and ready to give your life, then remember, world isn’t easy. It will give you many hurtful and painful reasons to think again. Because it want to know, how much you are ready to sacrifice. °-°>>
..TBC? maybe I should just end here..
Topic: The secret of my heart [AtsuMina], Chapter 6 [12.12.15] (Read 54059 times)