Hey guys!
Yeah, I decided to write another fic, cause I got an idea + I wanted to write something for Christmas.
So here we go~
For a little while love is as white as snow is
The market was full of people, who were fussing around and doing their last Christmas shopping. It was December 23 so it was no wonder that everyone was in a hurry. There was one person though who wasn't in a rush. She was sitting in a little cafe, drinking something liquid and eating something sweet. There were some bags beside her which revealed, that she too, had done some shopping today.
Risa's gaze wandered around the cafe, which was quite quiet right now. People were too busy to stop for a break, so almost all the cafes in the market were quite empty. After she had scanned the place for at least ten times, Risa decided she would go now. She had been here at least for 20 minutes now, waiting for her girlfriend to come back from whatever business she had had a while ago.
'Damn that Ai.... She said this wouldn't take long. Where the hell is she?'
The brown haired female got up and took the cafe cup and now empty plate away. Just when she was about to leave the cafe, she bumped into something, or rather, someone.
"Going somewhere?"
A way too familiar voice asked her. Risa felt, how one arm wrapped around her waist and pulled her close.
"I told you to wait here, didn't I?"
The older female whispered in Risa's ear, which caused shivers run down her spine.
"Ai-chan! Damn that took long! You said you would need only like 5 minutes and it has already been more than 20! What on earth were you doing?"
Ai pulled a bit away from Risa and looked into her eyes, smiling sheepishly.
"Ano... There were more issues than I had thought..."
Ai said. She studied her girlfriends face for a while before she pulled away and spread her arms, smiling like a sun.
"But now I'm here! Are you happy?"
"Yes and no. Now, lets go..."
Risa grumbled, as she walked pass Ai. The older woman frowned and dropped her hands down. She waited for a hug or something like that and maybe some sweet words, but all she got was a cold response. After recovering from this "shock", Ai ran after Risa and when she got beside her, she entwined their hands together. Risa didn't look at Ai, neither did she resist holding hands whit her.
"Nee, Risa, don't be mad. I am sorry it took so long, but there really was something I was unprepared for..."
"mmm..."
Risa only mumbled as she kept her gaze straight ahead and kept walking on. Ai sighed and decided, that it would be easier to do the talking and apologizing later.
The couple kept on walking in silence, Ai watching all the things around, while Risa, was deep in thoughts.
'Where would she have gone? I know she has done all the Christmas shopping but this one was something uncalled for...'
The Bean did her best to wrack her brain, but nothing came out. She even tried to recall the situation, when Ai had left for this business of hers.
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FlashbackThe two of them were walking through market aisle, watching all the fuss around them. They both had finished their shopping for today and were now just hanging around together. They passed some souvenir shops when Risa noticed something. She was just going to inform Ai, when something else happened.
"Ai-Chan! Look at...."
Risa was cut off when she felt something under her feet. She moved her leg and saw a small stuffed animal, which looked like a bunny, under her shoe. She had luckily stamped on it's ear, so the whole toy wouldn't be covered under her shoe. Risa watched the toy for a while, before Ai got her attention.
"Ne, Risa, what is it?"
She asked, as she tucked her arm. When Risa didn't answer and just looked the ground, Ai followed her gaze and also noticed the toy.
"Eh, a bunny? Whose is it..."
"Ano...."
A small voice asked. Both females looked up to find a small girl in front of them. She was holding her hands in front of her and had her shoulders in her ears, which showed, she was A BIT nervous. Ai just looked at the girl and the bunny for a while, before she realized she should do something, but her lover was faster. Risa sat her shopping bags down and crouched down taking the stuffed animal in her hand. She stayed on the little girls level and smiled her warm smile, which Ai had seen only, when the two of them were alone.
"Is this yours?"
She asked gently and kept that dashing smile on her face. The little girl watched Risa for a while and she still looked like she had seen a ghost. Ai was sure the girl was going to run away or cry but then something happened: The little girl walked very slowly to Risa, who was still smiling that warm smile of hers, and took the bunny in her hands. After she had gotten the bunny, the little girl turned around and dashed away. However, she took only few steps, before she stopped and slowly turned around. She then walked back to Risa and looked shyly in her eyes. Risa tilted her head to side a little bit, as if waiting for, what the little girl was going to do next. Then the little girl did something surprising: She threw her hands around Risa's neck and hugged her tightly.
"Thank you for saving Felix."
She mumbled quietly. Both adults were taken by surprise, but soon, Risa just laughed and embraced the little girl gently.
"You are very welcome. But remember to take good care of your little friend, ne?"
Risa said, as she padded the little girls head gently. The girl, who was smiling like an angle now, nodded her head with "un" and clutched the bunny to her chest. Then someone, probably the girls mother, called for her. The little girl turned around, but as she ran away, she waved for Risa and Ai. Risa laughed a bit and got up, watching after the girl. Ai examined her girlfriends face: When Risa was with that little girl she looked so... happy. And that smile; never ever had Ai seen, that Risa would smile that dashing smile of hers to anyone else but to her. Also, right now, when the Bean was looking after the girl, that warm smile was still there...
"Ai?"
The monkey shook her head, when she heard Risa's voice. The younger girl was now standing in front of her and watched her curiously.
"You were spacing out, is everything ok?"
Ai watched Risa for a while and didn't say a word. Risa started to get worried, when suddenly, Ai grabbed her shoulders and gave her a quick kiss on her lips.
"Wait me in that cafe out there. I just remembered I forgot to do something. I'll be back in 5 minutes."
With that, the older girl left for her business, leaving the stunned Bean alone in the middle of the crowd.
"What the... Wait! Ai-Chan!!"
But Ai was too far away now and Risa couldn't even see her anymore. The bean sighed and looked down, only to sigh again.
"And you left all the bags for me to carry...."End of flashback~~~~~~~~~
"Risa, do you have the key?"
Risa snapped back from her thoughts as she heard Ai's voice. The couple was at their apartments door now. Since the mall wasn't so far away, they always went there by foot and now they had walked back home. Risa blinked for a while before she returned back on the land.
"Yes, I have them. Just a second."
With that she rummaged through her pockets and got the keys. She opened the door and went inside with Ai. Still, the business Ai had had didn't leave Risa's mind.
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In the eveningRisa was sitting on a couch in the living room, watching out, as the snow glistened outside. She had been there for a while, still thinking what happened earlier in the day. Suddenly she felt how two arms wrapped around her waist from behind and a kiss was planted on her cheek. She jumped a bit but relaxed soon, when she realized it was just Ai.
"Are you still mad at me?"
Ai asked quietly, as she held the Bean in her arms. Risa frowned a bit and looked the female behind her.
"Mad at you? Of what?"
She asked confused as she watched Ai in the eyes. Ai looked stunned for a while. Wasn't Risa mad at her?
"Umm.... I mean earlier today... You seemed a bit pissed of in the mall..."
Risa looked Ai for a while before she remembered that she indeed had been a bit cold towards Ai. But she wasn't mad; her mind had just been occupied with thoughts. Risa smiled a bit and gave Ai a peck on lips.
"No, I am not mad at you. I was just... in thoughts."
Ai, being relieved by the fact, that her lover wasn't mad at her (though she has a good reason for that) smiled too. She hugged Risa a bit tighter and snuggled her nose in the Beans neck.
"What were you thinking then?"
She asked. Risa laughed a bit, and embraced Ai as well.
"Just that, why you left so suddenly for this "secret business of yours."
Suddenly, Risa felt how Ai tensed. The Bean frowned and tried to pull away so she could look in her lovers face, but Ai wouldn't move. She more likely embraced Risa even tighter, like she didn't want to let go and face her.
"Ai, is everything ok? You feel a bit tens..."
"Risa, do you love me?"
"EH??"
That was all Risa could answer. This was very weird behavior from Ai; she had never acted so nervous like this so suddenly and now she was asking, if Risa loved her.
"Ai, is everything ok?"
Suddenly, Ai pulled back and stared deeply in Risa's eyes. She had quite a serious expression on her face.
"I asked you; do you love me?"
"Ai what is this..."
"Risa, answer me."
Ai's voice was firm and Risa saw something different in her eyes, but she couldn't put her finger on it.
"Ai, you know I love you."
"More than anything in this world?"
Risa frowned, but decided to go along with this.
"Yes."
"Do you want to be with me forever?"
Risa was quiet for a while. Then she raised her hands and put them on Ai's cheeks. The older girl seemed shocked but soon she had something else to think about: Risa had connected their lips together and was now kissing the monkey like there was no tomorrow. Soon, Ai gave in and just kissed back, with the same passion as Risa. The kiss ended soon and the couple stared each others for a while before they started again. Ai's arms sneaked around Risa's waist, while the younger one encircled hers around the monkey's neck. Eventually, Ai took charge and gently laid Risa on her back on the couch. She pinned Risa down and kept attacking her mouth, as the Bean moaned in their kiss and tried to keep up with Ai's pace.
After a while, Ai finally parted their lips and just snuggled close to Risa, who was also trying to catch her breath.
"Is.... Is that enough... for an answer to your... question?"
Risa huffed and tried to calm her breathing. Ai tensed again but relaxed almost immediately. She raised her head and looked lovingly in Risa's eyes. She stroked her hair, and kissed her, this time way more gentle than a while ago. When they parted again, Risa saw again something different in Ai's eyes but this time it wasn't anything weird; now, she could see love and determination in her lover's eyes.
"Yes, but...."
Ai kept a small break, inhaling deeply. Then, she sat up and reached her hand in the pocket of her jeans. Risa watched with a frown, what her lover was doing. She saw Ai take something out of the pocket, but couldn't say what it was.
"Risa."
The Bean turned her head towards Ai, who was now straddling her waist, holding something in her hands and looking... Nervous?
"Risa... Risa... Oh, God, not now...."
Ai mumbled, as she turned her face away, blushing heavily. After seeing this, Risa sat up and gently took a hold of Ai's face again, turning the older girl's head towards her.
"Ai, it's ok. You know you can tell me anything."
Slowly, Ai turned her gaze back to her lover. Then it happened: Risa started to smile that dashing smile of hers, which always turned Ai's knees into jello, whenever she saw that smile. The determination, that was in Ai's eyes a while ago, was back again. It was now or never and the monkey would not lose her courage now. Risa saw the change too and she waited patiently, what her lover wanted to tell her.
"Risa... When I saw you with that kid in the mall today... I.. I have never seen you smile like that to anyone else than me. And the I realized, you were happy when you were with that little girl...
Ai kept a small pause. Her face was as red as tomato and she was sure, that the temperature in the room had raised. Risa sat still, waiting, cause she knew, that Ai wasn't finished yet. After Ai had calmed down a little bit she continued:
"And... I realized too, that I want to see that warm and, the most beautiful smile on the world, of yours everyday. Risa, I want to make you happy. I want to give you all you desire in this life and I want to protect you. I want to built our future with you and someday... I... I want to have a family with you."
Again, the monkey kept a pause. She looked deeply in Risa's eyes, which were now filled with awe. The Bean was wordless but after a while she could utter few quiet words.
"Ai.... You...."
There was a small clank and Risa knew where it came from, but she could not look down now; she was too busy looking in Ai's eyes and right now, she didn't have the courage to look down in Ai's hands. Ai breathed again before she continued:
"R-Risa... I love you more than anything and I need you more than anyone in my life and I want to share my life with you forever. Risa.... Will you... Will you marry me?"
Ai lifted her hands a bit, so Risa could see the small, black velvet box which had something shiny inside it. But Risa could not look at it now. She could not take her eyes away from Ai's. She couldn't even move. The time froze as the two looked in each others eyes, the other one still holding the box, and waiting for an answer; answer for the most important question in her life.
Then the silent was broken by Risa, as she whispered quietly to her lover:
"Yes...."
The word "yes" had never sound so beautiful to Ai, as she heard her lovers answer. Ai's lips curved into a huge smile as she took the ring out of it's box and put it in Risa's hand. Her hands were trembling like she was freezing or something, but somehow, she managed to get the ring in it's right place. When Ai raised her head, she was immediately met with Risa's lips, as the younger one kissed her passionately. Ai didn't fall behind; she kissed Risa back, wrapping her arms again around the beans waist and pulling her as close as she could. They fell on the sofa again, but this time, Risa being on the top.
After a while, the couple parted again, but they stayed close to each others. Risa pressed her forehead against Ai's and smiled to her lovingly. Ai was the same, as she examined the chocolate eyes of her lover, never getting tired to see that smile, which was again on Risa's face.
"So... This was your business today?"
Ai could hear, how Risa's voice cracked a bit and soon she felt something wet on her cheek. She wasn't any better, because the tears were also rolling down from her own eyes.
"Yes, this was it...."
Ai whispered quietly as she gently stroked Risa's hair. The younger girl leaned in again and gave Ai a slow and loving kiss, which the monkey happily accepted.
"Baka...."
Risa whispered, as she pressed her head in Ai's neck. Ai just laughed a bit and hugged Risa even closer.
"But there's still one thing I want to know."
"What is it my love?"
"What the heck took you so long in the mall, if all you had to do was buy the ring?"
Risa asked as she raised her head so she could see Ai's face. The monkey blushed and looked a bit away.
"Anoo.... I.... I didn't have the courage to go in the shop at first.... So, I just walked in front of the shop for something like 15 minutes, before I got myself in...."
Ai said sheepishly. Risa watched Ai for a while, before she started laugh. That monkey really was an aho. Maybe even worse than their friend Eri.
"Hey don't laugh... It was very difficult to gain the courage to do that!"
Ai whined, and poked Risa a bit in her side. The bean controlled her laughter, so she wouldn't hurt her lovers feelings.
"Gomen, gomen, but that just.... I can so imagine how you would just lurk around the shop and be all nervous..."
"There's nothing funny in that..."
Ai grumbled, and nuzzled her head in Risa's neck. Risa just chuckled and decided to leave the subject there. She had something better to do now, and it was to snuggle with her fiancée.
They stayed on the couch, close to each others, in a comfortable silence. But then, Ai broke that silence.
"Risa, would you lie down beside me?"
Risa frowned a bit, cause she was very comfortable right here where she was now. But she obeyed Ai's will and did as she was asked to. Immediately, when she was in her new position, two arms were around her again and she felt, how Ai pressed her face next to hers.
"Look."
Ai pointed up and Risa followed. The bean gasped: Outside, snow was slowly falling down and the light that came from inside, made it glisten beautifully, like the flakes where diamonds. Risa watched the scene in front of her in awe. For some reason, the slowly falling snow was something so beautiful, she had never seen before. Next, Risa's gaze moved to the female beside her, who was also watching the falling snow. When she noticed, that other one was staring at her, she moved her head so she could see her lover better. Risa smiled and gave Ai a gentle kiss on the lips. The older responded to the kiss, which grew deeper and deeper. Soon, Ai rolled so that she was on top of Risa and started to unbutton her blouse. Risa moaned and her hands also started undress her lover.
As the two lovers expressed their love to each others through the night, the snow kept slowly falling down outside. Love, that was as pure as the falling, glistening white snow. But their love was even more pure than the snow outside; when the snow would fade away someday, the couples love would stay. It would last forever and it would never fade away.
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For some reason, I'm in a very very very emotionally mood... I intended that this story would be a lot shorter but I have typed this now for.... almost 2 and half hours. I got carried away a bit...
Anyway, I got this idea when I was walking in a snowy forest. It was snowing and it was very beautiful out there. Then, one song came to my mind and I got an idea for a story.
I tried to write the refrain of the song in English in here, but it's very hard to translate it from word to word, so I changed the lyrics a bit, so they would make some sense. This song is one of my favorites and it's very very beautiful, at least in my opinion.
There's an English version of this song, but I think the lyrics doesn't have the same meaning as in the original version. Also, the headline of this chapter is a rough translation of the name of the song.
Here are the lyrics for the refrain in English:
For so little while love is as white as snow
It's as pure as the snowdrift of February mornings.
Oh, I wish it's shine would last longer,
but when the night comes it darkens and fades away.Hehe... I have never ever done something like this before....
Well anyways:
Merry Christmas to everyone and happy new year! I hope, everyone has a great year ahead.
(I wanted to say this now, cause there's a possibility that I might have to work at Christmas or new year. Or both. Yeah, it's kinda early, but I like it better early than late...)