Since it's Risa's birthday, how could I not have a fic ready just to celebrate this occassion? I had hoped to finish the whole fic and post it today but time constraints made it impossible. Still, this is rather long so hopefully it would be enough to satisfy you readers till the next part is completed.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU Gaki-SAN!
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99) I Have to Love You ~ Part 1"Gaki-san! Hurry up!"
"Coming! I'm coming. Just give me one second."
A young lady dressed in a camisole, skirt and boots with a jacket draped over her arm was pacing about in the living room. She didn't have the habit of wearing a watch so she just kept raising her head to glance at the clock hanging on the wall. If they wanted to make it to the office on time, they would have to head out now to avoid the daily morning jam.
Inside the room, the hurried individual was seated on a chair in front of her desk as she waited impatiently for her PC to start up. She was all dressed and ready to leave for work. Except that there was one last thing she needed to do.
"I definitely need a new one. This piece of junk is too freaking slow!"
The desktop finally appeared and she clicked expectantly on the icon that would bring up her MSN program.
AHHH I woke up late today. Got to rush now. Be careful on your way to work. Text you later -----
"Where were you? Trapped in the bathroom? Or stuck on the toilet bowl?"
Shrugging off the sarcasm with a wide grin, the shorter of the two slung her bag over her left shoulder before looping an arm into her flat mate's.
"Didn't you say we were running late? So what are you waiting for?"
"Don't think that that you are getting off the hook this easily. I still want to know what you have been up to recently."
Noticing their bus approaching in the near distance, Niigaki Risa slipped her fingers into her friends and tugged her in the direction of the bus stop.
"I'll tell you when the time is right. For now, we have a bus to catch!"
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“It’s finally lunch time! I’m famished!”
Plopping down on the chair opposite the one that Risa was sitting in, Kamei Eri exclaimed, digging into her food immediately.
“Ah huh..”
Replying the statement in a distracted manner, the one with the shorter hairstyle murmured.
As she chewed on her food comprising of a hamburger steak topped with an egg, Eri probed.
“Did you get yourself a boyfriend without telling me?”
“HAR?? Boyfriend? Whatever made you think that?”
She answered with an amused look, all the while careful to hide the grin that was threatening to burst out onto her face.
“Well for one, you have been keeping late nights when you used to go to bed at 11 pm sharp. And now you’ve been incessantly texting someone with a silly smile on you face.”
“I have?”
Reluctantly putting down her cell phone on the table next to her plate, Risa picked up the cutlery and started eating to demonstrate that she could live without her phone. It was the person whom she was exchanging messages with that she couldn’t spend a day without.
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Konbawa Saru-chan! Eaten your dinner?Yes. You?I’ve eaten too.Minutes ticked passed as Risa kept her eyes on the monitor. Staring at the blinking screen, she soon realized that the person she was chatting with was not going to give her a reply anytime soon.
Is Saru-chan feeling okay? Something wrong?Just tired.Ahhh I see. Do you want to go to bed early? You should rest.It’s okay. I don’t want to go to bed yet.Do you have a dream?I had one just last night. I dreamt that I needed to use the washroom I’m being serious Gaki-san, haven’t you thought of what you want to do in the future?Nope. Saru-chan has? What do you want to do in the future?I want to be a singer.EHHH??! Saru-chan can sing? Are you sure?Once again, the lights on the monitor flickered to a duller shade as no response appeared on the screen.
Are you mad? I was joking. Don’t be angry. Let’s talk about something else. What did you have for dinner? Saru-chan?I think I’ll go to bed. I’m really tired. Nite.And with that, the online conversation ended.
“Saru-chan..”
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“Gaki-san, are you alright? You’ve been awfully quiet today.”
Sensing that something was off about her friend, Eri inquired, her large eyes filled with concern for the weary looking girl.
“What’s your dream Kame?”
Resting a finger on her chin, the usually slow turtle considered.
“I rarely remember my dreams. But the last one I did remember was about…”
“I don’t mean the dreams you have when asleep. I mean in life, what is your dream in life? The one thing that you want to achieve?”
Taking a sip of water from her bottle of kiwi strawberry flavored Snapple, Eri tilted her head whilst a pondering expression appeared on her face.
“I have not really thought about that. It’s still a little too early?”
“I know.”
Heaving a sigh, Risa slumped further down in her seat. It’s not as if she was the only person who didn’t think about her future. Eri was the same. Most young people these days didn’t know what they want to do until much later. So why did her online friend get so worked up over it? Could it be that she was offended by the joke she made?
Stupid, stupid stupid! Why did you have to go and say that?Mentally scolding herself, Risa deeply regretted her rashness. She didn’t mean to make such a bad joke nor did she intend for Saru-chan to get upset with her. Somehow knowing that Saru-chan wasn’t happy, made her feel sad too.
Picking up her cell phone that had been silent for the whole morning, she paused her thumb in midair. Should she or shouldn’t she send Saru-chan a message?
Is Saru-chan feeling better today? Take care okay?Not expecting a reply, the bean set her phone aside and got back to work. Though she didn’t know what her passion in life was, she was still at work and needed to fulfill her duties.
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That evening, after taking her dinner and bath, Risa laid down sideways on her bed and gazed unblinkingly at the MSN program currently running on her monitor. She didn’t feel like joining Eri for a girl’s night out with their other friends. All she wanted to do was get online and chat with Saru-chan. Unfortunately, she had not replied to her messages nor did she appear online in her list of contacts.
“Where are you Saru-chan…I’m worried.”
*Beep*The sudden alert from her cellphone made Risa jump and she clamored to retrieve the gadget left charging on the dresser. Frantically accessing the message section, the excited girl held her breath in anticipation.
Are you home? Eaten?SARU-CHAN!!! Have you eaten? Have you been well? Don’t make me worried!As soon as she sent the message out, Risa wondered if she should have replied with what she did. Would Saru-chan find her too abrupt and prying? However, the next message she received put her mind at ease.
Will you be going online?Practically running over to her desk, Risa clicked on her name to start a new conversation.
I’m online!-----
That night, the two online friends chatted happily for several hours until Risa decided to broach a topic that she had been dwelling on for some weeks.
Let’s go to the KTV. Saturday… okay?Why?So Saru-chan can practice singing? Otherwise glass might shatter if you start singing You are bad..lol So you will come?Maybe another time.Sigh, ok. I won’t force you. But can I see a picture. You’ve seen mine. Be fair Saru-chan.Lol, okok. Just one. When the file was completely downloaded, Risa clicked open the photo and gasped aloud. The girl in the middle of the picture had long straight hair. Her eyes were enormous and sparkled in the most mesmerizing way. But the feature that entranced Risa the most was her smile. It was the most beautiful smile that she had ever seen. And she was certain that she wouldn’t see another that could match up to it. There was one other detail in the photo that attracted her attention. The glowing numbers of 14092009 at the border edge.
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*Ringing tone*“Hello, did you go for lunch?””
Pressing her phone against her ear, Risa asked chirpily.
“Why did you hang up when I answered the call earlier? Baka.”
Breaking into a wide beam, Risa bit on her lip to prevent herself from laughing out loud. She was after all walking in public and chuckling to herself on the phone would seem strange to passersbys. She didn't know why she could still smile after being scolded.
“It rang a number of times but you didn’t pick up. I wasn’t sure if you were busy.”
“Baka.”
“EHHH?!?! Why scold me all the time?”
“It’s fun.”
“What about Saru-chan huh? It’s not the first time you didn’t pick up the phone when I called. Are you busy with your boyfriend?”
“Baka shut up!”
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The days turned into weeks and months. Finally September arrived and Risa and Saru-chan have been chatting over the phone and through text messages for a lengthy duration. Checking off the days in her calendar, Risa decided that perhaps she should try asking Saru-chan to meet up again.
Is Saru-chan free on the 14th? Can she leave the day free for a ‘date’ Hmmm…why?SARU-CHAN! Don’t be so secretive. It’s a Sunday. No work for you right? Just a short meet up? For a meal? I won’t take up too much of your time.Crossing her fingers as she waited for the reply, Risa hoped and prayed that she would agree. She really wanted to see her at least once. To speak face to face with the person whose messages she looked forward to daily.
Saturday 1 pm.Okie. Just let me know the place and I’ll be there.That night, Risa went to bed with a huge grin plastered on her face. She couldn’t wait for the 13th to arrive. Because on that day, she would be able to meet the person she longed to see for so long.
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1.15pm.
“Maybe she woke up late.”
1.35pm.
“Is there a traffic jam someplace?”
2.35pm.
4.18pm.
6.05pm.
7.58pm.
Seven hours past their scheduled meeting time but she never came. Dejected and utterly disappointed, Risa felt tears welling up in her eyes. None of the messages she sent to Saru-chan received a reply. At first she was terrified that something bad had happened to her online friend. But slowly, she was beginning to think that she didn’t turn up on purpose. Perhaps she had been playing with her all along and never intended to meet up. Feeling like the biggest fool in the world, Risa slammed her fist on a nearby wall.
“I was stupid to think that you were sincere.”
Walking towards the nearest trash bin, she took one last look at the box in her hands before placing it on top of the plastic container. Proceeding to turn away, she realized that she couldn't bear to leave the tastefully decorated box behind. She had spent days picking out the perfect present for her birthday. Standing by the bright green bin, Risa dialed Saru-chan’s number.
“Please pick up. Please tell me you were held up and couldn’t make it. Please tell me you didn’t take me as a fool.”
One, two, three…
The call rang numerous times but the line was never connected. Giving up completely, Risa began to walk away from the gift she had prepared especially for today. When she was about three meters away from the item she left behind, the phone in her hands sounded. Twisting the device skywards in an instant, Risa’s heart leap with joy when she saw the name of the caller.
“Saru-chan! Where are you?! Did something happen?”
Despite her questions, the caller never spoke a single word. Straining her ears to listen vigilantly, Risa held her breath, afraid that she might miss something if she didn’t pay careful attention.
“…”
“Saru-chan, aren’t you going to talk? Speak to me!”
Still, there was no reply.
Getting increasingly frustrated with her nonchalance, Risa finally lost her temper.
“What do you take me for?! Is it fun to you to make fun of me? To treat me like a fool? Do you know how long I have been waiting here for you?”
Nearing the end of her outburst, the tears finally fell from the ends of her eyes.
"I wish I never met you."
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That evening, Risa didn't switch on her computer. Instead, she did everything which she had stopped doing ever since she started chatting with Saru-chan. She flipped through months of backdated magazines, played with the Wii connected to the television in the living room, made some popcorn, watched DVDs and more. Throughout the time she was pottering around their shared apartment, a certain turtle kept her line on sight on her flatmate.
"Aren't you going online?"
"No? Why should I?"
Raising a cocked brow, Eri's expression mirrored her friend's whenever she did something foolish. Risa's behavior was definitely weird and the slightly younger individual couldn't help but feel worried.
"Gakihan..."
"You know what, I think I'm sleeping early. Good night Kamehan."
Escaping into the safety of her bedroom before Eri probed further, Risa fell backwards onto the solid wooden surface when the door swung shut behind her. Feeling her legs go weak, she let herself slide slowly onto the carpet floor. Bringing her knees up to her chest, she hugged them tight and sobbed softly into them.
"Why does my chest hurt so much?"
Pounding a clenched fist against her upper torso, the nineteen year old assumed that her asthma was acting up again. Ever since she was a child, she had been afflicted with the disease. Thankfully it hadn't reached a life threatening level up till now. Nevertheless, Risa didn't realize that the pain she was feeling stemmed from much deeper.
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The next few days saw Risa in a zombie-like state. Unable to stand seeing her act this way any longer, Eri dragged her long time friend into her room and pushed her onto the roller chair. Flicking on the switch to start up the PC, she stood her ground and waited until the MSN program started running.
"Talk to her you idiot. Just admit you can't pass a day without chatting with her."
After Eri left the room, Risa remained in a trance like state, staring at the nickname Saru-chan decorated with many tiny hearts. Resting her hand over the mouse, she debated over whether she should initiate a conversation. Would it be too sudden especially after yelling at her through the phone just a few days ago? Although she felt that she should apologize, Risa couldn't really bring herself to do so. The one in the wrong wasn't her. It was the person who stood her up. Despite her grievances, the young woman missed Saru-chan's company. Deciding that she would apologize after all, she scrolled the cursor over her name. Just as she was about to click down on it, a chat window popped up.
Sorry."Ehh?"
Surprised that she would apologize, Risa sucked in a breath unwittingly. They might not know each other in real life but Risa understood her online confidante well enough to know that she could be extremely stubborn at times. And admitting she was at fault wasn't something that the older girl did readily.
Although she thought it was strange for Saru-chan to do something out of her usual, Risa didn't ask her for the reason. She figured it would be better to forget about their quarrel, if it can be considered one, for now. No point risking her wrath all over again. Risa didn't think she could survive another few days without speaking with her.
As the night went on, the Risa began to notice a trend. Saru-chan was never someone who wrote a lot. But this time it was significantly less and the time between each reply grew longer with each response.It reached a point where the only word that she replied was hmmmmmm.
Is Saru-chan sick of talking to me? You can just tell me.Like the first time she made her angry, Risa regretted her rash actions again. Before she could write that she didn't mean it in a harsh way, Saru-chan replied.
I'm tired. Going to bed. Good night.She logged out immediately and the bean didn't have any chance to stop her from leaving.
"Why are you treating me like this? Why are you so cold?"
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20 October 2010.
"Happy birthday to you, happy birthday to you, happy birthday dear Gakihan! Happy birthday to you~~!"
Wild applause erupted and shrieks of joyous laughter echoed in the KTV room. The atmosphere was joyful and Risa could see how much effort her friends were putting to make her happy. Yet something was missing. A part of her couldn't be happy no matter how hard she tried. And somehow she knew the reason for it. Someone important to her has not wished her happy birthday yet. Ever since Saru-chan logged out abruptly, she hadn't appeared online again.
"Does she even remember?"
Despite the many text messages that Risa sent her at various times of the day, none received a reply. The usually bright and talkative girl was beginning to think that the online friend who had become someone she held close to her heart had grown tired of entertaining a kid. After all, they didn't really see things on the same level. A prime example would be how Risa drifted on through life while Saru-chan knew what she wanted and seemed like the type to work hard towards her goal. It would not be heartless for Risa to forget about a person who seemed so cold and callous in her behaviour. Yet no matter how she tried, she could not get her out of her mind.
What are you doing now Saru-chan? Are you eating and sleeping well?"Gakihan! We have to leave. Apparently the place is closing!"
Eri's high pitched voice reverberated against her eardrum and brought the dreamer back to earth. Following her friends outside the compound sluggishly, Risa tried hard to not let her depressed mood show through. At the door, a stranger came up to her and handed her a box wrapped in pretty scented paper. Taken aback by the strange gesture, Risa stood frozen in her spot until Eri who was standing beside her nudged her in the rib.
Opening the box hastily, Risa found a green scarf with the word 'Risa' embroidered in a corner. Flipping open the small card sitting atop the garment, the birthday girl saw six words written in a neat handwriting.
Thanks. Sorry. Happy Birthday! From: Saru-chan Buried beneath the two items was a bracelet with two charms dangling from it, a monkey and a bean.
Recognizing it as the gift she had prepared for the friend who never appeared for their appointment, Risa felt a tidal wave of emotions assault her simultaneously. Confusion, happiness, anticipation and more choked her up with so much that she couldn't speak. Lifting her head with the intention to question the person to delivered the present, she was met by an empty street void of pedestrians except for herself and Eri.
Frantically fishing out her phone from her purse, Risa dialed the number which she had memorized by heart. The monotonous tone on the other end clawed at her insides, making it excruciatingly painful.
"It's no longer in use..."