Hi everyone! It has been a while. Hope you are all doing well. Just posting something quick for you, I don’t have much time to write right now but this is for you guys. Thank you so much for reading, I hope that you guys are all having a good summer
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FallI love her smiles,
They brighten my day.
Her laugh,
Oh her laugh,
So beautiful and honest.
Falling for her is the easiest thing.
It is scary sure,
But I can’t help it.
I like the way she is.
All these beautiful emotions for her rule out all the scary ones.
When I am away from her,
I miss her hand in mine.
I miss her presence next to me.
I miss so much about her when we aren’t close together.
So much beautiful happy emotions for her.
Yet…..
…..Yet….
I can’t help but feel the clenching feeling of my heart.
She says she is falling for me too.
She does so many sweet things for me too.
Cute letters.
Cute texts.
Cute surprise packages.
Yet…..I………
I …..I just can’t help but feel sad.
She is so scared of this,
This…. this absolutely beautiful relationship.
We don’t really ever fight.
We get along so well.
When people see us together they can’t help but smile and squeal about how cute our couple antics are.
We just have so much chemistry together.
I understand how she feels,
But it hurts.
It hurts so much that she is scared of having a serious relationship with me.
I want to have a cute count of the months we have been together.
I want to give her cute notes on our anniversaries.
I just want to cerebrate how long we have been together.
Yet when I try to celebrate how long we have been together,
Instead of being happy she gets so utterly scared.
It tears into my heart.
It feels almost as if she doesn’t want to seriously be with me in a way.
Hopefully she doesn’t sense how much it hurts me.
Cause I know she will run away.
I have fallen so much in love for her.
I told myself that I wouldn’t let it affect me.
How sorely I underestimated the strength of these emotions.
Someone should have warned me that when you fall for someone you can hurt so much at the same time.
Yet it is alright.
….Yes it is alright.
A little bit of pain for large amounts of happiness.
That is alright, I can do this.
I will be alright.
She makes my heart pound.
She makes me smile in a special way.
She gives makes my world so much more beautiful.
Her touch calms me and makes me feel so happy.
Her voice makes my spirit soar.
Seeing her happy makes me the happiest even if it hurts me so much sometimes.
So I am going to just keep falling further and further in love with her.
Falling
And
Falling
For her.
Until it is the end of it all.
The end of this “relationship”.
I don’t even want to really think about it.
I am going to enjoy every moment that I have with her.
No matter how much some things tear into my heart.
Loving her like each day is my last.
My last……… my last day with her.
So here I go,
I am going to continue beyond all reason
to,
Fall.