I am seriously nervous about posting this part. I'm all "omg, they'll hate it. after all that build up, they'll be all '...ah.' "
Anyway, I *am* working on the sequel. The Prologue and Part 1 are done. The Prologue is actually a scene from later in the storyline and then Part 1 picks up where memoir leaves off.
Anyway, without further ado - the end of "memoir"
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18
"What are you doing here?" Yossi demanded, striding over to Miki.
"I know I'm a late, but I messaged you about that last night," the confused girl replied.
"My phone died."
"What!?" Miki paled. "When?"
"Right after your charming little 'Trust me' message a few days ago," Yossi spat out. "One more mindfuck for the road, huh?"
"Wait, so you haven't gotten any..." Miki's eyes widened and she covered her open mouth with a shaking hand. "Yocchan, I - "
"Don't 'Yocchan' me. Get the hell out of my apartment."
"No, no, it's not what you think!"
"Oh! So you weren't exposed in a national magazine for sleeping with a two-bit comedian?"
"Yo-"
"So you didn't admit to it on that radio show? How stupid do you think I am, Fujimoto?" Miki buried her head in her hands. "I think you should leave," Yossi said coldly, pointing towards the door. Miki shook her head.
"No, you need to listen to me," Miki asserted calmly.
"Why? So you can lie to me some more? 'Trust me' my ass." Yossi shook her head. "I can't believe I had actually fallen in love with you," she muttered. Miki's eyes widened.
"What did you just say?" she whispered.
"I freaking love you, ok?" Yossi yelled. "Does that make this more fun for you or do you actually feel bad now?" she demanded angrily. Miki was elated and horrified and didn't know what to do anymore.
"Yoss - "
"I wanted to believe you! God, I wanted to believe you..." Yossi trailed off, her lips trembling slightly. She walked forward so she was only inches from Miki's face and looked straight into her eyes. "Do you have any idea what you've done to me? Do you?! I tried to trust you! I tried to say 'No, not Miki. She wouldn't do that to me. It's a mistake. The article lied!'" Yossi shook her head in disgust. "And then you admitted it! You ADMITTED it, Miki! How stupid are you?! You were free and clear and you admitted it! Did you feel guilty? Do you really think so much of yourself that you thought that no one would care?! What were you THINKING!? How could you DO THIS TO ME!?!" The blatant pain and anger etched across Yossi's normally calm features cut through Miki like a knife.
"It wasn't supposed to be like this," Miki said to herself as she tore her eyes away from Yossi's and turned away. Oh, God, what have I done, she thought.
"I can't hear anymore of this. I don't want to hear your excuses. I don't want to see you ever again. I can't - I just want to be alone so I can crawl into a hole and die, okay?"
"You need to listen to me!" Miki protested.
"I think I've listened to your crap enough for one lifetime, Fujimoto!" Yossi raged, stalking over to her front door. "I want you to get the hell out of my apartment, do you understand!? Do not ever come back here again! Don't call me, don't mail me. don't-"
"I Friday'd myself, Yossi!" Miki screamed over the angry woman. Yossi dropped her grip on the doorknob and stared at Miki in disbelief.
"You WHAT?!" Yossi bellowed, her face turning red. "Have you lost your everloving mind!?"
"I couldn't let them get away with it!" Miki yelled back, her angry eyes dancing wildly. "They think they own us! They think they can tell me who to see and how to feel! They think they can keep me from the woman I love! But they're wrong!" Yossi stared at Miki in confusion.
"What the hell are you talking about!?" Yossi demanded.
"Can we please stop screaming at each other?" Miki asked quietly.
"Sorry, I just - wait, are..." Yossi sighed and glanced over at a small notebook lying on her desk. "What are you talking about?" The small brunette sighed.
"Well, I - "
"No, wait." Yossi walked over to Miki and took hold of her hands. She looked straight into the smaller girl's eyes, searching them for answers. "I want to believe you, Miki. I really do. So, I need you to be honest with me. Either way, just... just tell me, ok?" Miki nodded. "Did... did you..." Yoshizawa struggled to get the offensive words out. "Did you have sex with Tomoharu Shouji?"
"I've never been with anyone but you," Miki said quietly, staring deep into Yossi's eyes.
"...Wait, really? I thought you were joking this whole time," Yossi looked completely shocked. Miki laughed and shook her head. "So... so, you really and truly didn't... I mean, it was all fake?"
"The entire article was a steaming pile of crap," Miki replied matter-of-factly. Yossi started laughing, nearly beside herself with relief. She cupped Miki's face in her hands and stared into her beloved's face.
"I've never been so ridiculously happy in my entire life," she grinned, leaning in for a kiss. "...wait," she said suddenly, stopping just short of poor Miki's waiting lips. Yossi pulled back and looked thoughtful. "What did you say?"
"Uh, 'steaming pile of -'"
"No, before that. When you were yelling." A small smile started to spread across Yossi's face. Miki looked confused.
"Uh... I couldn't let them get away with it?"
"After that."
"Uh... uh... They think they own us... can tell me how to feel... keep me from the woman I... oh shit." Miki stared up at Yossi in alarm. The small smile was now a full-blown Pimp Yossi smirk.
"Is, uh, there something you'd like to confess?" Yossi asked innocently. Miki smacked her on the arm and plopped down on the younger girl's couch.
"Yes. You suck."
"I know, but you like that," Yossi said with a grin as she sat next to Miki. "So, do I need to go beat someone up or is there something you'd like to share with the rest of us?"
"Rest of us my ass. Half the damn world knows already," Miki muttered.
"Excuse me?"
Miki sighed heavily. "Aya, Makoto, Eri, Ai, Gaki... I think I accidentally confessed to everyone who happened to be in the UFA cafeteria the yesterday."
"Wait, you told the turtle before me!?" Yossi looked offended.
"I didn't tell her anything," Miki retorted. "She guessed."
"Well, I'm not much for guessing, so..." she looked at Miki expectantly.
"I can't do it now!" Miki exclaimed, turning pink. "You're staring at me and it's embarrassing!" She playfully shoved Yossi away from her. "How the hell do you make me act like this? Damn!"
"Hey! You owe me one now!"
"Like hell I do! What was yours supposed to be? You angrily screamed it at me. It doesn't count." Miki crossed her arms over her chest.
"Oh, that's not fair!" Yossi met Miki's eye and they both started cracking up.
"What is wrong with us!?" Miki exclaimed. "We're 22 years old. We should be able to handle a stupid love confession. For crying out loud, we've been sleeping together for how long now?"
"Two years, one month, two weeks," Yossi replied without thinking. She started. "Uh... I think," she tacked on lamely. Miki raised an eyebrow and the two fell into silence.
"Are you mad? About the whole scandal, I mean," Miki asked at last.
"Yes."
"Did you know that our schedules were being planned to break us up? That they decided to graduate you because it worked on breaking you and Maki up?"
"I kind of suspected. Especially after they picked me of all people to fill in for Tsuji in that play. But... Miki, you've basically committed career suicide." The girl in question shrugged.
"I'm just getting kicked out of the group. I'll probably get put in time out for a few months or something, but other than that, I mean, the GAM concert's continuing as scheduled."
"But, how could you be so irresponsible? What about the other members?"
"I talked it over with Ai and Gaki before I did it. Makoto knew too."
"Of course she did," Yossi sighed. "Who else knows half of the comedians in Tokyo." She shook her head. "I just... I guess I just can't fathom doing something like this." Miki gently caressed Yossi's face, her eyes studying the familiar features before her.
"I'm just way more selfish than you are," she replied softly before leaning in and gently kissing those tempting lips.
"Miki," Yossi murmured, pulling back after a moment. Their eyes met. "I love you." Miki's heart pounded loudly in her ears.
"I've been in love with you for so long, I don't even remember what it's like not to be," the smaller girl replied.
"Are you trying to one-up me?" Yossi asked with a smile.
"Always."
Yoshizawa Hitomi slowly opened her eyes. The smaller woman in her arms stirred and rolled over to face her.
"I love you, Yocchan," Miki said sleepily.
"Good morning to you, too," Yossi replied with a smile.
"It's not my fault," Miki replied with a yawn. "I kept it in so long, the words just pop out of their own free will now."
"Miki, how did we end up like this?" Yossi asked with a far off look in her eyes.
"Well, first you threw me over your shoulder and marched us in here, and then you - "
"No, I mean in general. How the hell did I get so lucky?"
"It involved a lot of closets," Miki deadpanned, making Yossi laugh. "I dunno. I have trouble keeping my thoughts straight most of the time. Oh, by the way, I love you."
"I love you, too. You should try writing it all down. Maki told me that once and it really does help sort things out."
"Who in their right mind would want to read that?" Miki scoffed to Yossi's amusement.
"No one's supposed to read it, my darling dumbass."
"I love you. too," Miki replied with a lazy grin. She pressed her tiny frame against Yossi's body. "Now... what closet do I have to lock us into to get some action around here?"
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